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Movies 2021

Movies I watched in 2021 (doesn’t mean they’re released in 2021)

A Ghost Story (US)

Portrait of a Lady on Fire (France)

Noche de Fuego [Prayers for the Stolen] (Mexico)

Memoria (Colombia, Thailand)

The Worst Person in the World (Norway)

Titane (France)

Pig (US)

Shiva Baby (US)

Deux [Two of Us] (France)

The Father (US)

Minari (South Korea, US)

Drive My Car (Japan)

Benedetta (Belgium)

Another Round (Denmark)

Midnight in a Perfect World (Philippines)

My First Summer (Australia)

Saint Maud (UK)

Wheel of Fortune and Fantasy (Japan)

Nomadland (US)

Cargo (Australia)

Lamb (Iceland)

A Quiet Place Part 2 (US)

Spencer (US)

Happening (France)

Passing (US)

Annette (France)

Don’t Look Up (Us)

Belfast (UK)

The Girl and the Spider (Switzerland)

Dandansoy (Philippines)

The Power of the Dog (US)

The Night Eats the World (France)

The Unknown Saint (Morocco)

Dune (US)

I Care a Lot (US)

Loco Por Ella / Crazy About Her (Spain)

El Caja (Mexico)

Pray Away (US)

Un Monde (Belgium)

The Hand of God (Italy)

Our Ladies (Scotland)

The Lost Daughter (US, Greece)

Fan Girl (Philippines)

Straight Up (US)

Antigone (Canada)

Summerland (UK)

CODA (US)

Ride or Die (Japan)

Sorjonen [Bordertown] (Finland)

Squared Love (Poland)

Spoiled Brats (France)

Black Rainbow (Philippines)

An Easy Girl (France)

What We Wanted (Austria)

Deep (Thailand)

Soul (US)

Swallow (US)

37 Seconds (Japan)

Carmilla (UK)

Lingua Franca (Philippines)

Peninsula (South Korea)

The World to Come (UK)

Dance of the Forty One (Mexico)

Fierce (Poland)

Blood Red Sky (Germany)

Gameboys the Movie (Philippines)

Sounds Like Love (Spain)

Friends The Reunion (US)

Forever Purge (US)

My Amanda (Philippines)

Black Widow (US)

Vinterviken [JJ+E] (Sweden)

Yesterday (UK)

A Classic Horror Story (Italy)

Kiss Me Before It Blows Up (Israel, Germany)

Hypnotic (US)

Alive (South Korea)

June & Kopi (Indonesia)

The Four of Us (Germany)

T-Bird at Ako (Philippines)

Atomic Blonde (US)

Fear Street 1994 (US)

To The Stars (US)

One Night in Miami (US)

Fear Street 1666 (US)

Into the Beat (Germany)

Patay na si Hesus (Philippines)

Fear Street 1978 (US)

Full Out (Canada)

Yellow Rose (US)

Sa Balay ni Papang (Philippines)

Selva Tragika [Tragic Jungle] (Mexico)

Ma (US) Awake (US)

A Perfect Fit (Indonesia)

Blind Date (France)

This Little Love of Mine (Australia)

As Above, So Below (US)

Salog Ning Diklom (Philippines)

Despite Everything (Spain)

1000 Miles From Christmas (Spain)

13 Feet (Philippines)

Just Say Yes (Netherlands)

Family History (Philippines)

Dancing Queens (Sweden)

Dos (Spain)

Bad Trip (US)

Till Death (US)

Break (France)

Happy Death Day To U 2 (US)

A California Christmas: City Lights ( US)

The Secret Diary of an Exchange Student (Brazil)

To All The Boys Always and Forever (US)

Full Out 2 (US)

Driver (Thailand)

A Second Chance: Rivals (Australia)

Alter Me (Philippines)

A World Without (Indonesia)

Lockdown (Philippines)

The Annulment (Philippines)

Army of the Dead (US)

Day of the Dead: Bloodline (US)

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My top 50 films of 2021

Of the movies I watched in 2021 (doesn’t mean they’re released in 2021):

Excluding rewatches

50. Deep (Thailand)

49. What We Wanted (Austria)

48. An Easy Girl (France)

47. Spoiled Brats (France)

46. Squared Love (Poland)

45. Sorjonen [Bordertown] (Finland)

44. Ride or Die (Japan)

43. CODA (US)

42. Summerland (UK)

41. Antigone (Canada)

40. Straight Up (US)

39. Fan Girl (Philippines)

38. The Lost Daughter (US, Greece)

37. Our Ladies (Scotland)

36. Pray Away (US)

35. Loco Por Ella / Crazy About Her (Spain)

34. The Hand of God (Italy)

33. Un Monde (Belgium)

32. El Caja (Mexico)

31. I Care a Lot (US)

30. Dune (US)

29. The Unknown Saint (Morocco)

28. The Night Eats the World (France)

27. The Power of the Dog (US)

26. The Girl and the Spider (Switzerland)

25. Belfast (UK)

24. Don’t Look Up (Us)

23. Annette (France)

22. Passing (US)

21. Happening (France)

20. Spencer (US)

19. A Quiet Place Part 2 (US)

18. Lamb (Iceland)

17. Nomadland (US)

16. Wheel of Fortune and Fantasy (Japan)

15. Saint Maud (UK)

14. My First Summer (Australia)

13. Midnight in a Perfect World (Philippines)

12. Another Round (Denmark)

11. Benedetta (Belgium)

10. Drive My Car (Japan)

9. Minari (South Korea, US)

8. The Father (US)

7. Deux [Two of Us] (France)

6. Shiva Baby (US)

5. Pig (US)

4. Titane (France)

3. The Worst Person in the World (Norway)

2. Memoria (Colombia, Thailand)

1. Noche de Fuego [Prayers for the Stolen] (Mexico)

And here’s the trailer for my number 1 movie of 2021:

Complete list of movies I saw in 2021

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Books 2020

Books I’ve read in 2020. Updated soon after the last page.

Girls With Sharp Sticks by Suzanne Young

Dangerous Girls by Abigail Haas

Requiem for Immortals by Winter Lee

Beautiful Dreamer by Melissa Brayden

The Silent Patient by Michaelides Alex

Sleepwalking by Cara Malone

Breaking Character by Winter Lee

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Movies 2020

Movies I watched in 2020. Updated soon after I watched them.

A Ghost Story [David Lowery, 2017, United States] No film has made me feel this melancholic ever. This is a film so profound, it examines existence in the simplest yet most esoteric way possible. It surely goes straight to the top of my all-time favourite list. 10/10

Portrait of a lady on fire [Celine Sciamma, 2019, France] Mesmerizing. It burns even before the fire and ends with unforgettable embers. a film of magnificent visuals, intoxicating sound design, and a screenplay of jawdropping surprises -- definitely on top of my list.

Parasite [Bong Joon-ho, 2019, South Korea] You can watch it in many different ways, perspective, and angle, and everything is just as clever. 10/10

John Denver Trending [Arden Rod Condez, 2019, Philippines] Aside from its central theme of mental health awareness, it also has an excellent juxtaposition of the culture of bullying and cyberbullying and its correlation with how the nature of superstitions and religions shapes a country’s humanity. 10/10

Knives Out [Rian Johnson, 2019, United States] a funny and thrilling tour de force, engrossing in its nicely calibrated tone. 9.5/10

Bliss [Jerrold Tarog, 2017, Philippines] touches the fine line between dreamland and reality, and examines dreams or aspirations as mere illusions. It is wicked. It’s well-crafted. It’s a mindfuck. It’s deeply, as in deeply affecting 10/10

Edward [Thop Nazareno, 2019, Philippines] I am so amazed at how this film shows struggles after struggles after struggles without spoonfeeding emotions. It’s a movie so simple yet so despairing. Everything of it is in the right place, it’s sublime. 10/10

The Invisible Man [Leigh Whannell, 2020, United States] a psychological thriller that metaphorically captures gaslighting, flawless and atypical. 9/10

1917 [Sam Mendez, 2020, United States] An ambitious and unnerving first-person perspective ride. 9/10

Eerie [Mikhail Red, 2018, Philippines] More than its excellent scare tactics, what I love about it most is its clever storytelling and use of metaphors. 9/10

Corpus Christi [Jan Komasa, 2020, Poland] A look into redemption, a faith that challenges, a miraculous portrayal of a mysterious preacher. 9/10

Ad Astra [James Gray, 2019, United States] Realistically seamless, perfectly portrayed claustrophobic film. 9/10

Tallulah [Sian Heder, 2016, United States] A small town film of great insights and intricate nuanced details. 8/10

Les Miserables [Ladj Ly, 2020, France] a contemporary portrait of the 1862 classic--immersive, passionate, and thoroughly engrossing. 8/10

Cities of Last Things [Wi Ding Ho, 2018, Hong Kong] Of visual metaphors and broken connections, this film as a lot of food for the soul to offer. 7.5/10

I'm Drunk I love you [JP Habac, 2017. Philippines] Makes you feel so much. Something too relatable, it’s terrific. If only for its music scoring, it’s already worth the watch. 7/10 

18 Regali (18 Presents) [Francesco Amato, 2020, Italy] Such a tearjerker for something so flawed. 7/10

The Half of It [Alice Wu, 2020, United States] Refreshingly new take on love of different forms. Warm and soothing. 7/10

Booksmart [Olivia Wilde, 2019, United States] While it is smartly written, it is also really hilarious. Fun yet empowered, who says you can't do both? 7/10

Lost Girls [Liz Garbus, 2020, United States] Brings about melancholy, anger, compassion and all things human. Very well acted too. 7/10

A Sun [Chung Mong-hong, 2019, Taiwan] captures economic, social and personal struggles in such a relatable tone. 7/10

El Hoyo (The Platform) [Galder Gaztelu-Urrutia, 2020, Spain] A social commentary on how society can rise up by working together, told in such wicked imagination. 7/10

Spiderman:Far From Home [Jon Watts, 2019, United States] Sets the tone higher of this new chapter of the franchise, it is entertaining and affecting, although far from perfect. 7/10

The Decline [Patrice Laliberte, 2020, Canada] Chilling and fun. Isn’t that the goal? 7/10

Joker [Todd Phillips, 2019, United States] Joaquin Phoenix owned it, no matter how faulty and flawed the movie is. 7/10

Iska [Theodore Boborol, 2019, Philippines] I find a lot of things problematic and some choices uncharacteristic but it is worth a watch. 7/10

Iisa [Chuck Gutierrez, 2015, Philippines] Visually stunning, questionable storyline. 7/10

Uncorked [Prentice Penny, 2020, United States] It makes me want to drink wine, more wine, and much much more wine. 7/10

Cuddle Weather [Rod Marmol, 2019, Philippines] Unconventional and intricate, something real and intimate. 7/10

Hogar (The Occupant) [Alex and David Pastor, 2020, Spain] Appalling and annoying, at least it is good at that. 6.5/10

Extraction [Sam Hargrave, 2020, United States] Action-packed film that doesn’t offer much of a motive for a suicide mission. 6.5/10

Yeh Ballet [Sooni Taraporevala, 2020, India] Quite an unconventional ballet movie starring two men of great potential. 6.5/10

Snapshots [Melanie Mayron, 2018, United States] I want to like it, I do. But it's too artificial for my taste. 6.510

LSS [Jade Castro, 2019, Philippines] Nothing special to be honest. 6.5/10

Alimuom [Keith Sicat, 2018, Philippines] For all its creativity and ambitious computer graphics work, it lacks human connection. 6.5/10

93 Days [Steve Gukas, 2016, Nigeria] Beautiful intention, badly acted. 6/10

Joshua [George Ratliff, 2007, United States] It was fine. Nothing special but it was fine. 6/10

Shift [Siege Ledesma, 2013, Philippines] Not your typical love story. 6/10

Maska [Neeraj Udwani, 2020, India] Annoying yet enjoyable at the same time, I don’t understand how it’s possible. 6/10

Unbelievable

Block Z [Mikhail Red, 2020, Philippines] Disappointing plot, infuriating characters. A downcast. 6/10

1898: Our Last Men in the Philippines [Salvador Calvo, 2017, Spain] Interesting perspective and atypical take on nationalism. Worth a watch for history lovers. 6/10

The Foreigner [Martin Campbell, 2018, United States] For a Jackie Chan movie, it’s a pretty boring one. 6/10

Paris is Us [Elisabeth Vogler, 2019, France] Slogs away into a plotless little chaos. 4/10

Little Rascals

Shaun of the Dead

Matilda

Birds of Passage

Handsome Devil

I am happiness on earth

How it ends

Horse girl

Jowable

I am Jonas

Ip Man 4

Falling Inn Love

Circle

Blind date

Happy Old Year

Day of the Dead: Bloodline

Life Overtakes Me

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Revisiting a hobby

My therapist advised that I start a hobby or revisit an old one for my mental health. I told her I used to paint but stopped for whatever reasons. So now, I started trying to paint again and this is the dumpsite for that :) 

I’m starting a series of nudes for an art collab :)

I was invited to help paint a center island in San Andres :)

We gave Cheryl’s nephews and niece paints and paint materials for Christmas and painted their house with their favourite characters :)

We painted a wall for my 5-yr old nephew with all his favourite things: animals, dinosaurs, Thomas & friends, plants vs zombies, and Baldi's Basics.

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My Top 50 movies of 2019

Of the 145 movies I watched this year, here are my top 50 picks:

50. Pihu [Kapri Vinod, 2018, India]

Heartbreaking torture. Although I feel like it could have ended better. 6.5/10

49. Green Book [Peter Farrelly, 2018, United States]

Flawed yet entertaining – not sure if it’s good or bad though. 6.5/10

48. 4 Latas [Gerardo Olivares, 2019, Spain]

For all its nonsense, I enjoyed it. 7/10

47. First They Killed my Father [Angelina Jolie, 2017, United States, Cambodia] 

sincerely and sensitively paints a portrait of a country’s tragic history. 7/10

46. Dear Ex [Chih-Yen Hsu, 2018, Taiwan] 

Features odd but genuine kind of love. It is funny, heartfelt, and charming all at the same time. 7/10

45. UnTrue [Sigrid Andrea Bernardo, 2019, Philippines] 

to put it simply, UnTrue is a thrilling rollercoaster ride. 7/10

44. The Awakening of Motti Wolkenbrunch [Michael Steiner, 2019, Switzerland, Germany] 

A funny glimpse at a life of an Orthodox Jewish man with a chemistry that gives you a hopeful ending. 7.5/10

43. Furie [Le Van Kiet, 2019, Vietnam] 

With great performance and thrilling choreography, Furie is one of the best action films of 2019. 7.5/10

42. Kaptn Oskar [Tom Lass, 2013, Germany] 

Only basic virtue - it is a beautiful film. Not only for its comfort. But for the old poetry of dust emotions. 7.5/10

41. Giant Little Ones [Keith Berhman, 2019, United States] 

An honest road to knowing your own self in the eyes of a boy transitioning to adolescence. 7.5/10

40. Contratiempo (The Invisible Guest) [Oriol Paulo, 2017, Spain] 

offers an outstanding and enjoyable thrilling ride. 7.5/10

39. My Days of Mercy [Tali Shalom Ezer, 2019, United States] 

There is a bewitching chemistry between the two leads despite the coldness of it all. 7.5/10

38. A Land Imagined [Chris Yeo, 2018, Singapore, France, Netherlands] 

An unsettling noir mystery that questions people's notion of truth. 

37. The Two Popes [Fernando Mereilles, 2019, UK, US, Italy, Argentina] 

Features two outstanding performances that redeemed it from all its dragging moments. 7.5/10

36. Sovdargari (The Trader) [Tamta Gabrichidze, 2018, Georgia]

Emotionally intense depiction of rural poverty. 7.5/10

35. If Beale Street Could Talk [Barry Jenkins, 2019, United States]

The kind that even though you are hopeful, you know from the start that it's going to be tough. 8/10

34. Ek Ladki Ko Dekha To Aisa Laga [Shelly Dhar, 2019, India] 

Not a first in world cinema, but is still a groundbreaking moviemaking in the context of India. 8/10

33. Brother of the Year [Witthaya Thongyooyong, 2018, Thailand] 

For all its simplicity and bleak storyline, it still offers an abundance of emotion and a sense of realism. 8/10

32. Kuwaresma [Erik Matti, 2019, Philippines] 

Is a multilayer of social commentaries which were good before they too contradict themselves. 8.5/10

31. Berlin Calling [Hannes Stohr, 2008, Germany]

a movie that lives in the present paced in such rhythmic beat, it is dazzling from start to end. 8.5/10

30. Margarita with a Straw [Nilesh Maniyar, Shonali Bose, India, 2016] 

An unusual take on sexual exploration and self discovery. It somehow lost its focus towards the end but still a delightful watch overall. 8.5/10

29. Fuccbois [Eduardo Roy Jr, 2019, Philippines] 

Amazing storytelling and editing of a narrative so strange yet so eclectic. 8.5/10

28. First Reformed [Paul Schrader, 2019, United States] 

an astounding character study that questions the politics of religion. 9/10

27. La Luciernaga (The Firefly) [Ana Maria Hermida, 2015, Colombia] 

is about finding love in grief, beauty in ugly. And though there are some directorial decisions I don’t necessarily agree with, the chemistry its leads bring onscreen is too tangible for me to pay attention about its flaws. 9/10

26. Eerie [Mikhail Red, 2018, Philippines] 

More than its excellent scare tactics, what I love about it most is its clever storytelling and use of metaphors. 9/10

25. Widows [Steve McQueen, 2018, United States] 

How can something so traditionally formal feel so modern at the same time? Steve McQueen knows. 9/10

24. Paglisan [Carl Papa, 2018, Philippines] 

A heartbreaking test of sympathy. Stop-motion at its most affecting with a storytelling that reminds me of Farhadi. 9/10

23. Paris is Burning [Jennie Livingston, 1991, United States] 

is a little documentary that stays. 9/10

 22. Mamu and a Mother Too [Rod Singh, 2018, Philippines]

Why it scared me, I don’t know. It could be because it’s unpredictable, it’s non-cliche, and it’s gentle in ways you don’t expect. I love it. 9/10

21. PK [Rajkumar Hirani, 2014, India] 

a courageous film that wittingly pokes fun of religious beliefs. 9/10

20. The White Helmets [Orlando Von Eisiedel, 2016, United Kingdom, Syria] 

A heartrending glimpse at the life of true heroes in violence-stricken Syria. 9/10

19. Us [Jordan Peele, 2019, United States] 

It is as if every element in this film is smartly placed there to serve a deeper purpose, it's a movie in search of greater meaning. 9.5/10

18. Incendies [Dennis Villanueve, 2011, Canada] 

With such expert direction, it's elementally strong in more aspect than one. 9.5/10

17. The Wife [Bjorn Runge, 2018, Belgium] 

Glenn Close is mesmerizing. There is no need to say more. 10/10

16. Avengers: Endgame [Russo brothers, 2019, United States] 

Raises the bar so high, is probably the most entertaining superhero movie to date. 10/10

15. Ulan [Irene Villamor, 2019, Philippines] 

Is a fuck you to societal norms, so profound, it is a love story that involves only one. 10/10

14. Marriage Story [Noah Baumbach, 2019, United States] 

My favourite performance of the year belong to these two leads whose portrayal of lovers going through divorce is rock solid heartbreaking. 10/10

13. I Lost My Body [Jeremy Clapin, 2019, France] 

gives an absolute strange reason to cry, it's extraordinarily cathartic. 10/10

12. Edward [Thop Nazareno, 2019, Philippines] 

I am so amazed at how this film shows struggles after struggles after struggles without spoonfeeding emotions. It’s a movie so simple yet so despairing. Everything of it is in the right place, it’s sublime. 10/10

11. The Favourite [Yorgos Lanthimos, 2019, Greece, Ireland, United Kingdom, United States] 

a dark period comedy oddly fused with sophisticated costume and production design for a strange yet striking visual treat. 10/10

10. Metamorphosis [JE Tiglao, 2019, Philippines] 

Not your ordinary coming-of-age movie. This one comes with such importance and inclusivity, everyone needs to see. 10/10

9. Atlantique [Mati Diop, 2019, France] 

Such a bewitching tale of love, lost, and longing. A film told with such raw elegance, it’s enchanting. 10/10

8. The Third Wife [Ash Mayfair, 2019, Vietnam] 

possibly has one of the best visual stories this year with a contrast of hauntingly sensual tension and dreamlike composition, it’s strangely beautiful. 10/10

7. John Denver Trending [Arden Rod Condez, 2019, Philippines] 

Aside from its central theme of mental health awareness, it also has an excellent juxtaposition of the culture of bullying and cyberbullying and its correlation with how the nature of superstitions and religions shapes a country’s humanity. 10/10

6. Capernaum [Nadine Labaki, 2018, Lebanon] 

it’s not just about a boy in an unjust world, it is more about an implausibly unjust world where everyone is a victim and no one is an actual villain. 10/10

5. Shéhérazade [Jean-Bernard Marlin, 2018, France] 

a gritty narrative of an unusual young love with such depressing yet charming emotional pull. 10/10

4. Kanarie [Christiaan Olwagen, 2018, South Africa] 

Has one of the most poignant and critically-observed approach to self-awareness and acceptance. 10/10

3. Las Herederas (The Heiresses) [Marcelo Martinessi, 2019, Paraguay] 

compellingly melancholic in its silence and uncertainty. It's a blossoming, a self-discovery, a thorny journey towards maturity. 10/10

2. Parasite [Bong Joon-ho, 2019, South Korea] 

You can watch it in many different ways, perspective, and angle, and everything is just as clever. 10/10

1. Portrait of a Lady on Fire [Celine Sciamma, 2019, France] 

a film of magnificent visuals, intoxicating sound design, and a screenplay of jawdropping surprises -- definitely on top of my 2019 movie list. 10/10

Here’s the trailer: 

Related links:

All movies: 2019

Top 50 of 2018

Top 50 of 2017

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Books 2019

A list of books I read in 2019.

Updated soon after finishing it.

The Paying Guests by Sarah Waters

Boy Swallows Universe by Trent Dalton

Alias Grace by Margaret Atwood

New American Best Friend by Olivia Gatwood

Dwellers by Eliza Victoria

Where the Crawdads Sing by Delia Owens

The Yellow Wallpaper by Charlotte Perkins Gilman

About Grace by Anthony Doerr

The Lamb Will Slaughter the Lion by Margaret Killjoy

The Other Side of Midnight by Sidney Sheldon

The Test by Sylvain Neuvel

Here Comes The Sun by Nicole Dennis-Benn

The Book of Ivy by Amy Engel

Everybody Knew by Michael Clemenger

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“What is she?”

For years, I’ve had to go through the complex road that my sexual identity resides in. The people I surround myself with are unprejudiced and accepting, but they, too, are questioned by other people on different occasions about “what I am”.

I know I don’t have to explain this but for the benefit of those who are interested but are confused, I’m saying it now: I am bisexual.

That means I can be attracted to more than one gender, both men and women. But before you go asking my friends again, let me explain a few things to you:

Yes, I'm in a happy, healthy, and honest relationship with a woman and we both wear dresses because having a girlfriend when you’re a woman doesn’t mean one of you has to wear pants.

Nope, I’m not just a curious straight girl or a semi-blown lesbian.

Yes, I had a boyfriend before and nope that wasn’t just a phase. That too was love.

Nope, I’m not just fooling around. Fooling around is not a matter of sexual orientation. Not even of gender identity.

Bisexuals don’t automatically like anyone of the same sex. We have a taste too in the same way straight people don’t automatically like anyone of the opposite sex.

Being bisexual doesn’t mean I am a laboratory for sexual experiments or a sex toy for your threesome fantasies.

I sincerely hope this helps satisfy your curiosity.

The amount of push and pull denial game was extensive and coming to terms with myself was a debilitating personal battle but I’ve already conquered that.

But that wasn’t a smooth and easy process. Despite the gains of the LGBTQ+ community, heteronormative society would still argue with you and tell you phrases like “nobody’s born a homosexual”, but who really cares about being born as what as far as sexual orientation or gender identity is concerned? 

Should I be ashamed? No. Homophobia is what we should be ashamed of.

Should I keep it to myself? Honestly, I tried but I couldn't. I came out a decade ago and I grew more comfortable of who I am since then. It's liberating, but coming out is a personal choice. Do not steal that from anyone.

Embracing own identity is like winning a war. Nobody should invalidate that win to impose belief.

Lastly, please don’t make it hard for my friends to answer your questions about me. Ask me.

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Movies 2019

List of films I watched in 2019 from best to worst.

Updated soon after I’ve seen them.

A Ghost Story [David Lowery, 2017, United States] No film has made me feel this melancholic ever. This is a film so profound, it examines existence in the simplest yet most esoteric way possible. It surely goes straight to the top of my all-time favourite list. 10/10

Portrait of a Lady on Fire [Celine Sciamma, 2019, France] a film of magnificent visuals, intoxicating sound design, and a screenplay of jawdropping surprises -- definitely on top of my 2019 movie list. 10/10

The Heiresses [Marcelo Martinessi, 2019, Paraguay] compellingly melancholic in its silence and uncertainty. It's a blossoming, a self-discovery, a thorny journey towards maturity. 10/10

Parasite [Bong Joon-ho, 2019, South Korea] You can watch it in many different ways, perspective, and angle, and everything is just as clever. 10/10

Kanarie [Christiaan Olwagen, 2018, South Africa] Has one of the most poignant and critically-observed approach to self-awareness and acceptance. 10/10

Shéhérazade [Jean-Bernard Marlin, 2018, France] a gritty narrative of an unusual young love with such depressing yet charming emotional pull. 10/10

Capernaum [Nadine Labaki, 2018, Lebanon] it’s not just about a boy in an unjust world, it is more about an implausibly unjust world where everyone is a victim and no one is an actual villain. 10/10

John Denver Trending [Arden Rod Condez, 2019, Philippines] Aside from its central theme of mental health awareness, it also has an excellent juxtaposition of the culture of bullying and cyberbullying and its correlation with how the nature of superstitions and religions shapes a country’s humanity. 10/10

The Third Wife [Ash Mayfair, 2019, Vietnam] possibly has one of the best visual stories this year with a contrast of hauntingly sensual tension and dreamlike composition, it’s strangely beautiful. 10/10

Atlantique [Mati Diop, 2019, Senegal] Such a bewitching tale of love, lost, and longing. A film told with such raw elegance, it’s enchanting. 10/10

Metamorphosis [JE Tiglao, 2019, Philippines] Not your ordinary coming-of-age movie. This one comes with such importance and inclusivity, everyone needs to see. 10/10

The Favourite [Yorgos Lanthimos, 2019, Greece, Ireland, United Kingdom, United States] a dark period comedy oddly fused with sophisticated costume and production design for a strange yet striking visual treat. 10/10

Edward [Thop Nazareno, 2019, Philippines] I am so amazed at how this film shows struggles after struggles after struggles without spoonfeeding emotions. It’s a movie so simple yet so despairing. Everything of it is in the right place, it’s sublime. 10/10

I Lost My Body [Jeremy Clapin, 2019, France] gives an absolute strange reason to cry, it's extraordinarily cathartic. 10/10

Marriage Story [Noah Baumbach, 2019, United States] My favourite performance of the year belong to these two leads whose portrayal of lovers going through divorce is rock solid heartbreaking. 10/10

Ulan [Irene Villamor, 2019, Philippines] Is a fuck you to societal norms, so profound, it is a love story that involves only one. 10/10

Avengers: Endgame [Russo brothers, 2019, United States] Raises the bar so high, is probably the most entertaining superhero movie to date. 10/10

The Wife [Bjorn Runge, 2018, Belgium] Glenn Close is mesmerizing. There is no need to say more. 10/10

Heneral Luna [Jerrold Tarog, 2015, Philippines] Jerrold Tarog is as brave as General Luna. He clearly is the Luna of film making. 9.5/10

Infinity War

Incendies [Dennis Villanueve, 2011, Canada] With such expert direction, it's elementally strong in more aspect than one. 9.5/10

Us [Jordan Peele, 2019, United States] It is as if every element in this film is smartly placed there to serve a deeper purpose, it's a movie in search of greater meaning. 9.5/10

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

BuyBust [Erik Matti, 2018, Philippines] a spectacular display of astounding filmmaking where every element is designed and choreographed fittingly well. Entertaining yet harrowing from start to finish, it’s the kind of film that stays. It gets better on second watch. 9.5/10

The White Helmets [Orlando Von Eisiedel, 2016, United Kingdom, Syria] A heartrending glimpse at the life of true heroes in violence-stricken Syria. 9/10

PK [Rajkumar Hirani, 2014, India] a courageous film that wittingly pokes fun of religious beliefs. 9/10

Mamu and a Mother Too [Rod Singh, 2018, Philippines] Why it scared me, I don’t know. It could be because it’s unpredictable, it’s non-cliche, and it’s gentle in ways you don’t expect. I love it. 9/10

Liway [Kip Oebanda, 2018, Philippines] Is at most powerful when it exposes the correlation of facts and fiction. Doesn’t hit you right away but when it does, it hits hard. It hits still. 9/10

Paris is Burning [Jennie Livingston, 1991, United States] is a little documentary that stays. 9/10

Paglisan [Carl Papa, 2018, Philippines] Heartbreaking. It is a test of sympathy. 9/10

Widows [Steve McQueen, 2018, United States] How can something so traditionally formal feel so modern at the same time? Steve McQueen knows. 9/10

Eerie [Mikhail Red, 2018, Philippines] More than its excellent scare tactics, what I love about it most is its clever storytelling and use of metaphors. 9/10

La Luciernaga (The Firefly) [Ana Maria Hermida, 2015, Colombia] is about finding love in grief, beauty in ugly. And though there are some directorial decisions I don’t necessarily agree with, the chemistry its leads bring onscreen is too tangible for me to care about its flaws. 9/10

First Reformed [Paul Schrader, 2019, United States] an astounding character study that questions the politics of religion. 9/10

Bad Bananas sa Puting Tabing

Fuccbois [Eduardo Roy Jr, 2019, Philippines] Amazing storytelling and editing of a narrative so strange yet so eclectic. 8.5/10

Margarita with a Straw [Nilesh Maniyar, Shonali Bose, India, 2016] An unusual take on sexual exploration and self discovery. It somehow lost its focus towards the end but still a delightful watch overall. 8.5/10

Berlin Calling [Hannes Stohr, 2008, Germany] a movie that lives in the present paced in such rhythmic beat, it is dazzling from start to end. 8.5/10

Kuwaresma [Erik Matti, 2019, Philippines] Is a multilayer of social commentaries which were good before they too contradict themselves. 8.5/10

Brother of the Year [Witthaya Thongyooyong, 2018, Thailand] For all its simplicity and bleak storyline, it still offers an abundance of emotion and a sense of realism. 8/10

Ek Ladki Ko Dekha To Aisa Laga [Shelly Dhar, 2019, India] Not a first in world cinema, but is still a groundbreaking moviemaking in the context of India. 8/10

If Beale Street Could Talk [Barry Jenkins, 2019, United States] The kind that even though you are hopeful, you know from the start that it's going to be tough. 8/10

Sovdargari (The Trader) [Tamta Gabrichidze, 2018, Georgia] Emotionally intense depiction of rural poverty. 7.5/10

The Two Popes [Fernando Mereilles, 2019, UK, US, Italy, Argentina] Features two outstanding performances that redeemed it from all its dragging moments. 7.5/10

Black Panther [Ryan Coogler, 2018, United States] Oozing with unusual but likable characters. 7.5/10

A Land Imagined [Chris Yeo, 2018, Singapore, France, Netherlands] An unsettling noir mystery that questions people's notion of truth. 

My Days of Mercy [Tali Shalom Ezer, 2019, United States] There is a bewitching chemistry between the two leads despite the coldness of it all. 7.5/10

Contratiempo (The Invisible Guest) [Oriol Paulo, 2017, Spain] offers an outstanding and enjoyable thrilling ride. 7.5/10

Giant Little Ones [Keith Berhman, 2019, United States] An honest road to knowing your own self in the eyes of a boy transitioning to adolescence. 7.5/10

Never Not Love You [Antoinette Jadaone, 2018, Philippines] Beautifully and realistically written. It’s just really hard for me to like Reid’s character. 7.5/10 

Kaptn Oskar [Tom Lass, 2013, Germany] Only basic virtue - it is a beautiful film. Not only for its comfort. But for the old poetry of dust emotions. 7.5/10

Furie [Le Van Kiet, 2019, Vietnam] With great performance and thrilling choreography, Furie is one of the best action films of 2019. 7.5/10

The Awakening of Motti Wolkenbrunch [Michael Steiner, 2019, Switzerland, Germany] A funny glimpse at a life of an Orthodox Jewish man with a chemistry that gives you a hopeful ending. 7.5/10

Gerald's Game [Mike Flanagan, 2017, United States] Meticulously-directed, it is an outstanding adaptation of Stephen King's novel. 7.5/10

UnTrue [Sigrid Andrea Bernardo, 2019, Philippines] to put it simply, UnTrue is a thrilling rollercoaster ride. 7/10

Pailalim [Daniel Palacio, 2017, Philippines] 

Dear Ex [Chih-Yen Hsu, 2018, Taiwan] Features odd but genuine kind of love. It is funny, heartfelt, and charming all at the same time. 7/10

First They Killed my Father [Angelina Jolie, 2017, United States, Cambodia] sincerely and sensitively paints a portrait of a country's tragic history. 7/10

4 Latas [Gerardo Olivares, 2019, Spain] For all its nonsense, I enjoyed it. 7/10

Green Book [Peter Farrelly, 2018, United States] Flawed yet entertaining -- not sure if it's good or bad though. 6.5/10

Pihu [Kapri Vinod, 2018, India] Heartbreaking torture. Although I feel like it could have ended better. 6.5/10

Lionheart [Genevieve Nnaji, 2018, Nigeria] Although everything here felt familiar, there's charm that makes this film an enjoyable one. 6.5/10

Unbreakable

Triple Frontier [JC Chandor, 2019, United States] I have a problem with its exploitation of violence. I have a bigger problem for liking it. 6.5/10

28 Weeks Later

Iska [Theodore Boborol, 2019, Philippines] I find a lot of things problematic and some choices uncharacteristic but it is worth a watch. 7/10

Searching

Period. End of Sentence

Battle

Oversized Cops

Floating [Julia Kaiser, 2015, Germany] 

The Bar

Ang Babae sa Septic Tank 3

Mga Mister ni Rosario [Alpha Habon, 2018, Philippines]

Misteryo dela Noche

Of Love and Other Demons

Tanabata’s Wife

26 Years [Geun Hyeon-Jo, 2012, South Korea] Yet another thrilling revenge story from the country who does it best. 7/10

Mga Batang Poz

Aurora

Becks

Mowgli: Legends of the Jungle

Cargo

Neomanila

47 Metres Down

The Feels

Dead Kids [Mikhail Red, 2019, Philippines] Is probably my least favourite Mikhail Red movie. Overrated in every sense. 7/10

Fyre: The Greatest Party that Never Happened

Svaha: The Sixth Finger

Flavors of Youth

Miss Granny

Unicorn Store

Captain Marvel

Polar

Black Mirror: Bandersnatch [David Slade, 2018, Untied States] Liking a film is always about the experience and while Bandersnatch offers another take on the medium, it is somewhat a less impactful experience as expected. 7/10 

Open [Andoy Ranay, 2019, Philippines]

Psychokinesis [Yeon Sang-ho, 2018, South Korea] Nothing much to offer but a good Sunday watch with the family. 6.5/10

Elise [John Ferrer, 2019, Philippines] I’m sorry, I don’t understand the hype. 6/10 fpihu

Novitiate 

A Tiger in Winter

Suddenly 20

Eli [Ciaran Foy, 2019, United States] 

Remastered: Devil at the Crossroads’

Alipato: Ka Luis Taruc Story

The Tenants Downstairs

Hotel Mumbai

Muerte en Buenos Aires

How to Get Over a Break Up

Buried

Never Tear Us Apart

A Simple Favor

To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before

Goyo: Ang Batang Heneral

Rainbow’s Sunset

Malamaya

Boy Erased

Still Human

Coach Carter

The Perfect Date

In the Tall Grass [Vincenzo Natali, 2019, United States] Fun at first until it gets dragging. Really dragging. 5/10

Bohemian Rhapsody

Metro Manila [Sean Ellis, 2014, United Kingdom] I know it's not right to say I've seen better, but yes, I've seen better. 6.5/10

Mr and Mrs Cruz

Pet Semetary

When Angels Sleep

Belle Douleur

Children of the River

Maria

The First Purge

Liberated: New Sexual Revolution

Toc Toc

Four Minutes

Mama

7 [Nizar Shafi, 2019, India] 

Vine Country

Isn't it Romantic?

The Nun

Pandanggo sa Hukay

The Silence

KL Zombi [MJ Woo, 2013, Malaysia] A "horror" for a good laugh.

An1 (The Harvest)

Girls With Balls [Olivier Afonso, 2019, France] I don't have the balls to sit through this movie. 2/10

The Roommate [Christian Christeansen, 2011, United States] BLAH 1/10

Tabon [Xian Lim, 2019, Philippines] is one of the worst movies of the year. Nuf said. 0/10

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Cebu mountain tour

Since I have been to Cebu a couple of times, I googled places ahead so I could visit those sites I haven’t. 

I found a tour guide online offering motorcycle tours for a cheaper price so I contacted kuya Lito who took us to the nearby mountains of Cebu City.

He had 5 areas in his tour list but I asked him to just bring us to three. First stop was the Temple of Leah. It was built by Teodoro Adarna for his wife, Leah. It is a place greek-inspired, filled with sculptures and memorabilia the couple collected while traveling across the world. The building is said to withstand for 3000 years.

Temple of Leah

The view from there was nice too as it was on a highland overlooking the city. 

Next stop was Sirao flower garden. We weren’t really a flower person and we know nothing about it but why not give it a try.

Cool air is cool

It was the farthest of the three places and it offers a nice atmosphere. As I don’t know anything about flowers, I only appreciate the smell, the colors, and the fresh air.

Here’s me pretending I know how to talk to plants

Lastly, we went to Tops Lookout which is obviously the top of Cebu overlooking the metro. It was already dark when we got there and the city isn’t as big as Hong Kong but it was peaceful and it makes me think and that’s what I like.

Metro Cebu at night

There were also cool stores so we decided to have our dinner there. I loved it there and I wanted to stay longer. But at the same time, we wanted to get back to our hotel early so we could rest and netflix.

One for the road

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Not so chocolatey

This is my second time to visit Bohol and its most famous tourist spot, Chocolate Hills, but I still haven’t seen it chocolatey.

After Moalboal, we traveled back to Cebu City to catch a ferry to Tagbilaran in Bohol. Upon arriving at the port, I took my google map and navigated to the nearest eateries for dinner. We were scared to get to the resort only to find out that they also don’t serve dinner too late.

Street ihaw-ihaw

Then we took a trike to the resort which was in another secluded area. I wonder why I always end up in places like this. haha I asked the trike driver if he also has a habal habal that could take us to chocolate hills the following afternoon and he said yes. We were lucky cos tour agencies will quote at a much higher price. We got ours at 80% cheaper.

After breakfast the next day, we had a relaxing morning at the resort. We didn’t have a visual welcome since we arrived late so it was really satisfying to find out that the place offers a really nice view of the ocean.

Jacuzzi next to our room overlooking the sea

We didn’t want to rush the day and decided to just have a laidback morning before our habal habal trip to Chocolate Hills.

Inarte shoot

After lunch, Kuya Eros our habal habal driver arrived. We requested him to take us first to Hinagdanan Cave and he agreed. I didn’t expect anything about this cave cos the last time I did in Bantayan, I was disappointed. As it is quite a commercialized cave, I was thinking it was just another cave ruined by bad tourism. But when we got there, I was surprised of how beautiful it was.

Hinagdanan Cave

I initially didn’t plan to swim but I couldn’t resist. The picture doesn’t show it but the water is really blue and green and I just cannot stop myself from going into the water.

Mermaid shot lol

It was a bit deep and cold and dark, but it was all worth it.

Swimming in the dark

Then we rode the Habal habal again to Carmen to visit what we came to Bohol for. It took quite a while to reach the place and riding a motorcycle that long was a bit exhausting. But the view at the peak of the viewpoint makes all the pain a little less painful. haha

Huawei blurred the hills. LOL

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Moalboal Canyoneering

After Oslob, we went straight to Moalboal for a little doze of adventure.

On our way from Oslob, I met a local, Ate Mae, who offered to give us a canyoneering package for a lower price. She said her husband was a tour guide so we could book directly without having to register in big tour groups. I got her number and asked to meet up the next day.

We stayed in a secluded area in Moalboal. The place was really beautiful but it was not maintained well enough to make the experience great. We were really disappointed with the shared bathrooms/toilets because of the lack of water and cleanliness. 

When choosing where to stay at, I always end up in places like this. And I always ALWAYS leave with insect bite marks everywhere.

We rented a motorcycle and went to a nearby beach. It was my first time to drive a motorcycle with a passenger and I feel like congratulating myself for surviving the rough road at a dark night.

Dinner/snacks and drinks at Panagsama Beach

Because it was very quiet and there was nothing much to do in the area at night, we just locked ourselves in our cute little room and watched Bird Box. LOL.

The following morning, kuya Edward, Ate Mae’’s husband fetched us at the B&B and took us to the jump off point.

The experience will start with a short 15 feet cliff jump and from there, everything was a different lovely adventure.

Yep, that’s me haha

Everywhere we look at, everywhere as in everywhere was beautiful. It is actually overwhelming, I love every piece of it.

A few more jumps, slides, swim and trek here and there. The entire experience took us about 4 hours. 4 awesome hours I would do over and over.

Loving the top view

The last jump was the highest at more than 30 ft high and it was also the saddest knowing it’ll be over soon.

Jumping at 30 ft

It was exhausting but really worth every muscle pain. It’s one of my best experiences yet.

Lovely, isn’t it?

The experience ended in the beautiful Kawasan Falls. I honestly got a bit disappointed that there are restaurants a few steps from the falls, I was hoping it was more natural. It is still breathtaking though with such blue and green clear waters.

Kawasan Falls

After getting back to the B&B, we rested a little bit and went to White Beach to catch the sunset. 

Sunset at White Beach

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Christmas with the whalesharks

For my annual Christmas travel tradition this year, I chose Cebu.

This is my fifth time in Cebu and I initially wanted to stay in Malapascua Island but plans were changed and we stayed in the south instead. 

Straight from the airport, we took a bus to Oslob. Little did we expect that the area is really quiet at night. The resort doesn’t serve dinner past 9 pm and we were really hungry. Luckily, I still have half of the hotdog waffle I bought at the city. We slept the hunger away.

I love our room is Oslob

The following morning was our most anticipated swim with the whaleshark experience. The place was crowded with people but we were lucky that staff from the resort pre-registered us and we didn’t need to queue. 

Awesome whaleshark encounter

Since it happened to early and too fast, we realized we still had a lot of time to spare. So we trekked down the cliff to try and see if something interesting awaits. It turns out that it was quite a tiring climb back up and we weren’t very physically fit for it. lol

View from down the cliff

We went back to the room trying to catch our breath and sanity. Then we went to the restaurant nearby for our much-deserved good meal.

My favourite: baked scallops at Cocina en Acantilado

It was a great experience!

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My Top 50 Movies of 2018

Of the 176 movies I watched this year, here are my top 50 favourites (including those released in 2017 but I only got to watch this year).

50. Malila: The Farewell Flower [Anucha Boonyawatana, 2018, Thailand]

A beguiling narration of existentialism, redemption, and the philosophy of Buddhism. All told in such calming gaze, it’s actually hypnotic. 8/10

49. Felicite [Alain Gomis, 2017, Senegal, Congo, France]

With such lyrical tone, its narrative was thinly sketched that some of its elements don’t match. 7.5/10

48. The Other Side of the Wind [Orson Welles, 2018, United States]

Not for a Welles beginner but is surely a completist’s delight. 7.5/10 

47. Leave No Trace [Debra Ganik, 2018, United States]

a small film of massive authenticity and warm touch. It will leave a trace. 8/10

46. The Great Buddha+ [Hsin-yao Huang, 2018, Taiwan]

Not sure if saying “this is my kind of humour” is something I should be proud of but damn this film is hilarious! Oh and really clever too. 8/10

45. Pan de Salawal [Che Espiritu, 2018, Philippines]

a hard-hitting reminder that the most painful challenges people overcome are also the most rewarding. Don’t be afraid to feel them all. 8/10

44. The Wound (Inxeba) [John Trengove, 2017, South Africa] 

More than the physical wound from a boy's transition to manhood, this movie tackles a deeper kind of pain, the kind that scars forever. 8/10

43. Memoir of War (La Douleur) [Emmanuel Finkiel, 2017, France] 

Sadly, its visual choices, experimental scoring, and drawn out structure don’t match Marguerite Duras’s poetic writing. 8/10 

42. BlackKKlansman [Spike Lee, 2018, United States]

Although satirically exaggerated, this film is teeming with entertainment and importance. 8/10

41. A Taxi Driver [Hun Jang, 2017, South Korea]

an entertaining yet affecting tribute to nameless heroes. 8/10 

40. A Prayer Before Dawn [Jean-Stéphane Sauvaire, 2018, France, Thailand] 

For something that feels hesitant in showing violence, this is already quite a tough watch. 8/10 

39. The Square [Ruben Ostland, 2017, Sweden, Denmark]

An ironic and satiric take on elitism, privilege, and humanity. 8/10

38. Gutland [Govinda Van Maele, 2017, Luxembourg]

For a debut feature, Van Maele is a master of slow-burn tension. 8/10 

37. Padman [R. Balki, 2018, India]

Speaks volumes in a humorous way. Something enlightening and empowering, I love it. 8/10

36. Euthanizer (Armomurhaaja} [Teemu Nikki, 2018, Finland]

An examination of how suffering is commensurate with cruelty. For something so bleak, it is surprisingly a good exemplification of moral values. 8/10

35. In This Corner of the World [Sunao Katabuchi, 2017, Japan]

It stays. Films like this, they always do. 8.5/10

34. L'amant Double [Francois Ozon, 2018, France]

Wild and mindblowing, a film of endless curiosity. 9/10

33. Ang Panahon ng Halimaw [Lav Diaz, 2018, Philippines]

Sarcasm at its best. Quite fun. 9/10

32. A Quiet Place [John Krasinski, 2018, United States]

For a film that’s supposed to be silent, I find it quite overscored. Still a good watch though. 9/10

31. I am Not a Witch [Rungano Nyoni, 2018, United Kingdom]

For a debut film, this is quite a remarkable take on exploitation, abuse, and misogyny. 9/10 

30. Happy as Lazzaro (Lazzaro Felice) [Alice Rohrwacher, 2018, Italy]

a charming small film with a subtext of such vivid social allegory. 9/10 

29. Get Out [Jordan Peele, 2017, United States]

a satire of utmost significance, it lives. 9/10 

28. Sicilian Ghost Story [Fabio Grassadonia, Antonio Piazza, 2017, Italy, France, Switzerland]

Cinematic and poetic. Beautiful in all its mythological symbolism. 9/10

27. Liway [Kip Oebanda, 2018, Philippines]

Is at most powerful when it exposes the correlation of facts and fiction. Doesn’t hit you right away but when it does, it hits hard. It hits still. 9/10 

26. ML [Benedict Mique, 2018, Philippines]

Teeming with ingenuity and masteful filmmaking, it’s a suspense too relevant for anyone to miss. 9/10 

25. Beti [P. Sheshadri, 2017, India]

manages to oppose patriarchy in Indian culture in such an innocent yet intelligible perspective. 9/10 

24. Signal Rock [Chito Rono, 2018, Philippines]

Very raw and phenomenal. Each character formidably plays an important role in characterizing a small town of heartwarming spirit. If not for its distracting bad CGI which I think is unnecessary, I’d give it a perfect 10. 9/10

23. Annihilation [Alex Garland, 2018, United States]

Though at times flawed, it ended with such thought-provoking, ambitious, and lasting impact. 9/10

22. Sunday’s Illness (La Enfermedad del Doming) [Ramon Salazar, 2018, Spain]

Scene after scene of mesmerizing mystery and such powerful attention to detail. 9/10

21. God’s Own Country [Francis Lee, 2017, United Kingdom]

Features a kind of romance with such carefully-observed realism. It was very well portrayed. Very well. 9/10

20. BuyBust [Erik Matti, 2018, Philippines]

a spectacular display of astounding filmmaking where every element is designed and choreographed fittingly well. Entertaining yet harrowing from start to finish, it’s the kind of film that stays. 10/10

19. Dogman [Matteo Garrone, 2018, Italy]

Examines a man’s need to be recognized as a chihuahua in a shepherd’s world. 9.5/10

18. The Florida Project [Sean Baker, 2017, United States]

Kids, no matter the social class, are still just kids in search for adventure, friendship, and love. This movie doesn’t feel like a movie at all, it’s brilliant. 9/10 

17. Hereditary [Ari Aster, 2018, United States]

Unsettling down to the core with a convincing cast and a powerful storytelling. 9.5/10

16.  The Guilty (Den Skyldige) [Gustav Möller, 2018, Denmark]

is clever in its minimalism. A fast-paced action thriller and a psychological suspense, all shot entirely between four walls. 9.5/10

15.  The Shape of Water [Guillermo del Toro, 2017, United States]

Elegant in its visuals, storytelling, and performances. It is del Toro’s best yet. 10/10

14. Oda sa Wala [Dwein Baltazar, 2018, Philippines]

Is an ode to nothing, to the unseen, to the nobody, to the dead that’s more alive than the living and to the living that’s more dead than those who died. Baltazar has this gilt-edged technique that leaves its audience wretched yet buoyant. 10/10

13. A Star is Born [Bardley Cooper, 2018, United States]

If only for its music and its astounding performances, I’m already sold. 10/10

12. Balangiga: Howling Wilderness [Khavn, 2017, Philippines]

Disheartening and provocative in all its hypnagogia. 10/10

11.  Gusto Kita With All My Hypothalamus [Dwein Baltazar, 2018, Philippines]

a genius anti-romance that plays along the lines of loving the thought of being in love and making yourself believe in your own ethereality. I love it. 10/10

10. Shoplifters [Hirokazu Kore-eda, 2018, Japan]

a film that questions if blood is thicker than the ties that bind us. Here’s Kore-eda capturing our hearts again with his gently-observed humanism. 10/10

9. Arrhythmia (Aritmiya) [Boris Khlebnikov, 2017, Russia]

For a movie with characters of increasingly tenuous emotional bond, this is teeming with sensitivity and sensibility. It has so much love, neutrality, and longing, yet so cold and fleeting. Definitely, an emotional rollercoaster of my liking. 10/10

8. Sid & Aya [Irene Villamor, 2018, Philippines]

It’s too beautiful, I’m crying halfway through the film for how beautiful it is. You can watch this film without audio and understand it by its lighting, it’s that amazing. 10/10

7.  Faces Places [JR, Agnès Varda, 2018, France]

Wow. This is the film to watch when your soul is dying for art. Tears, I can’t help them from falling. 10/10

6. Cold War (Zimna Wojna) [Pawel Pawlikowski, 2018, Poland]

Makes something despairing so beautiful with its artful composition, rightly-paced narrative transition, and cold but affecting character treatment. 10/10

5. Loveless (Nelyubov) [Andrey Zvyagintsev, 2018, Russia]

Cold and chilling in all aspect from start to end. It has such great observation of the recognizable societal apathy. 10/10

4. Kung Paano Hinihintay Ang Dapithapon [Carlo Catu, 2018, Philippines]

a small film that tackles layers after layers of things too close to heart. Sincere and profound, definitely my favourite. 10/10  

3. Roma [Alfonso Cuaron, 2018, Mexico]

Its technical expertise in every element of every frame and composition is overwhelming. It's a movie about contrasts and how each opposite gives life balance, told with such authenticity, it's a luxurious cinematic experience. 10/10

2.  Burning (Boening) [Chang-dong Lee, 2018, South Korea]

Shows the interrelation of hunger and class, the truths and the unknowns. Of how desires could either free you or cage you in unhappiness and despair. A mystery of misery that parallels its political viewpoint. 10/10

1. A Ghost Story [David Lowery, 2017, United States]

No film has made me feel this melancholic ever. This is a film so profound, it examines existence in the simplest yet most esoteric way possible. It surely goes straight to the top of my all-time favourite list. 10/10

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Full list of all the movies I watched in 2018

Top 50 of 2017

Top 50 of 2016

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All-time favourite films

Favourite movies (rated 7-10 with 10 as the highest) watched from 2016 to present.

Updated soon after watching.

A Ghost Story [David Lowery, 2017, United States] No film has made me feel this melancholic ever. This is a film so profound, it examines existence in the simplest yet most esoteric way possible. It surely goes straight to the top of my all-time favourite list. 10/10

A Separation [Asghar Farhadi, Iran, 2011] No other film has played w/ my emotions better than this one."Emotional rollercoaster" has never been truer. 10/10

Portrait of a Lady on Fire [Celine Sciamma, 2019, France] a film of magnificent visuals, intoxicating sound design, and a screenplay of jawdropping surprises – definitely on top of my 2019 movie list. 10/10

The Lobster [Lanthimos, 2015] a peculiar take on the world’s social construction of reality. Far-out yet accurate, it’s captivating. 10/10

The Handmaiden [Park, 2016] Lavish, sensual, beyond clever. Having watched and read Fingersmith won’t make this gem a tad predictable. 10/10

The Heiresses [Marcelo Martinessi, 2019, Paraguay] compellingly melancholic in its silence and uncertainty. It’s a blossoming, a self-discovery, a thorny journey towards maturity. 10/10

Parasite [Bong Joon-ho, 2019, South Korea] You can watch it in many different ways, perspective, and angle, and everything is just as clever. 10/10

Thy Womb [Brillante Mendoza, 2013, Philippines] is so painful, it doesn't shoot you straight in the head, it tortures you.. that even after watching it, your heart's still crying.

The Duke of Burgundy [Strickland, 2015, United Kingdom]  Remarkable. A film so beautiful, it’s so hard to forget. I love this too much, it’s almost haunting. 10/10 

Burning (Boening) [Chang-dong Lee, 2018, South Korea] Shows the interrelation of hunger and class, the truths and the unknowns. Of how desires could either free you or cage you in unhappiness and despair. A mystery of misery that parallels its political viewpoint. 10/10

Carol [Haynes, 2015, United States]  a tough film w/ first-rate performances by both Blanchett & Mara that utterly make up for its minor dull moments. 10/10

Roma [Alfonso Cuaron, 2018, Mexico] Its technical expertise in every element of every frame and composition is overwhelming. It's a movie about contrasts and how each opposite gives life balance, told with such authenticity, it's luxurious cinematic experience. 10/10

Sana Dati [Jerrold Tarog, 2013, Philippines] a lost girl, a prince charming, an imperfect wedding, and an open-ended love story. I need a sequel. 8/10

Women of the Weeping River [Dayoc, 2016] This film literally left me speechless. Another Sheron Dayoc masterpiece. 10/10

Kanarie [Christiaan Olwagen, 2018, South Africa] Has one of the most poignant and critically-observed approach to self-awareness and acceptance. 10/10

The Salesman [Farhadi, 2016] Farhadi always has his way of shaking your soul, giving his audience a silent yet thrilling ride. 10/10

Shéhérazade [Jean-Bernard Marlin, 2018, France] a gritty narrative of an unusual young love with such depressing yet charming emotional pull. 10/10

Capernaum [Nadine Labaki, 2018, Lebanon] it’s not just about a boy in an unjust world, it is more about an implausibly unjust world where everyone is a victim and no one is an actual villain. 10/10

John Denver Trending [Arden Rod Condez, 2019, Philippines] Aside from its central theme of mental health awareness, it also has an excellent juxtaposition of the culture of bullying and cyberbullying and its correlation with how the nature of superstitions and religions shapes a country’s humanity. 10/10

Lady Bird [Greta Gerwig, 2017, United States] Small scale with great impact. It’s the type that doesn’t want to make you cry but makes you cry anyway. I love it with all my heart. 10/10

Call Me By Your Name [Luca Guadagnino, 2017, Italy, Brazil, France, United States] Its authenticity is incredibly palpable, I can taste it in my mouth. Something made with much love, my heart aches. Timothée Chalamet is remarkable. That last frame is unforgettable. 10/10 

Bliss [Jerrold Tarog, 2017, Philippines] Touches the fine line between dreamland and reality, and examines dreams or aspirations as mere illusions. It is wicked. It’s well-crafted. It’s a mindfuck. It’s deeply, as in deeply affecting 10/10

Kung Paano Hinihintay Ang Dapithapon [Carlo Catu, 2018, Philippines] a small film that tackles layers after layers of things too close to heart. Sincere and profound, definitely my favourite. 10/10  

Loveless (Nelyubov) [Andrey Zvyagintsev, 2018, Russia] cold and chilling in all aspect from start to end. It has such great observation of the recognizable societal apathy. 10/10

Your Name [Makoto Shinkai, 2016, Japan] Star-crossed love at its smartest, warmest, and vividly-made anime. Something highly satisfying, I have no words. 10/10

The Third Wife [Ash Mayfair, 2019, Vietnam] possibly has one of the best visual stories this year with a contrast of hauntingly sensual tension and dreamlike composition, it’s strangely beautiful. 10/10

Magkakabaung [Laxamana, 2014, Philippines] A highly-compelling depiction of reality, misfortune, defiance and justice. A film I need to see over & over. 10/10 

Atlantique [Mati Diop, 2019, Senegal] Such a bewitching tale of love, lost, and longing. A film told with such raw elegance, it’s enchanting. 10/10

Beats Per Minute (BPM) [Robin Campillo, 2017, France] Goosebumps. This is a film clear of its objective, it is exhilarating and exhausting in the good kind of way. 10/10

Cold War (Zimna Wojna) [Pawel Pawlikowski, 2018, Poland] Makes something despairing so beautiful with its artful composition, rightly-paced narrative transition, and cold but affecting character treatment. 10/10

Metamorphosis [JE Tiglao, 2019, Philippines] Not your ordinary coming-of-age movie. This one comes with such importance and inclusivity, everyone needs to see. 10/10

Faces Places [JR, Agnès Varda, 2018, France] Wow. This is the film to watch when your soul is dying for art. Tears, I can’t help them from falling. 10/10

Sid & Aya [Irene Villamor, 2018, Philippines] It’s too beautiful, I’m crying halfway through the film for how beautiful it is. You can watch this film without audio and understand it by its lighting, it’s that amazing. 10/10

Violator [Dayao, 2014, Philippines]  The horror film that brought me to tears. I found myself shaking, fighting my own demons, and it’s damn scary. 10/10

The Favourite [Yorgos Lanthimos, 2019, Greece, Ireland, United Kingdom, United States] a dark period comedy oddly fused with sophisticated costume and production design for a strange yet striking visual treat. 10/10

Edward [Thop Nazareno, 2019, Philippines] I am so amazed at how this film shows struggles after struggles after struggles without spoonfeeding emotions. It’s a movie so simple yet so despairing. Everything of it is in the right place, it’s sublime. 10/10

Arrival [Denis Villanueve, 2016, United States] An admirable sci-fi thriller where aliens teach humans about humanity. 10/10 

Salvage [Sherad Sanchez, 2017, Philippines] A film that’s meant to look like a found footage, with one single camera perspective. It used unconventional, long continuous odd angles and silence that made it feel so raw and real, it’s haunting. 10/10

I Lost My Body [Jeremy Clapin, 2019, France] gives an absolute strange reason to cry, it’s extraordinarily cathartic. 10/10

Imbisibol [Fajardo, 2015, Philippines]  I don’t care how beautiful this film already is, I still need to see its greatness in black and white. 10/10

Night of Silence [Celik, 2012, Turkey]  Amazing how something so distasteful was told in such charming and spectacular execution. 10/10

Marriage Story [Noah Baumbach, 2019, United States] My favourite performance of the year belong to these two leads whose portrayal of lovers going through divorce is rock solid heartbreaking. 10/10

Moonlight [Barry Jenkins, 2017, United States] A rare impressionistic film on a man’s struggle to finding himself, something so rich in poetry and visual excellence, it’s spell-binding. 10/10

Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri [Martin McDonagh, 2017, United States] Too much hate and too much heart both at the same time. It is as shocking as it is enchanting. 10/10

About Elly [Asghar Farhadi, 2009, Iran] Its narration of a mystery is already engaging but its inner observation of truth and convictions is even more captivating. 10/10

Respeto [Treb Montreras II, 2017, Philippines] Uses the power of words to compare past and present. Shows the cycle of oppression in a well-crafted film of bewitching artistry. 10/10

Ulan [Irene Villamor, 2019, Philippines] Is a fuck you to societal norms, so profound, it is a love story that involves only one. 10/10

Ang Babaeng Humayo [Diaz, 2016] vividly questions justice, higher power, morality, and existence. It’s beyond brilliant, it aches. 10/10

Swiss Army Man {Scheinert, Kwan, 2016] Clever in all its weirdness. What an unforgettable experience. 10/10

Toni Erdmann [Ade, 2016] I don’t know if I should laugh or cry or both at the same time. No doubt a knockout. 10/10

Ang Manananggal sa Unit 23B [Cruz, 2016] If I can only use “beautiful” once a year to describe a film, I’ll use it on this one. 10/10

Arrhythmia (Aritmiya) [Boris Khlebnikov, 2017, Russia] For a movie with characters of increasingly tenuous emotional bond, this is teeming with sensitivity and sensibility. It has so much love, neutrality, and longing, yet so cold and fleeting. Definitely, an emotional rollercoaster of my liking. 10/10

Shoplifters [Hirokazu Kore-eda, 2018, Japan] a film that questions if blood is thicker than the ties that bind us. Here’s Kore-eda capturing our hearts again with his gently-observed humanism. 10/10

Gusto Kita With All My Hypothalamus [Dwein Baltazar, 2018, Philippines] a genius anti-romance that plays along the lines of loving the thought of being in love and making yourself believe in your own ethereality. I love it. 10/10

Embers [Carré, 2015] A stylistic post-apocalyptic narrative of survival of people who have lost their meanings. 10/10 

Respire [Laurent, 2015] With its overall well-observed direction, it’s compelling both visually and story-wise. 10/10

Avengers: Endgame [Russo brothers, 2019, United States] Raises the bar so high, is probably the most entertaining superhero movie to date. 10/10

Ari: My Life With a King [Catu, 2015, Philippines] So strong, it sinks too deep into my soul. 10/10

Honor Thy Father [Matti, 2015, Philippines]  Erik Matti made a competently crafted character in Edgar to complete a competently crafted masterpiece. 10/10

The Wife [Bjorn Runge, 2018, Belgium] Glenn Close is mesmerizing. There is no need to say more. 10/10

Anino sa Likod ng Buwan [Lana, 2015] Gripping, tender, sensual. Majestic in one long take. Saying I’m blown away is an understatement. 10/10

Balangiga: Howling Wilderness [Khavn, 2017, Philippines] Disheartening and provocative in all its hypnagogia. 10/10 

A Star is Born [Bardley Cooper, 2018, United States] If only for its music and its astounding performances, I’m already sold. 10/10

Oda sa Wala [Dwein Baltazar, 2018, Philippines] Is an ode to nothing, to the unseen, to the nobody, to the dead that’s more alive than the living and to the living that’s more dead than those who died. Baltazar has this gilt-edged technique that leaves its audience wretched yet buoyant. 10/10

Sunday Beauty Queen [Villarama, 2016] Highly compelling, charming, and important. Sweetest of the festival. 10/10

The Shape of Water [Guillermo del Toro, 2017, United States] Elegant in its visuals, storytelling, and performances. It is del Toro’s best yet. 10/10

BuyBust [Erik Matti, 2018, Philippines] a spectacular display of astounding filmmaking where every element is designed and choreographed fittingly well. Entertaining yet harrowing from start to finish, it’s the kind of film that stays. 10/10  

Frantz [Ozon, 2016] a melancholic take on people’s journeys to finding a reason to live. Beautiful use of color and B&W. 10/10

Captain America: Civil War [Russo, 2016] it’s hard to point out which part of the film I didn’t like, that’s if I hated anything. 10/10

Sing Street [Carney, 2016] No. There’s not a word in the world that could describe how much I love this film. Everything about it. 10/10

Pamilya Ordinaryo [Roy, 2016] Very raw, real and persuasive. Powerful in its entirety. 10/10

Hele sa Hiwagang Hapis [Diaz, 2016] Reality told through a mix of history & fantasy. A delicate & engaging quest for Filipino freedom. 10/10

Mustang [Ergüven, 2015] Brutal in its authenticity. Something I want to hate but can’t. I’m happy to have seen this film. I really am. 10/10

Still Alice [Westmoreland, 2015, United States]  It’s a highly moving film that doesn’t just make you cry, it makes you understand and feel, and it’s insanely good at it. 10/10  

Room [Abrahamson, 2015, United States] Astounding direction and performances make this film alive. And it should be for a hundred years or more. 10/10 

EDSA [Yapan, 2016] Is a number of things. It’s socially relevant, a moral challenge, a visual feast. Most simply one of the bests. 10/10

Son of Saul [Nemes, 2015] This film has a breathtaking power no one can doubt. 10/10

Embrace of the Serpent [Guerra, 2015] I got lost somewhere its visual hypnotism, but it’s great overall. 10/10

Winter Sleep [Ceyland, 2014, Turkey] Written too intellectually, I want to quote the entire film. And that’s just about 15% of its greatness. 10/10

Apprentice [Junfeng, 16] Draws the line between showing compassion & battling own conscience. Gripping, I feel hands around my throat. 10/10 Kubo and the Two Strings [Knight, 2016] has a heartfelt storytelling of the melancholic nature of humanity. 10/10 

Go Ji Jeon [Hun, 2011] Where wars for personal survivals, moralities, past horrors, and false hopes are far worse than combat battles. 10/10

Guernica [Serra, 2016] a little too overscored, but really great overall. 10/10

Crescent Rising [Dayoc 2015, Philippines] Captured clearly the struggles of people in search of justice, peace, hope & happiness in the midst of war. A film that is so hard to watch, there are times when I need to breathe through my mouth. 10/10

The Kids [Yu, 2015] an engaging portrait of a struggling young couple’s journey to parenthood told convincingly well. 10/10

El Misterio de la Felicidad [Burman, 2014] An easy and charming watch with an ending that could be one of my favourites. 10/10

The Survivalist [Fingleton, 2015] A long-lived representation of how people choose to risk their survival for fidelity and solicitude. 10/10

Ang Araw Bago ang Wakas [Diaz, 2016] Genius. An apocalyptic tale told through poetry against the backdrop of a growing disaster. 10/10

Grandma [Weitz, 2015] I love the story, I love how it unfolds, and I love how it will live in me for sure. 10/10

The Wailing [Na, 2016] An exhausting watch with an even more incredibly vexing inner context. 10/10

Oro [Yapan, 2016] Shows oppression and lopsidedness in equally lopsided frames. Amazing set of cast. 10/10

The Little Prince [Osborne, 2015, France]  Nothing like how I imagined it to be but I love it for everything it is. 10/10

Mad Max: Fury Road [Miller, 2015, United States]  That’s two hours of absolute vicious entertainment and visual marvel. 10/10

An Kubo sa Kawayanan [Yapan, 2015, Philippines] Stunning cinema. The film has its soothing silence that makes you appreciate the littlest things. 10/10 

The Martian [Scott, 2015, United States] Oddly funny in a satisfying form in the midst of struggle and desolation. 10/10

Thelma [Joaquim Trier, 2017, Norway]Meticulously-crafted film that questions fundamentalism as a basis for joy and purity. I yearn for films as poetic as this. 9.5/10

On Body and Soul [Ildikó Enyedi, 2017, Hungary] Too cold yet too heartfelt in all its complexity. 9.5/10

Hereditary [Ari Aster, 2018, United States] Unsettling down to the core with a convincing cast and a powerful storytelling. 9.5/10 

Incendies [Dennis Villanueve, 2011, Canada] With such expert direction, it’s elementally strong in more aspect than one. 9.5/10

Us [Jordan Peele, 2019, United States] It is as if every element in this film is smartly placed there to serve a deeper purpose, it’s a movie in search of greater meaning. 9.5/10

Manchester by the Sea [Kenneth Lonergan, 2016, United States] a quiet yet profound drama narrated too effectively resulting to a mournful yet beautiful symphony. A film that brings the kind of sadness that is both painful and alluring. 9.5/10

La La Land [Damien Chazelle, 2016, United States] Is really technically excellent, but is also really disconnected. Kind of something you adore rather than love. 9.5/10

Bad Genius [Nattawut Poonpiriya, 2017, Thailand] Brimming with excellent editing and direction, it is a thriller and an ingenius commentary on how social class inequalities lead to inevitable corruption. Brilliant. 9.5/10

Les Innocentes [Anne Fontaine, 2016, France] a battle between religious order and moral conscience, one whose importance cannot be omitted. 9.5/10

L’enfant [Luc Dardenne, Pierre Dardenne, 2005, France] It offers the kind of suspense that attacks your soul rather than just your senses. 9.5/10

First Girl I Loved [Kerem Sanga, 2016, United States] a tender coming-of-age drama that tackles discovering self-identity and the fear that comes with that realization. So raw, it’s thrilling. 9.5/10

Birdshot [Mikhail Red, 2017, Philippines] Beautifully shot, it swims along two storylines at par – both in search for impunity in a corrupted society. Too relevant. 9.5/10

Heneral Luna [Tarrog, 2015, Philippines]  Jerrold Tarog is as brave as General Luna. He clearly is the Luna of film making. 9.5/10

The Guilty (Den Skyldige) [Gustav Möller, 2018, Denmark] Is clever in its minimalism. A fast-paced action thriller and a psychological suspense, all shot entirely between four walls. 9.5/10

Batch 81 [Mike de Leon, 1982, Philippines] In its subversiveness and its sardonic undertone is a remarkable spectacle of expertise, bravery, esoterica, and dynamism. 9.5/10 

Dogman [Matteo Garrone, 2018, Italy] Examines a man’s need to be recognized as a chihuahua in a shepherd’s world. 9.5/10

Grave of the Fireflies [Isao Takahata, 1988, Japan] Save your fragile heart, this isn’t for the emotionally weak. 9.5/10

Timbuktu [Sissako, 2014, French, Mauritius] It haunts me more how this film can tell such horror beautifully, I am both mad and pitiful at once. 9.5/10

Copenhagen [Rasso, 2014, Denmark]  A very unusual romantic drama made guilelessly, the characters will live for years. I’m so in love with it. 9/10

God’s Own Country [Francis Lee, 2017, United Kingdom] Features a kind of romance with such carefully-observed realism. It was very well portrayed. Very well. 9/10

Apocalypse Child [Cornejo, 2015, Philippines]  I don’t know where it’s going & that’s what makes it great. Has the best cast ensemble I’ve seen this year. 9/10

Sleepless [Cruz, 2015, Philippines]  In which love is sincerely felt in the absence of romance. 9/10

Sunday’s Illness (La Enfermedad del Doming) [Ramon Salazar, 2018, Spain] Scene after scene of mesmerizing mystery and such powerful attention to detail. 9/10

Annihilation [Alex Garland, 2018, United States] Though at times flawed, it ended with such thought-provoking, ambitious, and lasting impact. 9/10 

Miss Bulalacao [Chawdhury, 2015, Philippines] A small-town film with a big message the whole world needs to know. 9/10

The Tale of Princess Kaguya [Takahata, 2014, Japan] Wow. How can something so cute and sweet break my heart into tiny little pieces? 9/10

The Ferry [Wei, 2013, China] Apart from its masterful visual beauty, the real treasure of this film is the beauty of its heart. 9/10

Saving Sally [Liongoren, 2016] Is the freshest and has the most creative style I’ve seen this year. 9/10

Sakaling Hindi Makarating [Idanan, 2016] In w/c you try to find yourself in far-flung places, & in doing so found someone equally lost. 9/10

Amelie [Jeunet, 2001] Uniquely crafted tour de force. So distinct, it won’t be forgotten. 9/10

One Week Friends [Masanori Murakami, 2017, Japan] There’s a good reason for my sunken eyes right now, right? 9/10

Vertigo [Alfred Hitchcock, 1958, 2012 restoration, United States] Where obsession leads to objectification of love and desire. 9/10

Captain America: Civil War [Joe Russo, Anthony Russo, 2016, United States] it’s hard to point out which part of the film I didn’t like, that’s if I hated anything. 9/10 

The Florida Project [Sean Baker, 2017, United States] Kids, no matter the social class, are still just kids in search for adventure, friendship, and love. This movie doesn’t feel like a movie at all, it’s brilliant. 9/10

Goodnight Mommy [Franz, Fiala, 2015] As cold and effective as it wants to be. 9/10  

 The White Helmets [Orlando Von Eisiedel, 2016, United Kingdom, Syria] A heartrending glimpse at the life of true heroes in violence-stricken Syria. 9/10

Inside Out [Docter, 2015, United States] One of the bravest films to ever illustrate the dysfunctions (and functions) of people’s emotions. 9/10

Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens [Abrams, 2015, United States] Works best without the tweetums. Mostly worked therefore. It is the most complicated, action-packed, gender sensitive, and racially-diverse of the franchise. It also is my favourite. 9/10

PK [Rajkumar Hirani, 2014, India] a courageous film that wittingly pokes fun of religious beliefs. 9/10

Mamu and a Mother Too [Rod Singh, 2018, Philippines] Why it scared me, I don’t know. It could be because it’s unpredictable, it’s non-cliche, and it’s gentle in ways you don’t expect. I love it. 9/10

The Good Dinosaur [Sohn, 2015, United States] Not much story to offer, but heartfelt in its nothingness. Stunning visuals. Really stunning visuals. 9/10

Signal Rock [Chito Rono, 2018, Philippines] Very raw and phenomenal. Each character formidably plays an important role in characterizing a small town of heartwarming spirit. If not for its distracting bad CGI which I think is unnecessary, I’d give it a perfect 10. 9/10

Manang Biring [Papa, 2015, Philippines] One of those films that perfectly hit home. 9/10

Mercury is Mine [Laxamana, 2016] Quite a reflection of colonial mentality and the acute patronage of the superficial. 9/10

Beti [P. Sheshadri, 2017, India] manages to oppose patriarchy in Indian culture in such an innocent yet intelligible perspective. 9/10

Train to Busan [Yeon Sang-ho, 2016, South Korea] When everyone’s becoming a monster, humanity is the way to survive. Fast-paced. Thrilling. Heartfelt. I honestly feel like Train to Busan lacks a stronger female character, but it’s interestingly very human that I’m completely captured by it. 9/10 

Paris is Burning [Jennie Livingston, 1991, United States] is a little documentary that stays. 9/10

Paglisan [Carl Papa, 2018, Philippines] Heartbreaking. It is a test of sympathy. 9/10

ML [Benedict Mique, 2018, Philippines]teeming with ingenuity and masteful filmmaking, it’s a suspense too relevant for anyone to miss. 9/10

Liway [Kip Oebanda, 2018, Philippines] Is at most powerful when it exposes the correlation of facts and fiction. Doesn’t hit you right away but when it does, it hits hard. It hits still. 9/10

Sicilian Ghost Story [Fabio Grassadonia, Antonio Piazza, 2017, Italy, France, Switzerland] Cinematic and poetic. Beautiful in all its mythological symbolism. 9/10

Get Out [Jordan Peele, 2017, United States] a satire of utmost significance, it lives. 9/10

Si Chedeng at Si Apple [Rae Red, Fatrick Tabada, 2017, Philippines] Hilarious with punchlines, intelligent with comebacks. This is comedy with brain, soul, and heart. 9/10 Happy as Lazzaro (Lazzaro Felice) [Alice Rohrwacher, 2018, Italy] a charming small film with a subtext of such vivid social allegory. 9/10

I am Not a Witch [Rungano Nyoni, 2018, United Kingdom] For a debut film, this is quite a remarkable take on exploitation, abuse, and misogyny. 9/10

A Quiet Place [John Krasinski, 2018, United States] For a film that’s supposed to be silent, I find it quite overscored. Still a good watch though. 9/10

Ang Panahon ng Halimaw [Lav Diaz, 2018, Philippines] Sarcasm at its best. Quite fun. 9/10

L'amant Double [Francois Ozon, 2018, France] Wild and mindblowing, a film of endless curiosity. 9/10

Widows [Steve McQueen, 2018, United States] How can something so traditionally formal feel so modern at the same time? Steve McQueen knows. 9/10

Eerie [Mikhail Red, 2018, Philippines] More than its excellent scare tactics, what I love about it most is its clever storytelling and use of metaphors. 9/10

Veloce Come Il Vento [Rovere, 2016] Funny, gripping, touching. I enjoyed every single moment of it. 9/10

Sarong Banggi [Dela Cruz, 2005] i’m not too keen on the plot twist but the emotional connection’s too strong, I’m easily in love w/ it. 9/10

I Love You, Thank You [Gohetia, 2015, Philippines] That was quite a torture, I left the theater too broken. 9/10

La Luciernaga (The Firefly) [Ana Maria Hermida, 2015, Colombia] is about finding love in grief, beauty in ugly. And though there are some directorial decisions I don’t necessarily agree with, the chemistry its leads bring onscreen is too tangible for me to care about its flaws. 9/10

Green Room [Saulnier, 2016] a lot of fun, tension, blood, and cinematic excellence. My type of film, really. 9/10

I’ll See You In My Dreams [Haley, 2015] So true about the death I know and the death I don’t know. So true about everything actually. 9/10

Tuos [Cabrido, 2016] Visually alluring with winning performances, it’s almost hypnotic. 9/10Cain at Abel [Brocka, 1982] Sleekly written, directed, and acted. Considerably flawless. 9/10

Seklusyon [Erik Matti, 2016, Philippines] a thought-provoking jewel on the corruption of divinity and an examination of people’s inner evils. 9/10  

First Reformed [Paul Schrader, 2019, United States] an astounding character study that questions the politics of religion. 9/10

The Conjuring 2 [Wan, 2016] I guess I just can’t really be scared of something this good. No dull moment. So human. Much love for this. 9/10

Fuccbois [Eduardo Roy Jr, 2019, Philippines] Amazing storytelling and editing of a narrative so strange yet so eclectic. 8.5/10

BlackKKansman [Spike Lee, 2018, United States] Although satirically exaggerated, this film is teeming with entertainment and importance. 8.5/10 

In This Corner of the World [Sunao Katabuchi, 2017, Japan] It stays. Films like this, they always do. 8.5/10

The End of the Tour [Ponsoldt, 2015, United States] Give me a minute, I need to rethink my life. 8.5/10

Margarita with a Straw [Nilesh Maniyar, Shonali Bose, India, 2016] An unusual take on sexual exploration and self discovery. It somehow lost its focus towards the end but still a delightful watch overall. 8.5/10

Berlin Calling [Hannes Stohr, 2008, Germany] a movie that lives in the present paced in such rhythmic beat, it is dazzling from start to end. 8.5/10

Kuwaresma [Erik Matti, 2019, Philippines] Is a multilayer of social commentaries which were good before they too contradict themselves. 8.5/10

Two Days, One Night [Dardenne, 2014, Belgium, France, Italy] I’m crying half of the time because its emotional dilemma has to be seen in the eyes of depression. 8/10

Battle of the Sexes [Jonathan Dayton, Valerie Faris, 2017, United States] Makes me feel bad for not being alive yet when it happened. Ace. 8/10

Euthanizer (Armomurhaaja} [Teemu Nikki, 2018, Finland] An examination of how suffering is commensurate with cruelty. For something so bleak, it is surprisingly a good exemplification of moral values. 8/10

Sicario [Villanueve, 2015, United States] One of the best and intensely-directed crime films I’ve seen that doesn’t need much action to thrill. 8/10

Don’t Breathe [Alvarez, 2016] Alvarez has some serious skills to make this suspenseful with only a blind villain inside a small house. 8/10  

Elle [Verhoeven, 2016] has one of the most intriguing antihero characters played perfectly well by Huppert. 8/10

Water Lemon [Lorca, 2015, Philippines] In w/c the struggle of finding strange connection (w/ people, emotions, wavelength, nature) is incredibly real. 8/10

Theeb [Nowar, 2015] For a newcomer, Nowar is a delightful surprise and so is Eid who did perfect in this film. 8/10

Brother of the Year [Witthaya Thongyooyong, 2018, Thailand] For all its simplicity and bleak storyline, it still offers an abundance of emotion and a sense of realism. 8/10

Padman [R. Balki, 2018, India] Speaks volumes in a humorous way. Something enlightening and empowering, I love it. 8/10

Gutland [Govinda Van Maele, 2017, Luxembourg] For a debut feature, Van Maele is a master of slow-burn tension. 8/10

Ek Ladki Ko Dekha To Aisa Laga [Shelly Dhar, 2019, India] Not a first in world cinema, but is still a groundbreaking moviemaking in the context of India. 8/10

Lorna [Bernardo, 2015, Philippines] Feels so legitimate, it’s entertaining from start to end. 8/10

The Killing of a Sacred Deer [Yorgos Lanthimos, 2017 Greece, UK , US] Yet another solid psychological thriller by the master of contemporary enigma. 8/10

If Cats Disappeared From the World [Akira Nagai, 2016, Japan] a tearjerker drama that examines the essence of living as opposed to just merely existing. 8/10

Ek Ladki Ko Dekha To Aisa Laga [Shelly Dhar, 2019, India] Not a first in world cinema, but is still a groundbreaking moviemaking in the context of India. 8/10

Coco [Lee Unkrich, 2017, United States]Understands what La La Land doesn’t – relationships shouldn’t suffer when achieving our dreams. 8/10

Medianeras [Taretto, 2011] a lot wordy. But it’s the kind of wordy I’d love to listen to over and over again. 8/10

Paterson [Jim Jarmusch, 2016, United States] Poetic is an understatement. 8/10

Changing Partners [Dan Villegas, 2017, Philippines] uses strong dialogues and character play that makes it rare and magical. 8/10

A Prayer Before Dawn [Jean-Stéphane Sauvaire, 2018, France, Thailand] For something that feels hesitant in showing violence, this is already quite a tough watch. 8/10

We Need to Talk About Kevin [Lynn Ramsey, 2012, United States]

Purgatoryo [Cabrido, 2016] Reminds me a lot of ‘Oros’ only with some serious technique and distinct visual style. 8/10

A Taxi Driver [Hun Jang, 2017, South Korea] an entertaining yet affecting tribute to nameless heroes. 8/10

Ex Machina [Garland, 2015, United Kingdom, United States] A gripping labyrinth shown with such sleek visuals. 8/10

Krigen [Tobias Lindholm, 2016, Denmark] Feels a little rushed in the end, but affecting overall. 8/10

Chemi Bednieri Ojakhi (My Happy Family) [Nana Ekvtimishvili, Georgia, 2017] Paints quite vividly a life of a woman in a patriarchal society. Remarkable. 8/10

Little White Lies [Guillaume Canet, 2010, France] I love these characters too much to the point of wanting them to be real. 8/10

Beach Rats [Eliza Hittman, 2017, United States] Overall, a substantial commentary on the stigma of homosexuality and its effect on why people choose to hide. 8/10 

The Artist [Hazanavicius, 2011] Very artistically and playfully crafted. 8/10 

Bridge of Spies [Spielberg, 2015, United States] A blend of intimate and gripping accounts of a political thriller with excellent performances and direction. 8/10

Paki [Giancarlo Abrahan, 2017, Philippines] an illustration of how even the most prosaic narrative could be weighty through the power of storytelling and good direction. 8/10

Memoir of War (La Douleur) [Emmanuel Finkiel, 2017, France] Sadly, its visual choices, experimental scoring, and drawn out structure don’t match Marguerite Duras’s poetic writing. 8/10

The Wound (Inxeba) [John Trengove, 2017, South Africa] More than the physical wound from a boy's transition to manhood, this movie tackles a deeper kind of pain, the kind that scars forever. 8/10

A Gift [Jira Maligool, 2017, Thailand] One of those films that could effortlessly make you laugh and cry. Charming. Very very charming – definitely a favourite. 8/10

Pan de Salawal [Che Espiritu, 2018, Philippines] a hard-hitting reminder that the most painful challenges people overcome are also the most rewarding. Don’t be afraid to feel them all. 8/10

The Girl in the Book [Cohn, 2015, Untied States] It’s uncomfortable to watch two people w/o resemblance play the same character. Otherwise it’s great. 8/10

Heaven Knows What [Safdie, 2015, Germany] Raw and natural. This film is so truthful and alive, it breathes on its own. 8/10

Ang Kwento Nating Dalawa [Abrogena, 2015, Philippines] Silence, long takes, parallelism. This film knows how to show separation in its most artistic form. 8/10

Brooklyn [Crowley, 2015, United Kingdom, Canada, Ireland] Honestly told, naturally acted, distinctly beautiful. 8/10

Personal Shopper [Olivier Assayas, 2017, France] A subtle but dreary take on grief. Slow but rewarding in the end. 8/10

Moglie e Morito [Simone Godano, 2017, Italy]Could be the funniest film I have watched this year. 8/10

Love You to the Stars and Back [Antoinette Jadaone, 2017, Philippines] Kind of wants to make you believe in destiny, kind of succeeds in that sense. A tender take on teenage love and loss, so pure, it’s precious. 8/10

Above the Clouds [Diokno, 2014, Philippines] Feels a bit preachy to me but at the same time subtle in advocating against environmental destruction. 8/10

Mission Impossible: Rogue Nation [McQuarrie, 2015, United States] I love the action, yes. But I love Rebecca Ferguson a million times more. 8/10

The Great Buddha+ [Hsin-yao Huang, 2018, Taiwan] Not sure if saying “this is my kind of humour” is something I should be proud of but damn this film is hilarious! Oh and really clever too. 8/10

Hacksaw Ridge [Mel Gibson, 2016, United States] Is one of those war films that stand out. 8/10

Hidden Figures [Ted Melfi, 2017, United States] For those questioning the existence of women figures in history, here’s a good start for you. 8/10

D'Ardennen [Robin Pront, 2016, Belgium] Just about the right amount of violence and grim unpredictability paced quite effectively. 8/10

Mother! [Darren Aronofsky, 2017, United States] It wore me thin down to the core then ended quite brilliantly. My social anxiety is triggered, I am petrified and annoyed both at the same time. 8/10

Blade Runner 2049 [Dennis Villanueve, 2017, United States] Despite its cringe-worthy attack on my feminist self, it actually has a rich cinematic vision of a bewildered 2049. 8/10

Ang Larawan [Loy Arcenas, 2017, Philippines]Has such polished musicality that it overwhelms you to the point of it defying the flaws. 8/10

Lipstick Under my Burkha [Alankrita Shrivastava, 2016, India] Comes with great intentions but lacks the powerful female characters the film supposed to have. 8/10

L’Avenir [Mia Hansen-Love, 2016, France] At this point, everyone should know that there is nothing Isabelle Huppert cannot do. 8/10

Nocturnal Animals [Tom Ford, 2016, United States] This is how a writer dies, and this is how a writer comes back with a kill. 8/10

La Tortue Rogue [Michael Dudok De Wit, 2017, France, Japan] A dialogue-less animation that proves that silence speaks a thousand words and could even provoke deep thinking. 8/10 

Everybody Loves Somebody [Catalina Aguilar Mastretta, 2017, Mexico] Nothing much is special and new about it which is why I don’t understand why I love it to a great extent. 8/10 

The Revenant [Iñárritu, 2015] Although it speaks, it doesn’t speak loud enough to be heard. 8/10

10 Cloverfield Lane [Trachtenberg, 2016] It’s wicked in a way that it is good. 8/10

Mon Roi [Maïwenn, 2016] With a narrative so hard to withstand, the riveting performances of Bercot and Cassel made this a must watch. 8/10 

Neruda [Larrain, 2016] Virtually poetic, contextually lyrical. 8/10

Leave No Trace [Debra Ganik, 2018, United States] a small film of massive authenticity and warm touch. It will leave a trace. 8/10

Manila by Night [Ishmael Bernal, 1980, Philippines] a classic representation of the realities of how Manila is a witness to the city’s moral lethargy. 8/10 

Rogue One: A Star Wars Story [Edwards, 2016] If only for its third act, this is already worth every penny. 8/10

Un Homme Ideal [Gozlan, 2016] a film structured so well, it’s both suspenseful and unpredictable. 8/10

Rosita [Aspock, 2015] a momentous character-driven drama on relationships & sacrifices shown through natural & credible performances. 8/10

I Smile Back [Salky, 2015] Nothing I haven’t seen before which is why I don’t know why I liked it. 8/10 

Ned’s Project [Lorca, 2016] Has a profound sense of lesbian issues w/ a well-thought-of character superbly portrayed by Angeli Bayani. 8/10 

The Third Party [Laxamana, 2016] Examines the struggles of sexual confusion, and existential crisis. Something that hits home. 8/10 

Ignacio de Loyola [Dy, 2016] Sincerely really well-made, I’m surprisingly impressed. 8/10 

Curiosity, Adventure, Love [De Leon, Richiardone, 2016] it’s the kind of film full of wisdom, it’s like I left the theater smarter. 8/10

I am Not a Serial Killer [O'Brien, 2016] The thing I like about this is I’m still not sure whether he is or is not a serial killer. 8/10 

Macbeth [Kurzel, 2015] Poetically forceful, it leaves you vividly stunned. 8/10

The Jungle Book [Favreau, 2016] It is so good, I almost stood up from my seat to join them in the jungle. 8/10

Deadpool [Miller, 2016] Still a better love story than Twilight. 8/10

Sovdargari (The Trader) [Tamta Gabrichidze, 2018, Georgia] Emotionally intense depiction of rural poverty. 7.5/10

The Two Popes [Fernando Mereilles, 2019, UK, US, Italy, Argentina] Features two outstanding performances that redeemed it from all its dragging moments. 7.5/10

Baby Driver [Edgar Wright, 2017, United States] The ending blew it, but I had so much fun anyhow. 7.5/10

It Follows [Mitchell, 2015, United States] It isn’t particularly terrifying to me, but this is definitely an anti-cliche horror film worth watching. 7.5/10

Loving Vincent [Dorota Kobiela, Hugh Welchman, 2017, Poland-UK] Focused too much on visual mastery, wasn’t impactful, narrative-wise. 7.5/10 

Black Panther [Ryan Coogler, 2018, United States] Oozing with unusual but likable characters. 7.5/10

A Land Imagined [Chris Yeo, 2018, Singapore, France, Netherlands] An unsettling noir mystery that questions people’s notion of truth. 

My Days of Mercy [Tali Shalom Ezer, 2019, United States] There is a bewitching chemistry between the two leads despite the coldness of it all. 7.5/10

The Other Side of the Wind [Orson Welles, 2018, United States] Not for a Welles beginner but is surely a completist’s delight. 7.5/10

Felicite [Alain Gomis, 2017, Senegal, Congo, France] With such lyrical tone, its narrative was thinly sketched that some of its elements don’t match. 7.5/10

I, Tonya [Craig Gillespie, 2017, United States]Despite Robbie’s knockout portrayal, I still need to connect more with Tonya Harding. 7.5/10

Dunkirk [Christopher Nolan, 2017, United States] Boasts Nolan’s technical superiority. 7.5/10   

Contratiempo (The Invisible Guest) [Oriol Paulo, 2017, Spain] offers an outstanding and enjoyable thrilling ride. 7.5/10

Giant Little Ones [Keith Berhman, 2019, United States] An honest road to knowing your own self in the eyes of a boy transitioning to adolescence. 7.5/10

Revenge [Coralie Fargeat, 2018, France]Caution: explicit cursing while watching and cheering to this. 7.5/10

Tu Pug Imatuy [Arbi Barbarona, 2017, Philippines] Great. Everything here feels authentic, it’s powerful. 7.5/10

Never Not Love You [Antoinette Jadaone, 2018, Philippines] Beautifully and realistically written. It’s just really hard for me to like Reid’s character. 7.5/10 

Kaptn Oskar [Tom Lass, 2013, Germany] Only basic virtue - it is a beautiful film. Not only for its comfort. But for the old poetry of dust emotions. 7.5/10

Walang Forever [Villegas, 2015, Philippines] A delightful romcom that shifts to heavy drama. Has a confusing tone, but ok with the follow through. 7.5/10

Tangerine [Baker, 2015, United States] Funny and adorable in an odd way. My favourite comedy of 2015 (so far). 7.5/10

Wonder Woman [Patty Jenkins, 2017, United States] More than it being a feminist is it being human and that I think is more important. 7.5/10 

That’s Not Us [William Sullivan, 2015, United States] Very real and natural, I’m nostalgic for reasons I cannot explain. 7.5/10

Other People [Chris Kelly, 2016, United States] So subtly-made, yet is filled with so much emotions. I have much respect for this. 7.5/10

Aria [Carlo Catu, 2018, Philippines] Could have gone deeper and darker to make a more harrowing but lasting impact. It borders on the safe side, but still able to tell something important. 7.5/10

Creed [Coogler, 2015, United States] One of the most passionate films of the year. Surprisingly, it’s still very Rocky. 7.5/10

Furie [Le Van Kiet, 2019, Vietnam] With great performance and thrilling choreography, Furie is one of the best action films of 2019. 7.5/10

Logan [James Mangold, 2017, United States] Could be the marvel movie that made me feel the saddest. 7.5/10

The Awakening of Motti Wolkenbrunch [Michael Steiner, 2019, Switzerland, Germany] A funny glimpse at a life of an Orthodox Jewish man with a chemistry that gives you a hopeful ending. 7.5/10

Gerald’s Game [Mike Flanagan, 2017, United States] Meticulously-directed, it is an outstanding adaptation of Stephen King’s novel. 7.5/10

Kita Kita [Sigrid Andrea Bernardo, 2017, Philippines] I have a problem with what it’s trying to romanticize, but I still find it romantic, I’m conflicted. I don’t know but i tend to like films/books that border on finding comfort in loneliness. Kita Kita understands that concept pretty well.  7.5/10

You’re Ugly Too [Mark Noonan, 2015, Ireland] An engaging journey of two unusual characters thrown together infused with a great sense of authenticity. 7.5/10 

Billie & Emma [Samantha Lee, 2018, Philippines] There’s magic in its production design and an amusing chemistry that would remind you of what it’s like to fall in love the first time. It is everyone’s teenage romance, the kind that buries heteronormativity. 7.5/10

The Beguiled [Sofia Coppola, 2017, United States] Powerhouse cast in one of their most memorable performances. 7.5/10

Star Wars: The Last Jedi [Rian Johnson, 2017, United States] I like how it understands the inevitability of war, and how good and evil coexists. 7.5/10

Of Love & Law [Hikaru Toda, 2017, Japan] Questions the intricacies of Japanese culture through a collection of simple yet meaningful moments. 7.5/10

Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom [JA Bayona, 2018, United States]

Bambanti [Dulay 2015, Philippines] Has an honest storytelling of a small town tale that examines the correlation between social status and justice. 7.5/10

Singing in Graveyards [Bradley Liew, 2017 Philippines, Malaysia] It’s the things that it did not say that made this movie stirring. 7.5/10

Dukot [Soriano, 2016] has a kind of storytelling and powerhouse cast so good, you hate that it isn’t great. 7.5/10 

Kiko Boksingero [Thop Nazareno, 2017, Philippines] A small movie with lots of charm. A film about longing and finding satisfaction from things that are there all along. 7.5/10

A War [Lindholm, 2015] A war film In which the only villain is the circumstance itself. 7.5/10

Haunted: A Last Visit to the Red House [Phyllis Grande, 2017, Philippines] a quiet little gem. I would have want to cut it shorter though. 7.5/10

El Hombre de al Lado [Duprat, Cohn, 2009] Artistically minimalist, and yet very profound. 7.5/10

I Saw the Devil [Kim Jee-Woon, 2011, South Korea] A traumatic examination of how a monster is made. Creepy yet insightful. 7.5/10

Bagahe [Zig Dulay, 2017, Philippines] Proves that mental disturbance hits my emotions more than seeing physical violence. Affecting once digested. 7.5/10

Moana [Clements, Musker, 2016] Has a great sense of identity and sensibility, with really beautiful visuals and scoring. 7.5/10 

Baconaua [Joseph Israel Laban, 2017, Philippines] Hypnotizing. A small-town tale with profound ideologies buried under its simplicity. 7.5/10

Alipato: The Very Brief Life of an Ember [Khavn, 2016, Philippines] An enjoyable mix of weird artistry, whimsical storytelling, significant animation. Ridiculous but ridiculously exceptional. 7.5/10 

Kon-Tiki [Robbing, Sandberg, 2012] such a wonderful adventure in such a beautiful part of the world. 7.5/10

Jackie [Pablo Larrain, United States, 2016] Portman delivered a warm performance in what could be a cold memoir. 7.5/10

Italian for Beginners [Lone Scherfig, 2001, Denmark] an enjoyable character-driven story of adults finding love in the most unexpected moments. 7.5/10

Room 8 [James Griffiths, 2013, United States] Unique and smart. Too amazed, I had to share it with everyone. 7.5/10

Black Panther [Ryan Coogler, 2018, United States] 

Avengers: Infinity War [Anthony and Joe Russo, 2018, United States]

The Invitation [Karyn Kusama, 2016, United States] I know a psychological thriller like this is effective when I find myself so uncomfortable, wanting to leave, cautious of being brainwashed. 7.5/10 

Ready Player One [Steven Spielberg, 2018, United States] Too amusing to the point of apathy. Still entertaining though. 7.5/10

Disobedience [Sebastian Lelio, 2018, Ireland] Depicts the beauty of internal turmoils and hidden desires, it’s gripping. 7.5/10

Isle of Dogs [Wes Anderson, 2018, United States] A quirky imagination of a simple narrative, told in a hyper-stylized artistry. 7.5/10

Apostasy [Daniel Kokotajlo, 2017, United Kingdom] the more it rolls, the more I loathe religion. 7.5/10 

Wonder Woman [Patty Jenkins, 2017, United States] More than it being a feminist is it being human and that I think is more important. 7.5/10 

Trumbo [Roach, 2015] For a film about an exemplary screenwriter, it was only averagely written. 7.5/10

Miss You Already [Hardwicke, 2015] The kind that will make you laugh, or weep, or both at the same time. 7.5/10

Hintayan ng Langit [Villegas, 2018] I’m not completely sold on a couple of its elements but boy, Gina Pareño is a gem. A sparkling one.  7.5/10  

Always Be My Maybe [Villegas, 2016] Let’s do away with the immature cheesy scenes. The chemistry is already cute without it. 7.5/10

Malila: The Farewell Flower [Anucha Boonyawatana, 2018, Thailand] A beguiling narration of existentialism, redemption, and the philosophy of Buddhism. All told in such calming gaze, it’s actually hypnotic. 7.5/10

Heartland [Maura Anderson, 2017, United States] A lot of technical expertise is lacking but it’s heartbreaking just the same. 7/10

Under Heaven [Tilepbergen, 2015] A series of unfortunate events told through a collection of expressive shots and believable lead. 7/10

Meet Me in St Gallen [Irene Villamor, 2018, Philippines]

Meadowland [Morano, 2015, United States] I’ve always loved Olivia Wilde, and this is her most accomplished performance yet. 7/10

Never Not Love You [Antoinette Jadaone, 2018, Philippines] Beautifully and realistically written. It’s just really hard for me to like Reid’s character. 7/10

Eight Grade [Bo Burnham, 2018, United States] One of the most important and most natural teen movies of the year. 7/10

UnTrue [Sigrid Andrea Bernardo, 2019, Philippines] to put it simply, UnTrue is a thrilling rollercoaster ride. 7/10

En Chance Til [Bier, 2014] has an underdeveloped style and presentation to convince its audience of its supposed resonant narrative. 7/10

The Hitman’s Bodyguard [Patrick Hughes, 2017, United States] To hell with that, I enjoyed it. A lot. 7/10

Ma’ Rosa [Mendoza, 2016] a glimpse of the reality of poverty & how Filipinos negotiate for their lives. Important film but not my fave. 7/10

Dear Ex [Chih-Yen Hsu, 2018, Taiwan] Features odd but genuine kind of love. It is funny, heartfelt, and charming all at the same time. 7/10

The Miseducation of Cameron Post [Desiree Akhavan, 2018, United States] Provocatively presents how emotionally abusing conversion therapy could be. 7/10

First They Killed my Father [Angelina Jolie, 2017, United States, Cambodia] sincerely and sensitively paints a portrait of a country’s tragic history. 7/10

The Journey [Chiu Keng Guan, 2014, Malaysia] Gives you a glimpse of Chinese culture against the backdrop of the beautiful Malaysian landscapes. I really had fun. 7/10

Baboy Halas [Fiola, 2016] a film that will truly immerse you to a life completely unknown. Tranquil yet turbulent. A new experience. 7/10

Tale of Tales [Garrone, 2015, Italy] Boasts lavish productions with a series of macabre fairytales for adults. 7/10

I’m Drunk, I Love You [JP Habac, 2017, Philippines] Makes you feel so much. Something too relatable, it’s terrific. If only for its music scoring, it’s already worth the watch. 7/10 

La Tête Haute [Bercot, 2016] Paradot’s portrayal of a violent juvenile is one of the best I’ve seen this year. 7/10

Crazy Rich Asians [Jon Chu, 2018, United States] Important and feel-good, but that’s just it for me. 7/10

Vince & Kath & James [Theodore Boborol, 2016, Philippines] wait taym pers, bakit ampogi nung bagets? 7/10

Truth [Vanderbilt, 2015] It’s bothersome that it will make you thirst for truth, but the facts wont prove you that. 7/10

Mrs [Alix, 2016] Doesn’t go too big on drama but delivers first-rate portrayals of women wrestling with their own inner demons. 7/10

The Girl King [Mika Kaurismaki, 2015, Sweden, Finland] has a strong female character who does not dare conform to society’s truths. 7/10

Buhay Habambuhay [Herras, 2016] Technically, it was just okay. But it’s the kind of okay that lives. 7/10

Distance [Perci Intalan, 2018, Philippines] a tender family drama with powerful performances of characters who choose to love no matter how wrong or right. 7/10

Showroom [Fernando Molnar, 2014, Argentina] is a showroom of how beautiful and luxurious an artificial world could be. 7/10

Captain Fantastic [Matt Ross, 2016, United States] a thoroughly-observed film that asks too many radical questions that can only be answered by contradicting its own philosophy. Quite a realization that balance is the key to life. 7/10 

The Intervention [DuVall, 2016] Seems like a real bond, I don’t mind hanging out with them again. 7/10

Contagion [Steven Soderbergh, 2011, United States] Believable but somehow lacking in its scare tactic. 7/10

La Pazza Gioia [Paolo Virzi, 2016, Italy] The chemistry and the friendship formed between Beatrice and Donatella is a delightful box full of surprises. 7/10

The Girl Who Leapt Through Time [Mamoru Hosoda, 2006, Japan] an entertaining anime on time travel done with slick sensitivity. 7/10

Jorgen + Anne = Sant [Sewitsky, 2011] When it comes to love, who are we to judge? 7/10

Zodiac [David Fincher, 2007, United States] Intelligent drama, boring thriller. Not a fan. 7/10

The Greatest Showman [Michael Gracey, 2018, United States]

The Write Moment [Dominic Lim, 2017, Philippines] Incredibly funny. Unfamiliar yet relatable. 7/10

Baka Bukas [Samantha Lee, 2017] A realistic take on coming out and drifting apart. 7/10

Mistress America [Baumbach, 2015] In which anxiety, loneliness and one’s own crises are hidden behind the wit. 7/10

The Battleship Island [Seung-wan Ryoo, 2017, South Korea] Kind of an upset for a big-budget film. It was entertaining anyhow. 7/10

One Day [Banjong Pisanthanakun, 2016, Thailand] I could buy the romance here but I wouldn’t. Still quite good though. 7/10

Hunt for the Wilderpeople [Taika Waititi, 2016, New Zealand] Boasts really funny puns, and spectacular landscapes. All fun. 7/10

Nabubulok [Sonny Calvento, 2017, Philippines] With how much I read and watch crime and legal thrillers, I find this film very problematic in more ways than one. Still worth a watch though. 7/10

The Diary of a Teenage Girl [Heller, 2015] Well, that was quite an extraordinary diary. 7/10

Cafe. Waiting. Love [Jiang Jin Lin, 2014, Taiwan] Better if cut into two different films. Says something important somewhere. 7/10

Ken and Kazu [Shoji, 2015] Hard to watch. Pays off in the end. 7/10

Dagen Zonder Lief [Groeningen, 2007] a subtle observation of how youth disappears from sight. 7/10

Hush [Flanagan, 2016] Interesting use of silence both as a scare tactic and as a lifesaver in this nail-biting thriller. 7/10

Bridgend [Ronde, 2016] When there’s a teen suicide outbreak, how are you not going to like it? 7/10

Smaller and Smaller Circles [Raya Martin, 2017, Philippines] Suspense done right but there’s something about its exchanges that seems unnatural. 7/10

Lily [Deligero, 2016] Impressive style and use of myth to reject misogyny. 7/10

Pop Aye [Kirsten Tan, 2018, Thailand, Singapore] Is as slow but as heavy as its lead. 7/10

The Lady in the Van [Hytner, 2015] Nothing much in here stands out except for Maggie Smith’s glorious performance. 7/10

Instalado [Jason Paul Laxamana, 2017, Philippines] Has a creative approach in showing education as a privilege in a world of Insta-everything. Clever, it resembles the paranoia Margaret Atwood gives, and the subtle societal dysfunctions Yorgos Lanthimos offers. 7/10

High Tide [Tara Illenberger, Philippines, 2017] There’s something beautiful behind this film’s innocence. Too slow for my taste though. 7/10

Sa Gabing Nananahimik ang mga Kuliglig [Iar Lionel Arondaing, 2017, Philippines] Experimental with its cinematography and is probably its greatest strength. It’s 4:3 frame explains the film pretty well. 7/10

The Edge of Seventeen [Kelly Fremon Craig, 2016, United States] Full of hypothetical teenage angst, and coming of age romance. Was okay. 7/10

TPO [Altarejos, 2016] Melancholy & vexation told through intrinsic acting & a mix of essential & nonessential collection of long takes. 7/10

The Day After Valentine’s [Jason Paul Laxamana, 2018, Philippines] Brilliant in its canny use of language to illustrate people’s tendency to miscommunicate emotions. 7/10

Rhymes for Young Ghouls [Barnaby, 2014] For a period film, this is kinda lost in the modern world. Other than that, it’s good. 7/10

Child of Debt [Swamy, 2015] a tale of forlorn hope in which life is on loan & the only way to pay is through death. Honestly beautiful. 7/10

Certain Women [Kelly Reichardt, 2016, United States] It takes patience to watch this, but in the end, the winning silences and subtleties are worth it. 7/10

Affinity [Fywell, 2008] I’m very angry, disappointed, and affected. If that’s the goal, then it did I great job. 7/10

Tanna [Butler, Dean, 2016] a tribal Romeo and Juliet. The kind of “you and me against the world” that changed a way of living. 7/10

Thoroughbreds [Cory Finley, 2018, United States] The kind of film that doesn’t lead to what you think. It’s black comedy of my liking. 7/10

4 Latas [Gerardo Olivares, 2019, Spain] For all its nonsense, I enjoyed it. 7/10

[sowhatisthisfor]

Hybrid creature

So I created a Save the Date teaser poster for our superheroes-themed year-end party. Some got excited, but there will always be people who'd complain particularly because I used a female model. "Where's the man in the poster?" "Where's the representation of other nationalities?" 

First of all, the teaser poster and video were done just to build up the momentum so people would get excited again after a year of lying low a bit. It was a short 15-minute random shoot (model doesn't even know what's going on when I pulled her for a shoot, which explains the pants and the shoes) and less than two hours of video editing and photoshop (which I worked on at home btw, so nope, I'm not using my office hours for this).

It wasn't in any way planned to be [or ever will be] a Regional representation of all diversity, ethnicity, class, age group, or species of any kind. It is made to excite, to prep, to tease. Not to satiate everyone's entitlements.

My main point here is not to defend our concept (or the lack of it. LOL) but to call a stop for people demanding artists to include everyone, every subgroup, every possible cause in every single artwork in any art form.

I asked for a female model cos superheroes are usually male. In other words, they're like the "default" image for a hero.

Women superheroes who are strong/courageous for reasons completely unrelated to men are very rare. In short, only a few passes the Bechdel test (please google if you don't know what I mean). These women are who I want to be represented in this particular teaser alone. 

But people who always look for "what abouts" will never be pleased as if they are entitled to that.

If you do a male poster, they’d be like “but what about women?”.

If you do a female poster, “what about Asian/African representation?”

If you do half African, half Asian female, “what about the LGBT community?”

If you do an African-Asian lesbian female, “what about the PWD?”

Dude, if we listen to all these "what abouts", we'll end up with a doble-kara male and female, colourful skin, androgynous, blind pansexual. 

And then someone would say "but what about the Illuminati?" 

It just never ends until everyone, every subgroup is happy, except the one who actually created it. 

So please just either stop whining or start creating your own hybrid creature that could represent all of humankind, animals, dinosaurs, gods, and the entire multiverse and beyond.

And I thank you.

[sowhatisthisfor]

Por favor

Can we all stop asking our artist friends to work for free? Artists can't pay their electric bills with favours.

As I always say, artists make creative output seem easy, but it's really not. Yes, artists make things happen and can make things happen even in a short period of time, but they make things happen because they are skilled, not because the process is easy. 

And those skills are acquired through a combination of natural creativity, love for learning, years of experience and a huge amount of money for equipment and training.

So nope, don't go asking artists free stuff and call it friendship. You can’t pay their artistry with favours in the same way they can’t pay their bills.