#Anyway this probably doesn't make sense...

[murasakiyams]

a/n: sorry this took so long, life lowkey gets hard lolz... anyways, here is camboy!choso (and i lowkey wanna write more of this)

based on this ask

cw: choso being freaky (not that freaky), toys mentioned, switch!choso, kinda implied that you’re with him?? idk if that makes sense , not proofread

MDNI!! 18++!!

camboy! choso, whose face always stays hidden, only showing his body from the neck down

camboy!choso, who is the biggest switch i think you'll know. who whimpers and whines when he first gets started, then starts groaning and says the dirtiest shit that will replay in your head later

'yeah, you like watching a complete stranger jerk off?'

'i just know you wish this was your pussy jerking my dick off, don't you?'

camboy! choso who doesn't really do collabs, and it's rare if he fucks someone else, deciding to keep his sex life somewhat private

camboy!choso who loves eating pussy if he does collab, not letting up until you're whining and sqiruming above him, seeing how little tears fall from your face

camboy!choso who now has a fleshlight, and it makes normal appearances on his streams or videos, always using it, and making sure to put a clip on mic on his sweats so it'll pick up on the squeach.

camboy!choso who once painted his nails black, and saw how many people loved seeing his painted nails going up and down his dick, so now he always has his nails painted black, lolz!

camboy!choso who once edged himself for an hour, cute little whimpers leaving his mouth, as he begged to cum, acting as if someone else (or you) was edging him.

'please, please just wanna fuckin' cum for you'

'fuuuck, please i'll be such a good boy for you if you let me cum.'

camboy! choso, who probably makes good enough money to pay for rent, and random shit he wants to buy, always posting 3 times a week, or streaming 5 days out of the week

camboy!choso who will set up the camera differently every time, one day it's him humping his pillow, or fucking his sex toy in doggy, and sometimes it's just him just straight stroking it in a normal camera angle.

taglist/requested by: @laitifly

[mateo-diaz]

Frank wakes up with a jolt, breathing hard. He's sweating, head dizzy and that last image printed on his retina.

He tries to steady his breathing but all he can think about is Mel dying in front of him and blood, so much blood everywhere.

Abby is still fast asleep and he quickly checks the clock. 3:18, way too early.

He lies there for a bit, grateful he didn't accidentally wake up his wife and doesn't have to explain to her that he was dreaming about his coworker. Again.

He can feel a droplet of sweat running down from his hairline to his chin. It tickles but he doesn't wipe it away.

There's an urge he feels, a need to check in with Mel, make sure she's actually ok. It's stupid he knows, because why wouldn't she be? It's only a dream. She's probably sleeping now anyway.

But he's never been good at controlling his impulse and he picks up his phone from the nightstand, quickly typing a message.

He stares at it, still a bit dazed but hits send anyway, heart beating loud in his ears.

There is no immediate reply. Which makes sense, it is way too early and he's fucking stupid and she's most likely sleeping and -

Frank holds his breath, watching those three dots intently.

He does remember now that she mentions it, but the fear that had taken a hold of him made him unable to think clearly.

Frank looks at the smiley face she sent and he feels the tension seep out of his body.

She's okay.

He closes his eyes, and pictures her in his head. No more blood, no more pain, just beautiful happy alive Mel.

Sleep takes him in again, a smile on his face.

[realisticgojoheadcanons]

Realistic!Gojo Headcanons

You wouldn't be his Nr.1 priority in life. Unfortunately, as the strongest he cannot get too sentimental with others. That does not mean he's incredibly toxic, just slightly avoidant at times to experiences or scenarios that could disrupt his natural easy-going and flippant nature.

In a world of chaos, a partner for him is someone independent and doesn't expect too much. Having someone on his radar telling him what to do or how to behave, can seriously be too characteristically aggravating for him. Humans have one life, he lives however he likes.

No he is not a cheater. That was a serious mistranslated. The author claimed that Gojo just wouldn't have time to be a proper stereotypical partner, who makes times for his lover. Remember, after his 2nd year before Geto left, it was stated they were constantly busy. To busy to even check up on each other. Which means that as an adult, he wont have time for more than phone calls, teleportation if you have big events like birthdays or something that is spontaneously fun.

Spontaneity, ride-or-die type of person. Partner in crime, which means someone who is willing to go against protocols and orders.

Skills, techniques to match this anti-traditional sense. If you're weak, you'll be taken out by the higher ups in some type of way. Either they contact someone to take care of the job or put you up for execution.

Bring something NEW in his life. Not the same-old-same-old. Gojo is known to travel for work but also to experience the worlds cuisine. He would like it if you had the same passion or drive. That spark is important. Which is why he leans towards people in their youth. Not just because he wants to protect them. He genuinely lost his youth, so bring it back.

Remember, even as an adult and past-youngster, he was arrogant. Undoubtedly he learnt from his mistakes with Toji. E.g Learning to use Infinity constantly and not put his guard down, but at the same time he cant exhaust himself. That's one of the reasons he got stabbed anyway. He used the Reversal Technique to help with fatigue. Which is why a partner who can match his grit, have their own strange methods to KEEP growing consistently is attractive.

If you dated him in his youth, before he turned 20, expect someone a bit avoidant. After Geto's absence, he was even more rude. Especially towards weaker people (e.g. Ijichi, Chapter 211). Though, it was for a good cause. Weak people cannot strive for higher purposes, so they stay in their lane and play with their strengths. For Ijichi's case it was fundamental sorcerer abilities like the veil technique and straying from combat.

By the way, isn't it strange that Nanami and Gojo grew apart, when they were at the same school? If Nanami is a 2nd year when Gojo became a 3rd year in 2009, that would mean after Geto left they simply grew apart. In the OP of Season 2, including extra scenes, they all got along in a tight knit group. However, after Haibara died, it seems like Nanami most likely strove to leave the JJK Sorcery world after graduation. Which means from September 23rd 2009 til April 2010 (graduation day) Gojo was alone as the strongest. Nanami became more strict, less expressions showing on his face as an adult unlike his younger self in the OP. Dating Gojo in this time would be hard. You would need to capture his attention. Perhaps a very strong technique that is enough to SCARE THE HIGHER-UPS. That would peak his interest. Your strange innate ability is basically enough to rub salt against their wounds for having Geto becoming a rouge because of their methods. Perfect.

KEEPING his interest is hard. He's flippant. In Secret Inventory, Principal Yaga told him about the Star Plasma needed for Master Tengens immortality. Gojo was clueless about what it was. That's an indicator he lacks some curiosity to understand the 'boring' parts of JJK society. The cooler things are probably himself and other users who share his own power. Furthermore, he answered along the lines of 'So what-?, So cool (immortality)' in a bored way (sub). Expect this attitude from him. A popular know-it-all. Not a nerd or a strict person like Nanami. Just a 'So what?' since he definitely knows more than you. Introduce something new in his life, enough to make him think 'This is bizarre!'. So...OP Techniques are actually welcome lol.

Someone who can match his humor, obviously. He likes going back and forth. Stimulate him. He comes back-and-forth with Utahime, Geto. You can have a calmer and chill presence like MeiMei and Shoko as well. Just be of use, in a way. Don't tire him with too much of the same topic. Unfortunately, his own flippant attitude would either say something tactless or just dismiss the chance of continuing the conversation. So, if you can quickly switch topics, say random things, be blunt - attractive in the eyes of Gojo. It shows character, confidence, wit and honestly matches his own tactlessness in a way.

As an adult sorcerer later, I find it almost near impossible to imagine him realistically letting his guards down. Every day is work. You would need history with him. There is a very clear reason he told Ijichi to come along with him (before Gojo killed the Higher Ups) and not someone else more competent. It's the fact that he KNOWS Ijichi. Chapter 223. Trust is the key. Otherwise, you would need to be with him for years. Show your dedication, your improvement, your dismissal of the higher ups but don't be impulsive about it. Impulsiveness leads to death. Most importantly, don't slack off during fights. If you have an extremely strong technique, by all means just blink it away. It would be FUN though if you suddenly went all out. Not just brute force but martial-arts, speed and agility, reading the environment ans using it to your advantage, making a detailed report later that shows your intelligence. Which would make him re-think about truly knowing you, because you turned the tables. He would think 'Wow, this person truly knows what they're doing'.

Not needing protection. If you have his likability, you would already be a person of strength and adaptability. Adapt constantly and make yourself better. Looking at ease and composed and almost is just fine. You don't need to act like Nanami.

You would basically have one or two interactions with him every so often, which is like 1-3 months. It's sad and slow for you, I guess. But it's worth it. Slow-burn is how the romance between you two would realistically happen. In the past, he would get attached quickly (before Geto left). After Geto left, he didn't even foster his relationship with Nanami. To the point Nanami thought 'This guy is arrogant and No, we don't need to hang-out Gojo for the nth time.' Strange right? And adult Gojo craved at least some past-foolery and sketched a penis to bring some humor in the situation as he skedaddled away.

In one DRAMA CD on YT, Nanami and Gojo walk in the city. Gojo tries new food and doesn't flinch when he's asked 'You're seriously/actually eating?' instead he answers with a confident yes. Nanami then indulges and eats with him. Be like that. Open to try. You don't need an angelic attitude. Be yourself.

Someone to keep him on his toes. Be witty, almost snarky at times but only if you've had a good enough start with him. Depending on whether you meet teenage-almost-graduated-Gojo or adult-Gojo results wary. As a teen, he wouldn't immediately clap back in a funny way. He's overworked, thinking about how to go against more tradition and needs someone who can do a slow possess. As an adult, if you've known him for a few years, perhaps just one year, it could be okay-ish.

Dating wise, no dates really. I do think he would show you the best ramen in places of Japan and mochi, dongo and so on. It wouldn't be frequent. He would honestly like it if you also verbally told him 'You know what, just appear at random times and take me away', to install some affirmations into him. Deep down, teenager or adult he can be insecure. As a teenager he came across as insincere. As an adult, people stayed away from him. Widening a path for 'The intimidating Gojo, who was seen every now and then'. But, he did have a teaching post. We could assume he was away at times and wasn't the best teacher. Imagine sleeping 3 hours a day to just wake up for a class you barely have time to prepare material for, then go on a two-hour long meeting about some traditions or plans. I would expect his lover to not just be understanding, but also share some of the burden. If you're strong, yet you laze around and never take missions, he wouldn't be a good fit because he would just feel like there would be a gap. He wants to relate and wants you to relate to him. Don't overwork yourself but don't take one mission a day and never look back. Having a spark is important.

He would want to test you. First a blunt conversation starter maybe 'How does your technique work if..', or just 'You're x right? New.' I do not think he would be too flirty or anything. As an adult maybe more whimsical 'I seeeee...you're the new face people talk about. Quite some technique you have. How does it work?' even though he has read all papers about you, he's testing your intellect and awareness. How do you respond? 'I don't know' would result in a 'Ok, here I thought you knew your strengths'. Not in a too rude of a way, but a person should know their own technique. His younger self would assert his own dominance in Japanese using 'Ore' to test and gauge your reaction, but as an adult its mostly 'Boku' or 'Watashi'. Early on, everything is an assessment. Are you intellectually aware of yourself, your own allies and potential enemies within your own friend group? Are you aware that your curse energy leaves traces so you would need to make sure you don't go overboard?

If you're a loner he could relate. Though, I doubt he's the type to get vulnerable and sentimental about 'Oh, we're two loners, I'm so sad'. Even til his dead, he didn't get emotional. His message to Megumi was goofy too, to ensure people don't linger on sad emotions. He's the same way. If you're indifferent, composed, chill or calm - in general acceptance to it, he would like it even more.

Too much empathy can feel overbearing and pity-like. Many people headcanon a lover who's emotional or constantly checking up on him. His work and drive consists of his confidence over himself. Yes, he knows he should sleep more but can't - so what's the point of someone telling him 'I know you barely sleep but why don't you try to do it right now?' when RIGHT NOW all he wants to do it live in the moment, before he HAS to go to bed and wake up to his teaching. I do think Gojo knows of his habits. A red flag for him would be to brush off any comments, no matter how small. He genuinely knows everything about himself. He's aware he cannot be vulnerable to even the closest, but refuses to change because that's how it is. A lover would be his 2nd priority. His first is the actual Jujutsu World and NoN-Sorcerers well-being as their synergy is fundamental. I imagine a comment of 'Have you slept/eaten/showered/what are you doing later or now/will you do this or that if you finish x?' - sounds exhausting. Honestly, he would maybe said 'Mh. Maybe/probably/sure will.' in that characteristic Japanese easy-going tone but would clearly not go into detail.

Sappy rom-coms wouldn't happen with him, except for his confession. I think he can be quite good with words from watching other people live a mundane every-day-life as he walks down the street and pick up on things, watch through a movie screen because his life has always been as the observer and not someone who can 'change' the world even with his limitless ability - the only people who can are the next generation he has to foster - he's more like a benefactor in that way but not truly the one who did.

I think you would need to find something interesting to talk about or do. I envision his lover and Gojo in a room and it's gone quiet. You can enjoy the silence, but after visiting each other so-so many times SOMEONE has to say something to foster the relationship. It's not the fact that Gojo would let the relationship DIE. It's just after so much trauma and pressure to pick up many shifts and relentless phone calls, I do not think he want's to get too attached to someone who would get pretty tired of his 'I'm busy' or 'I'm actually not in Japan right now'. If you call him to show your slight disappointment or anger or bitterness he would say 'You're right, but this is also my lifestyle. Though I understand it's difficult to listen to the same answers, but it's not an excuse per se. More like the essence of who I am. I'm not making excuses, I am genuinely busy'. Someone who would get upset or lash out emotionally like a sappy love-story in-making would not fit with Gojo. He has matured over the years but also can internalize and intellectualize his own emotions. He focuses on the results, but isn't like a robot or a strict mentor like Nanami. It's more like 'Ok. I'm sad. But right now I have missions and meetings so we can do that later.' AND THAT'S WHEN HE CRIED when he thought about his youth and Geto AFTER he had called over Megumi, Yuji and Nobara. He associated Geto with his youth, not just their friendship. I think a bittersweet ending leads to him crying about it rarely but instead zoned out at Jujutsu High on a desk. When he finally had time to relax, that's when the emotions come. I cannot fathom the fact that he SITS and just silently cries. No big gestures or expressions under that blindfold. Just a stillness engraved so deeply, it's not possible to show anything other than the actual sadness of losing something that you had.

Personally, I don't ship Geto and Gojo. I see between the lines and the nuances, but in my head I'm content to think it's the loss of a relationship, experiences with it, the easy going nature before Haibara died/before Nanami grew away/before Shoko had dark under-eye circles because she is constantly shouldering the only proper nurse at school/before Geto and Gojo had less fun dorm nights and just work and being forced into adulthood from 15-18+ years old/shutting down his own self pity and realizing his entire existence has always been leading up to a man of steel or a weapon. The opening song of Season 2, analyzed on YT, shares the moment Geto has dark circles during the cicada-filled summer and the KFC goodbye.

I've personally lost friends where I've thought in the moment 'If you had a problem, why not say anything even if its obvious I can't read your mind'. I have been on both sides, receiving those annoying words and saying them/thinking them. Besides, ALL teenagers are awkward with emotions when they're taught by their parents that their feelings don't matter. That's exactly why for my part, I project that onto these two characters and can't see it romantically when my own life has been exactly like that. Not-so-fun-fact, did you all hear the SLASHING motion of a knife JJK MOVIE 0 when Geto and Gojo says goodbye and the camera zooms out completely? Gojo had to finish the job and cut their bond for good.

LIST OF HEADCANONS: HERE

[prettypeeling]

the best medicine -`♡´-

clark kent x med school student!reader headcanons

note: this is hardly anything coherent, just a self-indulgent word dump. enjoy!

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✚ Clark who lets you use him as a research project. Poking and prodding at him curiously - he's the epitome of what man could be while also a biological marvel.

✚ Clark who likes to play pretend when you take care of him; there's not much that bruises him day-to-day, but the attentive gaze and tender kisses you skim across his skin could never hurt.

✚ Clark who dreams about your future with you, the doctor making incredible strides in the medical field and him, the man who's there to document them all.

✚ Clark who actually finds himself learning alongside you as you study. He uses his x-ray vision for you to get a more exact perspective of anatomy and ends up retaining the information. He realizes the both of you have had too many late nights when he starts using medical jargon in regular conversation.

✚ Clark who hates when you have clinical. He hates going to embrace you when you arrive home, just to be met with the cold, sterile smell of hospital.

✚ Clark who probably hates at-home dissections even more. The chemicals they use to sterilize the specimens overwhelm his senses. And, he doesn't like to admit it, but he might be a little weak-stomached when it comes to seeing any sort of critter spread out dead on a table.

✚ Clark who, like with everything else, tolerates it for you. The butterflies overtake the sickness in his stomach when he hears your call of "Clark! This one's anatomy is so unique!" from the other room.

✚ Clark who thinks it's ironic that someone with a career in health has such poor habits. He neatly stacks your papers and pulls his weighted blanket over you anyway, making a note to bring you to bed earlier tomorrow.

✚ Clark who sits with you, more tabs than he can look at open on his laptop, as you struggle to pick a specialty. He helps you make a sheet comparing salary, prospects, residency length, and everything else between the seemingly infinite options.

✚ Clark who uses his network at the Daily Planet to find clinical and research opportunities for you. At this point, you have more than you could possibly do but you're not complaining.

✚ Clark who understands when the weight of the world becomes too heavy. He holds you as you collapse into his chest, drained by the numbers and manner and cruelty of sickness.

✚ Clark who knows he's Metropolis' hero, but you're his. He sees how hard you work and can't imagine a world without people like you in it.

[dc-jxsontxdd]

SFW alphabet: Jason Todd

An: this took me a bit to get out but imma make sfw for all the batboys so give me time this took me all night and this morning to get out 💀💀 anyways begging for req

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Jason Todd is not a man of many words. He thinks too complexly for any of his sentences to make actual sense so he opts for the easiest way he feels he can give you. He's super physically affectionate. Always has a hand on you in some capacity. Arm around your shoulder, hand on your thigh while driving, pulling you close on the couch while you two watch tv. It's security for him too, but it is also his way of saying I'm here. I'm present.

B = Best friend (what would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Jason Needs to be your friend first. He needs to be someone you see as dependable And reliable from the start. He wants you to know that at the end of the day he still someone who wants to be with you, make you laugh,spend time with you.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Yes yes yes !! its something he knows is a bit of an indulgence but he loves being able to hold you. Loves when you lay on his chest and he can cradle your head in his hands. He loves the feeling of your weight (again. Chubby chaser Jason Todd sorry) against him, the warmth a human body can produce. It reminds him he's alive, and more importantly, you're alive. He cherishes the gift of being able to touch you.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

Yes? No? Jason emotionally is so wrecked. It's not something he can entirely control, it really is all the trauma but he'd be Terrified at the notion of it. But in practice ?? He didn't know how much he'd love being able to mundane things like laundry and grocery lists. The contrast it has to his life makes him feel normal. Or something close too.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Dare I say not well? Man is a complete self sabotager and he probably has/tried to break it off multiple times for reasons like safety or insecurity on his part. It ranges between up and disappearing with nothing but a letter or screaming and slamming doors. In either position he is nothing but miserable. Absolutely a loser walking with his tail between his legs. He'll be back in a few weeks talking about how you're the only one and all that.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

It's my personal headcanons that Jason really does not care for weddings. If you want one, sure ! But himself? He doesn't need a ring or ceremony for him to commit himself. He's completely monogamous and comfortable with that. I definitely see him having a partner and mentioning how they've been together for YEARS and people are Horrified to learn you're not Married.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

He tries, he tries so hard. There's not a universe where Jason Purposely does something to harm you. It's not like he's walking on eggshells or anything but he is the definition of princess treatment. Holding your hand everywhere, never raising his voice (he fails but it's never intentionally) he Loves you, so he wants to be nothing more than your peace. So he definitely tries.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Pre resurrection Jason Todd is a where my hug at guy idc. 💀Post resurrection he's calmed down a lot and hugs are reserved for when you two are in private or when there's been a prolonged time of separation.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Pre resurrection? First one baby probably the first week too. Post resurrection? You know he loves you but the words I love you are scarce. They're either after particularly vulnerable moments or he's nearly dying in your arms. Basically if he says the words I love you, it means something is about to happen.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Oh brother is the worst 😭. It's definitely not that he doesn't trust you, his insecurities lie in the fact you might meet someone better than him. He's such a prick too when he gets into his moods. He'll give you short responses, dry texts (even though he's already a dry texter). He won't completely ignore you, he doesn't have enough self restraint for that but he's definitely a push person when it comes to this. He's not perfect at all in this regard.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Jason kisses very intentionally. And he gives a lot. Pre and post resurrection. It's an easy way to say a lot without having to actually say something. He'll kiss you before he leaves, when he gets back, when he gives you gifts or makes you breakfast. He loves to kiss your forehead and top of your head. Primarily bc it's easier to reach (he's tall remember) but also because he thinks it's really cute of him to do so.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Jason actually likes children. I know that might be surprising but he has a genuine soft spot for kids. It's definitely because of his shitty childhood but he loves being able to provide food and money to the less fortunate kids of Gotham. But kids for himself ? He'd never outwardly choose it. Pre Resurrection absolutely plans for multiple kids. Post resurrection? If you have kids or want kids then he'll gladly have them with you, and he'd legitimately be a really good dad. I know people love girl dad Jason but I just love fatherhood Jason period. I also see him adopting some stray too. Apple doesn't fall far from the adopted tree

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Jason Todd is Not a morning person. He wakes up groggy almost Everytime and the light hurts his eyes. He's slow to get going and gets all grumbly and gruffy. He's a man on a mission so don't stop him. Shower, breakfast, news. He always makes you your portion of break and coffee/tea and puts on your favorite tv show but he's not really there mentally. Autopilot as most would say.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Againnn probably ventures into nsfw but pre resurrection Jason Todd is Handsy as all hell. Can't watch a movie without him starting something and you can't play any game he doesn't try to make perverted.

Post resurrection Todd is still Handsy but differently. He needs to be close to you so he'll drag you in. He does everything for you those nights he gets to be home with you. Making your favorite comfort food, running you a bath, renting that movie you two have been wanting to see. Loves being able to be with you when you fall asleep. He's usually out on patrol by this time so he relishes this.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Pre Resurrection ? Open book. He Wants you to know him so he'll answer anything you ask, give you everything you might need to know. Post resurrection? Way harder. He hates talking about his emotions, his wellbeing, you practically have to beg it out of him. He sees it as not wanting to burden you, he genuinely thinks he's too much for anyone and doesn't want to be too much to you. Not when all you've brought him is peace. He'll give in eventually but he won't immediately want too.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Jason is really slow to anger surprisingly. At least with you. Youve seen him fly off the handle more than once or five times. But with you? He can't bring himself to ever be mad at you for long. You could honestly do the most fuck shit thing to him and he'll get mad but immediately moppy and apologizing even if he isn't in the wrong. (Again he's traumatized leave him alone)

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

He treats knowing about you like a game. Favorite movie? Favorite color? Coffee order? Hell, he even knows the brand and scent of your shampoo and body care. Ask him and he sure he knows the answer without having to ask you. It gets sorta creepy sometimes because you don't even remember some of these things sometimes (you definitely also never told him about half of these things you're not sure how he got that information)

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

Mm I think his favorite moments are when it's quiet and he gets to be with you. Those slow nights that have you laying on top of him while he watches the skyline of Gotham from his window. Moments where you're in his arms willingly and happily ? He thinks about them fondly and wants to come back to you immediately to have another one of those nights. It's what keeps itself going.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

Paranoid 💀. He has trackers on you. Almost all ur bags and sometimes shoes are tagged. Has extra locks on the doors of your apartment. He is Genuinely scared you'll get injured because of his work. You might be a vigilante yourself, he might know you know how to handle yourself, but he felt that way before and been proven wrong so just be patient he's traumatized.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

Man tries the hardest with what he knows. He knows boyfriends are supposed to protect and provide so he does that in his own ways. He plans dates very casually. He knows where he wants to take you and simply does. Buys you flowers almost every week, does the majority of the chores when he is home long enough. He just wants to make your life easier because that's what he learned love is and he loved being spoiled by alfred so he spoils you the same way

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

He disappears for days with no warning. You know he didn't leave you, all his things are home and the fridge is newly stockpiled which you know means he'll be gone for awhile. Has you never knowing if he's safe or alive until he comes back home. He'll do it for missions, and when he needs time to think. Just goes completely mia.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

No? Yes? It's my headcanons Jason Todd thinks he's ugly. Like before he thought he looked okay or relatively handsome but with his scars and large body he struggles to see himself as that pretty boy especially when his brother is Dick Grayson. Does it make him sad though? No not really. It's not something he thinks about often and when you do call him handsome and pretty he thinks you're being nice and using flowery language to make him feel good. He appreciates it and also thinks you're silly for finding him attractive (bc he is 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️)

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Dare I say no?? If you two were together for a short time maybe. But if your someone he's established a close and intimate relationship with you've been ingrained in his life in the most complete way that if you were to leave him the feeling of rejection would actually make him crash out. Like he's already felt abandoned by everyone else in his life that if you added to that ? Now I am true truther of Jason constantly trying to get you back but dear God don't give this man any more damage 💀

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

I don't care how many times I have to say it but I know this tiptoes into nsfw but Demisexual Jason Todd. I just imagine Jason Craving intense intimacy. The live in your skin type intimacy. If he could he would live in your ribcage.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Liars ! Pretty simple but he literally cannot handle a liar. He Needs his relationship to be as transparent as possible. He's a complete hypocrite btw, he lies to you all the time. About where he is, who he's with, what time he'll be home. It's the nature of his job. But I do think he'd hate learning anything his partner said to him Wasn't true especially On purpose

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

Jason Todd rarely sleeps. Even with you he struggles. He more rather lies in bed for 8 hours while You sleep and he nods off for an hour and up and repeats. He definitely sleeps Better with you around, but he's a man who needs psychiatric meds to knock him out.

He also Hates waking up without you there. If you do wake up before him, go to the bathroom? Make breakfast? It's happened once or twice he comes out running looking for you, convinced you either up and left him or worse in danger.

[aroaceleovaldez]

i just saw your post about how disney is probably expecting pjo s2 to flop and it got me thinking

most pjo fans will tell you that the sea of monsters is their least favorite book, for a variety of reasons, but as far as i've seen, it's definitely the least popular out of the series

i think with them announcing the casting for nico and bianca now, they're trying to rush us into season three so we can kind of just pretend season two doesn't exist, because we still need it for context, but maybe people won't focus on it too much if we drum up excitement for s3

anyway there's that

[one of the recent posts in question]

Oh yeah no, absolutely this is exactly what they're doing. Sea of Monsters suffers from what i like to call Second Book Syndrome, in which it's a book that is primarily the connective tissue that allows The Lightning Thief to smoothly go from a stand-alone book as it was originally intended to a five-book series. The problem is that because it is primarily connective tissue, it's very focused on Doing It's Job and that job is almost entirely in service to what's coming next, not what's in the book itself. Which means for most people, their favorite parts of the series are going to be on either side of that connecting book, not in the book itself. But it's an incredibly important puzzle piece.

The franchise is also FULLY aware that Nico is hands down the most popular character at this point. He is more popular than Percy, just objectively. I have seen it firsthand. Hearing the entire crowd of a general book tour cheer for Percy's name, and then cheer twice as loud for Nico's tells you everything you need to know. There's a REASON why they leaned on him so much with TSATS for distracting from Rick's massive PR mistake with Piper and Samirah and everything, especially because their company relies very heavily right now as billing themselves as progressive/"diverse" and Nico is a "diverse" character who simultaneously isn't very contentious in their eyes (explicitly queer, but not in too exciting of a way and also a white guy). So it makes perfect sense why they're leaning on Nico right now. They already did it in s1 by teasing the di Angelos cameo, and in s2 they're leaning heavily on Thalia because they know she is also an extremely popular first series character. They're popular and pushing anything involving them is free advertising to generate enough momentum for moving forwards.

The mantra of PJO TV at this point is basically just fanservice. It's why they're pushing Percabeth so much in s1 (and also into s2, inserting extra Percabeth scenes). It's why they're making a lot of the weird changes just to excuse random nuggets or other edits for the already established fans of the series. It's why they're not bothering to explain anything, just kind of vaguely gesturing to things expecting the audience to already be fans of the books and recognize it and clap along because they understood the reference. It's why they're strategically dropping casting announcements to drum up discussions and advertisement because they KNOW people will be more or less excited for specific news. They know s2 isn't going to preform well because most people don't care about Sea of Monsters or Tyson or Grover or Clarisse, and they've run out of stuff to announce for it that people care about. So they're leaning heavily on advertising the di Angelos/s3 because that's basically guaranteed hits where SoM can't generate it on its own.

[magnus-marmot]

TMAGP 44 Thoughts: Lore time!

We were given some very big pieces for the puzzle, but I feel like we're still missing the most important ones. This is only the beginning. Still, I'm glad to finally have some definitive answers. I'll try to make sense of what we learned here.

Spoilers, and many many thoughts.

First of all, can I just say that Alex writes the most haunting and visceral depictions of psychological conditions and twisted human relationships? The abusive codependence between Klara and Klaus is like actually devastating. Also tying into interesting themes of the cycle of abuse, which started with Heinrich. Damn.

The OIAR and dread

Anyway, let's move on to probably the biggest thing on everyone's mind: the DPHW. Death, Pain, Helplessness and Wrongness. So my theory was pretty much on the entirely wrong track, which is what I had started to suspect anyway. I have to hand it to the Tumblr user bonzos-number-1-fan who had it pretty much figured out from the get-go (won't tag them because I'm sure they'll be flooded with interactions now, but you can go check their ideas out if you want).

This confirms two things: the OIAR specifically classifies dread, and their (alleged) goal is to maintain a balance. But the program itself was built to make predictions based on that fear. So there's a discrepancy between what the Stasi asked for and what the OIAR is using it for. Moreover, Stasi never asked Klaus to meddle with alchemy, that was his own addition rising from desperation. The missing piece is finding out how exactly Fr3-d1 came to be used by the OIAR, and whether or not their initial goal actually aligns with what Lena's been told. Was Klaus asked to make changes to the system to retrofit it to their purposes? Did they have someone else do it? Are they using an incompatible system and hoping it works? Or do they have a hidden agenda that's actually compatible with it to begin with?

How does alchemy fit in?

To be honest, I'm not entirely convinced that what Lena knows is the complete truth. The Stasi may not have intentionally asked for alchemy, but the OIAR emblem is full of alchemical symbolism. I remain especially suspicious of the Philosopher's Stone embedded into the logo, as well as the laurels surrounding it (often used to symbolise the completion of the Work). Combined with the idea that the overall amount of fear can only increase, as Gwen points out, it leads me back to the idea that the real goal of the OIAR is to complete their own Magnum Opus by feeding a balanced diet of fear data to Fr3-d1.

I also still don't think that fear (and especially this categorisation) is the governing metaphysical force. As in, I don't think we're dealing with Fears with a capital F, or an entity that generates and feeds on fears. I think the (native) forces of the protocolverse are ultimately neutral, and they're mostly just reacting to people. I keep thinking about the first season QnA, and how emphatically both John and Alex said that a coherent system doesn't mean it's the whole truth. They could absolutely be messing with us, but I honestly think that Fr3-d1's only measuring fear because that's what it was built to do to benefit Stasi. Which means that we might be missing a huge chunk of what's actually going on in the world. Maybe there's a good number of cases out there where people manifest good vibes and unicorns, but Fr3-d1 will never pick up on them.

In my last post I suggested that we might be only working with two alchemical principles: Mercury and Sulphur (or dissolution/coagulation, Sol/Luna). Out of these, fear aligns pretty well with Mercury (the ideas), which would then be coagulated into reality by Sulphur (or consciousness). This also still tracks with the OIAR logo, where we have a quaternity, or one unity divided into four sections (ie. DPHW), and sulphur symbols pointing outwards from each section. Since the sulphur symbols resemble outward-pointing arrows, I have idly speculated that this could symbolise that Sulphur is expanding each variable. And we now know that the variables can only ever be expanded. It can't expand forever, though.

The one thing I can't make sense of are the actual contents of the quaternity. Salt, Mercury, and two non-alchemical symbols set up in a sort of syzygy. The reading I had for them as metaphysical forces no longer makes sense to me, especially if they're all contained within Mercury (which in itself does not confuse me, because everything's always Mercury).

I should probably make separate post explaining and making sense of the Mercury-Sulphur dichotomy. Maybe. After I've mulled it over some more.

Any transmutations?

See this post for explanation.

There's not much direct alchemical symbolism here, but I'll read into the vibes anyway because you can't stop me. Klaus being trapped in a room (sealed vessel) to complete his coding project reads as transmutative to me. For the process, he uses alchemical symbols that he carves on all surfaces (including himself, which seems important), and like I said last week, some alchemists thought this was equivalent to using the respective elements in the Work. The room is apparently covered in filth or waste, which is evocative of the impurities separated from the matter during the nigredo and albedo stages (often called tartarus, dregs or feces). And I think the fear of Klara and the fear of failure are the mercurial waters that dissolved and purified the code and allowed it to become Fr3-d1, which is the final product (or the Stone). The fact that Klaus was in the room and used his body for the symbols is worrisome to me. Did he give some of himself to the computer?

But like I said, this was mostly a vibe-based analysis.

[mindfulmindthief]

It's just a DM. It's not a big deal.

It's just a DM. All you're doing is flirting with that hypnotist whose post you liked. Saying "Hi, your posts made me drip" and wanting to chat with a fellow kinkster. Add a few emojis, maybe, to make sure they know you're really excited already. It's not a big deal.

It's just a DM, a quick reply from them. Friendly, direct. Sure, you're eager to respond, but that makes sense. After all, you're a good little hypnotic toy, and they're the source of the pleasure you love to break you. But it's a normal message, it's not a big deal.

It's just a DM, answering that oddly personal question. Why does it matter if they know what got you into hypnosis anyways? If they learn a bit about your hypnotic past? Why wouldn't you tell them, you're here to chat about kink anyways? Besides, thinking about them reading it is kind of hot, seeing your history exposed and open, spread for examination. You'd probably have told them anyways, it's not a big deal.

It's just a DM, asking for your consent to use a bit of hypnotic language. Asking if you're willing to drop, if things work out that way. Asking to open your mind, and give access to everything. Asking to open your thoughts, your dreams, your body, and the things that make you squirm. Like, sure, that's a lot, and you don't usually share all of it so quickly, but it sounds pretty hot, and nothing's gonna happen anyways, you're distracted, thinking about lots of things, it's not a big deal.

It's just a DM. "Yes". Three little letters. That's maybe not long enough. "Yes please". No, too eager. "Yes Sir". Wait, no, that's moving too fast. "God yes". No, that comes across as overeager, don't want to seem desperate. "That'd be ok if you want". No, more enthusiastic. "Please". Perfect. Short, enthusiastic, to the point, and shows just how much you want it. But maybe you're overthinking, it's not a big deal.

It's just a DM, so why is it so complicated? You've read that message like 10 times, and each time it feels like it's a bit more complicated. All the words make sense, but when you put them together, it's just hard to wrap your brain around. Maybe it was a typo, a couple of words incorrect? Or maybe he just got distracted, and made a mistake. I can just piece it together from the next few messages, it's not a big deal.

It's just a DM, so why is it taking so long to write? It's like thumbs just don't want to find the letters, like each word is floating up through a pool of sweet, heavy syrup. This can't be this hard, he asked a simple question and it deserves a simple answer. Typoes everywhere, but he'll understand, it's not a big deal.

It's just a DM. Why are you so excited? Why did that little buzz in your hand while taking those pictures drive you so wild? Like your whole body was vibrating with interest the moment you saw new words. Ready to open, to read, and to see what amazing new things he has to say. Sure, you'll want to make sure they sent OK before you really get to dig deep into the message, but you've got nothing else more important happening, so if they take a few moments to send, it's not a big deal.

It's just a DM. Why is it so hard to think of something to say? You had so many ideas, so many desires, so many things to say and ask, but none of them are coming to your mind right now. It's hard to focus on anything but what you're feeling, on that throbbing, dripping, overwhelming need. There's only one word that's coming into your mind when you start to write. "yes". Oh, that feels like the correct word. "yes". You can just keep using it. "yes". Over and over. "yes". He doesn't seem to mind if I only use one word, it's not a big deal. ... It's just a DM. Where did the afternoon go? Why are you so relaxed? When did you put in headphones? Why are your clothes on weird? And why are you sitting in a puddle? God, why are you still throbbing like that? You'll have to ask. Yeah, messaging again sounds perfect. Yeah, that's right, he said he didn't mind questions, or followups, and doesn't mind helping. Yeah, messaging again tomorrow is perfect. It's not a big deal. After all, it's just a DM.

[marzipanandminutiae]

Yeah not to keep the debate going but like. I write historical fantasy. Right now I'm working on a project that features protagonists from the 1930s, 1960s, and 1980s. (time travel is involved.) But anyway, I am really forcing myself to NOT get lost down rabbit holes about getting the first draft totally period accurate, and am saving that for later drafts. Because historical accuracy is important in historical fiction and saying that it isn't and that historical fiction has no obligation to be accurate is like. Yeah it's TECHNICALLY true but not being obligated to be accurate is different from actively choosing not to be. People have said it multiple times but if I was uninterested in exploring aspects of the past I'd just set everything I wrote in the present day. Also hope you are recovering well from covid 👍

Yeah, I don't get it, honestly. Like why would you even involve another historical time period if you aren't interested in engaging with everything that period means?

OP of that post mentioned a play they had written using the boys who played female characters at Shakespeare's Globe theatre to explore themes of modern trans life. and that doesn't make sense to me, because I'd prefer to use those characters to explore trans life in. you know. Shakespeare's England? because that setting informed their lives unavoidably at every level, and while there were probably similarities with modern trans lives, there were definitely also differences (which is assuming all of them were even what we'd now consider trans- seems like a big leap to me; surely it was Just A Job to at least a few, like there are cis male drag queens nowadays)

I have no interest in using history as a shell to fill with modern life- if I'm engaging with history, I want to talk about their world and their lives. obviously teasing out common themes is important- people don't change, and it can do a lot for our understanding of our ancestors and ourselves to remind audiences of that. but I can't understand the attitude that's only interested in history as set dressing- and set dressing that doesn't even reflect the history correctly, at that

[haikyuuharemdreams]

because i am having my quarter-life/mid-life crisis

gojo x reader, angst with comfort, fluff !?!?!??!

also you can listen to this teehee

gojo is younger than reader in this! he’s about 22-23 and you’re probs about 25-26

- you were having a quarter-life crisis, which probably made no sense to everyone else considering you were only in your mid-twenties.

- you were, however, older than most of your peers in university, having taken a gap year, followed by 2 years in another university before dropping out and enrolling into your current one, and then switching your majors twice. you were the epitome of a quarter-life crisis.

- you didn't tell satoru about this. you couldn't. he wouldn't be able to understand. after all, not only was he younger than you and already in his senior year of college while you are only in your sophomore year, he was also the heir to the largest conglomerate in Japan. he's basically royalty.

- not only that, but he is also on the college's basketball team, having been awarded mvp several times at college nationals. he is also a member of the college's judo club, effortlessly clutching awards at every competitions that he goes to.

- i mean, you are doing pretty well too. you're managing school, a part-time job, and your interests, though there are definitely days when you feel like giving one up so you don't die of exhaustion. you usually just try your best to pull through, even if 30% is what you can only give that day.

- you don't really think you're thriving, even if satoru thinks you're doing so so well. after all, you're only average at the things you do, and it's not like you have any awards to prove otherwise.

- you didn't know what triggered the self-loathing, resentment and feelings of helplessness about your situation. all you knew was that you woke up one day and realised that you weren't getting any younger, that you wasted your earlier years having accomplished nothing, that you will never achieve anything and that you are so, so painfully incompetent.

- this eventually led to a breakdown at 10pm, after a long day of classes followed by a rather shitty shift (your manager yelled at you in front of the customers, and you were scolded by a customer afterwards for serving them a dish that was meant for another table).

- when satoru popped by your dormitory (he has a spare key of yours), he immediately noticed that something was off. you had your blanket wrapped tightly around you, your eyes were faintly red, nose sniffling, and visible tear stains on your pillow.

- he doesn't know if you're ready to talk about it. you don't seem like you want him to know what happened, and he wishes to respect that. but, he's worried about you. he knows that you struggle so much with overthinking and self-deprecation, so much so that you just can't see how wonderful you are, especially in his eyes.

- he orders bubble tea for the both of you, hoping that your addiction to sugary drinks would cheer you up a little. however, he knows that won't be all it takes to help you feel better.

- he sits right next to you on the bed, asking if it was okay to snuggle right beside you. you let out a small noise of approval, and shifted so he could squeeze into the burrito you made for yourself.

- "do you want to talk about it?" you shook your head, turning your body away from his. he pulls you gently into him, hoping to reassure you the only way he seem to be able to right now.

- you doze off, and you wake up to bubble tea on your desk with satoru gone.

- okay, he’s not actually gone. he’s just making a quick trip to the library to use their printers.

- the librarian didn’t want to give him access at first; they’re closing in 5 minutes.

- he charms her anyways; thank god for his face.

- he returns to your dormitory, expecting to see you asleep. instead, you were sitting upright on your bed, sipping your bubble tea as you cried.

- “baby, what’s wrong?” he asks, rushing over.

- “i thought you left me.”

- “oh, baby” he feels stupid for not leaving a note or texting you to tell you he’ll back back.

- instead of saying anything, he passes you the card he printed at the library, which he made using canva™️

- though the template and decorations weren’t designed by him, the words were from his heart.

- they spoke of your resilience, diligence, determination and passion.

- most importantly, they screamed of satoru’s love for you.

- “before you, life was painfully average. i am the gojo satoru, and that meant i had everything i want. at least, that was what i had foolishly thought. i was enlightened when i saw you for the first time in lecture; i knew nothing was going to be the same.”

- “i don’t know how you do it, but you soon became the only one i wanted to impress, to satisfy, to delight. your face occupy every crevice of my mind. my heart feels like it’s been thrown into a blender unguarded each time you’re around.”

- “i remember when you looked so anxious telling me about yourself that i had to hold myself back from gathering you into my arms and telling you that you’re doing so well, that it’s okay to take time to figure out what you love and what your purpose is.”

- “you’ll always be someone i look up to, respect and love and i will always support you, even if you decide to move to south korea to be a full-time fangirl.”

- you burst into a sob once again, your body shivering at the intensity of your emotions. he rushes to hug you, hoping to calm you down.

- through your tears, you begin opening up about your worries, fears, insecurities and your frustration with yourself.

- he listens without interjecting, only giving a short “mhm” every now and then to assure you that he’s paying attention.

- “you’re not a failure, baby. i wish you can see how incredible you are. i know it isn’t easy managing all your commitments; i see how tiring it is for you, yet you’re giving your best for each and that is immensely admirable to me.”

- “you aren’t running out of time, and neither have you ‘wasted’ any. you were and are still trying to figure things out, and that’s normal. most people around us are, too, trying to make sense of themselves and the world.”

- you start to calm down, his words lightening some load on your shoulders and chasing away the thoughts that have been plaguing you.

- “i love you so much, satoru. thank you.”

- “you don’t have to thank me, baby. it’s really nothing.”

- you give him a big kiss on his lips, a loud MUAH that resonates through the room, and pulling back to reveal a light blush on his cheeks.

- his shock quickly is replaced by delight, laughing as he grabs your cheeks and kisses you.

[goobstars]

can I request literally whatever with Ticci Toby? pref romantic and fluffy but it's up to you!!

𝐃𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆

summary : what it's like to date ticci toby.

tags : profanity, mentions of killing, blood, violence, and romance.

note : the big '25 and your girl still likes creepypasta. I TRIED, I PROMISE !

— no sense of personal space.

— he doesn't—usually—intentionally invade your bubble, he just likes being close to you. it's hard to go somewhere without him trailing behind you, and if you ask him to leave, he'll look at you like you just kicked a puppy in front of him.

— very dramatic, by the way.

"toby, can you leave for a moment?" "why?" his question was asked with genuine curiosity while he stared at you blankly, and you blinked at him a few times. "because i'm trying to wrap up the gift i got you?" "just say you ha-hate me." "toby, no—"

— he's obsessed with you, and if you ever deny it, everyone around the mansion is going to look at you like you're the craziest person there.

— even ben agrees that toby is obsessed with you, and he's barely even around anyone since he's always in his room.

— you're literally his world, and he would do anything for you. if you asked him to jump off a cliff, he would do it without hesitation.

— it's not like he would feel the impact, anyways.

— speaking of that, dating toby would include you having a heart attack every time he comes back from a mission.

— since toby is numb to pain, he doesn't know when he gets injured or not. even when he does notice his wounds, he just shrugs them off. he's literally watched someone stab him in his stomach, and he just blinked at them before killing them with his hatchet.

— he kept that knife, by the way. when he returned from his mission, he showed it off like some prize while revealing his—horribly done—stitches.

— so, when he comes back from missions, you're usually the one to patch him up. he'd be like a fussy toddler the whole time, though.

"can you lift up your arm?" "i'm fine." you winced as his neck cracked, and he lifted up his free hand to rub the back of his neck. despite his statement, he still lifted up his arm. the gash he had gotten went in a horizontal line from his spine to his ribs, and you frowned at the sight before grabbing some gauze. "how did this happen?" the man shrugged, and you hastily placed a hand on his shoulder as you sighed. "try not to move a whole lot, please. i don't want the wound to open up more." "it's just a paper-papercut—" "i can almost see one of your ribs, toby." "really?" you watched as toby leaned his head down a bit as he attempted to eye into the cut, and you placed a large gauze pad against his side before grasping his free hand. you placed his hand against the gauze before pushing down firmly. "hold that for me so i can get your back..." "but i'm fi-fine! this is taking too long—" "toby." at your firm tone, he frowned at you as he let out a huff. his hand remained pressed against the gauze while you moved over to his back, and you both remained in silence as you started to clean up his wound.

— you also have to constantly remind him to put on chapstick. when you first met him, his lips would always be chapped given how he constantly chewed on them and licked them, so now you make sure he always has chapstick on him.

— which he just licks off when you turn your back, or he attempts to bite the chapstick itself.

— also, when it comes to kissing toby, just know that he's very passionate about it. he will literally kiss you like he's leaving for war and is never coming back, but in reality, you're just getting up to get a snack.

— cuddling with him would be a bit difficult since he's constantly shifting and jolting, but you'd get used to it.

— after missions, he would probably pounce on you while he was still covered in blood. he'd smell horrible, but he doesn't care; he missed you too much to care.

— this is fairly random, but do not let him cook or bake with you. you're going to ask if the water is done boiling, and he's sticking his hand right in there. or, if you want to know if the oven is done preheating, his head is going in it.

— but despite the fact you've banned him from helping you in the kitchen, he'd still be behind you with his arms wrapped around your waist while he watches you cook.

— he does it because one, he wants to be close to you, and two, he likes to snatch things like cookies or whatever food you're making over your shoulder before running off.

— a sassy man, by the way.

— you'd ask him a simple question, and he's raising an eyebrow like you're stupid.

— final thing, he's a really jealous person. he constantly has to have a hand on you so everyone knows that you're taken.

— and if someone flirts with you, they're on the news the next day.

[hey-that-hurt]

Spamton lying to Tenna about what’s happening to keep him happy does hurt thanks : ). Same with Tenna talking to Spamton like it’s old times and asking him not to leave. I suppose Spamton wasn’t intentionally lying when he agreed to stay, but i don’t think the player would actually let him. Or maybe they would, just to fuck with Tenna’s head. Would Tenna even remember this happening when the player took the magnet off?

I imagine that with more intense magnet use (which the player is definitely using) it is difficult to recall what happened when the magnet is on. The magnets Tenna have used in the past were weaker, giving him a sense of relaxation and loopiness without too much confusion, and remembering what happened afterwards would be easier.

Anyway, I don't think Tenna would remember what he said, but he would recall that Spamton was there.

Spamton was definitely lying a bit in that interaction.

Everything will be alright: lie.

Had an accident? Basically a lie, the player didn't set out to break something, but Spamton knows they don't really care.

I'm fine (per the phone call): Obviously Spamton was not fine when his entire life collapsed around him.

But as for agreeing not to leave? I think this isn't the first time the player has recruited Spamton for repairs, and before this if Spamton saw an opportunity to escape the player's control (ditching Tenna in the process) he probably would have taken it. But after this, I think he decides that leaving Tenna in this situation isn't something he's willing to do. Even if he can't exactly... be there, stuck as a scarf in Kris' inventory as he usually is.

(Prior repair sessions with Spamton were also done not out of the goodness of Spamton's heart, but because he was threatened into doing it).

I don't think the player would be willing to leave Spamton alone with Tenna. Kris knows that if anything happens with Tenna that disrupts the player's plans, they and their friends will be blamed.

For Tenna the consequences of escaping would be less severe, because, well, he's escaped. The player can't directly hurt him anymore. But he still doesn't want Kris or their friends to get hurt.

Spamton is the least held back out of all of them. He has no real connections to Kris or their friends. For him, escaping has no downsides.

The player can't control Spamton like they can control everyone else involved. So leaving him alone with Tenna could ruin everything.

... which actually presents a really good potential way for Tenna to get out of this situation. And Spamton makes a better partner in crime for Kris than Tenna, as he's probably a lot better at lying.

[sang8262]

keith and dorian thoughts

talking about their relationship and history, but not as a "ship", if that even means anything

might be familiar if you read me talk about it in the DE discord server!

- spoilers! obviously -

Might as well throw in my 2 cents about the doomed, toxic old man yaoi since it's a popular topic. The reason I don't actively ship them as an item is cause I enjoy "doomed" as the operative word. They're not dating but they are doing something far far worse! :D

TL;DR - Head canon that, Keith is manipulative and therefore easily flirts / gets close with anyone. Dorian is more precious about romance, and got hurt / jealous. They decide it's better as a friendship, but Dorian has a hard time resisting his own feelings, despite the hurt he's felt. It's all just a game for Keith.

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The long of it:

Dorian finds love to be "messy", that there's "a lot of jealousy". He values friendship to a high degree, which, according to him, is free of the complications that loving someone brings.

Keith in his bio, is also described as a rake: someone who is immoral, flirtatious, a rascal if you will. a scoundrel.

My head canon for why the two didn't work out well together, is that Keith is actually the one who suggests them only being friends. Because Keith finds it trivial to get to know others, charm them, get them to swoon for him. It's not personal at all, but to Dorian (especially before finding out Keith's truer self), it would've been cause for a lot of jealousy.

Dorian is also often head canon'd aromantic/ asexual, and I think him being demi romantic/sexual specifically makes a lot of sense (it's a range in any case, he's more flirty as Trap Dorian, but it takes him a lot of time to really get to know someone and trust them enough to feel attracted to them. other dorian fans have analyzed this better than i will here, so i wont haha)

So, for Dorian to have even gotten to the point of trust and knowing Keith, enough to have loved him deeply at one point, it implies a big time, effort, and emotional investment, imo.

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I was also thinking about how keys open things, but also lock stuff up. So Keith easily makes Dorian feel safe, heard, and comfortable enough to bear his heart out in earnest, Dorian can't resist him after all.

And on the other hand? It's much easier for Keith to shut down Dorian too. Even if Dorian had wanted to be honest and open up to him, that Keith is the one who closed himself off. Kept his secrets. Didn't let Dorian get any more intimate than Keith required him to be.

To me, I don't actually see Keith pining over Dorian at all, or at least not in a genuine, 'in Dorian's best interests' kind of way. Probably more to get attention and admiration (and sex if we wanna go there) whenever Keith wanted it, that Dorian eagerly gives.

Even if Dorian knows he should know better. But deep down, he craves it doesn't he? He wishes Keith felt as strongly as he did, as dedicated to their relationship as he is.

So it hurts him, when he sees Keith charm his way into someone's heart, act like they're the most special person in the world. And then Dorian doesn't feel so... exclusive to him, anymore. I feel like in their reunion at the attic door, when Dorian exclaims "I've missed you!", it sounds so wretched from his heart, and I imagine that he hates that he's saying it out loud.

Anyway this got longer than i meant it to be lol

[bloody-bee-tea]

Summer of Doom 2025 Day 28 - You'll get used to it

Hitoshi wakes up with a scream, shooting upright in his sweat-soaked bed and his eyes frantically scanning the room.

He screams again when his eyes fall on Aizawa, standing in the middle of the room, his hand outstretched but absolutely motionless otherwise and it only takes a moment for Hitoshi to understand what's going on and then he yanks his quirk back so hard he almost feels sick with it.

Aizawa stumbles slightly before he makes his way over to the bed where Hitoshi is curling up small and pressing his face to his knees in hopes to calm himself down.

"Sorry, sorry," he pants out, unease still prickling at his nape, his nightmare slow to leave him and everything feels like too much for a moment.

Until Aizawa sits down at the edge of his bed and puts a steady hand to his neck.

"It's alright," Aizawa softly says, "you're okay."

A sob breaks free at that because Hitoshi doesn't feel alright, but Aizawa simply continues to sit at this side, a steady, reassuring presence and eventually, Hitoshi's breathing evens out.

"Nightmare?" Aizawa asks, almost redundantly because that should be more than obvious but still, Hitoshi nods. "You wanna talk about it?"

It's always an offer with him and Yamada—they ask, yeah, but they never demand, always just giving Hitoshi space to decide what he wants to do and it brings new tears to Hitoshi's eyes.

"No, it's just—" He takes in a shuddering breath. "It wasn't anything concrete, I don't think. Just feelings."

He feels stupid saying it, because why would simple feelings make him scream like that, make him sweat through his bedding, and Aizawa should ridicule him for it, but he only hums.

"Those are often the worst," he says after a moment. "Sometimes I dream about being chased, and that's fine; enough villains have done it over the years for me to almost get used to that feeling and I can handle that well. But other times I only get the sense that I'm being chased; there's no one behind me, just that urgent feeling that something isn't right and that's always worse. Leaves me twitchy for the next day," Aizawa explains and Hitoshi leans slightly into him because, yeah.

It's like that, but it's also worse.

"Yamada?" Hitoshi asks after a moment, because he doesn't know how to pick up the thread of what Aizawa just said and Aizawa lets out an amused huff.

"Down for the count. I don't think he even noticed me leaving the bed."

"Sorry," Hitoshi says on instinct, again, because he woke his teacher, who already doesn't get enough sleep as it is. Fuck, he probably interrupted the one night Aizawa gets to be home the entire week and why is he being so fucking broken?

"Nothing to apologise for, it happens to all of us. At least you just scream. Hizashi wakes up swinging; I've gotten my fair share of black eyes from him."

It's enough to bring a smile to Hitoshi's face and Aizawa must know it because he squeezes his neck once.

"You good?" he asks and Hitoshi nods. "You want me to change the bedding?" Aizawa then offers and Hitoshi reaches out a hand to feel the damp blanket.

"No, it's—I don't think I can sleep again, anyway."

"Okay. Take your pillow if you relocate to the living-room, you know our throw pillows are shit for the neck," Aizawa says without judgement and for a moment Hitoshi just basks in the knowledge that it's okay.

It's all okay, here; he's allowed to stay out in the living-room if he wants to, he's allowed to not sleep, to move freely in this apartment and he's safe.

"I will," he softly gives back and Aizawa squeezes his neck one more time before he gets up.

"Good. And wake us if anything comes up," Aizawa tells him and he really does mean anything.

It doesn't have to be life-threatening, it doesn't even have to be hero stuff. Hitoshi is allowed to wake them up should he feel like it, should he feel alone or lost or panicked and it's still so confusing sometimes, that all of these things are okay here.

That Aizawa and Yamada won't hurt him for anything.

Aizawa is already halfway out of the room when he stops and looks back at Hitoshi and he realises with a start that he didn't say anything back so he quickly nods.

"I will," he repeats and Aizawa's lips quickly quirk up in a smile before he finally leaves again.

Hitoshi hopes he will get some more sleep because it's enough that he isn't going to get anymore but despite the vaguely guilty feeling for dragging Aizawa out of his bed, Hitoshi is so, so thankful, because one of them always shows up when Hitoshi has a nightmare.

And it's so much better to wake up to soft words and careful touches than to be all on his own.

~*~*~

Hitoshi isn't too sure about what happens, but one moment Yamada is reaching out for something on the table and the next thing Hitoshi knows he's jerking back so hard his chair topples over and he finds himself on the ground, desperately hyperventilating.

"Hitoshi?" Yamada carefully asks as he sinks to his knees in front of him and Hitoshi scrambles away from him until his back hits the wall.

"Alright, no touching," Yamada mutters and sits himself down on the floor right where he kneeled, giving Hitoshi space without leaving him alone.

Hitoshi would probably be grateful for it, if he could breathe or think and Yamada must know it because he starts to take super exaggerated breaths.

It's a tried and tested method—not only is Yamada loud enough for Hitoshi to hear over the rushing in his ears and his own panicked breaths, but his chest also expands in that almost comical way it does because of his quirk and it gives Hitoshi just enough points to focus on to match his own breathing to his.

Still, it takes an embarrassingly long time before Yamada can drop the act and Hitoshi slums against the wall.

"You back with me, kiddo?" Yamada asks and Hitoshi nods his head without opening his eyes. "What set you off?" Yamada carefully wants to know next and Hitoshi knows he doesn't have to answer, can just shake his head and Yamada will drop it even though knowing his triggers would certainly help, but it's not as if Hitoshi knows what to say.

"I don't know," he admits, because he doesn't.

Yamada wasn't even reaching for him, wasn't even looking at him, and it also wasn't the first time he reached across the table that afternoon and all the other times Hitoshi had been good.

"Did I move too fast?" Yamada asks and Hitoshi shakes his head. "Did I lean in too close or—"

"I don't know, okay?" Hitoshi bursts out, his loud voice echoing in the room and the words have barely left his mouth before he slaps a hand over it, suddenly violently trembling all over.

He yelled. He yelled and he asked a question and surely, surely Yamada would hit him now, would come for him as viciously as Hitoshi knows he can be with villains and he ruined the one good placement he ever had and—

Humming fills the room and effectively cuts off Hitoshi's scrambled thoughts.

Yamada is sitting in the middle of the room on the floor, humming, because Hitoshi is a hot fucking mess and Hitoshi drops his head into his hands.

"Better?" Yamada asks after a minute and Hitoshi nods without looking at him.

"Sorry," he breathes out, completely embarrassed by what happened, but Yamada doesn't give any indication that he's bothered by what just transpired.

"Don't be, nothing to be sorry for," Yamada almost flippantly says and Hitoshi thinks that that must be a lie, but when he looks up, Yamada is smiling softly at him. "Anything I can do?"

"The—the humming was nice," Hitoshi admits after a moment and Yamada doesn't question it, he just goes back to humming and that's how Aizawa finds them ten minutes later.

Sitting on the floor almost as far apart as they can be, with Yamada humming and Hitoshi coated in cold sweat.

Hitoshi ducks his head in shame but Aizawa simply drops down next to Yamada and then they stay there for another twenty minutes. Yamada stops humming after a while but when Aizawa and he pick up a soft, inane conversation it's just as good and by the time Aizawa complaints about not being young enough to be down here for so long, Hitoshi's panic is a distant memory.

~*~*~

Hitoshi can't sleep. He can't sleep and he can't relax and when he moves he keeps his back towards a wall as if he's going to be jumped any second now and he startles at even the smallest noises and when Aizawa and Yamada speak to him he ducks almost on instinct as if they are going to lash out at him at any moment.

It's ridiculous and fucking stupid and Hitoshi hates himself with a passion for every scared reaction he has.

He has never been like this in any of his previous foster homes. He was quiet and tried to stay out of the way, yes, but he never flinched like this, he never had nightmares like this, didn't have panic attacks at all and he doesn't understand why it's all happening now, in the one good home he has ever been to, surrounded by people who like him and who would never do him any harm.

Fuck, Aizawa and Yamada must think him to be so fucking ungrateful, but Hitoshi can't stop his reactions, any of them and frustrated tears prick at his eyes when Yamada comes home and Hitoshi is halfway across the room before he remembers that he's allowed to be out here.

"Fuck," he mutters under his breath, maybe louder than he meant to because Aizawa sticks his head around the corner.

"Everything alright here?" he asks and just like that Hitoshi's frustrations boil over.

"No, it's fucking not," he hisses out and Aizawa raises a surprised eyebrow at him.

"Hello, family!" Yamada happily says as he steps into the room and then he seems to notice the tension because he frowns. "Everything good?"

"Apparently it's fucking not," Aizawa repeats Hitoshi's words in a deadpan and normally, it would make Hitoshi at least crack a smile but right now, he flinches and jerks back from them, because foster parents cursing in his presence only ever led to more beatings and he catches himself a second later, but it's a second too late.

Aizawa and Yamada have already noticed.

Hitoshi sees them exchanging a look, clearly having an entire silent conversation between them, and Hitoshi grinds his teeth together, forces himself to stay where he is because it's okay.

He's not in danger, he has to believe that, even if his instincts are telling him something else.

"I think it's time we have a talk," Aizawa finally says and immediately walks over to the couch, where he sits down, Yamada at his side a moment later. "Pick any place that feels safe to you," Aizawa says and Hitoshi almost hysterically laughs when his mind immediately flashes to under his bed.

Yamada seems to be able to read his mind because he gives Hitoshi a tight smile.

"In this room, kiddo, please."

Hitoshi hovers in the room for a moment, unsure of where he's supposed to go, Aizawa and Yamada patiently waiting him out until he finally moves to the opposite site of the room, the table and arm chair between him and them and then he leans against the wall as casually as he can.

"Sure," Aizawa says with an amused twitch of his lips and Hitoshi has to remind himself that it is amusement and not derision.

"Hitoshi," Yamada starts but Hitoshi cuts in, just blurting out what has been on his mind for a while now.

"I don't know why I'm acting like this. I don't. I know you guys are safe, I know I am, but still—I can't help but to flinch and to be afraid and the nightmares—I don't know why any of this is happening now!"

"Because you're safe here."

"What?" Hitoshi breathes out and stares at Aizawa, literally begging him with his eyes to fucking elaborate on that.

"Kiddo, you've been to your counselling sessions, right? Did they not mention that this could happen?" Yamada wants to know and Hitoshi blinks.

He had to attend infrequent counselling sessions for the first two months he came here but the woman who did them was shit and was more concerned with the fact that Hitoshi could be hurting two pro heroes.

Not that he'd ever told Aizawa or Yamada that.

She certainly hadn't mentioned anything like this.

"No. She—didn't say many helpful things at all," Hitoshi admits and Yamada narrows his eyes at him.

"Was she a quirkist bitch?" he asks and Aizawa lets out a long sigh.

"Hizashi, please."

"What? You were thinking it, too, and don't think I don't know you're going to go out tonight to check her records."

"She—was, actually," Hitoshi interrupts them before this can become a full blown argument and immediately, Aizawa's and Yamada's attention snaps back to him. "She was a bit of—that," he weakly finishes and watches how Yamada seems to steam with rage.

"Your therapist is someone else?" Aizawa asks, short and to the point like he always is and Hitoshi nods.

"Yeah, he's—ehm. The first talk was. Okay. Good." He curses himself for how he stumbles over his words but the therapist he's supposed to see soon had definitely left a better impression than the woman in counselling.

"Well, at least that's something," Yamada mutters and Hitoshi mentally apologises to his therapist, because he's sure Aizawa and Yamada will corner him sooner or later. Just to make sure.

Because they are good like that.

Which makes this entire situation so incredibly frustrating and it brings him back to the original point of this.

"Can we—what is happening? Here. With me," he says and immediately they soften up, which prompts Hitoshi to speak more. "You said—that this was something that could happen? Me being all—messed up?"

"Healing," Aizawa corrects him and Hitoshi can't help it, he snorts.

He definitely is something, but healing is not it.

"I'm not—healing! I'm worse than I ever was! How is this healing?"

"You're processing," Yamada tells him. "You know PTSD?"

"You think I have—that? Why now?"

"Kiddo, it's called post-traumatic for a reason. Usually, it develops in the first six months after the traumatic events happened. It's a bit different for prolonged traumatic events—what you went through, basically—but you typically don't get it while you're still in the situation. And you have been in the situation for so long."

"The human brain is fickle like that," Aizawa chimes in. "You were constantly under stress in your previous homes and now you get to process. Your brain has now the time and the space to work through all the shit that happened to you. And it's reacting accordingly now."

"Well, I would appreciate it if it fucking stopped," Hitoshi grumbles, slinging his arms around his middle. "So it's not because I don't trust you?" he finally asks, voicing that one fear that has been at the back of his head all this time and Yamada smiles at him.

"Quite the opposite, really. You are like this right now because you trust us. Otherwise you'd still be in panic mode and not have any of these issues."

"And you knew that?"

"Hound Dog pulled us aside when we took you in and gave us a brief run-down of what to expect. He assured us that this would be covered with you during your counselling but—"

"Yeah, she was too busy being worried about me making you hurt each other," Hitoshi bitterly mutters and then bites his lip, hard, because he spoke out of turn.

It takes him a moment to remember that there are no real turns here.

"We're definitely going to have to look into that," Aizawa grumbles and Yamada doesn't even pretend to stop him anymore.

"But—what now? What do we do now about me being all—" Hitoshi doesn't want to say healing because it doesn't feel like it but he also doesn't want to say messed up again so he simply, awkwardly trails off.

"When's your therapy session?"

"Next week."

"Then we do nothing. We deal with it like we have done so far and then you can talk to your therapist about it. Maybe he'll recommend seeing a doctor, too, but that will always be your decision," Aizawa says with a shrug and Hitoshi's eyes burn.

"You're not—mad? Annoyed? Dealing with me like this—"

He remembers all the nights he woke up screaming where Aizawa came into his room because he woke him up, remembers the way he continues to bolt when they enter a room, the numerous panic attacks he's had over the past two weeks just because they breathed in their own home and he can't quite believe that it doesn't matter to them.

"Hitoshi, you're processing," Aizawa reiterates again, "and your mind is reacting on instinct. We're not going to be mad about that and we're not annoyed. I know it sounds backwards, but we're happy to see it. It means we're providing a stable, safe home for you and that is all we really wanted. And what we've done so far has helped, right?"

All the gentle words, the soft touches, the steady presences they have given him over the past few months flood into Hitoshi's mind and it almost makes him cry.

"Yeah," he chokes out and Yamada smiles softly at him.

"Then that's all we need to know. We're going to continue just like that and it will all work out. You’ll get used to it, you'll see."

"Hopeless optimist," Hitoshi and Aizawa say at the same time and it's enough to make them all laugh.

It still doesn't feel okay, but it does take a bit of the stress out of it, knowing that he's not like this for nothing or because deep down he doesn't trust them and Hitoshi can breathe a little bit easier with that knowledge.

And if they are right then his therapy will help, too, and time, probably. A lot of time.

Hitoshi is not looking forward to it, but he thinks as long as Aizawa and Yamada are there for him, he might just make it.

(It doesn't get better for a while. His therapist supports their theory and the only real cure is time and stability. Hitoshi hates that there's no quick fix to it, because he's so, so tired of waking up screaming and not only waking Aizawa up but also catching him in his quirk. He's tired of flinching when Yamada moves in any way and he's tired of always being on guard, but his therapist is adamant that it's something he has to work through.

And Hitoshi does. And slowly but surely, with the steady reassurance of his guardians it gets better and better and better.)

[tinderbox210]

I agree that La'an dying is a real possibility, even more so if she and Spock get together, which seems very much like that's going to happen. There's been a lot of dialog these first 2 episodes that feels foreshadowing and Spock mentioned how almost losing Chapel affected him deeply so losing La'an could affect him even more. And while I hate the thought that La'an's arc could lead to her sacrificing herself because I reject the trope of people having to die after finally finding happiness, it would makes sense in a way. Considering how much they already paralleled La'an's and Spock's character arcs, they could even make her death a parallel to Spock's death in the movies.

But I still think it's possible she's not dying because we already have the tragedy of Pike's accident coming, so I'm not sure the show, that strives to be positive at the heart, will double down on that by killing off La'an like that. The show doesn't shy away from killing main characters like Hemmer, but they also keep characters alive that seemed doomed by the narrative like Batel. So it wouldn't be a stretch for them to find a way to align with TOS canon without killing La'an.

One way could be that La'an and Spock simply break up again and that Spock, after having lost 3 times to love by then, would reject human feelings because he would feel he's not mend for them and doesn't want to experience more heartbreak. Maybe La'an gets told like Chapel about Spock's future destiny and breaks up with him to protect the timeline despite her personal feelings (we know she would from her time travel adventure). While possible, I would hate for Spock and La'an to find happiness and then for them to just break up again, we've seen 3 break ups with Chapel and 1 with T'Pring and La'an losing and getting rejected by Kirk by now, I'm really over that kind of romantic drama. Just let them live and be happy!

I think it's more likely there'll be more time travel shenenigans which could lead to La'an's existence ending up being classified. I think they introduced those time agents in s2 for a bigger reason and that they will show up again.

And now we're tapping into my personal but probably very delusional hot take on how things could end:

I think SNW could end reconnecting with its roots as a Disco spin-off and end with some time travel event. I always wanted for Spock and Michael to get a chance to meet again and with the reveal of Kovich, it's entirely possible for him to send Michael back in time to save the timeline/future. Maybe they didn't beat Control after all and its out to get them again...

Anyway, the time travel stuff would lead to the SNW characters not in TOS going to the future, maybe by choice, maybe made by forces out of their hands. And since I want a happy end both for Spock and La'an and Spock and Michael, I speculate that Spock might get "dublicated" with one going to the future like he originally intended when Disco jumped to the future and one stays behind on the Enterprise. That way we could have one Spock in the past, closing himself off from his human side due to losing La'an and his sister all over again, and Spock living the best life in the future with his sister and bae (a bit unfair for past Spock but we know he'll be fine).

We could even see Una command her own Enterprise this way with the Mirror Enterprise being in the future (yes, I'm salty we'll probably going to see more of Kirk taking command of the ship than Una), which could be upgraded like the Discovery. And since the events would be tied to the Discovery, it would make sense for everything to get classified and covered up and thus not get mentioned again.

im calling it yall. la'an's gonna die before strange new worlds ends and the circumstances of her death + possibly her life are gonna be classified like michaels. evidence:

- boims and mariner didn't know who she was in those old scientists despite recognising virtually everyone else when la'an has a) an insanely famous surname, even in their time, which i feel like means she'd come up in discussions of augmentation and ethics yet they didn't recognise her for that and b) she has a fucking huge job and c) she's besties with most of the ppl they did recognise.

- they're setting her up for a relationship with spock. while spock is a MASTER of not divulging personal information ("one of his ancestors was human" being his MOTHER and his two siblings that never came up in conversation) there are two points in which it feels genuinely insane that he wouldn't bring her up - meeting khan/the augments as an argument for not all augments are evil and encountering the gorn. same goes for kirk.

- once more on the la'an/spock front, la'an helping spock open up and embrace his human side suggests that her horrible and traumatic death would traumatise him back into being the would-rather-die-than-share-personal-info spock of tos, which, as dearly as i love snw spock, he's quite far from.

- la'an is very important to many tos characters: spock, kirk, una, pike, uhura, m'benga, even to a degree sam kirk. obv the reason for that irl is her character was thought of sixty years later, but i refuse to believe that someone who's had as much influence on all of those ppl as la'an has would just never come up in conversation.

- la'an's arc feels like it's happening too quickly for the end point of it to be like look! she's learning how to cope with her trauma and is now happy :). that was where i initially expected her arc to go, but she seems to have pretty much reached that point by 3x02 unless things go *really* downhill for her. that means her arc will most likely be traumatised and powerless in the face of the gorn as of pre-series + s1 -> learning she has power over the gorn and how to deal with them as of s2/3 -> healing and becoming a happier, freeer, less paranoid person as of late s2, s3 and probably s4 -> dying to protect others as a completion of the fact that she went from being the sole survivor to the one that dies to save others as of probably s5.

anyways i desperately hope im wrong bc la'ans my babygirl and i love her. unfortunately autism pattern recognition has already proved to be very accurate for me with snw to a sincerely creepy degree. pls don't kill la'an i love her

[magnus-marmot]

Holy crap we got a lot of answers in this episode. Thoughts?

Personally I’m interested in how the DPHW system is defined, and what went so horribly wrong with the Protocol at the Magnus Institute (probably Starkwall fucking shit up for everybody but)

I was writing my episode analysis when I got this ask, so I guess I already gave most of my thoughts in that post. Especially concerning the DPHW. There's a lot to chew on, but I think this is just a part of a bigger puzzle. Long story short, I don't think these are the new Dread Entities, but rather an analytic tool that's been removed from its proper context (ie. predicting people's fates based on their fear composition). Which means it's prone to inaccuracy and doesn't necessarily even measure the metaphysical force behind it all. So while the Eye was both the cause of supernatural events in the world and an entity benefiting from them, "Death" or "Pain" is more like a symptom or a property of the event itself. If that makes sense? I could be wrong (again), but this is how I currently read it.

It actually reminds me of Paracelsian medicine, which is what I based my very first Tria Prima theory on. His whole medical theory revolved around maintaining the natural balance both within a human body (microcosm) and in relation to the macrocosm. His controversial idea was that "like cures like", which sounds oddly appropriate here. You can't cure the balance of fear by introducing happy thoughts, you must use more fear.

About the Protocol, though... Do you mean whatever event caused the Response team to disband? Because as far as we know, the Institute was about to massively, most likely apocalyptically, tilt the balance with their Magnum Opus (due the turn of the millenium) when Starkwall razed it to the ground. All in all, it sounded like standard procedure: "Quarantine the problem, collect the information, extract whatever’s useful, burn the rest, blame someone else." It actually sounds like Starkwall got the short end of the stick here, since they seemed to get the blame. I still wouldn't trust them, though. "Burn the rest" sounds like horrible advice anyway, given the alchemy context. Though I would like to know what information they collected and extracted, and where that is now... I wonder if any of their alchemy research was used for the OIAR's benefit.

What also throws me off is that the Protocol has seemingly existed for centuries, if it was used on Newton. It raises so many questions. Is this the same Protocol, or does it just happen to be another Protocol that was used to specifically erase potentially dangerous alchemical work? Was it always deployed by the OIAR? Or did events like that prompt the formation of the OIAR in the first place? What did the OIAR do before Fr3-d1? Did they still use the same classification, and if so, how did they measure it? Did they have like an entire office full of workers going through different British newspapers to figure out if something freaky was up? How much are the OIAR involved with alchemy? Who's running the show?

TLDR; We got a lot of answers, but I will never stop asking questions.