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Studied for four hours straight, then helped my brother with his holiday homework.

Around 7 pages are left of my Punjabi notes now from first register for me to revise and rewrite so I’m going to complete it by tonight.

These days are feeling so long and lazy that make me want to just sleep for most of the day.

Also, I spent four hours on writing the plot and a few chapters of my book but I slept and didn’t save because it usually auto saves but this time it didn’t and I just checked now which has irritated me a lot, and it’s not just these four hours, I’ve been writing and rewriting plot points on loose pages since two days, a major part of my day went to that and just this morning, my mom threw them away as well thinking it to be trash….*facepalming*

Anyhow, I’m calm now so I might just work on my book again. But as usual, first I must complete today’s Punjabi target.

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Only did reading today for two hours 📚

I have been having dry cough since day before yesterday and seeing how corona cases are on the rise again (though not life threatening this time) I’m still concerned so I’ll take medicine and sleep for most of the fay so I will not impact my productivity in the following days as these are extremely crucial to me.

I really hope I’m just down with a simple dry cough due to weather change and hopefully it disappears by today.

I might practice maps again in the evening but let’s see how it goes.

So yeah, that was it.

Until later, people ✨

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Only completed one topic today as I was out since yesterday and only came back a few hours back from a family trip.

My hands are hurting cuz I was already tired but still, I’ll be treading a few pages of Gandhiji’s book and will then sleep 😴

I’ll do some extra writing tomorrow!

Anyhow, that was it for today.

I’m regretting not doing anything yesterday cuz I was out since early morning. But I’m glad I was productive today, though it was a little bit but I’m happy.

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Finally people! I am back!

I gave my exam, rested for four days and here I am, studying again.

Results are not out yet, however, I am desperately hoping I clear it, I do have confidence I will though anyways🤞🤍

Aside from that, I’m studying Punjabi Literature and I am absolutely not liking my handwriting, like I’m writing punjabi after so long so the curves still feel a bit not too familiar and the flow isn’t smooth, but I’m sure it will be smooth again by tonight.

Things to do:

- Read Gandhi’s book, geography and history

- Complete CAs

- Practice maps

So yeah, things to do but not a lot I guess, I mean if I seriously concentrate, I’m sure I could finish them in no time.

Lengthy thing would be to make notes from these books and add any new current thing to them. (Not that difficult, yeah) let’s think it’s easy so our mind also thinks so.

Let’s keep ok studying so we can achieve our goals!

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Completed 10hrs of studying today along with current affairs ✨

However, I’m dreading to do the maps idk why😩

Anyhow, that’s it for today. I’m getting infrequent in updating here as my phone is almost always switched off except at night but that’s when I’m already in bed after tidying up my study desk.

I’ll try to be more regular but the closer I am to my exam, the more strangely restless I am feeling.

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I finally got done with CAs

*phew*

So exhausted but satisfied right now (wiping my non existent sweat off)

Anyhow, so these past days, I was constantly over the edge, nervously flinching whenever I thought how much more was to be done, not even getting proper sleep cuz I would be tossing and turning whole night, then feeling guilty that I didn’t even sleep properly so instead I should’ve gotten some work done but then getting sleep near the time when I had to wake up and ended up sleeping one extra hour always (for which I chided myself later in the day)….it was all over the place, like you could say I was thriving in the chaos or what, I was doing things but at the same time I was not as my mind was constantly thinking of what to do after completing CAs…..they were those days where you guilt trip yourself for not doing things earlier but are also like super motivated to do things but also procrastinating in fear of what little you’ve done….

However, I’m past all that now! So happy 😁

It feels like I’ve taken off a huge burden off my chest which is exactly what I did actually.

Anyhow, now I can get proper sleep and will focus on revising starting tomorrow.

I’ve like around ten different subjects to revise so I’ll be allotting them days and I’m thinking to do pyqs alongside and maps! I’m really lagging behind on maps again but I can’t just ignore them so I’ll do them as well daily - that’s what the plan is right now.

I’ll make a detailed one in the morning after a proper rest.

So until then, let’s keep working on our goals people. I know it’s hard, I know it might feel like you’re late but it’s not, trust me, human brain has this amazing capability to work at twice, thrice the speed of what your usually do and the results are as phenomenal.

So just start, okay!

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Close to completing my Jan CAs✨

Been 4 hours since I’m up and studying 📚

Also, I accidentally heard Hanumankind’s Run It Up and I’m obsessed!!!! I love the lyrics and the visuals and it made me sleepy daze vanish in an instant, like just so much energy and raw motivation like if I want something, I have to go and get it🤍

I wish I heard it sooner but anyhow.

So that was it.

Let’s just focus on doing our things, working, studying and then we can enjoy without any stress 👍

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Studying since morning✨

It’s been 5 hours, will now be taking a break.

I have current affairs backlog (the irony🥹) so I was extremely stressed but I’ve developed a plan and I’ll be able to complete them in just a week so I’m super excited as I’ve started and completed more than I expected.

Let’s hope we all achieve our goals 🎯🙌

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Still studying 📚

I made some notes alongside. But it’s too time consuming so it’s better if I made roughy notes for my own self without cause of colour pens or anything.

So far, it’s been kinda easy to remember topics but I haven’t tried any diagrams yet so I’m hoping I get them right as well.

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Studying geography 📚👍

It’s the most interesting subject to me, even more than history and science.

However, I need to put effort here to understand the concepts and also re-practice drawing diagrams, I mean, I can draw them, they’re not that difficult, the problem is labelling.

I fear when labeling it, I might forget something which could turn out to be important…..

However, I’m going panning on practising diagrams and maps alongside the theory so I really hope I properly revise geography without forgetting this time.

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Completed 5 chapters ✨

Been up since 2:30 in the morning 🥱 (4hrs till now)

(Since the last week, I haven’t actually gotten much done, there were days when I didn’t study at all, except for reading a few chapters without properly understanding)

I don’t know what happened or why I didn’t feel like doing anything, like I still studied but not with my complete heart, I was just….kinda distracted.

Umm, but to make up for it, I’ll be studying 16hrs this week.

I know I can do this.

Also, it might be cuz my phone was switched off the whole time, I only used it at night but without posting my progress here, it somehow felt missing and lacking, I guess I just got used to posting here in between so I’m back now.

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Got my graduation degree✨

Now have to focus on my exams again 📚

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I said I’m behind on my reading and I still am 😭

Also, I am worried for my exams but since last three days, there’s a strange excitement in me and I’m just immersing myself in that.

Cuz……my convocation’s here!

I spent two days finalising a dress, actually finalised two but I’m kinda still not satisfied (girl problems 😁)…..anyhow, I’ll most likely go shopping again today (for some accessories) so that’s why I’m studying right now.

Completed two bigger chapters and now 5 chapters are left, out of which 3 are small abd easy as it’s just concepts in there which I remember from my classes but the other 2 have like a lot of theory and terms to learn (and I like learning but somehow, I just can’t get myself to sit and learn these days)

I know it’s the convocation fever which I did not have before, like I wasn’t even excited for it until I talked to my friends and their energy rubbed off on me ✨

Anyhow, I had another tension on my mind regarding extension of my recorded lectures but the authorised person refused and asked for payment (they changed their business model in between and as I had joined earlier, I paid for the previous model and it gave us lectures on basis of hours but now it’s days and apparently my days are already over) I asked if they can make an exception cuz I’m not going to pay extra for what I’ve already paid before… however, they said it’s all automated now and unless you pay, your account cannot be extended.

And it’s not a small amount as well.

Also, in this era of recordings and online teaching, I guess I had become too dependent on it, looking at recorded lectures for every other doubt I had, watching them again and again when I remember I wasn’t like this before. Even if a class was missed, I could easily cope up with next lectures by reading textbooks, asking my friends…it wasn’t a big deal.

And it shouldn’t be a big deal now as well.

I was immensely stressed this past week until yesterday I came to this realisation and it finally settled in.

That I don’t have to be dependent on teachers all the time.

I can do it on my own, just as I did before and it’s going to be fine.

(I really hope it would be)And it struck even more cuz my friend got her extension but it was in January and it’s quite apparent they added payment after Jan as she didn’t have to pay for it.

Guess, I just went at a wrong time.

So that was my long monologue.

(I really hope when I clear my exams with amazing results 🤞I can feel happy with my decision here)

And although I said I’m fine with it, deep down, it’s still stressing me a lot kinda and I can feel it even now while I’m writing so I just gonna back to studying and pray that I make it, that I clear my exams and finally make my parents proud.

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Completed 7 lectures today 📚✨

And with that people, my reasoning is done!!!! 😁

I’m sooooo happy 🤍

I completed all my leftover lecture, went through the PDFs and now just have to revise once more but I’ll be making another routine for that as I’ll be starting with main subjects tomorrow so…like obviously, a new schedule is needed.

Also, I’m behind on my textbook reading so probably I’ll do that tonight to get a head start and see how to complete it all in less time.

So….that was it.

Let’s keep studying, people 📖

(Seriously, the feeling of completing your work, being satisfied is simply amazing)

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Some sky pictures cuz it’s sooooo freaking pretty!!!!♥️

As for my lectures, I completed only 2 today and had got one left from yesterday’s target (which also I completed today as well), now only a few reasoning lectures are left…..I’m happy I’ll be able to complete them by today most likely!

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Completed 4 lectures, made notes 📝, was about to start 5th but I can’t go on anymore *slumped*

I’m going to take a break now, eat my dinner and then complete the two left.

Also yesterday, I could only complete 6, not more than that which I guess is fine.

Let’s just continue studying after a break ✨

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Completed 3 lectures, 3 more to go for today’s target 🎯📚

(Kinda want to do more than 6 as I wasn’t able to do anything yesterday because….i got sick, again)

So, since starting this studyblr, this is the second time I got sick cuz I don’t want to admit it because it will like a confirmation or something (cuz I really believe I’m extremely healthy -you know think positive concept) I actually kinda have low immunity, I get sick easily, especially in winters and I hate that, especially when exams are there cuz there are so many things to do and my body is just like - no, lay in bed, close your eyes, you’re sick.

Plus, I watched a lot of study blogs yesterday and I felt so freaking useless cuz they are doing so many things in a day, however, just today, after waking up, I accidentally read a quote that basically said don’t compare with others and just do your own thing and…..I’m not feeling useless anymore…

So, uh, that was it.

Let’s go back to studying 📚 📑