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DOCTOR, DOCTOR! ☆ ZAYNE.

summary. when you’re feeling under the weather, doctor zayne is quick to prescribe you with what he knows will have you feeling better in no time.

warnings. fem!reader, boyfriend!zayne, pet names, praise, masturbation, fingering, oral ( fem. receiving ), cockwarming, unprotected p in v, mirror sex, creampie, aftercare. the rocking chair is featured. wc. 3.9k.

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Zayne is an intelligent man, that much was evident, but for the first time in his career, he’s absolutely stumped.

Why is that, you may ask? Well for starters you, his beloved girlfriend, have been a bit distant lately. Not cold, not rude, but distant.

With his busy schedule, he didn’t see much of you during the day, and by the time he got home, you were usually fast asleep. It was easy to think that he was simply missing you and that was why his brain had led him to feel this rift between the two of you, but alas, he couldn’t be more wrong.

This entire ordeal truly got him thinking…

He saw a few tissues in the trash bin—perhaps you were catching the common cold. But when he prepared a spoonful of bitter medicine and a glass of water to wash it down, he was met with your denial that you masked with a smile.

If it wasn’t that, what could it be? Zayne asked the same question.

Maybe you were stressed out because of work. He finds that to be probable, so he made it a point to get home as early as he could last night to give you a massage after he cooked you your favorite meal.

You seemed to be soothed by his touch, murmuring a few ‘ah’s and ‘ooh’s of satisfaction as his skilled hands threaded into the tense muscles of your shoulders. Once you were at ease with your head resting back on his chest, he gave you a tender kiss on your cheek before he turned in for the night.

Call him overly analytical, but when it took you awhile to join him, he had a feeling that the massage hadn’t quite accomplished what he hoped it would have.

His mind then started to wander even further. Had he forgotten to run the dishwasher? No, of course not. Had he forgotten to pay the utility bills? Absolutely not, he took his credit score very seriously and a late payment was simply unlike him.

Had he forgotten to put the toilet seat down…? Okay, he definitely did, but that couldn’t be why you were acting so unlike yourself.

And then, as he sat at his desk with a fresh plate of food in front of him, it dawned on him. When was the last time you orgasmed? More importantly, when was the last time he’d given you one himself?

It was almost inhuman how fast he jumped up from his office chair to inform Yvonne that he would be out for the remainder of the afternoon, because oh was he feeling downright horrible.

He was back at your shared apartment in no time, pushing the door open and setting his shoes in the nook positioned in the entryway.

(He had a bad habit of trucking on the hardwood floors without removing his shoes, and considering he was already on your shit-list, he made sure to do it now.)

“Honey?” he calls out to you, making his way towards your closed bedroom door. “Sweetheart, I’m home.”

Zayne’s eyebrows raise as he glances around, finding that your apartment looks rather empty and desolate. “I’d like to apologize. I know I haven’t been present for you lately and—”

And then, he hears something. Something that makes him stop in his tracks. His eyebrow quirks up with intrigue as he presses his ear to the door, listening in.

He’d know those beautiful sounds anywhere, even if it’d been awhile since he had lured them out of you himself. Your moans were muffled by the door, but they were enough to make his cock stiffen up beneath the fabric of his black slacks.

“God… please,” you muttered, clearly out of breath and in frustration. “Damn it!”

Behind the door, you were resting on his side of the bed, hoping that his scent would be enough to make you finish. Your fingers toyed with your clit as you desperately tried to get yourself off, but nothing seemed to be working.

Zayne was practiced in a way that only he could be. He knew female anatomy better than you did, but more importantly, he took pride in learning yours. He knew what you liked and what you didn’t, what made you crumble and cry out.

And now that you’ve gone without him for so long, you’re finding yourself more pent up than ever. A huff of frustration leaves your lips as you try again, again, and again—only to be edged with your release without reaping the benefits of it.

He exhales, twisting the doorknob as he cracks the door open. To no surprise, there you were, sitting on his side of the bed with your hand slipped beneath the fabric of your panties.

You hardly looked horrified at the sight of him, more so desperate if anything. He pulls his tie loose as he takes a few steps towards the bed, his knees finding the plush comforter as he sinks onto his stomach.

“Oh, sweetheart,” he murmurs, almost sounding sympathetic. He runs his hands over your thighs as he hikes them over his shoulders. “Let me see.”

You roll your eyes. “Who’s to say that you deserve to?”

Zayne gives you a look that you know all too well, one that silently reads ‘girl, are you serious?’ And no, you aren’t serious by any means, so you nod your head to give him your permission.

He pulls the damp fabric of your panties to the side, his gaze slimming as he sets eyes on your cunt for the first time in what feels like forever. (It’s been two and a half weeks at most, but you’re both awfully dramatic.)

“I’m sorry,” he speaks into your heat, almost as if he were apologizing to both you and your pussy. He raises his eyes to yours as he flattens his soft tongue to swipe along your wet folds. He moans at the mere taste of you, his grip on your thighs tightening as he pulls you even closer to him. “I had no idea. Truly, baby, I didn’t.”

You whine at the sensation of his gentle voice rumbling against your sensitive skin, your hand delving into his hair. “No idea about—hah—what?”

Zayne takes a moment to reply. His mouth is certainly distracted with the way it’s buried into your soaking cunt while his tongue laps at your inner lips, his nose brushing against your clit with each movement he makes.

“I hadn’t realized I was neglecting your needs,” he clarifies, cracking his eyes open just enough to look at you with hollowed cheeks as he sucks onto your sensitive bundle of nerves.

He releases it with a ‘pop’, his tongue quickly replacing his lips as he curls it in up and down motions that stimulate you in ways you can’t even comprehend. “My girl is too sweet to be treated like that,” he whispers, thumbing at your folds to give himself better access.

One of his hands continues to rub your thighs for some sort of comfort for his behavior, and soon, the other reaches up to take your hand in his own. You squeeze onto it immediately, finding the gesture to be much appreciated.

“So, you… mmh— you remember I exist after all?” Your words are meant as a joke, but he doesn’t seem to consider them as such with the way he presses a kiss to your clit before pulling away.

“Honey, I’m being serious,” he murmurs, resting his cheek on your thigh. “I’d never want to make it seem like I don’t consider you and your feelings.”

He gives your hand a squeeze before he smiles, adding an earnest, “and truth be told, I’m rather surprised that I’ve gone so long without tasting this pretty pussy of yours,” before he delves right back into eating you out like a man starved.

Zayne hasn’t noticed it until now, but he truly was starving, and not for the lunch that he left on his desk back at Akso Hospital. He wasn’t much for alcohol, but getting drunk on your pussy was one of his favorite pastimes, and he’ll never go this long without doing it again.

He was a man of science, and even then, he would never be able to explain the chemical imbalance that tasting you set off in his brain. Sure, medically speaking, the preoptic area of the brain is what triggers an erection, but what you did to him was far beyond that.

It was safe to say that Zayne was almost as in love with your pussy as he was with you, and judging by the way he’s making out with it right now, you have no doubts about that.

Your head tilts back against the headboard as he reintroduces his middle finger to your entrance, feeling the way your walls clench around it.

“Mm, quite sensitive, are we?” he lowly asks, licking a few swipes at your clit before adding, “Is it because you’ve been using your own hand for quite some time now?”

It’s almost pathetic how quickly you nod, your fingers grasping onto his dark locks as he presses an open-mouthed kiss onto your folds. “It’s the only choice I had,” you whine.

(He makes a mental note to give you his credit card so that you can purchase anything and everything you’ll need in order to satisfy yourself whenever he isn’t around. The fact that he hasn’t thought of that sooner is a problem in and of itself.)

He nods in return, though the movement only invites him to make hard licks at your pussy, collecting your slick on his tongue. His cock is rock hard, but he’ll get his turn soon enough.

Even if his turn never came, he’d be more than happy with this alone—that much was incredibly evident.

“I know it, my love,” he whispers, pressing a kiss on your sensitive clit as he slides another finger into your hole. “Is this alright?”

Your thighs tense up at the sensation, but you nod, tilting your head down to look at him. With your permission, he continues, his tongue swiping at you while his fingers fuck you into oblivion.

When you tilt your head back, he squeezes your thigh. “Eyes down here, I need you to watch closely.”

A sharp whine escaped you as his mouth somehow latched onto your pussy in the time it took you to look at him. He pulls off of you to speak, his lips coated with your arousal. “There will be times like this in which I won’t be able to give you what you need, and as much as it kills me, your pleasure can’t be limited to the times I can have you like this.”

You tilt your head. “What… what do you mean?”

Zayne nods his head, urging you to tune in. He curls fingers inside of you, hitting your g-spot with each push. “Hm. I suppose I can teach you how to touch yourself a bit more effectively. Would you like that?”

Your hand goes flying to his shoulder as you nod, your teeth pressing down onto your bottom lip. “Hah… mhm.”

He nods, grasping onto your hand. He presses a few kisses on your knuckles as he guides it to your clit, helping you swirl the pads of your fingers around it in smooth, moan-earning circles. “Very good. You look happier with me already.”

“You’re still a jerk,” you huff.

“I’m sure I have been behaving like one, yes,” he murmurs with a laugh. “Don’t let me off the hook too easily, either. I need to get a few orgasms out of you before you should consider that.”

That sounds perfectly fine to you, so all you do is moan in reply, which makes him smile. He likes to please his woman, and knowing that he hasn’t done a good job of that makes him even more determined to make up for it.

“It’s okay to use two hands, sweet girl,” he continues teaching, tilting his head towards his own hand that was still thrusting two fingers inside of you. “While it may be mine right now, yours will work just the same.”

Something switches inside of you the moment he begins to help you masturbate, his own fingers fucking inside of you while yours stimulate another part of your puffy cunt. You always had a thing for acts of service, but when it came from your boyfriend, you were practically putty in his hands.

“That’s right,” he purrs, a smile tugging on his lips. “Such a pretty girl. Perhaps you just needed to be reminded of how to treat yourself.”

His hazel eyes are still on your face, watching as you pinch in absolute ecstasy, your thighs shaking on his shoulders. “I see that I’ve underestimated you,” he teases, dipping his head to lick at your folds, his tongue brushing against your fingers as he continues to guide the movements of your hand. “It seems like you’re doing just fine for yourself after all.”

You huff, shaking your head. “No, no… it’s all you.”

Zayne chuckles at that, sucking your fingers that were circling your clit into his mouth before he places them back on your sensitive pearl, giving you a bit more lubricant. “There’s no need to be so hard on yourself, I’m merely helping you. We’re practicing together, sweetheart.”

You almost roll your eyes because the last thing Zayne needed was practice on how to please you. He may have been a bit distracted, but that could never take away from how perfect of a lover he was.

And… it was difficult not to be hard on yourself when he’s practically taken away your ability to orgasm on your own. With the way he’s making you feel right now, his absence was almost worth it.

Your eyes haze over as you look down at him, a soft moan leaving your lips. “Mmh, ‘m gonna cum,” you choke out.

To that, he nods in understanding. He thumbs apart your folds, leaving you to play with yourself as you please while he dips his head in to lick at your cunt in any way he can, feeling the way you clench around his fingers. “That’s right. Look at you, honey, such a quick learner.”

Zayne grasps onto your thigh with his free hand, pressing a few wet kisses along your inner skin as you come down from your high. Your hand still has a death grip on his hair, but he doesn’t mind it. He knows that he deserves to lose a few strands of hair after how he has left you alone.

You pant, your chest heaving as your body reels from your orgasm. While your vision is blurry, you can still make out the picture of your boyfriend sucking his fingers into his mouth, cleaning them free of your release.

“Mm, you know, the release from an orgasm does much to calm people,” he murmurs, giving your mound a chaste kiss before he rises up to give you one on your forehead. “Do you feel any better, my dear?”

You do feel better, but a part of you, one that you can’t quite shove away, is still yearning for more. Despite that, you nod, brushing your hand along his cheek as he dips his head to give you a kiss.

Sugary and sweet are two words you’d used to describe kissing Zayne, because those were adjectives you’d also use to detail how he always behaves when around you.

He pulls away from the kiss, propping himself up on his elbow above you while he uses his other hand to brush away your hair. “I really am sorry,” he whispers, his voice soft and full of a raw honesty that makes your heart squeeze.

You shake your head with a smile. “I know you didn’t mean to,” you reply. “It’s just… you made me feel like you didn’t need me, like what I felt was one sided.”

Zayne’s expression seems to soften as he shakes his head. “Of course I need you, I always need you. Your needs are never one-sided, especially not needs of this nature.” He brushes his hand over your cheek. “And I was serious about my endeavors of making it up to you, sweetness. C’mere.”

Before you know it, you’re plucked from your position on the bed and carried to the corner of the bedroom. Zayne takes a seat in the rocking chair positioned there, spinning it around until it faces the body length mirror just in front of the two of you.

He then undresses you entirely, kissing along your thighs, your hips, the curves of your back, on the cheek of your ass—everywhere and anywhere he could. Sure enough, you hear the rattling of his metal belt buckle behind you, and when you glance over your shoulder, his cock is pulled out from the confines of his boxers.

His slacks are still bunched up around his thighs, as are his boxers, but he pays no mind to it. He raises two fingers as he beckons you to sit in his lap, and you do.

Zayne rests one hand on your hip while the other grasps onto his shaft, pumping it in his fist a few times before he smears the head of his cock along your folds, gathering your slick. “The ‘teaching’ is over, but now, I simply want to show you just how much I need you.”

His words stir something within you, and when he leans up to press a kiss on your shoulder, you already feel like your lover is here to live up to his word. “Is that alright?” he asks against your skin, prodding your entrance with his tip.

When you nod, you’re already sinking down, taking him inch by inch until you’re cockwarming his thick length. He smiles at you in the reflection of the mirror, his eyes drifting over your body that he will never forget to worship again.

“So beautiful,” he coos, his hands mapping out the curves of your waist, your hips, your thighs. “Absolutely gorgeous.”

Your cheeks flush at his words. “Thanks.”

Zayne shakes his head. “There’s no need to thank me for speaking the truth,” he whispers. “That’d be like thanking Einstein for developing the theories of special and general relativity—it’s practically a given.”

You aren’t sure where the correlation is, but when one of his hands slips in between your thighs while the other grasps onto one of your breasts, you don’t care about fighting it out.

“Point is, I mean it. Every word,” he adds.

You feel like a goddess being worshiped as his mouth finds your shoulder, the smacking of his lips omitting into the otherwise quiet room as he places open-mouthed kisses on your skin. His middle and ring finger work to toy with your clit, his other hand squeezing onto your breast.

And then… he begins to rock.

You gasp at the feeling of his cock just barely moving inside of you, your body entirely engulfed in the sensations that he is so eagerly providing you.

“You feel—hah—so, so good,” he whispers against your skin, his lips climbing the curve of your shoulder. His fingers circle your clit at an agonizingly slow pace, and when you place your hand on his to guide his movements, he smiles at you in the reflection. “There’s my girl. Such a quick learner, just like I said.”

You lazily return his smile, your head resting back on his shoulder. He removes his hand from your breast to pluck his glasses from his face, placing them on yours instead.

“My baby is such a smart girl,” he purrs, his lips finding your neck as he admires you. Flushed skin, hair messed up, his glasses resting on your nose. He could come inside you at the sight, but he wants to prolong this. He doesn’t ever want to leave this moment with you. “And so beautiful too. Absolutely ravishing.”

You chuckle at that, though your laughter was interrupted by a soft moan as his fingers pick up the pace as they circle your puffy clit. “You’re… hah—handsome,” you manage to return.

Zayne chuckles at your words, nodding his head as a silent thank you. He presses another kiss on your shoulder, though he quickly leaves another one once you begin to rock your hips. He sits back, catching a glimpse of how you look when you bounce on his cock.

He grins, his hand finding the swell of your ass as he gives both cheeks a nice squeeze. “We can move back to our bed if you’d prefer, sweetheart. I don’t want you to have to put in any more effort into your pleasure tonight.”

You shake your head, glancing over your shoulder to look at him. “I wanna see you,” you breathe.

“Honey, there are positions—”

He’s interrupted by your hand reaching back to hold his jaw, pulling him up so that he too could see the reflection of you both in the mirror.

And oh, was it a sight.

“I wanna see you,” you repeat.

Zayne is in no position to deny you, so with a nod of approval, his hands find your hips. “At the very least, let me help you.”

The sound of slapping skin and your breathy moans fill the room, his large hands keeping their iron grip on your hip bones while your hands rest on top of his. He peers out from behind you, watching as your tits bounce just as you do, your hair flying messily.

“Pretty baby,” he pants, more to himself in reaction to the mere sight of you. “Such a lucky man you’ve made me, fuck… take it, baby, yeah. I love you so much, so much…” he babbles, not quite sure what he’s saying, just that he’s speaking whatever graces his mind.

“Oh, I… I love you too, Zayne,” you gasp.

You whine, grinding your hips in fluid motions as you feel your second orgasm quickly approaching. You were sensitive to begin with, and the feeling of his cock stretching you out was more than enough to bring you here.

“Shit,” he rasps, his head falling back onto the rocking chair as his eyes screw shut. “You take me so well, you fit me so perfectly, baby… I’m gonna cum, I’m gonna… oh, shit.”

You weren’t far behind him, and as your movements grow lazier, you opt to sit on his cock entirely as the both of you find your orgasms only second apart.

Ropes of white paint your insides, your cum coating the base of his cock as the two of you become one in a way that you’ve missed so dearly.

Only bliss envelopes the two of you as you slump back onto his chest, his arm wrapping around your waist to hold you close to him. The two of you sit just like that for a moment as you find your breaths that have run off, relishing in the feeling of your combined warmth.

Zayne reaches up to carefully grasp your jaw, turning your head back just enough so that he could kiss you. Your breaths mingle to add to the scent of your love that looms in the air, his other hand running soothing strides along your hip.

“I don’t deserve you,” he breathlessly says with a lovesick grin. “Quite frankly, I don’t. You’re wonderful to me.”

You shake your head, leaning down to kiss him again before he slowly helps you up onto your trembling legs. “Oh, stop that. Just because you’ve been a little caught up with work doesn’t mean that you’re suddenly a bad partner.”

Zayne sweeps you into his arms, carrying you bridal style towards the bathroom. “See? You’re simply too good to me. Such a lovely personality, the most contagious laugh I’ve ever heard, the cutest snores when you sleep, the sweetest pussy in existence… my dream girl in all capacities.”

You smile as he sets you down, pressing a kiss onto your forehead as he crosses the room to draw you a shower to your liking. Warm—not cold, but not hot enough to the point that your skin tingles. He’s had plenty of practice in this area, and he’s gotten it down to a science by now.

“I do not snore,” you murmur, shaking your head.

As he peels off his clothes, discarding them without care on the bathroom tile. He extends his hand to you to invite you inside the shower behind him. “Mhm, sure you don’t.”

You scoff, tipping the toilet seat shut. “You can tease me for my snoring once you, my 27-year-old man, master the art of putting the damn seat down.”

“…Oops.”

note. my dr. zayne would never forget to please his woman! but i really liked the concept sooooo :3 it was rly difficult for me to write him lol the dialogue might suuuuuckkkk but i hope i did him justice < 3 thank you for reading, interact if you enjoyed !!!

i ALSO kinda wanna do a similar version of this with sylus except… not nearly as gentle ig?? would you be interested??? do let me know.

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The Summer Guest ft. Sana

Sana x Male Reader

The heat wrapped around the house like a second skin.

Sana was here for the summer. She’d just quit her corporate job in the city—something about marketing, a bad manager, too many emails. She wanted to start her own business now. Something artistic, she said, something freeing. But first, she needed space. Time to breathe. And what better place than the quiet suburbs with her older sister and her stay-at-home husband? You.

Your wife worked long hours managing a boutique downtown. You worked from home—tech and marketing projects, mostly. Your days blurred together in email threads and analytics dashboards. Sana’s arrival jolted the routine. Not just because of her presence, but because of how present she was.

She was 27. Confident. That easy kind of sexy that didn’t even feel styled. Tight tank tops, soft skin, no makeup. Her laugh carried. Her hips swung just slightly when she walked. Her tits—gravity-defying, round, unapologetic. Her ass was the kind that made you imagine grabbing it in your sleep, holding it through denim or under a dress. Your wife was beautiful—always had been—but Sana had a pulse that throbbed through the air.

She fit herself into your life like a drop of ink in clear water. Subtle at first. Then unavoidable.

You noticed it in the mornings. Her robe never quite closed all the way. Her nipples pressed against the thin cotton, teasing without intention. Or maybe with. You couldn't tell.

The first awkward moment came three days in. You walked into the kitchen for coffee and saw her there—bent over the fridge, robe rising to show the curve of her thighs. Her bra sat draped on the counter. She looked up and smiled like it was nothing.

“Morning,” she said, voice still thick with sleep.

“Morning,” you mumbled, eyes fixed too long before darting away.

Later, in the hallway, she passed you in a tiny tank top and shorts, bare feet padding against the wood. You turned to say something—you don’t even remember what—but your words caught because her nipples were hard, clearly visible, bouncing slightly with each step.

She didn’t mention it. Neither did you.

But you noticed her bra again that evening—forgotten on the laundry chair. Cream lace. Lightly padded. You imagined how it cupped her. How it felt under your palm.

She was everywhere. Curling up on your couch with one leg tucked under her, reading your books. Sipping wine barefoot on your porch, her toes painting idle patterns on the railing. Sitting too close on the loveseat with her thigh brushing yours. Not on purpose. Maybe.

Every interaction made your pulse climb. She knew how to stretch. She knew how to bend at the waist when she dropped something. She wore dresses that caught wind just right.

You found yourself timing your breaks to when she was likely in the kitchen. Once you stepped in to find her eating cherries with her fingers, juice sliding to her wrist. She sucked it clean, eyes on you.

“Want one?” she asked.

You said no. But you watched her mouth. The way her lips closed around the pit. You imagined things you shouldn’t.

One night, you went to get water and found her in the dim light of the fridge, wearing only a shirt. Your shirt. You recognized it. Too big on her, loose at the neck, hanging low enough to flash a cheek as she turned. She didn’t apologize. Just grabbed a bottle and padded back down the hallway. That was the night you started fantasizing.

Guilt followed you to bed.

You began avoiding eye contact. You locked the bathroom door when you showered. You double-checked the guest towels before doing laundry. Every small measure was an attempt at distance. But desire doesn’t care about rules. It festers in silence.

The turning point came a week in.

You were making lunch. She came up behind you, hands on the counter beside yours. Close enough to feel the heat off her skin.

“Smells good,” she said.

“It’s just grilled cheese,” you replied.

She leaned in, chin nearly on your shoulder. “Still. There’s something about watching a man cook.”

You didn’t answer. Her voice scraped nerves you didn’t know were exposed.

When you finally turned, she hadn’t moved. Inches apart. Her lips shiny, parted. Your gaze dropped to her chest, rising with each breath. You met her eyes. She didn’t blink.

“Do you ever think about things you shouldn’t?” she asked.

You should’ve walked away.

Instead, you lied. “No.”

She smiled. Bit her lip. Turned and walked out.

You couldn’t eat.

The grilled cheese turned to rubber in your hands. You scraped the plate into the trash, running water louder than it needed to be. Her smile lingered like the scent of her shampoo in the hallway—floral, sweet, innocent enough to feel like a lie.

The next morning, she was already on the porch when you stepped out. Legs crossed, sun catching on her thighs. A sports bra today. Tight. You told yourself that meant she was being decent. But the way it cupped her chest, the outline of her nipples firm under the fabric, told another story.

“Sleep okay?” she asked, voice like a lazy hum.

You nodded. “You?”

“Dreamed about thunder,” she said. “Woke up wet.”

You froze. She looked over with a sly smile. “From the rain, I mean.”

“Of course,” you muttered.

She laughed, the sound light and deliberate. You noticed how her fingers traced the rim of her coffee cup.

That day, your wife texted—late shift, manager meeting, won’t be back until after dinner. The pattern had become familiar. You worked at the kitchen table. Sana moved through the house like she owned it.

At noon, she came out of the shower in nothing but a towel, damp hair dripping down her back. “Laundry room’s locked again,” she said, stepping close. “Mind unlocking it?”

You did. But not before your eyes dragged across the slope of her chest, towel barely holding.

“Thanks,” she said, and lingered too long.

By Thursday, you were avoiding her like a bad habit. But she kept reappearing—sweeping near you, reaching over you, laughing at nothing. You dropped a spoon. She bent to grab it first, ass grazing your thigh.

“Oops,” she whispered.

You started staying longer in your office, headphones on, door cracked just an inch.

But then came Saturday.

Your wife left early. Sana wandered in while you were fixing a leaking faucet. She stood in the doorway in cutoff shorts and a crop top, licking a popsicle with way too much attention.

“Need help?”

You said no. She sat anyway. Cross-legged, leaned forward, cleavage deep and shadowed.

“Why do you always run away from me?”

You tightened the wrench, jaw clenched. “Don’t flatter yourself.”

She tilted her head. “So it’s all in my head?”

You didn’t answer.

That night, she sat on the porch swing while you grilled. Her foot kept brushing yours. When you looked, she held your gaze, licking BBQ sauce off her finger slowly.

After dinner, you washed dishes. She walked up behind you again. Same way as before. Only this time, her hand touched your hip.

“You keep pretending,” she whispered. “But I see how you look at me.”

Your hands shook in the soapy water. “I’m married.”

“I know,” she said, her breath against your neck. “That’s why it’s so hot.”

You turned, too fast, bumping into her. Your bodies met. Her chest against yours. Her breath catching.

“Tell me you don’t want it,” she said.

You couldn’t.

She leaned in, lips grazing your jaw. Not a kiss. Just a suggestion. Then she walked away.

You stood there, soaked, aroused, ashamed.

The next morning, she wore your wife’s robe.

“Laundry day,” she said, spinning slowly. It was too short on her. The belt tied low, hint of hip, hint of skin. You swallowed hard and left for a walk.

Later that day, she passed you a bowl of cherries. Same as before.

This time, you took one.

And watched her mouth suck the pit clean.

The moment felt suspended, sticky with intention. Her lips pursed around the pit, eyes holding yours as she rolled it slowly across her tongue. When she spit it into her palm, she did so gently, like the cherry was some sacred offering. Your throat tightened.

“You’ve been tense,” she said.

You scoffed, but it came out strangled. “Work.”

She stepped closer. “No, it’s not.”

The air between you shrank. She reached out, plucked another cherry, and pressed it to your lips. You hesitated.

“Bite it,” she whispered.

You did. Juice burst across your tongue. Her fingers brushed your chin, slow to fall away. Her breath was warm. She leaned in, slowly, waiting for resistance that never came.

The kiss wasn’t sudden. It was slow. Melted. Her lips opened just slightly, letting the taste of fruit and heat pass between you. You pulled back first.

“We can’t,” you said, voice low.

“But we already did,” she replied.

You left the kitchen. The cherry pit still in your mouth.

You didn’t sleep that night.

The next day, she caught you in the garage, shirtless, fixing the mower. She walked in barefoot, carrying two popsicles.

“Hot,” she said. You weren’t sure if she meant the day or you.

She bit into hers and made a soft noise of satisfaction. You tried to look away. Failed.

“You know what’s killing me?” she asked.

“Sana.”

She moved closer, slow, deliberate. “It’s this time of the month. My body’s aching. Like I’m empty and hungry in all the wrong places.” She licked the melting popsicle, slow circles. “Everything inside me wants to be filled. And it’s worse now. Every step, I feel it. Every brush of my thighs, every breeze through this thin shirt.”

You dropped the wrench. “Don’t do this.”

She didn’t stop. “I’ve been trying those herbal supplements. You know the ones? For energy and balance.” She chuckled. “But now all I do is wake up soaking. Touch myself twice before noon. And it’s not enough.”

She looked you in the eye. “I see you watching. I feel how you hold your breath when I pass. You want me.”

“You’re my sister-in-law,” you said, stepping back.

She smiled. “Your wife’s little sister.” She let the words drip like honey. “Her baby sister. And she left me here with you.”

“That doesn’t mean—”

“Doesn’t it?” she interrupted. “You think I don’t know how wrong this is? That’s why it’s been building. That’s why it’s this good already.”

She came closer, body warm, eyes glowing. “I’m not asking for promises. I’m asking for now. Right here. In this moment.”

She dropped the popsicle, let it clatter to the concrete.

Her shirt peeled off next. No bra. Her nipples peaked, skin flushed.

“I’m dripping,” she whispered. “I want you inside me. Raw. Deep. Like you mean it.”

You looked away, jaw clenched. “No condom.”

“I know,” she said. “That’s part of it. I want to feel everything. You, the heat, the pulse. I want to know what it’s like to be claimed.”

Her shorts slid down, slow, deliberate. No panties. Her thighs slick, bare, shameless.

“You can still say no,” she said. “I’ll walk away. But if you take one step toward me, I’m not stopping until you make me scream.”

You stepped.

Your hands caught her hips. She gasped, then crashed her mouth into yours. The kiss was teeth and tongue and wild hunger. Her hands fumbled at your waistband, pulling you close.

You didn’t lift her yet. Instead, you pulled back, foreheads pressed. Breathing hard.

“This is your sister’s house,” you muttered. “She sleeps in our bed.”

“And I sleep down the hall, alone,” Sana whispered, lips grazing your cheek. “Alone and wet every night. Because of you.”

She kissed your neck, soft, teasing, the tip of her tongue tracing your pulse. Her hands slid beneath your shirt, palms hungry. “She gets you. I hear her moans through the wall sometimes. I imagine you making me sound like that.”

You clenched your jaw, but your hands tightened on her hips.

“She’s going to come home eventually,” you said.

“I’ll be gone before she pulls into the driveway,” Sana whispered. “But you’ll still be shaking from it. Just like I will.”

Her fingers traced your waistband again, slipped beneath. She dropped to her knees, bare and glowing in the garage light, eyes lifted to yours.

“This is the worst thing I’ve ever done,” you whispered.

She smiled. “Good. That means you’ll remember it.”

She pressed her mouth against your stomach. Warm kisses trailing down your skin. Her voice barely audible. “I’ve been dreaming about this since the first week. Dreaming about sucking you until I forget my name. Until you forget hers.”

You groaned. “Sana—”

She stood and took your hand, guiding it down her stomach, between her legs. Her folds were soaked, swollen, eager. She leaned in, voice hot in your ear. “No one’s touched me in months. No one’s made me beg. I want to beg for you. Just once.”

You slid your fingers over her slit. She shivered, hips arching. “You’re insane.”

“Insane for you,” she said. “Do it, and I’ll carry it like a secret tattoo. No one will know. But you’ll never forget how I sounded.”

She sucked your earlobe, teeth grazing. “Say it. Say you want to fuck your wife’s baby sister.”

Your hands trembled.

“I want to hear you say it,” she whispered.

You exhaled, the words slipping before you could stop them. “I want to fuck my wife’s baby sister.”

Sana moaned like the words themselves touched her. Her lips crashed back to yours. Tongues tangling. Her thigh slid between yours, grinding against your need.

She reached down, wrapped her hand around you, guiding. “You’re already hard. You’ve been hard for days. Give it to me.”

Your mouth moved to her throat, biting gently. “This is a mistake.”

“It’s the best kind,” she whispered. “Now take me like you’ve wanted to.”

You paused. The garage walls felt too thin, too open, too exposed.

“No,” you said, breath catching. “Not here.”

She blinked, then followed your glance to the open window, the driveway. Her mouth parted. She nodded.

“Guest room,” you said.

Her eyes flared. She grabbed her shirt, didn’t bother to dress. Just clutched it to her chest and followed.

The hallway was silent. Your steps careful, adrenaline sharp. You shut the guest room door behind you.

She dropped the shirt. Naked. Wanting. Waiting.

And the lock clicked into place.

You stayed by the door, chest rising, hand still on the knob.

“Tell me you’re sure,” you said.

She turned slowly, stepping backward toward the bed. Her voice came low. “I’ve never been more sure of anything.”

Her body was golden in the dim light, curves casting soft shadows on the walls. She didn’t hide. She opened herself to you, arms loose at her sides, eyes burning.

You stepped forward. She met you halfway.

Her hands reached for the hem of your shirt, tugged it over your head. She kissed your collarbone, soft and reverent, then lower—chest, ribs, abdomen. “I want to feel all of you,” she murmured. “Slow. Like I’ve earned it.”

She sank to her knees, not to tease, but to worship. Her lips pressed to your hip, her cheek against your thigh. “You’ve been so good,” she whispered. “Resisting me. Thinking of her. But not now. Not in here.”

Her fingers slid along your waistband again, then underneath. She peeled everything down, exposing your length. Her eyes lit up. “You’re beautiful.”

She took you in her hand, slow, deliberate strokes, then kissed the tip. Just once.

Then she looked up. “Do you want me?”

“Yes,” you said, without hesitation.

She smiled. “Then lie back. Let me show you how much.”

You did. And she followed, crawling onto the bed, eyes locked on yours. The hunger was there, but under it—something like awe.

She kissed you again. Longer this time. Deeper. Her body slid over yours, skin to skin, heat to heat. And the world disappeared.

She rocked against you, the soft friction of her body over your cock enough to make your hips buck. Her breath hitched.

“You feel like velvet,” she whispered, reaching down to guide you. Her fingers curled around your shaft again, sliding it against her slickness.

The tip kissed her entrance.

“Don’t hold back,” she breathed. “I want all of it.”

You pushed into her slowly, the warmth of her wrapping around you inch by inch. She gasped, hands bracing on your chest. Her nails dug in as your length filled her, thick and deep. Her thighs trembled.

“Oh god,” she moaned. “You’re perfect.”

You bottomed out. She held still, breath shivering, forehead pressed to yours.

“We shouldn’t,” you murmured.

Her eyes met yours. “But we are.”

She began to move, rolling her hips slow and steady, grinding herself down like she wanted to memorize your shape. Her lips brushed your ear. “This is what I’ve needed. Every night I touched myself, I thought of you. Of this.”

Your hands slid to her waist, guiding her rhythm. Her heat clenched around you. She whimpered when you thrust up, meeting her roll.

“You’re inside your wife’s little sister,” she whispered, and the filth of it made your cock throb. “She has no idea what you’re doing to me.”

She rode you harder, hair falling in your face, mouth open, gasps louder with every thrust. Your hands roamed her back, her ass, gripping, guiding.

“Do you feel how wet I am for you?” she cried.

You flipped her over in one motion, pressing her into the mattress. She moaned in shock and pleasure. Her legs spread wide, welcoming, needy.

“Show me,” she said breathlessly. “Show me how bad you want this.”

You grabbed her wrists and pinned them to the bed, body flush over hers. She gasped, eyes wide, then melted beneath your weight.

“I’m not one of your clumsy boys,” you said, voice gravel and heat. “You wanted a man—now take what that means.”

You drove into her, hard. Her back arched with a cry so raw it rattled the headboard. Her nails clawed at your grip but didn’t try to escape.

“Oh fuck,” she whimpered. “You feel—fuck—you feel like nothing I’ve ever had.”

You slowed just enough to speak into her mouth. “You’ve been fucked by boys in suits. Quick, quiet, selfish.”

She nodded, gasping. “In bathrooms... offices... never like this.”

You ground your hips in deep circles, making her sob against your throat.

“They never made you beg,” you said.

“N-no,” she choked out.

You pulled nearly all the way out. Waited. Watched her writhe.

“Beg, Sana.”

“Please,” she moaned. “Please give it to me. Don’t tease. I need you.”

You thrust back in so deep she shouted, legs locking around you.

“Good girl,” you growled. “Now you know what it’s like to be taken.”

Your rhythm was relentless now—long, claiming strokes that made her entire body rock beneath you. Her tits bounced with every slam, nipples flushed, mouth slack.

She babbled your name, incoherent with bliss. Her pussy fluttered around you, desperate, soaked.

“You’re fucking ruined,” you whispered against her ear.

She cried out. “Yes—ruin me—I want it—I want you to wreck me.”

You pushed her thighs wider, deeper than before. Her eyes rolled back. Her moans broke into little whimpers, punched out with every thrust.

“Feel that?” you said, hand on her throat now, not squeezing, just holding.

She nodded frantically. “You’re everywhere. Inside me—oh god—you’re so deep.”

You kissed her hard. Possessive. A claim.

And she kissed back like she’d die without it.

Then she flipped you.

One motion—fluid, practiced—and suddenly you were on your back, and she was straddling you. Her hands pressed into your chest, her hips sinking down again with a wet, welcoming slide.

“Let me show you,” she said, breathless but steady, “what those boys never got.”

She rolled her hips in slow, grinding circles, squeezing you inside her, her thighs flexing. Her breasts bounced as she leaned over, lips at your ear.

“You’ve never done it like this with her, have you?”

You swallowed hard.

“She wouldn’t let you,” she said, riding you harder now, her fingers running down your chest, your sides. “Wouldn’t let you lay back and just feel.”

Your hands gripped her hips. You didn’t answer.

“That’s why I’m here,” she moaned. “To give you what she never could.”

Your guilt twisted, sharp and undeniable. But it didn’t stop your hips from meeting hers.

She smiled. “That’s it,” she whispered. “Give in to me. Just for tonight.”

And you did.

You reached up, one hand at the small of her back, the other cradling her jaw. You pulled her down and kissed her—long, deep, hungry. Her moan poured into your mouth as she kept moving, grinding slow and tight over your cock.

Then you sat up, keeping her wrapped around you, your arms around her waist, your chest to hers.

Face to face.

You kissed her again, tongues twisting, your bodies locked together. She clung to your shoulders, panting. Her hips rolled like a wave, slick and strong. Every time she came down, your breath hitched. She was tight, dripping, and utterly in control—but it was you who anchored her.

She broke the kiss just long enough to rest her forehead against yours. Her voice came out in a low tremble.

“Don’t make me fall in love with you.”

You froze.

She rocked once more, slower now, deeper. “Because if you do, I’ll take you.”

“Sana—”

Her laugh was breathless, bittersweet. “Like I did with my sister’s Barbies. When we were kids. I’d steal them. Hide them under my bed. Make them mine.”

Your heart twisted. Her pace didn’t stop.

“I’d wait until she was gone,” she whispered, “then pick the prettiest one. The one she liked most.” Her mouth kissed your cheek, your jaw, your lips again. “And I’d keep it. Pretend it had always belonged to me.”

You kissed her like you couldn’t help it.

She groaned softly. “So don’t love me, okay?” she whispered. “Just fuck me. Hard. Like I’m your favorite toy.”

And you held her tighter.

She ground down harder, riding you with filthy intention, her hips slamming with desperate rhythm. Her moans sharpened, breathy and raw. Every time she dropped her hips, her walls clenched like she meant to milk every drop from you.

“I can feel you twitching,” she gasped. “Fuck, baby, you’re gonna cum, aren’t you?”

You grit your teeth. “No. I can’t. I’m not blowing inside you, Sana. You know we can’t.”

She slowed, still grinding, her voice purring against your ear. “But I want it so bad. Want to feel you paint me inside. Want to be your dirty secret, dripping with your cum while your wife’s at work.”

You groaned. “Don’t make this harder.”

Her lips brushed your cheek. “Then let me make it easy.”

She kissed you once—sweet, needy—and lifted off you, your cock bouncing slick against your stomach. Her hand found it instantly, stroking as she crawled down the bed.

Her voice turned playful, wicked. “You’re so fucking hard for me. You’ve been aching since I got here.”

She settled between your legs, hair wild, eyes shining. “Let me taste how much you wanted me. Let me swallow every drop like the filthy girl I am.”

Then she wrapped her lips around you, warm and perfect, tongue circling the head as she moaned like she was devouring a dessert.

You gasped. “Fuck, Sana—”

Her mouth slid deeper, taking more, her throat fluttering around your tip. She pulled back with a slick pop and giggled softly, eyes locked to yours.

“I always wanted to be your favorite. Let me prove I can be,” she whispered. “Just once. Let me ruin you for anyone else.”

Then she sank back down, bobbing slow, one hand teasing your base while the other stroked your thigh like she owned you.

You fisted the sheets, back arching. She didn’t stop. She moaned around you like your cock was her cure.

And you were about to break.

You warned her—one gasp, one broken word. She only moaned louder.

And then it hit.

Your back arched again, hips bucked. You spilled down her throat with a grunt, body spasming as she swallowed you greedily, lips sealed around your cock like she needed every drop.

When she finally pulled off, she sat back on her heels, grinning like the wicked little thing she was. She opened her mouth to show you—tongue out, thick with your cum.

She scooped some up with her fingers and rubbed it over her tits, teasing her nipples until they gleamed. “Pretty good show, huh?” she said, voice husky.

You could barely breathe.

She crawled back up beside you, her body still glowing, still needy. She kissed your cheek, then your chest, then lowered to your nipples, licking them with soft, slow flicks of her tongue. Her hand stroked your softening cock like she missed it already.

“That was perfect,” she whispered.

You stared at the ceiling, chest rising, heart pounding.

She curled against you, tracing circles on your stomach. “I’m here for another week.”

You didn’t answer.

She kissed your shoulder. “Think I’ll get another chance to make you lose your mind?”

Still, you couldn’t answer. You didn’t trust what would come out.

She smiled into your skin. “We’ll see.”

#sana smut #twice smut #girl group smut #kpop smut #female idol smut #smut #male reader smut #kpop idol smut #male reader

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its-always-nightshift · 3 months ago

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This is the official design of Sun for my Theater AU!! I love him so much and I honestly need to draw him more. He’s so character.

Click for more information about the AU:

What is the Theater AU?

A fic currently in the works which takes canon Sun & Moon and plays with the concept of them being theater bots before being transferred (unwillingly) to the daycare! Half of the story revolves around when they were theater bots, and the other half is about the daycare. The drawing above is Sun when he was a theater bot! Sun in the daycare looks very close to canon in design with a few different details. And by theater, I mean they had some very cool acts. Moon has my favorite performance in the story so far.

Is there a y/n for the Theater AU?

No, you follow along the story of a nonbinary oc named Roy who dabbles in software engineering. You can, however, imagine that Roy is the pizzaplex’s nickname for y/n and pretend as such! Either way is fine by me, but the fic will be tagged as oc insert.

Have you written any chapters/made any art for the Theater AU yet?

Very few, but that’s only because I have to wait until summer to flesh it out properly. I do, however, have many bullet points for the storyline written down already as well as a couple of snippets and have a very good idea of how I want the fic to play out.

What kind of personality does Roy have?

Roy is a very down-to-earth, analytical, logic-oriented type of person. Roy has a lot of patience and I think Sun sometimes needs that kind of patience because of his jitteriness and overall bouncy personality. They’ve known the boys for a while and always took an interest in the way they work. They might even be the reason Roy went into software development and specialized in AI.

Can I use your art/writing for AI?

Absolutely not. That is not what AI should be used for. Thank you for your cooperation.

How technical will the fic be?

I want to mix my own experience as a computer scientist into the story a little while also making the explanations easy enough for anyone to enjoy and maybe find their own technical passion out of it. I will still mention some fun comp sci technical jargon for the purpose of enunciating Roy’s professionalism. On the robotics side, my own experience lacks, but I will try my best to get as accurate as I can by studying the canon boys.

Does Roy get to smooch the boys?

I’m still debating this, honestly! Maybe in some sequel story or side-comics, but the main fic is meant to focus on the characterization of Sun & Moon, so we’ll see. The boys can’t move their faces similarly to canon, but they would happily accept a smooch on the cheek.

Who do you like more, Sun or Moon?

Oh boy, I love them both! Moon is very scary and I’d never go back to that level in security breach if I can avoid it, but he makes for such a funky character full of potential storytelling. Sun is definitely my favorite of the two though. When I tell friends about a fic I’ve recently read from any of the fantastic DCA stories, I always ramble about how Sun’s character was written whether it was sunhinged, emotionally haunting, or absolutely sweet! When I played Help Wanted 2 I was overjoyed by his character. He deserves to be a little sassy sometimes, as a treat. It is no different in the Theater AU; he has his sassy and sweet moments.

Moon’s design I am still working on, so keep an eye out for him!! Also let me know if you take an interest in my boys by asking questions about them! It helps me find their personalities better and inspires me to do more. Thanks for reading!

#fnaf moon #fnaf sun #moondrop #sun and moon fnaf #fnaf dca #sundrop #dca sun #dca moon #dca #dca au #theater au

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changeling-droneco · 1 year ago

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Hi I'm that person who made the original post about "no doesn mean no" when a small bit of the mr beast company document was leaked, well, now we have the full document (thanks rosanna) so I'm going to go over it. Please note I am not a lawyer or a business man, I'm in college for psychology, so I might misunderstand some things or make the wrong conclusion. However, if this is a document made for the average mr. beast employee, if I cannot understand it properly, then im sure some employees also struggled

First of all, the opening paragraph. Like I get it's supposed to be like, to put people at ease, but

This is so strange? Like, first of all, this is your EMPLOYEE MANUAL, you should have run it through like, a spell check? Or had someone edit it? This is already incredibly unprofessional. Also the promising of a thousand dollars if you pass a quiz on it? It's bizarre and I'd love to see if it's an actual quiz.

Jimmy, hun, please god get an editor for this you're already trying my patience.

YOU SHOULD, you genuinely should, while interconnected these are all COMPLETELY different jobs, if you think you could write a separate manual for each branch you SHOULD

I'm sure I'm about to get an answer but what the fuck is the best YOUTUBE video then? If it's not comedy, its not production, its not quality, its not look, then what the hell is left? (monetization, it's monetization)

First of all, Jimmy, why are you using internet lingo in this, it's not a text message, this is not a place for, idc, and lol, and not capitalizing your headers correctly??? Also like I said, he's chasing trends for monetization, and also he's just wrong, there are plenty of hollywood level shows and the like on youtube. You fully admit you do not care about trends and actively rush things?

This is just fucked??? Like of COURSE IT MATTERS??? Results based company is bullshit, your employees that worked for five weeks and failed aren't "lesser" then James, it's a structural failure! They still worked for HOURS to try and succeed?? That shows merit and loyalty??? What the fuck???

Rosanna covers this one in her video but it's worth restating that this is FUCKED??? It's clear overwork "your job is your family" culture. Especially the use of the word obsessive? If you do not OBSESS over your work, you are considered poisonous. NO WONDER we have so many reports of employees doing things they feel is dangerous or unsafe, if they don't they're considered POISON to the company.

The formatting in this doc continues to fucking kill me, what are you DOING man GET AN EDITOR

This feels like such an easy fix of just...make the thumbnail after the fact? Or only make a rough draft of one first? Like if production makes a red bouncy castle instead of a yellow one, that feels like an easy fix to the thumbnail OR a communication error, and again, that's on management

A lot of the next stuff is like analytics stuff that for the most part I can't really speak on as someone who does not do any of this stuff. There are a few things though

Which like???? what??? a lull??? what do you mean "watching a video without even realizing they are watching a video??" That doesn't scream good or even mediocre content to me. If I'm actively tuning out as I watch a video, that's bad. Especially because there have been plenty of times I've been like half way through a video i go "hey this sucks actually" and click off. They actively want their audience to not be paying attention to the video so it runs all the way through, that's kinda pathetic.

I don't actually know if this is common or not in this industry, but as an outsider this seems INCREDIBLY micromanaging to me, to an immense degree.

Jimmy why are you putting swears in your employee manual?? sir??? and also something about this whole thing icks me out, I don't quite have the words but the whole emphasis on "im different im special no one else can be me" just reeks of something kind of manipulative

Why is production changing so much Jimmy??? Infinite growth is the mindset of a cancer cell Jimmy! This is incredibly unstable working conditions! Also again with the word obsession, if you take time out of your own day on your own time to watch hulu, that's seen as not being obsessed enough for the company. This is nonsensical!

Again, this is INSANELY micromanaging, and also so fucking unhinged??? "God himself couldn't stop you from making this video on time" is NOT a healthy work mindset, things HAPPEN!!!

In this segment he's actually talking normal things but I did just want to highlight his use of "freaken" who the hell puts that in an EMPLOYEE MANUEL

Again with the micromanaging, and the immense pressure on employees for problems OTHER people do. While he's not fully wrong that you should be in more contact with the contractor then the example, this is too much in the other direction. How much time in the day does he think people have?!

My kingdom for a fucking paragraph break dude, my fucking eyes. Also this is a lot of "im so great and do everything and you should do more for me and if i dont know something that's your fault" for something titled "I am not always right"

I'm getting lazy with my highlighting, but again, the micromanaging? If you're SOOO busy, the first question should be the ideal? it's quick and makes a quick decision, while the second one meanders and meanders

Again, Jimmy is pushing blame for HIS mistakes on OTHER PEOPLE. For again, a section called "i am not always right" hes taking NO accountability for that and just making the SAME excuses he's berating in other places.

I can't even tell what he means here AN EDITOR JIMMY

Autism Hell tm, PLEASE email me so I can DOUBLE CHECK IT, things in writing are SO useful

Again the language towards "C-Players" which as mr beast has said, are the people who y'know, are NORMAL employees who DON'T live and breathe this company

Okay first of all, a Lamborghini is like 300k so that's already A REALLY hard task, and i sure hope don't usually put typos in the tasks. SECOND of all the fact he thinks its okay to go "hey if the studio is literally on fire around you and you stop working to get the Lamborghini, you're not doing good enough" even if he claims it as a joke is NOT OKAY what the FUCK

We've covered this before, but to reiterate this segment is named after a sexual assault reference when it could have been named ANYTHING ELSE and harasses employees and pressures them to break rules, don't do that.

I'm not an editor, so maybe this is normal, but as someone from the outside it seems strange to put this much emphasis on dividing focus between so many videos at once.

Jimmy, hun, are you paying extra for this? Because if I'm an editor and you want me FILMING stuff then i want to be paid more for doing TWO jobs and I probably still wont be as skilled a TRAINED CAMERA MAN

First of all now THAT'S a type, consteatants. Also the fact they are aware that leaving contestants out in the sun is bad, why are you not doing MORE TO STOP IT BEYOND "hey maybe giving them three hours of heatstroke is bad, try only two next time"

Don't we love favoritism, more shitty unprofessional writings, and a completely unstable work environment?

If your people have to pull all nighters period something is wrong, and if something happens to an employees car that could have seriously hurt someone, i sure hope you care more then just "LOL FUNNY" Who's picking up the broken glass? Who's reimbursing the car owner? That one meme of "your first care should be commitment to the bit" is a MEME jimmy, it's not ACTUAL ADVICE

Ah shit I hit image limit, well, you've seen enough screenshots to know these are screenshots, we're almost done I'll put them in as quotes

"Let’s say you are tasked with finding us a castle to live in for 50 hours and while doing research you find a castle and a number to call for the owner. So you do call, and he answers. Only problem is he says he quit the castle renting business to pursue his dream of building a 100 foot tall lego catapult. You can obviously tell where i’m going with this. Ideally you’d recognize that’s badass as fuck and try to convince him to let us use it when we do find a castle. This is a bad example because it’s so obvious but if you’re doing your job right you will be doing an absurd amounts of calls and data collecting. While trying to complete your prios and prepare for the video you should always be on the lookout for new things you can bring to your creative team to inspire them. Because just like me, they don’t know what they don’t know and you can’t just say “i’m in production and i’m not very creative” because that’s literally the equivalent of saying I suck at what I do. You also need to apply this same mindset when problem solving because many people lose sight of this stuff when in the weeds. If a problem appears, always always always ask yourself if your new plan is whats best for creative, not just the easiest bandaid."

First of all it's really funny seeing all the red lines pop up, second of all this insistent blurring of everyone's job seems so strange? Again maybe this is normal, but it really feels like Jimmy wants everyone working every job, instead on focusing on what they are actually hired to do.

"What is the goal of our content?

To excite me. The goal of our content is to excite me. That may sound weird to some of you, especially if you’re new but to me it’s what’s most important. If I'm not excited to get in front of that camera and film the video, it’s just simply not going to happen."

That's fucking weirddddd, like I get that he's trying to be like "im authentic" but it always feels like a bad sign when the goal of a company is literally just "What amuses the boss" like...bad sign

"this is youtube and there are constraints. You know the video can’t be a minute so you’re obviously going to need a story to hold the viewers and there are rules to storytelling. Our audience is massive and because of that you have to be simple, for 50 million people to understand something it must be simple. Content can be anything but there is structure and rules that we must mold it into that I want to teach you about, because virality doesn’t just happen. Every frame of our videos will be seen by 10s of millions of people"

Gross

"I'd say the average MrBeast viewer is a teenage memer that likes video games."

Mr Beast is completely aware of his demographic and puts screen shots of it, he is very aware his stuff is aimed at kids, even when its about gambling or hiring people not around near minors

"I feel silly for having to write this but all the time I talk to 32 new people that have at most seen like 5 or 6 of our videos and it’s mind blowing that they don’t see a problem with that lol."

It's almost like your audience is teenage memer and that people who working here are not in fact, teenage memers.

"What you consume on social media, when you watch youtube, tv, the games you play, etc. are what I like to call your information diet.

How do you stay up to date on the latest memes? How do you know what’s going on with celebrities? What’s trending on youtube? What other creators are doing? What’s popping on tik tok? Your information diet. Consume things on a daily basis that help you write better content."

If my job as a creative writer had my boss tell me to have to see whats "popping on tik tok" as part of my job i'd quit also again, the micromanaging of someone's life as well pops up again, it's weirddd

"It’s okay for the boys to be childish

If talent wants to draw a dick on the white board in the video or do something stupid, let them. (assuming they know all the risks and arn’t missing context on why it’s not safe) People like when we are in our natural element of stupidity. Really do everything you can to empower the boys when filming and help them make content. Help them be idiots"

More favoritism

"If you’ve made it this far you are probably at least semi interested in this being your career. So I wanted to chat about it. Because if you're ambitious and want to dedicate your life to work, you picked the best company in America to do it at. I really don’t care to hoard a bunch of money and I deeply believe in rewarding the people that help this business get where it needs to be. But before I get into that, let’s talk about the future. As I write this we have 2 teams, that will grow to 4 in the next year. (and possibly 8 in the next 2 years but I can’t talk about that cause james will kill me haha). We need more leaders in the company. Weneed hard working, obsessive, coachable, intelligent, grinders that can step up and take some of these leadership spots over the next 2 years. Every single department has an opportunity for you to grow in and you’re in luck because we don’t do yearly reviews. We do whenever the fuck you want reviewes"

Lack of communication from management, and more emphasis on grinding and crunch culture, goodie, all while riddled with typos! God.

"I see a world where this company is worth billions and one day 10s of billions. And those of you that help build this will be rewarded. I want nothing more then for you to go all in, obsessive all day everyday, and become so god dam valuable this company can’t operate without you. And in return for becoming so valuable I hope to give you incredible experiences, a fun place to work, and of course, more money then you could ever dream of making at any other company."

I feel like I'm reading a fucking pyramid scheme document here, "youre so so valuable spend literally every minute of every day on this company haha" good GOD man

#mr beast #rosanna pansino #dogpack404 #jake weddle #this has been three am thoughts

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invoncible · 4 months ago

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♡ THINK I NEED SOMEONE OLDER ... ! (CECIL VER.) cw. suggestive towards the end

— as requested. i've gotten a few asks for some cecil, conquest, and nolan stuff so i'm gonna make this a mini series! the next part will probs be conquest ? i imagine you're controversially young for them in comparison. because lets be real these guys are fossils. — i probs got him ooc IM SORRY

cecil is a private man. nobody knows about your relationship, and that's how he liked it.

you were a secretary at the pentagon, a well-to-do front line desk worker that loved your low maintenance job that allowed you great pay, easy hours, and lots of benefits.

the first time you met, he came in to work grumbling as usual about all the shit he had to deal with... until he saw your bright smile over the counter.

"hiii!" you sprung up from your seat, offering him a coffee. "director stedman, good to see you today."

his name and 'good to see you today' rarely coincided. being the guy that made all the hard decisions didn’t leave much room for camaraderie—no one got buddy buddy with the guy in charge (except donald).

he accepted the coffee on autopilot while scrutinizing you. you were a new face, at least to his knowledge. first day, maybe? wanting to make a good impression on the boss?

"thanks." he muttered, taking a sip and trying to hide his surprise when it was made just how he liked it. he was too picky for it to be a lucky guess, so you probably asked around... for information on him... interesting. he had to be careful with you.

he caught your eyes over the rim of the cup; you were watching him with an equal intensity, searching for any microexpressions that would affirm you did a good job. your lips quirked up in a smug little smile when you managed to pull approval from his facade, smoothing down your pants as you dropped into your seat again.

"have a good day, sir." you hummed, eyes flickering up to him as he walked away.

"yeah." he cleared his throat, more confused than anything.

he brushed it off as a fluke—again, he thought you were new and wanting to make a great first impression. which you did, by the way, but his intrigue grew when you just didn't stop.

every morning without fail, you had his coffee ready, a sweet little greeting, a warm smile. it became a comfort for him, but he didn't even allow himself to go down that road of ... affection. because you were you and he was him.

"so, how about that secretary, sir?" donald asked him one day.

"what about 'em, donald?" cecil sighed, but he was itching to talk about it, too. his thoughts drifted to you more often than he’d like, and it was becoming a biiit of a problem.

“nothing.”

“you brought it up. clearly you had something to say.” cecil pinched the bridge of his nose. “so talk.”

donald’s lips quirked up ever so slightly. “are you aware they only prepare coffee for you?”

no, he wasn’t aware. it’d become so normal that he hadn’t even considered that. he might as well be hyper-aware, now. breaking people down to their innermost desires and principles were his trade, and his analytical mind was not lost on you. and so, every morning without fail, he talked a bit. went beyond the ‘have a nice day’ thing you’ve both grown comfortable with.

you perked up in your seat upon seeing cecil walk in, another thing that endeared you to him. “director—”

“how do you like your coffee?”

you blinked, thrown off by the change in routine. “um… i like to try something different each time, i guess..?”

“if you had to choose.” he murmured, delicately accepting the warm cup from your outstretched hand. “humor me.”

that was where it started. from then on, he showed up with your coffee, performing an amicable exchange of sorts (he had ulterior motives, of course) and while you two sipped on the hot invigorating brew, you talked about how you ended up here, what you did outside work, places you’ve traveled… emphasis on you because he wasn’t going to spoil this slice of heaven with his troublesome past.

“it’s a good deal, you know?” you hummed, swirling the cup in your hand. “nice desk all to myself, easy admin work, no one annoying to handle for the most part.”

“for the most part?” he inquired, leaning over the counter.

you waved him off as you sipped from your cup. he frowned and chucked his empty cup in the garbage behind your desk.

“tell me.”

you laughed softly, tossing your cup along his, licking your lips of the residual taste. “mm. you have bigger things to deal with, director. things that needed your attention…” you trailed off, glancing at your screen. “what, an hour or so ago?”

“is it the end of the world?”

“no.”

“then the team can handle it.” cecil’s lips parted in a smug smile, his words holding a finality you couldn’t help but listen to. you couldn’t suppress the warm feeling pooling in your gut. “tell me. that’s an order.”

“oh?” you reacted verbally, your eyes widening, the firm command making your heart flutter. “since when do you give me orders?”

“since i care about harassment in my building.” he shot back before allowing himself to be impressed with your audacity. since i care about you.

you giggle softly and he takes a moment to commit the sound to memory.

“i’m just kidding,” you stand and jog your papers against the desk surface, preparing to make your rounds with the freshly printed documents. “you are my boss, after all.”

yeah… he is your boss. but with you, he often felt like you were in charge.

you’d be lying to say this wasn’t your plan all along. you saw him when you came in for your job interview and decided to try your luck. you didn’t expect it to work, much less work well. you had him wrapped around your finger! at first, it was just a fun way to pass the time at your desk; now it was something you looked forward to everyday.

“it’s just some analyst from upstairs that comes to bug me.” you shrug with a roll of your eyes. “just stands there and talks for hours.”

“isn’t that what i do?” the question left his mouth before he could stop it, and he instantly regretted it. the more he talked to you, the less of a filter he had, rarely thinking things over before speaking and impulsively saying what’s on his mind.

your lips spread in a small, mischievous smile, a glint in your eye. “you’re different. i like you.”

you’d become more and more forward and it was getting harder for him to dismiss the hints you dropped. the man’s been around, and he wasn’t so dumb to be blind to what you were doing. what you were trying to get him to feel. although considering that he was your boss, he was simply content with the song and dance you had right now.

he watched you walk away until you disappeared from his sight with a heavy sigh.

side note, you never saw that analyst again.

there was one day you weren’t at your desk, and your absence rang some alarms in his head. he’d been sneaking looks at your records and would know if you requested time off. more than that, you would have told him.

he was about to walk off when he heard the doors behind him burst open and the rapid clack clack clack of shoes racing across the floor.

he turned to watch you, looking deliciously disheveled might he add, with a raise of his brow. “y/n—“

“i’m sorry!” you stop in front of him to catch your breath. “i didn’t get your coffee today—“

“that’s fine,” cecil said lowly, his expression amused. “you run a fucking marathon or something?”

“—i got up late and… and… damn, that’s the first time i’ve sprinted in a while. fuck.” you bent over your knees, panting. “there was traffic and a whole line at the coffee shop—someone knocked it out of my hand when i was leaving—“

“hey.” he set your coffee down on the counter behind him, putting his hands on hips. “you don’t have to apologize. it was nice you even started to do that in the first place, doll.”

your eyes snap to the cup he got you, a frown tugging on your lips. “but you—“

“don’t worry about it.”

“okay, but—“

“i said don’t worry. that’s an order.”

you huffed a breathless laugh as you straightened up. “i’m beginning to think you just like telling me what to do.” (he did.)

your odd relationship with the director came to a head at a workplace get together. a rare moment of respite which was really a space for the entire department to wallow in their misery together rather than alone.

cecil never came to these things until he knew you’d be at them. he figured he’d drop in just to scope things out, and he wasn’t sure what he expected but he definitely did not expect you, and many others, to be piss drunk.

you recognized him through the dim light, brightening up as you usually do. you stumbled over, jostled by the packed bodies pushing and pulling you through the crowd.

“easy.” cecil murmured, coaxing the glass out of your hand. “damn, you’re wasted.” he commented more to himself than you, a short incredulous laugh slipping through his lips.

“mhmm.” you slurred, head thumping into his chest.

“okay.” he whispered, downing the rest of your glass and setting it aside to free up his hands. can’t let good wine go to waste. a thought passed through his head as he swallowed the beverage: this must be what you taste like right now. pump the brakes, loverboy.

he propped you back upright by your shoulders. “how ‘bout we lay off the drinks?”

“whatever you say, boss.” you hummed, a buzzed smile on your lips.

“you want a ride?”

your clumsy hands wrapped around his tie, pressing into him and tugging him forward by the loose fabric. “you offering?”

holy shit. his eyes flickered to your delicate fingers, the same ones he’s watched type away at a keyboard, walk up and up and up his red tie. “no.” he said curtly.

“‘nd i don’t mean a car.” you hiccup.

he paused, wondering if you realized you were talking to him, not some other co-worker. “i know.”

you sigh dramatically, leaning into him. “you should give me your number.”

cecil groaned, shaking his head. now he knew you needed to get some water in you and sleep your intoxication off. you were saying nonsense. “let’s get you out of here, kid, i’ll call you a cab.”

“no. m’serious,” you pushed, lips pursed in a pout. “i want your number.”

his steely blue eyes narrowed at you, searching your face even as you swayed from side to side. “no, you don’t.”

you scoffed and knocked your head against his shoulder, clinging to his arm for support as he walked you out of the gathering. “whyyyy…” you mumbled.

cecil dialed someone on his phone, holding it up to his ear as it rang. “you’re drunk, y/n. you’re not thinking straight.”

“i am!” you retorted petulantly, tugging on his arm and pulling the phone away from his head. “i’ve wanted it for a while, just took a little liquid courage to ask…” you trailed off, eyes drooping. “we have coffee dates all the time, what’s so different if—”

“woah, woah, woah.” he stopped you, “dates?” he echoed incredulously.

you bite your lip, peering up at him while his response buffered in your inebriated mind. after a moment, you nodded. “uh-huh.”

“those aren’t dates, kid.” this bitch was lying through his teeth. he considered them dates, too, but anything to keep a semblance of control over the situation.

“might as well be. ‘nd stop calling me that.” you scrunched up your nose in distaste. he’s never called you ‘kid’ before this and you’re beginning to think it’s his way of putting distance between you.

“i’ll call you whatever the fuck i want.” he snapped, growing defensive. he liked your little game, the fun will-they-won’t-they thing you two had going on, but now that it was becoming real to him… now that you were forcing him to confront the feelings he knew he had for you, he had to build his walls back up again—even if it pushed you away in the process.

“yeah? cuz you’re my boss?” you managed to shoot back, still gripping onto him for support.

“look at that, you got it. was that so hard?” he scoffed, turning away from you to prevent himself from caving. your shiny eyes in the darkness and tinted lips from the drinks made him want to throw caution to the wind. “i know you think you want something from me… trust me, sweetheart, i’m doing you a favor.”

you roll your eyes. “cuz you’re so noble like that.”

cecil’s eyes narrowed, getting into your space. he walked into you, unintentionally guiding your back into a wall. “mock me all you want, doll. the moment you lie in bed with me is the moment you’re erased from existence. i won’t allow anything to happen to you, and i’ll do everything to prevent that from happening.”

“okay?”

he put his hands on his hips. “i don’t think you understand. i don’t do anything half-assed.”

you giggled drunkenly. “and that’s supposed to be a threat?”

“you know i love when you talk, but shut up for a second,” cecil closed his eyes like he was trying to gather himself. you always had a knack for undermining his authority. but in retrospect, he made it way too easy to do so. when he looked at you again, something had shifted.

“this isn’t a game to me,” he muttered, voice quieter now, but no less intense.

you blinked up at him, suddenly realizing how close he was—not just physically, but in a way that made your heart stutter. you were finally on the precipice of what you’d been building up to since you met him.

cecil exhaled sharply, running a hand over his face like he was trying to keep himself in check. “i’ve spent months convincing myself i should keep you at arm’s length.” his hand curled around your wrist, not hard, but firm enough to make your breath catch. “if you push me…” he trailed off, leaning in closer… and closer… his nose brushed against yours and that singular touch sent a jolt of clarity into him.

he pulled back, stepping back and shaking his head with a click of his tongue. “this is reckless.”

“cuz you’re my boss?” you offered, finally finding your voice, your mind no longer occupied by his proximity or the scent of his cologne.

“uh-huh. and i can’t be your boss if i’m with you like that.” cecil adjusted his tie and shirt. “also. you’re drunk.”

“i’m not that drunk.”

“drunk enough.” he shot back with a raise of his brow.

“cecil.” you step towards him, reaching out to him. your heart swelled when he didn’t try to evade you. your hand fastened around his wrist. “i’m telling you i’m not. scrub me from your records for all i care. keep an eye on me. i know you do that already, anyway. the only thing that’s changing is that we’re both getting what we want. i don’t want you to just be my boss.”

he groaned, turning away from you despite the tether you had on his arm. “don’t say that shit.”

“what? that i want you?”

“will you stop?” cecil turned to you, a scowl on his face.

your lips split into a grin. his instructions never really worked on you. “do you want me to?”

cecil rolled his eyes. obviously the answer was no. “...fuck.” he cursed before dragging you outside, storming across the parking lot.

he stood next to his car. “last chance to back—”

“fuck no.” you scoffed with that stupid grin of yours and cecil wasted no time ripping the back door open and shoving you into the back seats. he quickly followed you inside.

his breath hitched as you clambered onto his lap, hands landing on your hips. for a brief moment, he hesitated—just a fraction of a second before he kissed you.

it was rough and desperate and months in the making, like he couldn’t get close enough, like he couldn’t pull you in fast enough. his hands slid down the curve of your ass, pulling you up further on his lap as he let his legs shift apart. your fingers tangled in his hair as you pulled him deeper.

“you’re so fucking annoying,” he growled against your lips, his grip tightening around you contrary to his declaration.

you laughed brightly. “you're taking me to coffee tomorrow. but for now... still up for that ride?”

#invincible #invincible x reader #invincible x gn reader #cecil invincible #cecil stedman #cecil stedman x reader

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sunshine-jesse · 4 months ago

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The Painful Realities of Andy and Leyley

Decay gave me a lot to chew on. While there was very little that caught me by surprise, per se (insofar as there’s a difference between shock and surprise), I didn't expect Nemlei to Go There with regards to some of the themes she covered in the newest update. I had a hunch, sure, but it was so (seemingly) out of place compared to the tone of the rest of the game that I didn't explore it as well as I could've. Most writers who cover the things Decay did don't play it dreadfully straight or treat it with so much respect. And even when they do, it often comes off as fetishized, which isn't bad per se, but so little of the rest of the game came off as The Author's Poorly Disguised Fetish that it was hard to take the prospect as seriously as I could've.

Effectively, Nemlei outplayed my media analysis skills by being an even better writer than I anticipated.

And so, I will respond in turn.

...or at least, I can try to.

I don't think I can type an analysis that is purely analytical anymore. Episode 3 hit me so much harder than anything that came before it that it's very difficult to write what I do with any sense of detachment. I can't pretend it didn't get personal. I love these characters. I love this story. I love the themes it covers. And I relate to many of them.

That's why seeing TCAL playing everything so dreadfully straight hurt so much.

(This essay is going to be somewhat narrativized to reflect my playing experience of Decay. This is a writing exercise as much as it is character analysis. But I also didn't have the patience to proofread this, so please be gentle.)

Part 1: The Games We Play With Ourselves

My first route was the Cliffhanger route. I want to pretend that I picked it because I knew it’d be the best outcome due to my unparalleled (insert ashley smug face here) understanding of the characters but I actually wasn’t expecting that one moment to be the big decision that caused the paths to diverge. It was just the only save file I had for Decay because it was the most hopeful outcome to me at the time. Because of that, when playing through Decay, everything felt so… business as usual. Things didn’t even feel as tense as they did in episode 2 when the paths diverged. This is, as a matter of fact, how I reacted for most of my first playthrough of the game. I didn’t see it as weird. It made sense. Nobody was really wrong here or making particularly bad decisions.

The only thing that caught me by surprise for the first half of it was when Andrew slapped Ashley, but I didn’t even feel like it was that shocking of a moment. Ashley has a chronic problem with taking things seriously, so I don’t think Andrew showing her what it means to take a threat of violence seriously is a particularly out of pocket response. However, it’s also not the only way to assert his identity as Andrew, because Burial showed us a better way for him to do the same: quiet dismissal with a confident assertion that ‘Andy’ is dead. Slapping her wasn’t the only way to get the point across, but it was -a- way, and I think it was important for Ashley to internalize it even though the slap was a simultaneous sign of strength AND weakness on Andrew’s end.

He didn’t need to play her game, but he did, and he managed to make it mean something.

The episode in general went through great lengths to show how unseriously Ashley takes her own actions. Which is a mood (she’s literally me, chat), for sure, but we’ve already seen that offhanded remarks by Ashley are enough to deeply sting Andrew.

This whole scene was an example of her not taking her own words seriously, by highlighting a dynamic we took for granted in prior episodes. Their endless back and forth is perceived as a harmless game by her. A lot of people perceived this dynamic as toxic back in prior chapters but it’s fairly common in long-term relationships. As someone who has a tendency of doing that myself- at least with friends- it makes social situations easier to navigate when I know that both of us are aware that the other person isn’t actually trying to hurt the other in a way that sticks.

(I’m obviously not saying that their dynamic isn’t toxic, just that this one aspect of it is fairly normal and often taken uncharitably)

There are dozens upon dozens more examples than this but I assume that if I need to list them off to you then you haven’t actually played the game. I’m just listing this one because it’s useful for highlighting the way she views their dynamic.

Either way, Andrew isn’t having it this time, because he’s focusing harder on something he wanted from Ashley all along:

Respect.

Respect is a huge running theme in this episode, and the decision to accept being called Andrew or Andy is the make or break point for the route, and by proxy, their relationship. If Andrew decides to demand self-respect by asserting his identity as Andrew, then Ashley takes his request to not roast the camper seriously. But if he doesn’t demand to be called Andrew, then she does roast the camper. The implications of this decision are huge, but if you choose to be called Andy, he’s too much of a doormat at this point to show why it’s so important.

Accepting being called Andy gives Ashley permission to double down on all the worst aspects of their dynamic. There’s a lot to say about how Andrew reacts to this, but most of it is retreading old ground, because he’s made his issues with this and what it means to him abundantly clear already. What’s more interesting- to me- is how Ashley reacts. When Andrew reacts to “Why do you think it’s okay to hurt me?”, Ashley responds with… confusion.

"(It's) fine to stomp over every boundary I've ever set, isn't it?"

"I- uh...... wouldn't know."

She doesn’t get it. She genuinely doesn’t get it. She does not understand boundaries, flat-out. She has very few of her own, and therefore doesn’t see them in other people. Even when Andrew expressed boundaries to her in his past- the few times it actually happened- he quickly lowered them, never teaching her what they actually mean. While we don’t know for absolute certain because of how few flashbacks we’ve seen from her perspective, it seems like she’s never been held to account for transgressing a boundary.

Even when she’s slapped in the face, she doesn’t quite understand that it’s Andrew setting a boundary and showing self-respect. We see this later on with the argument she has with Andrew later in the episode:

"...............I stopped calling you Andy."

"Ooooh! Hallelujah! She hasn't called me by the wrong name for a few days! Mercy me, do I stand corrected! This must be love! And not just any love, but true love of the highest caliber!"

She thinks it’s just doing him a favor. She’s not respecting his boundaries at all. It’s something she’s GIVING to him.

With Ashley’s general inability to take things seriously in mind, and her lack of understanding of boundaries, I think there’s one more piece of the puzzle I need to explore before I can explain why I think things I really went to shit:

HOT

SIBLING

BREEDING!!!

Coffin is, still, even with Decay in mind, not making a statement on whether or not incest is good or bad. I can say that with full confidence. It's going further than that: it's using their incestuous relationship to highlight the ways in which the siblings interface with sexuality. Their more romantic, intimate moments are still portrayed as cute, and something that makes both of them happy. Physical affection stabilizes their relationship, and is something the two of them need to feel like things are okay. It doesn't hurt them.

...to a point.

Because she sure as fuck isn’t showing that it’s good, either.

In the Shoot/Dead End route (I'll be referring to this route as 3B from here on, and the cliffhanger route as 3A), their incestuous tendencies are unambiguously portrayed as a negative thing. Everything they do together makes one or both of them uncomfortable, unlike almost every other instance we see in every other route. But why? What's the difference between 3A and 3B?

Let's compare the scenes of intimacy between 3A and 3B:

In 3A, Andrew was slow, patient, and gentle, resulting in something that both Ashley and him enjoyed. They cracked a laugh, hugged each other, very cute, wholesome, and not at all weird if you don't look at the shared genetics behind the curtain.

But in 3B, he was sudden and forceful, resulting in something Ashley didn't enjoy. She tries to reciprocate but he pulls away shortly after, supposedly because she's not good at kissing, and also because he still feels gross about actually enjoying a sexual encounter with his little sister. Her reaction to this was visible confusion.

I want to establish my takes on these scenes now because I’m going to draw attention to them later on.

So, let’s recap:

Ashley doesn’t take things seriously enough. She doesn’t understand personal boundaries. She attempts to reciprocate affections and act with visible confusion when it’s rejected. What does this mean? I want everyone to hear me out on this before they respond with ‘well, no fucking shit Sherlock’, because this little fact about Ashley’s character goes far deeper and is more wide-reaching than many might think, at least given the kinds of analysis I see on this game:

Ashley treats life like a game.

And I don’t mean that as a heavy-handed metaphor for her thinking everyone needs to be played and manipulated and that she has very little personal investment in anything that goes on. I mean she actually, literally, treats life like a game. Let me highlight something from the Q&A so I can explain just how important this really is:

“She doesn’t want to grow up”

“her fantasy of Andy and Leyley.”

When she calls Andrew Andy as a teenager:

"It's supposed to be endearing!! It's our secret game! I thought you liked that kind of thing."

You see where I’m going with this? Her whole dynamic with Andrew is part of that ‘secret game’ to her. It’s something she takes seriously, unlike everything else in life. Every deviation from it is merely doing him a favor. She’s allowing him to break the rules, if only temporarily. She doesn’t take many things seriously because she can’t emotionally grasp the significance of it. In her mind, she’s still a child. And for much of the story, no matter the route, she’s still playing that game with Andrew, no matter what’s at stake.

Ribbing at each other? Part of the game.

Their mutual displays of affection? Part of the game.

But boundaries? Those weren’t part of the rules.

This is why Ashley is so confused and distressed when none of ‘her’ games work on Andrew anymore.

The rules have changed. And she doesn’t understand them anymore.

Here lies the core differences between the routes in Decay. In 3A, Andrew is still willing to play that game with her.

Just like in real life,

Just like with his peers, with his mom, with Julia,

Andrew knows how to pretend to play Ashley’s game.

He’s not quite aware it’s a game in the same ways as her, but he does know the sets of behaviors he can use to calm Ashley down. And as shown with the Entity, he’s extremely good at negotiating rules even when he’s not aware there’s a game at play. But he still doesn’t understand it as a game, and that’s where many of his frustrations come from (not to say Ashley is fully aware it’s a game either, but he’s even less aware than she is). Ashley doesn’t listen to him as often as he’d like because he’s not fully aware of the rules she expects them to operate under. Or perhaps, more accurately, not aware of what he has to do to change the rules rather than just create exceptions.

I don’t exactly know either, but I think it has something to do with how much gifts mean to Ashley. Keep in mind that all it takes is a wedding ring to avert the double suicide ending.

I think this proclivity for engaging with life as if it was a game might be why Ashley is said to be in-tune with the Demon Realm and enjoy their puzzles so much: everything has clear rules and conditions for winning or losing. Agreements are ironclad, and a deal is a deal. It’s a series of easy and somewhat predictable input->output mechanisms, as long as she’s precise with her desires. While the Entity is clearly manipulating her in some way, it’s yet to do so through lies, and she has been shown no reason to believe that it ever lies, outside of when it tells her highly emotionally inconvenient information.

(If your eyebrow rose when reading that, mine rose while typing it too, but I’m not here to diagnose anyone because that makes analysis less interesting and I literally wrote the essay on why people shouldn’t do that)

One detail I want to point out before tying this all back together is that games are something Ashley has appreciated from the absolute youngest we’ve ever seen her, before either of them did anything wrong: The flashback where they visited the grandparents. Andrew turning his pursuit of Ashley into a game was shown to instantly get her to behave better, as it’s given her clear and obvious rules to adhere to, and conditions to get something she wants, no strings attached. I wanted to point this out so I could establish that this is how she’s always been and not a pattern she fell into, because I need to emphasize just how pervasive games are to how Ashley interfaces with the world.

With Andrew, her ‘secret game’ becomes something different.

Tying back into my first essay, the ‘games’ she plays are the framework with which she uses to feel in control of Andrew. They’re what her entire sense of safety is predicated on, and without the rules and reciprocal ‘play’ that comes with games, she loses any sense of emotional stability and becomes extremely volatile, confrontational, and sometimes violent. She’s not one who can function without an understanding of what’s going on, which is precisely why she lacks foresight and operates on intuition.

It’s not like she’s not trying, right? I’d like to present the scene where Andrew calls Julia with Ashley on the line.

At first, Ashley loses her shit and just barely manages to keep herself together. It really seems like an act of wanton cruelty on Andrew’s part, but it’s important to note that you get a star for this scene. You don’t get stars for scenes where their relationship deteriorates. So why do you get a star? She initially appeared upset, but the moment Andrew reframed it, her expression flipped, and she immediately became happy.

"So she can behave. Somewhat."

"Hmph! You dared to doubt me? Shame on you! Despite your underhanded bullshit, I emerge victorious!"

Andrew had to stop Ashley from yelling, and from hanging up, but Ashley managed to quiet down and stabilize herself enough to not loudly explode and get violent and uncontrollable.

And outside of where they were forced to be separated either to solve a puzzle or at the whims of the Entity, Andrew led her through every challenge they faced and she didn’t spend the whole time questioning his ability.

Why do you think we play as Andrew for the vast majority of the episode, even when they’re together?

She trusts his judgement more, even if she can’t quite understand (or at least vocalize) why. There’s a reason she roasts the camper in every route where this one interaction isn’t possible: Her desire to gain strength from eating people supersedes her trust in Andrew’s ability to handle difficult situations. She has to gain enough power for the both of them, or they’re fucked. But if Andrew has the strength to assert his identity as Andrew, maybe she doesn’t need to do all the heavy lifting.

(This is why I believe the star scenes are what they are. They’re not required to improve their relationship, but they ARE required for the necessary context to show why “the future” (as stated by the Entity in the Vision Room when he mentions them) is what it is.)

For a large part of the rest of the episode, we see a lot of smaller moments like this, where Ashley is at least trying to reach some kind of mutual understanding with Andrew and Andrew is trying to convey his actual feelings to Ashley, but the two of them keep speaking past each other because they simply do not understand the language that the other speaks. But what’s important is that their relationship manages to not deteriorate, and despite the vicious fighting, they still express a desire to understand the other when left to their own devices. By this point, I was feeling vindicated, as a lot of my initial analyses that were incredibly charitable to both siblings seemed to be at least somewhat correct and that I was right to give them the benefit of the d-....

Part 2: The Lies We Tell Ourselves

...-id Andrew just kill a fucking child in cold blood?!

I want to draw attention to the wording I used to describe how Ashley treats life as a game. I said she treats it as a game, not necessarily inexorably understands it as such. This is not a tendency she had no choice but to manifest; outside of being part of the way she manifests the Andy and Leyley fantasy, it’s also an emotional regulation tool that simplifies her interactions with the world. I want to specify this because I feel like, if I don’t, it might paint a picture of her being a helpless victim in a world that treats her poorly. Nor that growing up would solve her problems, and that she has no agency because she had no choice but to be this way. While I would never deny her nor Andrew victimhood of each other and the world around them, I also don’t want to confuse people into thinking that I don’t think they could’ve done better, and that I shouldn’t expect them to. Because the more I played through the game- and after finishing it, the more I thought about it- it became clearer and clearer that they could, because Andrew…

Holy shit, Andrew. Talk about dropping the pretense.

When the parents were sacrificed, Andrew- and his life- could never be normal again. The man realized that too, because nothing Ashley suggested registered as objectionable anymore. He offered so little resistance to killing the campers that it didn’t even sink in what kind of action that was. He was never much of a moral conscience to begin with, but from that point on, he stopped trying.

"Aaah, you know I can't say no to a family value pack."

Oh, Andrew, you wretched little shit. I get it now.

The thing about Andrew that I didn’t quite get last time is just how loose his grasp on the idea of normalcy actually was. It seemed like a central facet of his character and something he desperately wanted to hold on to at all costs, but now it looks much, much different. It wasn’t something he wanted to convince himself was true much past his teenage years, but the moment hormones started setting in, he made almost no effort to come to terms with his sexual desires. He made no attempt to distance himself from Ashley, to not project his fantasy on to Julia, or even to not peep at his sister in the shower.

‘Normal’ wasn’t something he wanted to be. It was a role he wanted to play.

At every chance he got, he fed into his darkest desires like an addict, and projected those fantasies on to Julia. He didn’t even bother trying to make space between him and Ashley; no, she had to do it for him, because she was mad at him. And the best part is, it wasn’t even good for him.

As much as he tried to lie to himself, what he really wanted is to lie to others. Not once did he try to change himself in accordance with the person he wanted to be, and especially what others wanted him to be. Not once did he self-reflect about what he really wanted, or what would be best for him, or even Ashley, for that matter. He just wanted other people to shut up. Andrew was not a victim of his own impulses and desires. I really feel the need to emphasize just how messed up this man is; Without Ashley taking an active role in his life, he didn’t get better. He filled in the gaps in his heart by choosing to be worse.

Nemlei took subtext, turned it into text, and then turned that text into a baseball bat that she used to crack our skulls over and over again. He was never the ‘good person’ in their relationship, and never once tried to be.

And the worst part is that I fully understand and empathize with why.

There’s a funny thing that sometimes happens when you have impossible standards piled on to you and enforced through abuse and you’re denied a chance to ever be your own person: You fail to develop a coherent sense of identity. You latch on to anything that ‘seems’ right and predicate your whole sense of self on it. You need this sense of identity to navigate the world, so anything that threatens it is a threat to everything you know, and you respond to it in turn. Everything you do outside of that one core idea (or several ideas) becomes an act, a puppet show you play to placate others and serve your own ends. You can’t afford empathy or understanding to ‘threats’, because you’re too busy trying to protect what you ‘know’ you are. A threat to your world is a threat to your life, and so you respond by desperately doing whatever it takes to remove that threat. Sometimes lies, sometimes violence, of varying degrees of intensity depending on the threat.

Sometimes you learn to shut your feelings off.

Sometimes you learn to react too strongly.

Sometimes you learn that nobody else matters, because everyone else will just hurt you anyway.

You devalue people. You overvalue people.

Anything to feel safe, anything to feel like the outside world is less of a threat. Anything to remove that threat, manage that threat, or protect the only thing in the world that matters to you, whether that thing is yourself, or someone else.

And for Andrew? It’s said to us in the beginning of episode 3:

Andy’s Leyley

Leyley’s Andy

Yeah, Nemlei. I get it. You understand.

There’s another side to this coin, but I’ll get to that.

Not that this happens to everyone, but it absolutely happened to Andrew. The ‘role’ he was had forced upon him was that of Leyley’s _____. Her protector, teacher, parent, general caretaker. Her emotional regulator. Her brother.

Her everything.

It was all he could be. All he was allowed to be. Because the moment he diverged, he was punished greatly by Renee, and at some point, Ashley herself. He predicated his entire value system on being her ‘Andy’, to the point where every action he took that wasn’t part of the act he put on to attempt to interface with the world normally became for her.

It was all for her, because he was her _____. Anything to keep her under control, anything to keep her safe.

One of the most notable examples of this is shown when Lord Unknown was attempting to give him therapy. When he started hearing how people spread rumors about how he slept with Ashley, and Douchebag told him that the people in Ashley’s class said that she spread them, he just glossed over this fact. So little attention is drawn to it that I actually missed it on my first playthrough. Instead, the first thing Andrew expressed internally was concern over whether or not she was being bullied; it didn’t even register in his mind that she was responsible for smearing his reputation.

To him, she was never responsible for anything. She was his responsibility above all else. The incestuous rumors hardly mattered to him, and he kept finding holes in the story and pointing them out, such as how she didn’t have time to spread them early (since we saw them enter school together) in the day because she stood Douchebag up on a Friday, and how there was no way to catch them behind the auditorium ‘yesterday’ given it was a Monday. The presence of those holes is why I’m skeptical of whether or not she actually spread them, but it’s not like it’s something she wouldn’t do. More on that later.

Above all else, Andrew wasn’t concerned about how people saw him; he hardly even cared. He was upset mostly about people thinking that he’d take advantage of Ashley in that way. There was nothing weird to him about how clingy they were to each other, how affectionate they were, how protective he was.

Of course he was all that. Andrew was her brother. It was his job to be all that. It was his job to be her _____.

I’d like to present an alternate theory to the idea that Andrew dated Julia to appear normal. The theory isn’t mutually compatible with that, but it feels woefully incomplete. Given the focus on bullying, the anger had over the idea that he’d ever hurt her, and the fact that sexual feelings started creeping in his mind thanks to the magical curse of teenage hormones, I believe the primary reason he dated Julia was so that he could prove to others- and himself- that he would never hurt his precious Ashley. Not in that way, not at all. It was everything he predicated his sense of identity on. It was what he had to be, above all else.

So in order to protect his ‘role’, his identity, he chose something he, deep down, knew would hurt her, because nobody could ever be led to believe that he’d take advantage of her like that.

Especially himself.

Appearing normal to others was a pleasant side-effect of this, and if he could convince himself he loved Julia, he’d never have to add ‘boyfriend’ to the list of things he had to be for Ashley.

Hahahaha, whoops.

Surprise! It was the thing he actually wanted to be for her the most!

Teenage hormones are an awful thing, aren’t they? In realizing that he had sexual feelings for Ashley, he finally found something he’d actually enjoy being for her!

And it was something he could never be, lest it risk everything else he thought of himself as being for her!

Oh, the wretched irony of sexual desire. I could never.

Which way, western man? Everything you think you should be, or the one thing you actually want to be?

Andrew tries to have it both ways, but, y’know how that went. No attempt to rein in these desires, projecting his sister on his girlfriend, etc etc. Already been over that. But now I can highlight why I believe he got worse and kept feeding into his desires; the closest thing to a moral conscience he had- his identity as Leyley’s _____- takes a step out of his life for reasons I’ll cover when I cover how much of a fuck up she actually is.

What, you thought I’d skip over her just because I was- and still am- her number one defender? Oh no no. Now that I know better than to give these losers (that I love very dearly and desire nothing but happiness for) so much charitability, I have a lot to say about her too. But back to Andrew.

Without that sense of personal identity- without his proximity to Ashley- he sees no reason not to give into his desires, watch her while she dresses, and project all of his most sexual fantasies on to Julia. His interactions with Ashley were, as fucked up as it is, grounding to him. They stabilize him, give him a reason to act right that isn’t just a facade. With that, he has nothing. Nothing except his facade of normalcy.

I think the year-long gap between his interactions with Ashley are precisely the reason why ‘normalcy’ became so important to him. It became a second sense of identity that conflicted with what he predicated his identity on before. He could finally emulate being a somewhat normal person, with a somewhat normal attachment to a somewhat normal person. Horray! But the prior identity still existed. It never went away. Ashley was where his heart was, and trying to give it to someone else only hollowed out what was there before.

This one CG speaks louder than any words the man has ever spoken, up to this point.

These are not the eyes of someone who is merely depressed. These are the eyes of someone who is confronting the idea of living a life without the only thing that ever gave him meaning.

He can’t even make eye contact with himself, because there’s nothing there.

Andrew, without Ashley, is a hollow husk of a man who starts to crumble the more he tries to convince himself he could be anything other than her everything.

She is the light of his life. The nightmarish, toxic, corrosive light of his life.

(cont. in next post)

#the coffin of andy and leyley #andrew graves #ashley graves #tcoaal #gaming #gravecest #tcoaal essay

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almost professional

what began as just a job slowly blurred into something more—quiet glances, late nights, and words left unsaid. as his manager, you told yourself it was professional. but somewhere between the victories and the arguments, you fell for him—and deep down, it was clear you were never alone in that.

blue lock masterlist. leave a little stardust on my ko-fi

starring. isagi yoichi x fem!reader

genre: fluff, romance, aged up!isagi, manager!reader

wc: 6.4k

author's note: this has been long overdue and finally got the chance to post so i hope you can guys enjoy it!!

you still remember the first day like a punch to the gut. the sun was cruelly bright, your shirt collar too tight, and your nerves louder than the echoes of cleats hitting concrete floors. fresh out of high school, you thought maybe—just maybe—being a personal assistant to one of the blue lock managers would be more clipboard than chaos.

you were wrong.

blue lock was chaos incarnate. testosterone-laced competition and ego filled every inch of the high-tech facility. the atmosphere was thick with ambition—sharp and hungry. you’d barely been handed your id lanyard when you saw him.

isagi yoichi.

number 11 on his uniform. blue lock’s rising star. not the loudest, not the flashiest—but there was something magnetic about him. his focus. his hunger. the quiet way he stared at the goal like it owed him something.

he wasn’t the type who made noise with his mouth—he made it with every calculated movement on the field. his presence wasn’t loud, but it echoed. he wasn’t chasing greatness. he was planning to devour it.

you were just an assistant. a glorified water-bottle carrier and clipboard keeper, assigned to help one of the assistant managers with schedules, logs, media coordination, and the occasional locker room clean-up. you thought you’d blend in, unnoticed. invisible.

but he saw you.

you dropped a stack of evaluation reports on your second day—nervous fingers slipping on the slick folder edges as a few dozen pages scattered across the corridor like fat snowflakes. players walked past, too absorbed in their rivalries to care. he was the only one who stopped mid-drill to help you.

no words, just a quiet presence kneeling beside you, passing sheets one by one. his gaze didn’t linger, his tone wasn’t soft, but you felt something settle in your chest like a small, persistent fire.

that was the beginning.

the transition from high school graduate to someone responsible for tracking the life of one of japan’s future stars was brutal. you hadn’t learned how to run on four hours of sleep yet. every day was a barrage of unread emails, misplaced gear, and dodging the media. and isagi—bless him or curse him—never made it easy.

he forgot schedules. argued with reporters. trained obsessively until his body screamed for rest. he’d sneak in extra drills behind the training staff’s backs, ignoring ice baths and nutritional plans like they were optional side quests. and when he lost a match?

he’d go silent. not out of shame, but out of hunger. he disappeared into himself, chewing through his own failures in silence, replaying them like reels behind those sharp, analytic eyes.

you learned how to tell when a loss was eating him alive. you’d hand him water in those moments and your fingers would brush, and he’d look at you like he was trying to find something to hold onto that wasn’t made of shattered expectations. neither of you ever said much.

but he never made you feel like you didn’t belong.

that was the thing.

even when he ignored the schedule you worked all night on. even when he took off running after a grueling session while you were still packing up cones. even when he made your heart race for reasons that had nothing to do with caffeine or chaos—he never once treated you like you were less.

he’d catch your eye across the field and nod, just once. not as an athlete to a staff member. but as isagi to you.

a silent acknowledgment.

a kind of understanding you couldn’t quite name yet.

you weren’t close. not really. but you orbited each other like planets too afraid to break the rules of gravity.

you told yourself it was fine. you were young. you were just starting. you had a job to do. professionalism first. you’d only known him for a few months, anyway.

but time stretched in strange ways inside blue lock. days felt like weeks. every win was a triumph. every loss a tragedy. you weren’t just growing up—you were burning alive in a forge.

and so was he.

you watched him sharpen. from the boy who knelt beside you on the floor, to the weapon who dissected the field with terrifying precision. you watched the rough edges smooth, then hone themselves into something more lethal.

and you wondered, sometimes, if he even remembered that second day—those papers, those soft moments.

because you did. every time.

every time he smiled at you like he forgot he wasn’t supposed to.

every time his gaze lingered a second too long when you laughed with another staff member.

every time he walked past you in the hallway and you swore you could feel him brush against your shoulder just to remind you he was there.

you weren’t a star. you weren’t a player. you were just someone orbiting the sun, hoping not to get burned.

and even though you told yourself not to—god, you did it anyway.

you started to fall.

you tried to resist it—buried it beneath early mornings, laminated schedules, and meticulously curated recovery routines. but how could you not fall for him?

for isagi yoichi, who burned with purpose and carried the weight of ambition on his shoulders like it was stitched into his very skin.

and then, everything changed.

it was a little over a year since you’d first stepped foot into blue lock—older, sharper, and more confident in your role. you’d stopped flinching at angry reporters and learned how to talk back to ego-driven agents with a polite, lethal smile. you’d grown, and so had he.

he was eighteen now. so were you. and after a string of phenomenal international matches, after climbing higher and higher through the blue lock rankings, isagi was officially signed to bastard münchen.

germany.

you found out through a press release.

you read it three times in your cramped dorm before the words sank in:

“yoichi isagi signs with bastard münchen.”

you were happy. you were proud. and you were… a little bit heartbroken.

you thought that was the end of it. thought the distance would finally bury those feelings that had grown too heavy to carry. you started preparing yourself to let go.

until the call came.

it was late.

you were organizing training reports in the blue lock archive room when your phone buzzed with a foreign number. you stared at it, hesitated, and picked up.

“hello?”

there was a beat of silence, followed by a voice that made your heart flip in your chest.

“it’s me,” isagi said. his voice was steadier than you remembered, deeper—like germany had already started shaping him.

you sat up straighter. “isagi? i—congrats on bastard münchen. that’s incredible.”

“thanks.” a pause. “listen… i didn’t call just to talk about the team.”

you blinked. “okay?”

“i had to submit the name of my personal manager today.”

you swallowed. “right. they usually assign someone local to the club, right?”

“i didn’t want someone local,” he said firmly. “i wanted someone i trust.”

your breath caught.

“you don’t have to answer now,” he continued. “but i told them your name. you're already on the shortlist. all that’s left is your approval.”

“i… me? why me?”

“i’ve worked with a lot of staff since blue lock started,” he said. “but only one person ever looked me in the eye like i wasn’t just a player. like i was a person. only one person stayed late making sure i didn’t destroy my body training too much. only one person handed me water and knew exactly when i needed to say nothing.”

you felt heat crawl up your neck.

“i need someone like that,” isagi said, quieter now. “someone who gets me. not just my stats or my brand. me.”

the room was too still. too small for everything you were feeling.

“i don’t know if i’m experienced enough,” you whispered.

“you will be,” he said. “we’ll grow into it. together.”

his words settled in your chest like a promise.

you looked around the room—the familiar concrete walls, the smell of synthetic turf still clinging to your hoodie. it had been your whole world. but suddenly, it felt small.

your world was already shifting, orbiting something—someone—much larger.

you exhaled. “okay.”

“yeah?”

“yeah,” you said, smiling. “i’ll come with you.”

and for the first time in a long time, you could hear the smile in his voice, too.

“good,” he said. “because i don’t think i could do this without you.”

now you suddenly found yourself on a plane, seated next to him as clouds blanketed the window and the dull hum of the engine filled the silence between you.

it was surreal.

the flight to germany was long, and yet—somehow—it still didn’t feel long enough for you to fully process what had happened. you, barely out of high school, freshly promoted from an assistant to an official manager in training, were leaving your country for the first time. leaving familiarity behind. and for him.

yoichi isagi.

he had headphones slung around his neck and a german phrasebook half-open in his lap, though his eyes were closed, head tilted back against the seat. the soft light from the overhead fixture cast gentle shadows across his cheekbones—sharper than when you’d first met him. his frame had filled out too. the boy who used to eat protein bars at ungodly hours and fall asleep during video reviews had grown into someone entirely magnetic—focused, still humble, but no longer naïve.

your gaze lingered on him too long.

and as if he could feel it, his eyes cracked open.

“staring at me again?” he murmured, voice husky from sleep.

you rolled your eyes, flustered. “i was just making sure you’re alive. you haven’t moved in thirty minutes.”

he smirked, that signature lopsided grin that had charmed half the football world but still managed to hit you the hardest. “i’m conserving energy. coach noa’s training is going to murder me.”

you fiddled with your seatbelt to hide the way your heart flipped. “you knew what you signed up for.”

“so did you,” he said, eyes narrowing just slightly. “you sure you’re okay with this?”

you blinked. “with what?”

“leaving everything. coming here. managing me.”

you looked at him then—not the press conference version of him or the highlight reel, but the boy who had always run headfirst into the impossible, dragging you with him in the quietest, most consistent ways.

“i wouldn’t be here if i wasn’t sure.”

he didn’t respond right away. instead, he turned fully toward you, elbow resting on the armrest as he studied your face in that calm, intense way he always did—like reading between your silences.

“then i’m really glad,” he said softly. “because it’s always better when you’re there.”

you looked away before your face betrayed you.

“try to nap,” you muttered, pulling the thin airplane blanket over your lap. “it’s a long flight.”

he didn’t argue, but before he leaned back, his hand brushed yours.

accidentally, maybe. or maybe not.

and even though your heart thudded violently at the contact, you didn’t pull away.

you spent two years in germany—and in that time, you watched yoichi isagi evolve from a promising blue lock player into a name that echoed in bundesliga stadiums.

your days were filled with chaos and routine. waking up before the sun for training briefings. managing interviews in two languages. making sure his recovery meals didn’t clash with his ever-shifting macros. but in between the noise, there were quiet, defining moments.

late-night ramen in his apartment after exhausting matches. silences filled with trust, not tension. the way he’d knock on your door just to vent about a missed shot, knowing you’d listen without judgment. how he’d look for you after every goal, even if it was just a glance across the pitch.

there were arguments too. over his sleep schedule. over his stubborn insistence on solo drills. over that one time he played through an injury and didn’t tell you.

“you’re not invincible, yoichi,” you snapped, hands trembling as you held the ice pack against his swollen ankle.

“but i have to be,” he said, voice low, eyes meeting yours. “if i want to be the best.”

you didn’t reply. you just held the ice there longer, your hand warmer than it should’ve been.

and then, there were the moments when everything stilled.

like the time you got caught in a sudden berlin downpour after a match, both of you soaked and laughing under a bus stop with steaming paper cups of hot chocolate. he looked at you then like you were more comforting than the win he’d just scored.

or the quiet december night he bought a tiny, crooked christmas tree for your shared apartment lobby, just because “you looked homesick.”

your feelings for him grew slowly, like ivy—wrapping around your days, unnoticed until they were impossible to untangle.

and somewhere in those two years, he changed too. not just as a player. but in the way he always waited for you to catch up when the cameras pulled him forward. the way he always made sure you had a seat near the bench, even if you pretended not to care. the way he looked at you during team dinners—just a second too long.

you were falling.

and you couldn’t tell when it stopped being professional and started becoming personal.

but maybe… it had always been both.

now, two years later, you were back where it all began—but everything had changed.

you sat next to him on a plane bound for tokyo, the soft rumble of the engines beneath your feet, the skyline of berlin shrinking behind you like a memory. his duffel bag was stuffed under the seat, your shared itinerary tucked neatly into your folder. the cabin lights were dimmed for the long flight, and yet, the glow around him seemed brighter than ever.

isagi yoichi—japan’s golden boy. the face of soccer. magazine covers, sponsorship deals, fan chants that now echoed globally. his name wasn’t just on jerseys now. it was on billboards, in commercials, written into headlines.

you glanced sideways at him. his head was leaned back, headphones in, eyes half-lidded as if he could sleep. but you knew him better than that. he was thinking. planning. turning every play in his head like he always did.

the moment still felt surreal. the boy you met in that steel-and-glass crucible called blue lock, who once picked up your fallen papers, was now returning home as japan’s prodigy.

he opened one eye and caught you staring. a small smirk tugged at his lips. “you keep looking at me like i’m not real.”

you rolled your eyes, but your chest tightened. “just… hard to believe sometimes.”

he took one earbud out, shifting in his seat to face you more. “believe it. we’re going home.”

a pause.

“together.”

that one word carried more weight than you were prepared for.

you looked down at your hands, laced loosely in your lap. your badge now read personal manager, but it never felt like enough to define what you were to him—or what he was becoming to you.

“tokyo’s going to be insane,” you murmured.

he nodded. “the cameras, the press… the expectations. yeah. it’s going to be hell.”

you risked a glance at him again. “you ready for that?”

isagi turned fully now, resting his arm casually on the armrest between you. his voice was quiet, but his tone held that same intensity you remembered from blue lock—focused, unwavering.

“as long as you’re with me?” he held your gaze. “yeah. i’m ready for anything.”

outside the window, the stars shimmered against the dark stretch of sky. below you, tokyo waited—brighter, louder, and ready to welcome back its star.

and beside you, the boy you once admired from a clipboard’s length away was no longer just a rising athlete.

he was something else entirely.

and so were you.

you had become a constant in isagi yoichi’s life, a shadow moving with him from practice to press conferences, from early morning jogs to late-night post-match breakdowns. two years as his manager—and more—had taught you everything there was to know about him.

you knew the rhythm of his day. the exact way he liked his energy drinks stacked in the fridge. how he tied his laces a little tighter before every match. how he spaced out when he was thinking too hard, eyes locked on some invisible replay only he could see. you knew that the sharp edge in his voice didn’t always mean anger—it often meant fear. or frustration. or the unbearable weight of being expected to win every single time.

because with greatness came gravity and sometimes it pulled him under.

especially after a draw. or worse, a loss.

there was one night—after a particularly brutal draw that stuck in your memory. he hadn’t spoken much on the way back. the silence in the hotel room was deafening until he finally snapped.

“just—stop. i don’t need a manager right now, okay?” his voice had cut like a whip, sharper than usual. “i don’t need you hovering over me like i’m about to fall apart.”

you didn’t flinch. you’d learned not to.

instead, you leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, expression cool despite the ache in your chest.

“too bad,” you’d replied, your tone dry. “because you’ve got one. and i’m the only one on the planet who knows how to deal with your melodramatic, football-obsessed ass.”

there was a beat of silence.

then he’d laughed—a low, tired sound, like the fight had drained out of him. and when he looked at you, something softened in his eyes. you’d stepped forward, not saying anything, just standing there until the storm passed.

it always passed.

that was your rhythm.

he’d stumble, you’d steady him. he’d push, you’d pull back just enough to stay close. never too far. never gone.

you knew by heart how to deal with him.

when to speak, when to wait. when to leave him alone in the quiet of a hotel room, and when to press a steaming cup of coffee into his hands without saying a word.

you knew the exact moment when his silence meant he needed space, and when it meant he needed someone to stay.

you learned to read him like a game plan—fluid, complex, always shifting. but unlike a strategy on the field, he wasn’t something to be solved. he was someone to be understood.

and you did.

god, you did.

you were the first person he called when a match didn’t go his way. the first he texted when he landed a new sponsorship. the one he looked for in a crowd even when thousands were chanting his name.

you weren’t just his manager. you were his constant.

his calm in the storm. his quiet in the noise.

more years passed, filled with the same push and pull that defined your relationship from the start. moments that lingered too long. glances that said too much. every touch that could still be excused as accidental… but wasn’t.

your feelings grew like something wild and stubborn, untamed by logic or titles.

and his actions? they never made things easier.

some days, he treated you like a best friend—late-night ramen runs, inside jokes, the quiet comfort of shared silence. other days, he��d look at you like you were the only thing grounding him to earth, and you’d forget how to breathe.

so you stayed. through wins, losses, contracts, and chaos. your heart never quite sure what category you belonged to.

manager.

friend.

confidante.

something else?

now, he was part of japan’s national team. a global star. a name that made headlines and filled stadiums.

and you? still there, right beside him. still managing his calendar, his training schedule, and—if you were honest—his moods.

one late evening after practice, as he tossed his towel over his shoulder and walked beside you down the empty corridor of the training center, you nudged him lightly with your elbow and said with a grin,

“you know, with all this success… maybe you don’t need me anymore.”

he stopped walking. turned to you.

his brows furrowed, not in anger—never in anger—but in that intense way he looked at the goal. like he was zeroing in.

and he said, without even a beat of hesitation:

“that’s the dumbest thing you’ve ever said.”

you blinked.

he kept going. voice low. steady. certain.

“i’ve needed you since blue lock. i needed you in germany. i need you now. not just because you keep me organized or sane or whatever… i need you.”

and there it was. maybe not a confession.

but a crack in the wall he always kept up. something raw and real slipped through.

you were silent for a beat, maybe two.

the hallway felt too quiet all of a sudden. like the world was holding its breath just to see what you’d do next.

and in the dim lights of the corridor, you thought—no, felt—something flicker across isagi’s face. not frustration. not his usual competitive fire. but something softer and something close to pain.

it passed quickly, like it hadn’t even been there at all.

but the thought stuck in your chest like a needle— was that hurt? was that the expression of someone who’d already imagined a version of his life where you were no longer beside him?

or maybe, once again, your heart was playing tricks on you. reading too far into the way his gaze lingered. projecting your own ache into the lines of his face.

still, your voice came out quieter than you expected when you finally said, “okay, yoichi.”

he looked at you then—really looked—and something in his shoulders eased. like he’d been waiting for you to say his name that way. like hearing it in your voice meant you weren’t going anywhere.

you tried to play it off with a smirk, stepping ahead of him down the hall.

“too bad you’re stuck with me,” you tossed over your shoulder. “you might be the star, but i’m the one who keeps you from spontaneously combusting in a press conference.”

that pulled a small laugh out of him. quiet. real. the kind that made you feel like everything between you was still unwritten.

still shifting. still waiting.

and maybe, just maybe…

he’d finally stopped pretending that this—whatever it was between you two—was just professional.

then you found yourself in his apartment again one night.

the familiar quiet wrapped around you both like a worn-in blanket. you were tucked into your usual corner of his couch, fingers curled around a half-full mug that had long gone warm. the low hum of the city filtered in through the half-cracked window, mixing with the soft sound of the tv playing some late-night program neither of you were really watching.

isagi was sitting on the floor, leaning back against the couch near your legs, phone in hand, thumb lazily scrolling. he looked… normal. human. in a way that the rest of the world rarely got to see. hoodie slightly oversized, hair damp from a recent shower, one sock half-slipping off his foot.

just yoichi.

not the prodigy. not the national team's frontman. not japan’s football miracle.

just the boy you had known since blue lock.

and maybe it was the comfort of being here, in this strange pocket of peace the two of you always carved out no matter what country you were in, or maybe it was that ache that had been growing quietly in your chest—something you'd never quite been able to shake—but the words slipped out before you could second-guess them.

“but i’m serious, yoichi…” your voice was soft, nearly lost beneath the static of the tv. “if i quit for real… would you even let me?”

his thumb paused on the screen. but he didn’t look up.

so you kept going, trying to keep your tone light, even as your chest tightened.

“you’re with the national team now. people are lining up to work with you. you’ve got agents, brands, the whole damn country watching you like you’re the second coming. you don’t need me anymore, do you?”

the silence stretched longer than you expected.

and then he moved—slowly, deliberately. he set his phone face down on the coffee table with a soft click, and leaned his head back so he could see you. his gaze wasn’t angry. it wasn’t even confused.

it was pained.

“don’t say that.”

just three words. but they hit like a punch to the gut.

you blinked, unsure what exactly you’d triggered. but he turned then, shifting to face you completely, still seated on the floor, his knees drawn up, arms resting on them.

“do you remember germany?” he asked, voice low. “that argument we had after i lost that match? when i was being a complete asshole, and you threatened to quit if i didn’t get my shit together?”

you gave a small nod. you remembered everything about that day. the way his voice cracked in frustration. the way you’d yelled for the first time. the way your hand had trembled when you almost handed in your resignation. almost.

he looked away for a second, then back at you.

“that was the first time i realized… winning didn’t mean anything if i couldn’t share it with you.”

you sucked in a breath, but he was still going, eyes locked on yours like he needed you to hear every word.

“it wasn’t just about you being my manager anymore. it was never just that. you kept me grounded when i was lost. you called me out when no one else would. you were… you are my constant.”

he exhaled shakily, then pushed himself up from the floor.

you thought he was going to walk away. instead, he stepped in front of you. and when you didn’t move, frozen in place by the rawness in his voice, he reached down—hands bracing on either side of the couch, caging you in without touching.

your heart thudded so loudly you were sure he could hear it.

his face was close now, close enough to see the tiny scar on his cheek from a match months ago. close enough to see the way his eyes softened—like everything he felt was finally being laid bare.

“every version of my future…” he said quietly, almost like it wasn’t meant to be heard. “you’re in it. you’ve always been in it. and i think—” he swallowed hard, “—i think i’ve been in love with you since back then. since before i even knew what to call it.”

you didn’t speak. couldn’t.

and maybe that silence scared him. maybe it emboldened him.

but then, he moved.

his hand reached up, brushing along your jaw with a gentleness that didn’t match the fire in his chest. his thumb hovered near your cheek, then slowly tucked a strand of hair behind your ear like it was something he’d always wanted to do.

“so if you quit…” he murmured, breath warm against your lips now, “…then i lose more than a manager. i lose you.”

and then he kissed you.

it wasn’t rushed or frantic. it was sure, quiet, and devastatingly full of everything he’d never said. everything he’d kept behind the wall for years. his other hand came up to rest against your back, pulling you toward him like he couldn’t stand the thought of you being even an inch too far.

you kissed him back.

because, truthfully, you’d been his long before you even realized it. and maybe he had been yours too—every late night, every argument, every quiet win and crushing loss.

the world outside could wait.

for now, there was just you and yoichi. no titles. no roles. no blurred lines.

just the truth, finally spoken between kisses that felt like promises.

he didn’t pull away.

not at first.

not when your breath hitched. not when your fingers curled into the fabric of your hoodie like you needed something to hold on to—maybe to ground yourself, or maybe to stop yourself from falling even deeper.

he kissed you like a secret. careful, but certain. like it was something he’d rehearsed in his head a hundred times but was only now letting himself feel for real. his hands were braced on either side of you, knuckles white against the couch as if letting go meant it wasn’t real.

and when he finally did lean back, it was barely a few inches. just enough to see your face, to let his forehead rest against yours.

“i’m sorry it took me this long,” he whispered. “i kept telling myself it was enough just having you around. that i didn’t need more. but i do.”

your chest tightened. not in a painful way—but in the way it does when something you’ve been waiting for finally, finally arrives.

“i wasn’t imagining it then,” you murmured, your voice hoarse.

he shook his head gently. “no. you never were.”

a beat passed.

you reached up, fingers brushing the edge of his jaw, tracing the stubble that hadn’t been there back in blue lock, or even in the early germany days. he had grown—on the field, off it, into himself. and somewhere in all of that, your hearts had quietly kept time.

“i don’t think i could quit even if i wanted to,” you admitted with a soft laugh, blinking away the sudden heat behind your eyes. “you’ve ruined me, isagi yoichi.”

he smiled. not the smile he gave cameras or coaches or fans—but the one that only ever seemed to appear when you were the only one looking.

“good,” he said, nudging his nose against yours, voice hushed and thick with something unspoken. “because i don’t think i’d want to be anything great if you weren’t the one watching.”

your breath caught, your hands still resting against his chest, feeling the steady rise and fall of it. his words hung in the air between you—bare, vulnerable, a truth finally freed.

for a moment, neither of you moved. the quiet of his apartment, the soft hum of the city through the windows, the golden warmth of the lamp casting gentle shadows—it all felt suspended in time.

then, carefully, yoichi guided you back, his palm warm at your lower back, coaxing you to lie against the couch cushions. his touch wasn’t rushed—it was reverent, like he was afraid if he moved too fast, the moment would shatter. he leaned over you, his body never pressing down, just surrounding, bracing one arm beside your head, the other gently cradling your jaw as he looked at you.

you searched his face.

there was no more hiding in it.

none of the usual restraint or boyish awkwardness. just yoichi, stripped of everything but the feeling he’d kept buried for far too long.

“i’ve thought about this more times than i can count,” he whispered, as if admitting it out loud still felt unreal. “told myself it wasn’t the right time. that i couldn’t… risk it. not when you were always there, always steady. i didn’t want to mess that up.”

your heart clenched, fingers reaching up to brush against the hem of his hoodie, curling there like an anchor.

“you never would’ve messed it up,” you said softly, voice nearly breaking. “not with me.”

his expression shifted—like something inside him had finally exhaled after holding its breath for years. and then he kissed you again.

but this time, it was different.

it wasn’t rushed or desperate. it wasn’t like the fleeting spark from earlier. it was slow. intentional. a quiet unfolding of everything he hadn’t known how to say before.

his lips moved against yours like he was memorizing the way you felt—savoring, grounding himself in you. you felt the careful slide of his hand as it moved to cup your cheek, thumb brushing gently beneath your eye. your hands found their way to his shoulders, holding onto him not because he was going anywhere, but because it finally felt safe to do so.

when he pulled back, it was only enough to rest his forehead against yours again. his breath was warm against your lips, the faintest tremble in his voice.

“after our fight, my mind kept replaying these scenarios… all these versions of life where you weren’t there. and i hated it,” he confessed, voice barely above a whisper. “i didn’t know it then, but i was already unraveling at the thought of losing you.”

you stayed quiet, because your voice wouldn’t come—not with the way your throat tightened, not with the way his words were threading straight through your chest.

“i kept picturing the space beside me being empty. after matches. after bad days. on mornings when everything just felt… too heavy.” he closed his eyes for a second, like he was bracing himself. “and no matter how i tried to imagine it, none of it ever made sense. none of it ever felt right.”

your fingers slid from his shoulder to the curve of his neck, grounding him. “why didn’t you tell me sooner?”

“i was scared,” he admitted. “of screwing it up. of saying too much. of… not saying enough.” his eyes opened slowly, meeting yours again with raw, steady honesty. “but mostly, i was scared that if i let you see how much you meant to me, i’d never be able to hide it again. and you’d walk away.”

your heart ached—not because he’d kept it in, but because you knew that fear. you’d lived in it, too. the quiet agony of wanting something so deeply and never knowing if it was safe to reach for.

“i wouldn’t have walked,” you said gently, brushing your thumb across his jaw. “i was already falling.”

he blinked, stunned silence filling the space between you.

“you didn’t have to protect me from your feelings, yoichi. i wanted them. i wanted you.”

he exhaled shakily, like your words had loosened something knotted up inside him for years. “you’re the only thing that’s ever made sense in all of this. even when i was lost, even when i didn’t believe in myself—you always did.”

you smiled, a soft, bittersweet thing. “that’s because i saw you. the real you. not just the player. not just the dream.”

for a moment, something flickered in his expression—fragile and unguarded. a rare occurrence, like a crack in the armor of japan’s most relentless striker. the same isagi yoichi who the world saw as driven, sharp, composed under pressure… was now sitting in front of you with his heart trembling in his hands.

it was different, seeing him like this. not after a match, not in the glow of victory or the burn of ambition—but in the quiet, where there was nothing to prove. just him. just you. just this.

he gave a breathy laugh, but it didn’t quite reach his eyes. “yeah? even when i was being a complete asshole?”

“especially then,” you said, almost teasing—but your tone was laced with warmth. “that’s when you needed someone to see you the most.”

he looked at you like he couldn’t believe it. like he was seeing you clearly now for the very first time. “you always knew how to get through to me,” he murmured. “even when i didn’t deserve it.”

“you never had to deserve me,” you whispered back. “you just had to let me in.”

a quiet passed between you. gentle. tender. the kind that wrapped around your hearts like a soft blanket—worn in the corners, familiar, and real.

yoichi didn’t move at first. just stayed there, eyes scanning your face like he was trying to commit it to memory—every blink, every breath, every unspoken word lingering between you both. his thumb traced slowly along your cheekbone, grounding himself in the fact that you were still here. that you hadn’t walked away.

then, without warning, he leaned in again—not rushed, but with purpose, like his heart couldn’t hold back another second. his lips hovered just above yours, barely brushing, his voice nothing more than a whisper that trembled against your skin.

“i love you,” he said, the words breaking through him like floodwaters finally let loose. “and i’m sorry it was so late.”

the weight of it settled in the air. real. heavy. beautiful.

you blinked slowly, something in your chest pulling tight and warm all at once. because you knew—had known—but hearing it from him, finally, was something else entirely. like everything you’d poured into him had finally found its way back.

your hand slid to the back of his neck, fingers gently threading through his hair. “it wasn’t too late,” you murmured. “you said it. you’re here. that’s enough.”

his eyes closed briefly, like those words gave him permission to breathe. and then he kissed you again—this time gentler, but no less full. a kiss that said thank you, that said i need you, that said i’m not letting go.

his weight shifted slightly, his body still hovering above yours, arms braced to keep you close without crushing you—like he was afraid you'd disappear if he held on too tightly.

the world outside faded—no games, no pressure, no unspoken expectations. just the soft brush of his breath against your cheek, the quiet thrum of two hearts learning each other again.

he stared at you for a long moment, like he still couldn’t believe this was real. then he exhaled a shaky breath, lowering himself just enough to rest his forehead against yours.

“i’m not letting this go,” he whispered, voice barely holding together. “not now, not ever.”

your hand found his, fingers lacing through his with a familiar ease. you didn’t need to say anything—your touch said it all. that you weren’t going anywhere. that this—whatever it would become—was worth holding onto.

he leaned in one last time, pressing a kiss to your temple, slow and steady, like a promise.

then he shifted beside you, pulling you gently into his arms, your head tucked beneath his chin. his heartbeat was a steady rhythm against your ear, his hold secure, warm.

you let yourself close your eyes. for the first time in a long time, there was no rush. no uncertainty. just the quiet truth of his love, wrapped around you like a shield.

you were here.

he was here.

and this time, you would move forward together.

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femmesport · 1 month ago

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Almost Something

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started: 6/21/2025 updated: 7/12/2025

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Summary:

Things as they were seemed easy. It was normal, comfortable, and so good. Until it wasn’t. Paige and Azzi had been toeing the line beyond normal friendship for too long. They had established their comfort and then settled into that too easily. All of this was shaken up when Azzi got a boyfriend. Their friendship stayed as it was. That almost hurt more.

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Chapter Links:

chapter one.

chapter two.

chapter three.

chapter four.

chapter five.

chapter six.

chapter seven.

chapter eight.

chapter nine.

chapter ten.

chapter eleven.

chapter twelve.

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Mood Playlist:

some of these are here for lyrics, some are here for the mood/vibe, don’t read too much into this.

‘Meantime’ – Chappell Roan

‘Different People’ – JESSIA

‘I Don’t Want to Leave Just Yet’ – Thomas Day

‘Flowers’ – Lauren Spencer Smith

‘Do I Wanna Know’ – Arctic Monkeys

more to be added - recommendations always needed

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Posting Schedule:

Mondays

Wednesdays

Fridays

Changes will be made as necessary (please note this is just a goal)

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Extra Story Notes:

Roster for the story:

Paige

Azzi

Aubrey

Caroline

Amari

Jana

Sarah

Ice

Kaitlyn

Allie

Ashlynn

Ayanna

Roommates for the story:

Apt. 1: Paige, Aubrey, Caroline, Amari

Apt. 2: Azzi, KK, Jana, Ice, Allie

Apt. 3: Kaitlyn, Ayanna, Ashlynn, Sarah

OCs:

Tyler Gray (23 & Studying Analytics and Information Management)

Selina Muriña (22 & Studying Linguistics)

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an: Well based on the Azzi story we just received, I figured I would post this. I will still be doing occasional one shots, but those were meant to be used transitionally to get into longer fic writing. I will be using this as a launching point for the fic and update this as I go. I am so excited to work on this and share it with y'all!! Thank you!!! <33 -- tea ★’*•.¸♡

#pazzi fic #paige bueckers fic #azzi fudd fic #uconn wbb fic #pazzi fics #tea writing femme fics #paige x azzi #wcbb fic #paige bueckers angst #pazzi angst #azzi fudd angst #pazzi slow burn

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delopsia · 28 days ago

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For your celly…feeding the cows with Rhett Abbott. What’s a secret or hidden kink he has?

I had a little analytical response to this at first, but then I had a better idea 😇 🍑Come join the Fernwell Creek Farms Event! 🍑 Feed the Cows — Give me a prompt for your date(s) and I'll write a drabble with it Features: AFAB! Reader

"What y' doin' here for, doll?" Rhett nudges his hat up, ambling through the long grass to meet you "Y' alright?"

Wordless, your hands flatten against his chest, the momentum of your body shoving his broad frame backward. His back hits the side of the truck, head thumping against the glass. Those thin lips part, sucking in a gasp.

"You can be a good boy for me, right?" You hum, reaching for his belt. One pinch, and it pops open.

His grimy hands reach for your waist, then jump away, held to the sky instead. "'m a damn mess, darlin'."

"Don't care," grinning, you fish him out of his jeans. Heavy, throbbing in your grasp. A pearl of precum already leaks from the tip. "I didn't drive all this way just to be scared of a little sweat and dirt."

And just like that, you're guiding his hands beneath your skirt. Rough fingertips wander over your ass, searching for the waistband of underwear that isn't there. Rhett's breath catches, a darkness appearing in those sky blue eyes.

For such a big man, he's easy to take to the ground, collapsing into the grass like an obedient puppy. You can't believe he even lets you do this, fucking him whenever you damn well please. He could stop you, but here you are, settling on top of him and guiding his cock into you, and he doesn't say a word to stop it.

"What—oh fuck, what made you want, mmh, made you want me so bad?" Rhett babbles, teeth sinking into his bottom lip to stifle himself. It only lasts for a second, shattering into pieces the moment you begin to move.

"Spent too long staring at your new rodeo picture," pleasure fires through your nerves, fuck, he's the perfect size. Rubbing right against every little spot, cock head kissing that familiar bundle of nerves. "Has anyone ever told you that you've got a really nice ass?"

"Shit," his back arches up off the ground, eyes rolling. "I'll remember to start wearin' 'em more often then."

You laugh. "So you do like being used."

His whimper is the definition of guilty, high-pitched and drawling out of him nice and slow. Those hips buck up, bouncing you hard enough to feel like you're riding a damn bull. Strong. Another benefit from all those years of bull riding.

"Talk to me," grabbing him by the jaw, you lean closer, "or I might not let you cum."

"Uh-huh!" Rhett blurts. "I do. I do. Fuck, I do."

God, he's hot.

#delgato's asks #del's fernwell creek farms event #rhett abbott x reader

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vaginalvr · 1 month ago

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ok so the reader is in LOVE with spencer and everyone knows it but spencer rejects her in the harshest way possible but later gets jealous and realises his feelings when he sees reader with another guy. it can end with smut ( wink, wink 😉 ).

content warning: Oral sex (f. receiving), vaginal sex, light roughness (wall/table sex, harder thrusting), explicit language and descriptions.

a/n: i really tried to branch out with my writing style to make it a little, idek intellectually challanging to read???? also did you notice that my intro isn't colorful anymore? lmk

word count ~ 1.4k

REQUESTS ARE OPEN!

The worst part wasn’t that Spencer Reid rejected you.

It was how he did it.

You stood in the BAU breakroom with your heart clutched in your throat, your hands trembling slightly as you offered him the carefully folded note you’d debated giving him for weeks. It wasn’t a dramatic confession—just a quiet, simple truth written on paper because the words stuck in your throat every time you looked into those kind, analytical eyes.

He read it in three seconds flat. Blinked once. Then said, without even looking up, “You shouldn’t waste your time on people who don’t feel the same.”

The silence that followed was deafening. The words crushed you like glass underfoot—cold, sharp, and cutting deeper with every breath you tried to take.

You didn’t cry. Not then.

But the next morning, you came in smiling like it hadn’t happened. Like you hadn’t spent the entire night replaying his words until they etched themselves into your bones. You were fine. You kept telling yourself that until it started to feel almost believable.

Almost.

It didn’t take long for the rest of the team to notice.

Morgan softened around you. JJ gave you too many meaningful looks. Penelope pulled you into her office for long, rambling pep talks about self-worth and soulmates.

Even Hotch said your name more gently than usual.

But Spencer? He acted like nothing had changed. And that somehow made everything worse.

So, you moved on.

Or pretended to.

The guy from counter-terrorism—Eli—was easy on the eyes, charming in that cocky, I-bet-he’s-great-in-bed way. You let him flirt with you in the hallway. You laughed a little too loudly at his jokes. And one Friday after work, you let him take you out for drinks.

You didn’t expect Spencer to care.

You certainly didn’t expect him to glare across the bar like he wanted to kill Eli with his mind.

But that’s exactly what happened.

It was a BAU outing, and you were perched at the bar, Eli’s hand casually resting on your lower back as he leaned in to whisper something in your ear. You laughed—because you were trying, trying to feel anything but the ache Spencer had left behind—and when you turned to look at him, Spencer was staring at you with eyes that had gone dark and unreadable.

He was furious.

You blinked, startled, but he looked away as quickly as he’d looked at you. You pretended not to notice when he left early.

He didn’t speak to you for days.

You thought maybe you’d finally crossed some invisible line. That whatever bridge remained between you had burned to ash.

Then, on a late Thursday night, you found yourself working alone in the briefing room, flipping through profiles in a haze of exhaustion. The lights were dim, your coffee had gone cold, and your legs ached from sitting in the same position for hours.

You didn’t even hear the door open.

“Why him?” Spencer’s voice broke the quiet like a crack of thunder.

You looked up, startled. He stood in the doorway, his hair slightly disheveled, his tie loose, his chest rising and falling too quickly for someone who supposedly didn’t care.

“Why him, of all people?” he repeated, stepping closer.

You blinked. “Excuse me?”

Spencer’s jaw clenched. “Eli. The guy from counter-terrorism. You let him touch you like you don’t know who’s watching.”

Your breath caught.

Something flickered in his eyes. Anger. Possession. Regret.

“You said I shouldn’t waste my time,” you said flatly, heart thudding. “I listened.”

“That was a mistake.”

You froze.

Spencer took another step forward, voice low and raw. “I thought I was protecting you. From me. From what it would mean if I said yes. But then I saw him touching you and—” He exhaled sharply. “And I wanted to rip his fucking hand off.”

The silence that followed was like a string pulled taut between you.

“I’m in love with you,” you said quietly, not flinching this time. “Even after what you said. I’m still in love with you.”

He didn’t answer. He didn’t have to. Not when he crossed the room in three long strides, not when he cupped your face with trembling hands, not when he kissed you like he was drowning in everything he’d tried to deny.

It wasn’t sweet.

It was desperate.

You gasped into his mouth as he backed you against the wall, lips fierce and unforgiving, hands sliding down your body with shaking restraint.

“You don’t get to do this,” you whispered, but even as you said it, you were tugging at his shirt, your voice breaking. “You don’t get to break me and then decide you want me.”

“I know,” he breathed against your jaw. “I know. I’m sorry. Let me—please—let me make it right.”

His mouth trailed to your throat, then lower, unbuttoning your blouse with fevered urgency. You weren’t even sure how your skirt ended up bunched around your hips, or when he dropped to his knees in front of you, his breath hot against the inside of your thigh.

“You’re perfect,” he murmured, reverent, almost pained. “You always have been.”

Then his mouth was on you, and all thoughts of heartbreak scattered like dust.

You braced against the wall, fingers tangled in his hair, hips twitching forward as his tongue circled your clit with maddening precision. You cried out his name—once, twice—until he groaned against you and slid two fingers inside, curling them just right.

“Spencer,” you whimpered. “I’m gonna—”

He didn’t stop. Didn’t want to. He worked you through it, licking and stroking until your legs were shaking and your mind was blank with pleasure.

When you finally opened your eyes, he was already standing, already unbuckling his belt with a heat in his gaze that made your breath catch.

“I need you,” he said, voice rough. “Tell me I can have you.”

You nodded, dazed, and he spun you around, bending you over the conference table like he couldn’t wait another second.

When he slid inside, you both gasped—his hands gripping your hips, your cheek pressed to the cool wood, the stretch of him grounding you in the best way.

“You feel—fuck—so good,” he groaned, thrusting deep.

You arched into him, pushing back. “Harder.”

He obeyed, fucking you with growing intensity, the sounds of skin meeting skin filling the dark room. One hand wrapped around your waist, the other slid between your thighs to circle your clit again. It was too much. It was perfect.

You came again with a broken moan, and he followed seconds later, spilling inside you with a harsh gasp, his body collapsing over yours.

For a long moment, you just breathed.

Then, softly, his lips brushed your shoulder.

“I love you,” he said, barely above a whisper. “I’ve always loved you.”

You turned your head, met his eyes. “You’re damn lucky I still want to hear that.”

A small, rueful smile tugged at his lips. “I’ll spend the rest of my life proving it.”

#spencer reid smut #spencer reid #criminal minds x you #criminal minds smut #spencer reid fanfiction #criminal minds x reader #criminal minds #spencer reid x reader #spencer reid x you #spencer reid x fem reader

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