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HOORAY I just read ur bokuto x reader p4 it was really cute :3 sorry havent updated in awhile i got busy with life… but i never forget to keep u in mind 🫶 love ur work as always, very memorable writer to me -🐈🐈‍⬛

[final] bokuto teaching inexperienced!reader

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warnings. heavy nsfw, minors DNI

details. fem!reader / first time / soft kissy missionary / safe sex / BIG praise kink!bokuto / himbo!bokuto / sweet, dumb!bokuto / inexperienced!reader / possessive!bokuto / f!rec oral / guided handjob / kuroo's sister!reader / 2.3k words / last installment

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You tilted your head, eyes narrowed a little at the generous, clear bulge in his tiny shorts.

"Can I see it?"

He fisted the sheets in his excitement that you were thinking the same thing, biting his cheek so he didn't shout. Just by the obvious elation on his face, you could tell he was in the process of holding back a million bad responses.

Instead, he let his hands talk, lips crashing against yours all rough and thirsty as he pulled it out. You didn't want his kisses, though-- you grinned as you avoided what you could, so you could see.

Propped up on your elbows, you looked from his vigilant stare, trailing down his sculpted, smooth body down to his cock between your tummies.

It looked heavy.

You quickly learned that it was hot, too, as he guided your palm around it, and used your hand to pump himself. Your heart was racing- it was so weird, and you liked it so much, and he liked it even more.

Bokuto always stood by the idea that 'it always feels/tastes/sounds better when somebody else does it.' The kind of guy to only drink out of other peoples' cups, ask other people to read things out loud to him, massage a part of his shoulder he could get but won't.

While you didn't know what you were doing in the slightest, and he was controlling your pace, even the harsh grip, it still felt 40x better than all the jerking off he usually did.

His tongue got confident, and a bit curious, diving deeper past your teeth. He was just trying in whatever way he could to be inside of you. The weight of his body became more substantial.

You loved feeling his strength falter, his lust heightening, compelling him to get closer.

When he pulled away, he looked a little crazy- like he forgot to smile, or something. It was the nature of his eyes to not look very friendly, but it gave the impression that he was really holding himself back.

"Are- you okay?"

"Just-," He takes a sharp breath, eyes squeezing shut for a second, like he's recalibrating, "Feels really g-ood."

He wasn't prepared in the slightest for the smile you gave him. It was sweet, and prideful, and too cute with his cock in your hand.

That tortured look was back, briefly before he shoved his face in the nook of your shoulder.

"Fuck-! I need you s-o bad," He whined, pitiful, "Are- h-ahh, you ready yet?"

You could try.

With a question like that, asked so sweet, so sugary- you hummed against his hair, not quite understanding what 'ready' meant.

You hardly noticed how he plucked a condom from his shorts, somewhere in the mess of sheets to the left of you- and slid it on between clumsy kisses. Lots of practice must've made the process second nature.

It was difficult, to say the least, adjusting to him. His eagerness was already so spoken for, and you realized too late that you probably did need more time.

Bokuto could feel it too, though.

He could hear it in the thinly-veiled fear, making your voice waver, break, as you asked him to be gentle with you.

"Even if it takes all night," He kissed your nose while you couldn't move away, "I'll wait for ya."

Rough hands, so used to force and recklessness, practiced paying attention through running smooth lines across your skin.

Those hard kisses turned softer, slower, across your jaw and down your throat. He moved at a near imperceptible pace, just to get you accustomed to all of his size.

"Sooo pretty," He whispered to himself, forehead heavy on yours as he closed his eyes, "Fuck..."

The discomfort was just starting to be overshadowed with better, pleasurable, buzz. Your legs were slowly relaxing, a jelly-like feeling that spread from your thighs, squished comfy next to his hips, down to your toes.

Bokuto was capable of deliberate and soft sex. He wasn't always an animal, and he wasn't ignorant to somebody else's needs.

He was just excitable, and stupid. But all he needed was a whisper, a hint, or a reminder sometimes.

You kissed the tip of his nose, a way of telling him you were okay. Your fingers started to rake through his spiky hair, and the little smile on your face waited for him to he open his eyes.

"Shit--," He stole another few kisses from you, "Oh, you're so- mh- you're soo cute."

Between kisses, his tongue lagged, always proceeded by a sharp sigh. Almost like he was struggling to multitask. It made you curious when it started to get more frequent.

"Sh-it--h-ahh--," His curse broke into a shocked whine-- he stalled, deep.

Your higher, cuter sound at how good it felt did nothing to help to bring him down.

You watched him bite his own wrist, a small concern furrowing his brow.

Craving more, and only knowing one way to cheer him up, you rolled your hips up and locked your ankles around him with a squeeze.

"W-ait, waitwaitwait," He seethed, "Ahh- fuck-- stop moving babygirl- stop moving."

The person he looked down at was no longer a shy little nerd, incapable of handling his flirty second nature. Your mouth was curled into a coquettish grin, your pecks soft and affectionate and too much, scattered around his face.

He had to cum so bad that he felt sick. He had to look through you- draw blood to his palm, just to clear his filthy mind.

"Do I really feel that good?" You giggled- beyond flattered by his tortured expression.

There was no beat between the end of your sentence and his hushed response, "Yes."

You knew about vague stereotypes of guys with shitty endurance. You didn't have first-hand experience until you watched his expression shift, swirling, panic and euphoria taking one another over again and again.

He 'ruined' his orgasm by keeping your needs first. He knew you couldn't take what he wanted. His body was like iron, forced motionless, like a statue, except for the rapid, uneven rise and fall of his chest.

It looked like a delicious mix of pained and sexy as he came, almost perfectly still, so he didn't hurt you.

A kind of psychotic, intrusive desire made you tense-- the curious, hungry want to get rid of the condom between you. How much better would that have felt without it?

The sheets groaned, fabric snagging and snapping, under his grip. His body was all flexed up for you to watch. You knew he was trying to keep you in mind, so you didn't try anything too cute until he started relaxing, again.

"Hm-mmph--, fuck--," He groaned, a tremble in his arms as he slowly pulled out.

His exhaustion was short-lived, only manifested in a breathiness in his chuckle.

"Good thing I brought two."

This time you saw him take out a second one- but it wasn't just two. He had a whole row of condoms in his pocket this entire time.

You giggled at how he tore the second one off. What could he have possibly been thinking to bring seven along?

Bokuto harnessed some pornstar-like efficiency, tearing the outside open and pumping the latex onto himself with no waste of energy.

"Y'know," He cocked his head to the side, silly, despite his thumb sliding over your clit, "I've never cum that fast."

"Mmn-h-- Ah- that's- that's good--," You struggled.

A useful thing to know, sure, but it's not like you really cared- he never got soft. It was a non-issue because he was still clearly up for more.

He filled you back up so easy and slow, his thumb prodding stuttery waves of pleasure where there was once pain. He watched it with an air of pride about him. He sat up straighter, focused on where he disappeared into you. He soaked in all your twitching until he got his fill.

Only when he was satisfied did he lean down to his elbows to check on you.

Your had to fill your hands with his perfect muscles, all bouncy and twitchy at how overstimulated you got him. He was huffing, swallowing his groans so he didn't look uncool-- restrained or not, he would've looked just as cute.

He just wanted to fuck you good. For you to remember it well.

"Mmnh-! You're so big-,"

Those giant, fuck-me-harder eyes kept his shoulders tight. His hand was gripping your hip like a vice and bringing you down onto him.

His cock sank deep, a grumbly sound under his quiet, breathy whining-- your breath caught, and you had the brief revelation that you had been missing out on this for so long. How long had they been friends for? Years?

You wanted to make up for all the lost time. You locked your ankles around him for the second time, your hands pulling him back so you could put some hickeys all up and down his thick neck.

Though you had some vague idea that he loved when you hugged him close, you didn't understand the depth in which it turned him on.

It was one of those quick-affirming, sweet and wordless praises that resonated so hard with Bokuto's insatiable need to be validated.

He had to ask. He wanted more, he wanted to hear you.

"That feel good?" His hand cupped your entire jaw, forcing your eyes on his, ever so focused.

Your grip on his forearm was like an ant trying to push over a tree. It would never budge. And when it didn't, it took very little time to realize you actually liked it there. Your reflex did nothing to serve you, but you kept your hand still to prod at the muscle.

The breath you took to answer him was wasted on another moan.

"Ah-h--,"

"I want ya to tell me," His insistence was daunting, but filled with need.

"I--,"

Your nails were digging into his skin, and you were gasping, trying to tell him you were close- but none of it came out properly.

It was all just improper, uncontrollable, unmasked whining.

A bit late, he was witness to your adorable realization that you were cumming. He murmured a small, infatuated, "Aww..."

His lips pressed hard to your temple, and he let you pull him in, offering only the bulk of his shoulder as consolation for his deeper thrusts. It was a taste of what he could give you if only this wasn't your first, if you had been used to him from the start.

An orgasm had never felt so filled out, before. Like it was larger than you, stronger than anything you'd be able to craft on your own, from just your fingers. It was him. His cock, but moreso was his intensity and devotion to getting you there and fucking you all the way through it.

His hand was still cupping the bottom half of your face, but not covering your mouth. God, he wanted the entire world to know how good he made you feel. Especially Kuroo. Fuck that guy for keeping you a secret.

"Good girl, ohh- you did so good," He was slowing, still seeing those last, shallower, mellow waves through with dedication, "Sound sooo pretty."

Those eyes were softer, but still eating you up, savoring you while you were all messy for him.

Were you dating, now? It felt like you had been shot forward about ten years with this guy.

A light buzzing -the muted ring of a phone- was somewhere near you, interrupting your giggly, feel-good vibe. Again, and still just as surprising, Bokuto slowly pulled out of you and made quick work of that second condom.

He patted around the sheets for the source of the sound.

"Oh!"

He let the ringing continue- he had to get his idea out immediately: "That totally reminds me! I should get you a vibrator or something."

Jaw slack, you weren't given the opportunity to respond, before he answered. You lay there, a bit shivery and empty-feeling, as he hugged your thigh over his own.

"Hellooo?"

It was quiet. There was a faint, urgent, tone on the other side.

"Ummmm..."

His fingers tapped against your skin. He was lost in deep thought of how to respond. You were glad you couldn't hear the words being spoken, because you knew it was not going to be a pleasant earful.

"Yeah-... I mean, we were just talking... and... stuff."

Bokuto got droopier. He sank, sitting on his heels, still sitting butt-naked and hugging your thigh. You squeezed one of your blankets to your chest and frowned.

"It's nothing personal, man..."

He held the phone away from his ear as he was verbally berated, a pout making his whole face look cartoonishly sad. It was difficult, on your end, to understand that he could both be super into you and want to stay friends with Tetsurou.

"Would it make it any better iiiif I told you we were dating now?"

Bokuto winced and slid his free hand back and forth over your leg as consolation, for himself.

"Yeahyeahyeah, I gotchu, yeahyeah. Okay'bye," He hung up at the soonest crafted opportunity.

"Soooo," He sighed, distraught, instantly making up any distance between you. He dropped so much weight atop your sore body and covered you like a warm, weighted blanket, that you struggled to get air in your lungs.

"He's... not... happy."

The big dummy on top of you deflated with each word in a dismal decrescendo.

You had to wriggle around to find somewhere to breath from; room for your chest to expand at least a little.

"I thought you knew that?"

Bokuto made a high humming sound, feet kicking in the air, "Mmmmmmyeahhh, kinda, but..."

You freed one arm to wrap around him, so you could play with his hair, "He can't stay mad forever. He'll see that you're not- harmful- I guess, eventually."

He let his brow relax, shoved hard into your shoulder, and took in your new comforting scent.

Part of you couldn't blame your brother for assuming the worst. It took until incredibly recently for you to understand the full scale of Bokuto's fixation.

Despite all his sad body language, he couldn't have been that worried, because he was already back to sly, tongue-centered kisses on your neck.

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[sauce-salad-bowl]

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this blog is basically just dedicated to my undertale fics. we serve sans x reader here, sir. i’m working on a big project now called promises on the reaping, but occasionally i do one shots :P

undertale was my fixation in 2015 and ten whole years later i’m back to it. and now im determined to make up for all the fanfiction i was too afraid to write when i was 11 lol

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[pumpkinsy0]

hcs of the gang realizing tarry had a fight ( a bad one)

just read a mini fic on this on ao3 and i need your amazing mind to feed me more pls

im feeding u w my hand is that ok

•the gang could just tell something happened to darry bc his voice is raspy, hes not sick and nothing exciting happened for him TO b yelling, so they alr know darry was in an argument. believe it or not darry rarely yells, the gang wouldnt know what it was about, but they know it had to b getting to darry

•tim on the other hand, also acts like darry (VERY slightly, but theres a difference u cant ignore). im not saying he wears his heart on his sleeve now, but he becomes less of a leader/dictator, more of a chaperone, just watching over the gang. he taught his gang how to act, they should no what to do, so unless someone is dying count him out bc hes just so tired of everything rn. if u have a problem take it up w his second in command, hes outta commission!!!

•darrys a guy who likes to put his 100% in everything he does but lately hes been doin the bare minimum in everything he does at home and hes more cut n dry. when its his turn to cook, w all due respect his food SUCKS, hes rough without meaning to be (physically, not so much verbally) and hes less tolerant of everyone. hes not MAD per say, just annoyed, “suck his teeth and tells the gang to get it together” type upset, ironicallyyyy acts like tim!!!

•IS the curtis gang an actual gang??? nope, but they still have their own turf and tim would respect that normally, take his business some place else, in this instance however☝🏽☝🏽☝🏽i could see tim not respecting that and breaching that to do his own deals. is he doing it to show off to darry that hes better??? is he doing that to just show disrespect and get attention??? i was gonna say u decide but no its most certainly that last one, while hes a good leader, tim can get sloppy when its something personal affecting him, he wants darry to not ignore him

•theres a day and specific time of the week where darry goes out to bucks bar (less to drink more to just hand w tim) and darrys been finding any excuse he can to NOT go, if tim calls darry just tells the gang to say hes busy. he says he doesnt have to unwind by seeing him but the gang knows that rlly was his way of calming down for the week and darrys not doin so well rn

•when something goes wrong in tims life he uses it as a lesson to teach curly “dont let ur personal life get into anything else, save urself, nobody outside family will have ur back”, without fail he will say something along those lines, and each time curly wishes the whole thing would wrap up already, wtf this gotta do w me man

•see now its not ridiculous to say that darry would think about pony and curly and think how everything is simpler for them and wish how that was him and tim, its NOT ridiculous to say that at all, theyre more free than him and tim will ever b, together AND individually, so i just think that gets to darry sometimes, we can let darry b a lil jealous that should b allowed

•tim already sneaks into the house and no matter what darry lets anyone who needs help inside, soda and pony dont MEAANNNN to eaves drop, but when u wake up in the middle of the night to rushed hushed voices, ur gonna hear what those mfs r saying no matter what

•darry has no problem ranting to soda about whats going on, sodas had to grow up fast like he has, hes in the same boat hes on situation wise, plus soda just got that #comfortingaura, so NATURALLY the gang tells soda to help darry out, sooth him, find out whats goin on, but darry wont budge even when sodas putting his heart and soul into his massage💔theres a lot of problems darry has and doesnt lay out for the gang to figure out, the biggest and oldest one is his love life, tim and darry hide it well but the gang isnt FULLY stupid now, they see what they have going on, and when darry gets super defensive when u ask him whats up instead of just going “its nothing”, they can bet its bc of that

[sankttealeaf]

Oomf I'm busy catching up on ur fic and you've done 265k words which is roughly 700 pgs if physically published. How does that make u feel?

anon... i think about this fact daily.

i own crime and punishment by fyodor dostoevsky. ive held that book in my hands. ive seen how big that book is. ive read like. a handful of pages.

let sleeping dogs lie is longer than that.

early on when writing i had a cute idea of learning how to book-bind to make myself a physical copy of it and now i cant do it. thats so long. i'd need to split it into two parts. or three. or by chapter.

ive been writing this fic for a year this month and i still can't believe durgetash of all things has made me write a book LONGER than crime and punishment.

it's a treat for you guys who want a long fic to settle into but i can't comprehend that this is something i've done (and i do really enjoy reading comments of people who binge read the fic in a few days. shoutout to my friend who said she was going to wait for me to finish the fic and then decided to read the fic in smth like 2 days?? 3 days?? youre insane for that)

i didnt plan for it to get so long!!! im incapable of writing a short and sweet story!! it blows my mind every time i see the word count grow!! i edit! i cut things out! there's scenes that had to be scrapped because i said to myself "this is getting too long" it makes me go aaaaaaaaaa!!

it's looking like we may hit just under 300k words when it's properly finished. i need to go bury myself under some dirt for a year

also in the early days i was writing 10k words A WEEK!!! i had a weekly-ish upload schedule!!!!! what's wrong with me!!!! now im taking my time to make sure i dont burn out but oh my god. past me you are mad.

thank you anyone who's ever looked at my fic on the ao3 tag for durgetash and has gone "wow. that author is out of their mind" because you are RIGHT!

and also big thank you to anyone who's reading or is caught up with the fic. i owe you my life actually. its a labour of love and the fact that anyone went "lets read a book" means the world to me <3<3

[awrkive]

hi dee! this is gonna be such a long message and i hope u read the entirety when you got time ♥️ english is not my first language so im sorry if this is not exactly cohesive.

ive been reading ffs since since 2017 and i really feel u came right out of the 2017-2020 era of bts x reader fanfic community bcs the way u write makes me reminisce about those times. idk if this is just me being picky, but i feel like fics nowadays are focusing too much on the smutty parts instead of actually building a world around their characters. and i dont usually mind smut or pwp fics, i enjoy them time to time. but the problem with it is that it's honestly all i ever see now, esp with jungkook fics.

it feels like no one really wants to write a proper fanfic anymore? some of my fave x reader authors before here are gukyi, vankoya, btsmeetsweevil, kpopfanfictrash, fortunexkookie, prolixitae and many more that i cant really name anymore – all of which have deactivated or inactive now – and one thing about them was that as much as they wrote smut, there was actually more to their stories.

and that is honestly what i feel about your writing. its so simple but so profound in a way? like its so easily digestible but the simplicity of it does not exactly equate to plainness? i feel like the trend of writing pwp is to gain more traction (which was also a trend back then, but not to the point of overpowering) but i love that you dont exactly succumb to that and instead take time to build the world of ur characters in such a way that makes me feel so connected to them.

i just LOVEE how u create these backstory for ur main leads. like with nb, we are witnessing two strangers getting along with each other slowly but surely, and with tlp, we are witnessing two best friends navigating a crucial point in their lives relating to romance between them. and the YEARNING, the LONGING, and just the TENSION that you make me feel with those? its just so incredibly insane. the giddiness of it all – you dont get that from fics who just go straight right into sex.

and i know its just fanfiction and its not supposed to be that deep, but tbh fanfic is just as much of a form of art as other "published books" – esp when theyre written so well like yours.

i apologize if this is coming off as a rant at this point. i think im just frustrated with the lack of creativity im seeing nowadays with bts fanfics all over tumblr thru ao3, and ig im just frustrated that i cant bring back the golden era of 2017-2019 (or 2020 if u will) anymore for fanfics. but thank you so much for reviving that feeling for me♥️ i also know youre busy with college and all that, and im really really greatful you lend time to share ur writing with us all for free ♥️ i really adore your talent!! i hope u write for a long time ♥️♥️

- 🌱

this has been sitting on my inbox for the past three days and ive honestly just been rereading and rereading this over and over again because im so incredibly touched?

i agree that 2017-2020 was the best era for x reader bts ff esp 2018. writers were really putting in the work, and i just love how you mentioned all those lovely people. miss guyi (gukyi), miss ivory (vankoya), and miss lu (prolixitae) were some of my favorite blogs here EVER and they wrote some of the best fanfics in my life that i still read over and over again up to this time. they were literally a few of my inspo to also write fanfic on my own – and im so glad u think that my writing can make u feel like the way u do when u read theirs, bcs that means a whole lot to me!!

the bts fanfic community has truly changed for the past few years. prob cos the fandom has grown bigger overtime and things will just never be the same as they were before. its a huge factor that the great ff writers before are busy with their adult lives now and even if i myself am not really that much into reading ffs anymore these days, i still believe we'll pick up being better on the oncoming years!!

and lastly ur english is great and thank you so Freaking MUCH for sending this in. i truly am so moved and touched by this message 🥹 i hope u are having a great day wherever u are 🌱 anon!!

[jungkoode]

ok my last one for today bc i feel like this must bother you bc ur so busy but since u updated 25h i HAD to say this.

kiki i am so in love with the way you write! i've said it before but in all seriousness what you do is breathtakingly astounding.

i noticed something, in all of your fics, theres NEVER filler. theres never pointless dialogue made to make the chapter longer for a word count to be met. EVERY. SINGLE. SENTENCE. is beyond relevant. Theres double meanings everywhere waiting to be unfolded. Every sentence can be dissected and analyzed deeper to reveal something that makes the characters more human.

This is what i believe makes your fics SO ADDICTING to the point where i find myself refreshing your page once a day seeing if theres any updates. YOUR CHARACTERS FEEL AUTHENTIC. they're not just shells of people you put two thoughts in and write about. they're people that i can tell you stay up thinking about. they're people that could very well exist in real life and you could 100% have a full on conversation with.

do you know how insane that is? how absolutely fucking impressive? i think you do--you must--because its so in your face how you but all of your blood, sweat, and tears (queue jimin) into every single chapter.

for exampleeeee! 25H10 had barely any interaction between y/n and yoongi. in the last couple chapters, the whole thing has been them together. usually, (if i was reading any other writer) i would probably skip until the characters engage again, because lets face it, were all here for the romance. However, when reading your fics, the thought of skipping even a single line of dialogue was off the table for me. Like you said, the scene with jungkook, tae and yoongi was ANYTHING but filler. so much information came from that interaction alone. The interaction between hoseok, jimin and y/n also proves to be essential, and though yoongi is talked about, we only see dialogue through him in text messages.

My point here is that even in scenes where yoongi and y/n dont interact, the fic is entretaining. you find yourself not wanting to skip no matter whats happening, because every word draws you in. there isnt a boring chapter in any of your literary concoctions.

In ASW, we haven't seen many one on one interactions with y/n and tae. in fact, we haven't even had tae talk to her directly yet apart from basic cashier talk (if i'm not mistaken). Most of the fic has been spent establishing the characters and their day to day lives. these parts are usually the most boring for me while reading, but they're not in your fics. every single word still encapsulates you little by little, staying in your mind.

i think this also draws into the realness aspect of your writing. every character has a life. you make a point to show the deep intricacies of your characters, in how they speak, how the carry themselves, what they do, everything has meaning, and the meaning all relates back to a person. a person people are drawn to, feel seen by, connect with. its all very inspiring. anyways.. ill leave you alone now hehehe

is it super obvious youre such a role model for me, writing-wise? hope not 😖

maybe one day when i am half as talented and creative as you, ill make my own fic.

FIRS ROF ALL—NO THIS DOESN’T BOTHER ME AT ALL??? DO YOU KNOWWWWW how thankful we authors are when we get long messages like these and deep dives??? It’s the biggest honor. Please never ever ever feel discouraged from sending these type of messages. It genuinely makes my day! I smiled all the way throughout reading this like a fool with a silly little grin on my face.

I personally get a huge amount of messages, not only on Tumblr, but also Wattpad and AO3 because my genius goblin brain decided one social media wasn’t enough—I had to manage THREE. So as a one-person army handling all of this, it gets very overwhelming to reply to everything, but I promise you I try my hardest. And if I don’t? I promise I always read your messages!!! I’ve been meaning to find some time to sit down and respond to this because I know it took so much effort and you poured your entire heart into it and I didn’t want to half-ass a reply to something so thoughtful—that’s the only reason I haven’t answered earlier!!

Now to the meat of it—OH MY GODDDDD. Mya. MYA. I don’t think you realize how much this means to me because you picked up on one of the things I care about the most in writing—narrative economy. I hate filler. I don’t believe in filler. If a scene exists, it has to do something. Even if it’s quiet. Even if there’s no romance. Even if it’s just someone making toast—what’s the toast telling us about them?? What’s their mood, what’s their coping, what’s their behavioral pattern?? If I include a sentence, it has a reason to be there. And when readers like you notice it?? When you pick up on the double meanings, the narrative layering, the emotional complexity—I CRY. I SOB. I STARE AT THE CEILING AND KICK MY FEET.

And you’re SO right—Chapter 10 of 25H barely has Yoongi-Noma interaction but it’s still heavy as hell because it had to be. That confrontation scene between Jungkook, Taehyung and Yoongi? It had to breathe. I needed the space to show you what it means to have informational disparity inside a resistance group. What it means to be inexperienced. What it means to have a modded brain that literally can’t register danger the way others do. And the Jimin-Hoseok scene? Necessary. We can’t info-dump who they are, because of Noma’s brain situation. So we weave the lore in gently. Organically. Like a real world. It matters to me that these characters feel like people with histories and quirks and trauma patterns and subtextual dynamics you can feel, even if they’re not explicitly stated yet.

The fact that you saw all of that? That you saw what I was trying to do? That you found engagement and addiction even in scenes where your favorite ship wasn’t front and center??? That’s the highest praise. That’s what I want. That’s what I’m always striving for—storytelling that’s rich and dimensional and gripping in every angle. Not just when people are kissing.

And the way you tied that in with ASW too??? That observation about Taehyung not even speaking much to Y/N yet but still having a gravitational pull because of how the atmosphere and psychological tension has been constructed???? DON’T TOUCH ME I’M CRYING.

Also—don’t you dare say “maybe one day.” If you feel this deeply about character, pacing, and narrative meaning, then you already have the foundation. You can make your own fic. And when you do, Kiki Nation will be seated. I believe in you so much, it’s embarrassing.

Thank you. Truly. For this message. For caring. For noticing the details. For being present as a reader. It means the world. 🫂🥹

[lovckett]

hey so like I read like majority of ur fics or literally just the dpax ones and sorry for like uh any grammar mistakes, I'm js going w it, ok anywayss back to what I'm tryna say, I really really reallyyyy love the way you give each and every character their own personalities like compardd to other fics based on my opinion the author doesn't really mind on small details at all well im kinda into looking at the words used and how they described a character/in the characters point of view/dialogue etc. etc. if u get me but basically yeah. Personal fav is ur HS au recently and oh my gulay I love everything like 1st chapter and I'm already invested I hope you don't get the ao3 writers curse like omg my majesty pls no 🙏🙏😭😭 ok back on track i noticed that Orion pax secretly loves literature nd like bc of prima oh my gosh I love their dynamic I hope we get to see more of them both interacting, yet orion is in a Sports major well personallly I think uh D-16 & Orion should switch like I agree what u said, I think yeah I saw it on ur Tweet something abt d-16 being jealous of Orion being able to socialize easily more than him and orion to d-16 bc he's stronger??... Well uhh im not really sure but that's what I recall. And also! Thank you for making Orion like an actual student aide but still giving him his typical personality of talking a LOT and maybe a bit too fast and awkward as usual + being responsible even if he prolly gets in trouble himself.. err and im also really glad sentinel fake prime isnt the principal cuz ugh ima crash out and uh yea idk how to put the rest I want to say in words I think I could express these er comments better. Also(sorry for the handful of also's) I love ur other fic w the timeloops thingy I'm js a sucker for highschool aus. That's it for now baiiii!! Pls ignore this ask that isn't really an ask

OH MY GULAY FILIPINO KA BA RIN ?! ALSO IM SO SORRY FOR THE LATE RESPONSE IVE BEEN BUSY WITH SCHOOL

i'm so glad people have been generally liking my characterization of everyone !!! it just might be because i feel like i can relate to the way they'd react to things , but if it is , then score one for me bwahaha .and i've not gone through any sort of ao3-curse entailing experience yet , fortunately !!

YEAH !! YES ! YES EXACTLY THAT !!! it'll all be resolved eventually i swear !!! there wasn't much thought in me putting orion as a sports major other than that i thought it fit , but then i got the idea that maybe he'd only choose it because he also thought it fit him . MY APOLOGIES IM RAMBLING . anyway d-16 himself isn't too interested in sports ( he's interested in being a . er . HM . FORGOT WHAT I SAID . guard i think . ) but in my drafts he eventually switches over to somethin else . dunno what that is yet but it'll probably be something he better connects to 🙏

ORION IS IUST LIKE ME . it's why so many of my fics are just with him as the main pov . anytime tfo!orion fumbles it's really just me puppeting his character like a barbie doll .

sentinel may not be the principal but he will make a comeback ! haha ! smiles .

thank you again and again !! i love asks and not-asks i love chatter in general i hope you say sumthin again because it was a very enjoyable read 🫶

[pitch-pearl-void]

Hi, Hey, Hello!! Couple of questions here,

1. What was Phantom wearing in 'A Little Taste'? (This is for fanart purposes. Was it his suit? A modified version of his suit? Casual clothing?)

2. Would u like to see the sketch ver of the fanart? idk when i'll finish it (or if it will even be done this century) but if it gets done, it'll probably b posted on ao3 - Which leads to the final question,

3. Would u mind if I gifted the fanart to u on ao3??

Thank u in advance, love ur prose(lovely, well-balanced blend of characters' thought and action!!) and have a nice day~

Oh. My gosh................

YES

YES OF COURSE

All the above!

Wait no no I can't just squirrel about, answer time!

1. He was wearing ratty, casual clothing because my poor boy is homeless. Perfect target for the GiW. Unlike Sam who comes from a wealthy vampire family, or Vlad who has been running a business empire for centuries, Phantom was a runaway when he was turned. His resources are limited, consisting of mainly shelters and the occasional theft.

(If I were to give this AU more attention, part of the plot would include him developing a father/son relationship with Mr. Lancer over time, but that's a whole separate thing xD)

2. I LOVE SKETCHES

I have a friend on discord who mostly shares sketches because adhd won't let them finish projects, and trust me, I EAT THAT SHIT UP

3) Mind? Mind?? Who would mind that?! I'd love an ao3 gift! Fanart of a fic is such a high compliment oh my god gdjjfnfjc

(And now that I'm out of questions to answer I'm reduced to being shy and flustered again hdidjjff thank you so much for the compliments at the end! I'm just bjjfkfkfkc)

[encodedkismet]

idk if ur comfy with this kind of ask so ignore it if u want, but r u proship or proship neutral? i dont care im just not comfy following some1 who is. if u r ill just block and move on :3

i'm kind of starting to really hate the discourse so i moreso identify as pro-"live and let live". i'm not gonna get all up in someone's business if they're squicked out or triggered by fictional content, or if they wish some fiction didn't exist, as long as they don't get up in mine or anyone else's business. no exceptions. i'm anti-harassment. pro-Ao3. pro-"treat others how you wish to be treated". pro-"focus on real life".

i've known too many proship people to kick me down just because i don't give a damn what someone thinks of fic as long as they don't harass people, for me to want to align with "proship" anymore. i'm not an anti either, i think that Ao3 having its tagging system is sufficient and people should just filter out what they don't like instead of going on moral crusades that ultimately mean nothing and just hurt people who were just minding their business in their own little corner of the net. most people are just... normal ass people with preferences, and their side in discourse doesn't make them a good or bad person, their actions do.

i cannot emphasize enough that i do not care what strangers on the internet think of my preferences in fiction. they should not care what i think of theirs either. simple as that. that's the healthy way to do it i think

i remember when the proship stance was literally just "it's not my business what other people do in their free time". now a lot of the proship mindset seems to be "if people don't totally agree with me then they're probably going to hurt me oh no oh god i have to bite back first to stay safe and comfortable" which is basically what the anti mindset is, minus the moral stances. there's a lot of demonization in proship spaces of normal ass calm ass kind people who just align with "anti" because they hate underage or incest ships, but don't harass anyone. i don't see "i don't like underage fic or incest fic" to be an extreme stance man. it's a massively common trigger/squick.

tl;dr the discourse is stupid as hell, i'm not "proship" or "antiship" anymore, i am "adult with a job"

[huckleberr1es]

no because what i dont understand is why people on ao3 intentionally seek out triggers/dark fics/dead dove, knowing full well that they dont like that type of content, just to leave mean comments? like its literally free to mind your business

and ao3 LITERALLY has a system for filtering tags/fics you dont want to see???? why not... utilize it? curate ur experience? i love me a good dark fic/dead dove but i also have my Squicks and u know what i do... i exclude tags in my search

idk i just think some people are addicted to drama and literally just need to mind their business 😭 "oh no this triggered me!!!" filter the fucking tags then and stop engaging in this weirdo form of self harm just to start shit??? and if someone didnt tag their fic properly tell them????? and if they dont listen??? BLOCK/MUTE THEM????? HELLO?

[prettyboykatsuki-moved]

okay ik w/e u put ur mind to write always slaps and so i say write the thing if u want. but posting it with such an active media team and such a small pool of preexisting work can attract attention to ur space here and i dont want tht scrutiny snd smoke for u bc ppl dont know how to fucking act on this platform sometimes. especially if they have the push of a well sanitised media team/pr team behind them 🙄🖕🏾😒 i hate censorship smh.

hmm maybe write it for urself and share w/ ur trusted moots? ooh but if u rlly wanna publish it then write it but make it an ao3 exclusive that way u can take advantage of the ‘orphan your work’ feature so theres no blowback to ur account(s) thats the closest win i can think of.

im thinking this as well 😭 i love contributing fanwork but we do not live in era where people can mind their business. the podcast team itself is really small and the fandom even smaller so given my presence i dont think its worth risking 🫡 i do not particularly enjoy going anonymous on fics but im too weird on here LMFOSFJNG

like itd be one thing if they had no chance of seeing but the team actively encourages like fic writing and fan contribution so its SOOO risky LMAO

but im a simple man so i would like to write it anyway for the three people that also want that weird crackship 2 sail 💔😔

[imaginethathaikyuu]

no actually i think i will write a stardew valley au

[jrueships]

..... the art kinda gagged me im ngl... i was bracing myself for like... purposefully silly or accidental..... not. not this. Mona lisa

Today I saw art of Jarred Vanderbilt getting fucked by D’Lo on ao3 so that was fun

IF YOUDU DONT TLINK THAT SHJIT RN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[grittyreadsfic]

today is an important day-it is nico hischier's birthday. in honor of that, here's a rec list of some top tier nico fics!

collision course by greenteam : i have said it once and I will say it again, but greenteam always puts out some of my favorite aus, and this jack/nico fic is no exception

fire and flood by pretty_vacant: the devils ferda omegaverse is actually something that can be so personally. i have read this many times, and it always slaps

i want your belly (and that summer feeling) by clementiae: ngl this nico/bratter fic is just like. next level good. nothing will beat the high of reading this for the first time

this is where we both break free by overturnedgoal: obsessed with how they write nico/jack and also y'all know i love to read fics about trans joy

blood and oil by wilderhockey: exquisite concept (cyborgs! dystopia!) and also just as exquisite dynamic and banter between jack and nico. one of my favorite nico characterizations

lionheart by aliquis: prince nico/bodyguard jonas is actually the most apt depiction of them ever. I am, in fact, fully obsessed with this. 100000/10

i knew him well by adjacently: love is stored in the kitchen and also in getting into fwb situations with a healthy does of pining. my best friend's brother by victoria justice etc etc

take my hand, wreck my plan by passengers: absolute top tier nico/nolan fic right here (to no one's surprise, since it is ao3 user passengers). there is fake dating and nico is a teacher, what else could you need?

never bet the devil your head by philtatoi: as a noted lover of all of philtatoi's work, i do really love their devils fics most of all. this one has pining AND supernatural elements-truly has it all

kiss me on the mouth (and set me free) by coastalhighway: the vibes of this jack/nico fic are absolutely incredible, and it has some of my favorite world building. spectacular!!!

take the wheel by greenteam: if u see me reccing a second greenteam fic pls mind ur business!! this jacknico street racer au is, in fact, perfection! if i could lovingly kiss this fic on the forehead i would!

(self rec disclaimer but my jack/nico college au will always be one of my favorite things i've written)

[miragecoded]

really it's a minor felony that i chose quarantine to get real mushy & think hard about marriage