selftaughtneurosurgeon

[selftaughtneurosurgeon]

my mom died a year ago today time to slice it up

[selftaughtneurosurgeon]

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GUESS WHAT TIME IT IS

TW!! (ai, sfx makeup) wounds below. pls block me if this is upsetting!!

bro this was literally so upsetting i hit beans twice :( thats it!!!!!!!!!!. these styros are losers… im flopping

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how old is your husband

Hi Nosey Nosey, not As Old as I would Like

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i understand why some people say shit like "cat scratches dont count!" (they do absolutely count) because the difference between people who have milder injuries and people with more severe injuries feels massive. i dont mean like one group is 'more' or less sick or whatever its just the experience of waking up for months with the same cut fused to your sleeve is very different to it being gone in a week. thats not mentioning the difference in long term health implications.

both are completely valid but the people saying shit like "idk why people are so dramatic about self harm, its safer then drinking!!" or whatever (stop comparing addictions omg) feel so entirely disconnected from my experience of seeing my own arterial blood and trying to decide if its "bad enough" for an ambulance or if ill probably be ok without (obligatory this is a terrible idea and not following my own advice like this has landed me in the hospital, call an ambulance if you ever hit an artery or if your not sure if you need one)

and even the difference between people who can say "oh ill just stop cutting my arms for summer so i can wear short sleeves" and people with scarring is huge. "i have to be clean for a few weeks so i can go swimming" and like fuck i wish i could be able to stop for a week or two and not have a single cut on me i wish i could not have scars for one day and do something like that. i spent 2 months trying to be able to let everything heal and not have any healing sh for one day and ofc it wasnt healed even with the best wound care i could manage. it needed like one more month still maybe longer.

all self harm is self harm but that dosent mean there isnt a difference in experience

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this and being drugged beyond human comprehension ..

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beans + water = pure torture

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i have moooorreeee

please block me if this bothers you!! there ARE fresh (sfx makeup ai) wounds under the cut!!!

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these are all today !! some stupidly shallow ones but then also my deepest yet so yk. good and bad!

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are dms open!

yes!! just dont be too weird pls

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