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(hsr update spoiler, feel free to answer after you finish the update)

so the new quest where tingyun splits into many versions of herself……how the osddid hsr community feelin

~chia

(I'm sorry I'm going to make this about Sunday again because AHSHFJFMDKDJDHDJDHHDHDJDHGHHFC)

I haven't watched the new update yet because I've been pretty busy this past week, but I have been on bird app a lot and it's been like Furina all over again 🥲🥲

I have this Collection of Screenshots I've saved that people have posted of Sunday's lines from the update and it actually brings tears to my eyes to look through them because it all sounds EXACTLY like what I've been living for my entire life..... like I showed family members some of the screenshots and they said it's legitimately like hoyo put me in their game

When you think about "the dream" as a metaphor for dissociation, and how Sunday's entire story could essentially be tied back to childhood trauma.... it was already pretty convincing, but then they had to go and add the different Sundays interacting ?!?!! Like is hoyo not just writing "Sunday has a dissociative disorder" on their foreheads at this point ?!?!??!?

*ahem.* Sorry. As you can see, my brain is full of many thoughts.

Hopefully I'll get a chance to actually sit down and watch it sometime this week.... I'm really looking forward to it 🥺

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HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOO DISSOCIATIVE IDENTITY DISORDER

I was not disappointed in the slightest watching this quest, it was 100% dissociative coded 🥲

^ "identities" (note the use of plural)

ANYWAY so this was WAYYYY more blatant than Furina's coding ever was 😃 (from what I can recall.) It was pretty freaking obvious this time around.... Makes me wonder if hoyo did it on purpose actually (my photo gallery is so full of screenshots now....)

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since it's almost new year, I was thinking back to the start of this year and I remembered my biggest problem was understanding myself.

I was convinced I had different "masks" or "personas", and that I switched them to adapt to situations or people, as a behaviour change. I struggled to identify myself as a person and I had no idea who I was behind those "masks", I thought was a nobody.

while I was trying to figure myself out, I tried to do some "moodboards" of my "masks" to maybe understand something.

thinking back on it now, it's really funny since I discovered I have osdd/a dissociative disorder. it surely explains a lot!!

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my anhedonia is eating me alive so i’m making these mental illness memes to cope