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Been thinking a lot about girlhood and the monstrosity of puberty and menstruation.

Being only a child and waking up in a pool of blood, bloated, in pain. Seeing all the new ways your body has twisted and no longer recognizing yourself. But you can't talk about it because it's a taboo subject and you learn to just endure it all in silence and shame. Any words about it is only spoken in a hushed embarrassed tone or loud mocking.

A girl who becomes a monster with no guidance. Always being told that everything about her is shameful.

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happy pride! trans horse be upon ye

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Did some sketchbook animations during dokomi! The first horse didnt feel completely right, so i did some soul searching on how horses "roll" through canter, and it turned out much better!

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licensed from @morggo

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the constant regulation of afab bodies to maintain them for repoduction reguardless of anything else is so disgusting. it fuels so many of the social bullshits it seems, from both repdouctive rights to queer rights, so soakedin racism. blessed be those which spread the actually useful infomation

All the middle aged women in my life : periods are so great, and they renew blood regularly so it makes you so much healthier

My blood tests concluding that I have a severe iron deficiency anemia due to heavy blood loss which also entails a drastic lack of white blood cells :

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wikipedia no longer being anywhere near the top of search results when looking up anything feels eviscerating

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me and my homies support real artists who put their passion into their pieces instead of a machine who rips off the hard work of talented peeps

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Let's wash with mama

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"Useless ray of goddamn sunshine. You could have taught an old fool like me a lot."

Referenced Ivan the Terrible and His Son Ivan (1885)

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Strange Sensations I crave:

1: taking my spine out and wringing it real good so it cracks every area and helps the pain (fuck scoliosis)

2: taking my eyes out and putting them into a glass of cold water (refreshing for dry eye)

3: Take my skin off and give it a very good scrubbing and moisturizing (no more itchy eczema)

4: taking my brain out and deep cleaning it then soaking it in an ice bath (I'm convinced this would cure my migraines)

5: Scratching behind my eyes (they are often itchy)

7: eating my many pica cravings without it causing issues (i.e. sand, foaming soap, decorative bar soap)

8: taking my muscles apart and soaking each one in a warm bath and then giving it a deep massage (bye bye achy body)

9: Pulling my sinuses out and rinsing them thoroughly (I think it would help my allergies)

10: removing my bottom jaw to give me a break from my TMJ for a while (self-explanatory)

Please reblog this and add yours so I know I'm not crazy in wanting these things. My therapist says these are symptoms from my OCD so that's fun.

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You’re a magical person and even though I’ve been shit at communication these past years you never fail to amaze me with how far you’ve come from those early 2010 DA days

Seeing lots of mutuals share their yearly Art Summary But I've never really made one, so I decided to do things properly and do them all at once

According to DeviantArt, I have a total of exactly 1300 art posts uploaded online (excluding my animations) So it was a bit hard to only pick 108 of them perfectly scattered across the months. I remember once writing "if I don't draw I drop dead" and yeah, that pretty much sums it up because even when I am in the middle of an art block, I still draw, I just get very frustrated with whatever I do and usually scrap the piece.

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Hanging out with Fluttermop

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Sorry for being a bitch earlier, I needed to lay in the dark with my headphones for 3 hours to feel better

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pose reference

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I fully belive that if 049 knew what that word emo is he would use it in a derogatory way against 035 lol anyway autism birb lets goooooooooo

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i was trying to make a meme but i fucked up the audio layering and