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New Cover from Gangan Joker

This cover + a postcard will be included in the physical edition of this month (22nd July) magazine of Vanitas!

If you want to buy it, I recommend using amazon.jp

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ON TUMBLR FOR HALF MY LIFE

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Last of the current attacks

1.) Benjamin by @doctorghoti

2.) Thane by Liquibites

3.) Elliot by @themorron-tm

4.) Sloth by @spectorsorrows

5.) Eikthyr by Defelala

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This is what info dumping oc lore feels like

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Hey so I see folks with alot of the same issues, and alot of other people going "hey man its not like that" and the first group going "man your crazy". And from personal experiance it became very suddenly Not Like That once I moved 2000 miles away from my hometown so i gotta ask

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Mochijun posted a teaser WIP of little Dante on her twitter :)

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My advice to every artist (and honestly, everyone, but it’s especially relevant if you want to make art yourself) is to learn to appreciate everything other people make. Especially things you don’t like! Look at weird, ugly, bad art, with clashing colors and weird proportions and botched perspective and tropey subjects. Look at things made by amateurs an hobbyists and children, with shaky lines and incomprehensible detail. Look at everything you might find cringe or unpleasant - look at furries and gore and fetish porn and all the niche fandom crossovers. Look at art from cultures you don’t know well, look at things made hundreds of years ago, look at paintings from art movements you don’t know or don’t like at the museum. Look at photography and sculptures and fashion shows and murals on buildings and the design of everyday objects like chairs or lampposts or cars. Look at animation and comics and advertising, even the design on your cereal box.

And each time you look, try to find one thing you can appreciate about it. It’s fine if you don’t enjoy the art, but try to find something in it that has value, something you can respect about it, something that moves the world. It can be mastery of a technique, it can be the emotion conveyed, the thought it provoked, it can be color choice, composition, originality, or it can simply be the act of creation itself. Even in art that makes you uncomfortable, art that you find disgusting or bland or vile or ugly or just lame. You need to learn to see it. It’s ALWAYS there. Really look for it. Because you can learn from every single one of these things. Ask yourself why the artist made this, why they made it in this way. Wonder what someone other than you might see that you don’t see, if it has a meaning you just can’t grasp.

You will learn about the value of art, what it means to create, what it means to be human. If you can appreciate those things, it’ll reflect in how you make your own art. Not only will it deepen your relationship to art as a whole, but it’ll allow you to jump past the initial instinct to look away and give you the opportunity to notice techniques and patterns that you maybe wouldn’t have thought to use otherwise! You can learn from the masters, but you can also learn from everyone else. Learn to see the soul in art! I promise it’s worth it.

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So here's what happened on Reddit:

A transmasc posted about how transmascs and trans men are often invisible, how our issues are dismissed, and how resources, especially medical ones, are almost always written with non transmascs in mind. They posted this both to r/Trans and r/lgbt.

A moderator of r/Trans responded by telling them to “stop bitching.” That’s the word they used. That’s the level of respect trans men get. Transandrophobic by the way, don't call trans men bitches.

The comment was deleted, quietly, after backlash. Then the entire post was removed. When asked why, a mod responded that the post was “playing oppression olympics,” and took the time to go through and dismiss each of the original poster’s points, including saying that trans men being sexually assaulted isn’t “unique to transmascs” and therefore not an issue, and claiming that access to testosterone isn’t any more restricted than access to estrogen, which is a straight-up lie, because T is a tightly controlled substance in most places and E is not.

The original poster was banned for three days.

Then a separate mod made a post saying, “nobody asked us our side of the story,” which is wild because people absolutely did, publicly and repeatedly. Users also started reporting that they’d had supportive comments removed or had been banned after disagreeing with the mods, some of those claims are still unconfirmed, but given the general behavior, it wouldn’t be surprising.

Then r/Trans locked down entirely. No new posts. The conversation was forcibly ended.

Some people posted about it on r/FTM, many of those posts were mass-reported, automatically removed by Reddit’s automod, or quietly buried. Meanwhile, r/lgbt also removed the original post, with no explanation.

One of the r/Trans mods eventually posted an “apology,” which was really just a soft-scrubbed PR post full of noncommittal language and distancing. They said they didn’t mean to call a trans man “a bitch,” they just used it synonymously with “complaining,” and they didn’t think about the implications until later even though the first post was about microaggressions just like the mod committed. They did not apologize for anything else, not for wrongfully banning people, not for accusing a transmasc venting like any other user of playing oppression olympics, nothing at all. They said they’re on break and can’t do anything about it. They said, and I quote, “please don’t be mad at the rest of the team.” even though the rest of the team are just as culpable for not stopping their behavior.

They also added that trans men are “a welcome part of the community” and tried to point at moderation history as proof. Because apparently we should be grateful that people occasionally get banned, every so often, for implying trans men aren't oppressed at all, wow, thanks, that is like below the bare minimum, cool.

The current state of things is: r/Trans has over 600,000 members, and trans men and transmascs were silenced, banned, and told to shut up for bringing up their own oppression. And the subreddit is locked down. There’s a mass exodus happening to the new sub, r/trans4every1, but let’s be real, the damage has already been done.

Now let’s talk about what this actually means.

This is not “just more Tumblr discourse.” This isn’t some random blog saying they don’t like transmascs. This isn’t a Twitter reply guy. This isn’t a niche zine or a spicy personal take. This is a massive trans-focused subreddit with over half a million users. It's easily one of the largest public facing trans community online, maybe even the largest, I've certainly never found a bigger one myself. And the moderation team made it crystal clear: they do not want transmascs to feel safe or welcome there.

This is what transandrophobia looks like on a slightly larger internet scale. When it’s in the hands of people who get to decide who gets heard and who gets deleted.

And for anyone who’s still stuck on “well they apologized” listen: trans men are told all the time that we’re being too loud, too angry, too entitled, too manly, too feminine, too confusing, too “binary,” too "Nonbinary", too much. We’re told that we’re “oppression olympics-ing” just for talking about our lives. And now we're getting banned and locked out of the spaces that claim to represent a huge portion of online trans people.

This isn't just online drama. This is a bellwether. And if it isn’t setting off alarms in your head, it should be.

The way transandrophobia manifests in online spaces absolutely bleeds into real life, into medical gatekeeping, into poor data collection, into the erasure of sexual violence against transmascs, into advocacy groups that write us out of the picture, into educational materials that treat us like footnotes, if they include us at all.

And if you’re sitting there thinking, “well it’s not that deep,” you’re part of the problem.

We need to start being more honest about this: Transandrophobia is real, it is widespread, and it is growing. We need to stop giving people the benefit of the doubt when they’ve shown us they don’t want us in the room.

And frankly?

We need to start making TRFs [Trans Radfems & transmasc-exclusionary feminists alike] deeply uncomfortable being open about their beliefs. We need to make them afraid to be TRFs, the way they’re trying to make us afraid to exist.

The same way we don’t coddle fascists. The same way we don’t tolerate TERFs. We need to stop tiptoeing around transandrophobia.

Because this growing wave of transandrophobia is going to kill people. Full stop.

Protect trans men. Protect transmascs. Protect your siblings; all of them!

Edit because I forgot to add it:

Another thing worth noting is that not only was r/trans deleting and banning any users and posts talking about the situation, they were deleting any posts talking about transmasc issues or transmasc positivity full stop.

Even when those posts had nothing to do with the current issue. They were being silenced. They were being actively erased, in a trans space.

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#Melanin Beam Challenge!

Masterpost for what's going on:

⏲️When: August 8th⏲️

📜The directions📜

👩🏾‍💻 How to post 👩🏾‍💻

☀️ The CBC Summer Challenge ☀️

If you have any further questions, comments, or concerns, please let me know 🙏🏾

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a revenge for @si-cucumber on his santhanus! i had a lot of fun drawing the dress (i imagine it's dark blue velvet with embroidered gold stars, but i havent quite gotten the hang of drawing textures yet)

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God I am sick of commission bots.

Do you know how depressing it is to have the one note I get on art here be from a bot :'D

This is why I post to bsky

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More attacks!

1.) Marja by Alinxhen

2.) Orson by @worrywrrt

3.) Teser by @heckosart

4.) Stin by Gyarutobii

5.) Uriel by @impydragon

6.) Ageha by Azuregemmabyte

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