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I am an artist before anything else. If I die, I don't want parent or spouse written on my grave I want artist.

I am an artist before I am a friend, before I am a student, a lover, a companion or loving or feeling or learning.

I am an artist before I am human.

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i don’t like white ppl skewing these results so bad so WHITE PPL DNI. this is for poc ONLY

if you’re technically mixed but only identify with one thing, pick that one thing.

if you’re mixed with enough white that you consider it part of your racial identity, skip this one ty luv.

if you’re gonna ask “you forgot XYZ, is this white?” probably man idk. skip this one too.

pls rb for sample size god knows we’ll need it

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based off this text post lul :]

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distressing things to say to your friends

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if you’re a baby trans and you haven’t started smoking cigarettes or vaping yet don’t. it’s actually not that hot or interesting. It will just cause you ungodly frustrations and suffering and cost you a bunch of money and be next to impossible to quit

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When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

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PURPLE!! DROP MORE CANE POSE REFERENCES!!!! AND MY LIFE IS YOURSSSS!!!!! (only if you want to ofc :3) (also that revenge is coming I will get you)

*INHALE*

I WAS WAITING TO GET MY HAIR DONE AND ALSO FOR MY NEW CANE IN TO TAKE THESE!!! YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND!!!

(Part 1 here, where I provided cane references for the art community)

+ bonus doggy because he wanted to be in the video too

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trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you trans men i love you

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One of my favourite things is that in Lord of the Rings, sometimes the good guys, the powerful people that actually know more, are wrong or at least not completely right. My favourite example is Galadriel telling Frodo, "that to be a ring bearer is to be alone" (or something along those lines, I don't wanna look up the exact wording) But that's not true or at least not completely. Sure, nobody understands what Frodo goes through and his experience is because of that very isolating, but at the same time he is never alone. He always has support of his friends and companions even if they can't grasp what is happening to him. The best example being, ofcourse, Sam. Sam can't understand what Frodo goes through, but he helps him no matter what through everything, even when Frodo is so far in his head because of the ring that he doesn't realises he needs his help.

So to be a ring bearer is sure isolating, but Frodo is in no point alone. His friends are the whole time with him and support him in any way they think they can. Somehow Galadriel didn't think that.

(Disclaimer I could be completely wrong because I missed a detail, but I'm on pain meds rn and need to tell my thoughts to someone)

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I know it makes no sense for a prince from the dark to be afraid of…the dark, but think of it.

Being afraid of being alone in the dark where you belong. Not because you are afraid of seeing things, but because you won't be seeing light. Their light. The light you never knew you missed until you faced it, until it held you in a hug, until it tasted cotton candy with you.

Being afraid of the dark because now, it means loneliness. It means not seeing them.

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Take two cuz im forgetful - Genuine question

please rb im so curious

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I want an asexual wood nymph. I need an asexual wood nymph. That's all

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I might draw one...

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i made this version of that popular cake meme as a love letter to my favourite artists, writers, editors etc who keep making content about my favourite characters/ship

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I LOVE YALL!!!!!!!!

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sorry but someone assuming you have "left a fandom" when you don't post about it a lot anymore feels like bilbo coming home to the sackville bagginses having him presumed dead and selling all his stuff. girl i was just on a little quest????

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