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Healthy girl convenience store haul

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Eating healthy is a power move

I choose to only put food in my stomach if I decide it belongs there.

And it doesn’t belong there if it isn’t going to get me what I want.

And what I want is a slim figure.

I want clear, youthful skin

I want bright, vibrant eyes

I want beautiful silky hair

I want people to see me as mindful and responsible

I want people to see that I have control

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Meanspo…

Why do you do it?

Why do you take photos of people who never asked to be part of your illness and tear them apart the way you tear yourself apart?

They don’t deserve to be made to feel the way we do.

They should get to be happy as they are.

I wish I could be happy no matter how my body looks. I don’t get to feel that. But I am happy they do.

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Honestly, calling myself fat doesn’t have the desired effect it does for others.

If I call myself fat I go into “Well might as well eat then.” Mode.

But looking at my progress and being happy about it motivates me further. Makes me not want to lose it all.

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I still have these books

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TFW you see someone you haven’t seen in a long time and their eyes widen when they see how much thinner you are now and ask “Did you lose weight?”

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Me realizing that I'm actually ugly asf

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“Wow. You really like coffee. That’s like, you’re sixth cup!”

“Yah. I’m just drinking as much coffee as it takes to shit out all my insides.”

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Everyone got my all my favorite junk food snacks for my birthday….. shit.

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IIIIIII AM THE BEAST THAT DOES NOT EAT!

YAAAHHHHH

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i desire to be underweight.

i need to be underweight

i strive to be underweight

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

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Me, having eaten earlier in the day. My man comes home from an event late not having eaten.

“You didn’t eat??”

“No, I didn’t have time.”

“So, whadya wanna do?”

“Nothing to do at this point…”

“Oh HELL NO!”

*immediately makes him ramen*

No way in hell he is allowed to not eat when I did 🤣😐

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“Woohoo! I got my food aversion back! I don’t even WANNA eat!”

**situation where I have to eat arises**

“Ok. I’ll eat this cuz I have to. It’s okay. I’ll work around it.”

**food aversions goes away and is immediately replaced with binge mentality**

“no no no GOD DAMN IT!!!!”