#AND THAT'S SCARY

[icouldhyperfixatehim]

coming back to follow up this post bc i've been watching little snatches of john and aaron (it's the only way i can stick it) and i just saw the scene of aaron having a bad mental health/gordon day on the day of john's hero award yoke. making myself sick with heartbreak again bc, danny the actor you are, you can absolutely see that aaron truly believes john loves him. and for that, aaron does love him back.

aaron's relationship with love has always had really defined halves of loving vs being loved. he wants to be loved. desperately. but he thinks he's an inherent obstacle - do you know how difficult it was to love you? ...i'm your son - i'm not exactly easy to love - he's not offering more. so i'll take what i can get - this little percentage of worry that he never really loved me the way i thought he did. he thinks the love that people have for him has its foot in the door for the day he's not enough, too broken, too messed up, too not worth the hassle.

people don't stay with me.

so when john forgoes his award, says he'd rather be there for aaron while he struggles through a bout of recurring trauma, that it's where he wants most to be - of course aaron believes john loves him. and if someone loves him that much, how can aaron not love him back? it's what he's been looking for isn't it? that love. that love that's worth hanging on to and fighting for, that he thought he'd never have again, not really.

and you loved me, you loved me like nobody ever has before

aaron doesn't feel about john the way he feels about robert. but when john loves him like this, when that's such a hard thing to do, aaron does love him back for it. does owe it to him, doesn't he? it amounts to the same thing, even if it doesn't feel the same way.

but we know john doesn't love aaron like that. from john's perspective, that scene doesn't show love, it shows addiction to aaron's victimhood. shows love as a selfish martyrdom.

which is why you'll find me wretching and sobbing and wailing. because as @sunsetsover pointed out in my notes, the love aaron's looking for, the real deal, is utterly egoless. and it never had its foot out the door - it just had no way of a stopping itself being pushed through it. either way, aaron had to accept that the door itself was closed.

but there's a knock. and aaron's frozen in the foyer right now, but he'll answer it eventually.

you're the strongest person i know

[not-aurii]

can you imagine how betrayed my introverted ass felt, when i realized that going back to being around people (and university and all those things that scare the shit out of me) did actually help me out??? and that I've been feeling like myself for the first time since before covid????? the utter betrayal my brain pulled on me i swear to god

[bog-mummies]

okay so one of my classes has this assignment every year where the teacher pairs us up with someone he doesn't think we interact with very much and we each have to do a presentation on a topic of our partner's choice. this is like to help us get to know eachother better and learn about eachother's interests. i have a list of potential presentation topics for my partner bc i wanted to be nice and let them have some say.

anyway, i wanna know y'alls thoughts on it - like should i reword anything or are there any major pros/cons that i missed. and whether y'all would be okay with being assigned these topics for a presentation. options below. let me know in the comments or tags or rbs or anywhere else really

[insanity-laughs-under-pressure]

Me reading the Good Omens script book and seeing 'Everyday' by Buddy Holly: Hmm, imagine if they used that in the show instead of the David Arnold title sequence.

Me after season 2: Everyday it's a-getting closer going faster than a roller-coaster *cries*.

[mintycurry]

I'm actually shaking, how dare it be THAT good? I haven't been this hyped for YR since season 1

[loadednachosao3]

lesbian (or bi girl) lacho requests. hit me

[sakura-rose12]

So I had a funny dream the other night.

It involved a very gay witch.

[injuries-in-dust]

Weird and wonderful compilation of strange bird noises.

[sidecast-text]

hey americans there is a recall on testosterone gel because they found benzene in it! please check the lot numbers on your batches, benzene is really not something you want to be rubbing into your skin, also you might be eligible for compensation because this is just insane what the fuck

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[cadaverousdecay]

❤️

[flamboyantly-understated]

maybe this is just me idk

[mroddmod]

the queen of the disco or whatever

[sadclowncentral]

shoutout to the guy who after unsuccessfully hitting on my sister and being politely declined asked her "is it okay if i ask your brother instead" and when she said yes gave me a long and searching look before sighing and going "no. i am not drunk enough to go for a dude. but you look like an angel" happy bisexual pride to this man and this man only. hope you figure it out soon king

[deadmansbistro]

what a week huh?

[saszor]

Overview of some topics when it comes to drawing characters who are burn survivors.

DISCLAIMER. Please keep in mind that this is an introductory overview for drawing some burn scars and has a lot of generalizations in it, so not every “X is Z” statement will be true for Actual People. I'm calling this introductory because I hope to get people to actually do their own research before drawing disabled & visibly different characters rather than just making stuff up. Think of it as a starting point and take it with a grain of salt (especially if you have a very different art style from mine).

Talking about research and learning... don't make your burn survivor characters evil. Burn survivors are normal people and don't deserve to be constantly portrayed in such a way.

Consider supporting me on ko-fi if you find this to be helpful.

edit: apparently tum "queerest place on the internet" blr hates disabled people so much that this post got automatically filtered. cool!

second way more important edit: How are people seeing this post where I specifically talk about burn survivors being normal, real people, and still tag this as "TW body horror"? Not a single one of these drawings or pictures is a fresh injury. All of them are healed. How the hell would you feel if someone tagged a photo of you as "trigger warning: gore"?

Disabled people are not your fucking body horror. Grow up.