#[not related to any of these things: I really like u because u show up in my activity a lot and u arent afraid to comment on stuff!]

[chaoticwriting]

One's man trash is another man's treasure

Run

Run

Run

His little legs swing as fast as he can. Escape is all his choice left. As incompetent as he is, he is very good at escaping. However, they don't need an escaper. What they need a warrior. And he is not one.

So he run. The league wishes to kill him. His grandfather Ra's sees him nothing as a lesser being. Even his mother Talia despises him. He has no one else here. He needs to be gone while they are focusing on the newest recruit.

So he run. And run. And run. He doesn't know how long has he been running. He only stops at the end of the day to sleep for an hour and drink some water. He is not a good fighter. Mainly because he isn't capable of killing. But his physical abilities are beyond what any of peers have.

He doesn't know where he is now. All he could see is towering building that pierce the sky. People in weird clothing, walking fastly along the road. And a huge fountain.

Water!

Rushing to it, he jumps straight into the water. He could feel the gazes coming at him but the feeling of the cool water is enough for him to ignore them for now.

???: Hey, you!

He turns around at the voice and sees a girl that's a little older than him standing there with her hands and her hips. English

????: Yes, you. You can't bath there. And you can't drink from that fountain.

?????: Why?

????: Because it's dirty. And it's not good. You should take a bath at home.

?????: I don't have a home.

????: What? What about parents?

?????: My mother hates me.

????: Oh! Errrm, would you like to come with us then?

?????: *Vigilant* To where?

????: To our hotel room. My mom and dad are out searching for ghost. So you can come use our shower. We even has food.

?????: No thanks. I'm not hungry *grrrrr*

????: Well, your stomach disagree. C'mon. I will make sure you eat the best food you will ever eat.

As the girl drags his wet body and clothes away, he wonders what is wrong with this girl. He will sneak out after he finish eating and showering.

?????: I'm Danyal

????:Hey Danny, I'm Jazz.

Danny: Danyal. Not Danny.

Jazz: Wasn't that what I say?

Danny: *Gives up* Whatever.

----15 years later----

Danny: Yeah, mom. I'm right in front of Gotham U right now. Ehhh, it's okay but it gives off serious haunted vibe. No. There is no ghost here. I will deal with the ghost here if there is any. I know. I will say hi to Jazz for you. Bye, mom. Love you too dad.

Danny enters Gotham U and true to Sam's rambling, it has the 70s gothic vibe to it. Sam did try to attend here too but her parents make her go to Metropolis U while Tucker goes to Star U. It is kind of weird going to class without them but it is not something he can't do.

As he opens his enters his dormitory, a figure rushes down the hall and accidentally bumps into him. Thankfully, he is fairly strong and the impact isn't strong.

The guy apologizes and immediately disappears at the end of the hallway.

Danny: Huh, what a weirdo.

After he enters the dormitory, he settles down and goes on his day.

---Wayne Manor---

Duke: You wouldn't believe what I just see at Gotham U this morning.

Steph: What?

Duke: I met a guy that look almost identical to Damian. If Damian smiles and his skin a little lighter, that would have been him.

Tim: Are you sure? We could try to do a background check on him if you want?

Duke: Nah. It's probably just a coincidence. There is no way he is somewhat related to Dami.

Tim: Daniel James Fenton. Birth of origin: unknown. 18 years old. Male. Have 2 sisters, a brother and parents. Live in small rural town. The only significant thing about them is that his sister is working at Arkham Asylum and his parents is ghost hunters.

Duke: What the fuck?! How the fuck do you know who to find out?

Tim: *Imitating Batman's voice* I'm Batman.

Duke: Whatever. See! He really does look like Damian. I'm not crazy.

Steph: No one says you are, dude. Anyway, we should show this to Damian. Maybe he knows him?

Damian: What are you all imbeciles talking about?

Tim: Hey, Dami. Look at this guy. Does he looks familiar?

Damian: *Freezes*

Steph: Uh oh. That isn't a no.

Damian: Where do you find him, Drake? Tell me!

Tim: Woah, dude. Chill. Duke bumps into him at Gotham U. He is studying there for Aerospace engineering apparently.

Damian: I need to make a call.

As Damian walks away, all of them look at each other signifying their shared thoughts. Yeah, they are not gonna leave this alone.

[badly-drawn-doflamingo]

Brook’s Past, Military and Everything Between [ An Essay kinda ]

Brook’s past is not a thing many people seem to mention or think about, at least in full, however it’s something that's plagued me. Not only as a Brook fan, but simply out of the odd implications it has towards the future, if any. Oda’s planted too many seeds for it to utterly be nothing; there’s so much odd and seemingly out of place comments and facts stated by Brook and others towards this missing history. However, knowing that the show is beginning to near it’s end, due to time, I am unsure of what exactly will be done.

I believe however, for folks' interest and so we can have everything in one place, that compiling everything found so far can be beneficial, so, I have.

Starting with what we know for sure, Brook is from the West Blue, born 90 years ago to a certain kingdom, the same kingdom he was a military convoy leader from. We know this due to a few factors, however it’s still open to debate if it *is* the same kingdom, however seeing as he was shown as a child to already know what fencing is, practicing moves with his bow, I am just going to say he probably was. In any case, other things worth noting, on the topic of childhood, is that Brook seems to have had money. At least, stability.

Compared to a lot of the other strawhats, Brook is shown dressing very nice. No tatters, no tears, shined shoes and a full violin and bow. He also, as already stated, seemed to be exposed to fencing enough to mirror the moves. If this comes from his kingdom, it means he was exposed to it at a young age. Knowing that he was a military convoy leader, this could be taken that perhaps there were military demonstrations, perhaps the kid saw castle guard or other displays; it’s really up in the air.

We know Brook, again as stated before, became a military convoy leader. Now, the definition of what exactly that means can differ.

Wikipedia states; A convoy is a group of vehicles, typically motor vehicles or ships, traveling together for mutual support and protection. Often, a convoy is organized with armed defensive support and can help maintain cohesion within a unit. It may also be used in a non-military sense, for example when driving through remote areas.

This could mean Brook’s job could’ve been accompanying ships for protection, being a knight for his King, mediating information and goods that come in and out of the kingdom. This would make sense on why his speed was needed, a 9.2 ft man being a great choice for a leader.

His weapon also would make sense for this kind of mission, perhaps secrecy being important or at least the ability to be discreet. His cane sword, a ‘Shikomizue’, is not unique however to just him in the show, one other man using one that has been confirmed so far, that being Fujitora. The pair also share a sea, the west, and both utilize iaijutsu (quick draw techniques.) Fujitora blinded himself with said sword because of something apparently so cruel and inhumane that he rather not see anguish. This may be related to Brook’s departure from his kingdom, which is addressed later in this essay. (Fig 3-5.)

Another thing that’s worth mentioning here is Brook’s attack patterns, being unique even for his kingdom apparently. Once again, during the Ryuma fight, Brook states, and I quote;

“Ryuma: “Now tell me, what part of that wretched excuse for a body would you like me to severe with my special ‘Arrow Notch Slash?’ Brook: You don’t know a thing about that move, so do not use it’s name. I use to serve in my kingdom’s raider squad. The quick draw attack that I was most skilled at was ‘Requiem Lebanderole’. My comrades-in-arms renamed it in regards to my fighting technique.”

(Fig. 1, Brook explains his raider squad and move names. A banderole mind you is a long flag for BATTLE crusades. )

This sets up a few interesting facts. 1. Brook was in a raider squad, a kingdom’s group of marauders, as well as if not the same job as convoy leader. 

2. His techniques were unique to him, or at least specialized to a degree of having a nickname. 3. As expected, he seems to have been close to these men he commanded, adding another layer over Brook loosing the Rumbars.

Being in both a raider squad and being a convoy leader at one point, if not the same point, implies either Brook was simply versatile, acting in both in separate years or periods. Or, the most likely, that he was higher ranking than expected, making him a CO, or commanding officer. (Lieutenant Colonel is another equal rank for scale, making Brook just below a Major.) This makes him quite the important figure, especially for a kingdom that seems to value its military so much, so much so that a child of Brook’s age would already know about their style of fencing, as expressed already. Brook’s devil fruit is worth mentioning here, the revive-revive fruit not likely to be found by a crew like the Rumbars. It is spoken about as if he has always had it amongst the crew, being a fact of life. However, when did he get that fruit and why? I propose where it would be useful; in combat. If your military convoy leader, your best swordsman could be shot and come right back to protect the king, would he not be utterly invaluable? You would never let him leave… But he DID leave. It’s not said why, however we have some extra tidbits of information that may tell us why, and that ALSO may tell us the answer to what kingdom he means.

( Fig. 2. Brook states his leaving of the military for unknown reasoning, the word certain being used in an odd way, establishing his bounty.) This bounty mind you all is in fact, using inflation method, 297,000,000 berries. That is a MASSIVE bounty for just a pirate. Perhaps a certain blond stole a treasure a kingdom could not replace; their convoy leader. Lets rewind for a moment and cover something that may be seen as off topic however I will come right back to the subject at hand; Calico Yorki. Yorki is an odd bird, pirate wise. He makes his crew read his bounties and information, is never shown to play an instrument/sing but makes his crew preform/they all do, and makes Brook make him dinner. (Steak, and Brook continues to be able to make it as confirmed by an SBS.) What is oddest yet, other than his large crew and shirtless habits, is his nature. A man that set to sea to play music for “orphans and crying children” as stated by himself; a crew made for “any men who love music.” Now, I could be reading into this too hard, however from his speech patterns, to this apparent need for a large family, it seems that singing to orphans may be a very personal goal. An orphan turned pirate perhaps, with lofty dreams and a heart of gold, it reads to me that Yorki may have been just that. Knowing this, orphan or not, we now can compare these facts to Brook’s life up until their meeting. A child who probably grew up being taught to fight, being around access to education, expenses and the kingdom’s training. Why would a man like Brook ever join a man like Yorki, and if it’s only music, would that not make Brook a deserter? I do not think that is the case. I will now bring forward some interesting evidence regarding Brook’s kingdom and WHY he would leave. Germa 66. During Zou to Whole Cake, a few mentions of Germa are made with Brook around, garnering interesting reactions indeed.

( Fig. 3. Brook listens but chooses not to add anything utter than silence, his music pausing as well.) This silence could be take as simple ignorance, however Brook later admits he knows of the kingdom, in fact, he knows a lot. A lot more than anyone else did, Reiju admitting interest in his knowledge and once again, Brook brushes it off.

(Fig 4, 5, Brook speaks about Germa 66.) He seems to underplay or simply not elaborate a LOT on his kingdom, as if something happened. Perhaps joining Yorki was not out of simple cowardice or need to be free, (which again if he did would both reflect poorly upon his entire character and not be in character for him what so ever,) but in fact, out of necessity. It could have been Germa 66, it could have been some other grouping, however I believe this will come to be something important. The kingdom possibilities are interesting as well, and I will list the following LIKELY possibilities. (Other options are known to not be military, like Ohara, or literally places like Thriller Bark itself.) - Toroa - God Valley - Illsia Kingdom - Soja Kingdom The most likely candidates, because again, it is labeled as certain kingdom (Fig 2.) is Toroa or Soja, however I will personally lean into Toroa. This is because of a man by the named of Byron.

(Fig 6. Byron and his information.) His nose and face shape vaguely resemble Brook, however honestly that is a stretch. What is NOT however is his familiar attire, family line and the placement of his kingdom. This could easily be Brook’s home, however again, this is just speculation. Brook very well could belong to God’s Valley, or the same kingdom as Issoh, fleeing because of something he did not agree with or literally could not stand any longer. But, that falls under possibility, not fact. This concludes the facts section, now comes the final question; What does it mean for the story? And, honestly, that can be debated. What Oda has done is plant odd seeds of information about the man, similar to Sanji and his ties to Vinsmoke, that have not been addressed nor talked about in full, or so I’ve found sufficiently. These seeds MAY bloom into what I hope will be a tie into some huge reveal, perhaps aid from a past member of his convoy or kingdom, or perhaps this will only spark conflict. Perhaps it will be minute, Brook being able to aid due to his knowledge, the man already in Thriller Bark showing his prowess by being able to command the strawhats into defeating zombies via salt and tactic. In any case, we can only hope these things mean anything, tied into some huge story that could explain why a man like him would quit for a redneck like Yorki, other than perhaps love, and what kingdom would let a man like him go willingly.

Updates:

- Confirmation that he’s educated! Perhaps in military or just as a whole, but confirmation nonetheless!

- I realize the reason he’s so confident with Big Mom isn’t just guts; he’s fought for royalty before. He’s just back in the fucking building again /j

- Sabaody behaviors, a convoy leader

CHECK REBLOG FOR PART TWO!!

[ PLEASE ^^ It contains the rest of his information! ]

[l0vergirlwrites]

Could I request early season Spencer Reid with his gf and they’ve been dating for a bit already and have already done the dirty… anyways one night he tries to initiate sex but she just isn’t feeling it tho cause she has a headache when she tells him that tho she gets super worried because her ex bf always got mad about it- but Spencer is just soooo sweet and understanding and he even offers to give her some pills and a head massage as well. (All while yapping about the biological causes of headaches and condoning her for not drinking enough water because this is Spencer LMAO) anyways i hope this is okay 🫶 i know you write suggestive but i don’t want u too push ur limits, thanks!!!

nothing to be sorry for ; spencer reid

synopsis: you’re worried that you made things awkward after rejecting an advance from spencer. but he assures you that you’re allowed to say no, regardless of what past relationships have taught you.

warnings: established relationship with spencer & fem!reader, descriptions of reader’s body (nothing detailed), mentions of reader being partially nude (very brief), suggestive themes relating to sex & consent, mainly just comfort & fluff!!

note: thank you so much for requesting this anon! i hope you enjoy! #consentalwaysmatters 💌

“you know that i can feel you staring right?”

your tone was lightly coy with a hint of a smile, turning to look over your shoulder at the edge of the bed where spencer sat. he rubbed his clammy hands on his plaid pyjama pants, cheeks & neck flushed with both admiration & embarrassment as he continued to stare at you.

he was caught red handed.

you had just gotten out of the shower, long strands of hair damp as some stuck to your freshly hydrated skin. with your chest facing the closet in front of you, spencer had the luxury of letting his eyes take in the expanse of your backside…

the curve of your shoulders, the brief view of your breasts as you turned towards him, the dip in your waist, the faint beauty marks his glasses allowed him to see from far away, the plump fat of your ass covered by a pair of cotton panties…

he had to will himself not to unravel then & there, carefully watching as you lifted your arms to slip a shirt over your head.

“sorry. you’re just… really distracting” he gulped, averting his eyes to his lap, fingers tapping against his thighs as dirty thoughts of you plagued his mind.

due to his brain fog, spencer didn’t notice the tiredness behind your gaze, couldn’t tell that your head was throbbing behind the innocent smile you gave as you soon stood in front of him, perfectly masking how you were feeling.

“you’re cute, you know that?”.

on instinct, his hands moved in their own accord to your hips, fingers pads gently pressing into the fabric of your underwear & the little bits of skin that peeked out at the sides.

he looked up at you with nothing but fondness mixed with a hint of lust & want, pulling you closer so you stood in between his legs.

“i’ve missed being around you in quite literally any capacity if you can tell,” he smiled when your hands ran across the naked skin of his shoulders before playing with the hair at the nape of his neck, your nails sending shivers down his spine. “& i find you to be insanely beautiful. that’s why i’m staring”.

his words caused you to smile so hard your cheeks started to hurt as much as your forehead did. “i’ve missed you too, handsome”.

spencer wouldn’t be surprised if his neck had already turned pink by this point, but his focus was more attuned to you moving to sit beside him on the bed, how you cupped his cheek to press a loving kiss to his mouth.

& he was eager to deepen it, your nose brushing against the frame of his glasses when he chased your lips from going too far.

“would now be a good time to let me uh…” spencer gulped as he pulled away to gauge your reaction, “show you how much i’ve missed you?”

but up close like this, he noticed the flicker of hesitation in your eyes, how your eyebrows softened & you bit your bottom lip, internally conflicted.

“i want to, i do—believe me,” you started with guilt in your tone, “but would it be okay if we waited until tomorrow? i’m sorry—“

“you don’t have anything to be sorry for” he cut you off firmly but kindly, intertwining his fingers with yours & hoping his softened facial expressions would show that it’s not a big deal to him.

“you’re not upset?” you asked with a furrowed brow, a tad bit surprised by his reaction.

you haven’t been with someone who hasn’t reacted poorly in this kind of situation.

the brush of spencer’s thumb on the back of your hand made your worries settle. “not at all,” he said immediately & surely. “consent matters above all else”.

you let out a small breath of relief at the fact that he understands, that you don’t have to walk on eggshells around the topic. “i feel the same way. others i’ve been with in the past weren’t so understanding…”

“i’m sorry, you don’t deserve that” spencer squeezed your hand with a slight frown, nerved that people from your past made you second guess your feelings. “sex between us is not a transactional act or a guilt trip. it’s…” he tried finding the words, but you swooped in.

“it’s meant to be special & feel good when we both equally want it”

“exactly” a kiss to your forehead solidified the sentiment.

ducking your head into the crook of his neck, letting your eyes flutter closed. “i have a headache. that’s why i’m not really in the mood”.

“it’s okay, sweetheart. no matter what the reason is. how about you lay down & i’ll get you something for the pain, hmm?” another kiss or two was pressed into your hair when you agreed, pulling back to look spencer in the eye.

his breath hitched when you ever so slightly adjusted his glasses. “love you” & thank you for not making me feel bad about how i feel.

“love you too” & i value how you feel, don’t ever think otherwise.

spencer was in & out of the bedroom within minutes, returning with a glass of water, pain medication, & a granola bar because “it’s generally not recommended to ingest pain medication on an empty stomach because it can unnecessarily irritate the lining of your stomach & gastrointestinal tract. plus, the extra glass of water is to help increase your water intake since i read in this study that…”

for the remainder of the evening, the two of you curled up in bed with bedside lamp on, soft chuckles floating in the air as he massaged your temples & scalp until you were about to fall asleep.

“maybe in the morning we can revisit your idea from earlier, depending on how we both feel”.

spencer just smiled when you pressed a kiss to his chest, lips touching his collarbone. “we can do that for sure. but for now, focus on getting some sleep, sweetheart”.

you hummed contently. “okay, handsome”.

[bloomzone]

Okay, so I just recognized some mistakes I’ve been doing lately literally just saved myself from repeating them again. And honestly, I noticed a lot of other students are making these same mistakes too. So here’s Part 2 of my “Study Mistakes I Did But Saved Myself Before It Was Too Late.” If you relate to any of these, take it as your sign to stop before it’s too late.

part 1

lesson 1 : the “failure” mindset.

Right now, I’m literally in this crazy state. Like the failure mode. It's insane , I do a million past papers, then I tell myself, “Yes, you did well today.” But I wake up the next day with the same mindset: No, girl, you need to do more. Like, what if all those questions don’t show up on the exam?Yes, stress can help it drives you sometimes. For me, it worked most of the time. That fear of failure push me to study harder. But don’t let failure control you. I really wish I could change my mindset, especially before big exams or finals.We always think, what if I fail instead of what if I succeed? So please, try not to stress too much. Even small efforts count. Stay motivated. I know discipline is important, but we’re human. Especially high school students there’s pressure from everywhere. Everyone expects something from you.So try to motivate yourself. Make your breakfast in the morning. Watch something motivational when you wake up. It will remind you why you're doing this.You’re a student. You need to succeed. But sometimes we lose that passion . So keep some backup motivation ready. Think: What if I succeed? Always and Study hard. Do everything you can so you can feel good and proud about urself later.

lesson 2 : using AI for essays.

Please, please, please stop using AI if you’re still doing it especially for essays idk about u use ai or not it's ur life idc but if u are a STUDENT hear me out If your exams are still a bit far and you’re using AI to do your homework, especially your essays, stop now.I swear, some classmates of mine used AI the whole year. Especially for French essays. I know not everyone is great at French even if it’s our mother tongue , some people treat it like a second language tooThere’s this one girl in my class she used ChatGPT for every single argumentative essay. And our teacher praised her: “Oh my god, I love your writing!” and gave her plus points. I got mad. Like… I wrote my essay 100% by hand, all real. And then the teacher accused ME of using AI? I was like Girl wtf 💀💀💀 this is 100% mine.And in the actual exam, that girl got 13/20 and i I got 19/20 and then the teacher believes me after •́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀.f you use AI all year, you’ll look so stupid in the exam. So please, even if you need help, don’t rely on AI. Just read articles, watch videos on YouTube, act like AI doesn’t exist.Read more, watch teachers online, documentary anything that helps you build real knowledge and vocabulary. You’ll get better and your essays will show it.

lesson 3 : Not organizing your notes.

This one is real. Please don’t do what I did: I lost every single note from first semester. I still don’t know where I put them.So if you’re someone who writes by hand, please always keep a folder next to you. As soon as you finish a paper, put it in the folder. Keep your folders in a place where no one touches them.The only thing that saved me I take pictures of my notes. So please, every time you write something important and feel like you might lose it take a photo. Just in case.

lesson 4 : Not sleeping early.

I’ve been doing this mistake recently, during prep week when we’re home from school. The stress is too much. Not because I can’t sleep I actually fall asleep in minutes. The problem is I don’t sleep early. I have no fixed schedule.If you study in the morning, you need to sleep early. I wake up around 5 or 6 a.m., but I sleep at midnight. That’s just 4–5 hours of sleep. And it’s not enough. I get headaches. I burn out.Today, for example, I woke up at 6 after sleeping at midnight. I had the worst headache. I made coffee but didn’t even drink it.Also, if you get headaches easily, be careful with coffee. Drink water first. Move around a bit before having it.So then I tried studying but couldn’t. I opened a YouTube video to study, but I couldn’t focus. I ended up lying down, playing the video on my phone, and falling asleep again with the teacher’s voice still playing I felt like a loser fr it made me so sad. So please, if you work best in the morning, be in bed at LEAAAST by 10 p.m.And if you’re a night owl and study until 2–3 a.m., please sleep long enough after that. Your brain needs it.Just be organize your sleep schedule. Everyone has their best time to focus just build your routine around it. The time will pass anyway, so spend it right.

stay healthy everyone 💭

@bloomzone

[iikissagirl]

opposites attract

johnny storm x f!grimm!oc

summary: johnny and mary hadn’t known each other for long, a couple of weeks before the accident, but what happens when she finds comfort in his warmth and he finds comfort in her coldness.

a/n: no major spoilers, mention of the accident and that. i loved joseph quinn as johnny, i felt in love. hope u enjoy.

masterlist

mary grimm, ben’s little sister, showed her interest in outer space since she was only four years old, her eyes shining every time her older brother talked about stars' names or how big the other planets were, so it was natural for her to study something related to it. 

she was in her third year of aerospace engineering when reed richards, ben’s best friend, told her he wanted her on the team. she was excited and at the beginning ben was quite against that, he didn’t want to expose his baby sister in that way even though he knew it was one opportunity in a lifetime. 

she helped reed to build the spaceship, he knew her knowledge would be so helpful and when she said that the ship needed some adjustments he convinced her they weren’t a need. 

mary and johnny met when she was working on it, he, and his playful demeanor, kept her entertained. their relationship wasn’t really a close one, but johnny made sure of not stepping any boundary because ben asked for it. 

when they came back from outer space, a lot of things were like always, but she couldn’t help but notice some things that felt off. her hands were always cold, at the beginning she didn’t think much of it, it was winter and it was normal. 

but when, one day, she didn’t put her coat on and she didn’t feel like freezing, mary started to overthink the signals. her tea always gone cold just by a couple of seconds in her hand, the way the water in the shower always falls cold on her feet and it didn’t matter how hot the water was before it touched her.

they were all together when the most obvious thing happened, only three days after they landed back, sue had asked for a cup of water and only on her way from the kitchen to the table the water became ice.  

that’s when reed decided to run some test on her and ben, who had already had a couple of changes —like being a lot more bulky—. five days after they landed and johnny caught himself on fire. 

at the beginning it was all needles and tests to see what was really going on, it took mary at least two weeks to know that she could make and throw ice towards people as long as she was hydrated, it was all very confusing and overwhelming.     

mary’s eyes were stuck on the window in front of her, her mind drifting to how everything was before the accident, it was late, very late and the city showed life full of lights when someone sat on the couch next to her, she knew who she was before she looked, that comforting warmth she couldn’t feel anymore and there was only one person that could make her feel it. 

johnny storm, he was able to make her feel warm in a way she missed so much and unconsciously she always came close to him. it didn’t matter if they were standing or sitting she was always close to him, desperate to have that feeling again. and he knew. 

johnny knew because he felt the same way, sometimes that warmth inside him could become so warm that he couldn’t take it, it didn’t help if he took a cold shower because the water would evaporate, it didn’t help going to the snow because he will melt it, so when mary started being close to him, he realized that the cold she radiated was the only form of coldness that wouldn’t fade away.  

unconscious, mary moved closer to johnny, they didn’t spoke for a couple of minutes, both of them enjoying the feeling that the other was giving watching the lights of the city. she felt his body tense and warmer than usual. 

“everything good?” mary asked whispering, afraid of waking up anyone and turned her head towards him and saw his eyes already on her. his beautiful blue eyes, that usually were full of happiness, showed mary only sadness. 

he shook his head still looking at her, “do you ever feel like-” he whispered as well, but it wasn’t because he didn’t want to wake up anyone, it was because he was afraid she wouldn’t understand him. “-like the coldness inside you is too much?” 

mary nodded without even thinking, “you help me through it though” his eyes lighted up just a little bit. “you’re like the only warm i can feel, everything else just freezes” 

“oh god, i feel the same, nothing lasts cold when it's close to me” he said, now happier knowing that someone understands him. 

mary smiled at him, the light in his blue eyes, his blond hair falling carefully on his forehead, his lips curved up now that they shared something and all mary could think about was kissing them. 

she didn’t know if it was because of how close they became in the last couple of weeks, or how he made her feel —heart beating fast every time they were close, avoiding his eyes, and not being able to be separated from him for long periods of time—, or the way he was looking at her. 

like he felt the same. 

“can i hug you?” she nodded and in a matter of seconds they were melting together. his arms wrapped around her waist and his head rested on the crook of her neck, one of mary’s arms went to his hair and started scratching his scalp while her other hand went and rested flat on his muscular back. 

they stayed still for a couple of minutes, Johnny's body becoming more and more heavy thanks to the calm he felt now that he wasn’t feeling that burning sensation inside him, and after another couple of seconds they both fell asleep on the living room couch. johnny layed on top of her his head still on the crook of her neck. 

after a couple of hours of the best sleep they had in weeks they waked up by the loud noise of ben’s plate crashing on the floor. both of them lifted their heads and looked to the place where the noise came only to find out the three others were looking in surprise at them. 

the blond guy groaned in annoyance and tucked his head on mary’s neck again. 

“no! what are you doing?! get out of my baby sister!” ben said while walking towards them. 

“tonight we sleep in my room with closed doors” was the last thing johnny whispered to her before ben grabbed him and with his strength he pulled the boy far away from his sister. 

[roscgcld]

hello! i have been reading ur blog since 2021 when u started the daydreaming!reader series! i am SO happy ur well and ur back and i cant wait to read ur works! can u write another daydreaming!reader fic that can be anything but focuses on her relations with nanamin and sukuna?

DAYDREAMING!READER || nanami and sukuna with her

note: honestly, that is such a slay idea of you. also, thank you so much for following alone for so long 🥺🥺💓 it's wild to think that you'd find my little pocket of the internet, and choose to spend your time here as well. I send loves and kisses lovely!! i also tried to write a fic, but I found writing a headcanon split between the two characters easier, so i hope you don't mind!!

pronouns: she/her

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NANAMI KENTO - Mr Gentleman

say it after me - nanami is just husband, okay? i am not hearing anything against that

Sure, he can seem cold and uncaring, but he is still a gentleman, okay? It's especially noticeable if he is comfortable around you

from carrying your bags and jackets whenever you are tired, holding onto your drinks when you want to go shopping, and getting offended if you try to pay when he is around - just GIVE ME THIS MAN-

anyways - when it comes to daydreaming!reader and nanami, nanami really does set the standards in the sky. Poor Yuta tends to worry that nanami is pushing y/n's standards higher than is humanly possible

whenever they go out - nanami is waiting by the college entrance with some baked goods and whatever drink that she likes at that moment waiting for her to drink

he always makes sure she is holding onto his arm so she doesn't get lost, and always makes sure to push a path forward for her, letting her get on the train first so no one is shoving her from behind

He has hand sanitiser and wet tissues on standby whenever she wants to buy makeup. wordlessly letting her swatch shades on his hands without as much of a blink

has a list of restaurants in his phone that she has mentioned that she wanted to try amongst the ones he wants to try as well. he even noted down the most ordered items in case she wants to pick the dishes instead of picking a restaurant

gets offended whenever she tries to pay for anything - what man would allow a woman to pay?

does not care that people are whispering and staring, assuming that he is a sugar daddy. he doesn't really like people anyway, so if having y/n hanging off his arm as she babbles about whatever show she was watching means that people would potentially leave him alone, he will take the opportunity

while he is monotoned and straight to the point when he talks to others, he has a much more gentle tone whenever he addresses y/n. and usually has this soft smile on his face whenever he watches her interact with the world

if they are going on a mission together, nanami is watching her like a hawk.

trains with her, making sure that her movements are clean and that she is aware of all of her surroundings when she is fighting

he will make sure that she returns without a scratch on her person, letting her sit out the mission if she wants, but not stopping her if she wants to do it

he is very critical, though - he will correct her form mid-battle, reminding her to hone all her senses so she does not get hurt

he would step in and correct her, but only if she is about to get physically hurt, because at the end of the day, she needs to be strong enough to protect herself

even if she pouts with tears brimming in her eyes as he lectures her, he would sigh and bandage any scratches up, letting her cling onto him like a sad child as he brings her to get a sweet treat

lets her be in the kitchen whenever he bakes; something that he has never let anyone else do. She always leaves happy with extras for everyone in Jujutsu Tech (and yes, gojo has some as well)

is the one who taught her how to cook, actually - she knew some basics from her parents, but nanami was the one who taught her how to do things like sharpen a knife, how to slice veggies julienne style, etc

does skincare with her whenever he stays on campus - he has his own headband (a doggy-ear one), and always does face mask night with drinks and baked goods

He definitely has his own skincare routine at home, so both of them will go out shopping for the skincare bits together to make sure that it 'does not irritate his skin'

yes he is the self-care king - i am not hearing anyone else against that fact

would body double a lot - nanami reading a book or doing a wordcross puzzle, and y/n playing a video game quietly beside him on her switch. silent but enjoying each other's company

nanami is, and always has been, a gentleman. he loves peace, and somehow the chaotic y/n is peaceful whenever she is around him.

basically she is just his training daughter that he one day will have (and that baby mama is gonna be me ladies)

RYOMEN SUKUNA - Meanie

(in this story, i am making him yuji's uncle. it is just easier this way - idk how to write sukuna as a parasite inside yuji lmao)

When people think about ryomen sukuna, they cannot imagine how he is at all blood-related to itadori yuji at all

known as the 'king of curses' because of how well he channels curses to his advantage, to his deadly curse technique - he was a strong sorcerer that no one wanted to anger

saying that, however, it is a known thing that the men who look the scariest love the cutest of things

gojo, can't count how often he's seen Sukuna's dark fingernails painted with cute designs in different colours - flowers, glitter or sparkle decals, nail stickers. he swears he's seen sukuna with chrome nail art before as well

sukuna's desk, while bare bar with some neat stacks of paper and his laptop, has the cutest little toast plushie sitting on the highest shelf

ijichi asked him once about it, curious why he had just left the doll sitting on his desk

"that? the pipsqueak gave it to me - gonna cry a storm if i tossed it away."

while he hates when people look at him, even more so if they dare to talk to him, he would wander around to look for Y/N after her missions to ask how it has gone

he hates when students disturb him - he is known to be that one lecturer that no one goes up to after class to ask for questions unless you want to be ripped a new one for not 'paying closer attention'

yet y/n would randomly come skipping into the office and plop herself on the free seat next to sukuna's chair and start yapping, with sukuna just humming as he graded the papers before him

had forced both yuji and herself to study after class together - the two of them sitting in the empty classroom with sukuna glaring down at them, trying his hardest to not smack either of them

while he is understanding, he is firm, he never makes any paper easier for y/n - making her get out of her comfort zone and try as hard as she can

but he would never let her push herself too hard - whenever they were on a mission together, while he would step aside to let her fight her battles, he would always be 2 steps behind her

watching her back and letting her make her own mistakes, but would immediately step in and protect her if she falters, making sure that she is not hurt

whether she was or not, though, he would let her whine and give her a piggyback ride back to the car after their mission, grumbling the entire way as she giggled and happily kicked her feet

he definitely has snacks on him all the time because of how many calories he needs to eat to keep up his physique, so he would so pick up her favourite snacks and keep them on him

whenever the Kyoto school visits, he makes sure to keep an extra eye on Todo - not to prevent him from chatting her up, but more so, he can film the interaction and send it to Yuta with no extra message

he lives for the drama. he knows y/n and yuji are the two who keep up to date with everything that is happening, and would always ask them for updates whenever he can

"so Maki punched a guy just because he looked at her weird? ...Did she at least break his nose?"

demands for a plate of food whenever y/n is on cooking duty. i headcanon that he can burn water if you let him, so yuji does most of the cooking. but he loves y/n's cooking a little more

always gets her to order an extra seasonal drink for him - no matter how glittery or pink the drink is, he is going to order it

if he is going to spend money on a drink, he is ordering the most flamboyant one. and no one dares to question him for it

late night snack run buddies - just a single text ('snacks?') and the two of them would be dressed in their coats and shoes, both of them making their way to the nearby convenience store as they

the two of them, plus yuji are avid game chasers - would be those people who sleep outside a shop to get their hands on a copy of a game on launch day

then they would stay up for at least 2 days just finishing the game together, and everyone hates it because it would be silent before the three idiots start screaming from the adrenaline they are feeling at a boss fight scene

sukuna has style. so y/n and him definitely go thrifting and shopping together in harajuku. definitely had pictures taken of them about their outfits

basically he is a softie behind a very frostie character - but he does have strong love for his students. but he definitely has a favourite, and it is not at all secret that it is y/n

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[voxslays]

Lucifer’s Daughter Headcannons

Lucifer x Reader: If Lucifer and Reader had a daughter, here’s what I think she would be like. or an excuse for me to talk about apple white…

Personality

First of all, personality. Your daughter would be raised by Lucifer, therefore picking up some of his both positive and negative traits, but let’s start positively.

Your daughter would be very creative. Her father was a dreamer; having beautiful (rejected) ideas and dreams for humanity. We saw in episode five how Lucifer would use his powers to show baby Charlie magic—so I doubt your child would be any different. Although Lucifer would be worried about her ending up like him.

Your daughter is very empathetic. Always helping injured little animals she finds in your back garden. Also, speaking of animals, it’s like she can speak to them. Animals really like and trust her—and by the time she gets older, she has an army.

Very charismatic. Your daughter would be extremely popular in school. Not only because she’s a princess of hell and the daughter of a fallen angel—but because of her charisma and charm. She is extremely outgoing, and will walk up and talk to anyone. Almost everyone loves her—how could they not?

Unfortunately, she would probably have selfish tendencies. Having been spoiled her entire life, she expects everything to be handed to her on a silver platter. And yes, while she can be down-to-earth and empathetic, she isn’t a perfect Angel.

As a teenager, your daughter would likely experience extreme anger issues. We’ve seen Lucifer can control his anger and annoyance…but he’s also been alive for eons. A teenager wouldn’t be able to do that.

She also inherits her father’s powers. From childhood all the way up into her teenage years, she will struggle to control them. Her powers getting stronger the angrier she gets. She is completely out of control, and has to be calmed down.

Looks/Appearance

Blonde. Very very blonde. There is no way she doesn’t inherit the signature blonde Morningstar locks. Oh, and those adorable rosy red cheeks. She’s so cute!

However, she will have your complexion and eyes. I also can imagine your daughter having curly little ringlets or locks, which is extremely hard to brush, because she cries every. single. time. and you just feel so bad about it.

Overall, I think your daughter would look (and dress) something like apple from ever after high, with your eye color and skin tone ofc. (God I love her so much).

Name

Okay. I know I’ve mentioned Apple White already in this post…but I just love her so much! Can you guys imagine Lucifer having a daughter like her?

Do I think he would name his daughter something like Apple? Definitely. I mean, he was the one who offered eve the forbidden fruit; an apple. And he just likes apples.

Another name is Evangeline. Depending on who you ask (or what you google lol) Evangeline can mean one of three things. Angel, messenger, or ‘good news.’ So not only does this name remind him of the good days back in heaven, but also his brother Gabriel, the messenger…is that too much of a stretch?

Another good one is Penelope. The name Penelope is Greek and means ‘weaver’ (not important) or ‘duck’. Wouldn’t it be so cute if Lucifer named his daughter something duck related? You can’t tell me otherwise.

The last name I can think of is Aurelia. (I actually knew an Aurelia lol). Aurelia means ‘golden’ or ‘the golden one.’ Not only is Lucifer referred to as ‘the golden angel’ in mastermind, but he would treat his daughter like a golden treasure. A chance to start over and fix his previous mistakes as a father.

Idk if I should make a part 2…but if I do, would u guys rather it be more Headcannons for Lucifer’s daughter, or a different characters child?

[wolfiesmoon]

Could i perchance request a leona x reader fic where readers bestfriend is dating malleus🤝I think it'd be a funny thought☝

heeeeey but ofc u can 😈😈😈

reader is gender neutral but their best friend is a girl 😘

HOLY SHIT I AM FINALLY BACK... so so sorry i took so long w this one..

also i'm writing this while listening to music on spotify and i cant be the only one that always shows the middle finger to my device when an ad pops up in the middle of my playlist, right?...right?

i truly apologise if anyone is ooc or if my english is a little weird or overly simple i'm rusty asf man

You and your best friend both somehow stole the heart of a prince, which would be a fairytale on paper.

You know, going on dates where you sip tea in a beautifully decorated garden together, that type of thing.

But the thing is, your boyfriend Leona REALLY dislikes your best friend's boyfriend, Malleus. And that's putting it lightly.

The mere mention of his name, especially from your mouth, has his features hardening.

But your best friend is still your best friend no matter what your boyfriends think of eachother, so inevitably, this leads to some interesting situations.

.

The time of the magical shift tournament is upon NRC and it's safe to say that both you and your best friend are HYPED.

The match between Savanaclaw and Diasomnia starts in about 5 minutes and the two of you are equiped with your best Savanaclaw and Diasomnia paraphernalia, completely prepared to lose your voices from cheering.

Your friend nearly passed out upon seeing Malleus, in a good way. And you can't even judge her, because you have to admit that Leona in a magift uniform and an awfully determined expression on his face is a very welcome visual.

The match was an intense one, as it always is when Leona gets serious. Though Leona said he'd definitely beat Diasomnia this year, luck was not on his dorm's side as they still ended up losing.

After the match, your friend immediately ran to congratulate Malleus on his victory. Though you meant to go and cheer up Leona as soon as the match was over, you thought to yourself "might as well congratulate Malleus while I'm on the way. It won't be long."

You don't harbour any ill feelings towards Malleus, after all. He's actually a pretty cool guy in your mind.

"Congrats on the win." You smiled and shook Malleus' hands excitedly. "You were so cool out there, I don't think I could ever manage to throw the disk that far!" You praised him innocently, not even noticing the storm brewing behind you.

That storm being a certain beastman prince.

You felt a sharp gaze travel across you and you slowly turned around to see your boyfriend glaring at you... or was it possibly Malleus he was glaring at?

You quickly let go of Malleus' hands, which in hindsight probably only made you look more guilty. Not that you are guilty of anything, Leona just considers you congratulating Malleus a great offense.

"What do you think you're doing?" he asked, his brows furrowing even more if that's even possible. The intensity behind his stare really did make you feel like you just got caught cheating or something.

"Uh, congratulating Malleus for winning?" You smiled awkwardly, your eyes averting his gaze.

You saw Ruggie standing behind Leona, who was mouthing "Apologise to him, please" over and and over and shaking his clasped hands all while wearing an almost comically panicked smile on his face.

Right, when Leona is mad about something relating to you, literally everyone from Savanaclaw feels the after effects of that. You'd imagine Ruggie can't get away with anything when Leona's like that.

And besides, you don't want to incur his wrath, either.

"...I'm sorry. I was gonna go and talk to you right after this, you know?" you twiddled your fingers awkwardly. Your friend was giggling her ass off behind you, as if anything is funny right now.

Leona didn't even grace you with a response before walking off with the meanest death glare you think you've ever seen from him.

"I'm going to sleep. Don't bother me." he turned around, storming off with a gait far stiffer than his usual one.

"What have you done?! Now I won't be able to get away with steali- I mean, borrowing his wallet for at least a week!" Ruggie seemed distraught.

"I can't do much but try and cheer him up now, haha." you laughed awkwardly, feeling quite bad now. You'd also be a little sad if Leona didn't immediately come to cheer you up and talked to your rival instead.

You have a storm that requires abating, it seems.

It didn't take much searching to find Leona. He was taking a nap in the greenhouse with a comically displeased expression, still in his magical shift uniform. You wonder how he can even fall asleep while he's so upset.

"Leona." You poke his face, and it scrunches up slightly, a groan escaping his lips. That means he's actually not asleep and is just pretending. Because he doesn't want to talk to you.

Would've been an effective tactic had he not done this countless times before.

"Leona." you try again, but to no avail. "I know you're just pretending."

"Whose lover are you, again?" He spoke up, cracking one eye open to glare at you.

"Yours. Always." You admitted without thinking and Leona's cheeks did redden slightly, but you missed it due to being under the shade of one of the trees.

It always catches him off guard how you can admit how much you love him with such ease and zero hesitation.

But now's not the time to be lovestruck, he has a grudge to hold.

"So you do know that. How surprising." He narrowed his cat-like eyes, refusing to make eye contact with you. It is a feline way of showing affection for someone, after all.

"Listen, I really am sorry." you sighed, feeling a lot more guilty now. But hey, you are trying to make amends right away. That's gotta count for something, right?

"You're still the strongest magical shift player I know. And..." you hesitate, suddenly feeling embarrased about admitting the second part. "You also look, like ten times hotter when you're all focused and have your hair put up. Like right now."

"So you're sayin' I'm not always this hot?" He teased you, cracking a smile, which is a good sign. It means he's very pleased with your compliments. And the best part is that they aren't lip service, either.

"You're always hot, even when you sleep so deeply you drool onto the pillow." You shrug.

"Oh, and you were doing so good. Now I'm pissed again." To be honest, Leona finds it annoying just how easy it is for you to put him in a better mood. Despite himself, he starts smiling even when he's supposed to be mad at you. He almost just let you enchant him again but congratulating Malleus in front of him is far too great of an offense to ignore.

"I'm sorry..." you repeated, staring awkwardly at the ground. "I know magical shift means a lot to you, and..."

"Whatever." He shooes you off with his hand, not even bothering to open his eyes, which might seem a little harsh, but you get the feeling that you've put him in a slightly better mood regardless since his "whatever" held no bite.

The last thing you want to do is overstay your welcome, so you quietly say "Bye bye, I'll be at my usual spots."

You wait for his groan of acknowledgement that never comes because he actually fell asleep. You smile to yourself, then turn around and leave him be.

.

"Please, Leona, just one time...!" You clasped your hands together in a pleading gesture, showing off your best puppy eyes.

You and your best friend have been obsessing over the idea of a double date recently and unsurprisingly, that's a little hard to organise when your boyfriends are who they are.

"Not with that piece of crap, I'm not." Leona turned over in his bed and was now facing away from you, huffing stubbornly. Well, you can't say that this reponse wasn't an expected one, though it dissapointed you nonetheless. Not even puppy eyes will work in your favour this time.

You get the feeling that literally nothing you can possibly think of will work this time, especially not since the magical shift tournament is still fresh in his mind. (Calling it an incident is a bit overblown, but to Leona it was a big deal, come on now.)

"Fine..." you sigh. "Let's just go on a normal date, then. Just the two of us." you mumbled awkwardly and he simply grunted in response, though you get the feeling it was a grunt of the satisfied variety.

After a few seconds of silence, he clarified with "Glad you're back to your senses. Now get up here." and lazily patted the empty part of the bed behind him.

As you got up on the bed, you made a mental note to text your friend that the double date is called off. At least the two of you didn't already start planning any locations to go to or activities to do since it would have all been for naught.

.

The two of you usually prefer going on more chill dates in private locations, but you'd been saving up a little money to spend on yourself recently, so you and Leona went on a mall date instead.

"Does this one suit me better? Or should I get the previous one?" you asked upon coming out of the dressing room wearing a new shirt.

Leona yawned, crossing his arms. "Just get both and be done with it."

"Unlike you, I have a budget I have to abide by. Not everyone is a prince, you know." you sassed him, narrowing your eyes slightly.

"Take the second one... couldn't care less though, since you look good in everything." he shrugged, then made his way out of the store without even waiting for you to change back.

"That little..." you grumbled. It's really no fair that he can say such an unflatteringly blunt statement and it STILL makes your heart flutter. Not to mention him rudely abandoning you.

After the shirt is bought and Leona is woken up from the bench (yes, somehow he managed to fall asleep in a noisy mall), you start making your way to the next store.

"Sometimes I wonder if you love sleeping more than me." you cross your arms and glare at him for a moment.

"Can't I love both equally?" Leona said casually, his eyes meeting yours for just a moment.

"The man that you are..." you sighed.

All of a sudden, your eyes met with a pair of very familiar ones.

"Bestie, I didn't think I'd meet you here today!" your friend excitedly intertwined her fingers, causing the shopping bags she was holding to slip down to her elbows. Behind her stood Malleus, who was also carrying a few shopping bags of hers, probably. Maybe they're actually his, though.

"No way, you also decided to go on a mall date?!" you shared your surprise, smiling brightly and giving your best friend a quick hug.

"And on the same day, too... What a coincidence, right?! The universe must have brought us together to have that double date after all!" your friend shook her fists excitedly, her nose scrunching up as she smiled to her ears.

"Oh my god, yes, let's-" all of a sudden, you found yourself getting dragged away from your friend by your wrist. You whipped your head around to see the back of Leona's head.

You can't see his face, but you're sure he's scowling right now. "Leona?" you question, trying to gently pull your wrist away. "Absolutely not." was his only reply.

You sighed, ready to forget the excitement you felt just a few moments ago. But then...

"Hey, wait for us! Which store are we going to next?" your best friend caught up to the two of you with Malleus right behind her. Malleus' smile seemed strangely mischevious to you, but you decided you'd rather ignore it.

"Wow, who would have thought Leona would get so excited about the double date that he wouldn't even wait for you to finish your sentence before dragging you off." your friend whispered to you, giggling a little.

The four of you ended up going on the double date, but Leona was mad at you for a few days after.

No matter how many times you told him it really was a coincidence you met at the mall that day, he wasn't having any of it. You suppose you can't really blame him in that regard. It was a coincidence that was very favourable to you.

He was willing to forgive you, but only if you skipped class to cuddle with him all day long.

Oh well, your academics can suffer a little bit, right?

[so-i-did-this-thing]

Hello! I just wanted to say I stumbled across one of your posts and ended up looking through the trans tag in your blog for a while and idk it felt so so nice to see a middle aged trans guy just living life and being there for others who are at earlier points of their own trans related journeys, and I hope I can look as awesome as you and be as comfortable in my own skin and style and everything when I'm older.

I guess I also wanted to ask if you had any insight or advice about a couple things, if you're willing to share.. First thing is, did you ever struggle with passing but looking much younger than your age and that somewhat affecting your perception of yourself? I'm 28 and I started T 11 months ago (though at a pretty low dose because I wanted slow changes) and my face just recently started visibly shifting to a more masculine contour and I love it, but I still don't really look like a 28 year old guy.

I've always passed easily even before T but people think I'm like 18-21 max. Things were fine while I was in college (I came out at 19 so for a while my face just felt fitting enough and didn't make me feel either dysphoric or in a weird age limbo) but every year it feels more frustrating and makes me feel sort of alienated from myself including in mental ways, like I'm just a little kid who can't grow up. Like I'll never look like a "real guy" even though I can be stealth because I look like a weird teen and not like a grown up man. It's especially bad when I look at my amab younger siblings who are now also adults and see how I "should have looked" in some other life if I was cis. I guess maybe that's just another manifestation of dysphoria that I didn't have to deal with before? Did you ever experience something like that? And if yes did it get better after some years on T or how did you deal with it?

The other thing is just.. internalized transphobia. It's one thing to know things in a logical or intellectual sense but it's so hard to really feel and believe it sometimes and let go of all the awful transphobic stuff my family said to me during the first years of me being out. I just kept going anyway because I needed to be true to myself and my family basically bullying me wasn't gonna just magically change how I felt about my gender, but what it did do is put my already low confidence and self esteem (in this context regarding my gender) down on the floor. And sometimes I still just think and worry "what if they were right and I was wrong and I'll never be real and valid because of x y z", "what if I'm just delusional", "what if I'm a ridiculous freak". I know, in a way, that no I'm not. I'm just a trans person and they're just transphobes. But feelings like that just get to me sometimes and I don't really know what to do about them even nearly 10 years after coming out. Does that get better at some point? Just like you kinda stop giving a shit what people think about you in general as you get older? But how can you change those internalized views affecting what you think of yourself?

Bit nervous about asking this stuff tbh, so sorry it was so long also sorry if I worded any of it in a not so great way.

I will say though, that seeing older trans people like you does help a little bit. Just makes it feel like "hell yeah I wanna be like him when I grow up". So thank you for showing me that today ;u; (and also for inspiring me to put a little more thought and effort into my styling and fashion choices haha)

Heya, Anon! Let's see what I can cover here:

Looking young.

Oh my god, yes. I was getting carded to buy superglue and spray paint well into my late 30s (I started T at 33). When my partner first asked me out for a date, they were worried I wasn't old enough to drink yet (I was 36).

This is me 1 year on T, age 34.

Years 6 & 7 (ages 39 and 40), is when I feel I started looking older.

I feel like it's only been recently, 14 years in at 47, that I look in my 40s, and a "mature" adult. My beard finally getting full helped, as did my receding hairline. And I feel like my skin texture has toughened up enough, to where wrinkles show more.

That said, yes, it is tough and annoying to deal with. Even when people tell me I look like a particular cis man (where I actually see the resemblance, lol), when I look at us side-by-side, I feel like I'm just a pale shadow of him. I feel jealous and dysphoric, even while I'm flattered by the comparison. I wonder what I "should" look like, and it feels like something has been stolen from me. Its a roller coaster of emotions.

That feeling never really goes away, but you need to afford yourself some grace. You're going to be your own worst critic, and I guarantee you that, of many cis men you grew up with, you can probably still see the kid in them. So of course, you're going to see the kid in yourself.

But, you also just need to let time run its course. HRT is a marathon, and a lot of changes don't really settle for about 5 or 6 years.

I hate to say "enjoy it while you can" because I sure as hell bristled at being mistaken for a teenager or barely 20 when I was in my 30s. But do enjoy what you can of it. Because once you hit middle age, you're going to start dealing with a strange intersection of dysphoria and aging that I myself am still trying to navigate.

One other way I help myself get over negative feelings is to think of how differently my life would have been if I were cis. I honestly worry I would have been a worse person; even though being trans creates a lot of obstacles in my life, I feel like it's been a net gain: being able to know myself so well and help others learn about themselves.

Internalized transphobia

This got better for me with age. My epiphany was that, even over a decade into my transition, I was still softening myself for the benefit of friends and family. I was still using my gender-neutral birthname (I only recently changed it). I would call myself a "person", "guy", or "dude", instead of a "man". I dressed on the young and casual side, eschewing full-on masculine outfits like proper suits with ties.

I only recently pulled myself out of this. It still is a habit-in-progress to refer to myself as a man, even though I have always felt like one. And I've started to dress more vintage, not just because of hyper fixations, but because it's a way to lean into a presentation that is unequivocally, "this is a middle-aged man". And it's done a lot of good for my mental health.

What I'd suggest is to see if you are holding yourself back in any way wrt your gender presentation or how you talk/think about yourself. Give yourself full permission to acknowledge that you are a man, full stop. You're a young man, sure. But still a man, and a full-ass adult at that.

I hope some of this helps. Transition gives us a unique toolset for examining who we are and how we want to move through the world, and that work certainly doesn't end after finally getting on HRT. <3

[autisticandroids]

r u being genuine when u say that dean has no love for sam by s15? can u elaborate on that?

okay. gonna start this with some relevant posts that i've already made years ago. just like old times. a lot of these posts are about cas but well. the triangular tfw dynamic is kind of crucial to how the late seasons shake out lol.

so the thing is i basically think that like. sam and dean start the show as best friends. and most specifically sam is dean's best friend. i don't know if dean is sam's. point of tension one, lol.

^scene of all time episode of all time line of all time.

anyway. the thing is that dean's need to protect/possess/etc. sam is not reallllllly related to loving him and it's definitely not related to liking him.

you basically have to imagine dean, first and foremost, as someone who has experienced CRAZY social isolation. he just is a guy who has never had anyone except his father and brother stick around for more than a couple months. there are a couple of guys john's age who john seemed to have had babysit his kids occasionally (bobby, pastor jim, i think we get a few other mentions?) but that's preeeeeetty much it in terms of people dean might ever expect to see again after the family skipped town. one of the moments in the show that i greatly enjoy rotating in my mind is when the hallucinatory psychiatrist in 5x11 asks him when was the last time he had a relationship that lasted longer than two months and he says never. and obviously this is referring to a romantic relationship but the thing is that follows from the fact that he's basically never been able to maintain relationships of any kind. like the itinerant nature of his life plus the secret (and therefore alienating) nature of the winchester family lifestyle (hunting obviously but also petty crime, john being an unreliable parent, etc.) and john's tendency to enforce isolation (can't have connections that's a distraction, john's tendency to burn bridges). so you have social isolation georg on one hand.

and i also want to say that all of this applies to sam as well. of course it does! but ☝️ there's one crucial difference. sam had stanford. sam experienced four years of heretofore unheard of stability. where he could learn to kind of emotional regulation and social skills that you need to like, have and build relationships, and also just basically learned that it is possible to have and build relationships outside of family.

and you could argue that a difference in the way they socialize is down to temperament, i'm not going to say you shouldn't make allowances for personality. and i also think personality also relates to the amount of isolation they experienced - i think sam's freedom-seeking tendency to reach outside the family for mentorship and connection set him up better to learn social skills than dean's anxious tendency to turn inward towards sam and especially john. but i also just think that stanford set sam up to be like, way more normal in his relationships because he had four years of practice, and at a much younger age than when dean was struggling through his first adult relationships (bobby, then cas, then lisa - man he was almost thirty).

but what this means is that we get to watch dean, in real time, discover the concept that you can have meaningful, long-lasting relationships outside your family. and damn, he struggles! wouldn't you?

but like in the end, a big part of the attachment he has to sam is about how he has no one else. he's never built another relationship, really, until seasons into the show. he was with cassie for what, two weeks? and she's one of the most crucial relationships he's ever had at age twenty six. i mean come on! of course sam is everything to him.

but that's a fragile state of affairs. at some point, dean may discover that it is possible to have relationships with people other than your brother.

next point is. after stanford, sam and dean do pretty well at slipping right back into each others' pockets.* which makes sense. sam is basically given no choice, jess' death puts him in the perfect frame of mind to run back home to his family that's how like, the fridging works. and dean of course is ready to receive him. of course, of course.

and then they go on like this. on their little tandem bicycle of life. inseparable on every level, for years! then dean goes to hell.

and hell is not like stanford. dean goes through a lot more change in hell than sam does at stanford. which you know. obviously. but there are also two other problems.

first, point one: dean went to hell *for sam.* and that's not sam's fault, it was dean's choice. but that's still going to drive a wedge, you know? it's going to breed resentments.

but much much much more importantly: when dean comes back, someone else is sitting shotgun in the impala. the first really big serious wedge in the brothers' relationship is sam replacing dean with ruby.

some people will argue that it's psychic powers or demon blood, but if you go back to season two, dean never cared about psychic powers. john was concerned about psychic powers. sam was concerned about them. dean was like sammy you can't worry so much about this, with a little dash of "don't worry sammy, if you turn evil i'll go with you" subtext.

and if you pay attention to season four, well, dean makes it quite clear that his problem isn't with demon blood and it never really was.

SAM Just listen for a second. We got a lead on a demon close to Lilith. Come with us, Dean. We'll do this together. DEAN That sounds great. As long as it's you and me. Demon bitch is a dealbreaker. You kiss her goodbye, we can go right now.

that's 4x21. demon bitch is a dealbreaker. the season four brother conflict is allllll about ruby.

and the thing is this never gets healed. this wound between them. all it does is fester for the rest of their lives. and a big part of why is that, well. dean also learns that you can replace your brother in your life with someone else.

CASTIEL Even without your brother? DEAN Especially without my brother. I mean, I spent so much time worrying about the son of a bitch. I mean, I've had more fun with you in the past twenty-four hours than I've had with Sam in years, and you're not that much fun. It's funny, you know, I've been so chained to my family, but now that I'm alone, hell, I'm happy.

that's from 5x03, obviously.

and this is the start of a pattern, for dean. once he figures out he isn't eternally chained to sam as his only friend, forever, he starts to, you know, try having other adult relationships. and what this ends up looking is, well. that he is capable of having one friend at a time until conflict sours that relationship, at which point it can't really be salvaged, and then he moves onto a new favorite. sam, then cas, then benny.

and if benny had survived season eight, things would have soured with benny eventually and dean would've found a new bestie. but he didn't. and then you have the things that happened with cas in season nine.

so the thing about sam and dean's relationship is that it takes two to tango. what i mean here is: dean gets sick of being chained to sam and get nasty, and sam reciprocates that. which is, you know, normal. cas on the other hand has a particularly unhealthy response to conflict with dean starting in the carver era: dean gets mean and he gets nicer. which means that dean can choose to repair and rekindle their relationship anytime he wants, vs. with sam, if dean wants to suddenly stop being a dick sam will still be mad and hurt because dean has been being a dick for years.

so this means making cas his favorite little guy is a kind of path of least resistance for dean. like dean has trouble forming relationships with other people for obvious reasons, like both because he's poorly socialized in the way that i've described and much much more importantly because of his lifestyle. so he's basically stuck with his main relationships being sam and cas. and sam returns his resentment to him enough that like. being close to sam is tense and painful. being close to cas is easy because cas makes it easy, so cas kind of ends up slotting into the "one friend" slot. because they can have as much conflict as they want and cas will basically never get mad at him. so dean can get sick of cas and blow up at him, but because finding a new friend to replace cas with is hard, and cas makes it easy to forget past conflicts, dean ends up picking cas.

and i mean he does have a few times as the show goes on when he gets sick of cas and picks someone else. he does this with ketch a couple times, and he does it purposefully to hurt cas' feelings with belphegor.

but carver era pretty thoroughly destroys sam and dean's relationship. because dean does some pretty bad stuff in carver era - the gadreel thing, the mark - and sam gets mad at him. and dean processes this as wait, sam can get mad at me. sam can hold things against me. and he kind of de-invests in that relationship. so you have this kind of like. loveless coworkers vibe between sam and dean by the end of the show. like if anything sam is for the first time more invested in the brothers' relationship than dean by 13/14/15 because sam has kind of just given up on getting away from dean ever, but dean is also (because he has de-invested) mostly stopped tormenting sam, so sam is less internally conflicted because he's not constantly actively under threat from dean lol.

hell, there's an episode in s13 where sam dies and iirc mary is the one who does the big reaction. which is partly writer misogyny, if you have a woman you use her to do the Big Feelings stuff, but it's also because dean's not even gonna immediately kill himself if sam dies anymore. which is a real mark of how their relationship has fallen apart.

and that leads me to a completely different point. which is that how much dean *likes* sam is not related to how much dean feels obligated to him or like he needs to protect him. watch out for sammy, look after your little brother boy, etc. like love can exist between sam and dean, but it's a kind of love between people trapped in a dynamic. like an arranged marriage. you learn to like each other because you can't get away, and that's the only reason. but the dynamic they are trapped in is: dean has to protect sam, keeping sam alive is the point of him that's what he's for. and then also: dean will be alone without sam, because he has no one else. like regardless of how much dean likes sam, those are the dynamics that motivate him re: sam. that's how you get, say, the gadreel incident. and that all ties into the resentment element. and those elements are kind of slowly chipped away at by dean growing up and making more relationships and like, caring less about stuff. like in the late seasons i think dean is not gonna kill himself if sam dies for the same reason he wouldn't fall to his knees and beg for his dad's approval in lebanon. or like, i also don't think he would have a germaphobic panic attack and have to clean the whole bunker if he found mold in the fridge, i think he's just a much more settled person, he's gotten comfortable, and part of that comfort is a relaxing of his obligations and of the anxiety that held them up.

i don't really think dean has *liked* sam since season five, and he really lost his desire to have sam be his eternal life partner after seasons nine/ten, and then he kind of chills out and relaxes his own self-hatred and neurosis in the last few seasons, which was the sort of last pillar holding their relationship up.

i'm not sure if this all strings together, it's kind of a set of thoughts all on one topic that semi relate to each other. you figure it out.

[bingleboy]

hcs of spy (and any other mercs u wanna write) x reader who really likes to pamper them mayhaps? like, constantly preens over them and buys them expensive things?

I love your work bingle *keels over and dies*

ANON I LIKE YOUR MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11!!11111

I'm assuming this means reader is the one spoiling the mercs, so fun!!!

♡ Mercs with an S/O Who Spoils Them - Spy, Scout, Heavy ♡

🗡 Spy 🗡

The first time you buy him an expensive gift, he is so thrown off

No.... that's his thing.... He buys you nice things. what is this

He's just so surprised he's like almost offended

(even though your gift is very thoughtful and he actually does like it)

He replies with a sweet thank you and accepts the gift, but internally he's like "oh i have to one-up this bastard...."

He's a very traditional guy, so he feels like he has to be the one doing things for you, he has to be the "caregiver", he cannot be going soft or getting pampered or any of that nonsense

"Please, mon coeur, you should not trouble yourself with such things. Let me take care of you."

Gift-giving war ensues. He will go broke before he lets you win

Eventually you guys will talk about it and he'll calm down and realize it really isn't a competition, you just show love in a similar way

It takes time for him to get used to the idea of being "spoiled" by someone else, but I think he'd learn to like it a lot, actually

It's a refreshing change from his previous relationships

You settle into a better balance of constantly preening over each other and treating each other to nice things

A little playful competition is still there

everyone else hates you guys kjasjkfhjfj

⚾️ Scout ⚾️

He's shocked, but 100% excited immediately

He's also got that mindset that he shouldn't be the one getting spoiled by anyone, but that mindset changes very fast when you give him nice things asjhfdsjkdg

He appreciates typical fancy stuff, like cologne or nice clothes, stuff like that, though its not his usual style

What would really excite him though is stuff like Tom Jones merch, comic books, maybe some guns idk, baseball cards

He totally overreacts to every personalized gift

"OH MY GOD! Babe, is this for real 'Reload' SIGNED by Tom Jones?! YOU ARE DA BEST I LOVE YOU"

Attacks you with hugs and kisses as thanks

Oh my god he would love it if you literally preened over him. Like fixing his clothes and telling him how handsome he is. He's in HEAVEN he'll be blushing and trying very hard to play it cool

Shows off everything you get him to the whole team, rubs it in their stupid faces, definitely wants them to be jealous

🥪 Heavy 🥪

Confused at first

He seems like a guy who likes mostly basic things, but he'll use the nice things you get him anyway

"You know you do not need to buy things for Heavy, yes? We make the same amount of money."

When he learns it's how you express your love, he feels a lot more flattered whenever you get him something

And, you discover his weak spot: weapons, especially anything related to maintaining Sasha

When you get him a gift he loves, he'll like stare at it and turn it over in his hands a few times, just soaking it in. Then he'll turn to you and say thank you, and give you a sweet kiss

He tries to repay your gifts by spending more time with you and cooking for you

He'll insist you don't have to fuss over him, but he doesn't protest much because he likes it heehee

He likes feeling pretty sometimes okay. Sometimes he likes feeling bonita. He likes feeling worthy of fussing over <3

thank u for the request!! :] *keels over and dies*

[ganxiously]

Do you think they’ll continue exploring BuckTommy next season?

Okay, this is a bit complicated to answer right now so bear with me on this - I think I am about 95% on the fact that Tommy will return next season. Why? Mostly because of two reasons, well two and a half really -

1. There's a shift in how they have approached the relationship with the media. Before, Tommy was barely a discussion unless a journalist specifically asked about the relationship and even then we only got a vague response. And I don't think we need an expert to see that things seem to have taken a full u-turn this recent press tour. Oliver Stark, the master of making non-committal statements, has been literally gushing over Tommy and the BuckTommy relationship. He said something along the lines of I am looking forward to seeing what happens with that relationship next season and it would be very weird for him to drop that statement and then not have Tommy show up anymore. Especially since suddenly bringing up Tommy when he hasn't even been seen with Buck for 3 episodes could have no purpose other than to remind the audience that they need to look out for him next season.

2. The story was again deliberately left unfinished. They could have put a stop to it at any point. All it would take is probably 10 seconds of screen time. They could have had Tommy say it was just a one-night stand in 8.11 or say he was only there for Chimney in 8.15 or have a brief scene of them in 8.16 acknowledging they did not have the right timing and agreeing to just be friends (this would have the added benefit of freeing up Buck's romantic arc and setting up Tommy as an independent recurring to be pulled in when they need an oompf factor). But they did none of those things and instead have almost stubbornly kept these two characters tied together. That has to amount to something.

The half - What was the point of spending so much money on Lou and on helicopters if they weren't going to bring him back. Remember they didn't use Lou in the beenado episodes despite there being a perfect opportunity to do so and that was probably because of the pending breakup. The fact that they have done so now should logically indicate the opposite.

So, yes on Tommy coming back next season and also to it being related to Buck's romantic arc. Now, what I am not so sure about is how the relationship will pan out. Tim usually doesn't drag stories over but he did that last season so we can presume he might do it again this time around. But even then, all of that was end-of-season stuff that was resolved in the first 3 episodes. What's different in this case is that instead of a last arc story, the relationship drama has lasted all season and I don't know if that means we should expect a faster resolution or a slower one. Or even if we should expect one in the first place. I had said this in one earlier post - "This is probably the only romance arc that has given them so much engagement, on both sides of the front. Resolving it would take out one side so they might want to milk it for at least half a season more.". This still holds true but with how the finale panned out, I can't say for sure if they want to resolve it/resolve it soon and take away the engagement it is giving them.

So there you go. I don't know if I made any sense, I had a very straining day at work and English is taking a lot of energy right now but I hope I was at least able to answer your question.

There's one last thing I'd like to add though, which is that all of this is at best conjecture and I have been wrong a lot before so take it with a grain of salt. Whether Tommy will turn up next season or not is dependent on a lot of external factors like actor schedules, contracts, the overall plot and the creative whimsy of one Tim Minear so don't stress too much about it. I'd suggest focusing more on fanworks instead of holding out for canon like I am trying to do. The fans are doing a much better job anyways.

[firestorm09890]

hi so I did play all of deltarune chapters 3-4 yesterday and it filled my brain with delta'd runes but I still have time to think about this apparently

the real-world reasoning is pretty obvious- almost every significant character in Canto 8 is related to each other because it's a dynastic story and that doesn't really work when the LCB is very intentionally made of people with different nationalities- but the LORE IMPLICATIONS??

there's some kind of observer effect? there are mirror worlds where the person in question can have a background that directly contradicts the person they are? is the reason why the scene glitched out because Ishmael and Yi Sang kept talking about how she's never ever been to U Corp in her whole life ever, and the observer thinking about the contradictions makes the mirror world more unstable?

What does Carmen mean by "too early for that observation"? Is there a right time? Is the observation she's talking about simply what Ishmael and Yi Sang are saying, or is the observation the way the words glitched out, the recognition that something is wrong here? Is the glitching because we are meant to see this sort of thing eventually, but this is 'too early'? Will we see more like it?

The idea that any mirror world can be born so long as someone believes it could... regardless of how "believable" it is...

It makes me think about Kromer, actually. How likely was Kromer's idealized mirror world with Sinclair at her side really, and could she have ever reached the desired result through her own actions? Or did the mirror just show her a world she wanted to see, with everything leading up to it a hazy mess because it didn’t matter?

[deezneezz]

Leona & ADD

I got a few ppl (on twitter) wanting me to elaborate on Leona and ADD, so I figured I will share my thoughts here as well, please be nice it's just a personal hc. You don't have to agree at all!! Since it contains some personal experiences I ask of people to please be kind about it!

Anyway, Leona and ADD.

I think a lot of people usually agree on Floyd and Kalim having ADHD, but Leona actually shows a lot of lesser talked about traits of ADHD. Namely Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD), sensitivity to clothing/textures (he doesn't like restrictive clothes).

He also has the more commonly talked about traits of course, executive dysfunction being a big one. And his depression definitely exacerbates these traits, when i was undiagnosed and depressed i used to sleep my entire days away. I wasn't getting anything done anyway.

Not to mention not sleeping properly, so I was desperate to find moments to sleep during the day. I've slept on floors, on toilets, in an abandoned corner in uni instead of going to class. I was just *so* tired all the time I didn't want to sit in class, I wanted to sleep.

I was lucky I passed classes without studying, cause i would've never gotten through uni otherwise. I still took longer than necessary. The moment my support system (Ruggie, anyone?) graduated and left I had no one taking care of my basic needs, and I certainly didn't.

I had a dorm mate who cooked for me, made sure I had even an ounce of self-care, and also looked at my room and said "hmm, Deniz, maybe it's time to clean up a little" and then I very reluctantly admitted that it may have gotten a little out of hand.

She would just sit in my room sometimes chilling around while I cleaned cuz that was one of the few ways I cleaned at all (this is a real thing for ADHD, called body doubling. It works). Ruggie arriving at NRC and Leona suddenly performing tons better in school is no coincidence.

Coming back to RSD.. I mean I don't really have to explain it do I.. book 2, Lilia's scathing remarks, the shame of disappointing his dorm, etc. I know a lot of ppl call book 2 an 'overreaction' but like, this is genuinely what it feels like internally when RSD triggers

book 6 too, Jamil's over-protectiveness is clearly (to the audience) smth that's mostly Jamil's own habits and trauma doing. But to Leona it's a rejection/insult to his ability to take care of himself, his skill, etc. This was genuinely smth that set me off too.

"How dare you try to explain to me smth I already know, do you think I'm stupid?" "You're not like me." The unwillingness to admit that someone may be relatable in any way because making any comparison to yourself makes you vulnerable to what you haven't achieved for yourself.

"I would ace these classes too if I wasted my time and life studying as much as they did, but I actually love myself." <- guy who was jealous and did not know he was coping and didn't study cause of executive dysfunction and concentration issues.

Leona clearly knows a lot about the things he genuinely cares about, Ancient spell language, chess, magishift, so its kind of funny to see him so low effort in classes. Though honestly i know the game also says that "Leona already knows all this stuff" so.. who knows really...

Now I'm more chill but I used to legitimately go off the handle a little cuz RSD doesn't really care about whether the shit u feel is proportional to the offence it physically hurts in your chest and you just wanna burn down the world at that exact time and... IS THAT NOT LEONA...

TLDR: give Leona therapy and meds, lol.

[son-justdont]

okay so here's the update regarding my mom's opinions on catws

she fuckin gets it, dude

i talked about how despite everything hydra does to make him look intimidating, you can see that he's very neutral, sometimes even scared. i showed her this gif:

and she said "it's like he's lost"

we talked about how he's extremely calculating and doesn't react emotionally even in high stress or when he's being bested, like when Natasha fucked up his arm, or even during the face reveal. and she said "because they didn't understand the science of it... the serum enhances everything about the person, and he wasn't bad. that's why they had to work so hard and wipe him so much, because he wouldn't ever actually want to do those things." i couldn't help but smile while she was saying this lmao

she also said: "to me, Steve always seemed... independent. it's almost like Bucky relied on him more than the other way around" which is the most stucky thing she could've ever said. she's so fucking right

she was like "wait, so he pulled him out of the water... and then he just walked away?? so now he's just wandering around... and the longer he stays unfrozen, the more he's going to remember everything"

we can't quite yet watch civil war but we are very excited for it lol

oh, and she loved nick fury and she didn't even know who the fuck he was. i forgot to explain beforehand but she understood pretty quick. and then she was very upset when he "died" as well LOL she said "THEY NEED TO STOP DOING THAT." she hated rumlow immediately as well and i was like yeah that's the correct opinion

now i wanna respond to some of the comments under the cut cuz ive been having such a good time lmao

@bucky-boychik-barnes @impetusofadream HERE U GO (one of them is from a different post where i talked about the same thing lmao)

@ilovemosss i read this post out to my mom including the replies and when i read this one she went "YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!"

@sentowritesstuff @stuckydrewx @partofthefandom @musette22 @rillils @skullfragments

she really thought all these responses were so funny and sweet! i however will not be introducing her to ao3 lmfao. she's no prude but she's pretty shy. i'll have to just relay ideas i find myself, i think. if anyone has any non-M rated recs you think she might like based on what she's said, feel free to send them my way haha

honestly she'd probably enjoy herself but i am probably only be showing her Cap and Bucky related stuff LSKDJF we didn't even watch avengers and i sure as hell am not showing her AoU. i'm basically explaining the relevant information as to what went on in between movies. i was like "natasha is an ex russian spy that was groomed to be as a child. that's basically all you need to know" like i didn't even explain nick fury and she was SO UPSET WHEN HE DIED LMAO

and, i gotta spill the beans, but i haven't seen a marvel movie since the first black panther. yeah that includes IF and EG. i know what happens but my interest in marvel PLUMMETED back then and i never caught up. honestly i'm only back into this stuff because i rewatched jessica jones and then wanted to go through the whole MCU from the beginning, saw CA:TFA, went "oh yeah this was all that i liked," and went all in for them.

i have watched TFatWS and i loved it (it seems like the fandom doesn't though LOL) for what it was, so i'll probably show her that. she is gonna be so so so so so upset regarding steve's choice, just like the rest of us. and i'm not looking forward to it lol. but i'll update when that happens too

i'll have to make a post civil war mom thoughts once that happens haha

[bwwunnies]

HAIIIII can u write headcanons for patrick bateman x neurodivergent s/o who is hyperfixated on horror movies?? tyy ^^

AAAA I LOVE THIS IDEA (because me too girlie. I also love horror movies ✋😔)

so here we go

I hope you enjoy <3

Disclaimer! I am not neurodivergent, nor do I want to offend anyone who is. If you have any concerns/problems with the way I represent you as the reader, please tell me and give me tips on how I can fix it. I want the best reading experience for everyone.

Patrick Bateman x Neurodivergent! Reader Who is Obsessed With Horror Movies

~.🎞.~

I think at first, he'd just be confused.

Like, he'd walk into the living room and see you watching the horror movie, and he'd be like, "What in the name of god is this?"

But once you convince him to actually sit down and watch the movie with you, he'd be really invested.

He seems like the kind of guy who would get really, really into learning the whole story and motive behind the killer (if it's a slasher film). He would question every move that the killer makes, and scoff if the killer gets caught/killed themselves. He always thinks that he could do better.

If it's not a slasher movie, and maybe more of a psychological horror, he'd instead question if the movie was going to keep you up at night, scared in bed. He didn't want you to become too sleepless over a stupid movie, and even if you insisted that you were fine, he'd make you watch something else instead.

He'd listen to all your theories and ideas for any movie. He likes to hear your perspective and he likes to understand where you're coming from. Knowing your neurodivergent traits, he knows you often see things from a different perspective, and he'd be very open to learning more about the way you think <3

Of course, being a killer himself, I feel he would relate to some of the slashers from slasher movies.

During the movies, he usually sits beside you, one arm wrapped around your shoulder or waist. If you have any problems with physical touches, though, he'd just sit next to you (at a respectful distance).

He'll probably be in his boxers. That's just how he lounges around, always openly showing off his body.

He doesn't mind whatever snacks you may want to eat during the movie, as he wants you to be comfortable, but don't expect him to snack along with you. He's gotta keep up that clear skin and lean figure, am I right?

With how much this guy likes specifics and routines, I feel like every Saturday would become 'Horror Movie Night' with him. He'd always make time to be with you and indulge in your interests.

He loves you, after all.