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first noogie to make someone cry

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some ralsei sketches

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Now a house next to us, about 500 meters away, was bombed. Several missiles hit the same place. This is very terrifying.

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So, like, the thing about Ralsei is that he says that Darkners aren’t really ‘real’ and exist only to make Lightners happy and that their own needs and emotions are secondary at best. But in terms of his behavior it usually just manifest as his horribly low self-esteem and self-sacrificial behavior. He’s usually very accommodating and considerate of other Darkners, much happier to acknowledge their feelings and personhood rather than his own.

The biggest and most obvious exception is his “you just have to accept you’re useless now (:” speech to Tenna at the end of Chapter 3.

But even then...it’s like, at the start of Chapter 3, Ralsei was the one most susceptible to Tenna’s guilt-trip and the one who talked the two Lightners into taking part in his show.

It's not like he's not considerate of Tenna's feelings, and it's not like he doesn't want the Lightners to help him... the two main things that changed is, well... first things first just the fact that the Dark Fountain was right there and sealing it is always one of Ralsei's main concerns. But also... it's because Tenna opened up about his feelings and it became clear to Ralsei just how much he's motivated by anxieties that mirror his own....

It’s kind of the reverse of Susie’s arc with Tenna through Chapter 3. She starts out extremely hostile towards him (probably because he just kinda bursted in on them while she was having an extremely emotionally fraught time and immediately tried to make everything about his Fun Silly Game Time)

But the longer she gets to know him and calmed down from her original rage, she started to obviously feel kinda bad for him…

She reverted to rage when it turned out he has secretly kidnapped Toriel, but once he opened up about his motivations and his feelings, she was the one who actually validated his emotions, actually found him a solution that treated him like a person. Clearly because she saw a lot of her own pain in him.

It’s like… Susie was put off by Tenna initially, but once she starts seeing herself in others, it’s makes it easier for her to be kind and understanding towards them… but Ralsei is kind of the opposite of That?

When he sees other Darkners as strangers, as different than him, that makes him more likely to be kind and considerate towards their feelings. To just follow his instincts to be Nice to them and encourage that niceness in others. But he has such a low opinion of himself and such a lack of self-worth, that once he starts recognizing himself in the other… that actually makes him more likely to be unkind to them in that sickeningly sweet way he is unkind to himself.

The more Ralsei relates to another Darkner, the more likely it is for his fucked-up philosophy about Darkners to affect how he treats them. Ralsei’s whole self-image is so fucked up that his empathy consistently makes him less kind to other Darkners.

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I just think it's sad that many artists refuse to learn to draw black features because they're "scared of being perceived as racist" but like, there are so many tutorials and references to use. atp there are no more excuses. it saddens me the amount of times I scroll through an artist gallery and see 0 black characters.

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animation process

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Carol Holiday they could never make me hate you

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#noticing

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In my opinion it's a lot more healthy to be able to own that you dislike someone for petty reasons than to do all kinds of mental gymnastics to make everyone you don't really vibe with out to be a bad person actually

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i get that americans love their cultural imperialism, but it really does piss me off that june is “international” pride month just because something happened in the united states.

in aotearoa, june isn’t our pride, it’s theirs. marsha p johnson and sylvia rivera are their historical figures, not ours. the phrase that “you owe your rights to Black trans women” is true there, but here we owe our rights to (mostly) Māori historical figures. i have the freedoms i do because of the legacy of an entirely different set of people operating in an entirely different context at entirely different times.

But because of american cultural imperialism, most queer people in Aotearoa don’t even know our own queer history. Carmen Rupe, Ngahuia Te Awekotuku, the Dorian Society, Gillian Laundon, Georgina Beyer, and the Wolfenden Association are some of our queer history. We should know their names! we should know what they did for us! but because of the power of the american imperial machine, we don’t.

our national pride month should be july, the month that the Homosexual Law Reform Act passed in 1989. our two largest cities hold their pride festivals in february and march, respectively. american queer history has very little (or nothing, depending on who you ask) to do with our queer history. anecdotally, from my own queries, queer youth in aotearoa know more about american queer history than our own.

anyway, happy pride, americans. i’m truly sorry that most of you don’t see the negative impact your nation’s culture has on the rest of the world. and to the rest of the world reading this, try searching for your own country and culture’s queer history, don’t accept the american narratives as your own. we deserve our own histories divorced from the cultural hegemony of the USA.

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My friend @fadel-dani and his family haven't been able to eat bread for three days!!! The famine and war in Gaza have intensified, the bombing has increased, and the blockade has tightened, with food shortages increasing daily. The price of a 50kg bag of flour has reached 500 euros. This is unacceptable. Everything is getting more difficult, and the bombing doesn't stop. They need help!!!

Even worse, Fadel was injured when their home was bombed while they were inside. Fadel was left with shrapnel from the explosion and needs urgent surgery outside Gaza. He also suffers from thalassemia and needs a monthly treatment of 400 euros, which he can't afford now. He also suffers from post-traumatic stress disorder because his previous campaign, which raised nearly 15,000 euros to enable him to undergo surgery, was deleted. Unfortunately, all donations were returned to their owners, and a new campaign was created, which collected only 11,559 euros. I hope you will help him and his family. Let us be one hand together and help Fadl undergo his surgery, buy his treatments, and provide food for him and his family. Do not ignore him, my friends, he is in dire need of us.

His campaign is vatted by: @gazavetters in line (#197) and @90-ghost and @a-shade-of-blue

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chapter 3

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There's some pretty obscure dialogue you can find in Chapter 4 where Ralsei roasts the fuck out of Susie and its awesome

You specifically have to tell Ralsei not to park his butt in the room with the couch, and then backtrack here before the final boss!

(Source: https://x.com/pynchosa/status/1935780728119128350?s=46)

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I was promised a vessel and got thrown into a teenager who has their own shit to work through that is not being helped by this situation, and if I ever give up then the world is covered in darkness.

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honestly fucking fascinating that people will pretty universally understand that thin people can be naturally predisposed to thinness regardless of what they eat or their activity level, but that so many of the same people cannot possibly fathom that fat people could have similar dispositions or that there could be any factors more complex than a "lack of self control."