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my experience with rose

i feel like it's finally my turn to say something. i've kept this to myself for so long but seeing people still love rose, and now that she's finally gone i can't stay quiet anymore.

i was 15. the whole time i was so confused. she would constantly talk sexual with me, telling me about her fantasies and making comments i didn't even understand yet. she asked me to call with her, and on those calls she'd always bring up sexual stuff. i didn't know what to say. i just remember feeling weird, uncomfortable like i had to just sit there and go along with it even though i didn't want to.

eventually i blocked her. she blocked me back, and then i deactivated. since then tumblr hasn't felt safe for me. every time i see her name or people saying how much they love her it brings all of it back.

i think this is the last time i'll ever be on here. i don't even know why i'm writing this except that i just want to finally be heard. i've carried this for so long in silence and maybe it doesn't even matter anymore but it matters to me.

the worst part is i barely have any screenshots because i deactivated my account back then. that makes me scared no one will believe me. it scares me that most of this only exists in my memory and maybe only i will ever know what truly happened.

sometimes i feel like maybe i'm being dramatic. like maybe i overreacted or made it bigger than it was. but then i remember how sick it made me feel, how confused i was how i didn't even know what to say when she would start talking sexual with me. i was 15. that shoulve been enough for her to know it was wrong

i don't know. maybe i'll regret posting this maybe people won't believe me, but at least i finally said it out loud.

please i beg, interact with this any way i really want to feel heard it feels like im being dramatic but then I remember how much it still bothers me.

tags for awareness@cvnntagious @darksturnz @y3sterdaysproblem @passionfruitchris @nickssidewitch @humpster35

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THE WHIMPERING. i’m actually going insane.

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𝑴𝑨𝑻𝑻 𝑻𝑨𝑲𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑽𝑰𝑹𝑮𝑰𝑵𝑰𝑻𝒀 𝑩𝑳𝑼𝑹𝑩

You were already trembling before he even touched you.

Not because you were scared of him—never him. If anything, you were trembling because it was him. Because no one had ever looked at you like this before. Like you were made of glass and starlight. Like he'd wait a thousand lifetimes just to see you feel good once.

His hand cupped your cheek, and his eyes searched yours. “Still want this?” he asked, low and careful.

You nodded, voice caught in your throat.

But Matt wasn’t letting you rush. He kissed your forehead, your nose, the corner of your mouth. “Say it, baby,” he murmured. “You don’t have to prove anything. I’ll hold you all night without doing a thing, you know that, right?”

“I want you,” you whispered, and your voice cracked with how much you meant it. “I want it to be you.”

He kissed you again, deeper this time—soft but certain—and let his weight settle gently over you. His hands never rushed. They explored like they had all the time in the world, which they did. He dragged his fingers down your ribs, memorizing the way your breath hitched. He worshiped the places that made you shiver, the little sounds you made, the way your thighs clenched when he whispered into your skin.

When he finally started to press into you, you gasped—tight, overwhelmed, already on the verge of tears. It hurt, just a little, but it was more pressure than pain. Still, your hand reached for his instinctively.

Matt caught it without hesitation, lacing his fingers with yours and holding them above your head, anchoring you.

“I’ve got you, baby,” he whispered, lips ghosting over your jaw. “I’ve got you. We’re not rushing anything. Just breathe.”

Your chest heaved with the effort, but you nodded—desperate, trusting, wanting him.

He went slow. So slow. Not even halfway in before he paused, kissing your cheek, whispering that you were doing so good, that you looked so beautiful, that he could cry with how much he loved you like this.

And when he bottomed out, and you finally felt all of him, your back arched, tears spilling quietly from the corners of your eyes—not from pain, but from fullness. From how much it was. The stretch, the intimacy, the weight of it all.

Matt kissed those tears away.

“Too much?” he asked, voice barely a whisper. “Want me to stop?”

“No,” you breathed. “Just… just hold me.”

And he did.

He stayed buried inside you, hand still gripping yours, body pressed against yours, and just held you. Let your body settle around him. Let you feel everything—the overwhelming fullness, the heat, the way your breath caught every time he whispered your name.

It was slow. It was steady. When he finally moved, it was just a slow grind of his hips, so deep and unhurried it sent goosebumps over your skin.

“You’re taking me so well, baby,” he whispered, lips at your ear. “So perfect. Can’t believe this is real.”

Your body responded without thinking—clenching around him, soft moans slipping out of you without permission.

And Matt noticed everything.

“That’s it,” he praised, voice thick. “Let go, baby. I’m here. I’m right here. You don’t have to do anything but feel me.”

Every stroke sent sparks through you. Not rough—never rough—but deep, slow, constant. You didn’t even realize you were crying again until he kissed the tear-tracks and said, “I know. I know it’s a lot. That’s okay. You’re safe.”

Your body started shaking, heat pooling low in your belly as the pressure built steadily, the kind of slow, dizzy pleasure that made your toes curl and your head spin. You whimpered his name like a prayer.

“Shh, that’s it, baby. Just like that. You’re so good for me,” he whispered, brushing his lips across your collarbone. “So tight, so sweet. You gonna come just from this? From how deep I am? Huh?”

You nodded desperately, your free hand digging into his back. “Please. I—Matt, I can’t—”

“Yes, you can,” he cooed, moving a little faster now, still controlled, still careful. “I’ve got you. Come for me. Let me feel it. Show me how good it feels.”

You came with a soft cry, body trembling, every nerve lit up as he coaxed you through it, still whispering the sweetest, filthiest things into your ear. Telling you how tight you were, how beautiful, how he’d never get enough of the way you wrapped around him like you were made for him.

And through it all, he never stopped holding your hand.

Even when he finally let go, chasing his own release with a shaky groan of your name, he held you through it. Kissed your temple. Praised you through every twitch, every sigh, every aftershock.

“You did so good, baby,” he whispered against your skin, letting your bodies melt together in the afterglow. “So good for me. I’ve never felt anything like that.”

You clung to him, overwhelmed but safe. Loved. Yours.

He pulled the blankets over you both, wrapped you up in his arms like he was afraid you’d disappear, and whispered, “I’ve got you. I’ve got you,” over and over until your breathing slowed and your world finally settled.

a/n: on my grind rn

╰┈➤𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒍𝒚, 𝒉𝒊𝒗𝒊

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ur so funny i hope u live forever

I giggled and bit my finger 😍😍 ty queen MWAH

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NICK AND TARA KISSED IN NICK’S SURPRISE VIDEO FOR TOUR?? IM DEADDD

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I giggled when I saw I was mentioned at the beginning I felt like a true fangirl 🥰😛🤞🏼

ALSO I LOVEEE THIS

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A/n: A part two to this per request of @ilovemenwithlonghairr i hope you enjoy it!! <3

Summary: Y/n finds out her secret isn't so well kept after all

Warnings: Swearing, smut (mdni), oral m!receiving

It's been a week since your mom "caught" you and JJ. Neither of you had brought it up since and you figured your mom didn't know that it was JJ and probably thought it was some kook guy. If she found out you were sneaking around with a pouge she'd never let you out of the house again. At least that's what you thought.

You were heading for the pool when your mom stopped you to tell you that her and your dad had hired a new landscaper. Apparently he was on the way and she wanted you to meet him. You didn't know why she cared considering you never met any of the other staff at your house.

Regardless, you told her that you'd be tanning by the pool and to just come get you when he got here. You made your way to the pool and put on your tanning lotion. After that you laid back on a pool chair and closed your eyes. It had been around ten minutes when you heard your mom calling for you.

You slowly opened your eyes and looked in the direction of your mom's voice. Your heart practically stopped when you saw who was beside her. Standing next to her was none other than your best kept secret (or so your thought), JJ Maybank. He looked somewhat surprised as well when he saw you but that also could have been because of the skimpy bikini you had put on to tan in.

Your mom began approaching you with JJ following close behind. "Y/n, this is our new landscaper, JJ. JJ, this is my daughter, Y/n." Your mom says introducing the you both. You can't help but notice the knowing look she has on her face. You and JJ simply nod at each other, not exactly sure how to respond.

"Well, I have to get to a meeting soon. I'll see you two later." your mom says as she starts walking back to the house. You quickly scurry after her. "Mom, you really hired a pouge to work at our house? What if-" you try to say before she cuts you off.

"Y/n, drop the act I know that's not how you really feel about him." she says. "What are you talking about." you ask, continuing to play dumb. "I thought I saw you passing him a note a midsummers and then the other night I heard you talking to a boy in your room." She explains as you stand in shock at how much she knows.

"When I came in your room nobody was there but there was a pair of dirty work boots beside your bed. Those boots sure look a lot like his, don't you think?" she says motioning towards JJ. "Mom I -" you begin trying to explain. "It's okay Y/n, I was young once too. Just be careful, you know how people on this island like to talk." she says reassuring you.

"So your not mad?" you ask reluctantly. "No I'm not mad. I want you to be happy, that's all that matters to me. Besides it'd be hypocritical for me to get mad at you for being with a pouge." she says in response. Your jaw drops at her revelation. "You dated a pouge?" you ask, shocked.

"I sure did. It was a summer i'll never forget but your grandparents hated the idea and made me get with your dad. It doesn't matter now. I've gotta go but you have fun, okay? she says before leaving. You stand still for a moment, thinking, before heading back to JJ.

He quickly looks up from his phone and places it beside him as you approach him. You explain your conversation with your mom to him. "I guess the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. You two both going after pouges and all." he says laughing. "Shut up." you say, playfully pushing him. "So what do you have to do?" you ask, referring to his work.

"Actually your mom didn't tell me to do anything. Just said she wanted me to see the house and stuff." he replies. "Well, we've got the house to ourselves." you say giving him a mischievous look. "Don't wanna waste an opportunity like that." he says back as he takes a step closer to you. You let him lean in close enough to press your hands against his chest.

Right as he's about to kiss you you push as hard as you can and send him straight into the pool behind him. "What the hell?" he says once he surfaces. You laugh as you watch him swim towards the stairs. "You think this is funny. Your gonna get it now." he laughs as he gets out of the pool.

He gets rid of his wet short and boots before he goes to chase you. You let out a shriek as you run to get away from him. He quickly reaches you and lifts you up off your feet. He walks you over to the edge of the pool. "Any last words?" he asks playfully. "I'm sorry?" you respond hoping that'll be enough for him to put you down.

"That it?" he asks, getting ready to throw you in. "And i'll give you kisses?" you say, still trying to plead with him. "Thats sweet but no." he replies before tossing you into the water. "JJ-" you yell before you land in the pool. He jumps in after you and swims over to you. "You think I could still get those kisses?" he says wrapping his arms around your waist. "You wish." you say, lightly splashing him.

He laughs before pressing a kiss to your forehead. "This feels good. Just us being together like this. You think we could ever be open about it. Like in front of other people and stuff." JJ asks holding you close. "I hope so. I mean if my mom can be okay with it surely others on the island can be too." you respond.

You two eventually got out of the pool and headed upstairs to your room. "You gonna take a shower?" you ask as you begin to untie your bikini top. "I am now." he says, removing his wet shorts. You go to the bathroom to start the shower when you feel JJ come up behind you.

"Get in, i'm gonna throw your clothes in the dryer." you tell him. He gives your ass a smack as you turn around "Don't take too long." he says as he enters the shower. You make your way back to the bathroom and slip in the shower behind him. You wrap your arms around his waist making him jump. "Damn, you scared me." he laughs. "Did I?" you say trailing your hand down his abdomen.

You begin pressing kisses to his back as your hand wraps around his shaft. You begin to pump your hand up and down as he throws his head back. "Going to the laundry room got you this excited?" he jokes before letting out a moan as you rub your thumb over his tip. "Turn around." you tell him. He does so immediately and you drop your your knees.

You take him in your mouth and begin bobbing your head back and forth. He grabs your hair in a makeshift ponytail as he follows your movements with his hand. He groans as he feels his high building. "Baby, I'm about to cum." he warns you. This only makes you quicken your pace as you prepare for his release.

"Shit." he says as he cums down your throat. You pull away and swallow whatever's left in your mouth. He pulls you up and crashes his lips against your own. "You're so good." he says pressing his forehead against yours. You both finished your shower and went back to your room.

You got JJ's clothes and changed into something comfortable for yourself. Now you were both laying in your bed wrapped up in each other. Neither of you said anything as the two of you just soaked in the peaceful moment you were having. This is how you ended your day together, simply lying down and enjoying each other's presence.

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HES STARTING AN ONLY FANS 🔥🔥🔥🔥!! (a girl could dream)

MATT WHAT DOES THIS MEAN

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TOUR. I REPEAT. TOUR. I REPEAT. TOUR. (im broke asf) BUT OH MY GOGOGGLKGTJRJJRJFJFJJRHRJRHDHDHDHDHDDHD

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Lord, give me strength…and his dick…WOAH-

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Some might say I’m crazy

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“my biggest fear is chris driving” - Nicholas Sturniolo

*doesn’t have his seatbelt on as chris is driving* - also Nicholas Sturniolo

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LAWRRRD IM BOUTA BUST ALL OVER MY DAMN SCREEN

10/10 WOULD SMASH

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I AM DONE W OBX I AM NOTTTTT WATCHING SEASON 5 (I probably will 😭)

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it doesn’t matter if you’re pretty… a pretty girl with an ugly personality is an ugly girl 🤍🤍

Y’all be wildin 😂😂 here’s me

Y’all jealous and toxic bitches boutta say I’m ugly js bc I said Nick was a lil fat (even tho he isss) 🤍🤍

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