#AWGIT Update

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AWGIT Update

I hate that I feel compelled to post this, but at this point I don’t have a choice. There’s been a lot of questions about this story’s continuation and I’m not willing to lose anymore sleep feeling guilty about it.

All We’ve Got is Time is on a temporary hiatus. 

Mostly because I don’t have an answer to ‘When will the next chapter will be posted?’. I’m sorry if that’s disappointing - but it’s my reality. My mental health has been deteriorating for a while and I’m trying to address it as best as I can. With that comes several layers of challenges and changes that drain me. My priority right now is staying alive, to be quite blunt. Some days it’s harder than others.

I haven’t been able to touch this story that is such a reflection of my heart in 6 weeks, and that crushes me. I want more than anything to get back to writing, to feel the way I felt when I started this story. I don’t want to force it and fall out of love with the project either. And you deserve more than a numb writer churning out meaningless content.

It could be any day now, it could be a while, but we’re not done yet, folks. There’s still eight remaining chapters that you’ll see one day, I promise.

Thank you for those that have consistently left feedback and shown support for this story, you have made writing it all the more enjoyable. I’ll keep you updated.

-Beka

11.25.19

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Hello everyone! Can you believe it? We are a month into the 2019 CSSNS!!!

We have been blessed with some INCREDIBLE fic already this summer and we have much more to come. This post will first highlight the fic and art that’s been posted so far, and then we’ll look forward to what is to come in the month of July! So without further ado everyone, heeeeeerrrrrrrrrre we goooooooooooo!!!!!

@welllpthisishappening opened us up this year with her short MC, All the Subliminal Things, a soulmate fake dating AU. Adorable and hysterical, as usual!! Artwork by @resident-of-storybrooke. She also closed out the month yesterday with the posting of her MC All was Golden In the Sky. I’m telling you the truth, that I’m already thinking this one may dethrone Blue Line as my favorite of Laura’s work. Again with artwork by @resident-of-storybrooke. She will be updating AWGITS on Tuesdays and Fridays for the next three months. Make sure and let her know how much you love it, because I’m sure you will!

@darkcolinodonorgasm posted One Day, a LadyHawke AU that I am BESIDE myself waiting for more of! With artwork by @sherlockianwhovian. Towards the end of the month, she posted Hidden Paths Between the Moon and Sun, the sequel to her Hades and Persephone AU, Until the Stars Are All Alight. Loads of fluff so far and a very delayed honeymoon for our favorite couple. Again with artwork by @sherlockianwhovian. Be sure to give them both lots of love for their hard work and wonderful results!!

@allons-y-to-hogwarts-713 posted original art Killian Falls for Siren Emma and Paranormal Photographers/Reporters. They were both absolutely fantastic!! Be sure and let her know!

@donteattheappleshook posted her sequel to last years fic Just Human. She named it, very aptly, Just Human Vol2. It picked up right where last years fic left off and is LOADED with feels! Artwork 1 and 2 by @djlbg. Be sure and give them both lots of love!!!

@thislassishooked posted her vampire AU MC Wake Me Up Inside. We have three chapters posted so far and it is INCREDIBLE!!! Artwork by @tennant-the-tigger. Make sure and give them both all the love!!

@let-it-raines posted her MC Not Your (Soul)Mate. This is a very humorous take on the whole soulmate trope. Artwork by @captainsjedi. Make sure and give them plenty of flails!!!

@shireness-says posted her oneshot A Drowning Soul Will Clutch at Any Straw. A beautiful fic featuring mermaid Emma and pirate Killian, with a TLK to boot! Artwork by @hollyethecurious. Be sure to give them all kinds of love!!!!

That is all for the fics and art we’ve had dropped so far. Make sure when you read that you give the authors and artists lots of love!!! Now, what do we have to look forward to next month? Well, I’m so glad you asked!

@snowbellewells will open us up tomorrow with a MC continuation of last years Run To Me (In the Dead of Night) and she’ll post a ghost story OS on the 29th. Artwork by @branlovestowrite.

@thejollyroger-writer will be posting Love After Death on July 3, an afterlife hotel/soulmates AU in which Emma runs the afterlife hotel that ghost Killian makes his way to. She will close out the month with a second OS on the 31st called What Happens in Berkshire where a statue of Captain Hook comes to life when Emma gives him a kiss! Artwork by @captainsjedi. She will be giving us another OS in August as well.

On July 10, @gingerchangeling will be posting Luck of the Irish. A OS where Emma comes home with more than she bargained for after reading an ancient curse. Artwork by @resident-of-storybrooke. 

@lizzyc807shipscaptainswan will be posting a guardian angel vampire OS on July 12. Killian is a vampire that turns into a guardian angel of sorts when investigative reporter Emma just keeps getting herself into trouble. Artwork by @courtorderedcake.

@jarienn972 will be posting A Simple Spell on July 15. In which novice witch Emma casts a spell to find her True Love. Artwork by @cocohook38.

On July 17, @profdanglaisstuff will be posting her fic, The Very Witching Time. Emma is a witch that has to defeat a new danger rising that threatens her and everything she loves. She’ll need the support and help of her friends and a dog named Killian if she is to succeed. Artwork by @gingerchangeling.

July 19 @searchingwardrobes will be posting An Education in Southern Gothic, a ghost/possession fic. Based on a legend at a school she used to teach at. She will be posting a second fic based on the Cupid and Psyche myth in August. Artwork by @hollyethecurious.

@spartanguard will be posting a soulmate AU called Sick of Love on July 22. Will the barriers that CS put up to avoid touching their possible soulmate protect them? Or only hurt them more? Artwork by @sherlockianwhovian.

On July 24 @snidgetsafan will be posting a Hades, Persephone, and Orpheus OS called Whom the Gods Favor, Die Young. Artwork by @tennant-the-tigger.

Oh man! Do we have a lot to look forward to!!! I’m so excited for all these fics and art that’ll be dropping next month!!! Make sure and spread all the excitement and love for these incredibly talented people! I’ll be back at the end of July with another roundup and preview post for the rest of the event! See you then!

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AWGIT Update

Hi y’all. Tomorrow Ch. 11 was scheduled to go up, but it’s not going to make it. I was selected for jury duty this week - it has been all-consuming, draining, and taxing on my heart and emotions. I just. . . I can’t this week. I’ll try to complete and post as soon as I can, but I really can’t give you a definitive answer on when it’ll be up. Thanks for your patience, appreciate y’all for reading.

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[hispeculiartreasure]

Sorry AWGIT is late again,

Baseball, headaches, work stress, and mental health are all mixing to wreak havoc on my creative brain. Thanks for being patient. 💜

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Hi Lovelies

AWGIT will be back tonight. Just a little forewarning. 😘

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AWGIT Feels

Two years ago as of last week, the idea for All We've Got is Time was born. Window washers came to work at my office building and I had a thought - "Hmm. Can you imagine Window Washer!Bucky in the 40s?" I shared that thought with some friends. The next day, @abovethesmokestacks sent me the moodboard for the story, causing me to swoon. The next week, @blue-like-barnes convinced me this story deserved a series, not the 10k oneshot I was trying to fit all of it into.

Two years and almost 70k words later, All We've Got is Time is a huge part of my heart. Updates have been slow as life changed and intensified. But the story still flows in me - still alive, ever-changing.

Monday, I had my last day in that office building. Leaving the job was absolutely the right choice for me. My sole emotional moment was because of AWGIT. I stood and looked out at the view that inspired the idea. Sat at my desk, stared where I had seen that window washer who became my sweet Bucky as he grappled with life after war. The Reader works on the sixth floor because I did. Which became Bucky's nickname for her, an identity in itself. I left the sixth floor one last time this past Monday. Shed one tear.

AWGIT isn't over, it's not abandoned. That being said, I'm an entirely different woman from those first words I wrote and it's been difficult to return and face that terrified, unconfident woman behind the Reader. What do you say to your past self? How do you reconcile one with the other? How can you be gentle but uncompromising?

If you've read, commented, reblogged, liked, or messaged me about your love for this story - please accept my heartfelt thank you. We'll see where this takes us in the future. I'll be damned if I don't finish this story one day. But I'll finish it for me and me alone.

[hispeculiartreasure]

I REALLY REALLY hope you keep updating “All We’ve Got is Time”. The story is just so wholesome and enjoyable to read. I got hooked since chapter 1 because I really feel like I’m living the story and writing like that is hard to come by. It’s my favorite Bucky Fanfic ever. Please please update it! 💕

Hello, dear. I am so thankful you have enjoyed my story and that you’ve connected with it on a special level. Truly, that brings me joy. Because this story is very close to my heart, I appreciate your enthusiasm and fervor more than you can know. 

I’m gonna level with you - I’m nowhere near having an update for AWGIT ready. Someday, when I am not a personal disaster or as mentally ill as I currently am, I will hopefully be able to add an update. The words just won’t come even though I wish they would. And there are many of my own demons I have to face when writing this fic; referring back to my aforementioned mental health it’s not a good time to challenge those bad boys.

Just know that my lack of update is not solely for the sake of not updating, I’m not holding an update hostage. I simply don’t have one. I have plans for this fic, but for now they’re going to have to wait.

Thank you for the kind words, truly.

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Definitely delayed, sorry friends! I’m about to board a 5 hour flight and I’m hoping against hope that several of those hours are dedicated to the chapter so it can be posted tomorrow night (Oct. 31). Thanks for all your love and patience 💞

Chapter 17 tomorrow!! Im so excited!!!

Let’s hope 😅 Going to do my best to get it out by tomorrow night.

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Hi Hello

Just an update, I’m currently menstruating and cramping like I’m dying, eating a ginormous bowl of cookie dough/cookies n cream ice cream, and crying while writing AWGIT’s Bucky and Reader reunion. Someone save me from myself??

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Aw man, I didn't know how bad the last few weeks have been for you! As much as I absolutely am excited for any updates on AWGIT, I hope ur taking care of yourself first and that whatever ur going thru will clear up! Take ur time!

Thank you for this sweet note, darling. Hoping it starts to look up this week - a lot was thrown at me at once so it was hard not to get sucked in. I so appreciate your words and encouragement! 💞 There will hopefully be a AWGIT update soon-ish.

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Sorry AWGIT is late again,

Baseball, headaches, work stress, and mental health are all mixing to wreak havoc on my creative brain. Thanks for being patient. 💜

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hi screaming AWGIT fan here! don’t worry about not updating especially if it’s causing you stress. 💫 take care of yourself first ❤️

Awwww, thank you, honey. I appreciate you 💜

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Just saw ur update about AWGIT and ya got my support sis, I really am excited for the next chapters but hey, you take your time!!! In a practical sense, if you’re not feeling your best then you won’t deliver the best you can give to the series. And honestly, your health is so much more important anyway. I hope you get back on your feet, not only for the story, but for your own well-being. Your well-being is what matters.

You are such a sweetheart and I’m so grateful for friends/readers like you! Thank you for understanding and being warm. I’m taking steps toward getting better, I promise. Love you 💚