#∿ cigarettesuga ⠀⠀⬬⠀⠀rambles .ᐟ

[cigarettesuga]

thnx to @starbyz97 on tiktok i cannot stop thinking abt how attracted i am to annoyed koo. don't mind me if i write like 20 different scenarios abt this pls

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updates are coming 𖹭

i’m working on finishing a namjoon one-shot—i think i’m about 75% done. still deciding whether to leave it a little open-ended (bc yearning is kind of my thing) or find a way to land it somewhere realistic but still satisfying—for both the reader and joon.

so yeah, text me when you're lonely is coming soon. probably tuesday (maybe monday, depending on how this decision spiral goes haha). in the meantime, i’ll be posting some reactions + headcanons that have been collecting dust in my archive.

sorry in advance to everyone on my taglist who’s about to get spammed with notifications 💀

as for opposites don’t attract, they destroy — chapter 3’s gonna wait a little longer. it’s heavy. full of angst, confusion, and new beginnings that don’t quite feel like moving on.

thanks for reading,

lu 𖹭

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so i've been working on a 3+ part series of college au fuckboy!jimin. lots of longing, assuming but never actually talking abt feelings, lots of filthy smut, and perhaps a love triangle happening at some point (at least that's what i was going for)

the thing is idk if i like the way it's turning out... i might drop a teaser or draft. kinda scare it's not gonna do well lol

anyway, thank you for 100 followers! woohoo 𖹭

- quietly always, cigarettesuga.

[cigarettesuga]

okey chapter 2 of opposites don't attract is coming (about damn time !!), there will be 5 chapters + 2 bonus ones so stay tuned and I really appreciate the feedback

it should be up by sunday but i'll see if I can give you guys something else tomorrow :)

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ok so. mini ramble i guess??

i’ve been thinking a lot about opposites don’t attract and where i’m at with it, and truthfully... i think i just need to take a step back for now. not dropping it, not abandoning it, but like… she’s going in a lil drawer for a bit so i can focus on other things.

and it’s not even about being mad or dramatic, it’s just... kinda discouraging when you pour so much into something — like all these layered dynamics, and all this emotional mess, and it’s deliberate — and still feel like people aren’t really clicking with it. or worse, like they’re expecting something else entirely. and that’s valid too!! but i guess it stings when your writing’s always been about the complicated stuff. the hard love. the not quite ready to admit it but dying inside anyway kind of relationships.

and honestly? this isn’t new. i've kinda been feeling this since chapter 2. part of why chapter 3 took so long to come out even though i literally have the whole thing planned already (like i had chapter 4 outlined before chapter 1 was even finished lmao). but i’m a certified overthinker™ and i got bpd sooooooo everything becomes a spiral eventually 😭

plus, like—if you’ve been around since the way he loves her (aka my first posted fic ever) you already know this is what i do. i’ve always gravitated toward stories that are emotionally intense but flawed, not easy but worth the fight. the kind of love that’s messy, yes, but real. people figuring it out as they go, making dumb decisions and still trying. not perfect love. just willing love.

this fic was always meant to be slow and emotionally messy. jimin and (y/n) are both insufferable in their own ways (i made them that way lmao), but they’re also scared and prideful and figuring it out in real time. that was the whole point. and i know not everyone’s gonna be into that. i knew it. but idk — doesn’t mean it doesn’t hit a little when it feels like the engagement’s just... eh.

so yeah. maybe i just need a breather from it for a bit. shift focus, recharge, let the characters simmer without resentment creeping in. i love this story, i do. it’s very me. but rn? maybe i’ll write something else. or maybe i’ll just rot and listen to sad music idk lmao

anyway. thanks if you’ve been reading. thanks if you see what i’m trying to do. i’ll circle back when it feels right again. 💭

[cigarettesuga]

I loved it , opposite don't attract but I want to strangle the oc so bad what is stopping her if she wants him why would she give in with another if she doesn't want him sorry I just blurt out but that was I felt likewise I loved it ❤️❤️ it was good

nooo please blurt out all you want 😭 i love hearing your thoughts, even the “i want to strangle her” ones because honestly?? same. i wanna shake OC by the shoulders and yell “BABE WAKE UP” and i’m the one who created her 😭

like I get it this fic is not going the traditional route or perhaps is not what people expected after reading part one and two... but the thing is I'm not really the type of author that strives only on the positive traits/endings.

i liveee for the yearning, the contradictions, the “i want you but i can’t admit it so i’ll do something even dumber instead” energy. that’s what makes them feel real to me. all my characters tend to be a little messy in different ways — it's kind of my signature style at this point lmao.

and this fic is just that—it’s messier, way more emotionally loaded, and full of characters making terrible decisions with their whole chest. but that’s exactly what i love writing: people who are complicated and flawed and kind of dumb when it comes to love lol. to me that's human.

but thank you so much for loving it regardless!! and as i mentioned in the comments, we’re not even done yet... we still have 2 more chapters + 2 bonus ones. it has to get bad before it gets better. 𖹭

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literally no one cares but i've been losing time editing this template for my tumblr page on desktop (that i genuinely think absolutely nobody uses) but it makes me happy how cute it's turning out i had to show it to the void lmao

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nobody asked but exes-to-lovers!joon is coming, can't wait to share it with you guys, i'm loving my break from college bc i can write more, don't wanna jix myself tho 💀

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i'm posting some reactions and scenarios i have on my drafts later today, just to fill out the space in between larger projects. hopefully you guys like them despite the fact they're short haha 𖹭