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Listen I know he didn’t know but this was all I could think about that episode

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poor riko. growing up totally isolated from ichirou meant he never learned that the correct response to your brother saying “come here” is “no you’re gonna hit me”. and that’s how he got shot

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POV: You've shown a mafia baby basic care and decency for two weeks, now you're forever under his protection.

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You know what the wildest thing about Neil is? The most Commit To The Bit thing about Neil that is legitimately concerning to the heart?

Neil would have absolutely used that kitchen knife. Like... he really would have committed to flaying his own face just to get rid of that tattoo. I don't even think he would have hesitated. He'd just experience Unimaginable Pain by his own hand and he'd eat that shit cus that pain would be better than being marked by Riko in any way resembling ownership.

Like... Neil, baby.... what

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Had a dream last night that i was a knight and this bigger scarier knight had me on the ground and right before he swung his sword at my neck he said smth like "i mourn the loss of life for the tree who will become your coffin" which shouldnt have turned me on like it did but alas

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modern horror story: a single 200 chapter fic on ao3 summarized as a “collection of drabbles.” it is tagged for 200 different fandoms and every single character who so much as breathes in any of the chapters. it takes you an hour to scroll past. it is always at the top of your search results because it updates three times a week.

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your honor my client is guilty can i get another one

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Wake up the toxic husbands are back together

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so many iconic important secondhand foxes moments in TGR. i’m thinking…

AARON DRIVING THE MAS??!!

Kevin bringing Andrew to California

Matt Boyd rushing the goal with Aaron to stop the Ravens from killing Andrew

Neil with two broken ribs is better than Neil dead

Andrew clocked Jeremy IMMEDIATELY lmaoo

Agent Browning: "I hate this sport. Explain to me why they’re all like this."

Kevin kneeling by Neil the whole time he’s in pain on the Court

Aaron kicking Kevin’s thigh as reassurance and/or an order to follow

Kevin telling Jean how Abby helped him !!

Neil being utterly insufferable to the freshmen, by all accounts

Neil answering Jean’s call with ‘Neil.’ Letting Jeremy’s go to voicemail.

Abby getting a second opinion on whether Andrew needs surgery…

Dan getting red-carded for decking the Ravens

Renee laughing at Andrew’s joke that the cameras couldn’t hear

The whole team being depressed when Aaron’s on trial

Wymack calling Jean to check on him after the fire

Kevin clocking Renee’s cross necklace

Kevin telling Neil on camera that he’s the least honest person he knows

Aaron chauffeuring hurt Andrew and Neil to go see Wymack

Twinyards & Neil interrupting Kevin and Thea’s interview by screeching up in the Mas

Katelyn respectfully not coming to the trial on the day Andrew testified

Nicky getting into a violent screaming match with his parents outside the courthouse

Andrew stepping in to protect Kevin but letting him stand up for himself when he said he could

Renee subtly telling the reporters to fuck off and talk to the right Ravens

Kevin and Neil joint press conference. Andrew and Renee together.

Kevin in actual anguish when Neil was hurt during the game

Andrew needing to know if Grayson had hurt Neil

Andrew asking if Neil killed Grayson

Kevin and Andrew both getting mad at Neil for going to see Jean alone

Dan running to defend Neil (after checking on Matt in the goal)

Andrew going outside with Jean during the interview

Kevin playing stylist for Jean’s first interview

Aaron trusting Andrew enough to deny a jury at his trial

Kevin mentioning Wymack canceled practice after Aaron won his trial

Jean casually referencing Andreil and Jeremy having no clue

Wymack calling the Foxes his kids

Betsy being there for Andrew at the trial when he testified

The upperclassmen having a bet whether Neil or Jack would fight the other first

The Foxes not having to deal with the Ravens at the banquet

Aaron getting cleared of all charges

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**TGR Spoilers**

OKAY WE HAVE TO TALK ABOUT THE RAVEN/FOX FIGHT AND NEIL

I saw that there has been some talk that Neil “I’m fine” Josten lay on the court floor after he was attacked not because he was that hurt, but to milk it to the crowd/refs and honestly, and respectfully, I disagree wholeheartedly.

Of course we weren’t there in Neil’s head and we will never know BUT what we can ascertain is that Neil saw Andrew go down. He saw that exy stick coming for Andrew’s head, slide down his helmet and connect solidly to his shoulder and then Andrew went down. We can then assume, that in the course of a second, he could see frantic movement, chaos not associated with exy violence but with true and frightening violence and just as he went to get to Andrew, get to Andrew, what is going on, get to Andrew. He gets absolutely blindsided.

Sure, maybe the first blow he would have been able to recover from but let’s not forget Lane (?) then came for his neck. Jeremy described it as her trying to break his neck and then says something along the lines of Neil not being able to fight her off.

Neil, who was held down by Riko, by Lola, by his Father was not just going to say down knowing his whole life (Andrew, Kevin, his foxes) were fighting for their lives in this organized ambush. He would never have laid down when he could do something. Because that is who Neil Josten is. He is a do-er. He is a problem-solver. He is a fixer (whether those he’s fixing likes it or not). He is loyal. he is traumatized. He is fiercely protective. He is paranoid. He is a fighter. He is a survivor.

There is no way Neil would play up his injury to the crowd because in that moment, who the fck cares about the crowd? Who cares about the court of public opinion? His people were being HURT.

Neil, who would do anything for Andrew wouldn’t stay down.

Neil, who would never knowingly and willingly allow himself to be checked out by Abby wouldn’t stay down.

Neil, whose whole life depends on his ability to play exy, wouldn’t stay down.

Neil, who could hear Kevin struggling, and Matt and Aaron fighting wouldn’t stay down.

Neil, who could sense Andrew’s pure rage, fright, pain, fighting his way to him wouldn’t stay down and knowingly put Andrew through such turmoil when he could do something to fix it (remember, they act like they’re in each other orbit? They know each other. Even with some secrets)

Sure, Neil “I’m fine” Josten has been through worse… but has he? Or did he think after brokering this deal, getting his father killed, was there when Riko died, who did his best to destroy the Ravens, help Jean, help Kevin, maybe he thought that this was the time to play exy. Forget the world and destroy this horrible team on the court.

Neil went down and didn’t get back up until he was helped off. That boy was hurt. Even days later, he struggled to get out of the car in front of strangers and cameras. He couldn’t stop the pain from his face. He may be an open book to Andrew but he is tough, and a btch and rude to outsiders. He is not weak and here, he showed weakness.

Just my two cents <3

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touch-starvation needs to be written with emphasis on the starving part. you are hungry to be touched. so hungry that even the very taste of it makes you nauseous. it has been long since anything has ever touched you, ever fed you - that your body has grown more used to that gnawing emptiness more than anything else. it's better for you to be held, to eat but it makes you sick to try. you know

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I love a character raised to be a weapon as much as the next guy. But what really gets me is a character raised to be a shield. Who can’t fathom being needed—or even being wanted— beyond keeping others safe. Who believe they are alive only to insure someone doesn’t die. no matter the cost. Characters who self-sacrifice not because they think they deserve it, but because no one else does deserve it, and it’s their job to protect.

Characters who’ve been told that’s why your important. Your worth something because this other person/ thing is important, and you are here solely to keep them safe.

Bonus points if it’s not a legitimate job they’ve been given. Maybe at one point it was, but now that they are free from it, they haven’t given up that mentality. No one is forcing or asking them to do this, but they need to. They need to in order to be deserving.

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Please... I only wish to examine your brother. I mean no harm.

Donatello being over-protective of Leo in BIG BRAWL, PART 3

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me @ my mutuals

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I want Jeremy and Neil to be on the same team after college, they would unnerve each other so much

I want Jean and Andrew to be on the same team after college cause they would say 2 words to each other the whole time and consider the other their best friend as a result

TBH any combo of these four would be gold. Throw in a Kevin too for fun.

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Me: I'm going to leave Tumblr for a while because I want no TSC spoilers, and I am not yet mentally ready to read the book.

Also me: *spends an hour going through the All For The Game tag looking for Neil mentions*