#rooting for this from d1

[zoe1love]

OMGGG KETS FUCKING GO

GO FOR IT! 𝜗𝜚 ; 26. three times i really noticed you before i realized (3.9k)

the one were heeseung and you have been rivals since you started hogwarts, and only takes one event that will turn your world upside down to realize what heeseung's presence in your life truly means for you. you have to do something! you just have to go for it!

pairing: ravenclaw prefect!lee heeseung x ravenclaw prefect f!reader

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ℱirst time you were kicked out of the library you considered it the worst of your shames, a horrible consequence of your irrational way of acting whenever you felt threatened by heeseung's presence.

spending hours sitting near the black lake, remembering how the librarian had yelled at the two of you to leave the library because you didn't know how to behave, made you reflect on your father's words he always repeats.

“head of the family always acts with intelligence, elegance, and rationality. always keep that in mind.”

and after realizing you've never acted like that in front of heeseung, full of embarrassment and frustrated with yourself, you finally decided the most appropriate thing was to talk to him and reach a truce.

wasn't easy of course, knowing you had to "give in" in your rivalry with him first didn't make you precisely happy. but wonyoung knocking some sense into you by talking about the newts exams and your internship at the ministry quickly made you want to actually talk to him.

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as you prepare to approach him after yeosang dismisses everyone from the classroom where the meeting was held, yunah's words echo in your head.

we're not asking you to be the best friends, just learn to listen to eachother and work together.

just listen and work together. easy, right?

“hey, y/n. can i talk to you?” you leave your mind the second you hear a voice speaking behind you. and the moment you turn around to face that person, your stomach turns cold and churns, guilt and shame instantly taking over your system.

but you notice it.

you notice how he was the one who approached first.

“...sure.” you whisper, still not facing him directly. “we can go to another classroom if that's okay with you.” you say, staring at the tips of your shoes as if they were the most interesting thing you've ever seen.

heeseung nods and whispers “mkay” letting you lead the way. both of you leave the classroom, ignoring the looks of your respective friends (as in jay, jungwon, riki, gyuvin and soobin) who were still there waiting to see how your talk would develop.

we're not asking you to be the best friends, just learn to listen to eachother and work together.

again, just listen and work together.

listen and work together.

but you can't help it when suddenly you two return to the starting point that brought you there in the first place.

clumsy apologies are given, a few traumas are shared, and misinterpreted comments come out of both mouths without thinking.

all started with an “i appreciate despite being quite stubborn, you decided to apologize”

“stubborn? but you're the one who always needs to be right to feel good about yourself.”

“you didn't just fucking say that.”

a harsh comment here, another one there, you don't even remember getting so close to heeseung when you poked his chest with your finger while accusing him of never closing his big mouth.

and you also don't remember why when heeseung said “you should just shut my mouth if it bothers you so much!” you decided pulling him by the neck of his shirt and smashing your lips with his was the best way of doing it.

maybe was the look he gave you when he finished closing the distance between you two, a look full of expectation, inviting even, almost as if he expected you to do what you did. maybe was also the soft, alluring scent that emanated from him, that fucking chocolate and parchment that was engraved in you after spending at least 30 minutes trapped in the arms of the bearer of said scent.

you don't remember.

or maybe you do but didn't want to admit every detail of that night was recorded like a video in your head.

the only thing you know is after separating from his strong grip on your waist you just said with a weak whisper “ok... we're good” and he, as stunned as you, just mumbled “y-yeah... wanna start our homework now?”

and as if nothing had happened, you went to the library and returned to the common room, making a silent agreement to never tell anyone how you two solved your problems.

that was the first time.

the first time you noticed how frustrated and hurt he was about you thinking he's a bad person. the first time you really saw the kind, intelligent and serious heeseung and not the mocking, narcissistic and annoying heeseung you had convinced yourself he was.

that was the first time.

and the first (accidental) kiss.

you were fucking depressed.

you felt like a total dramatic slytherin taking the black lake as your get-away-spot. but you needed it after the horrible way professor seonghwa had yelled at you.

a week had passed after that incident and even though headmaster doyoung assured you that you did the right thing and you wouldn't be punished for it, you still felt the need to think about your actions, away from everyone.

you even begged yeosang and aeri to let you switch patrols and do it alone so you wouldn't have to see anyone and both of them were understanding and let you do it. yeosang didn't even scold you for missing the last ravenclaw prefect meetings and you were so grateful for that.

but you knew there was a limit to everything, and while you were eating your eighth chocolate frog, you ended up venting your frustrations with heeseung over text after he told you a muggle fact you didn't even know you needed.

you didn't expect it to be so easy to talk about your feelings with him, but you were grateful, cause when you put your phone down for a second to admire the view of the enormous lake again, you sighed and felt calmer, more relaxed.

that's why, without thinking, you picked up your phone again, urgently wanting to tell him to go to the lake with you, to accompany you. with the poor excuse of having too many snacks for yourself because, again, you still weren't ready to admit you started liking his company after the first time you studied together.

in the same way you still didn't want to admit to yourself you hadn't bought those frogs for keeho back in winter break.

not even ten minutes passed when you saw his silhouette in the distance and you smiled involuntarily, feeling for the first time in the week you could be comfortable in someone's company.

“hey” heeseung says, sitting next to you on the huge flat rock you used as a seat, you already offering him something from your bag full of snacks.

“...hey” your voice comes out a little hoarse due to the little use you gave it that week, but you can feel how just that was enough for the boy next to you to smile.

as if he was relieved to hear you again.

“feeling really better now?”

“yeah... thank u hee, i really needed to talk.”

for a few minutes, all you two did was eat your sweets while looking at the lake with a calm, comfortable, safe atmosphere surrounding you.

“if you don't want to worry your friends with your feelings, you can always relay on me to talk, you know?”

the silence was cut abruptly by heeseung's words, so abruptly you didn't realize he was talking to you until a few seconds later.

“i... i don't want to bother you.”

“you could never bother me.” his response is almost instantaneous “i mean it, seriously. you can trust me.”

“...i'll try.” you whisper, letting the wind carry your words away.

“but i have one condition.” you snort almost gracefully.

“nothing in this world is free for real uh?” you laughed, looking from the lake to his eyes, waiting to see him laugh too, but his gaze was determined, expectant, something that almost hit you like a slap. “...what condition?” you ended up asking after noticing he was being serious.

“promise me you'll never push me away when you're feeling down... no matter the situation, let me be there for you.” you held the air in your lungs so much you felt your chest hurt, you were already sensitive and that promise he asked you to make was one more drop in your glass that was about to spill. you used all the willpower left in your body to contain the lump in your throat formed from all the emotions that heeseung made you feel in the last hour, and you swallowed it, not wanting to let the boy see you burst into tears. “just... promise you won't shut me out like this again, please?”

he whispers almost hurt at the end, looking away from you, his words feeling heavy in the air.

again.

that was the second time you noticed.

you noticed how genuinely he cared for you, to the point where it hurt him he couldn't help you because you wouldn't let him. you noticed the look in his eyes, begging you to let him enter your space, space that held all your fears and insecurities just so he could take care of you and protect you from them.

why? why do you care so much?

you wanted to ask so badly, but you weren't sure you wanted the answer right there.

so you just leaned gently on his shoulder for the first time and whispered in a way not even the wind and water could be part of the moment, just both of you.

“i promise to let you in, but in return you have to promise you won't leave.”

“i will never. i promise.”

and you swear you could hear the racing sound of his heart, as if his own heart was also seriously promising you.

a couple of months after that significant day at the black lake, the hardest challenge for you as a team in your potions class arrived.

make one of the advanced potions you studied all year.

“i know! i knooow you guys will hate me, i can see it coming, but i also hope you understand you were the ones who decided to be unhappy passing your potions owl exam to be in this class, so it's your fault.” professor yunho's kind and playful voice fills the classroom, lightening the depressed mood of his students, just a little. “i'm going to assign to you the potion i want you to make and you'll work on it for the next two weeks.”

all the students in the class were a total of 9 teams, but for some reason it felt almost intentional the way yunho left you two at the end. you swear for a second you saw him smirk almost maliciously when he said your names.

“aaaand y/n and heeseung, you'll be doing... amortentia! and that's all for today, see you at tomorrow's class, byebye~!”

your self-control almost flew out the window when you were about to yell at him if he was being deadass serious.

almost.

“what was the point of making us write a bunch of essays about damn veritaserum if our final project was going to be amortentia?” heeseung murmurs next to you.

“i swear he did it on purpose, look at that devilish smile” you can see yunho walking up the stairs to his office with the biggest, most hateful smile of all your years here. “we have no choice, guess we'll be doing amortentia.”

“yup.”

actually, preparing amortentia was not something the two of you considered difficult, the truly difficult part came every time you had to smell it to know if it worked.

bcause how the hell were you supposed to know if the potion would work when the last thing on your mind all those years was love? the closest you'd felt to that was your slight crush on yeosang for the past two years, but you don't even remember what he smelled like or if there was any scent that reminded you of him.

but you trusted heeseung even though you couldn't tell what you smelled cause every time he smelled the potion he would stare at you and assured you millions of times it was more than perfect and usable.

that's why was a surprise when yunho asked you to smell the potion the day you two finished it and the first thing that came out of your mouth was “parchment” almost instantaneous.

the smell was strong and almost like a memory slipping through your fingers when you were about to see it, and then it mixed with another smell that you recognized so easily after so many years. “books and ink”

you were confused and almost laughed when the thought came to you, maybe your true love was studying or some romanticized stuff like that. you almost felt like the potion you and heeseung created was a complete failure and you were ready to apologize to yunho and ask him to give you a few more days to improve it or do another one.

but it hit you like a tornado.

last smell you perceived came so suddenly when you were about to move away from the cauldron, and it was the answer to your confusion.

the memory of that first kiss in the ancient runes classroom seeping into your memory so clearly.

“...chocolate.”

you whispered stating it to you first before anyone else, so quietly no one heard you, no one but heeseung who was next to you, and yunho, on the other side of the cauldron.

heeseung looked at you with his big brown eyes full of surprise and something softer that you didn't dare to name.

and you?

you were fucking terrified.

but before your worst fears and weaknesses filled your head yunho's loud applause snaps you both out of your shock, breaking the moment and giving you a chance to focus again. you look in the direction of the professor and all you see is the huge smile on his face.

“there's no doubt my favorite students would make one of the best potions without difficulty.” you both awkwardly thanked the professor and after he placed an “𝑬” on your parchment you returned to your seats in complete silence.

for a brief moment neither of you dared to say anything. you didn't even know if there was anything to say.

“well... we passed with an extraordinary.” that's all the boy next to you says and you can only nod.

the rest of the class passed in a blur.

you don't remember anything else.

but that was the third time you noticed.

the third time you noticed him.

how close you had become with him, all the time you've spent together, the secrets whispered in the library, your laughter, the closeness, the subtle touches, the silent brushes of your hands, the night patrols, the hugs, that first kiss.

you really noticed and knew you could no longer continue avoiding the fact that your line between friendship and something more had been blurred a long time ago.

but you were fucking scared, because less than a year ago you still thought of him as a detestable person that you complained about with your friends, someone you saw as a threat. deep down you knew saying it out loud would make it real.

and you also knew all of this wouldn't be unrequited cause god, heeseung didn't hide his feelings at all.

that wasn't the problem, your real fear was yourself.

do i really deserve to feel this happiness? am i worthy of these feelings?

and those questions were the ones that made you avoid the first kiss, the lake deep talk and the amortentia situation a little bit more.

but it was stupid.

you had been avoiding heeseung, your friends and fucking everyone for almost a whole month.

however, when yeosang texted you, you couldn't help but reply after five hours when you felt like the worst person in the world for ignoring him.

and for you was complete stupidity to let yourself be carried away by what he told you.

you knew was a provocation, telling you some friend of heeseung discovered shit and he was about to do something big, just to casually brush it off as if was nothing when clearly was something.

of course curiosity was going to get the better of you, of course you wouldn't be able to sleep thinking about the kind of trouble that boy was about to get into, of course you would end up looking for heeseung all over the castle to talk to him.

of course you would, and yeosang knew you would, that's why it's stupid.

you felt your legs numb from going up and down all the stairs in the castle in your unsuccessful search.

you swear you saw peeves hanging around the castle and bothering students more times today than you would've liked. but no trace of heeseung.

you were about to give up and return to your common room when you turned into another hallway near the hufflepuff tower. and saw him.

you almost sighed in relief and prepared to call out his name. but a second later, you realized he wasn't alone, and you froze.

he was with her, talking.

your first instinct was to hide behind the corner of the hallway wishing they hadn't seen you already, the echo of the corridor helping you hear what they were talking about.

it's not that you wanted to snoop, but you didn't feel capable of leaving just like that.

“i don't like you” that was the first thing you heard coming out of heeseung's mouth and your heart almost jumped in joy “not as a classmate, not as a friend, not as an equal... so why would you think you have a chance with me romantically?”

“but heeseung, we are the heads of this castle! we need to-” you close your eyes in boredom as you hear the high-pitched, squeaky voice that has been driving you so crazy these past few months.

“we don't need shit. this isn't a cheap american movie where the head cheerleader and the captain of the football team are together for popularity.” your head nods in approval of the boy's words and without realizing you smiled with satisfaction. “you think cause you have the badge hanging from your uniform everyone will automatically be at your feet, but you have no idea, right? for that to happen, you had to earn it, and that wasn't the case.”

atmosphere change as soon as heeseung finishes his sentence, silence fills the hallway but it's not a peaceful silence.

it's a tense, heavy... threatening silence.

“...badge's mine, i did what i had to do to have it, so you should be scared of me.” a chill runs down your spine when you stop hearing that childish voice, now replaced by a hoarse angry one. you slowly directed your hand to the wand at your waist, afraid that girl might hurt heeseung.

“scared of you?” heeseung mocks, letting out a sighed laugh. “can't believe you've been in this castle for seven years and still don't know shit. really, who chose you for this role?” you never thought you'd hear him so angry, so mean. almost like the heeseung you'd painted in your head when you didn't know him well yet.

and you enjoyed it for two reasons: one, he wasn't talking to you like that. two, he was talking to her like that.

“let me be real and tell you the three things you should be scared for” you hear slow but determined footsteps “one, a furious principal. two, azkaban. three and most of all...” the footsteps stop and heeseung's voice sounds lower but no less threatening.

“...a man in love when you're the cause of his girl's sadness.”

it's almost a whisper but you hear him so perfectly, his boldness makes your heart race and the air gets stuck in your throat, you put a hand to your heart, internally begging it not dare to escape from your chest.

you can't even imagine the face heeseung made when he said that but your cheeks started to heat up so much just by the tone of his voice.

“and i hope you understand now that i'm a taken man, and i don't fucking play with that.”

so angry, so upset, so willing to destroy everything she has done that has hurt you, to fix the world to your liking, to worship the ground you walk on.

do i really deserve him? can i really have him?

“i'm not afraid of you. you're just a child who thinks he knows what the world is made of.” you can't help but roll your eyes when you hear her voice and the way she talks to heeseung.

i swear to rowena i'm gonna beat the shit out of this wannabe as a graduation gift.

“i'm gonna get rid of you. won't be difficult, you know? just see who's wearing this badge and who's the depressed bitch that's been avoiding you since we got back to the castle. i can do it worse for you.” your hands clench into fists so fucking tight you feel your nails digging into your palms. you don't know what upsets you more, the tone she uses or her admitting she did something against you.

no, definitely pisses you off a lot more that she called you a depressed bitch.

you didn't just fucking call me like that.

“i want you to try it, fucking try. i just want to remind you whatever you've done, i'm going to find out... so you should watch your back. does that sound familiar to you?” that deja vu his phrase caused you makes you nervous, you don't remember having told him or anyone about the first time you met this weirdo when she threatened you. “let's see who's faster. just keep in mind i like to always be one step ahead”

you don't hear a response, but you hear footsteps moving away down the hallway like a storm. you don't dare to move or even breathe until seconds later, when you hear other footsteps moving away as well.

what the fuck was all of that just now!?

that's your first thought after you've calmed down enough to walk back to your dorm.

but the more you analyzed it, the more you realized.

heeseung was really about to do something to make you come back. something probably risky since that girl was threatening him so casually.

he is so in love with you, he just called you his girl, he called himself someone taken. as a fact, a statement.

and he is mad furious, just because you are sad.

and probably because you ghosted him and broke your promise, but oh well that's more your fault than anything else.

but more than anything you realized all this time you were in love with him too, too scared and insecure to admit it.

now wasn't that enough for you to accept it?

not yet, you still had to prove you deserved not only a place at his side as a lover, but also as what you always deserved to be.

and you weren't going to sit and watch him do it all for you, not anymore.

i'm so gonna make that weirdo regret stealing something that was mine and calling me a depressed bitch.

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a/n: long ass chapter but was necessary for u to understand how snowy's feelings developed so far aaand cuz i love keeping the down bad heeseung agenda hehehehhohoho^^

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[the-returnofartemis]

FOREIGN SPOUSE INDICATORS

here is a list of placements from both western and vedic astrology that may point to having a foreign spouse. one indication alone isn't usually enough to confirm a foreign spouse, but with the many placements listed, it may point to the idea that your partner may be one with foreign roots. however, remember that free will is always a factor. so, even though, the astrological indicators are there, life choices and circumstances can always influence outcomes!

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WESTERN ASTROLOGY INDICATORS:

these aspects can also be applied to marriage persona charts – juno, briede and groom.

✧.* 7H JUPITER

✧.* 7H RULER IN ASPECT TO JUPITER

✧.* 7H RULER IN SAGITTARIUS

✧.* 7H RULER IN 9H OR 12H -> can still be applied if 9H OR 12H RULER IS IN 7H

✧.* 7H RULER ASPECTS 9H OR 12H NORTH NODE

✧.* JUPITER ASPECTS NORTH NODE

✧.* PISCES OR SAGITTARIUS DSC (RULER -> JUPITER)

✧.* 7H RULER IN ASPECT TO 9H OR 12H RULER

✧.* 5H RULER ASPECTS 9H OR 12H RULER

✧.* 5H RULER IN 9H OR 12H -> the 5H also signifies romance and devotion. with the 5H ruler in 9H/12H, there may be a strong sense of alignment with a spouse who comes from a different cultural background. the connection could deepen your desire for a harmonious union with them, potentially leading to marriage

✧.* 9H VENUS

✧.* 9H JUPITER

✧.* DSC RULER IN THE 9H

✧.* 12H JUPITER (women)

✧.* ASTEROID GROOM/BRIEDE IN 9H, 11H OR 12H

✧.* ASTEROID GROOM/BRIEDE IN SAGITTARIUS

✧.* 7H RULER IS PISCES (TRADITIONAL RULER -> JUPITER)

✧.* 7H RULER IN 5H

✧.* 12H VENUS

✧.* 12H MERCURY -> this placement indicates that your partner may speak a language that is different from your own or one that you consider as 'foreign'

VEDIC ASTROLOGY INDICATORS:

these aspects can also be applied to the navamsa (D9) chart as it also focuses on married life. while many of the western indicators can be applied, gemini moon on twitter shared additional indications from the rashi (D1) and navamsa (D9) chart that may suggest the possibility of a foreign spouse.

✧.* 7H NODAL INFLUENCE (RAHU/KETU)

✧.* 7H DK MARS

✧.* MARS CONNECTED TO PISCES (12H) OR SAGITTARIUS (9H)

✧.* DK ASPECTS RAHU (D1)

✧.* DK MARS ASPECTED BY RAHU (D1)

✧.* 7H IN ARDA -> can lead native to do business in foreign lands, which can lead to higher chance of having foreign spouse

✧.* REVATI MOON

✧.* 7H RULED BY RAHU NAKSHATRAS (ARDA, SWATI, and SHATABHISHA)

✧.* DARAKARAKA (DK) CONNECTED TO 9H OR 12H -> in vedic astrology, the DARAKARAKA (DK) represents qualities of one's spouse and can provide insights about them. with DK connected to 9H OR 12H nakshatra, there's an indication that your partner may have connections to foreign cultures, an interest in travel, or even foreign roots

✧.* KETU'S INFLUENCE ON DK -> ketu represents non-traditional or unconventional qualities. its influence on the DK could point to a partner who is 'foreign' or very different from your typical environment

✧.* KETU'S INFLUENCE ON 7H RULER

✧.* 7H RULED BY JUPITER NAKSHATRAS IN D9 CHART (PUNAVARSU, PURVA BHADRAPADA, and VISHAKA)

✧.* VENUS-RAHU ASPECT (HIGHER CHANCE IN MEN'S CHART)

✧.* 7H RULER-RAHU ASPECT

✧.* CONNECTION BETWEEN 5H + 7H + 9H OR ITS RULERS -> native may have inter religion marriage or may marry someone outside own society

✧.* RAHU-JUPITER (HIGHER CHANCE IN WOMEN’S CHART)

✧.* MOON ASPECTING 9H OR 12H RULER

✧.* 9H MOON

✧.* 12H MOON

✧.* 7H RULER ASPECTS 9H MARS

if you've made it this far, i hope you enjoyed this little corner of my world. thank you for reading and please feel free to share your thoughts! always remember to love yourself as if it's your greatest romance.

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until next time,

artemis x

[averyspizookies]

High schooled

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as always all work is fiction.

Cw: 🍃🍃😉 ( very VERY exaggerated for entertainment, I’m completely aware this isn’t how most people are when they’re ⬆️⬆️ so yeah trust lol this isn’t accurate)

Also, hey guys!! I’ve missed writing so much. I hope you all like this stupidness to hold u until I release the fic I’ve been working on, so here’s something silly to pass the time. leave anons and comments!! I love you pookies.

Pairing: high school Azzi x Paige, teammates to lovers.

Word count: 2.5k

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Paige and Azzi hadn’t really talked since tryouts.

They had that kind of quiet chemistry off the bench—electric in motion, like the ball just understood where it needed to go when it was between them. Both juniors now, they’d played together long enough to know each other’s rhythm.

But that didn’t mean they spoke.

Azzi had a different kind of high school experience than Paige.

She was that girl. Popular, pretty, the one everyone assumed had a line of people trying to date her and ten more waiting to join. The kind of girl teachers adored and strangers rooted for. Not because she was fake nice—but because she was quietly kind. Always helping someone. Always smiling. Always balanced.

Paige… wasn’t like that.

She was loud in her own way. Not obnoxious—just real. Known for zoning out in class and zoning in on the court. Since eighth grade, everyone knew she was gonna be something serious with basketball. She didn’t try in school, didn’t really try to make friends. Not because she was rude. She just didn’t need the noise.

No drama, no gossip, no fake laughing in the locker room. Paige just wasn’t interested.

Except… when it came to Azzi.

Something about her stayed in Paige’s head longer than it should’ve.

Azzi was a walking contradiction—soft-spoken but never timid. Composed but not cold. Like she had more going on under the surface, but didn’t owe anyone access to it. Paige tried freshman year. Reached out. Dropped some lines, tried to get close. Didn’t work.

She figured out real fast she wasn’t the type of person Azzi Fudd kept around.

So she stopped trying. Just admired from a safe distance.

And maybe, yeah, she passed to Azzi more on the court than she should’ve. Maybe she felt it when their plays clicked like clockwork, but it stayed on the court.

They were mutuals online. Occasional polite nods in the hall. Shared group chats with dry thumbs-ups.

So when Azzi found Paige slouched in a stairwell during fourth period, it was…unexpected.

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Paige was bored. Like, kill-me-now level bored.

Geometry again. Her second time through it. Shapes and angles and numbers that had nothing to do with game stats. She was out of patience. She didn’t need geometry to steal a ball away or drop 20 on a D1 recruit.

So she left.

Asked to use the bathroom, slid her hoodie up, and took a stroll around the school—with a little extra on the side.

The new pen she’d picked up was hitting. Harder than she expected.

She’d only started smoking a couple months ago. Some college party, bad decisions… yadda yadda. But the high? Oh, the high hit like a deep exhale after a long day. Her brain got quiet. Thoughts slowed. Shit just made more sense—or didn’t have to.

No drug tests in-season for high school. So every now and then, when life got too loud, Paige took a moment.

She took one hit. Waited. Then another. Then three more in a row.

Five hits.

Which was about… four too many. For school at least.

“Fuck,” she muttered, staring at herself in the mirror. Her pupils were swimming. Eyes bloodshot. Movements molasses-slow. She looked like she’d just been dragged through a dream.

“Just act cool,” she mumbled, even though her mouth was already betraying her.

She splashed water on her face. Didn’t help. Her reflection looked like it was vibing to a song she couldn’t hear. That white noise hum in her ears made everything feel like a music video.

She walked up the stairwell, each step a challenge. Head bobbing slightly, hoodie half-on, breathing like she was auditioning to be a fog machine.

Then—

“Paige? Are you—uh, okay?”

Azzi’s voice. Light, amused. But with a thread of concern underneath.

Paige turned around way too fast, stumbled a little, then forced a wide, dopey grin. “Azzi! Yep. All good!”

Azzi tilted her head. “You sure? ‘Cause you look a little… lost.”

Paige glanced around, turning her head to sweep her surroundings. Maybe she accidentally took a wrong turn.

Nope, just in school…was this girl good?

Lost? What did Azzi mean lost?

She didn’t need a map.

She was on the fucking stairs.

“I’m on the stairs.”

Azzi fudd might be stupid. I mean she was on the stairs. Not in the ocean.

“Yes, you are indeed,” Azzi said, laughing softly. “I meant lost in a different way, genius.”

“Ohhhhhhhh” Paige chuckled out, realizing she was the stupid one.

That shouldn’t’ve been funny.

But somehow, that was the line that cracked Paige wide open.

Laughter spilled out of her like a floodgate had been waiting to blow. Real, breath-stealing, stomach-clutching laughter. The kind that made you bend over and slap your own knee.

Azzi blinked, half smiling. “Paige? What’s so funny?”

“I don’t—” Paige gasped. “I don’t even know.”

She tried to catch her breath. Failed. Then started laughing again, this time with tears creeping into her eyes. Her face was flushed, eyes even redder now, blue nearly swallowed by the haze.

Azzi moved closer, just in time to catch her as she stumbled forward.

“Whoa—hey, okay,” she said, steadying Paige with a gentle grip.

Paige leaned into her, loose-limbed, chin dropping onto Azzi’s shoulder like she belonged there. Like her body just knew this was a safe place to land.

“You smell good, Az…”

Azzi froze.

Paige’s own brain screamed in slow motion—why’d you say that?!

She hadn’t meant to. But weed turned her mouth into a traitor. And the thing was, it was true. Azzi smelled clean. Calm. Vanilla and something a little citrusy. Paige could’ve buried her face there and floated away.

Before Azzi could say anything, Paige pulled herself upright again. “Uh, thanks. Sorry.”

“Paige, wait—”

“Yeah?” Paige turned around, blinking slow, lips parted.

Azzi hesitated, then exhaled. “I’m… worried about you. I know we’re not really friends, but you’re obviously—not exactly clear-minded right now. So… you wanna just sit with me for a minute?”

She wasn’t judging. Just honest. Soft but firm.

Paige stood there, heartbeat thudding unevenly. If she went back to geometry like this, she’d be cooked. Suspended, maybe expelled.

“…Yeah. Yeah, alright.”

Azzi smiled, relief softening her eyes. “Cool. And, uh—thanks.”

“For what?”

“The compliment.” She grinned. “But we should probably leave before someone walks in.”

Paige’s cheeks warmed. She hoped it didn’t show, but knowing her winter-pale skin, practically translucent in the winter months—it absolutely did.

“Yeah. You right.”

They started walking together, slow at first. Quiet.

Until Paige squinted over at her.

“Wait… don’t you got class right now? I thought you were like, Miss Honor Roll.”

Azzi gave her a side-eye. “I don’t have a class this period. I usually help out around school. Staple stuff, prep club kits, support the special ed classrooms…”

Paige shook her head. “Yo. You’re like… annoyingly perfect.”

Silence.

“I mean,” she fumbled, “not like in a bad way. Just, y’know—like a little fairy princess of academic responsibility.”

“Paige.”

“Yeah?”

“I get it,” Azzi said with a small laugh. “I’ll take it as a compliment. Again.”

Paige grinned. “Good.”

They reached the bottom of the stairs when Azzi stopped and looked toward the side door to the lot.

“You down to maybe…” she jerked her chin toward the exit, “…skip the rest of the day?”

Paige blinked, jaw slack.

“You? Azzi Fudd? Tryna cut school?”

Azzi pushed the door open

Azzi laughed and stepped through the side door, shooting a grin over her shoulder. “Guess you’re a bad influence.”

The sunlight caught her curls just right, making her look like some kind of daydream, and Paige stayed posted up at the top of the stairwell, watching her go like her brain had skipped a beat.

Bad influence. Word.

She shook her head to snap out of it, blinking slow. Her high was still humming loud in her chest, but she remembered—oh right, legs. Gotta move ‘em.

By the time she made it down the stairs and out into the parking lot, Azzi was already halfway across the pavement, walking with that calm, light-footed stride like she’d done this a thousand times. Paige jogged a few steps to catch up, hoodie still half-off, one hand shoved in the pocket like she was just chillin’ and not, y’know, freshly ditching school with the girl who usually carried the whole moral compass of the team.

“This your first time skipping?” Paige asked, settling in next to her, pace casual.

Azzi glanced over, lips pressed into a little smile. “Yeah… first time.”

Paige smirked. “You nervous?”

Azzi shrugged. “A little. But you make it look kind of… fun.”

Paige raised a brow. “Fun? This is elite-tier boredom survival. I skip ‘cause geometry is straight-up brain poison.”

Azzi laughed softly. “You might have a point.”

The air settled into something soft for a second, the daylight beaming on both of them warm and honey like.

“Gimme your phone.”

Azzi stopped mid-step. “What?”

Paige held her hand out, palm up, expression calm but firm. “Your phone. C’mon.”

Azzi narrowed her eyes. “Why?”

“Just trust me.”

“Right.” Azzi gave her a long, skeptical look but didn’t move. “Sounds like the start of a very bad idea.”

Paige kept her hand out. “You said you trusted me. One time. Promise.”

Azzi hesitated. Then sighed and reached into her back pocket, pulling out her phone like she already knew she was gonna regret this. “Alright. Just don’t break it or hack into my Pinterest boards.”

Paige grinned. “Can’t promise anything.”

She took the phone, thumbs already moving. “Password?”

“It’s my birthday. November—”

“I got it,” Paige cut in, casual like she’d cracked military intel.

Azzi blinked. “How did you…? Seriously?”

“I got good memory.” Paige shrugged. “You said it in that interview after the regional tourney last season. Mentioned your birthday fell on a game day.”

Azzi looked at her sideways, not saying anything at first.

“What?” Paige smirked.

“Nothing.” Azzi shook her head, amused. “I don’t even think my brother remembers my birthday.”

“John or José?” Paige asked without missing a beat.

Azzi stopped walking. “Okay, now that’s creepy.”

Paige turned to her, eyes calm but teasing. “I pay attention, Az. Don’t freak out.”

Azzi let out a breath, half-laughing. “Maybe I sold you short, Beuckers.”

Paige grinned. “Bet you did.”

They kept walking, the silence between them feeling more relaxed now, more like… space shared instead of space filled. Then Paige’s face shifted into focus again, thumbs tapping at the screen with quick, practiced confidence.

“Alright,” she said. “When I tap your shoulder, just cough real dramatic. Like you been in bed all week.”

Azzi stared at her. “Excuse me?”

“Cough, Fudd. Trust the system.”

Azzi looked like she wanted to argue again, but then Paige raised the phone to her ear, posture suddenly very official.

“Hello, Hopkins attendance. How can I help you?” a woman’s voice answered.

Azzi’s eyes went wide. Paige shot her a side glance and gently grabbed her wrist to ground her.

“Uh, yes, hello!” Paige started in the most ridiculous fake British accent Azzi had ever heard. “This is Miss Fudd’s nurse, and I’m terribly afraid she’s come down with quite the nasty cold. Poor thing’s barely able to stand.”

Azzi nearly snorted, choking on a laugh she had to bury in her elbow.

“Oh no! I’m sorry to hear that,” the voice replied kindly. “Also, you have the most interesting accent—”

“Yes, yes, I get that all the time,” Paige interrupted smoothly, trying to hold her own laughter back. “But unfortunately, I must be going. Tea’s getting cold, and Miss Fudd needs rest. Take care now, love.” She hung up with a little flourish.

Azzi was staring at her, mouth open in a mix of horror and hysterics. “Did you just—was that a British accent?!”

“Oi, love, mind your tone,” Paige said, still in character for half a beat before she broke and started laughing.

She handed Azzi her phone back like it was nothing.

“Paige, you are—” Azzi laughed, “you’re an idiot.”

Paige shrugged. “A talented idiot.”

Azzi shook her head. “That was insane.”

“You’re off the hook now. You’re welcome.” Paige threw a lazy arm around Azzi’s shoulder for half a second before pulling back, like she didn’t even realize she did it.

Azzi blinked, cheeks warm. “You know you didn’t have to go that hard.”

“Yeah, but where’s the fun in that?” Paige said, eyes twinkling.

They kept walking, the pace slow and unbothered. For a moment, it felt like the rest of the world had pressed pause—no classes, no pressure, no teammates watching. Just the two of them, skipping school like it was their own private rebellion.

“You ever thought about… not doing this alone?” Azzi asked suddenly.

Paige looked at her. “What you mean?”

“Like,” Azzi tucked a curl behind her ear, “I know we don’t talk much. Or, like… at all. But I could help you. If school’s a lot, if you’re slipping—I could tutor you. I’m serious.”

Paige hesitated, her eyes lingering on Azzi’s face. “Yeah… maybe. I’d like that.”

Azzi smiled, quiet and genuine. “Cool.”

The air between them felt different now. Not heavy. Not awkward. Just... full of possibility.

Paige rubbed the back of her neck, then glanced at her. “When you wanna start?”

“Friday work for you?” Azzi asked, her voice soft. Smile breaking though.

Paige held her gaze a moment longer, then nodded.

“It’s a date.”

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Hope you guys enjoyed!! Remember to leave comments and anons!! Let me know how u like this, and thank you for reading! <333

[allfearstofallto]

"Aren't you Going to Finish That Thought?"

Wanderer x Fem! Reader

Pure fluff, hurt and comfort

AN: Super super self indulgent fic. Just something I needed as a D1 yapper

“And when you dig the hole, it has to be very shallow, because the roots continue to grow down faster than-” you stop yourself, a hint of embarrassment on your face. You're talking too much. Again. Blabbing on and on about something or other that no one cares about, filling the silence with your annoying voice.

You always talked to Wanderer. You'd seek him out wherever he went just to sit and chat with him. Although, chatting meant he'd actually respond, he never said much back. Instead he'd have his nose in his book or his eyes focused on what was happening out the window, typically it was the sunset. You felt your heart sink at the realization. He was ignoring you. Telling you that you were bothering him with actions rather than words.

“You talk so much,”

“Don't you ever shut up?”

“Not everything needs to be said,”

You mentally cringed at the words that suddenly filled your brain. All things that'd been said to you, all things that people you considered friends or loved ones thought about you. They could say it as a quip or with a playful smile on their faces, but you know that every joke has a bit of truth behind it. They meant it, even subconsciously. And maybe he felt the same way.

You silenced yourself. That familiar lump was forming in your throat, the one that meant you'd possibly cry if prodded the wrong way.

“Aren't you going to finish that thought?” Wanderer had finally looked up from his book. Pretty blue eyes now focused on you with a questioning gaze. His words startled you, seeing as he only spoke so often. You assumed he was being sarcastic again, but he wasn't wearing that smirk that he always did when saying something snarky. He truly meant it.

You shrugged your shoulders, trying to give him a weak smile that wasn't very convincing at downplaying your sudden lack of confidence, “I just- thought I was talking too much,” words spoken with a bit of sorrow behind them. Stammered out forcefully while you still resisted the urge to cry.

“Who said that?” His question had a bit of a bite behind it. A touch of anger in it. For a moment, you feared that he was angry at you, but his eyes had a certain softness to them when he looked upon your face.

“I don't know. Everyone?”

He clicked his tongue, “Am I everyone?”

“I don't-”

Wanderer cut you off before you could finish a self deprecating thought, “I was listening. I'm always listening. Don't you think I would've told you if you were bothering me?”

“I thought you were just being nice?”

“When have I ever been nice?” he asked, but there was a softness to his voice that you realized only you had ever got the pleasure of hearing. Whenever you eavesdropped in him speaking to anyone else, he sounded annoyed, furious even that they'd dare approach him. But never with you.

His question makes your heart beat quicken and your eyes foggy with tears. You shrugged, shook your head, but didn't say anything else. You couldn't. Unless he wanted to console you as you sobbed.

“Now finish what you were saying. About the flowers, right?” Wanderer tried to mask that softness in his voice by sounding butter again, but you could hear through it.

With a laugh, you started up again, watching as his eyes fell onto his book. If you looked closely, really really closely, you could see a little smile playing at his lips.

[valalice]

⭑ pretty face for riding ( aka riding lara's face ).

cw. smut nsfw. fem!reader. established relationship. face ridding. d1 muncher lara croft. lowkey british slander. banter-ish.

it's routine now whenever lara comes home she'll quickly find her way to you wherever you may be. demanding for you to abandon whatever task you were doing prior to her return back to you—you tease her most days, like this one, telling her that her british entitlement is starting to go to her head to think she can just always whisk you away to your shared bedroom. she'll grumble under her breath, something about not testing her limits (you don't really pay any mind to those comments) and about needing to take her mind off her things for awhile. and without fail she always somehow wounds up between your thighs, her face buried in your cunt, and you somehow always give in to her.

you thighs are plush against lara's ears. her hands smooth down the curve of your ass, blunt nails sinking into the plush flesh, a tight grip pulling your weight further onto her face. a muffled grunt, similar to a noise of content, is released from the woman's throat. your body jerks, puffy clit knocking against the perfect point of lara's nose. crying out, the hands threaded through her hair tightens into fist at her roots, her messy ponytail no longer confided to its hair tie, now free as her hair is sprawled out around her head and in your tight grasp.

"shit—fuck, lara." body crumbling on top of her face. "don' think 'm gonna last long." you mewl. your words enacting lara to grip tighter on your ass, you'll be sure to make her rub ointment on it later.

upon looking down at her, lara's eyes have been shut tight for the most part, soft lashes brushing against her blushed cheeks. nose pressed up against your clit, tongue lapping at your entrance—does this woman not need fucking air?

the grip she has on you allows for her to maneuver your body, moving both you and her face to take your clit in her mouth, swirling the hot muscle around you sensitive nub, coming off of it with a pop. it's not even a few short seconds before her mouth is back on you, taking you clit once more, simultaneously sucking and moaning while shaking her head. shrieking, and trying to use the hands in her hair, now placed on her forehead, to push her head further into the mattress so you could let up, she remains persistent. the obscene squelches and splutters of your cunt are enough to keep her set on her goal.

her eyes open to be graced with the view of you shuttering and moaning out above her. its amusing to her at your miserable attempts to get her to stop, a harsh grip in her hair, she's sure if you wanted to you could pull a chunk out, and your other hand, its palm pressed against her forehead. she thinks you're trying to pull yourself off of her but her arm strength overpowers you and interesting enough your hips are bucking into her mouth. you're close, like close, close.

and just as predicted, the band in you tummy snapping. arching high, throwing your head back, eyes rolling to the back your skull. lara soaks in your pronographic wails of sweet release.

chest heaving, you calm down from your high. body relaxing, fist relaxing and relaxing her locks from your grasp. lara's mouth still remains on you, she attention focused on lapping up your juices from your entrance. "c'mon lara, y're gonna suck me dry." flicking her forehead, and her eyebrows furrow eyes slanted up at you. one last lick she lets up. her hands have also released your ass from the shackles of their brutal grip, and they make their way up, gliding to rest on your hips. just before rolling off her face she pulls you abruptly back down to place a sloppy kiss to your cunt. you just lift an eyebrow at her and she just shrugs. "you can get off if you want now." you scoff at her words, pulling yourself off and slumping against the head board and resting your eyes.

lara shifts next to you. "so, about british entitlement."

"lara—"

[kiddotarot]

Venus and problems in your relationship and marriage D1/D9 ( part = 1)

Explanation = we all know that venus is the symbol of harmony and relationship and love , romance and in astrology its play a vital role in marriage and relationship look at where your venus is placed count the 6H or sign from there and the house or sign you got 6 from venus is always the root of problems in your marriage or relationship. ( its for both D1 or D9 chart )

Venus in 1st House ( After counting 6 from 1H) = then you got 6H you can face problems from Material family or from mothers relatives. Your servant can be the reason of Problems in Marriage or in relationships. If there is a competitive relationship between partners or in Marriage it also causes Problems. Karmic Debt in Marriage or relationship, jealousy, lies , diseases can be part of major root of problems.

Venus in 2nd House = (After counting 6 from 2H) =

venus is really in a good position but things related Marriage, partnerships , partnership dealing,past relationships topics can be the problems in your love life or in your marriage.

Venus in 3rd House = ( After counting 6 from 3H) =

your in laws , partner side relatives or peoples debt , toxicity, debt of karma . Transformative face of relationships or your shared resources like money and things related to sexuallity matters can cause damage to your relationship.

Venus in 4th House =( After counting 6 from 4H) =

Teachers, people who are like mentors for you, your gurus and your father or father figure in life. Your traditional values can be problems in your relationships , culture related or culture or traditional difference. Your sister in law or brother in law can cause problems in your marriage or relationship.

Venus in 5th House = ( After counting 6 from 5H) =

Things related to your workplace, work environment, your work routine, mother in laws and father in laws, authority and your ego can create problems in your relationships or marriage, your reputation or your partner reputation, public image of you and your partner, career of couples can be root of problems .

Venus in 6th House = ( After counying 6 from 6H ) =

your desire in life , elder siblings, your friends or your social Circle, daughter in law and son in law , your goals can be the root of your relationship.

Venus in 7th House =(After counting 6 from 7H) =

your grandparents, hidden enemies, high chances of curse ( pitra dosh or Matr dosh ) , spirituality can be the root of problems in your marriage and relationship.

Venus in 8th House = ( After counting 6 from 8H ) =

yourself , your nature, your approach and your physical style, appearance can be problems in your marriage or relationship.

Venus in 9th House = ( After counting 6 from 9H) =

your financial problems or your finances, your possessions or in relationships, your values in life can be the root of your marriage and relationship.

Venus in 10th House = ( After counting 6 from 10H ) =

your communication style, communication style method,your siblings, your Mental state, short trips, your arrogance can be problems in your marriage or relationship.

Venus in 11th House =( After counting 6 from 11H ) =

you family, your home matters , your mother, your emotional state , your emotions, your deep can be problems in your marriage or relationship.

Venus in 12th House =( After counting 6 from 12H ) =

your life after children , matters related to your children, your followers you love Language or ways to show love can be problems in your marriage or relationship.

Hope you like it

[bouquetface]

D1 & D9 Chart & Marriage & Wealth Outcome - IRL EXAMPLES

Moon conjunct Jupiter Scorpio 8th H in D1 - This woman was told by an astrologer she would have a wealthy spouse. However, this was not the outcome, the couple struggled financially. The astrologer failed to take into account Moon is debilitated in Scorpio. Furthermore, received harsh aspect from Mars and Venus.

This person had malefics in the houses next to the Moon too. Saturn in 7th, Moon conjunct Jupiter in 8th, Ketu in 9th. When Moon is sandwiched between malefics rather than benefics, the Moon house is weakened. This placement can counteract positive placements in the chart - so her Jupiter conjunct Moon was unable to give the expected results of wealthy spouse.

D9 Taurus 8th H ruler Venus in Pisces 6th H - An exalted Venus ruling the 8th may give the impression of a wealthy spouse too. However, benefics do NOT do well in the 6th H especially if exalted. This person struggled financially after marriage and the spouse left for their lover.

Metaphorically, Venus in 6th especially when exalted lacks the tools to fight the obstacles of the 6th house. In this case because it is in D9, the spouse was lazy and indulgent. The spouse lacked the intelligence needed to solve problems. And eventually chose an escape from the marriage.

7th H ruler in 6th of D1 or D9 - Now whether this is a malefic or benefic - this is a strong indicator of divorce. Especially if aspected by Mars. 7th ruler in 6th shows the root of the problem is the marriage/spouse. This is a karmic combination too - it often guarantees marriage just for the marriage to fail.

Ex.1: Aqua 7th H - Saturn in 6th - This indicates a long divorce process. Especially if saturn is aspected by malefics, your partner may try to hurt you via the court system. This person experienced post-separation abuse from their first spouse.

Debilitated Planet in 10th H in D9 - This can indicate a short marriage if seen in a chart w divorce indicators. For example: Mars in 10th is said to indicate a long relationship. However, this person had it in Cancer. The marriage ended after 4 years.

Saturn conjunct Moon in Cap 4th H in D9 - Malefics do not do well in the 4th H. In this case, Saturn held the lowest degree - dominating/weakening the Moon. The comforts and happiness in this marriage were restricted. This is mainly the result of struggling financially for a decade+.

This conjunction received aspect from Jupiter. Thus, the marriage did not break despite the struggles. Although, a lot of misery was experienced. Moon is the 10th H ruler too so conjunct Saturn indicates a long-lasting marriage too.

[shukraastro]

Vedic Astrology - Future Spouse Prediction:

Name Meaning part 1

In this post I will show you an interesting technique on how you can predict the themes behind your future spouses name. I have applied this on many people and it has always fascinated me how it played out.

For that we use the D1 Rasi chart and look in which Nakshatra the 7th house lord is placed in. Next we look at the Nakshatra lord (the planet which rules over that Nakshatra) and again in which Nakshatra that planet is placed in and look at its lord again. Then we have two planets (if your 2nd Nakshatra lord happens to be the same planet you can also look at the sign lord, this works as well).

Your spouses names meaning will fall into the themes and archetypes of these two planets - the first name, middle name and last name. You do not need to go further than two planets because until now I have only seen this work with two chaining Nakshatra lord planets.

Let me show you an example:

Brad Pitt

He has Taurus in his 7th house, the 7th lord is Venus and is placed in Uttara Ashadha Nakshatra which is ruled by the Sun. We keep Sun as the 1st planet. Next we look where his Sun is placed. It's placed in Mula Nakshatra which is ruled by Ketu, therefore we keep Ketu as the 2nd planet.

We look at the themes of Sun and Ketu.

Sun: anything related to the Sun itself, light, happiness, vitality, everything that shines, holiness, family lineage, (family) pride, father, nobility, prestige and many more...

Ketu: anything related to roots, history, ancestors, culture, anything mysticism, connections to other realms, higher beings, spirituality and religion, faith and many more...

If we look at the meanings behind the names of Jennifer Aniston and Angelina Jolie, we can see the themes of Sun and Ketu playing out.

Jennifer Joanna Aniston

Jennifer derives from Cornish and Welsh and has the meaning blessed lady (Sun themed)

Joanna means Grace of God (Sun/Ketu themed)

Aniston which in Irish is a reference to the town of Agnes (Ketu themed) and in Greek it means holy (Sun themed)

Angelina Jolie Voight

Angelina means Angel (Sun/Ketu themed)

Jolie means Joy (Sun themed)

Voight is a surname which refers to a specific lineage from Germany and carries the meaning proud and honorable (Sun/Ketu themed)

As we can see both his ex-spouses have names which fall under the Sun and Ketu archetype.

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With this technique you can kind of get an idea what kind of a theme the meaning of your future spouses name is going to have. In my next part I will list all the planets and will give some archetypes as example for each planet, just like I did with Sun and Ketu here.

Hopefully this was helpful and explained in a comprehensive way.

Thanks for reading. See you soon. 🪐

Link for part 2:

[letmeoutofthebasementt]

Hyunjin Jealousy

SKZ Jealousy series pt. 4: (when they're in a serious relationship do they get jealous at all? What makes them jealous if they get jealous? How do they act in a relationship? What's their response/behavior when jealous? How do they handle it?)

He’s jealous. EXTREMELY jealous. He is jealousy. Jealousy is him. Him and jealousy are like Bonnie and Clyde but more destructive and even CLOSER.

First off, this man is sensitive. He’s sensitive and he’s very emotionally mature since he’s been so in-tune with them all his life until he’s not. Until all of a sudden he’s having an existential crisis because his partner touched Chan’s arm so naturally the only sensible response is to end Chan’s entire bloodline. I’m exaggerating but you get the picture.

He gets very irrational when jealous. His jealousy stems from insecurity, pride, and being easily overwhelmed. He doesn’t like being jealous so he acts like he’s not. He puts up this facade of “Oh, you want my partner? Try and take them.” But inwardly he’s having an entire panic attack.

He’s also just very territorial and possessive on top of that which strokes the flames.

When he’s jealous he’s emotional. When he’s feeling territorial he gets jealous. When he’s feeling possessive he gets jealous. When he’s emotional he’s angry. When he gets angry he shows that D1 crashout I know for a fact is in there somewhere.

(Me and my bsf have decided Han is the Baby Kia to his Kendrick. If you get it you get it.)

He gets DEEPLY jealous. I’m talking this impacts his SOUL. When he gets jealous.

Oddly enough, when he gets jealous everything clears. He’s never patient. He’s not a patient person. But his jealousy is very patient. His territorial and possessiveness are all Aries. All mars. Fiery and loud and bright and quick to flare up but quick to go out.

But his jealousy? It’s an entirely different story. His jealousy is all Pisces and water and even has some Scorpio influences due to a few of his placements. His jealousy is quiet and all consuming.

He’s smart with his jealousy. Manipulative even.

Like oh, he sees his partner having a little too much fun with another guy. Laughing too much at their jokes and touching their arm a little too long during conversation.

So naturally, he comes up and doesn’t make it obvious he cares. If anything, it’s the opposite. He acts like everything’s fine and he’s confident and he doesn’t care. But he says little things.

Like “Oh, I didn’t know you were into charity now. Giving out free laughs for those who can’t work for them.” Or some BS like that in his S/O’s ear and they’re just like “����😄😃”.

He’s very passive aggressive with the other person. He latches onto each insecurity he can sense and batters them in the nicest way possible.

Then he slowly gets worse and worse. Like; “You’re so brave for never succumbing to beauty standards. Like, you never got those braces you need so much. Or shaved your unibrow.”

He doesn’t act bothered. But he is bothered. Very bothered. He just smiles and laughs as if nothings wrong and he’s confident and normal and calm. But inside he’s a mess.

I think he’s particularly graceful when jealous. All ethereal and princely in a way that makes the other person feel like a worthless bum in comparison. And he knows it.

He tells himself that.

He tells himself he’s perfect and the best, and he’s obviously better than this person so really they’re not a threat. But he’s threatened. Because he’s insecure. Because he’s so scared of losing his partner to someone else. And that’s where all his jealousy stems back to.

His possessiveness and territorial ness are his nature. There’s no real root because they just are. His jealousy is a defense mechanism and a result of other things.

He gives them chances though. Opportunities to try to sway his partner. To prove he’s better even though he’s not sure himself and the entire time he’s on the verge of a mental breakdown.

Jealousy exhausts him. He doesn’t like it. But he’s helpless to stop it. Hell, it actively makes him feel helpless. Jealousy makes him sad, borderline depressed even. And after he’s in that situation he probably cries a lot.

A lot.

He hates being put in situations like those.

He also gets horny. This isn’t even just me saying stuff the cards and the stars have spoken he gets so fucking horny. Jealous sex is a thing. Honestly, with Hyunjin there’s sex for everything at this point the little shit but that’s not the point we’re not getting into that today.

He has a lot of self-pity during and after getting jealous. He’ll blame his partner regardless of if it’s their fault. And he will DURING the…Devil’s tango too. Is it still slut shaming if it comes out as sexy degradation? Yes. And he’s a D1 slut shamer when he’s jealous.

Definitely a conspiracy theorist when jealous.

And more sex with these cards. Trying to keep this PG-13 at least but Hyunjin’s a little special. Still love him though.

He also has a weird jealousy fantasy I’m not gonna think about the implications of let alone get into.

Definitely anxious attachment style.

The type to send a “Damn what position y’all in?” Text if you leave him on delivered for too long except he genuinely means it.

He thinks it’s intuition. It’s just anxiety.

Also sucks up to his S/O after getting jealous.

He gets jealous over everything. No one thing in particular, but just… Everything. He gets jealous quick and like I’ve said he gets aggressively jealous.

Jealousy definitely starts a lot of arguments. He says cruel things, gets cruel things said back.

Also did I mention he’s a D1 crashout? I know FOR A FACT if he catches his partner cheating or even getting like fondled he is CRASHING. OUT.

But that’s for another day

May the force be with you if you have the misfortune of being the cause of a crashout.

[13lunarstar]

About Karakamsha

In Vedic Astrology, every chart tells a story: a story of destiny, purpose, and hidden yearnings. When speaking about life purpose, Vedic astrologers pay attention to Atmakaraka in the natal Rasi chart, or the so-called Soul planet. This is the planet with the highest degree in the Rasi chart. To better understand life purpose dynamics, astrologers look at Karakamsha - the placement of Atmakaraka in Navamsha (D-9) Chart.

If you have ever wondered:

"Why do I feel restless even when things seem perfect?"

"What is the true purpose behind my experiences?"

"Where does my real fulfilment come from?"

Then, understanding Karakamsha might be the missing key. By studying the Karakamsha in the Navamsa and projecting it back into the Rasi (D1) chart, we learn about:

The soul's mission beyond ego or worldly roles

Hidden talents, spiritual strenghts and weaknesses

Obstacles to self-realisation

Final spiritual direction

In other words, Karakamsha tells you what your soul secretly longs to do and what you must master in order to fulfill your destiny. It can explain why some people feel empty despite material success - and yes, this is because their Karakamsha is unfulfilled.

How to evaluate Karakamsha:

Check Atmakaraka in your Rasi Chart. Take a note of the planet.

Find this planet in Navamsha Chart

Check its sign (is it a fixed sign (Aquarius, Taurus, Leo, Scorpio), mutable (Gemini, Virgo, Sagittarius, Pisces), or a cardinal (Aries, Cancer, Libra or Capricorn)), and the house (kendra/ dusthana/ upachaya)

Analyse all planetary influences on Karakamsha (benefic and malefic)

Some particularities about Karakamsha:

Karakamsha in Kendras (1,4,7,10 houses in Navamsha chart) gives visibility, power, strong life direction, and opportunities to express the soul’s calling directly in the world. It also shows that the soul's objectives are central to life’s major activities.

Karakamsha in Upachayas (3,6,11 houses) gives its effects within a time as Upachaya are growth houses. Initially, the soul’s purpose may seem somewhat challenged, delayed, or hidden. With time and effort, these houses strengthen, leading to great success after maturity (typically after 30–36 years)

Karakamsha in Trikona houses (1,5,9 houses) is the most auspicious. It shows that the soul has strong blessings from past lives (Purva Punya), ancestors, teachers, a sense of natural support and inner purpose, which is usually felt already at an early age, and relatively easier alignment with its destined path, if the person listens to intuition and inner calling. Soul path is aligned with Dharma (the righteous way). People with Karakamsha in Trikona houses are often "protected" during crises - divine help appears when needed.

Karakamsha in Dusthana houses (6,8,12 houses) represent hardships, loss, obstacles, and transformation. The soul has karmic debts to work out in this lifetime, therefore,soul mission fulfillment takes serious efforts. Spiritual evolution is often hidden behind struggles, crises, and surrender.

Karakamsha in various signs:

Cardinal signs (Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn):

Nature of the soul: dynamic, pioneering, action-driven

Soul’s Desire: to initiate, build, and bring change to the world

Life pattern: periods of constant motion, new starts, leadership roles

Challenges: restlessness, impatience, burning out after starting but not finishing

Fulfilment through: courageous leadership, creation of new systems, embracing challenges without fear

Fixed signs (Aquarius, Taurus, Leo, Scorpio):

Nature of the soul: steady, determined, rooted.

Soul’s desire: to preserve, transform deeply, and secure lasting achievements

Life pattern: resistance to change, intense loyalty, slow but powerful growth

Challenges: stubbornness, over-attachment to outdated methods, and internal emotional battles

Fulfilment through: deep commitment to values, internal mastery, and legacy building

Mutable signs (Gemini, Virgo, Sagittarius, Pisces):

Nature of the soul: highly adaptable, intellectual, evolving

Soul’s desire: to learn, teach, communicate, and expand consciousness.

Life pattern: multiple phases, constant learning, journeys across mental and physical landscapes.

Challenges: indecision, inconsistency, scattering energy over too many pursuits.

Fulfilment through: sharing wisdom, embracing change, and refining ideas into service for others.

[magnus-marmot]

TMAGP 40 reaction

Spoilers!

I was properly expecting for the Starkwall guy to show up with a flamethrower and set the entirety of Berlin on fire. And after listening, I'm pretty sure he would've, if only he'd had access to flamethrowers. In an earlier post I wondered if Starkwall's use of indiscriminate fire was due to incompetence or malice, and I'm currently leaning towards the former. Although I suspect that the guys at the top might actually know what's going on.

We finally got confirmation that Fr3-d1 was developed for Stasi (die Ministerium für Staatssicherheit), so Colin didn't pull "mummy and daddy Stasi" out of nowhere. Heinrich sounds like a lovely lad, though I'm a bit disappointed that no one described his eyes in detail. I need to know if they are snake-like. I'm also less convinced that he's the same guy who's been dealing in other cursed objects, given how he seems to bond with evil children and mostly make toys. Plus the guy who met the violinist in ep. 4 at least acted convincingly like a "fellow Englishman", and Heinrich is definitely not hiding his German roots. Was a fun theory. But I'm not mad because I find it incredibly cute that this ancient monster needs someone to help him with programming so he can start making haunted games for modern children.

Not much alchemy for me to analyse, though a lot of the episode supports my wider theories. We have a toy that gained sentience because its owner started convincing other kids that it was evil. It started to hunger for fear, directly reflecting the intentions of the child. Then, as the stories spread and Heinrich became more ingrained in the collective minds of the children, he gained more power and manifested the stories into reality. Heinrich Unheimlich is just the personification of whatever the children of the current time fear, and more importantly, what his "chosen" imagines him to be. Which fits perfectly with my ideas of the collective unconscious and the shifting ideas manifesting from the mercurial sea. It's also the lunar reflection of specific children's twisted desires (or their shadow). Heinrich even talks about how he represents change, how he's simultaneously a toy, toymaker and the workshop, and how his location keeps shifting. All of which evoke Mercury and its elusive, multiplicitous nature.

I've been stepping away from my DPHW theories for a while since there are some outliers that don't fit the model, which means I have to rethink it. This one fits annoyingly well. The DPHW is 2167, which puts Hunger (Luna) at 6 and Weird (Mercury) at 7, and I just explained how those two seem very relevant here. But we don't even know if the OIAR's classification reflects whatever's really going on. I truly hope we'll get at least some answers next week, though I suspect we'll check in on the Other Side for a bit. What an excruciating time to be listening on release.

[rip-headphones-users]

My Headcannons for how Infected and Kasper operate

Buckle up, this is a long post. Thinking about how characters function in relation to the world around them is basically a hobby of mine, so expect more. (I have others planned for both lampert and unpleasant at the very least)

(Not ship related) (angst heavy sorry)

Kasper’s infection is a brain-rooted/cognito-hazardous parasite

He got it after purposely ignoring a chainmail curse, both as a sort of “fuck around and find out” as well as an outright form of self-harm/self-sabotage.

The parasite is the one that primarily controls all the conscious actions of infected, while kasper now acts sub-consciously.

Its less of a split-mind situation and more of a Venom + Eddie or Gundam + Pilot situation they are two separate entities inhabiting the same body that can potentially act at the same time

It just so happens that the parasite from the chainmail curse has VERY similar desires/interests/motivations to Kasper, so the host/parasite relationship actually works very well.

Infected accidentally makes Kasper lose a decent chunk of weight after it takes over, due to it not being able to feel when Kasper is hungry and forgetting to let him eat

Kasper and Infected can be addressed separately (Lampert, UnpleasantGradient, Folly and maybe a few others know this) and Kasper tends to choose not to respond due to his own apathy, instead opting to let Infected take the lead.

Being able to respawn/no permadeath on the regretevator is the reason why Kasper opted to infect himself, as he saw it as the next closest thing to death/suicide.

Allowing infected to enter his mind has radically reduced Kasper’s lifespan. (He’d be lucky if he made it to his late 30’s)

His nose bleeds when Kasper and infected try to act at the same time

Infected is only transferrable via chainmail

Infected doesn’t feel any of the bodily necessities that kasper has, so its not uncommon for him to collapse of exhaustion, dehydration, hunger, ect. If someone doesn’t remind him.

Infected doesnt feel pain either

Kasper feels it though. A lot.

In fact the whole process of infected entering his mind was incredibly painful as is.

Infected isn’t the reason why things in the elevator/on his own body suddenly lose their texture, neither of them know why that happens now.

They personally aren’t physically effected by it and both find it cool, so neither are bothered.

It’s probably just the result of infected’s malware (thats only technically supposed to effect machines) managing to attach itself to a human. Or maybe Kasper could do that and never previously knew. Who knows. ;)

Kasper/infected can phase through objects that are textureless, including parts of his own body. Anything else will collide as it normally would, and take damage.

Infected will always talk with full leetspeak, (L13k D1$) while Kasper will only have one letter/number substitution (L1ke Th1s)

UG unintentionally named infected that. Basically just looked at Kasper, who had just let a parasite into his mind, and looked at the chainmail virus on his computer, and it went “huh… Bro’s Infected”

Bro is, in fact, infected.

[agentoffangirling]

And on the topic of redesigns, here's how I would redesign the D4 characters. If a character isn't mentioned here, it's because I like their outfits in the movie and wouldn't redesign it much:

Chloe: Brown hair, often styled in braid(s) so they're away from her face from sword fighting. Looks as though she came from the lap of luxury itself with high-end fabrics and materials. A deeper blue for the majority of her clothes, with lighter blues and whites as accents. More feminine, again going into that luxury angle with bits of gold jewelry and sparkly boots. Maybe a slight skirt train when she's not fighting, or a sparkly shirt with ruffles at the end, resembling a skirt

Red: Keeping the red hair, but more muted; I think brown roots would look really nice on her, as though she dyed her hair out of rebellion, which adds to her arc. Natural brown hair could also play into her being less of a VK. Also keeping the leathers, but a ton more black into her outfits to help with the bright red. White is also an accent color, but she has less of it compared to Chloe. More harsh angles and shapes to set them apart, tank top girly instead of the standard t-shirt

Bridget: Red hair, but muted like Red's. Definitely a lot more curls to her, though, and I think she'd also look really cute with a bow. Very extra and ultra-feminine, is obviously rich but doesn't necessarily flaunt it. While her fabrics are high end, she has minimal jewelry and prefers to stick to a more modest style of dressing. Lighter pink for the majority of the outfits to match her hair better but some hot pinks here or there to help her stand out. Puffed up sleeves, short skirts that are similarly puffy (and sparkly) with some type of bottom. Flats instead of boots, nails painted with card designs

Ella: Exact opposite of Bridget. Braids are done in a similar fashion to Chloe's, but a more utility-esque purpose. Denim for the majority of her clothes, keeping that "scrapped together" feel, and very very minimal makeup. Oversized clothing occasionally due to hand-me-downs from Anastasia and Drizzella. Nailbeds are cracked from working so much, and her boots are muddy, form and function over style. Her outfit from "Get Your Hands Dirty" is really what I'm going for

Maleficent: Out with the hair-wrapped horns. Out with them. They're also going to be shorter, not as grown in, and more standing up to resemble the ones from D1 and "Sleeping Beauty". Dark purple hair, darker than Mal's, kept up in a ponytail braid. Victorian clothing with lace, a lot more drapey, almost trailing on the ground. Long nails, purple with green decals. Her outfit is primarily black with dark purple and neon green accents, and her boots are leather with a sharp heel. Black lipstick and a smokey eye to finish

Morgie: I really don't like that scarf. I know it's supposed to resemble a snake, but it just looks tacky. Tighter clothing made of fine materials, a vest with an almost scale-like design to it. Leather pants with that similar scale style running down the sides. Drapey sleeves are alright, but I feel like he could also do without them. Painted nails for sure, though, he would rock a green. More gold decals and a mild green for his color palette Also I think the eye thing should be permanent

[staybabblingbaby]

Felix Tinder AU (First Date Part) A1 D1

[Caution: These are not full fics, or even full parts of fics for some, these are part of my writing progress archive!]

Concept: You match with what you think is a Stray Kids fan account on Tinder. You get along great with the account's owner, and think it's probably your most successful match to-date. Little do you know who's actually behind the screen...

Word Count: 1,543

Notes: I've avoided posting this one for so long because I've ended up doing something completely different, and it's probably going to end up as a hybrid SMAU for the actual thing. Plus, I didn't know Felix was religious when I wrote this and now it feels kind of disrespectful... Still! That's the purpose of the Archive! To see the writing in all of it's stages! So it's going up. There is no sequential part rn, but there is another attempt I will be posting soon that's VERY different.

Warnings: Talking about Religion and Parasocial relationships at one point.

Leave me comments or questions or anything! Love hearing from folks <3

Masterlist | Next Part (Coming soon!)

As you pull to a stop in front of the fanciest hotel you’ve ever seen in your life, you can’t help but wonder how you’d gotten here. Feeling small and dirty in your beat up little car, you pull out your phone. Tinder’s fire-y little logo taunts you as you pull up the chat you need.

Ah, yes. Tinder. The root of all your problems, honestly. Not actually, but it feels like it right this second.

It had all started a few weeks ago. You were going through one of your lonely phases, where you started trying to join hobbyist groups and downloaded every dating app in existence in desperate attempts to at least make a friend. You’d do this just about every year or so, despite the fact that you were never able to make close or long lasting relationships through it, platonic or otherwise.

You’d always end up too busy with work or burn out your social battery way too early into a friendship to be passing up the opportunity to hang out. Not to mention quickly getting overwhelmed with the dating apps and retreating from them post-haste. It was a vicious cycle of loneliness and social exhaustion that you hadn’t figured out how to escape yet.

Tinder happened to be one of the dating apps you’d downloaded. Though you always had ‘NO HOOKUPS’ in all caps at the start of your profile, Tinder had always had great results for you in terms of matches. You’d met several long and short-term friends through the app, though no romantic prospects as of yet. Probably not ever, given Tinder’s nature, but you’d remain hopeful, if doubtful.

It had been during your initial binge-swiping that you’d noticed a funny profile. With just a cute Bbokari picture and a few video game memes in their gallery, the fully filled out profile and simple name, ‘Felix’, had felt intriguing. It had seemed just a bit backwards for what you recall Tinder being all about, regardless of how complicated the profiles got.

‘Travelling the US for a couple months, let’s cross paths!’ read the first line of the profile. You’d weighed the pros and cons of potential long distance and immediately decided that you didn’t care. Your profile was set for friends, anyways, and you‘d long had more internet friends than irl ones.

You’d swiped without anymore thought and lo’ and behold you’d matched immediately. Still riding the surge of social energy that came with deciding you’re desperate enough for dating apps, you’d decided to open with a little joke.

‘So, is this a SKZ fan account on Tinder or something? bc i could b into that lol’

You probably should have expected the immediate reply, seeing as you’d made your account all of 30 minutes prior and he’d swiped on you first, judging by the immediate match. Of course he was online. It’d still caught you off guard though.

‘Something like that lol. You a STAY?’

‘something like that :p’ ‘enough of one 2 have a bunch of their songs on my playlist, but that’s all i’ll say on that’

‘aw c’mon, who’s your bias?’

‘nuh uh, i’ve said enough. k-pop babble requires level 3 friendship’

‘lol alright, i’ll ask how your days been then’ ‘How’s your day going?’

The rest was, as they say, history. The two of you had really hit it off and kept chatting even as you quickly grow overwhelmed and stop your swiping crusades. You tell him about your forays into building a social life and, when that doesn’t pan out, about your latest crochet projects. He, in turn, tells you that he and his friends are traveling all over the US for work over the next couple of months and provides you with silly hotel room anecdotes.

If you never thought more deeply about the coincidence of a guy named Felix having a Bbokari picture on his Tinder profile, well, there were millions of STAYs worldwide. It only made sense that there was at least one Felix bias named Felix out there.

It’s only a few days later that you feel solid enough in your budding friendship to ask a burning question.

‘Not to switch topics (i’m sure my crochet rants r riveting), but can i ask a question?’

‘(They absolutely are) sure!’ ‘I retain my right to silence tho ;P’

‘lol fair ennough’

‘I was just wondering y you don’t have any pics on here?’ ‘I’m p convinved ur not a serial killer by now’

‘I could be, you never know!’ ‘stranger danger’

[pause represented either by text or in fake text tbd]

‘i’m just shy’ ‘I like to talk before anything else’

‘That’s fair’ ‘I’m good at talking lol’ ‘you may have noticed im a bit of a yapper’

‘lol’ ‘yeah, i like it :D’

You had to pretend very hard not to be flustered after that conversation. And also try very hard not to examine why that simple acknowledgement sent your heart fluttering.

You’d quickly switched the subject back to ranting about how black yarn was the devil and despairing about your lack of ability to count. You may be minorly allergic to serious conversations, but Felix hadn’t seemed to mind.

Another week goes by, Felix keeps you updated on his cross-country adventure and you whine about how much you envy his job for letting him travel. He laughs you off and retorts with how exhausting it gets. He seems to be genuinely enjoying the hell out of whatever it is he’s doing though, so you don’t take him too seriously.

As time goes on your conversations get deeper. It’s towards the end of a conversation about religion, belief systems, and community that something shifts between you, ever so slightly.

‘ok but like’ ‘and hear me out here’ ‘religion is a parasocial relationship with a being of dubious existence’

‘lol what?’

‘No but fr!’ ‘ok so, like’ ‘listen it’s like k-pop idols, right?’

‘right?’

‘LISTEN, ok, so you know how, like, idols are basically manufactured to build a parasocial relationship with fans?’ ‘to the point some fans are actually insane about it?’

‘I’m well aware, yes’

‘Well religion is the same thing, i mean, think about it!’ ‘I have not met a devout Christian who wasn’t a lil insane abt their relationship with God’ ‘some are rlly nice abt it, but they literally say “our holy father who art in heaven” and call themselves his children’ ‘THAT is a parasocial relationship!’ ‘It’s the same w idols, right?’ ‘except the relationship is dating or friends or whatever image theyre curating’

‘right’

‘and think about it this way ok’ ‘the reason parasocial relationships are treated with cuation despite our predisposition to them as humans in the digital age is because they get dangerous when people delude themselves into thinking its real’ ‘It’s the same thing with religion except theyre encouraged 2 believe its all real in an attempt to instill them with certain morals’ ‘That’s how you get religous extremests’

‘I hadn’t thought of it that way’

‘and don’t get me wrong! I eat that shit up. I’m on bubble and all sorts. it’s just a facinating parallel between religon and fan spaces and the communities they create.’ ‘some fandoms are more organized than some churches i’ve seen’

‘i think this is the first time you’ve mentioned k-pop since we started talking’ ‘so you’re on bubble, huh? interesting’

‘Noooo my babbling has betrayed me!’ ‘I always knew it would T^T’

‘lol i still wanna know who your bias is’

‘you’ll die wondering’

‘well, then, what are your thoughts about meeting an idol?’

‘what is this, an interview?’

‘maybe’

‘lol ok’

‘i mean, in the vein of all fans, i’d be thrilled? ig?’

‘ig?’

‘Well, i’m kinda scared lol’ ‘idols intimidate me’

‘aw why are you scared?! i’m sure they’re lovely’

‘lol they’d have to b xD’ ‘idk man they just scare me! If i saw an idol in the wild i’d flee, no hesitation’ ‘poof, gone’

‘lolol imagine that poor idol saw you book it the other direction’

‘they’d survive lol’ ‘but nah, yeah, i’d be thrilled to meet an idol but i’d pass out i think’

‘well don’t do that’

‘listen, strangers scare me enough, attractive strangers that i admire very much? terrifying’

‘fair enough ig’ ‘so you wouldn’t talk to an idol if given the chance?’

‘y r u so interested? this is a weird line of question’

‘i’m just curious!’

‘i mean, depends on the context? a fan sign or something i’d probably b fine, if a nervous wreck, but like’ ‘in public?’ ‘I’d prolly keep my distance’ ‘like’ ‘Idols deserve their privacy too, yknow?’ ‘nerves aside, leaving them tf alone would just be the polite thing’ ‘idols are people too, yknow? I try not to forget that, regardless of how godly their music’

‘I agree’ ‘I think they’d appriciate that’

‘right? and, like, if i ever met an idol i’d have to confront the reality that they themselves are real, yknow?’ ‘it wouldn’t make me less of a fan but i’d def feel weird about several fan activities’

‘lol like what?’

‘wouldn’t you like to know weather boy?’

After that conversation, you couldn’t put your finger on it, but something had shifted in your friendship.

[the-returnofartemis]

Hi! How are you? I hope you are doing great. What does it mean when lord of second house i.e. Jupiter is placed in house of virgo (8th house) along with Mars and Venus in D1 chart?

2H RULER IN THE 8H ENERGY IN D1 CHART

8H virgo jupiter + mars + venus

❊ you may be someone who is attuned to transformation and the challenges but eventual blessings it may bring.

❊ you likely are a private person, especially when it comes to your finances and love life. this secrecy isn’t due to having anything to hide but stems from the peace of protecting your inner world. if not, the hidden nature could be from a deep-seated lack of trust in others.

❊ your intuition is one of your greatest strengths – you have a natural ability to understand hidden meanings and read between the lines that others would overlook. you may receive insights through vivid dreams or subconscious cues, allowing you to gain knowledge and perfect your innate skills.

❊ when it comes to finances, you may have strong financial literacy skills and strong potential for accumulating wealth, especially through wills, investments, inheritance or shared resources (business and spouse).

❊ this placement is favorable for property and land development, especially in foreign lands but your financial situation may be cyclical, going through periods of transformation. though with 8H jupiter, you can't have the lows without the highs, meaning that financial opportunities tend to always work in your favor over time and you will always land on your feet!

❊ your self-worth is closely tied to your work ethic and service-oriented nature. you take great pride in productivity and may fear that without your acclimated work ethic, you’re wasted potential. you tend to be highly critical, especially of yourself. your self-criticism may also impact your confidence, making you your own worst critic. because of this, you likely thrive on routine and detailed planning as it provides a sense of stability and peace.

❊ you may often experience unexpected events, especially concerning family matters. what may work for you is to have a structured plan in place to safeguard your ability in handling those situations effectively.

❊ you may find yourself drawn to hidden knowledge, mysticism, astrology and the occult. with these passions, you may seek a deeper self-awareness through research to cultivate a strong sense of self-worth that inspires you to share your knowledge with others!

❊ you likely tend to keep your partnerships private as a way to honor the connection. financially, you are likely to benefit through partnerships, especially in marriage.

❊ you may attract a generous spouse who enjoys providing for you. joint finances may be a significant source of wealth, especially with 8H venus and jupiter. if there are no afflictions, your relationship with your spouse’s family is likely to be harmonious!

❊ you may have a strong willpower and inner strength, allowing you to overcome challenges with resilience. your well-being, especially mental health, is a priority and your happiness is not easily swayed by external pressure.

❊ you may truly enjoy the comfort of your own space as the home tends to be your sanctuary for mental clarity and peace.

❊ your family may play a significant role and you likely have a deep attachment to both your loved ones and your cultural roots. if there are afflictions, your childhood may have come with challenges, but you still uphold traditional values and reciprocate love and respect to others.

❊ you may be highly observant and adjust your affection based on others’ behaviors.

❊ sexual intimacy is deeply important to you but if afflicted, this can manifest as sexual addiction or emotional stress.

❊ you may also idealize partners, which can lead to turbulence in love. with this, your self-worth can become tied to validation, creating push-pull dynamics and emotional highs and lows in your romantic relationships. in the end, you may have a tendency in staying in draining relationships or attracting toxic cycles.

❊ open communication may be crucial for you in your relationships. you crave deep emotional and intellectual intimacy, especially through meaningful conversations, as they strengthen your connection and understanding with your partner.

❊ at your core, you are kind, caring, and deeply giving. you may also naturally look after others and extend that kindness to the world!

these are just a few points that came to mind but i strongly advise doing more research on your placements to gain a better understanding. there's a lot more to consider, especially when looking at aspects and the overall chart. still, i hope this helped in some way!

x

[incorrecttowerofgodquotes]

Project Eden’s Garden Spoilers

I know both the victim and killer, nothing more really, but damn, I was right with my assesment in not liking Eva. Worlds biggest dumbass trophy should go to her

Also fucking hilarious that the game and fans kept pushing the wolf in sheep’s clothing only for Wolfgang to just be a dude going about his day. I hope he and Grace at least had a good full day in the dorm room together, cause they were my number one ship

I guess I can root for Kaimon instead

Also I don’t know if it’s stated in the chapter, but Cara is obviously Wolfgang’s mom right? And that’s why he got so emotional

Finally, I don’t really know where we’re going from here. So far, none of the other characters really have as much presence as Wolfgang or Eva. Sure, the other games killed off important characters in the first chapter too, but there were other noticeably important characters not killed off. D1 had Kyoko and Byakuya, D2 had Chiaki and Nagito, and V3 had Kokichi and Keebo, but none of the other Eden’s Garden characters have that level of presence.

I don’t know, it’s just a premature feeling, but it really seems like the writers tried to go for a bit too big of a twist. I hope the rest of characters can pick up the slack