#.vent

[ponuchuu]

sometimes it feels lonely here

[bweoo]

Usually I don't care about this stuffs but sometimes I worry if you guys are fine for me posting OC/yandere!canon stuffs... Even if I said that this blog is more focused in OC/Canon than reader insert 🫠 I don't know just my insecurities kicking me haha...

[dreamwinged]

lately i feel like i’m way too invested into social media and it’s not healthy for me ❤️‍🩹 will update if i decide on a hiatus or anything like that but i think i’ve just been comparing myself too much and forgetting that i have value beyond how i appear to other people i dunno…

[moving-to-dreamwinged]

sometimes seeing ppl talk abt my f/o a certain way makes my blood boil like my god just leave him the fuck alone it isn't that hard

[gregoriahlover]

thank fuck i’m fictosexual i’m so sick of having both of my friends in my ear talking about their fucked up relationship with each other like no i don’t want to see your chats and no i didn’t notice that you weren’t friends on snap anymore okayyyy but anyway im gonna draw me smothering my bf with my boobs now. who give a shit. i just can’t imagine putting up with that drama.

[faineant-girl]

*going thru a page i know will piss me off* man that pisses me off

[dethdyke]

Venting/thinking abt my mom feel free 2 ignore

I feel bad for my mom. She didnt rlly get to have a life. She got pregnant with my late brother at like 17 and then married a shitty, physically and mentally abusive bastard. And then had my other older bro. And then she finally was able to leave their dad and then she worked all the time. And then got with my dad and had me. And then my little bro. And basically since he was born shes been disabled and unable to do much of anything. Not to mention her childhood.

Different topic (still abt my mom but w/e). I wish my mom would own up to shit. U kicked me out at 13. Just fucking say it. You dont even have to apologize. Just admit it. Idk idk i just wish ppl wouldnt treat me like shit and then deny it happened.

I do miss her so much tho. I want to call her :( im not ready tho, i know that. Im still so mad. It feels like my anger is going to strangle me. I just :/ i wish things were different.

[xxmellowmelon]

I want to be less chronically online, and after seeing yaelokre shit blow up in the system community in a not good way this really drives home that.

Like, wow. It’s a community of people to talk about the music and OCs and the lore. And yet it became a dumpster fire because of online discourse and people being asshats.

Yeah anyway I’m going to try to log off a hell of a lot more, now.

[mechawolfie]

its sooo annoying being like. ok i love to Make things- specifically worlds and characters. and i constantly crave to do this with other people. however- im too scared to directly ask anyone if theyd like to do that with me. for various reasons. (one being that its just. Such a personal thing for me. guh.) so it just.. never happens, specifically bc i just have a hard time Thinking on my own. too foggy up here -_-

and then i think, well i should practice being more Independent then, bc i cant just spend so long just Waiting For The Right Person and Not Actually Doing Anything. but. I have!! it's just boring!! i love people, i love doing things/spending time With people- it's just how i show i care + feel cared about!!

and it just becomes a cycle of I Want To Do This Thing That Means A Lot To Me with People I Care About > i get too scared of a million things to try > i think I Should Get Used To Doing It On My Own (thinking this is my problem) > This Isnt How My Heart Works/I Feel Alone/This Just Feels Like Glorified Self-Isolation/etc > repeat and i just. ughhhhhh

[ponuchuu]

making sure ppl know im non sharing 👍

[dreamwinged]

every single day i have at least one episode of remembering something i don’t want to remember at all and it’s just like hhhhh. more exhausting and upsetting than i have words to express. either trying to hold myself together in a public place or trying to shut it all out when i’m at home……. it’s just the worst either way

[moving-to-dreamwinged]

looking in the mirror and realizing everyone i meet must find me repulsive and disgusting

[gregoriahlover]

-> welcome to my blog! my name is kieran (xe/xim) and i’m a selfshipper! my main blog is @mdni but i follow + like from @vampkkieran. i am a vampire (otherkin) so keep that in mind when approaching me. i’m also biromantic and asexual :3!

pinned is under construction. come back later 👋

-> userboxes under the cut

[teenagefreeze]

hey, im jack.

my pronouns are he/him or pri/prin. im 17-21 years old. im a system fictive and protector, and im taken. i don’t fully front often, and have more passive influence on us sometimes.

this is my own personal account for thoughts and shit. our main is here. ill make sure to tag anything I need to. these are just my experiences/thoughts.

please do not interact with me or our main if you ship my source with pitch black.

[dethdyke]

rmring how my dad wouldnt visit me in the hospital. i begged him. i cried and begged and he just. wouldnt.

[xxmellowmelon]

Me casually splitting while driving and then forgetting how to drive and why I was on the highway in the first place and freaking out.

Thank God for our good communication or else that would have been Bad.