#4pm

[smibberz]

magma doodle

Turn him into a beautiful fat man

[livelaughlovelams]

Oh you're cool, I like you (shows you my creative writing project I did on amrev because I'm weird or something and I'm fully aware it sucks but eh take historical figure poetic rambling)

[4phonemen]

of course someone has to ask, does mark watch markiplier

"THAT guy? Yeah. You could say that."

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[mysterybracket]

Elimination Death Gauntlet!

[ellearts]

I don't wanna sleep i wanna draw >:

[holyfigtree]

Lord, may our hearts not harden at the sight of such unrelenting atrocities.

[its-a-date]

Under way at 4 p.m.

"Dracula" - Bram Stoker

[horror-movie-soundtrack]

hotdogs are such an inherently sad food. its so pathetic. im totally fucking drained. here go some sausage in hot water. i let the sausage sit in hot water and i take the sausage out and put it on a piece of bread what the fuck do you want from me

[styxxsyringe]

ghanaian miku

[silentmassacres]

wed, nov 20

i want to be honest. i want to be honest here and elsewhere and i don't know where else to go anymore. i'm frightened. i think i may be on the edge of psychosis, give it a week or two. i don't know what to do with myself and i really don't understand what's expected of me. i wish i knew it inherently and i don't and i'm failing at being a human. i know it's frustrating to be around and i really wish i wasn't around. maybe not in the suicidal way, i just. don't want to do that to others.

i hate getting triggered because i know i get illogical and obviously i shouldn't listen to my thoughts but sometimes they're pretty convincing. sometimes i have to wonder if it really is my comfort and feelings which come first. i don't think they are. i don't want to say the word liar and i don't want to say too much because my thoughts are disorganized and i really really don't know what i'm supposed to do right now.

i should know better. maybe i need to relearn how to just handle things in silence. i already do, but evidently, it's not enough. i need to learn to be quiet about my discomfort or upset or anything wrong because the only thing it does is cause issues and i don't understand what i'm meant to do. i don't understand how i'm supposed to prioritize my feelings when all it does is cause issues. i know that's black and white thinking but i really have to wonder if it's going to stay like this. i'm worried it will. i'm worried i'll be trapped in this limbo of false care. i think i'd prefer indifference. at least hurt me with confidence.

i don't want to hurt myself right now. i'm not afraid anymore, which is bad, but i truly don't want to. i'm tired of caring for myself. in more ways than one, evidently. i shouldn't add to my pain, i guess. it doesn't matter if it's visible or not because nobody notices or cares enough to do a thing if they do. i think it's pointless. maybe i'm just hurting myself for my own entertainment, for the soulless joy of watching the water turn red. i know that's not true. i think.

i think i'm getting delusional again. maybe a little. paranoid, mostly, right now. maybe my paranoia is right. maybe i shouldn't say these things in case it's a little too right. i don't want to cause issues. i need to learn how to be silent again. i'm better liked that way.

[4phonemen]

PHOENESSEM YAYA erm ion know much about DSaF sadly but i do wonder why addy doesn't have a phone cord??

"..."

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[mysterybracket]

[whats-in-a-sentence]

It was close upon four before the door opened, and a drunken-looking groom, ill-kempt and side-whiskered, with an inflamed face and disreputable clothes, walked into the room.

"The Illustrated Sherlock Holmes Treasury" - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

[hetchdrive]

Sometimes you’ve just got to think of your favorite character getting fucked against a wall to get through the work day.

[gamechangershow]

TOMORROW...