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Twisted back piercing by Aco

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That’s insane that I’ve been extremely drunk looking around my room for a dildo that I lost like wtf where would I put this thing like there’s no whay that I threw it away. Two hours of looking and I can’t find this thinlg like what!?!?! Loosing my mind and stiff. Also lowkey so sad about everything and life and want to live in an abandoned church but whatever

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Time of my life!!! Thriving!!!! In my lane!!!! Grandparents gave me the ok to move in and were literally thriving so hard!!!!!! Enjoying my vacation so much right now!!!! Went water skiing and tubing and drank an ungodly amount of beer. Amazing vacation!!!!!! Love the grandparents and can’t wait to move in I’m so happy I feel so free and refreshed!!!!!

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i think everyone that I’m friends with is only friends with me because they don’t want to be rude and say they hate me but still won’t put in the effort to ask how I’m doing until I end up outright saying I want to die and won’t ask when I bring up the million other things that indicate that beforehand.

also got mushrooms and weed from Cuba so that’s cool for the vacation I’m on currently… yay

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i’ve had a feeling that something bad is going to happen to me for like weeks now and istg every day it gets worse and worse. I don’t think I’ll die or anything just I feel like any chance at a break is taken away from me and there’s no control I have over anything in my life. I just want to have some kind of feeling of knowing what’s happening in my life and I don’t

Each time I get closer to a break I get two steps back. There’s just nothing to do to get away from it all. I feel like I don’t have a single genuine connection in my life. Every connection I have with a person in my life is in someway an act. I can never feel comfortable with a person enough to really tell them everything about me. There’s always some big piece of me in withholding due to judgment.

I want to just drive away and forget everything but I can’t and I don’t want to die but I just want peace from everything and I can’t get that no matter what I do. I don’t think I’ll ever truly feel myself in the situation I’m in but there no feasible way to escape it for atleast another two years and I’m just trapped here. Any sort of ambition or passion I have has been or will be shut down by rhe people around me and my whole life is being decided by a decision I made when I was 16-17 years old and I can’t change now because I’ve already wasted so many other peoples time and money.

I don’t hate life or want to die and I don’t want to sound like I do or sound like I just complain or over exaggerate I just feel this way

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wish I could just be free in life like I just feel trapped and can’t do anything like I’m just stuck and I can’t do anything without someone saying I can’t or that’s dumb like I jsut want to live my life. I want to do something in nature but I’m locked in for the rest of my life behind a decision I made in 11th grade and nobody understands this.

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ugghng I hate always being the one who has to initate a conversation with any of my firends like omg people I’ve known for 5+ years never text me unless I text them and get mad when I say somethkfn?? I literally hate initiating every conversation with a person cause it makes me feel like they don’t actually want to talk to me like omg how hard is it to text and just say hey or ask abt my day?!?!?

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trans women should be legally permitted to hunt and kill annoying guys on grindr. this may seem extreme, but a keener eye will see that it is basic praxis.

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asking “hey is it fine if I set up a full rack of salmon over a fire in here” and before you’re able to answer I’ve already smoked half a pack in your living room

asking "hey is it fine if I smoke in here" and before you're able to answer I've already set up a full rack of salmon over a fire in your living room

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i bet being kicked repeatedly until you can't move feels good as fuck when you feel like you deserve it

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actually having the shittiest past 10 days so if it’s not better by Friday I will be taking all my money out of my bank and driving as far as I can get into the mountains and die in a freak accident such as my car rolling down a cliff

real talk though this week sucks and I’ve been closer to my friends now but I actually feel like I have nobody to talk to about how I’ve been feeling like at all and I feel like I’m a burden to everyone lowkey :/

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going to ask grandparents to live with them for the summer. They will say yes cause I’m awesome and tjeir favorite but I am still very nervous

I will in fact be on as the kids the “the ganja” before I go because work sucked but we ball!

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if I was a fish I would love to be in a super toxic relationship with a gar but nobody would know he’s toxic cause he’s so cute like this guy :0

Front facing gar

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your boyfriend would be much happier as something else. like a girl or a bug

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Hello fish nation, please enjoy some silly gouache fish paintings