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Another update for you all. Not much has changed but I exist on this corporeal plane still, somehow.

about me MASTERPOST (08/15/2024)

Name: Zev Nicknames: Please do not refer to me as any other name besides Zev unless you know me outside of Tumblr (IRL) or I’ve given you special permission to call me otherwise.

Age: Thirty-one Birthday: September 26th Astrology Sign: Libra Chinese Zodiac: Monkey Power Animals: Wolves, coyotes, crows, ravens, owls, bears, spiders, and hawks. Gender: Agenderfluid - any pronoun is fine. Sexuality: Bi/Pansexual.

Disabilities: Are many and varied. Please be conscientious that I have severe mental illness as a result of trauma. If any behavior of mine bothers you, it may very well be related to a trigger or because of emotional dysregulation. That all said this is not an excuse for anything done wrong, so if I ever upset you, even if it seems small in hindsight, please DM me so we can have a dialogue. I view myself as a work in progress and feedback is necessary for my personal growth.

Pets: Currently, I have a wonderful dog named Ravioli. She is an Airedale Terrier/Poodle/Sheepdog mix and my best friend in the whole entire world (pics to come soon). Art Tags: Visual Art, and Writing! (Please be aware everything in these tags is old as of this current update. I am hoping to publish more things here moving forward).

Nationality: American Ethnicity: Persian-Jewish Race: Mizrachi Jewish/Middle Eastern- Not White. Please do not ever EVER refer to me as white. Religion: Agnostic/Jewish/Pagan Languages: Mainly English, some Hebrew, some Farsi.

Triggers/obvious things to tag: NSFW, suicide, suicidal ideation, self harm, heights, gore in general, animal abuse, Israel, antisemitism, bestiality, zoophilia, CSA, incest.

Fandoms: Fire Force, Persona, Avatar/Korra, Ginga, Warrior Cats, Pokemon, Digimon, Marvel, RWBY, Magic the Gathering, and lots of other nerdy things.

Music: A bit of everything, really! I have a strong lean towards the ‘rock’ umbrella, but since we’re in the year 2024 and genre is now dead, my tastes are diverse. If I had to pick one genre, however, I’m going all in on post-hardcore. Tag me with ALL your music recs!

Other Interests: Animal welfare (former veterinary technician), space, aquariums, the environment, animation of all kinds, DND/Roleplay, fantasy and sci-fi worldbuilding, video games, karaoke/live music, and writing.

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If you want to know anything else about me, just ask! :)

If you need me to tag things and I haven’t for some reason, let me know, I will amend this!

My personal rants/stories are filed under the tag “Zev Vomits Words,” which can sometimes contain triggering subjects. Please read those at your own discretion.

If I ever overstep my boundaries with anything, message me. I would love to talk about it and be accountable for my actions.

DO NOT FOLLOW ME IF YOU’RE UNDER 18 and for the love of all that is good on this planet, CATER YOUR ONLINE EXPERIENCE.

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Older stuff from last year.

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For those curious about my “Swifthawk’s Chance: Blood and Bone” aka SC2 rewrite. Here’s some concept art. I don’t want to spoil too much since the rewrite has a completely different take on the plot and stakes in ways I personally feel don’t make the cast extremely OOC. I am open to asks etc about the rewrite, and even encourage them, because I’m sure I’m not the only one who was disappointed and frustrated about where the story went.

But one change is Tigerstar takes Swifthawk as prisoner after he had snuck away from ThunderClan to look for Tawnypaw, rather than welcoming him with open arms. Swifthawk is also a prisoner along with Featherpaw and Mistyfoot, who weren’t able to escape with Stormpaw when Fire and Co rescued them like in canon and Tigerstar causes a strain between Swift and Tawny due to pitting them against each other.

Explaining this change under the cut - I advise you do read:

SC2 has A LOT of narrative issues due to things like sanitizing and appeasing related to real life issues (read pinned post for context).

I’ve reread SC1 and RC many times, including having only just properly read SC2 this year, coming to grow as an author I recognised how OOC Swifthawk was written and that the beginning chapters of him being extremely aggressive and mean to his family due to his adamancy to do something about TigerClan felt off. So, when he impulsively leaves to join TigerClan, the aggression and frustrating tone from beforehand doesn’t really convey what Swifthawk is losing when he decides to go join his father. Him being this bitter also in my opinion what set up justifications for the constant bashing Swifthawk as a protagonist goes through. (Which. Swifthawk being one of the most disabled characters in the story? And most of the attempts at humour being at his expense? The emotional torture porn? Rubbed me the wrong way, like, if that is actually was its genre, who cares. But it wasn’t.)

And to be honest, the whole, mole plan, Swifthawk was supposedly meant to have, and being let into TigerClan just doesn’t make sense. This is intertwined with another big key issue in SC2 is that Tigerstar and his abusive and overall malicious nature was toned down to the point he felt like a completely different character.

In SC1, Tigerstar only showed up for two scenes; which both conveyed enough that he was willing to cause Swifthawk deliberate distress and not change his mind about hurting cats Swifthawk cares about; Tigerstar also gaslights and beats up Swift and leaves him to die in SC1, making it clear he is not going to compromise, and that his care for Swift is conditional, regardless if they’re family or not. Tigerstar is also very much aware how much Swift values his ThunderClan family.

Him suddenly making Swift an exception in SC2, being nice to him sometimes, and overall, being written more as a jerk rather than an abusive extremist is one of the many aspects that hurt the story. (And honestly, gave uncomfortable implications due to Bird’s need to be flippant on portraying things “right”.)

I plan to go more into depth about the issues SC2 had in some form of critique post(s) to also explain changes in the rewrite I’ve made and why if people are interested or even felt similar frustrations with what has happened to the story themselves. SC1 definitely had its own issues (such as Cinderpelt not being her own character outside of …taking care of Swifthawk and Brightheart being shoved into the background.) but I still adore it and RC to this day. But I’m prioritizing the rewrite itself first as a story I want to tell.

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honestly i dont need therapy i need a machine to go into my body and manually stretch all my muscles and crack all my joints and then i need the machine to go into my brain and deep clean it with soapy hot water

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The weirdest thing about fandom culture is finding folks who treat fictional characters with the respect real people deserve and treat real people like the government treats the environment.

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also worth noting that "abusive" doesn't actually mean "irredeemable" either.

there's a lot of people that have done things in the past that were bad, because they weren't taught any better, or they were in an overall toxic situation where EVERYONE was shitty (like a cult), or they were just at an especially low point and hurt others for it.

you don't have to forgive them. you don't have to ever speak to them again. you can be angry with them until you die if you want.

but society cannot function if we don't allow them to move on. to change their behavior and fuck off somewhere else and build meaningful relationships without bothering you again. we need a path for people to change, or nothing ever will.

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I DONT WANT TO WORK A 9 TO 5 I WANT TO DRAW TRANSGENDER FURRIES AUGH

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all these gay girls are like "wow i want a big lady to step on me" but where is the love for short girls stepping on you? short girl intimidating you with her presence and body language alone until you fall over and she steps on you?? short girl taking down a girl who's much taller than her and making her submit??? where's the love for my shadow of the colossus bitches???

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an erotic poem:

leg so hot

hot hot leg

leg so hot u fry an eg

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Strange roadside buildings where you shouldn’t ever go.

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Fatal gettin beat up oh no

Speedpaint

Credits to my friend Root for helping with the refined sketches!

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monarchy has no real purpose and should be abolished irl but im a slut for royal families in fiction. the politics. the intrigue. families divided by the eyes of a nation. the pressure of children told from birth that they are born to rule, born for only one purpose. the stifling of empathy and real bonds and love. the loneliness when all eyes are on you. it’s so inherently tragic and yet everyone involved is terrible because that’s all they can be. gimme.

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when u create too many ocs and dont have the time to develop them all equally and ur brain just wants u to focus on one or two at a time but u keep making more and more and u feel like ur abandoning the ones u havent done anything with for a while

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this is one of the only things i’ve ever seen of the gx dub and it’s all i ever need to see