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Lmao, valid xD it was super fun though, and I've always loved doing these.

4 . Lies catch me off guard and I don't care anymore. Though even so, you're right in that it does help!

6. I have both! :D its a whole lot better than it once was though. Though its a work in progress and I was curious on a possible new perspective.

7. Lol, its alright xD thanks! Didn't wanna get more serious after 6, so I'll take this as a win :P

9. I don't think anyone knows what they wanna talk about. At least for me, i dont mind anything as long as theres some kind of joy on the topic or something like that.

Twas fun, but my brain is tired for now. Worth it xD

Screw it, you're getting all of em, enjoy! xD (as long as you're okay with it, that is, otherwise dw :3)

1 - ask me things you want to know about me

Okay, in relation to fencing, are there any other extracurricular activities you've tried, or wanted to try, over the years, thats probably a result of your exposure to fencing?

Also, i don't know how accurate the princess bride is, but if theres different kinds of fencing styles, whats your preferences, and why? (Like as in depth as possible, im interested in the small details)

2 - why you follow me

So you were one of a few blogs a certain individual recommended to me when i first downloaded tumblr, probably because it was also around the time i got into the MTP anime.

The thing is, all this was sorta new to me. Fandoms, online interactions, communities, and pretty much everything somehow xD and im 22 now, so it wasn't even that long ago.

Anyways, i dont think i pay much attention to a blogs purpose, moreso than the vibe of the person behind it, if that makes sense. And once i got my bearings, i suppose Marr just became one of those people i grew a liking to, yk.

3 - what’s on your mind/what you’re thinking about

"Damn im bad at colour theory, is orange even fitting? I wonder if Marr uses dark or light mode (I use dark) and if that would make much of a difference. Oh well, C'est la vie, orange is a banger choice xD"

But on a more serious note, im kinda embarrassed and nervous if this gets perceived as weird or too much, but pushing through cause im hopeful the good vibes reach you :3 but if not, then worry not

4 - a compliment

I like the kind of person that you are :3 in your admirations and frustrations, its all the same in that you're just real. I dont feel like im being lied to, and theres an air of bliss that comes with it that i dont often see as much as i thought i would in everyday life. And ive been meaning to say this for a while, but thank you for being exactly the way you were that one time. I needed that, and I just hope you don't worry about it :3

5 - make me choose between two things

Would you rather be everything that you currently are now but never progress further in the sense that no matter how much time passes, you'll be the same, but also still have your friends and hobbies and everything else you currently have

Or

Be anything that you want, overcoming all your own trauma and illness, having the perfect anything if you so want, with no more stress or worry for anything, and continuing life from that point on, but at the cost of not being anything that you are now, in terms of what matters. Outlook on life, friends, circumstances, all left behind.

6 - ask for advice

I feel kinda stuck. I've grown a lot of bad habits and routines, things like procrastination, avoidance, inability to do anything without a ton of motivation when i never used to be this bad before. I'm not giving up, though it does feel like everything i do means nothing cause the habits are rooted for so long, its hard to do anything but them. Got anything relating to discipline? I used to thrive at it in the past, but alas xD

7 - tell me a secret

I think I fucking rock the look of wearing my grandma's thigh highs (im an amab 22 y/o) xD

8 - things you associate me with

Teacups! Dragons! Teacups in dragons! The act of seeing teacups in dragons! XD

That aside lol, mtp content, job hunting perseverance, the idea that not everyone will just leave when they say they won't (or just out of the blue without noticeable warning). Also, that one specific post you made a while back where you mentioned how good for your mental health it is to just schedule check-ups with friends (I think you used an example of weekly or monthly checkups with hyper, i believe) lives rent free in my head, and it actually did encourage me to start doing that, and its helped a ton! (Though not exactly the same thing, since its just currently more of a reminder at intervals, rather than scheduling with both parties, but baby steps lol). Also, you were one of the first people i can remember coming across who talked about mental health, and i think that helped me quite a bit since i havent been that online a lot in the past.

9 - anything!!!!

Showing Appreciation is great, and i love doing it! Though im absolutely horrendous doing so randomly, but being prompted to really does a lot, so thanks for mentioning in the tags you wanted and didnt get any, that helps a lot with doing the thing I wanna do, if that makes sense.

Furthermore, I wanted to know if there's anything you're curious to ask, or share, and just needed some kinda prompt for or something? :3

Do I mind getting lots of questions? No. Do I feel weird about getting asks this long? Kinda yes, because I feel like no one wants to then read my answers lmao.

Anyway.

The Princess Bride is one of film's more accurate fencing portrayals, believe it or not. There's a fair bit of fussing around, but there's definitely also a fair bit of actual accuracy.

There are different styles of fencing, and there are different types of fencing...Olympic sport fencing, which is what I've done (obviously not on Olympic level, but the same sport) has three different weapons with different rules used differently, but Olympic sport fencing is quite different from HEMA fencing. Are there transferable skills? Yeah. But there are different emphases and needs and...goals.

I was a pretty active kid involved in a lot of activities, but I don't think there's anything I picked up because of fencing.

2.

"A certain individual" What does that mean. I mean, several people have told me similar things, so there's probably multiple people out there recommending my YuuMori meta, but like. ????

When I was your age, I was also very new to the internet and fandoms in general for the most part because my parents were very...restrictive. I still feel weird in fandoms. I don't really interact with them the way most people do.

3.

I don't know what orange would be fitting for. Personally, I'm not a fan and it's probably going to look weird on my mostly-purple blog theme, but y'know, whatever.

I just use the default color setting on Tumblr. So I guess that's...light mode? But it's a pretty dark vibe overall for most websites, so it sure doesn't feel like it. I use dim mode on Bsky. There's something very harsh about true black and bright white on a computer screen that bothers my eyes, so I like the charcoal.

4.

Once, a college friend introduced me to some people with "This is Marr, ze's very honest," and you know what. Fair.

Which is not to say I don't know how to lie or that I never do. But for the most part, I don't see the point, and as someone with an anxiety disorder, I hope it's helpful to other people to know where I stand on them.

People tend to find it very polarizing.

5.

I don't even know how to answer this. The things I want and care about and want to pursue would fundamentally preclude being able to have them while abandoning my current self and all the things that make me who I am and where I am. Like. The second option doesn't...make sense, and the first is equally baffling. Being static is the same as being dead.

6.

Honestly, this sounds more like you need a therapist and possibly a psychiatrist than you need internet advice. This sounds like the way my brain works when the anhedonia kicks in. Like, I don't think discipline is the problem, if you're still doing things despite feeling hopeless and helpless inside.

7.

I don't really know how to respond to this one, tbh. Good for you? In like a non-sarcastic way?

8.

I actually don't like tea. That's not where my username comes from. And now I can't free myself from it.

Not really sure where the job hunting thing comes in. Feels a little tender right now given how long I have been unemployed at this point.

As for talking about mental health...I don't really know what to say to that, either. It's a thing some people do, and some people don't. It's a fine line to walk. I think I tend to fall a little too far on Oversharing sometimes that I would like to walk back some.

9.

Eh, I just want to talk to people. My inbox has been quiet lately and sometimes it means I don't know what to talk about. Dunno what people want to chat about. It's kind of exhausting to have to think of ideas on my own all the time. Not much of a conversation.

Thanks for sending!

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reblog if you’d like one of these in your inbox

- ask me things you want to know about me

- why you follow me

- what’s on your mind/what you’re thinking about

- a compliment

- make me choose between two things

- ask for advice

- tell me a secret

- things you associate me with

- anything!!!!

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A random little idea (not canon in my universe).

Briar, who had already been a Graveborn, tried human teleportation spell to sneak into the art gallery, but the spell misfired and she ended up in the bedchamber of a bedridden, dying Ludovic instead.

The dead girl was so prepared to be screamed at, but instead, the dying boy on the bed didn't seem to be afraid.

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Having ADHD is that your brain either feels like

Or

And it can switch in a matter of seconds.

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Omg im freaking out (in a good way xD)

The two adorable sweethearts 🥰

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This is probably the most encouraging thing I've read in terms of getting me to not break my routine. I don't wanna stress out the lil frens

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Adding on to number 6, but if you're struggling to stay organised because you have too many ways to be organised (for me, it's alarms, temp notebook 1 & 2, desk calendar, diary, the calendar app, emailing yourself, whatsapping yourself, the notes app, notes in each designated book for a campus module, and probably some other stuff) ehh.. try and tone it down lol. Sometimes less is more. At least have one method that takes priority over the others, and the rest can be in addition to it, rather than instead of.

There's a bunch of adhd advice out there that's like "people with adhd tend to work better under deadlines due to the anxiety so here are ways to artificially induce a stress response in order to get you to get work done" and it's like well what if I don't want to be stressed out all the time in order to function

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one of the guys in the kitchen at work got called irritating and replied “I am not irritating. You just find me irritating. There are many people who love me.” I think we should all adopt his attitude

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OOC post: Why Ciara and Briar rarely reaches out to other ask blogs

I'm supposed to post this on my main blog but since it's related to other ask blogs, I figured I should post here.

It's not because I hate you guys or anything! It's lore reason. In fact, I love it when people send me asks, it always puts a smile on my face and I always look forward to answering them.

The reason is that both Ciara and Briar are recluses, so it's only natural that they won't reach out unless necessary. But they really won't mind some interactions, so don't worry! (In fact, you guys can bother them if you want, it would be funny. Just remember to be civil and everything will be all good.)

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Some facts about Magister Ciara:

(Edited image to match her appearance better. She's supposed to pass down her hair and her eyelashes to Briar, after all.)

Quick overview of Magister Ciara, full name Ciara Hepburn: She's a Graveborn looking around 50 years old, currently using a disguise that looks almost like her 25-year-old human self but with blue eyes instead of black. It is unknown where she originated from, but after her deceased daughter returned as a Graveborn, she moved to Whiteridge along with her family. Later on, she also became a Graveborn, spent centuries honing her magic and climbed to the title of Merlin.

Questions are under cut:

How old is Ciara? Around 2000, but she wasn't old enough to participate in the First Divine War. She is 20 years older than Briar.

How tall is Ciara? Around 177cm/5'10". She had a growth spurt that boosted her height by around 20cm/8" at the age of 16 - slower than most other people, but a big increase in height.

Ciara's maiden name? Ciara Sullivan - which makes her name literally mean "dark-haired dark-eyed". Which was fitting because as a human, she had eyes of an obsidian black colour. Her hair remains unchanged compared to her human self in this disguise.

How did Ciara become a Graveborn? What happened after that? She used gravecalling magic on herself, out of fear her daughter - who became a Graveborn for a mysterious reason after her demise - would become lonely. However, she lost her memory after her resurrection (like Niru but worse) and spent a century or so wandering. After regaining her memory, she was too embarrassed to reunite with Briar, hence she spent a long time watching her from afar until the girl finally had her first friend.

Why did Ciara decide to become Merlin? Ciara found out that Merlin would help to erase the prejudices against the Graveborns in Whiteridge, and she wanted to do that herself. However, when that happened, she remembered nothing.

Before Season 3 (Chains of Eternity), does anyone know Ciara is a Graveborn? No. Not a single soul.

Has anyone suspected her being related to the Graveborns or being one of them? Yes. Faramor, after smelling the decay smell on her. Ludovic, after noticing her resemblance to Briar's deceased mother, down to the little quirks (terrible handwriting, fixing glasses with the knuckle of her index finger, etc.)

What happened during/after the canon events of Season 3 for Ciara? Ciara met Briar then discovered that the two are mother and daughter. Before leaving Whiteridge, she managed to regain all of her memories back when she was still human and the time she spent watching over Briar. She later revealed her identity to Briar and all of the playable Graveborns currently in Whiteridge, and promised Briar that she would return once she has fulfilled her duty as Merlin.

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*bonk bonk bonk*

I need someone or maybe as many someone’s and possible to hit me so I stop scrolling on tumblr and get that writing thing done that’s been my roadblock for I kid you not months

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And another gentle hello, to those who realize the effort they put in and who show appreciation and kindness to them both before or after they start to feel as if their efforts aren't enough.

It's sometimes an effort to stave off becoming resentful or hateful and continue to instead look at things with a perspective that lets you be able to still be vulnerable and love things as openly as possible.

But a gentle voice or some show of kindness or validation, like OP, can sometimes be all that's needed to make everything better. Thanks. It really does go a long way. <3

just saying a gentle hello to people with depression or trauma who’s lives are and have always been full of love. Genuine, sincere love.

because sometimes the love doesn’t stop the bad things happening. Or people who love you also hurt you unintentionally. Or the love of several close people can’t fully shield the hatred or intolerance of the world around you. Or sometimes it’s in your genes, and the genes of the people who love you.

you’re not ungrateful. You’re not insincere. You’re not hateful or spiteful. These things just happen sometimes.

I hope the love you have in your life now makes things a little softer and a little brighter, even if it can’t get rid of the hurt completely.

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They should invent a method of asking for reassurance that nobody secretly hates you that doesn't make people secretly hate you.

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they need to invent the opposite of an nda called an fda where u have to tell everyone everything

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