#*im.jaebum*

[rksakura]

rkjbum:

( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 › › i’m sure you already know this but you mean a lot to me too, always. ( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 › › i’m not sure how my life would be if you weren’t in it but i know it wouldn’t be as this amazing and special. thank you for being a source of my happiness. ( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 › › i love you, and thank you 💕 ( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 › › oh yeah, do i get a birthday present??

SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。;  i’m glad i’m still in your heart, jeffrey.  (─‿‿─)♡ SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; i thank you for being one of the reasons why i look forward to a lot of the things i have in my life.  (⁄ ⁄>⁄ ▽ ⁄<⁄ ⁄) SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; wait... did you just..... you still love me? (〃 ⁄ ⁄ ＞ ⁄ ⁄ ⁄ ＜; ⁄ ⁄ 〃) SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; aren’t i the only present you need? DELETED! SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; of course you do. may i come over right now? do you have time?

[bts-yumnumnumnumyumnumnum]

OH MA LAWD! IM.JAEBUM IS THAT A NOSE PIN KSJKSJKSJKSJKSJKSJ

191108 music bank waiting room .:::. jaebum

[rksakura]

dear jeffrey im,

the truth is, my biggest regret was not supporting you to the fullest. i should’ve stood by your side and not let us breakup. you’re an amazing person who deserves the world, better than what i ever gave you. i’m sorry that i couldn’t give you all of me. i just wanted more time with you. the days when i was seeing you less and less, i felt so lonely. i’m so clingy and i really wish i wasn’t but i love your presence more than anything else.

do you know how much i miss you? how much i still care for you? i know you’ll never get to this piece i write but just know that deep down inside my heart, you’re still buried deep. if you ever happen to see this, don’t forget me ever. please. i know that’s selfish to ask because you have so many things going on with your life as of the moment but i don’t think i can ever forget about you. there’s not a day when i don’t think about you. when i’m studying or i’m in classes, my mind traces back to your name. your soul is haunting but addicting. the sadness i have inside me is something i can’t empty out into the vast oceans.

yes, i haven’t healed truly. if i could take you back in my life, seeing you in my arms and feeling your kisses once more then i’d be the happiest girl in the world. i think my sweetest memory of you was when i first met you at the pool, you almost fell off the chair as i happened to be there. you were staring at me for too long and i kind of ran away that day but came back to say hi to you. we got closer, talked all day and night on the phone. i remember falling asleep on the phone with your calls. we saw each other at campus everyday.. then, you practically became my best friend, the shoulder that i can cry on without judging me, i told you all my problems and everything about me.

little did i know is that, i fell in love with you that i no longer became afraid of rejection. i told you my feelings and you asked me out.. that was one of the best days of my life. i wish i could rewrite things i shouldn’t have said but i can’t go back in time and change what’s happened between us.

just like anyone else, we’ve made mistakes. many mistakes we’re not proud of. though, i can’t keep fronting as if you’re not an important person in my life, because damn, you are. you’re my everything, jeffrey. and you’ll always be the one for me. so please come back?

i’m sorry i didn’t appreciate you enough.

i’m sorry i didn’t love you hard enough.

with love and regards,

miyawaki sakura.

[rksakura]

@rkjbum

( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 ⟩ ⟩ i’ve been busy lately, sorry. you got me a present?

( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 ⟩ ⟩ just the two of us? i guess so…

( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 ⟩ ⟩ you don’t have plans on going back home to australia?

SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。;  yeah why wouldn’t i? (⌒_⌒;) you’re still on my mind, yanno...  SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; i think about you everyday.... i still feel for you! DELETED! SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; if you don’t mind! thank you, jeff.  ♡♡ SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; no, not this year! my mum and dad are going on a business trip.

[rksakura]

❀ too little too late ( au )

sending to @rkjaebvm !

what would you do if you were in a situation you couldn't unwind?

the path of turning back is beyond saving her now. sakura can't debate if she's simply unfortunate or a divine being wished this upon her existence ( that somewhere out there, the stars chose to write her story and compel her to grow ). she feels ridiculous, embarrassed, and devastated. all of this was humiliating, but this isn’t entirely her fault. her little brother and his wise choice of sending out the letters ( that she swore no one would ever read ) to her past flings and crushes.

her property. five letters. out there being read and exposing her secrets that shouldn't be spilled. the worst part is, jaebum's letter. the crazy thing is, jaebum is her older sister's man.. kind of, not really. she last heard that she broke it off with him because of having to study in kyushu. though, the special red string that ties them together is still special. irreplaceable, she feels. the saddest part is where she had him first but was a fool to have let him go.

sakura once held onto jaebum but not longer. but her heart still cries for him.

her solution to this problem is avoiding his texts, isolating herself from him at all costs whether if it be preventing herself from seeing him or not responding to any of his comments on social media. part of her feels cowardice for running away but the truth is, she doesn’t know what to do.

[rksakura]

( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 › › i was just thinking it's about time for a new chapter in my life ( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 › › and i think it's the right time to be a father ( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 › › i was thinking about you and so i was wondering if you would like to co-parent a little puppy with me ( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 › › of course, no pressure tho

SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; are you writing a new book in your life?  ˭̡̞(◞⁎˃ᆺ˂)◞*✰SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; IM JAEBUM, AREN”T YOU TOO YOUNG TO BE A FATHER?? ¯\_༼ ಥ ‿ ಥ ༽_/¯SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; wait a puppy?? i’m gonna sign up for this!! i don’t see why not. (♥ω♥*)

[rksakura]

( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 › › have a good day today, keep warm ! ( ✉ ) 첫사랑은 처음이라서 › › love you..

SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; thank you! did you get sick again, im jeffrey?SNS 〉 〉会えなくて寂しい。; i love you too…

[rksakura]

new year’s meal

sending to @rkjbum ! 

starting over fresh at a clean slate with a fervent attempt to rid of the negative blockages and burdened past that trails the broken heart, sakura believes that letting the baggage swelled inside her heart disperse over the course of the new year’s is a great mindset to progress in life. forgive but never forget they say. she follows the cycle of renewals. there are good times, also bad times. both compliment each other and cannot be completed with one another, much to her attachment to im jeffrey.

the truth is, she still lingers for the first love that’s buried a scar deep inside but has also provided her immense growth. she’s become much intuitive, knowing what she wants for herself and in the stages of love (but still has to ripe as she’s still young). nevertheless, she still doesn’t know what love truly is but...

she’s sure it’s pure when it’s with him. the excitement gushes to her quickly as she’s in the process of preparing a new year’s dish. she’s chosen the recipe of her mother’s homemade takoyaki, gyoza, yakiniku, and a delicious bowl of udon for the both of them. although, it took some time but it’s worth it.

“it’s almost ready, jeff! sorry!” just a little bit longer, down to ten minutes until they can both enjoy a delicious meal to their heart’s content.

[rksakura]

❀ katharsis (au)

sending to @rkjbum !

*tw: slight gore, monophobia!

in the dark nights of tokyo, a half-ghoul was relying on her hunger impulses recklessly to get around the wards. to her shock, she hasn’t been caught by the ccg. maybe it’s the fact that she’s undetectable because to her half-human nature. living in such a big world, she feels so alone as she fights through survival with no one by her side. not a single man or woman to her call. sakura doesn’t like feasting on humans but she doesn’t have much of a choice if she ought to live.

every man for themselves in the end.

she finishes her first meal, leaving the trail of blood on the pavement of the street as she rushes to a sanctuary to cover her trace. it works like this, run in the middle of the night to hunt and then to her apartment. ever since she’s lost her mum, the tides have never turned to have favour. sakura has succumbed to her weaknesses and fears of intense monophobia. she often wonders if there’s someone in the world out there, like her, with 50/50 nature who is experiencing the same pattern and walk of life as she is.

but it feels so impossible.

that is until she met the man named jaebum who’s tracked her down. supposedly, she thought he was an enemy at first but... it’s the opposite now, she simply adores his presence. he fills in those holes inside her heart that was tainted by solitude. “i’m glad to have met you but i’ve thought about it, jae.. should i join aogiri tree?”