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🌞Why I ULTAmately Quit💋

I always asked God to show me my purpose, what talent have I been blessed with? I always knew it had something along the lines of creativity, just didn't know what exactly. He told me to look a little deeper and see what it is I'm most passionate about. It was beauty, makeup to be exact! I took heed to that calling and TheSunKissedBarbs was born! With the intentions of becoming a budding MUA, landing a job at Ulta and all the benefits and being amongst other MUAs, Ulta was the IDEAL place to work. That wasn't the case for me.... This is in no intention to bash or dishonor Ulta in anyway. I still love this store the same as I have before. When going into the interview, I was beyond excited and literally thought, if I was to get this job, soo much would be lifted off my shoulders, however I did not think it would cause me so much stress. My first day at Ulta, I felt out of place and overly exhausted. I brushed it off as normal because it was my first day at a new job. Each day, week, shift, I felt more and more down and out. My spirit wasn't sitting right, I was growing mean and grouchy by the day, my personality just wasn't shining brightly as it could. Every day I had to come in, it always seemed like I had a little rain cloud above me. I would literally fight with myself to pick up my head before walking in and coach me to remain positive. It was indeed a struggle. My interpersonal skills were shot, i hated having to talk to people and always tried to isolate myself. I was frustrated with the job, management, overall I came to just REALLY hate it there. I hated it soo bad that I started to hate makeup. Say what!? Went days without wearing makeup, even though it was kind of apart of the dress code. The environment was just so negative to me my spirit just could not take it. *see "I'm Hearing His Voice."* It came to a point I resented every reason why I was there. I resented everything I loved. I resented my passion for all things beauty, I resented TheSunKissedBarbs. I just couldn't believe that I would HATE a job that I was dying to have. It took every little bit of me to hold on to that job as long as I could for the many benefits I could reap with my MUA goals, but I ULTAmately quit. I thought I would regret it but, it was the best decision I ever made. Right upon quitting, I felt myself becoming more lively and noticeably less depressed. Ulta taught me a lot within the few months I worked for them. I learned to be still and listen to yourself and understand that what you think is for you is not always meant for you.

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🌞I'm Hearing His Voice💋

First and foremost, I want to say thank you God for helping me become still and hearing your voice. Thank you for putting me in my place by making me feel SOO uncomfortable like I've never had before! Before I dive right into my testimony, I want to say thank you Lord and give you all the glory! For some time, I've been asking and begging to hear God's voice. I thought all this exciting stuff happening to me was the act of God answering all my prayers. Giving me a position that I've been chasing for months, yet feeling so lost, incomplete, unmotivated, and dying inside; Deep down, i knew I should not be here, but refused to listen. The consequences for not listening to the Holy Spirit resulted in physical and mental illness, day and night. I felt myself more angry, filled with sinful thoughts to even constantly dreaming about being attacked by snakes. I noticed all this happening shortly after I got my little "dream" position at Ulta. *check out "Why I ULTAmately Quit*. I wanted this spot because I just knew it was going to open doors for me. When trying to think within my right mind, severe depression shouldn't have been a factor. However, I will say, it led me to my triumph of hearing God's voice and ACTUALLY following it. That epiphany he gave me after posting a status on my Facebook about my depression, only one comment stood out. The comment simply read, LET IT GO! It was my confirmation, it was HIS voice speaking to me. That comment resonated deeply inside me, but here I am again not listening, soo unsure of what I have at stake. I went on YouTube and came across one of my favorite people, Heather Lindsey and her sermon on how to hear God's voice. It inspired me soo much and guided me to write this testimony because I'm FINALLY listening to His voice. I am forever grateful that He pulled me through this lesson that I will hope to share through my story, "Why I ULTAmately Quit." Thank you God in your name and glory.

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The Sun Locks: Introduction 🌞💋

Born in the 90's and coming up, natural hair was not the trend for most young girls then. Relaxers, like the notorious Just For Me children's relaxers were a thing (still is). They would advertise to young girls and their parents that straight locks were the awarded locks. Just For me even had its own catchy jingle (like anything else in the 90's and before) with young girls singing and appealing to other girls that age. Like many young girls, including myself, hair was chemically processed straight to fit in. At this point, straight hair was a norm and possessing the kinky locks was like taboo in some households. Straight hair was such the norm, it has even been mandated to have in various professional settings. Growing up I wasn't fortunate to rock the natural locks and experience some of the black girl magic. The natural hair trend took off and now the kinky look is taking over. The versatility of having naturally curly and straight hair whenever I felt like it, I realized that I was blessed with one of a kind hair. Fast forward to now, I've finally jumped on board with the natural hair trend. Follow my experience on this journey by my hair care series: The Sun Locks 🌞💋🌞💋🌞💋

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🌞💋The Sun Locks Series focuses on natural hair care featuring the trials and tribulations faced during this journey🌞💋

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I'm in love!!! 😍😍😍

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🌞💋The Sun Kissed Barbie🌞💋

Have you ever just asked yourself, “Who am I, and what’s the point in being me?” This is still a question that I’m still searching the answer for. I ask God to guide me into my purpose, show me who I am, where he wants me to be. “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as the prophet to the nations.” (Jeremiah 1:5, NIV). As much as I am into art, I shied away from it pursuing a degree in premed/biology and was on the verge of flunking out. Some major changes took place in my life and knocked me flat to my face. It all went back to me asking myself, “Why am I here?” “What is my purpose?” As I slipped deeper and deeper into depression with thoughts of wishing I would die, there was still a small flame trying to guide me through my depression, and show me God’s promises are real. After graduating, proud to be an owner to a B.S. in Biolgy degree, i never applied it to anything post graduation. Actually it’s funny how I lost all interest in med school, but sad that my life was at a standstill. The constant prayers I prayed asking God to lead me into my purpose, and reminding myself of the promises he has for me, it was still a struggle. It was a struggle to figure out why my life isn’t moving forward like everyone else around me. Makeup was something, just like every other girl, would play in and try out to enhance their beauty. Never looked at it as a career, maybe a hobby if anything. I knew it was something I was good at, but I over looked it because I’ve doubted myself that I would thrive in it. When various people complimented me on my skills and constantly made suggestions that I should expose myself and just do makeup, I went ahead and took heed to that calling. Alas! Sun Kissed Barbie was born and I haven’t looked back since. Regardless of how successful she may become, SunKissed is the perfect outlet for me just to be me. Thank you to all who have been pushing me, encouraging me, and supporting me. Thank you for being there when I fall and picking me back up. Thank you for joining the ride. To everyone who I’m blessed to come across in the future, I am already thankful for you! This is The SunKissedBarbs 🌞💋

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🌞💋The Sun Kissed Barbie🌞💋

Have you ever just asked yourself, “Who am I, and what’s the point in being me?” This is still a question that I’m still searching the answer for. I ask God to guide me into my purpose, show me who I am, where he wants me to be. “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as the prophet to the nations.” (Jeremiah 1:5, NIV). As much as I am into art, I shied away from it pursuing a degree in premed/biology and was on the verge of flunking out. Some major changes took place in my life and knocked me flat to my face. It all went back to me asking myself, “Why am I here?” “What is my purpose?” As I slipped deeper and deeper into depression with thoughts of wishing I would die, there was still a small flame trying to guide me through my depression, and show me God’s promises are real. After graduating, proud to be an owner to a B.S. in Biolgy degree, i never applied it to anything post graduation. Actually it’s funny how I lost all interest in med school, but sad that my life was at a standstill. The constant prayers I prayed asking God to lead me into my purpose, and reminding myself of the promises he has for me, it was still a struggle. It was a struggle to figure out why my life isn’t moving forward like everyone else around me. Makeup was something, just like every other girl, would play in and try out to enhance their beauty. Never looked at it as a career, maybe a hobby if anything. I knew it was something I was good at, but I over looked it because I’ve doubted myself that I would thrive in it. When various people complimented me on my skills and constantly made suggestions that I should expose myself and just do makeup, I went ahead and took heed to that calling. Alas! Sun Kissed Barbie was born and I haven’t looked back since. Regardless of how successful she may become, SunKissed is the perfect outlet for me just to be me. Thank you to all who have been pushing me, encouraging me, and supporting me. Thank you for being there when I fall and picking me back up. Thank you for joining the ride. To everyone who I’m blessed to come across in the future, I am already thankful for you! This is The SunKissedBarbs 🌞💋

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Humbled.