soleilanips

[soleilanips]

you were like a ray of sunlight slowly slipping through the cracks in the walls i had built so high, not even my shadow can be seen. your presence gave warmth to the places i thought i had forgotten, seeping into spaces i thought i had already sealed. i stand at the edge of wanting or fearing because i had never once experienced love so alluring. tell me, is it fate that i must burn just so i can feel what it's like to be held by light? if so, then take my heart and break it for all i care. i'd do what it takes even if it meant crumbling in your hands. my love—for you, i would bleed.

[soleilanips]

tell me, mother. how much bigger must i be before i disappear completely?

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[soleilanips]

may love find me in the quiet moments

so i may feel the warmth of life once more.

[soleilanips]

journal entry #11

[soleilanips]

I know grief better than I know you.

Grief lingers where you do not. It is familiar and holds me closer than you ever did. You? You are a stranger I once thought I knew. Someone fleeting—a memory that fades in time. But grief? Grief remains.

[soleilanips]

i am made of my father's absence and my mother's expectations that i can only dream of achieving.