#║▌ ⧼ ⸢ ʚɞ ⸣︳h̲e̲a̲d̲c̲a̲n̲o̲n̲s̲. ⧽ ― LET’S PRETEND I AM A FICTIONAL CHARACTER.

[unladielike]

Of course, it's probably obvious by now, but Vivian is definitely not what I would call a girl's girl. Like, sure, if you're nice to her, she will be nice to you back, but there are some personality types or traits she absolutely can't stand in women or finds insufferable beyond belief, meaning things such as

vanity (Honestly, she will likely snap and tell you to shut up if you try to complain to her about your hot girl problems)

entitlement/lack of regard for other people

toxic femininity (think Shoko Inari from Princess Jellyfish)

male bashing/misandry (As much as she finds three dimensional men disappointing, she will still defend them to hell and back if she thinks they're unfairly being slandered... especially due to the fact most of her friends are men)

misogyny (therefore, trad wives or pick mes are likely to get on her nerves)

androcentrism (aka male centeredness) due to the fact she has been ditched by another woman for a man before

being a busy body (especially if one were to recommend she dress more girly or wear something more tailored to her figure)

will probably get her to hate you. Seriously, in the event she's unable to relate to another woman and finds her unpleasant, I could see her being extremely callous towards her. Granted, Vivian isn't unreasonable, so if you demonstrate you're not entirely unjust, she may ultimately conclude you're maybe not all that bad after all, but women who are self-centered and use their sexuality to get ahead will likely not be the recipient of her kindness.

Mind you, Vivian is the sort of person who would want to throw rocks at happy couples, so while I wouldn't say she's misogynistic, she does hate those who have a love life as well as certain kinds of women. Honestly, I could see her pulling the, 'Even if you were a man, I would still hate you', shtick because her dislike of normies and those with 'pretty privilege' also extends towards both men and women, meaning she would hate both men and women equally provided they possess qualities she happens to despise.

Of course, she won't necessarily put them down for male validation or anything cringe worthy like that, but she will make it clear they will never be friends and will very bluntly state she finds them annoying. I mean, if nothing else, Vivian would at least be less meaner than Hayate who would literally tell one to kill herself, yet given how she also isn't the type to mince words in the event she happens to dislike a woman, I could see one being angry enough to actually slap her.

Though, for what it's worth, I could also see other women finding her annoying as well due to the fact she's such a goodie two shoes. Seriously, Vivian would help an old lady across the street and would even take time out of her day to clean up after people who litter, to the point where she's relatively well-liked by the community wherever she goes.

[unladielike]

Is Vivian meant to be attractive? Well, based on these pictures of how I envision her to look on a day to day basis, she can appear cute one moment and then come across as a major slob the next, but once she loses the glasses, her feminine features proceed to stand out more, yet the general consensus is that she's... well, a tomboy, for lack of a better term.

Like, yes, she is vaguely girlish looking, but her clothes are very unisex, so it ends up obscuring her feminine form, meaning as a result, she fails to pander to the male gaze, making her have a more... dweeby gremlin presentation. Why, on one hand, you couldn't realistically mistake her for a youthful man (unless she cuts her hair short), yet on the other hand, you do not get the sense she's your stereotypical girly girl either... and the back of her hair is always such a mess, most would not get the impression she even brushes it.

Plus, figure wise, she has an average chest and a bubble butt, with the latter usually getting obscured by her baggy pants or the jacket tied around her waist; therefore, it isn't often she's viewed from a sexual lens, just because it probably feels sinful to view a good Christian girl in a non-PG 13 manner and Vivian herself acts very prudish in order to save face/gain acceptance from the general populace.

To that end, whether or not people find her attractive is pretty much based on what happens to be their type. Truly, in the event someone finds tomboys who are the tiniest bit skrunkly appealing, then yes, chances are high they would probably be into her. Vivian, however, isn't what I would call the most popular girl at school, so while she's well liked and probably has secret admirers of her own she's oblivious to due to the fact she's nice, she's not the sort of person who would have a fanclub dedicated to her, which ultimately has her convinced she's ugly.

Unbeknownst to her, on the other hand, the general consensus is that Vivian's either a lesbian or someone unattainable (due her fixation with 2D anime boys), meaning the reason her love life is practically non-existent by natural default is due to everyone assuming she's not interested.

[unladielike]

Conversations/things Kai ( @gloryundimmed ) has probably overheard Vivian having/saying because she struggles to talk using an inside voice:

"I can't believe I'm pregnant again! Must be something in the air." "Yeah, it's probably your legs."

"You're too young to be tired!" "Welp, you're too old to be alive, Margaret, but here you are, existing in my general vicinity."

"Bitch, I'll put a 'fragile flower' on your gravestone if you dare call me that again."

"Oh, don't mention it. For you, I'll even pluck out all the stars in the sky!" ( Probably to some sweet girl who called her a hero or something, I dunno )

"Oh no... there are no seats available." "Not to worry! I can emulate a chair. Now, come... sit on my lap!"

"See, what did I tell you? Team work really does make the dream work!"

"I have no idea why the pope is so against crossdressing when he happens to wear a cross and a dress himself."

"Be like me... don't do drugs, party, or have sex, and you'll end up becoming an upstanding member of society!"

"Okay, who do I have to beat up?" ( To a girl who's crying )

"People call me uptight and no fun, but at least I'm not the one ending up pregnant at 16 or needing my parents to bail me out of jail."

"God, they're heathens... the whole lot of them!"

"Hey, don't you point those vampire hands at me! I'm innocent, I tell you... innocent!" ( To someone wearing red nail polish )

"They should really invent a loneliness I don't have to bear."

"Why have a boyfriend when you can date 2D men who aren't misogynistic creeps?"

"Ahhh, my dear, sweet otome games... they could never make me hate you."

"Listen... if a guy has black spiky hair, golden eyes, and a shit eating grin, I implore you to run in the other direction."

"Ugh, do people these days not have a single ounce of self restraint? I mean, hello? There are children here! Are you truly that horny, you can't bring yourself to keep it in your pants for five minutes or heaven forbid, until you get back home?"

"I honestly never know what guys mean when they say they want a 'submissive wife'. Like, do they just want a bottom or do they want someone who would be all, 'Yes, husband!' every time they ask for something? And if it's the latter, how come nine times out of ten, they always end up falling in love with the free, independent women... and never the subservient one?"

[unladielike]

what would vivian be like if she went to an aquarium with kai?

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"Hey, Kai, I have a special assignment for you. Steal one of these little guys for me." ( At the penguin exhibit )

"You know... as a kid, I used to have nightmares where I would be taking a nap with my legs dangling off the pier and one of these would just come swimming by, biting off my poor feet." ( At the piranha tank )

"Kai, look! Apparently, this fish is called a 'slippery dick'. Heh... now that I proceed to have a closer glimpse, it kinda has your face."

"Did you know jellyfish can taste pretty good if you marinate it with soy sauce, rice vinegar, sesame oil, sugar, and chili peppers? Oh, and of course, it's a dish best served cold. God, I sure miss eating at Chinese seafood restaurants... okay, maybe not so much my relatives, 'cause they always suck and feel a need to body shame me for whatever reason, but the jellyfish salad was honestly fire. Why, I'd even dare say it's easily my favourite appetizer there, hands down." ( At the jellyfish tank )

"Aww, they're so cute!" ( About the sea otters and sea lions )

"Don't you think most salmon species happen to lead such boring lives? Like, they only get to reproduce once during their entire lifespan and will immediately die after laying eggs. Meanwhile, we as humans are allowed the luxury of having sex more than once and can even engage in sex for reasons other than mere copulation." ( While looking at the Coho Salmon )

"Wow, he's so ugly... probably uglier than me, in fact." ( About one of the wolf eels they stumble across )

"Ohhh, Kai, I found your favourite fish!" ( About the vermilion rock fish )

"Ugh, why are there so many couples around? Damn normies, spreading around their nasty normie germs..." ( If they're at the aquarium before they are boyfriend and girlfriend )

All in all, she'll be annoying, but would probably end up having way more fun than Kai does at the aquarium.

anonymous ( concerning @gloryundimmed )

[unladielike]

what would vivian's relationship with kai be like if he happened to be an idol?

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﹥Vivian: kai van doren? what a loser i hate him i- trips thousands of pictures of kai spill from pockets fuck those aren’t mine i swear i’m just holding them for a friend i- slips on a pile of pictures fu ck no they’re not mine i hate him i just- more pictures fall out, as i fall to my knees, desperately trying to pick them up hang on a sec jUst LISTEN

﹥In all seriousness, though, Vivian's relationship with him would probably be less toxic if he happened to be an idol. I mean, she would still claim she hates him, but it would be in a very funny, tsundere way like in the example I illustrated above, so she wouldn't... you know, genuinely hate him. Furthermore, she'd be 24 instead of 21 (her default age with Kai) and would have relocated to Japan because it's so much more affordable than living in Vancouver. That, and she wanted to get away from her mother and ex-girlfriend for once.

﹥I wanna say Kai would be her first celebrity crush (aka a famous individual one finds immensely desirable/attractive/sexy and, if given the chance, would be more than happy to sleep with) due to the fact he resembles her favourite fictional volleyball boy, but Vivian is comically in denial about it due to the fact he's not 2D.

﹥Of course, while she wouldn't write x Reader fanfiction for him if only because she finds that super invasive and weird, that would not stop her from looking up Kai x Reader fanfiction herself... and potentially drop her phone while searching Kai/Reader fics on AO3 before Kai himself coincidentally picks it up.

﹥Would ironically attend a few of his hand shake events with the excuse she's only there because her 'friend' couldn't make it and maybe even take a picture with him during one of his smaller fan meetings/signings, but as Vivian is unable to smile at will under pressure, said picture will end up having her smile like this ↓

﹥Vivian to Kai at some point: "2D is superior, because unlike with idols or celebrities, the fictional character I love will never be involved in any scandals and will never get old for as long as I live! Heck, if I so choose, I can even get married to them without worrying about reciprocity like that one Japanese guy who married Hatsune Miku; in other words, the realm of 2D truly is the best... for with 2D, there's no fear of being rejected or called 'creepy'. Meanwhile, you, an idol, can easily crush my heart to smithereens; therefore, between you and 2D, I will always pick 2D!"

﹥I feel like Vivian would be one of those few fans who is considerate enough to not bother him in public out of respect for the fact she views him as a person and not a famous celebrity, but she will help Kai hide from some of his most rabid fangirls or just distract them entirely without expecting anything in return. She'll also go out of her way to not inconvenience him, to the point where she'll ask if there's a secret door she can sneak out of so the paparazzi doesn't see her in the event they are at a super public place (like a hotel).

﹥If they're away from public view, Vivian would stress he doesn't need to be nice to her and could call her an 'otaku freak' if that's how he truly feels about her deep down inside but chances are high he probably wouldn't? Should he be caught with another man or something, I could also see her reassuring Kai she wouldn't bother telling a single soul and would even out herself as 'LGBT' so he would feel more at ease; in fact, she would probably admit at one point that while she doesn't have any experience with men whatsoever, her first time had been with another woman.

﹥She'd probably end up working as a part time janitor for the talent agency building Kai frequents because her job at the library doesn't really pay all that much and she wants more spending money to afford another ita bag. Why, it's totally not because she wants to see him more... no sirree bob!

﹥Is unable to really say 'no' to Kai, so provided Kai makes a move on her first, they'd probably end up fucking. Chances are high they wouldn't officially date, though... just because Vivian herself wouldn't want to jeopardize his career and is in her own words, a 'very good girl who doesn't cause problems for others'. Honestly, unlike in her default verse, she would be an earnest girl determined to not give Kai any trouble... but ends up giving him trouble anyways when she reflexively jumps between him and an obsessive stalker to protect him from a knife said stalker is wielding before subsequently bleeding out in his arms.

﹥Though she still wouldn't do drugs or really go clubbing, Vivian in an idol!Kai AU would end up being the sort of person who would drink beer after either a stressful day at work or something bad happening (like finding out one of her female friends ended up getting a boyfriend), which would lead to her leaving him drunken voice mails, crying about how she's suffering and begging him to marry her after he retires from idol-ing, only for her to have no recollections of doing so the morning after.

anonymous ( concerning @gloryundimmed )

[unladielike]

Things Vivian has texted Kai ( @gloryundimmed ) Part 1:

I'm honestly so glad I happen to be born in the twenty first century, because if I had to write you letters while you're off fighting some pointless war during an age where there was no internet, I'd probably be losing my damn mind. (」°ロ°)」

You better not stand me up! (ง •̀_•́)ง ...Otherwise, I'll show up at your place at 2 in the morning, ready to fist fight you.

I got bored during class, so I decided to sketch you.＿〆(。。) ( Sends him an attachment of a picture she drew, where he's depicted in Riyoko Ikeda's artstyle, but it honestly seems more like a cursed shitpost than genuine fanart )

So I ordered your favourite drink today. ( Sends him an attachment of her hand holding what appears to be a half empty glass filled with scotch on the rocks ) And honestly, it's pretty mid. ╮( ˘_˘ )╭ In fact, I would really rather be drinking matcha milk tea than whatever this garbage is. ( Spoiler alert: she is lying and actually manages to finish it all )

...I really should not have searched Piccolo on rule34, 'cause hoo boy, can that green boy bend. (.·⊙ ﹏⊙·. ) Seriously, I feel like I now desperately need bleach... and a time machine, so I could go back to a time where I didn't know what 'auto fellatio' was. .･ﾟﾟ･(／ω＼)･ﾟﾟ･.

Don't worry. In the unlikely event you happen to die from my cooking, I'll write on your grave, 'Here lies Kai. He will be remembered for his meat being huge'. (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

Today, I saw this lady getting her butt slapped... but instead of being all, 'Kyaaaa! Pervert ( ˶°ㅁ°) !!' on him, she immediately held out her hand and said, 'That would be $7, sir'. Then when the creep proceeded to actually hand her $10, she pockets it and says he can slap her butt again for another $10. (·•᷄‎ࡇ•᷅ ) ...Three dimensional women these days sure are pretty strange, I tell you. Do you think she was lowkey flirting with him?

( ｡ •̀ ⤙ •́ ｡ ) ...I swear, Kai, you are such a man. Why is it always tits and butts with you and never a girl's beautiful smile or wonderful personality you happen to fixate on?

If I ever message you without a kaomoji, you can assume the one corresponding with you is not me... or it happens to be an emergency, where being cute while texting you is just not an option. ∠( ᐛ 」∠)_

(╭ರ_•́) Is my laptop over at your place by any chance?

｢(ﾟﾍﾟ) Say... if I were to make you mapo tofu for dinner, would you eat it?

Try not to die on me, okay? ( •̯́ ^ •̯̀) I don't want you kicking the bucket yet before I could even beat you at anything.

Do you agree with the notion 'A beautiful woman doesn't need a wallet'? ╭( •̀ - • )

...That feeling when the air conditioning at the GCE building is broken and the small fan your mom gave you is barely managing to keep you alive. :(´ཀ`」 ∠): Like, I'm so damn cooked at this rate, not even 50 hot Brazillian strippers will bring me back to life.

[unladielike]

tell us more about what vivian sees in kai & thinks about him

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Well, Kai might not have white hair like the two dimensional men she tends to favour immensely, but he ironically possesses qualities she finds attractive in a man... confident, assertive, non-touch averse, and someone who radiates 'mean dom' energy. He also coincidentally ticks off plenty of boxes on her bingo sheet, like his tendency to smirk, the fact he has nice hands, and him having a high sex drive, so for someone as sexually frustrated/repressed as Vivian, he is pretty much her own wet dream personified. It also doesn't help he resembles her favourite fictional volleyball character.

Because Kai's dangerous, however, and goes against everything she stands for (religion, kindness, heroism, etc), him being her type was pretty much at odds with her initial dislike of his personality, to the point where you could say she never really acted on her attraction towards him... until, that is, Kai proceeded to touch her and coerce her into coming home with him, causing her judgment to practically fly out of the window, which ultimately culminated in her losing the virginity she had maintained through years of abstinence.

Honestly, at first, Vivian absolutely loathed Kai. Not only does he have no delicacy whatsoever, he lacks tact, is excessively violent, engages in sinful vices (drugs, alcohol, adultery), has nothing good to say about her religion, breaks hearts wherever he goes, and gets underneath her skin so much, she's the epitome of this meme, yet at the same time, she also can't help wanting him. To make matters worse, they're sexually compatible, meaning she finds herself back into his bed time and time again.

Still, Kai not being a fussy eater and him having the gap moe of sometimes being all soft or shy on her further endears her to him; what's more, he would pick her up from school, tousle her hair, badmouth a girl who accosted him with the words, 'Were you blowing me off all this time for a freak like her?', and snark back at her, until somewhere along the way, she eventually started having fun around him. Why, at some point, Vivian started liking when Kai calls her 'Viv', the way he would laugh, and how his arms would look every time he flexed before knocking down all the pins from their bowling lane.

Even so, she would never admit she's in love with him... not when she's convinced he doesn't care about her and she herself never feels good enough for him. Why, so often does Vivian say the wrong thing, thereby causing him to get angry at her, she thinks she would never manage to earn his love as long as she remains herself, and because Kai already hurts her more times than she could even think with his thoughtlessly uttered words, it makes her continue being dishonest out of mere self preservation.

Honestly, he makes her both sad, lonely, and enraged... leaving her with emotions so intense, she would self harm. Vivian, though, has gotten to a point where she's very obsessed with him and the added hopelessness of what she presumes to be unrequited love has her emotional dysregulation practically worsen, until one day, she would show up at his place, bearing self harm wounds she inflicted with the knife she stole from his apartment; in other words, her love is very much accompanied by hate.

anonymous ( concerning @gloryundimmed )

[unladielike]

tell us more about vivian's toxic relationship dynamic with kai

          UNPROMPTED ASKS. » always accepting!

It's a mess, to be honest, where both seemingly have a hard time understanding each other and as a result, bicker endlessly. Whereas Kai's feelings get hurt, though, Vivian's mental health pretty much takes a nose dive following her encounters with him, for no matter how much she tries, it's like nothing she does ever improves their relationship. It also doesn't help his callousness does not make her want to open up, leading her to revert back into her insecure shell and do self destructive things; in other words, he's very bad for her health and is not by any means a 'safe person', which is someone an individual with autism trusts implicitly and feels safe or comfortable around.

Then again, it's confusing, because Vivian would claim she hates Kai, yet a baffling thing she does is cut fruit in his apartment before wordlessly handing him a plate of pineapples, oranges, and kiwi like an Asian mom, and weirdly enough, retreat back into the kitchen to be on her phone or wash the dishes. Now, naturally, you might assume she does this out of the goodness of her own heart or to make sure he gets his Vitamin C, but no, the true reason is to improve the taste of his semen.

Plus, while she no longer initiates conversation with him as much anymore, she would still pester him very frequently through text messages and would, by all appearances, be dead-set on at least beating him in something the way a petulant child might. To that end, she would bug him to go bowling with her, challenge him to, say, a game of poker (if he insinuates she must suck at gambling), or boldly claim she could drink him underneath the table, only to then pathetically lose in true girl failure fashion.

Why, instead of cool while she's with him, Vivian comes across as a very... clumsy, yet plucky young woman brimming with naivete. She flounders and puts on a brave, tough girl act, when really, she's all talk and no bite. That still wouldn't stop her from doing things she deems to be 'manly', however, like holding doors out for others, telling women 'cute ladies first' (in that princely, non-flirtatious way of hers), chasing after someone who dropped their wallet, and assisting an old woman across the street... things I'm sure he has seen her do a couple times. And I'm sure it must make him want to barf, because compared to him, she's much too nice... too stereotypically heroic, it reminds him of some cheesy protagonist from a kid's show.

At the same time, though, she also ends up in very stupid situations, where she'd either find herself stuck in a hole through the wall or unintentionally splattering mayo all over herself, to the point where she's ironically more so a distressed damsel than whatever heroic title she'd enjoy giving herself. Like, there are girls who can definitely kick Kai's ass, but Vivian's so laughably lame, she isn't one of them no matter how much she may claim otherwise.

As if that wasn't enough, she would even cook for him every once in a while after seeing how... incredibly lacking his diet is and would do weird things, such as gaze at him from afar with a pair of binoculars. Drunk Vivian would also be very clingy, that I wouldn't be surprised if people mistook her for his bratty girlfriend or something, just because she does kinda act that way. Heck, I headcanon one time, she even threatens to pee on his knives should he not tuck her in and give her a proper forehead kiss, which is something she still does not recall doing to this day.

But despite the fact Vivian constantly talks back to him and criticizes him, a part of her does deep down like Kai. She just doesn't want to admit it and gets off from being put in her place and being broken down into saying things she normally wouldn't because, well... she has a humiliation fetish and it turns her on whenever a hot, domineering man bullies her into submission; nevertheless, she does have a strange love hate relationship with him people would struggle to wrap their head around. I mean, on one hand, he frustrates her to no end, yet on the other hand, she's basically all, 'Man, he sucks... but I can't not fuck him'.

Still, it's hard to really take her seriously when the moment she accidentally loses Kai in a crowd, she'll peer through the nearest trash can just to find him and if she comes back to a room, only to find nothing but a plush that resembles him, she would be all, 'Oh no, Kai turned into a marketable plush! 😱' Vivian's just... oftentimes very silly, you would not suspect that behind the scenes, she starts self harming because of him or happens to hyperfixate over him to sometimes an unhealthy degree. Truly, thanks to Kai, she's secretly sad almost all the time and does not for one second believes he cares about her... that is, of course, up until he becomes her so called 'boyfriend', but that's a story for another time.

anonymous ( concerning @gloryundimmed )

[unladielike]

Is there ways of her to boost her own self confidence?

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Well... Vivian was the sort of girl who constantly had her appearance made fun of/ridiculed/criticized by her mother and relatives at family gatherings, so while it didn't end up giving her an eating disorder, it did impact her enough, that she still has major self esteem issues to this day. It also doesn't help that the guys she had been attracted to growing up didn't view her in that particular light, meaning she's used to thinking of herself as a 4 or 5 out of 10 stars.

These days, however, Vivian isn't exactly interested in beautifying herself. Like, she would still do the bare minimum in maintaining her hygiene (taking showers, shaving armpits, trimming pubic hair with scissors, brushing teeth, etc) and would feed or clothe herself if necessary, but she doesn't really brush her hair or feel the need to focus on her appearance, so if it weren't for the fact her mother routinely washes her clothes, she would be wearing the same outfit for weeks on end. Due to this being the case, it would either take only 10 minutes for her to officially get ready or an hour because the task of deciding what to wear is overwhelming for her due to the fact she has to factor in things like weather and right weight/material because depending on how hot/cold it is, certain fabrics would not feel right on her body.

Either way, there's probably nothing Vivian could personally do to make herself more confident... outside of maybe dying her hair white or blue, which while not succeeding in getting her to believe she's hot, it would at the very least make her feel less ugly, to the point where she can actually stand looking at herself in the mirror (with instances where she's having mirror sex with a man being the only exception, but this exception really has more to do with the humiliation/taboo-ness of seeing herself get railed rather than her liking her appearance). Then again, she also worries about her mother throwing a fit, hence why she hasn't yet decided to do so.

Honestly, now that I think about it more, a conventionally attractive person suddenly deciding to go for her might also help, but I guess in Kai's case, Vivian figures girls are all the same to him and would conclude it doesn't matter if she was ugly or cute because he would probably fuck anything that had a hole in it... so I guess the conventionally attractive person has to be someone who would constantly reject others and has high enough standards for her to go, 'Oh, I must at least be a little bit cute if this conventionally attractive person managed to fall for me/find me of all people hot!'

Another option, I guess, is if Vivian decided to be a rental girlfriend, only to get a surprising amount of people hiring her, but at the same time, I doubt she would really go for that job due to the fact she doesn't believe herself to be good looking enough. Like, someone has to encourage her to apply, and even then, she wouldn't expect anyone to seriously go for her, that the moment she first gets picked, she would lowkey freak out and be all, 'Holy shit, what do I do? What do I wear? Okay, calm down, Vivian... first, you should probably do some research on this person... and then remember to brush your hair! Yeah, can't forget to do that since you'll be going on a date.'

@mannequinentity

[unladielike]

Things Vivian has probably said to Kai ( @gloryundimmed ) at some point:

"Move. I'm trying to count how many freckles that man over there has and you being in the general vicinity is ruining my concentration."

"Ugh, you're so gross. Can you not even think with your dick for five minutes?"

"You know what would make my day even better? You not being in it."

"That's between me and god."

"Do you ever look at anywhere else besides a girl's boobs or butt?"

"See, this is why nobody likes you. It's because you only ever think about yourself!"

"Th-That's blasphemy! Is there truly no line you won't cross?"

"What did that poor mirror ever do to you?"

"Why are you always breaking things? Seriously, can't you fix stuff for a change? Change your job title to 'Kai the Builder' and finally bring about some positive change in this world?"

"That's it. I'm hereby praying for your downfall."

"...Your voice is like nails on a chalk board."

"Don't you ever get tired of random men you don't know punching you for sleeping with their girlfriends?"

"Just how many hearts have you even broken during your lifespan?"

"I'm not scared of you! I have the power of god and anime on my side."

"Don't mess with me. I'm god's strongest warrior."

"You'll have to excuse me. I see a lost, crying birdie that needs my immediate attention." ( Temporarily leaves him to go help out a kid crying for his parents )

"Just so you know, I'm not planning on giving you any. You can starve for all I care."

"...Oh lord, please give me the patience I need to endure this insufferable fool."

"As far as I can see, the only idiot in this room is you."

"...You're the worst."

"Don't talk to me. I'm still mad at you."

"Remind me again to never expect anything from you."

"If it weren't for the laws of this nation, I would carve out your devilish, forked tongue and hang it on the wall."

"Be right back. I need to go assist that poor old lady with her groceries."

[unladielike]

What's Vivian's opinion of tattoos? Piercings? Would she get any of either, if she had the chance?

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When it comes to piercings, Vivian would generally avoid them for herself because as a youth, she had tried to have them pierced, but I headcanon she had a skin infection from an ear piercing one day after failing to clean it daily... meaning ever since she experienced discharge coming out of her piercing and a fever, she went, 'Uh... nope, never doing that again!', and her ears would remain hole-less for years. That being said, however, she does find them aesthetically neat on other people and stuff like tongue piercings, nipple piercings, and clit piercings are even something she finds incredibly hot, yet not something she would bother getting herself.

Still, if a muse were to, say... give her clip on earrings that were blue butterfly shaped, I could see her wearing them every once in a while, yet at the same time, be paranoid enough she would lose them, that she'll occasionally store them somewhere safe. As far as dick piercings and large holes in ears go, though... I honestly get the sense they'll make her grimace; in fact, she genuinely wouldn't understand why some would deign to get either and might even be reluctant to have penetrative sex with anyone who has a dick piercing. Also, the latter is not only physically unattractive to her, she would think flesh tunnels makes the other person resemble an elephant.

As for tattoos... she also finds them neat. The only case where she would get them, however, is if she's unhealthily obsessed with a muse, causing her to potentially tattoo their name on her thigh, which was what happened during a route where she was dating Hayate. Other than that, though, Vivian probably wouldn't get any? Mostly because she doesn't think she deserves tattoos and the fact she still wants access to Japanese ryokans/onsens, which forbids guests with tattoos; only, I could see herself potentially getting herself one at maybe the eager coercion of a friend or a significant other.

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I think the whole reason Vivian often feels like a sham of a sapphic is because she's on the aromantic spectrum, meaning due to the fact she has never fallen in love with another woman besides Alex, her attraction towards women is more frequently sexual, making it seem shallow and invalid. It also doesn't help that lesbians often frame love between two women as a 'pure, wholesome thing', to the point where she gets the sense they think her sexual attraction towards women is dirty somehow... which in turn makes her feel very isolated from the sapphic community as a whole.

Honestly, she doesn't even like all women either, because compared to 2D ones at least, real women tend to be harder to get along with and would usually conclude she's a loser based on her hobbies and fictional tastes, to the point where it's rare to come across one that matches her at her freak, let alone one that supports her wholeheartedly. To that end, Vivian cannot really bring herself to relate whenever a fellow sapphic proclaims, 'God, I love women!', because at the end of the day, she's used to only being fond of Judith until Alex came along; in fact, the one other girl I can think of that Vivian was canonically able to form a close friendship with is Anita, and even then, it should be noted that the women she gravitates to are those who are either unconventionally attractive or share some similarity to her *coughs* Rina *coughs*, meaning it's no coincidence most of her interactions have been with men thus far.

Also, Vivian is a tad... touchy, making it incredibly harder for her to maintain relationships with woman as opposed to men (hence why I would usually throw my male canon muses at female OCs/muses instead). Why, despite not always agreeing with Hayate's viewpoints, I'm sure Vivian is able to partially understand his annoyance towards other women due to the fact she has unfortunately seen them at their most vile; in fact, her mother and older sister happen to be women who have both let her down and frustrated her, so she unfortunately has this 'not like other girls/queers' mindset, which is further exacerbated by the fact women continue to treat her as if she weren't one of them.

Heck, knowing Vivian, I could even see her straight up decking one in the face for spewing transphobic remarks about Alex... and Alex having to stop her before she ends up pressing further charges against her. Regardless, my point still stands that while I wouldn't be opposed to shipping her with more women, Vivian herself is complicated and someone who is easy to set off; therefore, she's selective, regarding which woman she wants to date, much less befriend.

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MUSE PREFERENCES.

favorite fruit(s) :     lychee, mango, mandarin oranges

favorite activity(ies) :     people watching, reading/watching manga, writing fanfiction, reading smutty fics on AO3, conversing with people, being on social media sites, eating out with friends

favorite flower(s) :     butterfly pea, but because she is a closet pervert, she will not tell you she secretly likes it due to the fact it looks like a vagina

favorite season(s) :     spring and autumn

favorite insect(s) :     morphos butterfly and blue butterflies in general

favorite animal(s) :     none, cause she generally likes them all

favorite gem(s) :     sapphire, but only because it’s a pretty blue

favorite time of day :     evening

TAGGED BY: @mugunghwc​ ( thank you, val! <333 )

TAGGING: @spiritpyro ( for hayate and rokuro ) / @chaosarashi & @eliteimperialism / @hopeharmed ( saint and auri ) / @aeipathcy​ ( reanne please ) and whoever else that hasn’t done it yet!

[unladielike]

── romantic gestures. bold what applies to your muse , italicize if there's potential / it depends.

holding hands · buying flowers · cooking · cuddles · writing a poem / song · holding door open · tying shoe laces · sharing a milkshake with two straws · offering their jacket when it's cold · kissing in the rain · publicly confessing love · long walks at the beach · doing the titanic pose on a boat · taking cute pictures in a photo booth · sharing a taxi / uber · kissing the back of their hand · slow dancing · getting tickets of their favorite artist / sports team / other · introducing them to their parents · lighting candles · flower petals on bed · love letters · star gazing · brushing / doing their hair · picnics · teaching them to play an instrument / sport while gently guiding their hands · compliments · late night drives · taking selfies together · drawing them · self-made gifts · massages · proposing with a family heirloom ring · lending them their favorite book to read · paying for dinner / coffee · mixtapes / playlists · surprise birthday parties · feeding them · handing them keys to their apartment · making space in drawer for their clothes when they stay over · sharing a blanket · couple costumes · tucking a hair strand behind their ear · running after them at the airport / keeping them from leaving · moving cities to be together · blowing a kiss · breakfast in bed · defending them in a fight (verbally / physically) · joint bubble baths · dropping the L-bomb ("i love you") · dedicating a song at the karaoke bar to them · wearing their clothes · yawning before putting an arm around them while watching a movie · granting them the last bite (from meal)

TAGGED BY:

@spiritpyro ( i only just managed to get around to doing this now, but thank you for the mention, jason! <333 )

TAGGING:

@aeipathcy ( reanne ), @fightingthetides ( mizumachi ), @chaosarashi, @aaternum, @dis--parity ( alex ), and whoever is still following me!

[unladielike]

Honestly, based on their demo reel over here, I feel like Elissa Park would be a far more fitting voice claim for Vivian. Like, not only have I always pictured her to have a lower voice register, the second and third one is something she can probably alternate between rather easily.

Of course, the second one happens to be what I envision Vivian's 'manly' voice to sound like, because I could see her pretty much learning how to speak in a deeper tone from a young age to seem 'masculine' but her voice also tends to randomly grow high pitched like in the third one, so there were definitely moments where she sounded more girlish around other muses, with @spiritpyro's Hayate being a very prominent example; in fact, she probably uses the third one the most with Hayate because she isn't trying to put on airs around him.

But when around more charming/playful/flirtatious muses, Vivian ends up using the third voice more often, which is honestly what she would sound like by natural default if she isn't trying to present herself in a more masculine way, so aside from her body language or facial expressions, you can tell she's excited or flustered from her voice losing it's 'manly' quality.

Regardless, due to the fact she is used to adopting a deeper tone of voice in order to better fit the 'manly hero' persona she's grown fond of, I don't think Vivian would ever manage to bat an eyelid if @dis--parity's Alex ever accidentally failed to feminize her voice around her, let alone automatically assume she was trans, because she herself would habitually change or adjust her voice despite being a cis woman; therefore, she would automatically think Alex just has a versatile voice range.

Plus, Elissa Park is also from Toronto, meaning she is pretty much Canadian like Vivian.

[unladielike]

What is Vivian's hidden talent that no one knows except for herself?

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Since Vivian is autistic and one of her hobbies include people watching, I wanna say she's able to memorize entire conversations if the topic at hand happens to interest her enough and the people having said conversation would both take turns in talking without interrupting each other.

Because she would be accused of eavesdropping, gossiping, or stalking, however, I don't imagine she would recount those conversations to anyone else?

So it's very commonplace for her to simply jot them down word for word somewhere, whether that be in her notebook or laptop, before looking back on them later if she needs a reference for how neurotypical/every day people would talk; in fact, I feel like she would make for a very good journalist due to it, but Vivian proceeds to merely utilize this talent of hers for her fanfiction writing... which I'm sure is something people would find a considerable waste, yet at the same time, she's also the sort of person who would be content, simply living an uneventful, mundane life where she could fit in time for her hobbies.

Due to this being the case, she's not what I would call particularly ambitious, meaning I struggle to really throw her at muses that aren't slice-of-life friendly or would have no reason to continually seek out an ordinary college student, even if said college student happens to be extroverted as fuck.

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