#(because that just seems like a kinda shitty thing to do. but half the stuff he talks about sounds insane without explanation)

[realredbanana]

which I think is at least partially because I agree with tvmicroscopes perspectives on the yr subtext

//

I'm curious about these perspectives! what are they?

Honestly, it’s kinda hard to explain without either, a, sounding a bit like an insane conspiracy theorist or, b, basically just repeating stuff that he’s already explained but worse.

(If you want to ignore me and just read his posts, here’s a link to the first one)

The main kind of ideas though (+ links to the posts where he’s explained them (although, warning that a few of them are paywalled)) are:

Music is a metaphor for love.

　(which makes the piano scene in 1.03 a bit sadder, but a bit less abrupt)

Water is a metaphor for feelings.

　(rowing generally represents more shallow or fake relationships)

Lockers are a metaphor for secrets.

Stella and Fredrika mirror (subtextually act as) Simon and Wilhelm respectively.

Felice and Sara sometimes mirror Simon and Wilhelm, but, when they do mirror them, it’s not always Felice = Simon, Sara = Wilhelm, sometimes it switches.

Marcus is a “ghost” mirror for a guy who doesn’t exist within the text (let’s call him ‘Person X’ for clarity’s sake) (and is essentially just Marcus but significantly worse, like, take most of Marcus’ defining traits and exaggerate them: dating Simon (doesn’t need changing), 18 (legally an adult), manipulative, and works at/with Simon’s school.. (you can see why I say he’s significantly worse, I want to actually punch this fictional man for what he did to 12-14.5yr old Simon)).

August also sometimes mirrors Person X (but also sometimes Wilhelm or Simon. Which makes that scene where Sara goes to August’s room to talk subtextually super interesting, because it’s basically ‘Sara (Simon) goes to meet August (Person X) and, after some conversation, Sara says “I don’t think you’re the worst person” (or something along those lines) and now it’s Sara (Wilhelm) and August (Simon), having their cute moment (therefore making that scene cute for saraugust, cute for wilmon, horrific for younger Simon)).

　(this also kinda explains why Stella was generally more judgy towards Felice in s3 about the idea of her telling someone about the initiations (ie: Person X) it’s basically subtextually two sides of Simon deciding whether or not to tell someone about what happened, one side feeling like it was “just a relationship gone bad” and that it was his fault that it even happened, the other side realising that they need to tell someone about it. Another scene that’s got this kind of thing going on in it is Sara and Simon’s argument in 1.06, both of them are subtextually Simon in that scene, with Simon being more rational yet a bit invalidating, and Sara being a younger Simon who felt like he wasn’t protected from Person X, that Linda should’ve paid more attention to what was happening. (In summary, young!Simon was (and still kinda is) dealing with this heartbreaking combination of feeling like it was his fault that everything with Person X happened, but also desperately wishing that someone would’ve prevented it from happening)).

Rousseau is/horses are an allegory for the line of succession.

　(hence why I was, privately, slightly pissed at Wilhelm in 3.05 for suggesting that he might get back into riding, because it was clear it was just another way he was trying to play the Perfect Crown Prince to appease his mother).

[seneon]

waiting for hours ──── seishiro nagi x fem! reader.

about. in which, nagi awaits your arrival at home for hours. pure fluff oneshot. wc of 1.2k.

notes. this is like, the highest rated chapter in my my oneshot book in wattpad. so im slapping this in tumblr too and happy belated bday to koala boy!! for @hyoismbbg ♡

𝐓𝐎𝐃𝐀𝐘 was the first time during this year that nagi was able to arrive home early from his football practice. and by early, earlier than the time his lover's work finishes.

he freshened himself up, ate some food in the fridge and waited. it was 8:42pm, almost an hour and a half for you to finish your work.

the football player, now playing for a professional team, was basically bored out of his mind. he could play games until you've returned, but the man had played every game in the universe.he could watch anime, movies or anything. but those would bore him instantly.

honestly, everything is boring to him nowadays. the only thing that would keep him entertained is football and you.

you were practically the same as him, a lazy person who somehow managed to be a successful writer and be in a relationship with another lazy athlete.

nagi waited and waited and waited. for what seemed like hours, he kept waiting for your presence to shine in his day. but every time he checked the clock, only a few minutes passed from the previous.

as tired as the white-haired male is, he decided to make you some simple yet cute supper, prepare your essentials for when you returned from work. nagi even set up your little table in your shared room by the window for when you read or do some planning for tomorrow.

he eventually lost track of time while trying to make everything in the house perfect so you didn't have to do anything else when you came home. an hour or so had passed, and nagi still didn't hear the door twist open.

you yawned, tired from the meeting you had at your publishing company. really, sometimes you wish you could boss around rude people and shut them up from their shitty opinions. but business is business. and rude people didn't really matter anyways.

you set everything the way it is, and stop in your tracks when you see the kitchen counter filled with a plate of delicious food.

the apartment looked pretty neat and clean too. when you looked around in suspicion and curiousity, some of the recognisable things belonging to your boyfriend were laying around freely.

that was when a smile crawled up your cheeks. your mind traveled to nagi who prepared the food and cleaned up the house— just as he walked out the room, an annoyed expression on his face.

"i thought you were never coming home, after i prepared everything for you," he pouted with a poker face, definitely disappointed at how late you arrived home.

"ah— my bad. thank you. you're home early," you shot him a lazy smile before he walked towards you and pulled you into a lazy hug, completely embracing you in his huge form.

"yeah, practice kinda got canceled because coach's wife got into trouble.”

since you were way tinier than him, you practically squished under his body, melting in the warmth of your lazy, sweet loving boyfriend.

he smelled like mint and fresh sugary frosting, from the body wash you gave to him as a present on his birthday. it was a scent that pulled you in so much it froze and destroyed all the negative comments that were written about your books.

as much as you didn't want to separate the hug, nagi gently plucked himself away from you, sternly looking into your eyes.

"eat, and go take a bath. then we can sleep together. practice might be cancelled tomorrow too if coach's wife's trouble is still ongoing.." he trailed off and shook his head. "ehh whatever just go. i made food for you without burning the kitchen and prepared stuff for you in the room."

you chuckled and nodded your head repeatedly, trying to keep in the laugh with his ridiculously sarcastic get funny words. pretty much whatever nagi said could be funny to you.

"i won't doubt your effort. thank you again," you tiptoed and gave him a quick peck on the lips, heading over to the kitchen counter to eat your supper.

the peck made nagi blush. it was the first kiss you gave him this week. it is monday night, the start of the week. and you kissed him yesterday. hah. humour. nagi keeps track of kisses he gets from you.

anyways, he wanted more kisses from you later so he watched you eat while conversing a little about both your writer job and athlete jobs.

then, he waited for you to take your bath, freshen up before you bailed out your little window corner and jumped into bed with nagi.

"thank you, sei," you thanked him again, as he buried his face into your hair, inhaling the fresh scent of your shampoo. "you've thanked me three times already. you're welcome though..."

your fingers moved to lace themselves in the soft fluffy hair of the male, moving around to ruffle and gently play with it.

nagi's hair was fairly soft, like cotton candy that would melt when it came in contact with liquid. it could even be on par with the clouds albeit you've never felt clouds before. but you just know it was more soft and fluffy than anything else.

you found it awfully cute that his love language is physical touch, so much that you often see him as a cat. and for a fact that nagi only needs and wants your attention, not from anyone else because you are everything to him.

the male hummed when your fingers played with his hair, an odd calmness filling over the mind and body of the athlete. you always managed to calm him down, physically and mentally. he loved that it was a good trait of you that he fell in love with.

"i love you," he said against your neck, his breath touching your skin as you couldn't help but smile at his words. he was random, sure, but you know when nagi was being genuine and sarcastic. now, he meant every word of it.

"i love you too," you replied softly, your fingers moving, trailing down to his cheeks to caress his chiseled jawline and softly stroke his cheeks.

such a work of art, you thought to yourself when you faced him and looked into his eyes.

how could a man be as angelic as your boyfriend?

you felt so blessed to have nagi in your life, never regretting that you made the first move for being friends and eventually he would later on give you a lazy confession that was conducted by his friend, reo.

"you're really beautiful, love," he felt himself smile when the both of you were staring into each other's eyes lovingly. "so beautiful.."

"and you're very handsome," you chuckled, going closer to his face. you kept the tiny distance for a moment, having a small time to admire nagi's grey eyes.

nagi then closed the distance between you both, his lips ever so softly closing in on yours to give you a lovely kiss.

it was filled with the purest intentions of showing how much he loves you, nothing else than an innocent kiss that was focused on appreciation and love.

you both pulled away at the same time, your arms wrapping around his neck as his own snaking around your waist to pull you close.

gosh, you love hugs when it comes to your lazy gigantic boyfriend. he always gives you the best ones.

"let's sleep now, okay?" he placed a soft kiss on your forehead, letting you reply with a nod before pulling the soft blanket over you two.

"i've been waiting for hours to cuddle you to sleep. good night, y/n.”

© SENEON 2024 ♰ do not repost, alter, or translate.

[linkons-most-wanted]

Love your high school AU! How would you rank the LIs with respect to their overall academic performance and considering how much they actually care about it? (I feel like Zayne would be first place but Sylus is kinda competitive so...)

Oooh I love this question!

Smarts-wise, Sylus and Zayne are neck-and-neck. They have different kinds of genius. Sylus is intuitive and Zayne is methodical.

I think Sylus is simply too ADHD to care enough about grades to have his GPA reflect his intelligence, though. 😂 Teachers that vibe with him (by having reasonable and non-shitty policies) would be giving him A+ across the board, whereas in other classes if he thinks the homework is stupid he's just not going to do it. So he'd be the classic student where the teachers bemoan that he's "not living up to his potential". But he writes some damn good poetry.

Now Zayne, on the other hand--give him a rule and he's going to follow it. The man simply cannot do anything half way, and he's masochistic enough to do what needs to be done to get the grades (lookin' at you, med school). As a quintessential type five, he simply will not rest until he knows All The Things. The grade is secondary--if he can't ace the test, then he doesn't know All The Things and so he must study more.

Caleb's the one that's going to get really competitive. He's as ADHD as Sylus, but you think he's gonna let pipsqueak see Zayne be better at something than him without a fight? Hell no! Caleb will be casual about it at all times, of course, but as we know from Pathless Realms he was a top student at the Aerospace Academy. He's also going to subtly avoid topics he might not be as good at, packing his schedule with things that come easily to him. (Very type seven of him.)

I'm totally blanking on who made it, but I saw a lil comic about Zayne and Caleb where Zayne had no idea he was top of the class and Caleb was checking the rankings daily and trying to give Zayne a hard time, but Zayne was totally oblivious, and I just thought that was spot on. 😂

Xavier is definitely next up--he's mentioned that he got good grades in subjects he cared about, but not the others. So, he's up there, but def has a B- or a C+ floating around in there 😂 He's also maybe fallen asleep during a midterm or two...

Then we hav our dear fishie. Rafayel is as averse to being told what to do as Sylus, but completely unmotivated by status or money. Any time spent in class is time not spent on art. Any time studying is time not spent on art. Why exactly do I have to do anything that's not art? seems dumb. I'm sure he's got his teachers begging him to turn in the extra credit assignments so they don't have to fail him for the year because wow yeah his art is incredible.

It's not that Rafayel isn't smart. He picks up on more than people realize--as his teachers find when they try to call him out for doodling in the back of class and he immediately gives a complete and correct answer. But if he got really into a painting this week, yeah he's gonna skip the homework. And maybe he'll put in an effort for 70% of the test, but that's probably good enough, and he's gonna circle C for the rest of the questions and go back to doodling (probably MC) in the margins of his notebook.

Art history though? He can teach that class--and he does. Substitute teacher who? Just say something vaguely controversial and you can't stop Rafayel from talking about it. All that math stuff is for someone else to figure out. (Poor Thomas 😂)

Rafayel is also 100% going to pretend to be confused to get MC to tutor him. "I don't get it, can you explain it again?" (He already aced the homework last week.) Being doted on by her sweet, earnest, diligent efforts to explain? A million times better than getting A's.

So it's definitely Zayne > Caleb > Xavier right at the top of the class rankings.

Then, whether Sylus or Rafayel have worse grades depends a lot on whether Sylus sees an opportunity to drop out and start his own business. Why compete with other high school students for a piece of paper when you can be out there making real money, y'know?

If they both manage to graduate, they're pretty even in terms of DGAF energy 😂 But they'd also both be way higher in the class rankings than other people expect. The delinquent and the artist who never does his homework in the top 25%? What? How!

[mellowsaturns]

at the end of the day

summary: after another failed date, you run into bucky barnes on the way home and the two of you get caught in the rain

warnings: fluff, dancing in the rain, talks about love, romcom vibes i hope, pining bucky

wc: 1.7k

a/n: inspired by the talk @jadedvibes and i had a while ago heheh. men suck sometimes but we gotta put our trust in rom-communism and that everything will work out at the end :)

How many horrible dates will you go on to realize that you're never going to have your happy ending? 

The thought plagued you as you walked down the street. You were going to give up on love completely this time, you promised yourself.

You were deep in thought when a soft voice interrupted your pitiful reverie. 

“Oh?” you said, eyes widening in surprise. “Bucky, what are you doing here?”

A light chuckle filled the air between the two of you before he spoke. “I live in this neighbourhood, doll.” 

You mentally smacked yourself on the forehead. “Oh, right. I forgot.” 

His mouth curved into an amused grin before he took a good look at you. “What are you doing here?” he asked, but he had a feeling he already knew the answer. 

You looked down at your outfit, one so different from the usual attire you have on at the Tower. “Isn’t it kinda obvious?” you teased, though your voice’s laced with defeat. “I was on a date.” 

He hummed, “And how’d it go?” 

“Let’s just say there isn’t going to be a second one,” you answered, finishing off with a sigh.

Bucky winced. “M’sorry it didn’t go well.”

“You don’t have to be sorry,” you said, “It… it happens a lot, I’m used to it.” 

His brow creased in confusion. “Used to what?”

Did you really have to lay out your shitty love life in front of Bucky Barnes? 

You twiddled your thumb nervously. “Going on bad dates,” you stated, “Never finding anything meaningful from them. Always going home with the feeling of disappointment. You know, the usual.” 

Bucky frowned. He never realized you had problems with the whole… dating thing. At least you didn’t look like it whenever he saw you around the Tower. You were a joy to be around—always surrounded by people. How could you possibly have problems with dating? Half the department was already in love with you. (Not that Bucky was keeping records on names or anything. Maybe a little.) If you had problems with love, then what about someone like him? 

Now that you voiced your problem out loud, you felt a bit better. It’s not that you couldn’t find someone—there’s plenty of someones out there—but none of them made you feel special or seen. That spark you were always looking for seemed to be nonexistent.

Maybe the problem was that you were too picky, your standard was too high—too unrealistic.

Or maybe you were the thing you feared the most.

“Sometimes, I feel like there’s something wrong with me,” you confessed. “No, there must be something wrong with me. Maybe the stuff you see in movies does happen, just not to me because no one wants to put in that effort with me. Maybe, I’m unlovable.”

You never thought you would be confessing all this to him. 

Bucky took a minute to digest your words before speaking again. “Hey,” he said softly. “Don’t you dare blame yourself. There’s nothing wrong with you.”

Looking into his eyes, you wondered if he truly meant it, or if he’s just being kind like he always was. And as if he could read your mind, “I mean it,” he added, reassuring you. 

“Then why…” 

“These people you go on dates with,” he jumped in, “They don’t even realize how lucky they are. You’re amazing,” he said, a gentle smile spreading across his face, “And if they don’t see that or don’t make you feel like you’re on top of the world, then I guess they weren’t that great to begin with. They don’t deserve someone as wonderful as you.” 

You were speechless. Bucky and you weren’t strangers but calling him a friend seemed a bit too… intimate. You don’t even have his number for Christ’s sake. The two of you were just two people who worked in the same building and saw each other frequently and talked here and there. But why did his words mean more to you than any pep-talk your friends gave you? 

“I-l—” you stuttered, “I don’t know what to say. I’m honoured that you think so highly of me.”

If you only knew what Bucky thought of you. He doesn’t really know when it happened, this growing feeling inside of him, but seeing you had become his favourite part of the job. He always tried to spark up small talk (much to everyone’s surprise) but the both of you were busy, always getting whisked away mid-conversation.

Today was the first time he saw you outside of work, in his neighbourhood nonetheless. Perhaps this was his chance—finally some alone time with you. He felt like there were a million things to say, but of course, it came out wrong, as it always does. “I always think about you.” When you raised an eyebrow at him, he corrected himself, “I-I mean I always think highly of you,” he corrected, a tinge of pink evident on his cheek. 

A small chuckle escaped from you, and you had to look down bashfully, trying your best to hide your flusteredness. I always think about you.

You wondered why you never paid more attention to the Avenger who always had business in your department. 

“That’s really sweet of you to say. If I’m being honest, I was genuinely ready to give up on love tonight,” you said with a small laugh.

Bucky swallowed. “Loo—” Before he could finish his sentence, something wet landed on top of his forehead. Then another one. And another one. It had started to rain. He could have sworn that wasn’t the predicted forecast tonight.

The two of you looked up, letting the steady gentle rain hit the surfaces of your skin. It was probably a good idea to find shelter, maybe stand underneath a roof for the time being until the unexpected summer rain went away.

But the two of you just stood there, completely still, looking ridiculous to onlookers. And then you bursted into a fit of laughter. “Sorry, it’s just… I always imagined what it would be like to be stuck in a storm.” 

He grinned. “And how is it?” he yelled through the pitter-patter. 

“Hmm. Not as romantic as I thought it’ll be,” you noted amusingly.

Bucky met your eyes for a moment, then swallowed a breath. “Dance with me?” he asked, extending a hand towards you. 

You raised a brow, heart skipping a beat at his words. You would be lying if you said the hopeless romantic in you never imagined yourself in this position multiple times. You just never thought it would be with Bucky Barnes.

Taking his hand, he led you with small slow steps. 

“You must’ve done this a lot back in your days,” you teased playfully.

Connecting his eyes with yours, he confessed, “This is the first time I’ve danced with someone in the rain.”

Bringing you in and out, and then lifting your arm to twirl you around while the water rippled beneath your feet, it felt like you were suddenly transported elsewhere. Like a movie you had seen on screen that had you swooning. Or a novel you had read late into the night with a gigantic smile on your face. You almost expected some low jazz to start playing soon. But even if it didn’t, it would’ve been fine, because you had the soft glow of moonlight peeking out from behind the clouds, the summer rain, and Bucky with you. It was already enough to set the scene. 

He looked particularly boyish tonight with his hair sticking to his forehead. You had the urge to sweep the strands away.

You let out a small yelp when Bucky dipped you down before pulling you back up so you were pressed into his chest. You were glad the sound of raindrops masked your beating heart. 

He was a bit rusty, he knew that. It has been over seventy-years since he danced with someone. He couldn’t believe how you would think no one wanted to put in the effort with you. He would dance with you in the rain all the time if that’s what you wanted. Would probably do anything you asked of him, if he was being honest.

You’re not a very good dancer, you had to admit. But Bucky was leading you through the whole thing, even smiling down at you when you accidentally stepped on his foot. 

You wondered how many people this beautiful and charming being of a man had swept off their feet before. Hopefully, he still had space in his heart for you. Because you were completely wooed.

As the rain slowed down and sky started to clear ever so slightly, you realized that the spark you were always complaining about not feeling—it was here, in this very moment, ignited from the touches between the two of you. It was there the moment you took his hand. Giving him another sneaky glance, your eyes lit up like a thousand stars.

Maybe the right person was in front of you all along. 

Bucky doesn’t know how long the two of you stood there in the aftermath, looking into each other's eyes. It’s the brightest thing in the city, he thought.

Moments later, you removed yourself from him. “Well, the rain stopped.” 

“It certainly did,” he said, sounding faintly amused. 

“I guess I should get going,” you said, though you were still lingering around.

Bucky, who was soaked to the bones, asked, “Should I take you home?”

You shook your head. “I’m okay. My place is only a few stations from here. Thank you for offering though.” Maybe next time.

Before you completely escaped from his vision, he shouted your name, causing you to pause in your steps and look over your shoulder. “I hope you’re not giving up on love.”

You bit the inside of your cheek, trying to fight back a smile.

How could you?

Bucky Barnes gave you a million reasons to believe in love again. 

[carigm]

MAJOR POTENTIAL SPOILERS/LEAKS REGARDING S5 (WARNING)

Last Spring/Summer, a semi popular fandom account on Twitter got sent some leaks about S5, focused on the first half of the season. At this time, many fandom accounts were receiving supposed leaks, so our attention was a bit scattered and we didn’t focus on any of them too much. A popular leak account on Twitter (unrelated to ST) also mentioned that they had gotten the first half of S5 leaked, and that this source is “never wrong”. Now, it is hard to tell if these leaks are the same as the ones that the specific fandom account I’m talking about received, but something to keep in mind. Her leaks were given to her by a person named James (which I assume is a fake name). These leaks were also posted on Reddit, last year, by her (the person in the fandom that got the leaks from James) but some major things were omitted in that post. I’m gonna leave a link here in case you guys want to read the discussion.

I’m sharing these leaks with you because some things from them are kinda lining up with what we’re seeing from S5 production. Keep in mind that these could be fake/wrong, and James himself said he didn’t have info on the last couple of scripts.

According to James, Mike dies in Ep. 3. I’m adding more screenshots later for more context, but the gist of these leaks is that Mike bites it, mlvn never breakup nor do they get a resolution, and Byler is left up to interpretation but never really happens. (I don’t really need to get into how shitty this all is writing wise)

Let’s go over the things these leaks might have potentially gotten right, according to what we know so far.

1. James said that the time jump would occur in ep. 1, after an establishing scene where S4 left off. He said the time jump would place us in late 1987/early 1988. He also mentioned there would be a series of flashbacks showcasing stuff from before the time jump. The dates he gave do seem to be accurate, and David Harbour had a shaved head right before they went into filming, which could imply pre time jump scenes.

2. According to him, after Mike dies, they find a letter he had been writing. Some of us were theorizing Finn had a letter in his back pocket in those rooftop pics. Could’ve also been Finn’s script and he just stuck it there (who knows).

3. He said that Joyce gets badly injured in ep.3, and since there’s speculation Winona was seen filming at the hospital, some people think that means she was taken there because of her injury. It’s important to notice that Natalia, Cara, and Finn were also supposedly seen filming at the hospital, and that the production called for many extras for nurses and paramedics. So whatever they’re filming at the hospital, it might be bigger than Joyce getting injured in her leg. Let’s remember Max is at the hospital too. I’m not 100% sold on this part of the leaks.

4. Today it was revealed that they’re setting up to film at Stone Mountain. (This is where they filmed UD scenes for S4)

Apparently production might have purple tentacles out already. (UD vines?)

Cara Buono mentioned, in that video shared by Ross Duffer, that she was filming stuff from Ep.2. This was around 2 days ago.

The people that know about the leaks think this is where Mike dies in ep. 3. Here’s some further context:

Here’s some stuff he said about mlvn:

Which is just….meh, because like I said, it doesn’t look like him and El ever breakup before his supposed death. Plus Byler never gets any resolution.

Now some things that might disprove the leaks (I’m trying to be impartial here)

1. These leaks mentioned Argyle a couple of times, saying he has a hero moment at some point. Eduardo made it sound like he’s not coming back to the show, but tbh he could just be lying. He’s listed for ep.2 on IMDb (and yes I know anyone with an account can edit that site)

2. These leaks say that Mike is very insufferable for the 3 episodes he’s alive, basically lashing out at everyone, specially El, and just overall behaving like an asshole. I really didn’t get that from the ElMike rooftop scene, in fact he seemed very gentle with her. People that know about these leaks think that the rooftop scene is Mike maybe apologizing to El and them having a heart to heart, right before he dies (no comment).

All in all, if Mike is dying this early, I’m sure we’ll know soon enough. The rest of the cast is gonna be filming for like a year, and Finn will be done in like two weeks 💀

I also hope there’s more leaks soon (on Reddit) so that we might compare them to these and see wtf is up.

I know someone is gonna inevitably ask why leaks would be out almost a whole year before they started filming when we usually get them during filming or post production, but I’ve been told these leaks happened around the time the writer’s strike began, which is when they were originally gonna start filming. I was also told other shows had issues with leaks around that same time.

I don’t want to get too much into the truly awful writing we’re facing if these are real but…First, I believe it’s a total disservice to Mike’s character. One of your mains since S1 and you don’t even offer him the option of dying towards the end of the season? Even fucking Eddie got that. Two, it seems like a very easy cop out for not having to make Byler canon. Let’s just have neither ship be endgame and that way we don’t get queerbaiting allegations. It also stands in a zone too close to torture porn for my liking, because sure let’s kill the character two of the most traumatized characters in the history of TV love most. And yes, it’s also a disservice to El and Will’s characters. And lastly, if that supposed letter vaguely alludes Mike having some sort of sexuality problems (we don’t know atp) it is pretty fucked up they just killed him off like that. Sure let’s not explore any of that, but give a half assed explanation via letter ex machina. This is looking like Supernatural finale levels of bad to me.

Another point, I distinctly remember the Duffers saying, after S4, that they could never kill off a character like Mike because it would be too painful, and that ST would cease to be ST and lose its identity. They didn’t want to be like GOT. I sincerely hope they actually meant this and were not trying to be cheeky or whatever the fuck.

It would be genuinely insane, and quite frankly, a highlight of their lack of writing abilities.

I hope the leaks are wrong, but I felt like it was necessary to warn everyone just in case. I know I’m not watching something this awful.

[iminaworldofpureimagination]

thoughts on cait critics.. from someone who liked caitvi more in s2 than s1.. I like messy stuff.. ya'll are boring.

I also ship jayvic which is mesy/ timebomb which is messy t to me timebomb is more toxic than caitvi cause they tried to MURDER eachother in s1 and jinx killed his friends. so people insisting that caitvi is the worse of em all confuse me.

every post against Caitlyn from arcane i feel being gaslit as they act like she murdered 100s of people and I just.. don't remember seeing that happen .. I do rem seeing Jinx murder ekkos friends/enforcers/kidnapping people .. Like one woman can commit terrible crimes but another is hated for commiting terrible crimes.. because one is rich and the other is poor

when the poor woman traumatzined the rich woman that doesn'tmatter because.. she's rich..

.. The hate for caitlyn as a poor person who does hate the Police.. it just makes no sense to me. when again one woman can commit murders and get no hate but the other woman did cait kill people? I found it a bit unclear .. gets hate for not even doing half as bad as the poor woman did.

adding on Viktor was planning to bascially kill turn people into mindless Androids and that is also snooze on by people.. REally out of every character commiting crimes. Caitlyn falls below Jinx/Ambessa/Viktor... and is the only one getting any hate for it.. So this is what arcane critics/cait haters to me are really saying. We love BAd Bitches when they're Straight Jinx/Ekko or Gay Jayce/Vik But bad bitch lesbians are bad because.. a poor woman can't possibly get with a rich woman that's oppression. and V i is her pet? like what? That's so shitty to say. caiti criticis really be out here thinking vi should just exist for Jinx in the end.

as a poor woman myself if i fell in love with a rich man/woman I'd wouldn't feel oppressed. I never saw cait/vi as oppressed and the only one who was in the way of em to begin with was Jinx and sorta Silco

.. But again it seems only the Poor can get away with Crimes and murders because they got trauma so its excusable.. but a rich person acting out of grief =evil monster. man.. for cait critics its nothing but hypocrisy and gaslighty to me by saying cait is bascially a white supresmist when the girl is Asian for one.. so the people calling her white are wilding.

to me Viktor/Ambessa/Jinx/Silco/ did way worse than Caitlyn ever did. and lets not forget Silco having Child Labor. and ruining his fellow people with drugs for his own selfish gain. . he was no revolutionary he was out for himself and sure cared about jinx but his idea of Zaun was Rulling it with an iron fist. Silco having its independence wouldnt have helped zaun at all it just let him get away with his drug spree. he was not going to save zaun he just wanted freedom to get away with hurting Zaun with his Drugs. anyway out of every character doing terrible crimes Cait to me goes in this lineup arcane Viktor for trying to turn everyone into midnless magic robots tho how much control he was in is beyond me. I like him btw esp in s1. Ambessa for killing a Kid *btw I loved her anyway she is a GILF to me * and she did a lot of horrible shit I mean everything else she did in gets pinned on Caitlyn haters give her zero agency. .. doesn't seem very proggressive to me to ignore the black woman actions but people love to do this. Silco: Drug Lord who exploited his people used child labor/ klled a CAT/ Killed his friend/ is the reason why Power/Vi lost their family in the end its kinda to bad its barealy brought up more like jinx/silco relationship was kinda weird.. it def wasn't wholesome.. it gave off harley/joker vibes to me the first time i watched it.. and I kinda dont like that he knew powders mom all along butohwell. Jinx: Murders of Firelights/ Cops you dont got to like cops I hate em too but she still killed People its still a bad terrrible thing to do/ Kidnapping/Terroist attack on a captial building when she was the one who killed silco. I dont hate her for any of it as the shimmer messsed with her head but its all so terrible and i feel s2 babied her/softened her more she felt more tame and less.. maniac .. to make her redemption more.. passible.. I was acutally looking forward to Game Jinx and got.. a tame Jinx compared to s1. /She also did gas people in Piltover/Children were seen watching it that is ignored by cait haters Caitlyn now I won't deny her gassing people is a shitty thing to do and i found it rather unclear if it killed people or not.. but i dont think she killed 100s as people keep insisting she did.. I wont defend her hiting vi I'll just say it was done after vi said she was acting like Jinx the woman notchild who killed kidnapped Caitlyn/killed her mother so acting out of grief and rage not gonna say its right it just make sense in the moment. And We also see Jinx hit Vi Twice at the end of s1 and kidnapping her own sister after knocking her out. Then in s2 jinx hits Vi when vi comes to get her out of prison and locks her in the cell instead.. So Im just seeing nothing but double standards. that boil down to Cait is rich =bad . Jinx is poor=good. when the real message of the show is.

An Eye for an Eye makes the whole World Blind..

I swear i wasn't even a big fan of caitlyn then i saw a bunch of hate that confused me. I wanted to see her go full blow Evil and Commit Terrible Terrible deeds and felt she was too tame.. but not according to tumblr purists.. she was evil I just.. missed it.. my main criticism of the show is really that her dicatorship plotwas to.. Fast. to many music vid montages/ and honestly the Au ep.. not needed Isha dies and then we get a whole new world? wasn't a fan of that.. /wanted to see Vi spiral more than a music vid too.. thats my criticism to much music vid segments.. the sex scene also made sense and vi didn't know jinx was sucidial.. she isn't the Audience I didn't even catch what jinx meant.. Cause ending the cycle doesn't =im going to commit vi prob thought it meant jinx was gonna blow something up cause that was how jinx handled grief in the past.. so no she didn't have sex knowing jinx is suicidial. she did it because.. She wanted to do it. It was the right time and not Male Gazy as aBisexual woman I thought it was Cool I enjoyed it.

man i really thought tumbr would embrace a w/w ship.. never expected it to get so much hate .. disappointing.

[jazzy-art-time]

Thanks

CW: cooties

It’s that Turkey thanks day here where I’m at. So I figured I would be that cringe fucker who gets overly insightful on today for a change.

But I figured I would sit down and tap for a second for anyone who would glance over at me today.

This past year has been, a lot for me. Good n bad and stuff but.

I wanted to say thank you to my friends. My dear friends.

I don’t think I would be the man I am right now without you and your support.

Like literally, prolly wouldn’t have been Raymond without you. You helped me test out everything and become comfortable with becoming Raymond. I can never be thankful enough for that, I’m closer to who I am and want to be even. I cannot express my thanks enough for that.

You guys support my artwork and my characters so much. You guys let me yap for so long and you let me send so many paragraphs for hours about my shitty ass stories and OCs. You’ve listened to so much Jolene Bennet and Pinky BrainRot you deserve awards. It seems silly but it means a lot to me that you guys are willing to listen to me insanity. I’m not that interesting of a person, so my characters are all I’ve got going on, it just means a lot that you are willing to listen.

You have also had to bear witness to the Birth of Jarble as well as its continued development. Which is very special to me due to why I made Jarble to begin with. It means the world that I can feel comfortable sharing it, developing it, getting tips and bouncing ideas back and forth. Jarble went from a shitty AU I made to escape from everything into something I hold dear to me. It’s special now, it might have died out and fizzled. So thank you for helping me create something special. Also the fact that I’m willing to share my writings with you guys show how much I trust y��all, my writing sucks and you are the few who get to witness it. I will say however, fuck you for the sheer amount of Jeden emojis, he haunts me and you do this to me I’ll get you /silly

As well as you guys aren’t afraid to call me out on my shit. If I’m doing something wrong, if I’m being out of line or overreacting… you call me out. You come to me and talk and help me get better as a person.

You were in the trenches with me when I became a Aggressive, Distrustful person who snapped and was going crazy because I was being stalked. Helped me gain the courage to speak out when I got doxxed by Travis. Stuck with me when I had to change antipsychotic medications and I went absolutely batshit and had to go to the hospital. When I was stuck in bed for nearly two weeks because I was practically almost dying. You guys… for whatever reason. Stuck with me.

You didn’t have to stick around, I never would’ve judged you if you did. But you stuck around, you came to me and laid it all out on the table. You told me when I was being unreasonable or that I was hurting you with my actions. You helped me when you didn’t… really have to.

And you continue to help me, I’m a better person now and I know that. I don’t think I would’ve gotten as better as I am without you.

You support me, you help me when I’m lost or confused, you talk to me… you share Garfield things with me or if I’m upset you send a picture of your dogs or just.. you do so much for me.

I am forever thankful for everything. I’m not good at expressing emotions, I never have been. So perhaps it’s all just nonsense what I’m saying or maybe I’m repeating myself, I don’t know.

But thank you.

For everything.

I love you guys and I wish I could be better at explaining it… that way I’m not dropping a mile long scientific paragraph on you every few months

And a thank you for my Followers as well.

Which sounds like, cocky or something to say. I don’t know, feels weird standing here going “AND TO MY FOLLOWERS” but it’s hm.

ANYWAYS.

Thank you lot for sticking around!

Within the past year and a half I’ve… been different! I cut off all social stuff for the longest time and then went radio silent a lot posting wise. Almost all my blogs kinda went nonexistent. I deleted a lot.

And then I randomly went “hey guys look at this story I’m working on called Jarble. I will tell you absolutely nothing about it.”

But y’all still? Stuck around.

Which I know I’m just like, another guy on the dash posting stuff. So perhaps it isn’t that deep as I’m making it sound? I don’t know.

BUT REGARDLESS. You guys stuck around!

You guys watched as I went insane over a AU that I never said anything about. Which might’ve been annoying when you guys asked and I just never answered because I got self conscious lmaO. Yet you guys still showed interest and shared support!

When I decided to update my blogs again, welcomed me back and showed support when I expressed interest in doing stuff again.

Even welcomed me back when I decided to attempt to be social again and join discord servers! Which was… hard for me and a 1000% awkward! Cuz I went insane and then shuffled back like a fool. Yet! Here I am!

You guys keep supporting me, sending me asks and supporting me and my work despite it all

And I thank you for that! I appreciate it and it makes me feel special when you guys appear to show genuine interest in my dumb characters and stories…

I know I’m just another idiot on the feed, but it means a lot to me that you stick around and glance in my direction.

So all in all

Thank you guys.

To everyone.

End of cooties

Edit: also thanks to my fiancé I guess. Whatever. You’re sitting right across from me and I might throw a cracker at you. But you alright I guess. 🙄🙄 don’t choke on the Turkey BabyGirl

[ronearoundblindly]

Hi Ro! I know I'm late to this party, but can I get B and F for Steve?

Thank you! 💜

Never too late, darling! This is tumblr, not a job 😁

This one got away with me. It got weirdly sappy for the categories asked, but I went with general Steve from no particular universe here, plus a nondescript part of the timeline or beyond, could even kinda be AU--if you squint--except Steve is definitely famous in some capacity and was small when young. (I just think he happens to look very cuff-able in this gif so we roll with it.)

These dirty asks from this game are aptly titled, so MINORS DNI.

B - Bondage

He can't exactly be tied up, not by anything commercially available, but Steve surprisingly likes the chance to sit still, take a backseat, and enjoy experiencing your enjoyment. He used to be so small. He assumed he'd never have the power he does now.

The restraints, as useless as they are, work as a calming tool to shut off his brain for a while. He's not responsible for anything. That's nice. Very freeing. The act of binding him is in itself roleplay; he's playing small and weak.

He's noticed something else, too.

Over the weeks and months you two have repeated this ritual of tying him up, and you both understand just how much it doesn't remotely hurt him, you've grown...more aggressive with the bonds. It's only when you're tying them--never an ounce of it in anything that follows--but he watches and realizes that you relieve frustration by pulling harder, knotting tighter, heaving around until their just so.

At this point, since Steve can do nothing else, he loves to see it. He's heard short and vague accounts from you, of shitty behavior, of innuendo, of back-handed compliments about how you do so well even with Steve. How his reputation must boost you. How you don't have to work so hard or be good because he'll carry you. How your accomplishments are all tied to him somehow.

It's not true, but they say it. They mean it. Steve can do nothing but let you physically yoke him down in your life, even for a few minutes. The weight it seems to lift from your shoulders is worth any momentary sting he might feel.

No. Steve doesn't mind the bonds at all. He even hates that you can't restrain him for real. He wishes he could give you that. Then people might see that you're just that powerful and you've always been that strong. He had nothing to do with it.

Okay, one sec, let me pull myself together here. YIKES.

IT BECAME ITS OWN FIC! [Entwined]

F - Food Play

[Fools Rush In Steve a.k.a. Sketch is notoriously anti-crumbs-in-the-bed, so he is 1000% not a part of this convo. Sorry, bub.]

YUP. Steve loves to feed you. It's a care thing. He always wants your opinion of all the food on the table, so you have to try everything. Here! Try this. The fork is already by your lips and he's smiling eagerly.

In the bedroom? Oh yes, he is very fond of licking sweet things off you and having them licked off him. It's one of the things that seems to tickle Steve the most--body and soul--and it's so playful. He even gets to lean into having a fast metabolism and needing calories after his workouts. If he drizzles honey or chocolate syrup on you, or hilariously fizzes too much whipped cream out of the canister he has not gotten the hang of yet, then that's a snack and a half. That's multitasking. That's just good time management, ya know?

Savory stuff is for meals and the table though. There's none of that that gets played with during sex. He's never outright said that's a rule, but it seems obvious when there's never been a crossover event.

Super random shout out to Steve having a bit of a thing for champagne and licking it off your neck after he deliberately splashes or pours it there. The bubbles tickle like hell and the cold is so shocking, but whatever, he loves it.

🙄

Thank you for asking!

Ack, I can feel in my bones that the bondage one might end up as a one shot. I am in so much trouble.

[Main Masterlist; Dirty Asks Masterlist; Ko-Fi]

[nevermorgue]

Hii :3

Do you have any headcanons for misfits if they were in steampunk/fantasy au?

I love your headcanons so much <3

Hi anon! Thank you sooo much, you don’t know how happy it makes me that people actually like my stuff LOL

Fantasy time? Fantasy time. Imagine your standard DND world with steampunk technology. Let’s see…

- Lenore is a human artificer. And in this universe we can actually KEEP her family’s influence with the railroad.

- Her family’s trains and steam powered machinery are more than just that- they use magical components to be more effective and better than competition.

- Lenore and Theo were still very musically gifted here. Can’t take away that sibling bond

- maybe in this universe Theo died under more mysterious/foul play circumstances? Giving Lenore a motive to go and form a party and all that

- maybe Lenore was present and got injured/lost consciousness and can’t remember what occurred that day. got her hip injury from it

- then her father keeps her locked inside not only to protect her from whoever did this to her and Theo, but because with her hip now permanently injured he doesn’t really see her as useful anymore (asshole)

- Speaking of which, she still sets fire to the mansion and ditches at night.

- Steals a prototype of a very fancy gun that her father was planning to make to her sold. Magic, of course.

- Also still resumes the identity of the fictional Leo Vandernacht.

- She fled on horseback from the house and to a small town. This is where the story of the party begins

- Lenore has a kinda shitty cane right now, forced to use a large stick until she can actually find a store that has canes.

- She comes across a small crowd watching a bard perform. A tall, elvan man using illusion magic to entertain while also somehow playing a floating lute without touching it.

- As she stops to peer over, she feels a hand poke at her “cane” with a clicking tongue sound

- “Goodness, how is this supposed to support you at all?”

- Lenore sees- the same man. Turns out he has his illusionary self performing while he goes around to loot the crowd for anything that looks valuable. A very shifty bard indeed.

- This is how Lenore meets Duke, an elf bard that uses his charisma and many skills to draw crowds and hopefully people careless enough to leave valuables unattended.

- oh speaking of Duke. So I can keep his French. French = Elvish here. Let’s pretend.

- Lenore makes a lot of jabs at him for what he does, but he insists that the performing is his main thing and that’s what he loves. He only does the ‘look around for things to take’ deal in richer areas where they won’t notice losing a few things. Think like…a better Robin Hood.

- He gives her exactly 5 gold pieces and tells her to get an actual cane. After some more banter and light hearted jabs, he just decides to go with her. They’re fast friends.

- Lenore ends up getting a nice cane that supports her hip far better than an oversized stick could ever do. She vaguely explains her circumstances in half truths to Duke, who then decides to take her to the tavern.

- The walk between the store and the tavern is where they meet Pluto…because he tries to pickpocket Duke.

- Duke doesn’t even seem phased. He just shakes his head in fake disappointment, lifting Pluto up by the scruff of his cape.

“Again, mon minou? How many times must we go through this?”

- turns out they know each other. Pluto is a human rogue who has lived underneath this town his whole life, using theft to barely scrape by. He tried to rob Duke once and now it’s like a little game. Duke finds it amusing, and Pluto honestly keeps trying just to see him again.

- Now the three are a trio!! Lenore keeps jabbing at them both for being thieves, even revealing that she stole most of the items on her person as well.

- Pluto and Duke doing the same thing for different reasons: listen. Pluto using theft to survive, barely holding on. Duke doing it to make a statement, someone who has plenty but takes anyway to very slowly make an influence on the world both through performance and helping others. Nice little “doing the same thing for very different reasons” thing.

- Tavern time. They meet an adorable Eladrin girl who is working there as a waitress named Morella (Paladin of course). She’s a student in town and this is her part time job.

- They also meet Berenice and Eulalie here. Berenice is a tiefling fighter, Eulalie an aasimar sorcerer. They’re actually part of the local adventurers guild and are celebrating a recent victory in which they took back a village from a raid.

- Lenore takes interest in the guild, which leads to them all sitting together with Morella frequently coming by to chat.

- Oh yeah Pluto definitely has met them before too. He made eye contact once with Eulalie while he was sitting on a roof and he nearly fell off.

- He’s seen Berenice underground. He doesn’t know what she does, especially watching her go between the dangerous underground and to the surface, but he watches her wrap her bleeding knuckles with concern.

- This is the start of something new for her, something she can tell is worthwhile. All of the people she’s met since coming to town have already started to mean something special to her.

I did WAY more than I expected i’m so sorry anon-

[xoxochb]

PRUE you're getting a yap sesh at 11:50pm (tx time) bc i feel the need to YAP and i feel safe w you 💔

so anyways!!

my ex and i broke up 9 months ago right? it was supper messy, he did and said things about me my sweet boy would never say or do. WELL he got together with someone 2 DAYS AFTER we broke up. then broke up w her to get w someone else (2 weeks after we broke up) and then finally settled in november w this other girl (2 months after we broke up), and tbh, we are STILL in contact!

did he hurt me tremendously and make me lose myself?

well yes!

did i cry in school everyday almost all of first semester?

you know i did!

do i still love him even though he traded my pics for another girls pics 3 months into our relationship and said nothing for a whole year?

i unfortunately do still love him, because i know things about him he hasn't even told his current gf. im the only one who knew about his therapy and his crippling fear of it, im the one who saw sides of him she has YET to see!! so yes, i still love him, even if he isn't necessarily mine

i can see he isn't as happy with her like he was with me, even my bestest friends who hate him say they dont seem as happy. now! with that said dont think im a piece of crappp!! (just yet....)

i will not be getting with him ever again if they were to break up because he was willing to cheat on HER with ME?!?

i SWEAR this is like a wattpad fic bro!!

long story short, we went on a school trip and we ended up walking around the highest floor, just talking, kinda reminiscing and then we made our way to the stairwell....

he literally told me himself that despite them being together for half a year, he still misses me and all the crap we used to do. (freaky and non-freaky stuff) i was flabbergasted tbh. he js talked about how he was used to the way i loved him, and that he cannot get used to her way of love and im js there like ????

and THEN tell me why he dead ass had the AUDACITY to ask for a kiss and say "no one would have to know"

BITCH I KNOW WE LYING?!?

like he's such a piece of shit i HATE that i love him! and like, my friends get mad when i say that i still love him despite everything he did to me and everything i see he's doing to his new girl, that's still my baby, yk??

UGH i dead ass sound like a piece of shit but i feel like only the ones who have experienced genuine love with a partner, and then had to leave while still being so deeply in love with them, will get it???

not me tryna validate my shitty behavior :(

its so bad bro, its like my soul yearns for that bitch.

almost everytime we text, he's like "i miss your family" (and ngl i miss his too...) or just something about the things we used to do and it makes it so HARD to fully move on

and like im fully aware im doing this to myself! but i cant help it.

sorry for that long ass girly 💔

I get what you mean w the missing him part because I miss my ex friends who treated me like shit but what I miss is really just how close we were. but idk he lowkey sounds like an ass I’m sorry 😭😭 but I feel like men can be so dumb sometimes cuz he’s texting you how much he misses you yet sees other girls??? idk don’t ask me to explain the male mind 💔💔

[breeyn]

Canada Post is on strike as of today, which means I lose the way I pay for my life during the time of year small artists might actually make money. On the surface, this is a dispute between the union wanting a cost of living wage and Canada Post desperately trying to keep their costs down so people will still use them.

Thing is, I don't have a lot of choice. I have to use them.

The real issue here is Amazon. This is Jeff Bezos' fault at the foundation, but also, kinda everyone's fault. I know, I know, we're reliant on Amazon for a lot of things because we're all so fucking broke because Bezos has all of the money. But just like economists predicted, the Amazon model sets expectations.

I am a small artist. I make everything with my own two hands - even my prints. Every single part of what I do is done by me. And I get yelled at quite a bit for things taking long or items getting lost or shipping costing too much. When you demand money back on Etsy, the artist pays for it, not Etsy. And in my case, I've already honoured my side of the deal - making and shipping the item. But I'm at fault if stuff gets lost, even if I did everything perfectly. And a lot of tiny artists like me hide the real shipping costs. If you think the shipping rate on stuff seems decent, I guarantee you it's cuz the artist is paying for half of it, they just hide it in the price of the item because we know high shipping prices make people not buy our stuff.

We aren't Amazon. We're not fulfillment centres. We don't have our own trucks taking everything everywhere. I'm carefully sourcing, creating, and packing stuff by myself, usually walking it to the post office.

Buy local, but also, buy small. I mean, you can't buy anything to be shipped in Canada right now, but if and when we get our service back, please support small artists. You're literally giving us money to live, and to keep making new things. This is going to make Christmas really, really shitty for a lot of people, myself included, and this year was already pretty shitty.

Also, I love you, so many of you *have* supported me, and it means the world 🖤 Thank you

[redflagshipwriter]

Reassembly 7

masterpost

Days went by. Peter got a lucky break and a short job offer. He holed up in the library and designed a website for a veterinarian’s office. 

Of course, that left the problem of payment. After the first day of working on the website intently he went out at night and got together all the information that he'd need to make a bank account. It was a tedious process that required going to multiple offices and faking an address. 

He barely slept that night. Nerves, man. But he got to a local bank and his paperwork apparently passed muster. 

…Was that fraud? 

Peter shrugged that thought away. It kinda seemed like the least of his problems at the moment. He was an interdimensionally stranded homeless teenager. He wasn't hurting anybody by lying so that he could find a way to feed himself. 

He was dropping weight at an upsetting rate. His only regular meal was the early morning buffets. Out of desperation he had started going to more- 5 hotels in a morning, and hitting a much bigger radius to avoid being noticed in the same places. He ate at all of them but more importantly he snuck out whatever food he could. It wasn't enough. He never got close to enough, but he had a payday coming. 

He only hung out with Kon once that week, guilty at the idea of going over to mooch food. Peter was busy, anyway. In the hours the library was closed he needed to go to the gym and take care of his hygiene, to break into offices, and to dumpster dive for more discarded clothing. 

He got more socks and a package of underwear, which did a lot for morale. It wasn't as stressful as his first attempt. He was able to be pickier now, at least. It wasn't like he had a ton of space to store anything. It was so frustrating to wash his clothes in the sink with body soap because he could never get them all dry. He ended up splaying things out on the library roof and just hoping that the wind didn't take them away. 

He got to the point where he couldn't go any further on the website without all the copy from the business. Peter spent his library hours reading history and current events and science. He spent an hour reading about the test he'd apparently need to take to get a legitimate qualification for college. He needed 50 dollars to sign up, and that was almost all the cash he had… 

He grimaced through actual stomach pains about it, but Peter forked it over and got signed up for the next test. 

He ended up spending a dollar and ten cents at a dollar store for a shitty phone cord to charge the old flip phone. He regretted it the next time he turned the thing on and found out that the service had been suspended.

Peter wasn't proud about it but he cried. He put his face in his hands and he cried. Everything was just so hard, all the time, and he was tired. 

The veterinarian got back to him with about half the information he needed. Peter plugged in their business hours, programmed a scheduling system, and amended the comments form. He still needed their logo. He waited on that and he studied for his test. 

It turned out that he had underestimated the cultural differences here. He ended up going through an online list of the most commonly read novels in high school and frantically read as many as possible. 

Kon showed up while he was walking to the library one morning after breakfast. Peter pulled up short to keep from walking into the guy and let out a frankly embarrassing sound.

“Hey, Pete,” Kon said breezily. He ignored the yelp like he hadn't even heard it. “So I was thinking that if I wanted to go to college there's stuff to do? And I don't know what.” He waited expectantly. 

“...There's a test,” Peter offered. “Gotta sign up.” 

Just like that, he had a study buddy. They tried to get him signed up that day but ran into difficulty with paperwork. Kon was cagey about it. Peter took him at his word the next day when he said it was handled, expression pinched. 

Studying with Kon was a little weird because the guy was like an encyclopedia but he also clearly thought he was a dummy. He could rattle off any formula that Peter asked about, knew dates and names, but he was basically petrified about writing a short answer question. Peter tried to be encouraging, but he didn't really know if it helped. It didn't hurt at least.

Days passed and became a week, then two. The veterinarian’s office paid him and left him a nice review on the freelance website. Peter did not spend a cent. He made endless lists ordering his priorities and plans, hands shaking.

He had almost a thousand dollars. That was a lot of money. It also really, really wasn't. 

What he wanted to do- he wanted to get a hotel and sleep in a real bed, as long as he wanted, and to feel good about eating the complimentary breakfast. But that would be wasteful. Wouldn't it? He didn't literally have to. He should save everything. No, he should buy more food– but if he got restaurant food it was a waste, it was much cheaper to cook- but he couldn't, without a kitchen.

Peter talked himself in circles that way, hands fisted in his hair. It was about an hour past midnight on the day he'd gotten paid and he was in the library, on the couch that wasn't really long enough for a teenager to stretch out on. 

Well. Peter sniffled. The inhalation brought with it the slightly musty scent of his clothes. 

He could use a laundromat, as a modest splurge. Hygiene was crucial. Hand washing the clothes had kind of been working but it was probably a better measure for stretching out between proper washes than a substitute for using real fabric soap. It wasn't irresponsible to maintain what he owned and to make sure he could pass in general society.

Peter felt a little better after deciding that. He rolled into the sofa to bury his face in the back. Honestly. He could just give himself a small budget without doing much to sabotage his savings. Say, 50 dollars? 

‘I absolutely need to eat more,’ Peter decided. He bit his lower lip. The occasional dinner with Kon only went so far. 

So. He needed to get something that was cheap, relatively nutritious and calorie dense. Portable, too, since all he had for storage was the bag.

…come to think of it, he should probably wash that too. 

“Alright, I have a game plan,” Peter muttered to the empty library. “In the morning I'll wash everything, then go to a grocery store.” 

Thankfully he was able to fall asleep after that. He bounced his leg up and down as he waited for the washing machine to finish.

Cheap, calorie dense foods. Obviously, rice or beans would have been best, but he couldn't cook that. The library had pitchers of hot water for patrons to use with tea bags but they weren't going to be hot enough to actively cook rice. 

…Oatmeal. Instant oatmeal would work that way, though. He could scoop some into the paper cups and - well, it would be a little weird, but not that conspicuous. 

Laundry took a very long time when he didn't have anyone to text, or a functioning phone to do it on. Peter briefly considered if he could prioritize getting a phone plan, and then decided not really. He took out his notebooks, which were nearly full at this point. He had the slightly anxious thought that he was going to have to buy another one soon. Oh, heck, he'd need a whole bunch of stationery if he was going to go to college. He let out a shaky breath, thinking of all the things he absolutely had to have, never mind the things he wanted to have, like a bed. 

‘Maybe they'll have cheap dorms. No, wait, if I stay in dorms then I'll be homeless between semesters.’

Peter buried those worries down deep. He needed to deal with them, but it didn't have to be right now. 

His vague plan worked out at the store. He got a bag of oatmeal for a few bucks, and then got himself a few supplementary treats. Aka, a little tube of nice toothpaste, a cheap nail clipper, a bag of protein bars, and a bunch of bananas that he carefully nested on top of the clothes in his bag. He ate one as soon as he left the store and threw the peel into the trash can. 

As soon as he had access to a kitchen, he was going to buy like, a big bag of rice and beans, a bunch of onions and bell peppers, and like two seasonings. Cumin and garlic powder? Coriander? Whatever. Oh, can't forget salt and pepper. 

The point was that he could eat so much more and so cheaply as soon as he had a stove and a pan. Peter bit his lip and promised himself that he was going to get to that point as soon as possible. Within the month. 

Oh. He stopped in his tracks. He didn't actually have to wait for the school year to start. 

People walked around him on the sidewalk. He felt like he was in a school of fish. He felt a little alien and silly.

That was so obvious. If Gotham was a nightmare place to live, then there would be cheap shitty apartments there. Sure, the 860 he had left in his bank account probably wasn't enough to get an apartment. But it was a really good start. If he got like, one or two more jobs and didn't spend much of the money, he could find the dingiest corner of Gotham and scuttle up the wall with a bag of dried beans. 

Peter did a fist pump and didn't give a hoot that he was in public. He had a plan! A solid plan. Gotham apartment, academic testing, then university: and then, uh. 

Hmm. Peter frowned. There was a bit of a gap in his plan there.

Well. Hopefully at university he'd figure out the dimensional travel thing. How hard could it be?

[olderthannetfic]

You know what obnoxious thing I keep seeing in fandom I wish would stop? This absolute need some people seem to have for their ship to be Representation in some way. Shipping is just imagining scenarios between two characters! You don’t need it to be a Special reason or whatever? I have a ship that is popular and people make weird vague comments about how the fandom is racist because both of them are white and there are other ship options that have poc so the white ship being big is a reflection on how racist the fandom is but the thing is…

Look I’m going to be real with y’all the fandom is for the game Detroit: Become Human and let’s just say the two major black characters are basically stereotypes written by a neocon lib boomer in a story that itself is imho…let’s call it tone deaf and corny af rather than overtly racist but yeah. Black folks on twitter regularly mock this game for good reason. It is very much a boomer white man’s idea of the civil rights movement but with robots. The robots sing actual slave hymns. The main character is essentially a light-skinned Martin Luther King Jr (dubbed Markus Luthur King by blktwt lol) and the religious allegories of him as a savior figure are very on the nose. It is bad lol. It’s not that I wouldn’t want to explore the black characters but the fandom is full of young white people singing the praises of this writing while patting themselves on the back about it which is genuinely uncomfortable to be around. Just my 2 cents but the virtue signaling and insane policing around those two characters makes it unbearable to interact with their content it is deeply sanitized and you WILL get death threats if you attempt any nuance or are critical of the (kinda racist imo) way they were written in canon.

The worst part of this is that Markus has a popular ship with a character a lot of people read or interpret as a more soft or femme gay man and you know what zoomers hate? Femme gay men. So obviously this is made to be ‘problematic’ in some way because these people can’t just admit to being femmphobic/homophobic themselves.

Sometimes it’s easier to stick with the boring white characters in the background because they aren’t being closely guarded by stupid reactionary people who are used to flashing their favorite fictional poc characters as tokens of their own goodness and virtue.

--

The pinnacle of this game is that moment when the black lady lectures her son about why they need to run the robot underground railroad to Canada.

I watched some playthroughs. Unsurprisingly, I liked the buddy cops with the good development, not the cringey activism plot with too many foils and not enough development of any single relationship and not the the Women Care About Babies plot.

But if I were going to do something fannish with Markus, I'd write him having a fucked up relationship with his mentor's son post game—the surrogate son who thought the guy was great and the estranged son who knew he wasn't but who has also done a bunch of shitty stuff himself.

It's especially hilarious when tryhards think the problem is not enough people shipping Markus with North as if the slashers are going to be into 1. het and 2. yet another unnecessary traumatic sex stuff backstory for a lady.

Even worse, half the whining isn't even about that Nines fanon nonsense being more popular than Markus: it's about how Markus/Connor would be better than Hank/Connor because old people are ew.

Sorry, children, a lot of people are here to thirst for Clancy Brown and because they'll turn up for any Caves of Steel ripoff. Other Connor ships were never in the running.

[daandyli0n]

hm. have some headcanons about Jill and Anna from Petscop.

my weird ramblings are probably just gonna make sense to me, but i don't really. care. y'all are getting them anyway.

(warnings for discussions of abuse and child neglect)

the very oversimplified tl;dr of this is basically: having Shitty Families and/or Having Something Really Bad Happen In Their Childhood kinda contributed to how they Severely mishandled what happened to Care/Paul (not that it Excuses what they did. just explains How The Fuck Things Even Got As Bad As They Did in my interpretation).

i'm gonna start with Jill because i can like. summarize my thoughts on her quicker and because Her Bullshit connects back to Marvin.

in my headcanons, Jill and Marvin are actually half-siblings. same mother, different fathers. Jill's father was Horrible, to his wife and his kids. but Jill's mother always basically preached to her children that "Family forgives family." you give second chances, third chances, so on and so forth, because blood is thicker than water, after all.

(of course, one day her father woke up violently ill, and died later that day. her mother never shed a single tear about it.

even her own mother's forgiveness finally had a limit.)

even as her mother remarried, and Marvin was born, she still pushed that idea. but even as their other siblings grew to understand the...shakiness of her logic, Jill and Marvin held onto it.

albeit, for very different reasons.

(or, i always found it interesting that we like. never hear any mention of Marvin going to prison. like you'd think that there would've been Some sort of indication of that. but if Petscop were made, at least initially, for Marvin, then why would Rainer have added stuff in there that would've happened right before Marvin would've gone to prison? like, to me, it seems like there are At Least three copies of Petscop that we know of: one that The Family had that Paul then got ahold of (aka the version of Petscop we see in most videos), one that Belle seems to have, and one that Marvin seems to have. and one that he seems to have had since, at least, late 1997, if we want to go by the idea that he was also given Petscop around Christmas. he also seems to have been playing it for just as long. but then that begs the question; how does he have it, and is playing it, if he should've gone to prison?

my personal explanation for this, at least in my own interpretation, is as follows: Marvin was initially arrested for kidnapping and child abuse a couple of days after Care made it home. Jill kinda freaked out about it, because Holy Shit, and her feelings were all over the place. on one hand, What The Actual Shit, Marvin, but on the other hand. y'know. Had Really Fucked Up Views On Abuse That Got Drilled Into Her. so she tries to push Anna into dropping the charges, which. She Understandably Didn't Want To Do. Jill then basically goes "fine then, let's ask CARE what she wants to do."

problem: Care is the LAST person they should've asked to help settle this dispute.

Care, local child who knows how horrible it is to be stuck in a scary place while unable leave from experience, basically responds with "No, I don't want Daddy to go to jail :(" and like. Jill goes "Okay, that's that, either get a restraining order or have me tell him to fuck off, your choice." to Anna. so y'know, there's that. i think both scenarios happened, but Anna sort of knew that the restraining order wasn't really gonna do shit. after all, if Marvin was willing enough to break into her house to kidnap her daughter, it's not like some piece of paper telling him to stay away from said daughter would really do anything.

but Rainer made sure to tell Marvin about what Care said in his letter that he sent with the game:

"I want you to think about that long and hard.

The only reason you're a free man right now is because your own daughter, the very person you hurt, that you practically broke, didn't even wish for you to go through something even remotely similar to what you forced her to go through. She wouldn't even wish the pain she went through on the same person who put her through it.

I sincerely hope that fact fucking HAUNTS you for the rest of your life.")

now...onto Anna. because Boy Oh Boy i have some thoughts.

the way i generally envision her is that she does love her son. really does. feels horrible about what happened, feels like it was her fault (she was...kinda at work though, was the thing. but y'know. Maybe Let Your Kid Spend The Night With Jill, Thomas, And Rainer? Let Her Stay At Their House Instead Of Yours? but y'know. just some thoughts there).

but...she's also dismissive of A Lot, mostly under the pretense of "Well, of course I still love you! We all do! You're still the same person we know! Why would you think we stopped loving you?" only for that to create A Spiral of sorts for Care/Paul (who has basically been abused into believing 1) that no one loves him, and 2) that he's Not, in fact, the person people know. it also doesn't help that he also feels bad that he's making other feel bad, so it just feeds into that whole "Nobody Loves Me, And I Can't Really Fix It" thing that he has going on. it's a horrible cycle that Anna and everyone else don't Fully understand that they're feeding). she just really, Really doesn't know what to do about Any of this. you don't exactly get a handbook for "What To Do When Your (Ex)Husband Kidnaps And Abuses Your Daughter So He Can Turn Her Into Your "Dead" Sister (Somehow)." she wasn't prepared to handle any of that. i view her as more or less going along with Jill and Thomas' nonsense with the channel, because maybe either they've convinced her that this can help her make up for everything that happened, or she's convinced herself of it.

long story short: she cares deeply for her son, but Is dismissive of some of his feelings (not all of them; she fucking Despises Marvin for what he's done, that they both agree on). but Boy Oh Boy she does not understand at all what the fuck to do here. like Jesus Christ.

but there's other stuff that complicates things.

so like. she and Marvin were both there when Lina "disappeared," and in that way, Anna feels like Marvin is the only person who really understands. she clung to him for years because she was convinced that she wouldn't be able to find anyone else who understood.

and Marvin took advantage of that fact.

like. i've seen people compare Amber (the Ball Pet) and Anna, because they're both represented by the color blue. and y'know. something something "She’s afraid to leave home. If her home is good, this is not a problem." something something Amber was given a trophy for not leaving her cage. something something the fact that Amber even views the cage as "good" in the first place.

in my post the other day where i rambled about Lina, i briefly mentioned that Lina and Anna's family weren't...great. to expand on that a little: their family was really neglectful, leaving the kids to fend for themselves a lot of the time. they just kinda shrugged when Lina went with Marvin and Anna, only for the latter two to come home without her. they didn't get concerned until two days went by and she wasn't back yet.

there's a reason Lina didn't tell the hikers that found her who she was, and just let them take her home with them. why she let them adopt her.

Anna stuck by Marvin for years, and vice versa. it was codependency, albeit much stronger on Marvin's end.

Anna stayed as long as she did, even as Marvin grew more controlling over her and Care, because she was scared of losing the only person who understood.

her final straw was when she walked in on Marvin plucking Care's eyebrows out, while her daughter was sniffling and crying. it was more the fact that he hid it from her, and that Care clearly seemed distressed about it, that did it for her.

she ignored Marvin's ramblings about Lina and "rebirthing," and just harshly told him to get the fuck out.

so you can only imagine how badly Care getting kidnapped must've retraumatized her, if we keep in mind the Windmill Incident with Lina, and how that might've traumatized her already.

even through it all, even as she came to hate her ex-husband for what he'd done to her, to their fucking daughter, there was still those feelings. of feeling incomplete, of feeling like she was missing something still.

she hates him, but she misses him.

so it results in this sort of...directionless feeling for her. she just doesn't know what to DO. hence why she also got involved with the Petscop stuff.

(so yeah, Anna's not...the greatest mother, to put it lightly. but like...y'all can't sit there and convince me Marvin was exactly a great husband. like. You Know What I Mean?)

hope that literally any of this makes sense. it does to Me in my brain.

[theoryfan205]

So i was thinking about Don Quixote and how he'd be in a modern au, and i got curious: how different would Cecilia and her life be in a modern au? What kinda occupation would she have, and would her strained familiar relationships be the same? (I know the poison food stuff probs wouldn't be a thing to deal with in this au, but yeah) would her family still be a rich powerful one, and if so, what industry would they have gotten rich from?

Ohohoho modern au??? It'd be a very different life for Cecilia, considering rosemary and her apothecary I'd guess that her family would mostly be doctors and medical professionals, the kind of people who make medicine of all kinds, while I don't think them having like a secret poison trade beneath the surface would fit in a modern au, it might shit gets fucked but considering the more focus on put em in the real world they're just a bunch of doctors, maybe more shady doctors who focus on profits over health thus relating in the poison relation? While in game (no spoilers I haven't even started the quest this is me guessing from stuff I already know) it seems they got rich from simply being a standing family in rinascita's history nowadays that's not a stable thing, so instead of that they might own a large hospital firm or business, though the fisalia's are more secretive, while the montelli's branch out a lot they tend to stick to their corners in partners and the like, so maybe an underground hospital? For like shady deals and that's how they get rich and they just have a regular hospital to cover it up?

Fisalia family business does need more thoughts but for cecilia specifically I can guarantee you her relationship with them is still strained, she might get pressured growing up to focus on medical studies and join the family business, but her interests instead lie in theatre, she joins a fencing club in her posh high school and claims it's just a sport but in reality she learns it because she wants to use the moves on a stage to perform. Though considering they can't do half the evil deeds they normally do Cecilia might not fully be ready to realize leaving would be best, no carnevale and no fucked up god drama means no realization and count down to a choice, plus less religious trauma maybe? At least in the "i think I like my family's equivalent of Satan over the god they all worship" way, she wouldn't be in the same spot of running away, but I think she'd be close to it? Like uh maybe she's in college or something? Not entirely separated from her family but like just enough where they won't raise an eyebrow and she can still branch out and realize she's in a bubble, secretly in a theatre program but she has to limit her appearances in public performances lest word get out and her family hears, unlike regular Cecilia who is closer to knowing the truth of her family and their love modern cecilia has no such benefits, especially if no forte which I'm pretty sure it won't be but just in case, eh? Without mirror Cecilia to push the repressed truth to the surface she holds it in more and more until... Well, it's going to explode one way or another, mirror cecilia and her attempts made that explosion normally less destructive but modern cecilia? Considering her family would be high end she would be under more pressure and she's likely due for a massive crash out.

She might work at her family's business? Maybe a chemist over straight up hospital though, she doesn't prefer handling chemicals but she knows her way around it due to her family so they likely handle it a lot too, she works part time, she's under a lot of pressure to attend a medical school from her family, girl has so many shitty aunts and uncles, not going into grandma fisalia because new update not played and I don't know how she feels about her yet, maybe in the past the fisalia were better doctors and scientists and chemists and all that, but recently due to their more traditional and conservative views they're falling out of public favour so there's more pressure on Cecilia as the latest generation to do it right, and more distain from her peers for being a fisalia, girl has even more reason to be in the closet.

I mainly think she'd be attending a collage because that's like prime moment to get the fuck away from your family, to learn outside of them if you've been sheltered which she definitely has, her childhood friend was still her reflection it was just less sentient about It. Though personally I am unfamiliar with how collages work, if they let her take her pick because they were going to get her into their own medical school then she might attend one more with a theatre program, a coincidence she claims, if it's not high end I can see her lying about her last name, lying to the principal to conceal it by saying it's family matters that nobody at this school know and she's got the money in her name to have the power there, and of course lying to her classmates about it, she dyed her hair dark green on the first day to hide the fisalia resemblance, she claims it's to fit in with her aunts and uncles who still chastise her for not being popular because she's a fisalia, she shouldn't have to follow fads, but they do buy the excuse.

She's very busy due to basically having a double life, Cecilia at school and heir fisalia at home and work, juggling her part time job with her family with theatre rehearsals, while she can't be on stage for public shows she does help with background work, making sure everyone has their costumes and making sure the singing actors have a great blend of tea for their throats, one day she hopes to be the star of a show but deep down she knows that will never happen with her family as it is

[perfectlyfinespacebacon]

everything now netflix

some spoilers!! and apologies for the long post.

i honestly really enjoyed it! it was almost like a skins/euphoria but imbued with like a heartstopper/sex education vibe in the sense that it dealt with serious teenage issues/mental health but light enough that it doesn't weigh down on you. my character thoughts:

mia was so infuriating almost at all times. obviously under the circumstances, it makes sense but there's this level of likeability that was missing for me. maybe it was the writing or the acting who knows but in my mind it's like this: im making an albeit an unfair comparison to effy from skins or even rue from euphoria, but they were battling their demons and making all the wrong choices but there was still this level of “i want to root for them” that's missing with mia personally.

in a similar vein with alison, she is meant to be this popular rich mean girl archetype who surprises you but obviously in the first half of the season she's supposed to be kind of unlikeable but i found her very endearing. as for the relationship, alison and mia DO NOT belong together. like at all. i am not rooting for them. alison in a way forced a relationship with mia and then also mia was like too scared to say anything about it. its clear that alison liked mia waaaaay more than mia liked alison. like carli says in the last ep as well, “to learn to not be a fantasy to each other”, alison needs to take mia off this pedastal she has for her. i'm very interested to learn more about her character outside of mia though if they hopefully continue the show. i have a feeling that we are supposed to think that she and cameron hooked up at the end or something but i'm rlly hoping its a red herring.

carli is also a character i would love to learn more about. she definitely has more chemistry with mia and i love her for standing her ground against mia, as she needs to help herself before she can be in a healthy relationship. but i will say it was pretty shitty stringing cameron along.

speaking of cameron, i didn't quite expect to like his character as much as i did. in a way his arc in the season is battling toxic masculinity as he kinda seems to come off as this laid back, bro kinda guy but he cares and loves so deeply. it wasn't right calling bec a "sket". i'm not british but obviously its like equivalent to slut, and im very glad he owned up to it. i'm also really interested to know more about his family and stuff.

i love bec as well. she deserves all the happiness in the world. im glad she was able to air out her things with mia, albeit in a very treacherous way and i also love how her mom was supportive of the abortion. i'm honestly kinda tired seeing the mom kicking out the daughter for getting pregnant trope so it was nice to see a mom just being supportive. bec is just such a wonderful friend and mia honestly has a lot to make up for. re not telling mia about her and cam, it was honestly frustrating seeing mia be so petty. i understand that its a big secret and she felt like everyone was hiding things from her but its also right to have secrets amongst friends, idk that really stuck out to me.

will for me had the weakest arc as in it wasn't the most interesting to me. don't get me wrong, i love the character but it just wasnt giving a whole lot to me. i recognize him as more than the comic relief but also at the same time he was stirring the pot in a lot of the arguments / blowups the group had, consciously and unconsciously. though i will say will x theo <3 but comedic duo of the century is will x alison. the little song they did for mia's birthday is stuck in my head.

tldr; great characters and great show. it's really hard to find a show about teens as a 25yo living in a 16yo body that i enjoy and don't find annoying. i just love how each character was able to be so nuanced despite being an ensemble cast.

but knowing netflix's track record it's gonna get cancelled because a) it's good b) has wlw content... but i really hope not.