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OMGGG KETS FUCKING GO

GO FOR IT! 𝜗𝜚 ; 26. three times i really noticed you before i realized (3.9k)

the one were heeseung and you have been rivals since you started hogwarts, and only takes one event that will turn your world upside down to realize what heeseung's presence in your life truly means for you. you have to do something! you just have to go for it!

pairing: ravenclaw prefect!lee heeseung x ravenclaw prefect f!reader

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ℱirst time you were kicked out of the library you considered it the worst of your shames, a horrible consequence of your irrational way of acting whenever you felt threatened by heeseung's presence.

spending hours sitting near the black lake, remembering how the librarian had yelled at the two of you to leave the library because you didn't know how to behave, made you reflect on your father's words he always repeats.

“head of the family always acts with intelligence, elegance, and rationality. always keep that in mind.”

and after realizing you've never acted like that in front of heeseung, full of embarrassment and frustrated with yourself, you finally decided the most appropriate thing was to talk to him and reach a truce.

wasn't easy of course, knowing you had to "give in" in your rivalry with him first didn't make you precisely happy. but wonyoung knocking some sense into you by talking about the newts exams and your internship at the ministry quickly made you want to actually talk to him.

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as you prepare to approach him after yeosang dismisses everyone from the classroom where the meeting was held, yunah's words echo in your head.

we're not asking you to be the best friends, just learn to listen to eachother and work together.

just listen and work together. easy, right?

“hey, y/n. can i talk to you?” you leave your mind the second you hear a voice speaking behind you. and the moment you turn around to face that person, your stomach turns cold and churns, guilt and shame instantly taking over your system.

but you notice it.

you notice how he was the one who approached first.

“...sure.” you whisper, still not facing him directly. “we can go to another classroom if that's okay with you.” you say, staring at the tips of your shoes as if they were the most interesting thing you've ever seen.

heeseung nods and whispers “mkay” letting you lead the way. both of you leave the classroom, ignoring the looks of your respective friends (as in jay, jungwon, riki, gyuvin and soobin) who were still there waiting to see how your talk would develop.

we're not asking you to be the best friends, just learn to listen to eachother and work together.

again, just listen and work together.

listen and work together.

but you can't help it when suddenly you two return to the starting point that brought you there in the first place.

clumsy apologies are given, a few traumas are shared, and misinterpreted comments come out of both mouths without thinking.

all started with an “i appreciate despite being quite stubborn, you decided to apologize”

“stubborn? but you're the one who always needs to be right to feel good about yourself.”

“you didn't just fucking say that.”

a harsh comment here, another one there, you don't even remember getting so close to heeseung when you poked his chest with your finger while accusing him of never closing his big mouth.

and you also don't remember why when heeseung said “you should just shut my mouth if it bothers you so much!” you decided pulling him by the neck of his shirt and smashing your lips with his was the best way of doing it.

maybe was the look he gave you when he finished closing the distance between you two, a look full of expectation, inviting even, almost as if he expected you to do what you did. maybe was also the soft, alluring scent that emanated from him, that fucking chocolate and parchment that was engraved in you after spending at least 30 minutes trapped in the arms of the bearer of said scent.

you don't remember.

or maybe you do but didn't want to admit every detail of that night was recorded like a video in your head.

the only thing you know is after separating from his strong grip on your waist you just said with a weak whisper “ok... we're good” and he, as stunned as you, just mumbled “y-yeah... wanna start our homework now?”

and as if nothing had happened, you went to the library and returned to the common room, making a silent agreement to never tell anyone how you two solved your problems.

that was the first time.

the first time you noticed how frustrated and hurt he was about you thinking he's a bad person. the first time you really saw the kind, intelligent and serious heeseung and not the mocking, narcissistic and annoying heeseung you had convinced yourself he was.

that was the first time.

and the first (accidental) kiss.

you were fucking depressed.

you felt like a total dramatic slytherin taking the black lake as your get-away-spot. but you needed it after the horrible way professor seonghwa had yelled at you.

a week had passed after that incident and even though headmaster doyoung assured you that you did the right thing and you wouldn't be punished for it, you still felt the need to think about your actions, away from everyone.

you even begged yeosang and aeri to let you switch patrols and do it alone so you wouldn't have to see anyone and both of them were understanding and let you do it. yeosang didn't even scold you for missing the last ravenclaw prefect meetings and you were so grateful for that.

but you knew there was a limit to everything, and while you were eating your eighth chocolate frog, you ended up venting your frustrations with heeseung over text after he told you a muggle fact you didn't even know you needed.

you didn't expect it to be so easy to talk about your feelings with him, but you were grateful, cause when you put your phone down for a second to admire the view of the enormous lake again, you sighed and felt calmer, more relaxed.

that's why, without thinking, you picked up your phone again, urgently wanting to tell him to go to the lake with you, to accompany you. with the poor excuse of having too many snacks for yourself because, again, you still weren't ready to admit you started liking his company after the first time you studied together.

in the same way you still didn't want to admit to yourself you hadn't bought those frogs for keeho back in winter break.

not even ten minutes passed when you saw his silhouette in the distance and you smiled involuntarily, feeling for the first time in the week you could be comfortable in someone's company.

“hey” heeseung says, sitting next to you on the huge flat rock you used as a seat, you already offering him something from your bag full of snacks.

“...hey” your voice comes out a little hoarse due to the little use you gave it that week, but you can feel how just that was enough for the boy next to you to smile.

as if he was relieved to hear you again.

“feeling really better now?”

“yeah... thank u hee, i really needed to talk.”

for a few minutes, all you two did was eat your sweets while looking at the lake with a calm, comfortable, safe atmosphere surrounding you.

“if you don't want to worry your friends with your feelings, you can always relay on me to talk, you know?”

the silence was cut abruptly by heeseung's words, so abruptly you didn't realize he was talking to you until a few seconds later.

“i... i don't want to bother you.”

“you could never bother me.” his response is almost instantaneous “i mean it, seriously. you can trust me.”

“...i'll try.” you whisper, letting the wind carry your words away.

“but i have one condition.” you snort almost gracefully.

“nothing in this world is free for real uh?” you laughed, looking from the lake to his eyes, waiting to see him laugh too, but his gaze was determined, expectant, something that almost hit you like a slap. “...what condition?” you ended up asking after noticing he was being serious.

“promise me you'll never push me away when you're feeling down... no matter the situation, let me be there for you.” you held the air in your lungs so much you felt your chest hurt, you were already sensitive and that promise he asked you to make was one more drop in your glass that was about to spill. you used all the willpower left in your body to contain the lump in your throat formed from all the emotions that heeseung made you feel in the last hour, and you swallowed it, not wanting to let the boy see you burst into tears. “just... promise you won't shut me out like this again, please?”

he whispers almost hurt at the end, looking away from you, his words feeling heavy in the air.

again.

that was the second time you noticed.

you noticed how genuinely he cared for you, to the point where it hurt him he couldn't help you because you wouldn't let him. you noticed the look in his eyes, begging you to let him enter your space, space that held all your fears and insecurities just so he could take care of you and protect you from them.

why? why do you care so much?

you wanted to ask so badly, but you weren't sure you wanted the answer right there.

so you just leaned gently on his shoulder for the first time and whispered in a way not even the wind and water could be part of the moment, just both of you.

“i promise to let you in, but in return you have to promise you won't leave.”

“i will never. i promise.”

and you swear you could hear the racing sound of his heart, as if his own heart was also seriously promising you.

a couple of months after that significant day at the black lake, the hardest challenge for you as a team in your potions class arrived.

make one of the advanced potions you studied all year.

“i know! i knooow you guys will hate me, i can see it coming, but i also hope you understand you were the ones who decided to be unhappy passing your potions owl exam to be in this class, so it's your fault.” professor yunho's kind and playful voice fills the classroom, lightening the depressed mood of his students, just a little. “i'm going to assign to you the potion i want you to make and you'll work on it for the next two weeks.”

all the students in the class were a total of 9 teams, but for some reason it felt almost intentional the way yunho left you two at the end. you swear for a second you saw him smirk almost maliciously when he said your names.

“aaaand y/n and heeseung, you'll be doing... amortentia! and that's all for today, see you at tomorrow's class, byebye~!”

your self-control almost flew out the window when you were about to yell at him if he was being deadass serious.

almost.

“what was the point of making us write a bunch of essays about damn veritaserum if our final project was going to be amortentia?” heeseung murmurs next to you.

“i swear he did it on purpose, look at that devilish smile” you can see yunho walking up the stairs to his office with the biggest, most hateful smile of all your years here. “we have no choice, guess we'll be doing amortentia.”

“yup.”

actually, preparing amortentia was not something the two of you considered difficult, the truly difficult part came every time you had to smell it to know if it worked.

bcause how the hell were you supposed to know if the potion would work when the last thing on your mind all those years was love? the closest you'd felt to that was your slight crush on yeosang for the past two years, but you don't even remember what he smelled like or if there was any scent that reminded you of him.

but you trusted heeseung even though you couldn't tell what you smelled cause every time he smelled the potion he would stare at you and assured you millions of times it was more than perfect and usable.

that's why was a surprise when yunho asked you to smell the potion the day you two finished it and the first thing that came out of your mouth was “parchment” almost instantaneous.

the smell was strong and almost like a memory slipping through your fingers when you were about to see it, and then it mixed with another smell that you recognized so easily after so many years. “books and ink”

you were confused and almost laughed when the thought came to you, maybe your true love was studying or some romanticized stuff like that. you almost felt like the potion you and heeseung created was a complete failure and you were ready to apologize to yunho and ask him to give you a few more days to improve it or do another one.

but it hit you like a tornado.

last smell you perceived came so suddenly when you were about to move away from the cauldron, and it was the answer to your confusion.

the memory of that first kiss in the ancient runes classroom seeping into your memory so clearly.

“...chocolate.”

you whispered stating it to you first before anyone else, so quietly no one heard you, no one but heeseung who was next to you, and yunho, on the other side of the cauldron.

heeseung looked at you with his big brown eyes full of surprise and something softer that you didn't dare to name.

and you?

you were fucking terrified.

but before your worst fears and weaknesses filled your head yunho's loud applause snaps you both out of your shock, breaking the moment and giving you a chance to focus again. you look in the direction of the professor and all you see is the huge smile on his face.

“there's no doubt my favorite students would make one of the best potions without difficulty.” you both awkwardly thanked the professor and after he placed an “𝑬” on your parchment you returned to your seats in complete silence.

for a brief moment neither of you dared to say anything. you didn't even know if there was anything to say.

“well... we passed with an extraordinary.” that's all the boy next to you says and you can only nod.

the rest of the class passed in a blur.

you don't remember anything else.

but that was the third time you noticed.

the third time you noticed him.

how close you had become with him, all the time you've spent together, the secrets whispered in the library, your laughter, the closeness, the subtle touches, the silent brushes of your hands, the night patrols, the hugs, that first kiss.

you really noticed and knew you could no longer continue avoiding the fact that your line between friendship and something more had been blurred a long time ago.

but you were fucking scared, because less than a year ago you still thought of him as a detestable person that you complained about with your friends, someone you saw as a threat. deep down you knew saying it out loud would make it real.

and you also knew all of this wouldn't be unrequited cause god, heeseung didn't hide his feelings at all.

that wasn't the problem, your real fear was yourself.

do i really deserve to feel this happiness? am i worthy of these feelings?

and those questions were the ones that made you avoid the first kiss, the lake deep talk and the amortentia situation a little bit more.

but it was stupid.

you had been avoiding heeseung, your friends and fucking everyone for almost a whole month.

however, when yeosang texted you, you couldn't help but reply after five hours when you felt like the worst person in the world for ignoring him.

and for you was complete stupidity to let yourself be carried away by what he told you.

you knew was a provocation, telling you some friend of heeseung discovered shit and he was about to do something big, just to casually brush it off as if was nothing when clearly was something.

of course curiosity was going to get the better of you, of course you wouldn't be able to sleep thinking about the kind of trouble that boy was about to get into, of course you would end up looking for heeseung all over the castle to talk to him.

of course you would, and yeosang knew you would, that's why it's stupid.

you felt your legs numb from going up and down all the stairs in the castle in your unsuccessful search.

you swear you saw peeves hanging around the castle and bothering students more times today than you would've liked. but no trace of heeseung.

you were about to give up and return to your common room when you turned into another hallway near the hufflepuff tower. and saw him.

you almost sighed in relief and prepared to call out his name. but a second later, you realized he wasn't alone, and you froze.

he was with her, talking.

your first instinct was to hide behind the corner of the hallway wishing they hadn't seen you already, the echo of the corridor helping you hear what they were talking about.

it's not that you wanted to snoop, but you didn't feel capable of leaving just like that.

“i don't like you” that was the first thing you heard coming out of heeseung's mouth and your heart almost jumped in joy “not as a classmate, not as a friend, not as an equal... so why would you think you have a chance with me romantically?”

“but heeseung, we are the heads of this castle! we need to-” you close your eyes in boredom as you hear the high-pitched, squeaky voice that has been driving you so crazy these past few months.

“we don't need shit. this isn't a cheap american movie where the head cheerleader and the captain of the football team are together for popularity.” your head nods in approval of the boy's words and without realizing you smiled with satisfaction. “you think cause you have the badge hanging from your uniform everyone will automatically be at your feet, but you have no idea, right? for that to happen, you had to earn it, and that wasn't the case.”

atmosphere change as soon as heeseung finishes his sentence, silence fills the hallway but it's not a peaceful silence.

it's a tense, heavy... threatening silence.

“...badge's mine, i did what i had to do to have it, so you should be scared of me.” a chill runs down your spine when you stop hearing that childish voice, now replaced by a hoarse angry one. you slowly directed your hand to the wand at your waist, afraid that girl might hurt heeseung.

“scared of you?” heeseung mocks, letting out a sighed laugh. “can't believe you've been in this castle for seven years and still don't know shit. really, who chose you for this role?” you never thought you'd hear him so angry, so mean. almost like the heeseung you'd painted in your head when you didn't know him well yet.

and you enjoyed it for two reasons: one, he wasn't talking to you like that. two, he was talking to her like that.

“let me be real and tell you the three things you should be scared for” you hear slow but determined footsteps “one, a furious principal. two, azkaban. three and most of all...” the footsteps stop and heeseung's voice sounds lower but no less threatening.

“...a man in love when you're the cause of his girl's sadness.”

it's almost a whisper but you hear him so perfectly, his boldness makes your heart race and the air gets stuck in your throat, you put a hand to your heart, internally begging it not dare to escape from your chest.

you can't even imagine the face heeseung made when he said that but your cheeks started to heat up so much just by the tone of his voice.

“and i hope you understand now that i'm a taken man, and i don't fucking play with that.”

so angry, so upset, so willing to destroy everything she has done that has hurt you, to fix the world to your liking, to worship the ground you walk on.

do i really deserve him? can i really have him?

“i'm not afraid of you. you're just a child who thinks he knows what the world is made of.” you can't help but roll your eyes when you hear her voice and the way she talks to heeseung.

i swear to rowena i'm gonna beat the shit out of this wannabe as a graduation gift.

“i'm gonna get rid of you. won't be difficult, you know? just see who's wearing this badge and who's the depressed bitch that's been avoiding you since we got back to the castle. i can do it worse for you.” your hands clench into fists so fucking tight you feel your nails digging into your palms. you don't know what upsets you more, the tone she uses or her admitting she did something against you.

no, definitely pisses you off a lot more that she called you a depressed bitch.

you didn't just fucking call me like that.

“i want you to try it, fucking try. i just want to remind you whatever you've done, i'm going to find out... so you should watch your back. does that sound familiar to you?” that deja vu his phrase caused you makes you nervous, you don't remember having told him or anyone about the first time you met this weirdo when she threatened you. “let's see who's faster. just keep in mind i like to always be one step ahead”

you don't hear a response, but you hear footsteps moving away down the hallway like a storm. you don't dare to move or even breathe until seconds later, when you hear other footsteps moving away as well.

what the fuck was all of that just now!?

that's your first thought after you've calmed down enough to walk back to your dorm.

but the more you analyzed it, the more you realized.

heeseung was really about to do something to make you come back. something probably risky since that girl was threatening him so casually.

he is so in love with you, he just called you his girl, he called himself someone taken. as a fact, a statement.

and he is mad furious, just because you are sad.

and probably because you ghosted him and broke your promise, but oh well that's more your fault than anything else.

but more than anything you realized all this time you were in love with him too, too scared and insecure to admit it.

now wasn't that enough for you to accept it?

not yet, you still had to prove you deserved not only a place at his side as a lover, but also as what you always deserved to be.

and you weren't going to sit and watch him do it all for you, not anymore.

i'm so gonna make that weirdo regret stealing something that was mine and calling me a depressed bitch.

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a/n: long ass chapter but was necessary for u to understand how snowy's feelings developed so far aaand cuz i love keeping the down bad heeseung agenda hehehehhohoho^^

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