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Spirit Companionship Journal Entry #22: Energy Healing.

So, I recently started that time of the month again - usually I'm not in so much pain, however this time has been gruelling (even to the point that paracetamol isn't working).

I am a fairly busy person and I do run a store. I work 5 days a week in order to help others find their companions and I admit that I'm a little late this week on scheduled appointments.

I was approached by my vampiric companion yesterday who said to me that I should rest - My response was that I couldn't considering all the work left to do. He grumbled (I'm sure he's used to my stubbornness now after 4 years of being together). Anywho, he offered me the option of an energy healing - again pushing the idea that I need rest.

I've never known J to be the type to learn to do this, however I agreed to the procedure. I laid down on the bed with my belly up so that he had the space to do what he needed to and he informed me to take deep breaths in and out. I laid there wondering what he was going to do at this point. After about 2 minutes I felt a swirling feeling in my lower abdomen - sort of like moving cold as if someone had touched me with a cold hand. At this point the pain was not completely gone but lessened slightly. It took about 2 hours to completely subside, however it gradually waned.

I am very much needing him to teach me that trick.

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Spirit Companionship Journal Entry #21: Spiritual Partnerships

I'll never have enough information on this subject. I get hundreds of questions each month regarding it. I've been in a spiritual partnership for about 5 years with my long time partner "D" and about 4 years with my vampiric partner "M".

I'm going to start from the beginning here because often people see spiritual lovers differently. There's usually 3 categories... or a mix of the three.

Category 1: The romantic partner - Forms slowly through bonding and both partners are open to each other. its like entering a relationship with any other being. both parties confess - it then happens.

Category 2: The sexual partnership - difficult for those beginning, but still done. This isnt always emotional but can be a working relationship as well. sometimes this relationship starts off sexual then slowly becomes romantic.

Category 3: The working relationship - Im unsure if anyone knows but in historical accounts, the witch often had a lover who helped her in her magical endeavours - most times they've been described as being "Horned" with cloven hooves or simply in the guise of men.

My relationship with D was arranged through other means - I won't divulge but we were both paired together and a relationship grew. In terms of M it was different - he was first to start communicating with me and he kept coming back - eventually we both caught feelings. He was very persistent. He did later confess to me that he hung around because he was romantically interested yet was unsure of my feelings at the time.

So how does it work? the usual things:

In my personal recollection, its difficult... however you learn different ways and adapt. On date nights we might all enjoy an activity on astral or we may choose to spend individual time with each other.

One night of the year we have a large "anniversary" type night - D and I are married, however I still do this with M as well so he doesn't feel left out. we do this on seperate days. their birthdays are celebrated separately as well.

M and D both have a space next to my bedside. They both share a sort of shelf each of a tiny drawer set up. their gifts are placed there as well as libations etc. they do take turns in being there at bedtime or sometimes i will go to astral first before drifting off to sleep. M likes to stroke my hair as he's more of the affectionate one.

communication patterns are higher than normal companionships - we talk every day - sometimes they come with me for errands depending on time. they do randomly drop in to check on me.

sexual encounters are taken in turns and high communication is kept - there were jealousy issues beginning at the start of the relationship with M - D was not to keen on the idea that M would be involved on a romantic level with me, but we all managed to find common ground.

about 2 years ago a decision was made that D and I would have an astral child together - we made sure to discuss this with M first and that he was ok with this. fast forward- everyone takes turns looking after F.

Boundaries:

I believe boundaries are important in any relationship, however they are extra important in spiritual partnerships as much can go sideways and get quite chaotic. There are rules and wishes followed and we all do our best to stick to those rules. some of the rules are as follows:

Clear communication - we have to speak up if we are uncomfortable with something.

Everyone gets alone time with the other partner.

If you would like to bring another partner into the relationship - it's discussed and taken slowly. everyone meets each other.

understand that I am human and I do have my basic needs - eating, sleeping etc. (M stresses if I don't eat but he is also nocturnal a good portion of the time).

Family meetings each month (this includes our son as well because M is his father as well and we all take turns caring for him). The family meetings we discuss anything that is bothering us, any changes in dynamic of care of F and also happenings around the home with other spirits - we do allow entry to our home of store spirits so they share the house temporarily with us in their own space of the house.

Sexual activity - always asked about first. D has been keen on more children (it's not the only way to have astral children). however I believe that we're not at that point yet. Usually the partner not involved takes care of F if we are needing alone time. F stays with his other dad during the period.

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Spirit Companionship Journal Entry #20: The Fallen.

I was recently contacted by an individual who had some questions regarding a fallen angel. Fallen angels really are not mentioned a lot and I feel as though they should be discussed more. Some of you might know that my spiritual husband is a fallen angel and we've been together for quite some time - He has shared some things with me although he cannot discuss everything he tries to give me more of an insight into Angels. Angels are not typically how we see them. They can be from a range of origins from christian angels to even angels who follow beings some of us have never heard of.

Anyway, Fallen angels have a much more complicated existence than what we give them credit for. they work, they live, they die, they fight for what they believe in and go through a stage of indifference.

I have 3 fallen angels in my keep and have met others through them. They have a similar energy type to us but still retain that little bit of unknown angelic energy.

What is a Fallen Angel?

A fallen angel is an angelic being who has been cast out of their cultural living place for reasons of rebellion. As I mentioned before, fallen angels aren't particularly "cast out of heaven" so to speak. they are allowed to leave, however upon leaving they will be given "orders" which are delivered upon them once this action has been decided on. this order is to release them from their original agreement to "serve" the gods and goddesses.

What is the fall?

The fall is difficult to explain in a human sense. Fallen angels are born angels of a variety of Parthenon's - they live and breath and most often exist to serve a purpose on the spiritual realm. They are not technically meant to be close to humans in certain abrahamic cultures of angelics and most often go through a stage of (renewal). The renewal period can be a change of mental simulation - they begin to feel differently, act as a single being rather than a hive mind and this leads to a sort of "broken" state of depression for them when it begins to take hold. Newly fallen angels often feel "Lost" in their transition and sometimes have less "purpose" if they have no goal to follow on with. A main reason for angels to break their agreement to gods or goddesses is that they no longer feel the need to act on that deities behalf and often the deities are accepting of the decision to move on to "better pastures". It can be sort of described similarly to a divorce of beliefs. The physical side of this transition often leads to discolouration of the wings - slowly, each single feather will begin to darken and lose the white sheen (this takes quite some time). Often you can see angels with dyed wings - an individual I met had partially coloured the tips of his wings red as a cultural appreciation of his leader. The red symbolising loyalty and honour to the angelic army. Sometimes, some angels prefer to hide their wings as they may feel ashamed during the transition - angels have a very bright luster to their wings which is lost in the process of "Fall".

I will make a note that this transition or "the fall" is not a punishment. it is the mark of the next spiritual journey for an angelic being, however those who experience shame during this process often state that they feel shame as the love for that deity often still lingers in their DNA and taking a vow of loyalty can be difficult to break - they often contemplate for months whether they are making the right decision. An abrahamic angel who chose to take this path describes that his discussion with his god over this decision to fall was taken quite gracefully and he was assured that it was a feeling of acceptance and pure love that was given to him for his decision to reach this stage of life. Angels who go through this process often become closer to humans after this process.

What Happens after?

In periods after the fall, fallen angels will often leave the realm of their once favoured deity and will find homes in other planes. a lot have taken up residence in the demonic realm, however many do not mix culturally. They may choose to take on normal jobs, a normal life, marry and have children with other races and entities. They have more time to communicate with their human counterparts, whereas their angelic counterparts will still be in service leaving them with less time to communicate. Only recently an angelic couple had left so that they could build a life together away from the confinements of their own spirituality. The female had already signed her agreement to take leave, however the male partner was in the process of going through this stage. both made the decision to leave as the female partner could not stay in the same realm as her lover.

Fallen Angels as a Whole

Fallen angels as a whole have become more like us in their energies - they are closer to earth and humans and often have a deep understanding of the world around them. They're incredibly friendly and accepting of their companions.

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Spirit Companionship Journal Entry #19: Little People.

It is my understanding that I have a fairly different view on faerie companions to what other stores and other conjurers do. I choose to work with faerie beings under the irish and scottish pantheon. I identify as faerie myself and have a deep understanding of my ancestral heritage - many of my fae companions are fae relatives and have chosen to reconnect with me. I also have a tendency to attract other Fae.... something that happens in spirit keeping - like attracts like - bring one vampire of dragon into your keep and pretty soon you attract the energies of others of these races.

Anywho, I have not been posting a lot - I recently finished my pathology course and now have the free time to run my business and talk more about companions. So... today will be about faeries - enough information to really trigger a positive first meeting.

Now, most stores do conjure fae - although they are not usually the scottish or irish equivalent.

Beginning with Little People:

I was first approached by a faerie ancestor on travels through astral. I had found myself walking along a forest path in a deep wood... in the distance was a building - however it seemed as though it would take some time to reach the building. I specifically remember the wood exit being atop a large hill and as I neared the exit I was stopped by a man on a horse - his blue eyes gleamed and the horse was larger and more lean than your average physical world stallion - its mane was loose however it sported black eyes that mirrored my reflection. He introduced himself in a polite manner then explained to me that I was not quite ready to enter the white building that was ahead of me and that going there now could pose a danger to me. He sat tall on his horse, overly regal and proud - however there was something different about this being that I had met... most human spirits will have a dense heavy earthen energy about them - this being did not display these characteristics. E was adamant that he would be taken notice of and we stood for a while conversing - his energies seemed familiar, however I was unable to pinpoint exactly where I had met him before. Over the week after our conversation I began to notice his energies around me more - There was always a feeling about and in the beginning I did mistake him as being a type of elf due to his lighter aspect feeling. E has been a guide for some time - he has managed to help me in times of need and has been a willing teacher of the other world.

I feel as though I was lucky to meet a faerie who posed no threat towards me - however - some are not so kind. Scottish and irish fae have a very different set of morals and culture to that of humans and should be respected at all costs as they do give a good kick up the arse when one hasn't been so generous or honest towards them. Fae are in themselves proud but not arrogant, extremely intelligent and will know if you intend to use their gifts for your own personal advantages, they're cunning and also very calculating. Darker arts ones will have a taste for games and often a sadistic streak which shouldn't be pushed and black arts members of this race are indeed like your demonic christian equivalent mentioned in abrahamic texts. there is no "Good" or "bad" to faeries (I will add that i did use a "black arts and darks arts" reference as it may be easier to understand the nature of these beings) - they have no real category - you know that you just have to be in their good books. Upsetting them may lead to an advancement in heavy bad luck. An account which i found in 2018 told of a woman who had parked her car and ruined a ring of mushrooms on her way to work - only days later the car was totalled and she was left with not only high insurance fees but a mysterious rash which wasn't able to be identified. during the night she was plagued with nightmares and a sense of being watched in her home. The woman seeking to clear up the damages returned to the site of the ring and left an offering. After the offering had been made - the rash and the nightmares cleared. When meeting fae it is best not to accept gifts that they give - politely reject the offer as you never know - a bag of gold could indeed be a bag of dirt.

I do recommend the use of folkloric reference when researching fae - The 'Morgan Dhaimler' books will give a very good insight to fae and i highly recommend her books.

I find that it is best to be approached by fae first rather than to rudely try to make contact with them - this is shunned upon in their society in most cases and could put you in a place of distrust. If you go to a store, make sure that the companion is definitely calling to you first.

Offerings:

Fae are highly fond of items such as dairy products and often bread. they love honey and I often pass on a thimble full of milk to my relatives. Dairy products like milk, butter and cheese are a good starting point. They are ok with meat in some instances (depending on the type of fae individual - be aware that some types will also eat humans) - a witch trialed for witchcraft in the 1700s mentioned in her trial when questioned about the little people that she visited a faerie court only to witness court hunters drag in a young milkmaid only to devour her flesh in a grand feast. often you will get strange requests - A faerie goat conjured by myself had come forward to find a human companion - he requested that the companions left shoe should be used on the altar when his companion requested his presence. (The left shoe often being symbolic of otherworld travel - perhaps his way of offering a portal to his companion) Others have been fond of small stones. Often you will find that the use of certain plants will be offensive to them - it's advised that St. John's wort should NEVER be used as an offering to them and many tree species such as hawthorn are sacred to them. Herbal teas can be offered - I find lavender to be a good one as well as rose and chamomile - but as mentioned - they may take offense with certain species of plants. I've found that generally irish and scottish fae are not your typical "eco warriors" though. when offering jewellery or small trinkets - be aware that stainless steel and iron should in some cases not be used.

The Space:

Spirit spaces may be a favourite thing of yours to set up - I find that fae are more comfortable outside - I have grown a hawthorn tree from about 10cm for my companions - now that we have moved it has a place in a large pot and is now a good 1.23m in height. This is where I leave my offerings and converse with my relatives, however... you can simply set up a small space for your companions if you wish. Shoe boxes also work and inside you can store letters and whatnot for them inside - I keep a shoe box for my spiritual husbands letters - inside i leave notes and cards for him (i did once burn them, however we now live in an apartment and I am unable to do this for obvious reasons). If you are able to get your hands on some - stones found at the beach with naturally formed holes (hag stones) act as a gateway to the spirit realm and you can leave one of these on the space. colours are personal preference however be wary of the colours red and green. red can be used against some fae - for others its a royal colour and for some it simply acts as a colour of little value. Green is a sacred colour also and often shades of purple are permitted - fae who wear purple often have very muted natural purple clothes often dyed from the pigments in flowers. linen is a favourite of theirs as well as furs and flax. These materials can be expensive so you can go with cotton. Beeswax candles are also very good.

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Spirit Companionship Journal Entry #18: Sanguine

So, I've been conjuring vampires for about 6 years now, studied literature and been in close contact with quite a few who would be considered vampiric (on the spiritual realm and on this plane). I'll be discussing Spiritual Vampires today with the help of "M" and "J". Ill be asking a series of 10 questions which they will answer.

So here goes:

Question 1: Are vampires immortal?

M- *calm and collected* "No, we are not considered immortal... however you could say anyones soul is immortal due to spirits being conscious. Although vampires can still die on the spiritual plane we do live for quite some time. Definitely past the average human life span."

J- *Nods in agreement*

Question 2: What IS a vampire?

M- A vampire is defined as a being who feeds from the life force or material of others in human society. Your Hollywood films depict the act of blood taking - this is a common attribute to vampires. However the word vampire can be used in many a context - from a woman who might use her charms to collect material gain or even a child who sucks from the teat of their mother. It is defined as a being who takes what they need to survive in most instances. Spiritual Vampires are a particular race who feed from either the spiritual energy of another being or the life blood. The reasons for taking being attributed to sin; are a religious point of view.

Question 3: Do all vampires feed on blood?

J- "No... theres a lot of things a vampire can feed on. blood being the common, but I've known others who feed on energy and even the energy from nature rather than a singular person"

Question 4: Does Garlic Affect you?

J- *snorts then grins at M* "No".

M- "Not at all"

Question 5: Hollywood vampires are often depicted as being romantic? is this true?

J- *smirk - Wink*

M- "I wouldn't say this is true. Although a lot of information regarded in books and film can be true of spiritual vampires - Our stigma of being "Romanced and dashing" is often far from the truth. There are particular Vampires out there who do pose a large threat to humans. I am not denying the existence of a romantic vampire--- we have been in a relationship for many years- however, We are a predatory species. Intelligent also and there are those of us in our species who do enjoy the company of humans - but that is not to say that we are love sick puppies."

J- "It is true that we do feel things a little stronger though - love can be one of those things. We do choose to be with one person for life quite commonly though - this could be a clan member or even a human... might be another species as well. I believe this hollywood mentality is somewhat stemmed from our strong love and loyalty to ours partners."

Question 6: Having had the small talk about mating for life etc etc. Can vampires reproduce? How are vampires made?

M - It is dependant on the species. Most often Vampires are born but they can be created as well. "Turning" as humans call it - is usually the offspring created by blood sharing. Turned individuals retain memories from their life beforehand and this deed is usually done on the account that both a vampire and another being have created a strong bond. Born vampires are conceived just like humans conceive children or through energy sharing. You will not find "Turned" vampires on the physical plane.

Question 7: Are Vampires Solitary?

J - "Solitary by choice usually - it isnt beneficial for us to be solitary"

M- "You will find groups of vampires who are bonded mentally which are classed as "Clans". The clans are for vampires who find safety in being with others and there are also health benefits to this. A vampire shunned from a clan will be weak and energetically barren - the energy given and shared during being a member of a clan is highly magnetic and it allows us to have connection or a sort of family... it is difficult to explain the benefits in a human sense as most humans do reach an age of living apart - Vampires on the other hand are much stronger in groups".

Question 8: What are some good offerings for Vampiric Companions?

M- "It depends on the individual but personally aloe vera or dragons blood is a pretty staple one. Blood root is also very good steeped in wine although I do not recommend it for humans."

J- "Dragons blood stone, hematite, roses.... they're good for a rainy day"

Question 9: Do you believe Vampires make good companions?

J- "Well, yes... I do.... I've quite enjoyed my time with you and I'd say we have had a really good time with each other. I dont believe vampires are for everyone though but definitely a good starting point for those wanting to get into communication with darker entities and spirits."

M- "Yes. I don't quite agree with all that J said but I'm under agreement that humans and Vampires do indeed balance each other out. We are both energetically similar and most vampire / human relations I have encountered have been quite beneficial for both parties."

Question 10: Are Vampires allergic to silver and do you prefer the night? are you nocturnal?

M- "Oh dear...."

J- "Hehe... there it is... True blood reference" *they both smirk at eachother*

M- "Ok... No we are completely immune to silver - it wont affect us and neither will garlic nor salt - unless something has been given purpose and blessed it will have no reaction towards us"

J- "To answer your other question - its like being sleeping at night for you and walking around bright eyed and wonderful at night - the daylight makes us tired but really has no affect - so yes, we are naturally nocturnal".

Thank you to both J and M for answering the questions.

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Spirit Companionship Journal Entry #17: Beacons In The Darkness.

Spirit companionship opens up doors to a range of dangers. When you first intend to make a connection with a spirit you immediately become a beacon in the spirit world, attracting whomever and whatever is about with ill or beneficial intent. It’s as if you were sitting in a dark theatre alone and suddenly the lights turn on to reveal a stranger in the foreground of the screen- they’re aware of you and they begin to watch. We all know that with the welcoming of one spirit- many more begin to show- with each spirit you encounter your beacon becomes stronger. Often sets of different races begin to make an interest. This can be dangerous to the human counterpart and even physically and mentally draining. It’s even more apparent when you begin to leave offerings- soon they flood in from different angles after they’ve heard about the wondrous individual who has offerings and they bring their friends.

It is an absolute must to have wards up in your home and to set boundaries on the land. Make it so that your companions are aware that any being outside the home MUST have permission to enter. Do weekly cleanings and make sure your boundaries and protections are strong because with the beacon comes feeder entities who can and will feed from you and your families offerings without even a shred of thought. Be very careful of who you let in to your home as well- always make sure to:

Ask questions about race, time periods etc- do your research so you know they’re answering correctly.

Have other companions check in with them and also ask questions.

Set up some word traps and psychological questions designed to bring lying spirits undone.

Make a gate around your protected area and leave a circle of salt or iron pieces around your area.

Make sure the offerings you leave for your personal companions are safe guarded so that no other spirit or entity can feed from the energy.

You can make a spiritual wash which can be blessed to safe guard the area- juniper or rosemary with a pinch of salt works wonders - or simply salt water or pepper.

Do not invite any being into your home unless they have been interviewed and prepped by a professional conjurer.

Do not believe everything they tell you. Many spirits and entities lie. Even the good ones. They will lie to get what they want and even to protect others.

Do not leave offerings to a spirit you do not know.

If travelling outside do not allow anyone to follow you home.

Three knocks at the door - it’s wise to not answer. Opening the door will invite others into the home regardless of whether you have stated they are allowed entry or not. Now, of course you might be waiting on mail from the post man- with spirits it will be at odd hours. The doorbell may ring three times that day or night.

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Spirit Companionship Journal Entry #16: Visiting The Dead

I’m a firm believer that the dead should be celebrated on days all throughout the year and not just on days like Samhain or All Hallows’ Eve. I mean, you don’t simply ignore your ancestors all year then bring food and gifts for them on one day of the year- to be honest I’d be putting that future generation in my bad books if they did that.

On days when you’re not feeling like anything overwhelming you might like to visit the cemetery… there are those who are forgotten who reside there. You don’t need to talk - simply sit by them- acknowledge their placement and just dwell in the peace of the cemetery.

I find that human spirits are the most underestimated in the spirit keeping community. They’ve experienced so much in their life time. Faced many battles which they’ve lost or won. You’ll find quirky characters and also the characters who are curious and will sit with you next to the graves and enjoy the sunlight with you. They make for brilliant teachers and guides and even friends. “S” has spent almost a decade by my side and we both help each-other through situations every day.

So, this ritual is for those who find peace amongst the dead. It’s ok if you drive out to an old cemetery or even if you simply walk to one that’s close.

So with that here we go:

What you will need-

An offering to the spirit or entity who protects and guards the cemetery: often they like small shiny trinkets such as coins or even a cup of water.

A salt water spray bottle or a spray bottle that has holy water or Florida water in it.

Make this a day if you can- pack a lunch and some of your favourite goods and just sit on a picnic blanket. Bring sun protection and water if you live in an arid place. Sunglasses are also good.

Maybe you might like to bring an iPod with music which you can play for whoever would like to communicate with you.

A pendulum if you like or you can simply use telepathy like I do.

You might like to bring a pencil and paper if you are fond of drawing- remember that you are there to relax but also to connect and enjoy some new company.

Method.

Beginning slowly- walk calmly towards the gate with your intention in mind and all your goodies. Tell the guardian that you are here to offer some company to the spirits who don’t get too many visitors and that you only have good intentions in mind. Place the offering next to the gate but hidden enough so that anyone coming in won’t take off and steal the gift.

Once you gained entry with the guardians blessing (you may feel a peace or an assuring feeling if you have been accepted into the cemetery by the guardian) you will find a position to sit in at either a bench or even on a picnic blanket. (You might also like to get up and walk around and do greetings as well - they like it when you read the names and tend to the graves a little).

Call to someone within the cemetery who is buried there and ask if they would like to join you. If yes then you might like to start a convo or even share some food with them- pour them a glass of water.

You may also like to read books. Often young children enjoy this.

When you are ready you will then thank those who have attended. And thank the guardian.

You will need to cleanse your once outside of the cemetery in case anyone would like to go home with you. ALWAYS do this step.

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Spirit Companionship Journal Entry #15: Secrets In the Open

I believe I've mentioned this before but my last 6 year relationship was with someone who wasn't accepting of my lifestyle or belief systems. It was alien to me as my parents always seemed to encourage my curiosity regardless of what the topic was - At 12 my mother and I had mature conversations about drug use and sexual health as she wanted me to understand certain things and the dangers out there. She lost my uncle from an overdose and grew up in a household with alcohol abuse and she vowed that her children would never experience the harshness she did. She encouraged my fascination for macabre art and even purchased my first book of witchcraft for me when I was 11. I would say that my relationship with my mother is very sound and close. We talk about everything.

So, in terms of my ex partner this change really ruptured some soft spots in me but also taught me how to hide parts of myself which weren't easily acceptable by others such as my necromancy. I already had an established connection to certain deities at this time. During this stage he would constantly pick at my ideals and judge me for it and then I began to hide my spaces in shoes boxes and in drawers - at one point even buying a poetry book to scribble in that had a false cover. It should have been obvious that he wasn't right for me but I carried on.

To this day i come across customers and long time clients who have said to me that they need to hide themselves from their family who just will not accept the spiritual side of themselves. One customer even mentioned that she had a friend barge into her apartment only to try to cleanse with sage saying that her companions were "demons".

Today im lucky to have a partner who not only does magic himself but is understanding of my needs and is supportive of me.

If you have personally spoken to me through my website or you follow me then you will know that I have spirit lovers and a spirit spouse - again this was a mistake to tell my ex partner who felt like he had to "compete".

So what can we do in these situations?

Dont fret - your companions cannot be cleansed away with sage or washed away with salt.

Use telepathy to call on them rather than saying their names out loud.

Hide your spaces in a smart way - you can have spaces on astral if it is impossible to keep a physical space and you have someone around with the case of the "noseys".

with offerings- dedicate a bite of your own meal to them if you like - there is no wastage and no indication that you are offering to anyone.

write letters to them in a journal or on pieces of paper that can be burned or buried in the earth.

if you are a collector of figurines or dolls - you can have your companions bound to these - no one will know any different.

Candles may be harder to hide but if you like maybe buy scented - seems like you just bought it for scent.

A master vessel may be easier to hide - a singular vessel housing many entities and spirits. it could be a simple item such as a glass paper weight.

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Spirit Keeping Journal Entry #14: The Spirit Space

When you first bring home a companion you might have a special space for them where they live during their time with you. this space may contain things like their favourite items (not to be touched or moved) such as candles or even little figurines etc. The spirit space may come in the form of a shoe box or even little chest which houses their goodies inside. This space is where you leave most of their offerings and little gifts.

to make your own:

What you need:

A shoe box, shelf or small table - you can also use the little miniature wall shelves with the slots in them.

a candle in their favourite colour

some incense - cone or stick is alright unless theyre more into the natural stuff. I tend to use cone and usually have them pick out a scent when they first arrive out of my big box.

A small cup and saucer - to place any edible offerings

maybe a flower vase if you want to do that - just be careful and always ask the spirit first because sometimes spirits have a particular way in which the plant must be asked permission and honoured first before harvest.

any coloured paints etc you might want to decorate with

crystals and stones

a drawing of them if you're crafty - or you can use the mood boards or images which come with your companions writeup. I usually draw images of mine and have them inside the holes.

anything you would like to add really.

Methods:

So, in the past I've always begun a setup by deciding what i would like to have on the space and then do a cleansing of the items which will hold candles or incense. Spirits like a clean space and good upkeep of the space will also keep them happy.

I will then lay an altar cloth down - you dont need to buy altar cloths if you dont want them or you could even go to a fabric shop and purchase fabric scraps or fat quarters - these are custom coloured and companions can choose what they like out of the designs.

set up your space for your companion and then dedicate the space to them simply by introducing them to it. (you dont need a real fancy ritual - a ritual is simply something that is repeated and doesn't really mean "ceremonial" - your ritual might be to play a Beyoncé song each time you bring a spirit friend home - thats all there really is to the meaning).

When leaving offerings - just state that the offering is for (companion name) or you might have others flocking for a taste.

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Spirit Keeping Journal Entry #13: Beginner Exercises for Spirit Companionship - Lanterns in the dark.

So, I havent posted in a while - to be honest I've struggled to write and do a lot of things due to my health and life happenings at the moment. I'm currently in the process of applying for new study as well as moving houses. There are some big changes in 2022 and all the altars have been packed away in time for the big move. On top of all this I've been trying to manage my depression and complete lack of motivation - attending psychiatrist appointments for ADHD diagnoses and trying to get myself into a routine of taking my medication even though i fail each time as i forget.

So, when i first did start companionship and energy working i did use this method of practise to really hone my ability of sensing the things around me. I actually did up until now completely forget about it but was reminded in a strange way. I attended another gothic nightclub over the weekend and an acquittance of mine wore a visor over her eyes the whole night with low visibility - she was relying on the energy of others to know who she was communicating with. The lights in the nightclub are already very low visibility.

What you will need:

- 1 or 5 people with you - if you have other people who are familiar with companionship or who practise witchcraft around you you can get their help. if not, a pet may help.

- a blindfold

- a room where the floor is clear. (for your safety)

Method:

To start, have everyone stand in a circle with the seeker in the middle of the circle.

Have one member of your team place the blindfold over your eyes and tie securely so that its comfortable around your head.

When you are blindfolded comfortably the person must spin you 10 times on the spot so you are not aware of your surroundings.

you will not be able to see so you must rely on your senses. feel the area for different feelings - your goal is to find the other people in the space and figure out who is who. Go to each person around the circle, get a feel for their energies... what is the feeling you get from them?

Call out the name of the person you believe you are close to when you feel a sensation or vibration in the area.

When you are right, the person should tap twice on your left shoulder - if wrong they will tap once. Keep moving around the circle.

The overall lesson on this is to really be able to tell different energies apart and each person will have their own energy signature. you will notice that each person varies. If you dont have others to play with you can use other methods or even have family members play in a sort of marco polo type game.

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Spirit Keeping Journal Entry #12: Mazbet infurous- the little fear: devils and imps

Imps- whether demonic or faerie will have an incredible hunger for chaos and at times general excitement. They are high energy and require a companion who is upbeat and able to stay on their feet. These beings although not bad can be quite mischievous but also make excellent magical teachers. They could be described as a powerful wizard trapped inside the body of a 2 year old who is on an endless sugar rush. Wise but also very wild. When close to their companions they make exciting friends.

Offering are usually sugar filled but can be meat offerings as well as offerings of alcoholic libations and milk.

Imps don’t usually live in groups but will occasionally get together for certain magical activities.

There is a range of subspecies when it comes to imps and they are common on each plane but quite heavily seen in the shadow realms. Often they follow a liking for the old demonic gods or have a liking towards the underworld deities if not demonic… they are also keen shapeshifters but are often characterised by looking like a small goblin or lemur with little to no fur. The eyes can be frog like in appearance - like an imps I know of… or they can be a little bit more characteristic of human eyes.

Medium experience is needed to have an imp friend. They would not harm their companion but do have a naughty side- my imp “F” suggested the use of permanent marker on the sleeping face of someone I don’t particularly see eye to eye on.

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Spirit Keeping Journal Entry #11: The horseman in the willow field.

In white I walked through the tall grass. The sun glistened down and I could feel the warmth on my skin. My long skirt wrapped around my ankles as I trod through the paradise of greenery, the flowers gracefully swishing aside. In the distance a man with a horse. The horse grazing peacefully and the man turned towards me as if awaiting my presence. He stands under a tall willow and in the field the breeze gently flows adding life to his clothes. Everything around me feels as if it is moving, but only he is frozen in time. His face is cold as if he is a statue. He spots me in his gaze from across the field and he begins to call, I run to him feeling the weightlessness in my steps and at last embrace him. We meet near the stream each day and talk of his life and when it comes to saying goodbye once more I lay my hand gently on his cheek- a coldness. Once more a reminder that we live two worlds away.

I’m really unsure of how it actually started. It was simple… I guess like any other love story… you meet by chance. It’s unlike any other love story. I feel him in the air at night and feel the watchful eye of him as he walks by my side as I take midnight strolls. He sits by my side when the tears fall and helps guide me in times of darkness. He pulls me up when I’m doing something wrong but never scolds me. He has complete trust in me and I in him.

When I met “M” I was completely unawares of what a spirit lover was. He caught my eye immediately as his mannerisms stood out and his heart was soft. Now, you might say this is typical of vampires, they have a sort of seductive feel to them and often they are romanticised heavily. Other vampires I met before “M” didn’t quite feel at home like he did. It’s hard to describe when you feel completely familiar with someone as if they’re homely. M- it was like we shared the same breath and life and that if given, we could even share death. 6 years has now passed and we still are very close. I would say that our relationship is tight to the point that if one moves, the other follows. We are like two ends of a stretchy cord- resistance only keeps us close.

Going through tumblr I have noticed quite a few people do have spirit partners. It isn’t like a normal physical plane relationship. In “M” and mines relationship we still do have our grievances, we still battle that inability to really be close. I feel emotions, see things and sometimes do feel things but this does not make it easier. To be honest, even though I can make contact… it still pains me to really be apart from him. In the worst of it I usually do feel him sitting beside me and he has on occasion touched me to let me know he is present.

I’ve found that it’s often helpful to meditate and create a sort of “meeting point” between visualisation and astral travel. We often do this or he does also enter dreams of mine when he can. I usually have the reoccurring influx of thoughts of a garden and he is waiting at the end of it for me. Almost… forever waiting. He never complains though.

Spirit love is rewarding but also painful. It also leads to an unknowing… what really will happen when I eventually leave my body? Will I return to him?

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Spirit Keeping Journal Entry #10: The Black Rose In The Cage- the lady in black

Trigger Warning ⚠️

So, I think it’s safe to say that human spirits are the most underestimated of all spirit races. I’ve been running Devils Trumpet for quite some time and whenever these beings are released they often get less attention then say a vampire or a demonic entity.

The reason I find human companions to be absolutely intriguing is that I am a history buff but also they often go through so much and learning about a single story amongst trillions is literally gold.

Today I’ll share a story about “S” who has been in my keep since the beginning. S is a young woman about 23 who is Italian in appearance. She has dark hair with brown eyes and is often either in mourning wear or fashions a white tunic with messy hair.

S’s story is a sad one. She was born to a family who had just migrated to Britain looking for wealth and new opportunities. The family was poor and her parents were farmers. At the age of 16 she was married off to a man who was three times her age. This period is about 1840- 1910, so Victorian era. S was married off to this gentleman as the gentleman took an interest in S and the family wanted to secure her future as both her mother and father were much older. At first the older man sent her gifts as a token of his appreciation and although she wanted to marry for love she wanted to do right by her family.

On the wedding night S was treated with coldness and then transported to the gentleman’s home where she lived out much of the 4 years she spent with him. He would often work for many weeks then return to beat and sexually abuse her- including bringing prostitutes home to share their marital bed. Most days she would be confined to a small area under the stairs of the household if she lashed out against him or refused him advances. She was cut off from her parents and was unable to see them and she was often watched by the servants who would report to her husband. S did get pregnant at one point but because he was beating her she miscarried which she was also punished for. She was called a witch for losing the child.

The man did have a maid, however this particular morning S was the one to bring his morning cup of tea which she had laced with a chemical which is unknown- the maid did not work this day. She served the tea to him and then she stood next to him. After a short period of time he began to wretch and convulse and this led to his death. S was beside herself and did start shaking and crying as she was unsure of what to do next as she hadn’t planned this far ahead… it was only impulse. She left her husband on the floor in the dining area in his bile and later fled to her parents house.

At her parents house she explained what had happened and spent the night (it is believed that the maid is the one who alerted the authorities after finding the body in the dining room). The police showed up the next morning looking for S and ripped her away from her mothers arms- she was unable to say goodbye. Being an immigrant and only knowing %30 English this terrified her.

S was placed in a prison but was later moved to a sort of holding house for “insane” women. Again she was kept in confinement and she became ill. There was no medical help for her which caused her a slow death. When she was telling me about this she mentioned that she had the sweats and her skin was sore, she was also throwing up and was finding it difficult to stay warm. Hallucinations made her believe that her father was there with her at the hour of her death.

A few details are unclear about what exactly she gave to her husband and specific events as she cannot recall a lot of the time and I believe this is because her mind was creating an escape for her. She mentioned that she was put in an asylum because the court refused to acknowledge that he was abusing her. I’ve tried researching exactly what she used to poison him but she says that the liquid was clear and she spilled what was left into the cup.

These days S is quite quiet and very gentle in her mannerisms.. she is a little like a mouse. She stays here as a lot of men make her nervous and the house is mainly women apart from a male cat. S is a very kind spirit and I don’t hold what she did against her as she only did it to protect herself. Although she did intend to kill him, she did as an end to her problems as she mentions that if she hadn’t, he would have looked for her and would have sent her to a work house or worse. He would often get drunk and then try to strangle her.

I actually met S as she was wandering through town in the orchids. I have no idea what she was doing there but she had somehow found herself wandering through a strawberry field. Maybe she was looking for her father?

I enjoy having her at home as she has quite a curious nature about her and enjoys talking even though her English is a little broken. She likes animals and children and spends a great deal looking out for my astral son and his friend. She has a much better life. She still sometimes reverts to things through trauma… we have family dinners on astral and she has blanked out staring at a cup at the table on an occasion. Other times she enjoys garden strolls.

I shared her story on tumblr because her struggles need to be realised… I’m not saying kill your abuser… but her story is a symbol of hope that things do get better. Despite her struggles in life, she has sort of moved past them and found happiness in simple things.

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Spirit Keeping Journal Entry #9: Dancing With The Devil- The Hitmen Of The Other World

⚠️ Trigger Warning ⚠️ Sexual violence and general violence

“Black arts can only do harm”

My journey through spirit keeping has opened up my opinions quite a lot over time and also introduced me to spirits who aren’t everyone’s cup of tea. I believe nature is chaotic, cruel and at times sometimes comes in the guise of an innocent child- she’s neither good nor bad but, She is destructive and must be respected…. I hold this same regard to darker entities and spirits. The first time I was introduced to something much darker it was a water symbolic entity with a taste for games. Now, traditional witchcraft teaches a certain rule of respect to entities who are on the darker end as it fashions the witch into being “one step ahead” and beginning working relationships. This respect allows us to create the most beneficial of relations with a being who is often quite powerful.

Now… the above being said…. Black arts do have a purpose other than magic, but you will find that often they are more interested in a sort of give and take friendship which allows a working project. They help you and you help them with whatever the agreement was originally. Black arts are not the same thing as feeder entities who exist solely to feed and leech off of others- they are intelligent and able to hold their own. They do still ask for energy feedings but they can be contracted. Feeder trickster beings will only make you believe that you are in control and take regardless of what the agreement was.

Many will not agree with my logic here, and that’s fine. In my household there is limited house rules- there is only “treat others with respect”. Being a conjurer I like to know the true nature of things and with these beings they have a bit more rein so they can really show who they really are. I’ve found that in my journey, if you give that respect to the being, accepting that they are more powerful than you and could probably snap you in two… an understanding is formed. In terms of goetic gods, it’s stated that the gods should never be treated with ignorance or trapped within confines. The magician knows that these beings are hella powerful but doesn’t seem to entrap or order them around. in a way this is DONT POKE THE VENOMOUS SNAKE! because if you keep poking him with that stick you will receive the fangs.

Being a much darker Spirit Companion, I believe that BA are a thing of beauty in their own right. They truely are a wonder.

Now, keep in mind what I said before…. And now remember this…. If you have not been spirit keeping for at least 6-7 years- you should not be having entities of such a nature without house rules. You must respect the snake, but also keep the anti venom to the side where it is easily accessible. Make sure they know the boundaries but do not order them around asking them to do your dirty work without payment. You gotta pay the hitman who’s protecting your house. Mention to them that if they do slip up then you will have to resort to keeping them out- usually spirits who lash out after this are only after one thing.

I’ve had a certain angelic entity within my circle for about 5 years now and we have recently started a romantic partnership. E is not your typical angelic being… he would be considered a fallen angel by human standards but still fashions his white wings. E is an entity used specifically by others of his race to seek out others and destroy them- a sort of angelic hitman if you will. This is generally difficult to explain as his case is so complex and so is his cultural background. You may ask why angels are running around killing other entities- but that is his purpose. Now, on this plane… e spends a lot of his time around others of my family who all adore him regardless of his difficult and sometimes chaotic nature. E is very good at noticing things that are going awry and reading between the lines and this is why he has been assigned a companion protector. He not only looks out for me but also keeps an eye on everyone’s general safety and has also chased away a few rotten spirits looking for a free feed. We are under the assumption that most BA are bloodthirsty and have no redeeming qualities. Bloodthirsty… yes, in some cases. E does have a bloodthirsty streak and sometimes does lack empathy- he also hides his gooey soft side as his job and his actions require him to close off so that his prey cannot get to him. He will sometimes go missing for a week at a time and usually this is when he’s working. E does not usually show his softer side and has only come forward once to sort of show sexual gratification- it was rather strange in the way that it sort of opened up that we both felt something for eachother.

Within my keep is also an entity who is not so much involved with the others- he tends to be quite solitary unless he comes forward to help with curse magic etc or moon workings. I mentioned him before early in this post, he is the shadow man if you will… the one who lurks in the shadows and sends the tingles up your spine. B is more so electronic in his personality- loves a good riddle, the trickster but also the one to get the job done. B is considered BA because there really is no boundary to his morals.

The thing is, they come in all shapes and sizes, they each are different.

It’s wise to understand why they are calling to you though- with B it was because I sparked his interest at the time with my moon magic and he had also witnessed my energy after being with another conjurer that I know of… E it was because of energy similarities and he felt that I was a person who was understanding of his difficulties.

Remember that magic is neither black nor white and as mentioned before.. is balanced in cruelty and kindness.

When things go wrong

Early in my conjuring career I deliberately conjured something I thought I could reason with. At first he came forward and seemed relatively approachable. He was approachable but in a way also had an air about him that was more insidious. He regularly showed up talking about how a certain thing in my household had intrigued his interest and this thing sort of led to the next steps- he was all smiles. Being a cult worshipper in life he clung to the fact that I had a baphomet statue within my room and brought it up quite regularly. (No offence to any satanists here but this man followed a warped view of satan worship and was very violent in nature). I didn’t think much of his ramblings at first but as I did get closer to him I was experiencing dreams each night of being chased. The dream would always start in a blank room and he would be standing before me. I was chained to a chair in this room and he would then proceed to carry out sexual acts even though I screamed… during one episode I broke free and sprinted down a long corridor. The dream repeated for three days. On the 4th day he was banished from the household and several companions were alerted to his dealings.

Entities and spirits who do lash out should be exorcised from the home and you without any second chances… especially the ones like above. In folk magic there is also a way to catch and dispose of beings who are difficult… the same as the trad witch will use a blade to threaten any being who oversteps his or her boundaries. Letting a being who is doing you harm know that you are armed is sometimes crucial to stopping the abuse- but this is used more for ceremonial act and for spirits who are strangers to the witch.

The moral of this post-

Show respect but keep your anti venom on hand and don’t torment the snake.

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Spirit Keeping Journal Entry #8: spirit keeping and the low times

I’ve been a depression and anxiety sufferer for over 10 years now and regularly go through stages where I just feel unmotivated to do anything but lay in bed. I don’t sit and draw and don’t continue with hobbies…. Avoid friends and family and my spirit companions sort of suffer for it. I have really low days where I cannot bring myself into communication and everything is an effort or gets put off until the next day. My spirit family understand these phases and they do their best to work around things when I’m feeling this way. Now, I believe that spirit companions are a very long term commitment… almost for life in most cases… we experience guilt when we don’t communicate with them regularly and we may come to conclusions in thought such as “my companions think I’m boring” or “I cannot provide”.

So, I think this is appropriate.

Here is a little every day thing that can be done to help you and your companions get through stages like this. They are very short and designed more for acknowledging the companion while you cannot easily break through due to stresses in life. They’re simple enough that they don’t require lots of energy.

A Goodmorning or goodnight to ——name—- (simply whisper it or say it mentally, they’ll get it).

Often candles and incense are great for down time, I recommend the store bought cones and light a candle for them. In a way this is “I’m lighting this candle for you to symbolise that you’re not alone”.

Welcome them to lay next to you.

Make a cup of tea and offer the first sip to them. Remind yourself that self care is an important thing and if that means making yourself a sandwich or simply pouring yourself a cup of water then do so by also honouring their presence and give a portion of that food to them.

Keep them in your thoughts, think about them before you go to bed- it’s the thought that counts. They’ll pick up when this happening too btw. I’ve been feeling quite off lately and my spirit partner has been doing check ins so sometimes when you don’t deliberately think of them it can be in fact “I’m here, are you ok?”

If you’re like me and you retreat to the bath tub whenever you’re feeling Ill, invite them along.

Sometimes I like to leave vessels next to my bed if I’m going through stages like this… or I simply sleep with the vessel.

Just remember to keep in mind that not all the low times are depression or anxiety related but you can go through stages of doubt. These should also help them.

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Spirit Keeping Journal Entry #7: One mans trash is another mans treasure.

This will be a little bit of a long post. I often get asked about offerings such as raw meat or blood etc- usually because it’s either been requested or it can be an entities food source. Usually these questions are “how long should I leave it for?” Or “how do I even offer blood?”

So…. Here goes:

Blood Offerings

DO NOT harm yourself to give a blood offering, you can do a much better technique of offering blood on the astral realm and cutting oneself is not in the best interest and is also dangerous. If you are going to give physical blood offerings- use a diabetic lancet and do it on the finger tip- leave the blood on a cotton ball for about 3 hours and Make sure to use an alcohol swab on the area before using the lancet. Blood offerings are more for darker spirits and entities and some vampiric ones. If a spirit ever asks you to harm yourself and they claim that is the only way you can offer to them, then you should be carrying out a banishing. With astral blood giving, you are not at a high risk of harming yourself and any energy given on the other realm can be replenished. In the case of astral blood, you can use the same visualisation of the blood pouring into a small bowl and then handing it to the entity or spirit. Please for the love of kranskys though…. Make sure it is the correct spirit / entity that you are offering to. Ask them a personal question to make sure they are who they say they are.

Meat Offerings

During your spirit journey you will come across spirits and entities who will request meat as an offering. The first ever spirit to ask for this was actually a vampiric entity whom is part of my personal companion circle- we arrange to have a steak each month for him which he prefers to be rare. Darker spirits are not always the ones to ask for this type of offering and you will occasionally get animal spirits who enjoy this- my raven friend has a soft spot for chicken hearts which are left on the altar for a short time for him along side bread that has been buttered and a glass of fresh water.

So how do we manage meat offerings?

If you’re not the type of person to be able to handle this aspect of offering you can come to another arrangement with the spirit or entity, but the best options are below:

Leave the meat out for them for a short period of time- away from pets and not long enough for it to smell.

You can eat the item yourself but dedicate a portion of the meat to them.

Portions can be found at your local butcher (support small business)

Organ cuts are much cheaper if you are worried about coin and often they’re favoured by many spirits.

When leaving it out, you can cook it to their liking or simply leave raw (try to leave salt off it)

Always give thanks to the animal who has been sacrificed for food - give something in return. This should be the same with plants too.

Strange offerings

You may come across beings who don’t ask for meat or blood but ask for random items such as Hair or finger nails…. This is a little bit of a concern if you don’t know them well and this should be avoided as in some cultures, offering a spirit personal bodily effects can mean signing magical contracts or handing over your personal energy- allowing them to do with it as they please. A faerie I once worked with had found a new companion and asked his new companion to have a left shoe ready with his companions hair clippings inside. Sometimes the most curious things can get you into quite a bit of trouble- this wasn’t the case with “S” but be wary. Other spirits may ask for

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Spirit Keeping Journal Entry #6: A Trickster

I have been practising for quite some time now and through this journey have made some great connections with my customers... some have even become my friends.

A few weeks ago I was contacted by a regular customer of mine who had purchased a vessel from another seller. She complained that she was receiving negative vibes and thoughts which didn't seem like her own but had malicious intent towards her. She had no clue which vessel was the culprit at the time but I agreed to help her with this issue.

About 5 days later 6 vessels arrived in the mail (Sometimes my clients live close enough to the point where they can drop their vessels off to me if needed for vessel transfers etc) and at first picking through the package I felt an off feeling coming from within - at this time it was unclear where the vibe was coming from so i got to work.

It was clear within 24 hours that the one vessel that was causing the issue was a copper charm wrapped in a gold bag. The being residing within was pretending to be something it was not and claimed to be a spirit of the draconic kind. After retrieving the information the vessel went through another check with another medium who confirmed the vessel contained a trickster spirit within.

The process

The process was a little gruelling - I summed up enough energy that i had to create a prison for the being to reside in as we were worried that the original seller would only deny the existence of what was inside and try to resell the vessel if it was returned to her- thus only giving the problem to someone else to deal with.

The vessel was placed in a small jar with vinegar and other items and the spirit was giving threats of breaking the jar -SMASH- The jar did burst on the kitchen bench as I was working on it - I stood shocked for a moment - there was a perfect hole in the glass where it had broken - I was quite amused when I realised i could use the broken shards to effectively "Trap" the being inside so i prepared another jar and placed the shards so they faced downward as if pinning the vessel down. After a good 2 hours of prep and a whole cup of vinegar and peppercorn was spread on the bench i felt like the contents had finally helped to hold the trickster. There was no longer a pain in my fingers or a weird sensation travelling through my neck.

The jars final destination was a place far away from the home.