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I ain't a wimp when I get writers block I STRESS ABOUT IT FOR A WEEK STRAIGHT, and not to ChatGPT like a coward. I face writers block like a man, laying in bed hours crying.

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I hate how one person is capable of destroying something you loved. I shared my love for art and painting with my father but now that he‘s out of my life it seems like he took the joy of being an artist with him. I love art — i really do, but every time i pick up a pencil or brush my mind reminds me of the chaos and pain created by the person who showed me how beautiful art can be. I hate him and that makes me hate myself — for being passionate about something we once shared. For liking something he liked. Im scared and thats the issue. Im scared of being like him and loving something he did makes me feel like im not me but my father’s daughter.

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Having a unusual safe food is so wierd bc what do you mean i ate nothing but Oranges for 2 days straight after being in a extremely overstimulated environment?????

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Merry christmas lovelies 🤍🎄

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Kuroken is too codependent to be long distance and if hes already baking the ppl he loves he might as well bake a shoyo

…and im back ig????

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Gay fanfiction is the only reason I believe in love

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Accidentally closed my 127 open tabs this feels like the burning of the Great Library of Alexandria

dO YOU KNOW HOW MANY OF THOSE FICS I FORGOT TO BOOKMARK ??!!?

This is more upsetting than it should be

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I really wanna do commission since i want to safe up some money for my semester abroad that i have to do for my degree but in the last 4 years of posting art online it just seems like all requests i get are either scams or just people that want are for free :(

I just never know how to post about it and promote my work without seeming annoying or pushy and since it would take me like 2 months for each commission (and i refuse to sell my are for like 5 bucks) it seems like people just aren’t interested

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I dident think life could throw more shit at me but oh well here we are 😃😃

Also this is me giving a sign of life bc ive been away from instagram and tumblr for a while

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!TW: death!

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For many people the holidays are a horrible time. Up until this year i thought i got lucky because while Christmas was never something i looked forward to, it also wasn’t something i was dreading. However cruel things happen when you expect them the least. And so now i am laying in my bed grieving a person that was alive two days ago. there is something so sinister and cruel about loosing someone while the world around you is celebrating, wishing you a merry Christmas and a good start into the next year. It still dosen’t feel real and i think it wont until the day i return to the motherland and see the grave. Death is always unforgiving and painful but i don’t think i will ever be able to see Christmas the same way. Because while the people around me are celebrating i will always see it as the day i lost her. The day i woke up with her being gone. The day i woke up from my mothers screams and cries for her. I knew it would happen someday soon, of course i did. After all she had cancer and was 74. i had hoped to see her one last time. Hear her voice one last time. See her smile one last time but life is unfair and so i lay here, questioning what could’ve been.

Writing has always been my way of coping with trauma. Sharing my grief is my way of understanding what is going on in my heart and not feeling alone.

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Hey!

If your interested in seeing art made my me that isn’t marauders related i have a new instagram account! I want to have a page where i can kinda just post anything and everything art related although it’s probably mostly going to be Kpop/ anime related art.

I would appreciate it if you look into it!!

Insta: @/artbyyejun

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Not being able to digitally draw for such a long amount of time is making me go crazy

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Love the immediate bonding

Making fandom friends is one of the best things I've ever done!

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No amount of love could save us

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Fun fact about me:

During 2017 my Hyyh/ Bangtan universe brainrot was so bad that up until this day i exclusively buy white lighters (and carry it around with me everyday even tho I don't smoke) and almost always write the Y•k on it

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Cutting my time on stan twt down to like 15min a day was one of the best thing ive done in the last two years