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Always and Forever

Jack Abbot x Reader

About: Jack Abbot lost his wife in the war, and her memory haunts him for six years, three months and twenty four days.

Warnings: I don't know anything medical or anything military so everything is just a guess , this also might get angsty

part two

Six years, three months and twenty four days.

That was how long Jack had been considered a widower.

Six Years, three months and twenty four days since he kissed his wife goodbye and put you on a helicopter never to see you again.

And every night, for those six years, three months and twenty four days, he has woken from the same nightmare.

He’s standing in the desert, the camp behind him as he waves his wife off, your face smiling down at him from the open door as you yell out something he can’t quite hear. He smiles up at you and then turns his back, just slightly, for a half a moment to talk to someone whose face he no longer remembers, and then the blast forces him onto his back, his face burning from the explosion and the helicopter he had just put you on is alight in the air. Your screams cut through the ringing in his ears as he tries to crawl to the rubble falling from the sky. Trying to get to you as you fall, gracefully and lightly to the ground. A dead weight against the world as he finally gets to you, your face and body burnt beyond any recognition.

Every night he would wake screaming from the dream, his hands clutching the sheets and his breath ragged as he tried to pull himself back to reality.

A reality that didn’t have you in it.

He hadn’t been there the moment you died, no one had, your helicopter had gone down over enemy territory after a routine day. There were no survivors and no opportunity to retrieve your body. 

So every day Jack got out of bed, poured a strong cup of coffee with equal amounts of coffee, sugar and milk, before turning on his police scanner and doing the work outs given to him by his physical therapist. Every day he goes through the motions, eating, drinking, chatting to friends, talking to his therapist, helping in the ER and every single day he is reminded that you are gone.

He moved to Pittsburg once he had been honourably discharged a year after your death and after his reckless actions had cost him his foot. Before Pittsburgh, your home had been an army issued backpack and whatever tent you both collapsed in after performing surgery for 23 hours straight in a makeshift hospital. Your address in the States had been a house in Arizona that you both had put all your life savings into, bought without seeing and sold before either of you had moved in a single box. You were gone before the ink had dried and Jack couldn’t go there without you, so it had gone back on the market and he had moved to Pittsburgh at the insistence of your sister, a woman so much your polar opposite he could not believe you were related let alone see you in her.

Emery Walsh was a force to be reckoned with, and while she may never forgive Jack for talking you into another tour (in her opinion, you were going to go no matter what your husband decided), she had taken one look at him at your gravesite, an empty coffin below his feet, an empty wine bottle in his hands and moved him to her city. Got him a job in the Emergency Room, where she could keep an eye on him without hovering. 

And the days went by.

Six years, three months and twenty four days to be exact.

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It was a better day than most when everything changed.

Jack had been rostered on the day shift, which he was starting to think wasn’t as bad as he had originally thought. His friend Dr Michael Robinavitch had brought him a coffee and the Nurse Dana manning the ship it was easy to fall into a comfortable banter with his colleagues. 

“I don’t know how you can drink that stuff!” Dana quipped, as she scrunched her nose at Jack's coffee order, and sipped her own black coffee.

“It brings me joy- which is a good thing i’ve been told.” he laughed as she rolled her eyes.

“If you keep seeking joy, people are going to think you’re more than a grump.”

“Who called me a grump? I am a pocket full of freaking sunshine!” he said, as dryly as possible.

“Sure-” Dana said before her next words were swallowed up by an incoming emergency. 

And the day continued on, Jack was working on a teenager with too many bullet holes in his chest to survive, when Walsh slammed her way into the Emergency Room, it was her day off so instead of the surgery scrubs she normally wore she was in jeans and a fluffy jumper.

A joke about her outfit was on Jack's tongue when it faded away the moment he caught her face.

Emery Walsh was a stone cold bitch, with a face that normally gives nothing away as she deals with life's challenges. 

Jack keenly remembered her face on the day of your funeral, dressed in Military garb she had remained stoic beside your parents, she had made an emotionless speech about your character with no stories of your shared youth and when your empty coffin had been put in the ground she had simply walked away. 

Jack had never quite forgiven her for that, but on the other side of that argument, who was he to judge, you died, he drank and then marched head first into a firefight with no backup and no worries for his own safety. It was Walsh’s unit that had pulled him out, screamed at him and then Walsh had taken leave of her own tour to stay by his bedside, not for emotional support but by some kind of twisted familiar duty for her sister.

But today, her face is white, and her eyes bloodshot red as she scanned the ER, her hands wringing as she fidgeted on the spot.

Jack moved towards her, ripping off his bloodied gloves and apron and yelling at someone else to help the kid, and grabbed her by the shoulder pulling her attention to him.

“What's wrong?” His voice is commanding, military, which pulls Walsh a little bit back to herself.

“I need Robby, now.” She says, each word an effort.

“Emery-”

“I need Robby- not you!” she hissed before turning on her heels and marching to another end of the ER.

“Dana?” Jack called out as the Charge Nurse rounded a corner.

“Yes?”

“Where’s Sad Boy?” The nickname had stuck months after the Pittfest Shooting much to Robby’s disgust. 

“Ambulance Bay- I think he’s trying to get some second hand smoke.” she laughed as she wandered away. 

It was a running joke, Robby trying to quit smoking, every couple of months he goes a few weeks before giving into the temptation. Jack always thought it was the biggest joke in the medical world, the fact that so many doctors, who all know the risks, still smoke so much. But who was he to judge, he ends most of his shifts at the edge of the roof. 

“Marsh!” the brunette turned to him, her eyes wide and her hands still shaking, “Ambulance bay!”

He wanted to follow her, to find out what had made the woman so shaken up but as he stepped forward he was bowled over by Dana who called him over to the incoming trauma.

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It was almost an hour before he was finally back into the bullpen and away from any patients. 

Jack couldn't get the picture of Emery’s pale face and shaking hands out of his mind the whole time he coded his last patient, he didn’t even celebrate the small moment when they came back to the world of the living, instead briskly walking away leaving one of the residents to tell the family the good news. 

As he walked past Dana’s desk, he couldn't locate the charge nurse, Robby or Walsh. 

Where is everyone he thought to himself as he looked subtly behind curtains.

He wandered through the ER, nodding to people and stopping to ask some where Robby or Dana was but everyone was none the wiser.

He was starting to get frustrated, it was unusual for both leaders of the ER to disappear at the same time, normally they take turns having little meltdowns. 

As he headed towards the peds room he finally stopped the Charge Nurse. Dana was leaning against the door and typing quickly on her mobile.

“Hey! Have you seen Robby or Walsh?” 

The nurse looked up, like a deer in headlights, she went immediately ridged and stood between him and the door.

“He’s busy, can you man the front?” she asks, gently trying to push him back but he pushes his heels in.

“Dana? Where is Robby?”

She flicked her eyes between him and the shut door behind her.

“Please Jack- Go back out the front.”

“Why?”

“Jack-”

“What's going on Dana?”

“Sweetheart, I need you to go back out there.”

Icy filled his veins and suddenly he felt like he was back in the desert, having the worst news delivered to him by a patchy radio and uncaring radio operator who didn’t know who they were talking to on the other end. Whatever was behind that door was enough to have Dana calling him a pet name, and her eyes almost brimming with tears. 

He gently moved her to the side and slammed the door open to peds. 

The sight before him stopped him in his tracks. 

Robby and Emery stood over a bed, Robby putting in an IV line while Emery sat on a stool holding the hand tight of the person in the bed. 

“Who-” he whispered before taking one further step into the room and Robby turned to look at him. The attending eyes are wide and filled with emotion as he realises who walked into the door but Jack couldn’t look at him further. 

Jack felt his knees buckle as he took in the patient in the bed.

Pale and sleeping with a ragged breathing pattern, covered in black and blue bruises and a scar now running from brow to lip but he would know that face anywhere.

Jack Abbot had been a widower for six years, three months and twenty four days.

But it was you.

You were there, in the bed.

Alive.

“What the fuck-” he whispered before his knees gave out and darkness took over.

[bear-remn]

I am ON MY KNEES, frothing at the mouth for Ayato's post! Keep up the great work!! Loved reading through em all! ♡

— ayato headcanons!

hiii, ty for waiting, ayato is one of my favorites boys in DL so i hope the love is serving, hoping you guys enjoy this post as much as i did writing it!!

tw: this post contains nsfw (+18)!!! if you don't like that content don't read it!

i had such a great time drawing this beautiful man, i really love him so i hope you guys love him as much as i do.

his looks and selfcare

so, ayato appearence... i love this man... cof cof one of my favorites cof cof... so i have a lot of thoughts on him.

to begin with i think ayato is a very, and i mean it, a very attractive man with a masculine presence and aura that makes me weak. for starting ayato is really cute and hot at the same time, and i am only talking about his face.

i think ayato face has a sharp jaw, and his smile is really a plus to his faction's, cute and both handsome at the same time, his eyes are'nt too slanted but has a very cat eye looking, has some long lashes and his gaze is very energetic, powerful, penetrating, dominant and cocky. so he has a killer eyes basically.

i like to think ayato has only one dimple, on his left cheek, it only appears when he smiles or laughs. and ayato has such a cute laugh.

but ayato face even if he has a very strong jaw, he still have a delicate and armonic face, he is a real beauty.

and bc ayato is a vampire he does'nt sweat, any, so does'nt really smell bad, but he does enjoy taking his showers, he prefers showers than baths, and it has to be a hot boiling water, he likes to relax while he cleans himself, ayato uses a scrub sponge to achieve an even greater sense of cleanliness, use a exfoliating soap and his shampoo is made of honey. he likes that smell a lot.

ayato also has a very atlethic body, he likes sports a lot! he began with the basic ones, such as basketball and soccer, but then became interested in swimming, ayato enjoys having this one in the comfort of his home.

i think ayato body is very... good, like bc he is good at sports, has some good muscles, his arms are cozy and his chest too, i love to think of ayato with big pectorals, and his abs??? omg... ayato also has a good and pominent v line, and as shu, ayato also has a (not so bushy) happy trail, i like to think that ayato is not againts his own body hair, he trims it sometimes but ayato just let his body be.

i think ayato knows how attractive he is, so he uses that to pick his clothes, like he is totally into compression shirts, dear lord. also he has a comfy but tight style, like to show his pectorals, abs and strong arms always so he puts tight fits, also likes jackets, i mean, those jackests racers use, or universal ones, or just showy and flashy jackets. very expensive too, dont like dupe's.

and i think that ayato used tio bite his nails, but since the death of his mother he stopped this, now, ayato paints them in black, not always tho, just when he is too bored and look for too long at his nails.

i think ayato also can grow a beard but he feels strange, so he shave it off, and after it he puts sunscreen only where he shaves. one time he did'nt and some acne pop out so he got scared since.

random stuff

so, ayato is really my favorite with these ones.

i think ayato is one of the most clingy and romantic one, probably bc he can't keep his hands, eyes and mouth off you but thats for later.

ayato enjoys, like really, loves romantic movies, he has seen every each one of them, really likes when the couple dont get together at the end, he thinks that is real love but he would never let his lover go.

i think ayato has win like medals of his favorites sports, except for soccer, he is'nt the runner type. and has a little shelf of trophies.

and even if ayato sleep in classes, i think he knows everyting bc how many years has he been in there? like a vampire for ever? he definetly don't need school, and in his childhood he probably studied obligated and unhappy (ofc), so when ayato learning things "obligated" in school he hates to put attention to it. i also think ayato has cheated in some exams or tests, like, he sits at the back and then copy his classmates, gets pissed if someone dont give him the answer.

and speaking about school, ayato is really popular, more than you think, i like to think that ayato is know as the treasure of his grade, i mean, he is maybe the best at gym class and don't get bad grades, he is attractive and stuff. like, you cant walk past ayato and dont look back bc he man is gorgeous.

i also think that ayato deep down, do enjoys spending time with laito and kanato, like, playing for dumb things and joking while eating, i think he do loves them, but he don't give them any kind of affection or let them have his things. oh, and ayato is very posessive, one time kanato used his soap and ayato got really mad that almost hit kanato for it. ayato dont share either food or his stuff, nothing.

i think ayato likes to go to these typical japanese festivals (idontknowthenamessorry) only for the food, and for his pretty privileges never pays, he always makes the people selling stuff give him free things.

i think ayato used to be a really insecure and anxious kid, he bited his nails and his fingers, often ended on sucking his own blood for it. and when he entered his teen ages, i think ayato pulled his hair, you know, like those people that can't help but pull it and dont notice, he had a bald spot once but no one notice.

i think ayato is the guy that when gets mad, randomly yell "bitch!" with no fucking reason, like if he is'nt finding one of his socks and gets upset, he would just yell at the air, or when someone is being terrible annoying he just yell "shut up you bitch!" its his favorite curse word. and also, when he is hearing gossip he would just comment "bitch?" like a reaction. its part of him.

oh, and a little detail, i think ayato is a little scared of religions, but not like physically, more like, he does'nt get it so always get chills from seeing religious things or hearing something related. all bc of horror religious movies, he just thinks those kind of people can be a little crazy.

nsfw

oh, i have been waiting for this, and i know you guys too so.

ayatos dick? oh dear lord.

i think ayato has a solid and proud 18 cm when is hard, like, his dick is thick and his balls also are really heavy, the tip is a little more pink and his pubic hair is there but really short and well kept. and it does'nt look up, its a little down for how heavy his dick is, and ayato always has some of liquid coming out. so his tip is glowy.

i think ayato is so dominant, he is not a bottom, but he do likes when you fignt back to be the dominant one, or talk back to him, or defy him. he really finds it hot. too submissive partner for him can be a little boring.

i think ayato loves to get reaction out of you, like he will literally try to make you nervous in all chances he gets, and his way of doing it, he is really such an ass. like if you two are studying together and he does'nt get something, he totally does but, will ask you to explain, and will play dumb until he randomly just say "i might understand if you sit on my lap... or take off you skirt, maybe like that my mind can focus on you haha" or when ayato take you blood and he is not desesperate and just having a little he will say "enjoying i see, wanting some more? i see what kind of face you are doing, dont be shy now" and his smile with his beautiful dimple? he is really a killer.

i think ayato, ofc when ayato is in love with you or just want you for himself, he is such a little kid, always holding your hand while walking or while he drives and you are by his side he is the kind of guy to hold onto you leg and squeeze it. or when he wakes up he always kiss you sleepy, or when you two say goodbye he will hug you tight and kiss you tenderly. and his kisses really are everything.

i like to think that ayato is a really good kisser, like, he knows how to go from a cute and tender kiss to a hungry and wet one, he just knows, and loves kisses too. like if you two are in a little argument and you face got a little blushed by amger he will just kiss you to shut you up and also bc he loves when you get blushed, he thinks you look so good with red cheeks "muah...what!? don't hit me! i could'nt resist you!"

oh, and if you two are together he totally is the kind of man that when passing behind you will slap you butt, not hard, he just hit it. or when you get up he also slap it, or when you bend over, or when you look pretty, he just like to touch you butt. i imagine ayato having like a normal and totally out of the clue question "hey love, do you know where my charger is?" and when you respond he kisses you "i'll go check" and slap your ass before leaving.

but oh, he doesnt only like your butt, he is obssesed with you body, i think ayato is the type of man that when you two are watching movies is touching you, like you leg, he touch it not sexually ofc, or you feet, or you hair, or any part that is comfortable for him to touch. oh and it is canon that ayato likes when you touch his hair so he also ask for that a lot when you two are just hanging out.

i think ayato can get worked up real fast, like he is so obssesed with you and so in love, in his own way, that a little peck on the lips will do to him. and after that he will try and make you get in the mood. i think ayato is not pushy about it, i mean, he tell you but he likes to work the mood first. i think ayato will start kissing you, ofc, while his hands hold your waist making you come closer, and if you two are standing up he will walk you to some surface, like a bed, a couch, a table even, he does'nt care. but not the floor tho.

and before dropping you in the bed he will squeeze your ass and slap it to then get you on bed. and he can't stand you body being so hot, bc they as vampires, dont get any kind of body heat. so he will take his shirt off before join you in bed "like what you see? be grateful for how good i treat you, ok? hehe" and his dimple really makes you weak.

me too girl, me too.

i think ayato enjoys rubbing his body against yours, like he pushes his erection against your leg as he kisses you, of course bothering your lip with his fangs, while his hands sneak under your t-shirt to pull out your bra, and his cold hands really know what they're doing, touching your skin possessively. and his breaths? when he is horny he can be vocal, but he is just so masculine.

you know when someone has such a masculine presence? and they show it with every action? but they are so pretty and handsome? thats ayato right there.

and ayato definetly will mess up with you, like he will tease your nipples through your clothes, while looking at the expressions you make "if you keep looking at me like that... i wont be able to hold myself from devour you completly" and his dick just trobs in his pants.

and he really holds back from tearing your clothes apart, like, i think ayato might take yout clothes off and just contemplate you, he loves your body. and he is going straight into your pussy.

I imagine him kneeling on the bed, he takes your legs and raises your hips to have you at the height of his mouth, he loves to eat your pussy, depending on the mood of course, it will be fast or slow, and if he is slow, he concentrates more than anything on your clit, sucking carefully and caressing it with a flat tongue "damn honey... youre so fucking wet, so good ohmm..." and he moans while eating it. he can get so pussy drunk sometimes.

and yes, he does call you honey sometimes.

and when you suck ayato's dick, he likes to be seated in the bed and you on all fours, so he can see your ass, loves to see your back as well, good arched and if you have dimples on your lower back he goes crazy, and if you suck for too long his tip his legs might shiver so ayato will take his dick off your mouth by grabbing you by your hair "fuck... don't do that honey, keep sucking me good, ok? be good for me... yes ah... only for me..."

i think for the poses that ayato likes, he probably likes a lot of them, like i think his favorites can be with your legs on his shoulders, or from behind.... but do love to have you legs on his shoulders. i imagine ayato putting it in slowly while watching you face, and his eyes are so fucking hot, he is the kind of man that will tell you with his eyes how much he desires you.

and about his pace, i do think ayato likes to start slow and deep and eventually become more rough or fast. so when he is slow he makes sure to bump a little so your tits bounce a little, and he loves to see your tits bounce, definetly will bite your ankles but not drink too much so you can keep up.

and when ayato begins to be more rough, he will slap your ass hard as he thrust you so deep, you can feel how he can touch every part of you. eventually the pose will become a mating press. his dick is just so hard and hot for you and his balls so heavy as they hit your ass.

"fuck.... ooh yes... you like that huh? you take my dick so... fucking good..."

and as ayato's balls slap your ass, he also will slap you on the cheek, not too hard tho, so then he can grab your neck and see you straight into your eyes as he keep fucking you. the room is full of wet noises and your moans, and his heavy breaths.

and ayato if feeling more horny than usual, lol, he will chain you to the bed, or put a collar with a chain to make you move. like i think ayato will be deep in you and you're too lost in it so he pulls the chain from the collar on your neck and smiles when you moan "don't take your eyes off me honey... watch me fuck you" and his abs look absolutely delicious when he thrust into you.

and if you are about to come, ayato will take it out and watch how you squirm and cry out for not cumming, frustrated bc you cant do nothing more than complain, with your hand chains keeping you in place "what? i wanted some fresh aire haha... youre melting me with that pussy of yours" and then put his heavy dick bewteen your folds, slaping a little just to hear how wet you are "hear that? your body is so honest with me... you're hole body is mine" and his cocky smile makes his dimple come out, ofc your pussy reacted to that fucking beautiful smile, so he laughs, he can be a little mean.

i think ayato do know how to make you squirt sometimes, like edging you a little, then fucking you dumb until your legs tremble in his sides, and while you cum ayato will take his dick out and slap it in your folds, and then pushing it in just where you like it over and over, and he loves to make you squirt on his dick, he thinks is so hot.

"oh fuck!... yeah... make that pussy cry... fuck yeah" and then slap your face to kiss you hungry as he keep fucking you.

oh and when ayato cums? he gets sloppy.

i think ayato can't control fully his body when he is about to cum, but one thing he always does, is taking it out and crawl on top of you while masturbating himself so he can cum in your face, and having ayato on top of you, with his dick tip on your lips, his face all messed up, his chest going up and down as he feels it coming, dear lord "open wide... be good for me honey... im close... oh fuck!" and he cums a lot, likes to see you swallow it "you did good, be grateful for making you feel good, yes?"

the aftercare is really cute with ayato, i think ayato will be exhausted after cuming maybe three times? or maybe two, so he will ask you to cuddle him, and he is the small spoon. likes to feel you touching his hair. makes him feel safe. after having a break, he will definetly get in the mood again, or if he bites you, ayato can get sleepy while doing it, but he keeps the need to fuck you more, maybe more calm and not so... him "cmon... wanna be inside you some more... be grateful, i'll make you cum just like before, what about doing it on my mouth huh? it sounds good is innit? haha"

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[journen]

do you have a list of good CoD fanfics, or favorite writers in general?? <3

Presented in no particular order, here are some of my personal faves / fics I really enjoyed, and my own summaries for them. Hopefully you enjoy, thanks for the ask, anon!!!

I didn't tag all the authors because I'm not sure if they all have tumblrs, but also I'm shy tagging people ahjdfhkaheje. If any authors here are mentioned tho and you have a tumblr, feel free to lmk and I can update this post to include your tag!!:)

Anything rated mature I colour coded the name in red, and anything explicit green. Not all the mature fics feature smut, but yeah! I didn't want to link anything tooooo explicit here, but if anyone wants any, I can definitely rb this post to add a few more 😅

Also, just beware the tags on any of these fics because some feature kind of heavy subject matter. 👍

COF FIC REC LIST:

A Very MacTavish Christmas - @m3rrywe4ther

Prob my fav fic in the fandom lololol. HUGE RECCOMMEND. It's about Johnny who gets roped into spending the holiday Christmas season with his , for the most part, very not so nice family, and Simon accompanies him. So much stuff happens in this fic and it's such a great character exploration of Simon and Johnny independently, but also as a couple, and just so much stuff happens in it lol again, HUGE RECOMMEND!!!

We'll make Death Proud to Take us - Literal_Satan

Fic where, it starts off really sweet where Simon goes to Scotland with Johnny to spend Christmas with him and his family, but things take a drastic turn when Soap's brother, a police officer/detective, gets a little too curious about mysterious Simon, and the story spirals from there. All the guys end up on this crazy goose chase tracking down some of the people who were involved in Roba's brainwashing operations. The fic gets v dark at times and deals with some very heavy trauma so beware, but it's SO. GOOD.

Dream a Little Dream - Angelicasdean

Again, one of my total fav fics in the fandom!! AU where Simon leaves the army to raise his nephew Joseph, who's the sole survivor of the Riley family massacre, and Johnny is one of the daycare teachers at the daycare where Simon takes Jo 🥺🥺👍👍

Pretend to love me like I do - FetteEule

Really cute fic of Simon who accompanied Johnny to Scotland for his sister's wedding, under the ruse they are dating. They are v much pining but not there yet. Features lots of really cute domestic moments and Simon being really sweet to Johnny's kid nephew 😭🧡

Something important - Anonymous

One of the fics that has me totally brainrotted rn. It's about Simon's who's been de-aged to 6 years old, and Price, Gaz and Soap all taking care of him and trying to figure out how he got turned, and how to turn him back! They all get tested on their abilities to care for a child, and unwillingly learn a lot of details about Simon's childhood they never knew. This summary doesn't do it justice tho, so I'd just recommend checking it out! Beware tho again, there is some dark childhood trauma stuff but there are warnings at the start of each chapter that contains references to it.

Seasons - StinglessWasp

In this fic every chapter is set during a different season and tells a unique sort of story/mission/interaction Soap and Ghost have. Definitely some v good angst&hurt/comfort stuffs too. Starts off pre-relationship, and explores their characters a lot! It's just really good HUGE reccommend lol.

What the Eyes Don't see - WhiplashRogue

One of my FAVESSSS! So the premise is like, Soap can actually see ghosts ever since he was a child (which most other people can't see and also don't believe in), and Ghost has 2 spirits attached to him that follow him around(Joseph, and Roach). The fic starts off pre relationship, and it mostly about Soap trying to learn more about these two spirits and discovering more about Ghost's past.

All that's said in the Low Light - Headlocket

Probably one of the most emotional I've ever read LMFAO. It's about Johnny, who receives a back & knee injury bad enough he gets discharged from the army, and is back in Scotland living with his parents as he recovers. He and Ghost lost contact a bit since the accident, and it's sort of a story of them reconnecting. This description doesn't do it justice, just read it, but it will emotionally destroy you lol

Time Loops Suck (series) - Enter_fand0m_reference00

The first installment of the fic takes the idea that Soap is stuck in a time loop during the alone mission! And all the optional dialogues and interactions in thE alone mission are separate attempts of his trying to survive the loops and rendez vous with Ghost. It's just sooo good!! And then there's a follow up fic where it deals with the mental aftermath of the loops and Ghost comforting soap through it, then there's 2 other installments of Simon who instead goes through a time loop! They are such great character explorations in how both Soap and Ghost experience the loops, and I whooleee heartedly reccommend.

Yellow Card - SkerryB

Soccer au fic!! It's so good! Simon is the captain of a soccer team Soap is drafted to as their new goalie. Simon has had a history with Soap before though, that he was the only goalie Simon could never score on! So that's how it starts, and it's just so good from there!! Simon's family are also alive in the fic and his nephew is adorable.

You swept me off my feet - @ghoulishhone

Ghost is down bad for strong Soap, the fic xD This was a fic Ghoulishone and I were paired together to work on for the Ghostsoap server reverse bang! They wrote the fic and I made some accompanying art. Just a cute fic of Soap having to pick up Ghost after he gets injured and some other shenanigans that ensues:)

Dear Mr Ghost - @shortcuts-make-long-delays

SUCH A CUTE FIC!! The majority of the fic is these letter/pen pal exchanges between Ghost, and Soap's young niece Chloe...it's just. So. Good. And was written by a friend of mine too! BIG RECCOMMEND.

Give me Hope and Let me Down - MechanicalBones

Some of the best Ghost whump I read lolll. Ghost is captured by some people with ties to Roba and tortured. Meanwhile Soap is on his way to rescue him, and eventually he does, and there's a lot of hurt and comfort. It's also a getting together fic. 🥺

Unspoken Love - Hammy101

( Super amazing oneshot. I feel I can't do this fic justice with any summary. Just read it. 🥺 It has decent Ghost whump AND domestic off duty cute ghost soap angsty stuff it's just one of my faves ever!!!!)

Except You, You can Stay - Iravaid

Really realistic, believable portrayal and expansion upon a lot of the key events that happen in the Ghost comics. From his childhood, to the mental aftermath of Roba, his family dying...it's heavy but really really good. And has a happier hopeful ending that's Ghost/Soap 🥺

Hat Trick of the Heart and the sequel Family, Gotta Love em - Librarian_FanFicFan

Absolutely am obsessed with these fics!!! It's an AU about Ghost who is recently discharged from the military due to injury, and on a flight back to London where he is seated next to Soap, a famous footballer/soccer player. Ghost doesn't know who he is tho, but they hit it off and exchange numbers. The second installment features Simon's family!!! And Tommy being dramatic and shocked over the fact his brother got the number of this famous sports player... SUPER CUTE IF YOU LIKE RILEY FAMILY STUFF.

As for my fav CoD authors I wholeheartedly recommend anything by:

RedClegane, m3rrywe4ther, Hammy101, TheEdwardianOne, Iravaid, and so many authors but I can't list them all ahaha...but hopefully this is a good start!

Hopefully this helps anon! Sorry it took me a while.

[mutilatednbk]

I N T R O - P O S T

.☘︎ ݁˖ fefo or mai . . . she/they, sixteen, sapphic.

i like meeting new people, making friends is cool !!

ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 - i n t e r e s t s . . .

main interests: tcc, danonation, films, musics, fashion, bugs, literature, art, photography, greek mythology, anime, vintage dolls, history, anatomy, taxidermy (i don't do it lol), homestuck, okegom, pokemon, ranfren, monster trucks, jthm, dc comics, litchi hikari club, creepypastas, internet mysteries and creepy stuff in general

cases: columbine, academy maniacs, andrew blaze, samantha rupnow, adam lanza, nevada tan, yuta takaoka, alyssa bustamante, david katz, halifax shooting plot, salvador ramos, elliot rodger, dylann roof, dnepropetrovsk maniacs, pekka auvinen, jodi arias, cho seung hui, arthur achleitner, anton lundin, vladislav roslyakov, federico guevara, etc

games: tpof, btd, tlou, tcoaal, skullgirls, class of 09 , ddlc, postal, mouthwashing, doom, rdr, the forest of drizzling rain, phasmophobia, cof, clinical trial, fnf

music: kmfdm, msi, ludwig van beethoven, and one, mcr, of montreal, she wants revenge, misfits, descendents, nine inch nails, marilyn manson, muse, miss construction, children on stun, siouxsie, weezer

tv: house md, kevin spencer, invader zim, dexter, breaking bad, hannibal (2013), a clockwork orange, american psycho, suicide room, zero day, hereditary, human centipede, the poughkeepsie tapes, v/h/s, peaky blinders, you, south park, the eltingville club, death note, mob psycho 100, one punch man, saiki k, hetalia, duck!, eddsworld, adventure time, mlp, squid game, fight club, buffalo 66, tarantino movies

i'm autistic and depressed, i also tend to have dark thoughts since i was a child but i'm not really a threat to anyone. i do occasionally struggle with my mental health but we all chill.

please be gentle, i'm very sensitive and i tend to panic at the slightest thing, i don't really like mocking unless we are close. sometimes i don't understand sarcasm very well and i'm very forgetful srry.

no dni. i sympathize and condone actions of some perps, but i don't glorify them or something like that. not a edgelord, nor a misanthrope, i'm just brain damaged. political beliefs: gas all neurotypicals, nuke the earth and legalize all drugs. this website is my manifesto. pls interact if you're a substance abuser, a closeted homosexual or a social reject. english is not my native language, pardon the errors…

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[totally-not-your-babe]

Welcome to Hawkins Prologue

A/N: I had soooooooooooo much fun writing this I'm pretty sure I'm gonna continue. I named our poor Freak 1 Peter. Also it's way longer than I originally planned it to be but well...

Hawkins, Indiana - 5th of November, 1984.

„You are soooo full of shit Gareth” Jo looked at him as she sat across from him at the table, then continued painting her nails. She did it so many times before the others stopped complaining about the smell a long time ago.

“I swear on my… I swear on anything. Tim saw them have an argument and the Byers kid took Nancy home.” The younger boy stuck to the story.

“You wish to tell me” She screwed the cap back on top of the nail polish and started to blow her nails. “Hawkins High’s golden couple broke up in the middle of a Halloween Party and Johnatan Byers took Nancy Wheeler home and THE Steve Harrington let that happen?” She looked at him with raised brows.

“I saw Wheeler leave with Byers too.” Doug spoke up and Peter nodded along.

“Holy fucking shit.” Jo leaned back on her chair crossing her legs.

“Now, now Josephine that’s at least three dollars in your precious swear jar.” Eddie called out eating whatever the high school dared to call food. The swear jar was Jo’s idea years ago, every time someone cursed the person had to put a dollar in it, when the jar was full they used the money to buy stuff for the band, or for Hellfire. Everyone put their fair share into the said jar but it was an open secret that it was made up most of Jo's dollars. Jo and Eddie had a separate jar back at Wayne’s trailer, that was their tattoo-money-jar.

“Well Edward” she turned to her brother giving him a two-can-play-this-game look. “let’s make it five with a not so lady like fuck you.” Jo picked up the bottle of the nail polish at his brother, who knowing his little sister well enough was ready for it and caught it easily. “So, King Steve became single the last year of high school.” She coffed looking around at the cafeteria to see if she could spot the person in question. “And here I thought the most shocking thing will be him ditching shithead Tommy H and that Perkins hag.”

“That’s seven” said Eddie not looking up as he was searching for something in his launch box. ”Maybe, now it’s your time to shoot your shot sis.” he added sarcastically which made the other boys at the table laugh until Jo gave them a death stare.

“Yeah, sure. When I wanna be prom queen and dance around in a fluffy pink dress.” She rolled her eyes.

“You are the one who had a crush on him.” Jeff had a shit eating grin as he said that.

“Which my dear brother promised not to tell anyone.” she hissed giving Eddie a pointed look. “But like have you looked at him? He looks so good, it’s ridiculous, straight up witchcraft.” she reached over the table snatching Gareth’s orange juice not caring about the boy’s protest . “The point is, it was only a moment of weakness, a dark part of my past.” She said dramatically.

“Amen!” muttered Eddie under his nose offering his sister a half teasing smile.

“Shut up! Tell us what you are planning for the camp…”

“Well look at that!” Gareth interrupted her pointing towards the cafeteria’s door. They all looked at the direction, Peter and Jo had to turn around in their seat as they were sitting with their back to the entrance. There he stood, “the new boy” in his knee length jeans, white shirt crowned with a red hoodie. His blond hair was messy - he reminded Jo to Gareth in that matter -, looking like it didn’t see a brush in days, he had chipped nail polish on his ring decorated fingers. A half smile played on his lips, but Jo could see he was more than nervous, as he looked around for a place to sit, the food tray in his hands slightly shaking.

“The fresh meat walked in.” They heard the jocks laughing and Jo turned to them, the irony of it all Billy being the loudest of them all.

“Hey Hargrove!” she raised her voice and heard Eddie trying to shut her up. “Aren’t you just as fresh California boy?”

“Wanna say that again?” He stood from his chair and Jo was ready to do the same.

“No, she doesn’t!” Eddie grabbed her sister’s arm and hold her so she couldn’t stand up. “I’m not spending the night in Hopper’s office, for being beaten up because you pissed off the new jock.” He hissed under his breath and squeezed Jo’s arm to give weight to his words.

“Fine.” she hissed back, turning her attention to the boy at the entrance. “He looks like a kicked puppy.” she said pouting her lips dramatically and looked back to his brother.

“No way.” he shook his head pushing his tray away.

“Come on Ed, you said we help the lost sheep, here is a lost sheep.” Jo gestured towards the blond boy still standing awkwardly. Eddie looked at the boy for a long minute with an unreadable expression and shook his head again. “He is kinda cute, don’t you think?”

“A little downgrade after your crush on Harrington don’t you think?” he rolled his eyes, but Jo could see a little pink taint on his face.

“Eddie” she looked at him with wide eyes like when she was a little girl and really wanted something which made the other boys snicker. They already knew Jo had his brother in her pocket, no matter how much he tried to show otherwise. “Little sheep.” she added in a small voice with a half-smile. “Who knows, maybe he plays D&D.”

“Fuck, I’m going to regret this.” Eddie shook his head with a sigh. “Hey Red!” he shouted and boy looked at his way, Eddie motioned for his to come over. The boys face lit up and had the brightest smile on his face they’ve ever seen.

“God, the guy is like a toothpaste commercial.” groaned Gareth and Jo kicked him under the table. “Hey!” Jo ignored him looking at his brother with a frown.

“He is blond.”

“The hoodie is red.” he shrugged putting his launch box on the ground.

Jo only rolled her eyes at his brother’s words but soon a friendly smile appeared on her face as the boy in question took a seat on her left side.

“Hey!” he greeted them with the same wide smile that was on his face when Eddie urged asked him to come to their table, his eyes settled on Eddie. “Thanks.”

“Sooo” Jo tilted her head getting Simon’s attention. “Who can we welcome to our table of misfits and freaks?” she asked rather theatrically. Ronnie always said she would be a good DM just like Eddie, but Jo liked his brother’s campaigns, and she always thought she could never come up half as good challenges as he did. “Or should we just call you New Boy?”

“I’m Simon. Kalivoda, and I know it’s sounds weird and kind of a tongue murderer.” he added which made Gareth and Jeff scoff.

“Sounds like something pulled straight from D&D if you ask me.” Jo shrugged her shoulder. “I’m Jo, call me Josephine only if you have a death wish. This is Peter” she pointed at the boy on her right. “Those idiots are Doug, Jeff and Gareth. And the very man who was gracious enough to allow you to join our table is my brother Eddie.”

“Thanks again.” he said squirming a bit and as he leaned a little closer to Jo she could smell the faint scent of weed. Now, now.

“Where are you from?” inquired Doug chewing on some… God doesn’t even know what.

“And why did you leave in the middle of the school year?” Gareth leaned closer, like he wanted to interrogate Simon. He would never admit it, but he was more interested in gossip than some retired old lady.

“Jesus H Christ…” Jo and Eddie muttered under their breathes feeling bad for Simon already.

Eddie kept watching the boy who stood out in their table like a sore thumb. He seemed social, someone who is liked for no reason at all, with a smile that probably would make even some off the cheerleaders walk out of their panties. He looked like someone who got on well with others, maybe not the popular guys, but certainly not with people like him and the others at the table. And yet here he was letting Gareth get all Chief Hopper on him. But why?

“Well long story short” Simon cleared his throat, making a face as he pushed his smashed potato around. “my parents wanted to move for a while now – they just forgot to tell me and my brother -, but when another murder rampage went down, they said Fuck it, packed up and here I am.”

“M… murder rampage?” Peter stuttered and Simon just shrugged while practically throwing down his fork.

“Yeah, well Shadyside being the Killer Capital and all that shit.”

“You are from Shadyside?” Jo looked at Simon with wide eyes. “Killer Capital and Witch Town?”

“Before the witch’s final breath. She found a way to cheat her death. By cutting off her wicked hand. She kept her grip upon our land. She reaches out from beyond the grave, to make good men her wicked slaves. She’ll take your blood, she’ll take your head” Simon started in an eerie voice, Eddie had to give him, the guy had a thing for dramatics. “She’ll follow you until you’re dead.” he finished louder, slapping his palm on the table, which made them jump a little, and earned some looks from the other tables.

“Jesus, dude” Jo chuckled, looking at her brother trying to read his face.

“Well, one of my friends Deena says it’s the place that makes people go nuts and go around murdering people. I’m fine with the witch story though.”

“So” Jo tried to take the conversation to another route. “You have a brother?”

“Yeah, Timothy. He didn’t come today; he had this almost OD thing not too long ago sooo… Yeah. He’ll come tomorrow though, he is fine, already back on the good stuff, so he wasn’t really traumatised if you ask me.” Simon kept rambling. Jo could see Eddie perk up at the mention of Timothy buying stuff, his mind was screaming potential costumer, an imagining dollar bills all around.

“Where did you move?” looked up Jeff who was quiet so far.

“Trailer Park.”

“Really? I haven’t heard someone was moving in. Ed?” the girl looked at her brother who seemed to be still in his I-will-get-money trance.

“Wayne said something the other night. Don’t know I was… busy.” He said clearing his throat.

“Do you mean high?” She teased and Eddie throw a piece of bread at her. “Well seems like we going to be neighbours.”

“Cool. I could use some familiar faces.” he said with a frown, then his signature smile returned. “So, you guys are…” he tilted his head to get a better look at Jo’s shirt.

“We have a D&D club.” she helped him out.

“Oh, that’s cool!”

“You play?” Eddie was still watching Simon like he wanted to see right through him, like he wanted to read all his secrets out of him.

“Nah, but I heard it’s fun.”

The interrogation lasted until the bell rang and they all headed for their classes. Eddie had to take another Math lesson after Jo’s last one, so she waited for her brother at the parking lot next to his van. The van he inherited from their father. She could put into words just how much she hated that man, she always thought Eddie and Wayne were too forgiving. If it was on her, she would have let him sleep with the dogs under the stars the next time he turned up for… Anything. Breaking his nose didn’t seem like a bad idea either.

“Earth to Jossie” she blinked a couple of times when her brother’s hands waved in front of her face. “You good?”

“Yeah, zooned out a little” she said with a forced smile, reaching her hand out so Eddie would help her up from the ground.

“What’s in that head of yours?” Eddie’s tone was as serious as it could get and he was watching Jo like a hawk, with concern in his eyes.

“Fathers’ sins” she answered carelessly and walked to the passenger side of the van. Eddie let out a sigh, but he knew better than to say anything about the topic. He wasn’t about to start an argument or rather a screaming fit with his sister, and this topic, talking about their father always led to one of those. They were almost at the trailer park when Jo spoke again. “So, what do you think?”

“About what?” Eddie didn’t look at her as he turned the wheel.

“About our Little Sheep.” she said with a smirk.

“What do you want me to say? He stands out like a sore thumb; he doesn’t play D&D…”

“Oh, come on Ed! Gareth didn’t play D&D before he joined Hellfire. He just moved, he lives in the same shitty trailer park like us, he has a brother who OD-ed, he knows no one here. He needs...”

“Us?” he looked at her with raised brows as he parked the van.

“Maybe. We will never find out if we don’t give him a chance. What’s the worst that can happen? He walks away. Big deal. But even if it happens, we can tell that we tried.”

“Jesus, with monologues like that, you’d make a terrifying politician.” Eddie scoffed while playing with his keys. “Fine, I give the Red a chance. Just one. He fucks it up he’s out.”

“I don’t think he will. I have a good feeling about him.” Jo said with a satisfied smile. “And he is kinda pretty.”

“Shut up!” Eddie pushed her shoulder and got out of the van. He had a feeling that Simon Kalivoda kid would turn his word upside down.

I really hope that I will not regret it.

@snazzynacho

@headofeddienatio

[slice-of-cak3]

could i request platonic yandere faputa with a reader who she views as a mother figure, also the reader is a human cave raider that is apart of riko’s group !

AAAAHHHHH SORRY FOR THE DELAY, I CONSUMED AS MUCH MEDIA I COULD AND I HAD TO REDO THIS ONCE BECAUSE I FORGOT THE BEING PART OF RIKO'S GROUP PART 💔

I hope you like it, enjoy your food, thank you for ordering with us :D

PLATONIC HEADCANONS

Yandere!Faputa & Mother Figure!Reader

— I will say that you joined Riko’s group out of pure worry for them, because, THOSE ARE CHILDREN, WHY ARE THEY ALONE IN A PLACE LIKE THIS???

— Of course, them having someone with experience in this place helps them a lot too.

— Now you’re a single mother with three children trying to literally survive on this place, all of you are this deep already, is not like you can get them to go back up.

— Now, getting to the golden city was a experience. We all feel sad about what happened to Prushka amd her death that made the white whistle for Riko.

— So, who would have guessed that a child got a white whistle before you, L /j

— Anyways, you got Faputa attention since the start, I mean, Reg getting back to the layer with another fluffy creature (Nanachi) and a human child with a white whistle was already a surprise, an adult with them also felt oddly surprising.

— She probably took something from you, not only some of your hair.

— Still, you both didn’t really inyeracted since you were trying to take care of the others and trusted Reg enough for him to go alone meanwhile you stayed with Riko.

— So, the official meeting with Faputa was until she got into the golden city, yes, you’re just adopting every child you find /j

— Of course, like with the rest of the group, you try to be patient, you worry, you care for her wellbehing.

— She was already emotionally vulnerable from all what happened previusly, so now she wanted, no, she NEEDED to protect you.

— She was craving that care, that love, and she didn’t wanted to share it.

— Being by your side, trying to get your attention back when the others had it, maybe staying by your side when you sleep.

— Hug her, compliment her, show that you care for her!

— When she did start to call you mom/mother, that was cute in your point of view.

— She feels like the rest of the group doesn't deserve such a nice “mother” like you.

— She is stronger than you but still you still have the urge try to protect her from danger or avoid she goes first, and probably she takes that as advantage to make you give her attention.

— Wounds from fighting stuff in the abyss are also a way to get your attention and worry, I mean, definetly not intentionally, more like she would probably be trying to protect the group(cof cof you cof cof) before they even get to see those things.

— At some moment she started to talk bad about others, you think that maybe is because she is not used to be around people, but she is genuinely just trying to make you think that they are bad.

— "MOM MOM, LOOK!" you cannot deny she would also show you any small thing, like, some pretty rock, some cool trick, anything interesting she finds she will show it back to you.

— If she can she will be hugging you, or trying to take your hand, or trying to get you to give her a piggy ride or just in general be close to you.

— We all know she's touch starved and she probably just realized that more after she started to see you as a mother figure.

— that child is trying her best to keep your attention on her, it’s up to you if you’re just ignoring it, or if you’re concerned but dont know how to approach the situation, but she's not really good at hiding it ┐⁠(⁠ ⁠∵⁠ ⁠)⁠┌

[beanghostprincess]

Why do you think in shuggy break up Luffy would be on buggy side?

I think it's obvious, isn't it? The core purpose and inspiration of Luffy are dreams and freedom. Luffy's character quite literally is just about that (and more, but those are his main character traits). As the story progresses, we see him helping others, not because he wants to or because he's nice like that (he isn't. He is a fucking menace to society) but because those are the specific buttons you have to press for him to be empathetic or resentful. Luffy is pretty much a selfish person. He's not helping others just because he can, but because of the unfairness of the world or how they treat others. If he doesn't get along with you, he gives zero fucks about what happens to you UNLESS a dream or freedom is involved. Because it's not really about you, then, but about this precious concept he has of life and freedom and how everyone should be able to choose and live however they want. He isn't selfless but he does fight for what he thinks is right. And what Luffy perceives as something everybody should be able to have is both dreams and the freedom to achieve them. So, basically, Luffy is empathetic and helps if he likes you (basically if you're cool or show signs of being a nice person) or if there's something keeping you from being free.

Anyway, why am I telling you all of this? Because I think that, if Luffy knew about what really happened between Shanks and Buggy from Buggy's perspective, he'd side with Buggy without any hesitation. Well. Maybe a little hesitation. Maybe a ton of hesitation because of Shanks. Let me explain-

Let's just make a hypothetical situation in which the three of them are together and Shanks and Buggy start arguing about what happened that day. Yadda yadda yadda, it doesn't really have to make sense for me to explain this. The thing is, Buggy tells his side of the story, and Luffy hears it. I think his first reaction would be about Shanks. He would have SO many questions about his decision. "Why didn't you go for the One Piece right away, Shanks?! Why did you hesitate?! Why did you let Buggy run away and not run after him?!" Because, due to his impatient and overly protective nature (and abandonment issues, cof cof) of the ones he loves, Luffy would instantly ask himself these things. Because Luffy wouldn't have done it this way. Luffy wouldn't have hesitated. He makes impulsive decisions on the spot. If he wants something, he's gonna go take it. And if his best friend leaves without explaining anything (WATER FUCKING SEVEN) he's gonna run after them (STRONG WORLD!!!!!!!) and make them come back to him because he knows something's wrong (WHOLE CAKE ISLAND MY BELOVED). So I personally think he'd be defensive at first with Shanks and Shanks would look away with the most painful of stares and avoid Luffy's hurt eyes. You know when he gets angry at him for what happened to Uta because he can't understand anything and Shanks can't tell him what happened and Luffy has to learn to be mature and accept that sometimes he just won't understand/agree with some of Shanks' decisions? Well, that's him right now. Shanks tells him there was something deeper going on (because of fucking course Oda is gonna go full drama and turn Shanks' hesitation at the time into something extremely painful). Or maybe he just says they weren't ready yet and Luffy just has to understand that patience is a virtue (something that Shanks has actually been teaching him for a long time). Yadda yadda yadda, I think Luffy wouldn't be mad at Shanks for a long time but he wouldn't really truly get it. And besides, the Buggy thing has no excuse. He should've followed him. That's it. End of the discussion. Because that's Luffy's mentality and he'd rather starve to death than let his family go.

Then, I think Luffy would have mixed feelings about Buggy's POV. Because he doesn't understand it, but he gets the important stuff. He doesn't understand why Buggy wouldn't follow his dream even if he feels inferior. He could've just told Shanks. Or maybe just?? Idk. Not feel inferior in the first place (such good fucking advice from somebody like Luffy who gives zero fucks about that sort of thing). But I think he would remember Water 7, too? And Usopp in general? And also all the times he has felt weak and powerless? And I think he doesn't quite understand Buggy's reasons for staying in Shanks' shadow, and that makes him furious and angry at Buggy for giving up so easily, but he would also be kind of sad. I think he'd get the important stuff. Like. The simpler way to put it is that Luffy sees Buggy with this new POV and just sees somebody who lost his hope for X thing and gave up on his dream. The inferiority complex took away his freedom. In fact, the devil fruit and losing the map? That actually was what took away his freedom. Metaphorically and literally. And Luffy sees this and says "Well, it's never too late! You might be a coward and a whiny loser but nothing can take your dream away from you and I'm sure you'll make it! Cheering for you but not much because I'm the one who's gonna be King of the Pirates, but yeah! Good luck! You can do it!". And Buggy takes it as an insult, but I'm pretty sure Luffy would get serious about this at some point and say "Shanks should've run after you... But you were the one who gave up first. There's nothing stopping you now, though!". And... Turns out the damn kid is right?? And Buggy is never going to say that out loud but damn.

I think he'd get along with Buggy, then. Luffy would want to help him achieve his dream all he can. Or at least encourage him and see him as a fair opponent and enemy, which is the most respectful thing he can do as a pirate. He'd be on Buggy's side in the sense that "both parties were acting silly and stupid and should've done things differently but the world has treated Buggy poorly and that is unfair and Shanks should've been the one going after him instead of doing nothing" because he sees himself in Shanks' shoes and it just seems odd to him not to go after the ones you love when this happens.

And also, to put ALL OF THIS in an easier, simpler way: If we're talking about romance exclusively here. About an actual breakup and not just these two parting ways. I think Luffy would be on Buggy's side without hesitation because you don't let go of somebody you love that easily (he's having WCI flashback. Lusan moment. Or Water 7 Lusopp moment. Just choose whatever). Imagine explaining this to Luffy like "Shanks and Buggy had a huge fight about going after the One Piece and Shanks hesitated and Buggy ran away and they broke up" what do you expect him to say?????? Of course he would get angry at Shanks. Even if Shanks had his reasons, Luffy is just fundamentally different in some stuff, even if there are parallelisms between these two. They're different, and Luffy often doesn't agree with Shanks' decisions. Like letting Buggy break up with him. Luffy didn't go through Water 7 and WCI for him to not side with Buggy, honestly.

[xitzycore]

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My Jonathan Crane (updated)

Physical Description: Muted, thin red hair that's a little long in a short cut. Green eyes with a lazy left eye that looks up most of the time. Freckles. Small, rectangular glasses. Curvy, thin lips. Hooked nose. Hay rashes all over his body. Minimal body hair. Marfan's Syndrome, hollowed chest, freakishly long limbs. Scoliosis. Tall and thin. Broad shoulders. Whispery, breathy, hoarse, higher pitch voice. Gorgian accent. Tall, narrow teeth. Large gap between both front teeth. Long, sharp fingernails. Often shakes and stutters due to anxiety, has gotten so used to it, he doesn't even notice it's happening anymore unless someone points it out or he has a second to really be in the present moment. He's also pansexual and very neurodivergent, AuDHD among other things because that's what I have and I understand that one, but there's definitely also other stuff going on. His Scarecrow costume consists of: A creepy, skeletal Scarecrow mask that's crazily sewn with a mouth full of human teeth from his dead victims post mortem and stitches. A wig made of straw, his own hair, and the hair of his dead victims post mortem. A black, crazily sewn, medieval cloak with a rope around his waist and a hood. An almost spotless preacher's black hat. A noose around his neck. Ropes around his ankles and wrists. Soft-ish Scarecrow shoes. Long, sharp, fingernails, this time painted black. Eye contacts that resemble the cloudy eyes of the dead.

Backstory:

His mother accidentally got pregnant and died during childbirth. His early life was spent being raised by his abusive and very religious grandmother Keene. He was physically and psychologically bullied by the other kids. One time he got beat up so bad and couldn't get care, it caused him to suffer chronic pains and have trouble getting up among other things. The reason he got beat up so bad is because Cherry, in my take, is Charles, and he's Beau's best friend. Anyway, Beau finds out Jon has a crush on Charles and publicly humiliates and physically assaults Crane because homophobia during the 20th century. Crane got beat so bad, he stopped going to high-school altogether. Granny tried to get Crane to tell her why he was beat up so bad, because she does sort of care for him in a fucked up way, but Crane knows how Christian she is and how she feels about gays, so he lies and said he had a crush on Beau's girlfriend Cherry and that's why he got beat. Granny Keene died of old age in his teen years and he was taken in by his father who wants nothing to do with him. Jonathan completed his education, going back to another high-school and refusing to talk to anyone but the teachers out of fear. In university, he opens up a bit more, but still not fully. Once he moves out of his dad's place and gets a job as a therapist and a teacher of psychology at the local Gotham University, he's fully comfortable being himself again. He makes one final attempt to try and have a good relationship with his father by visiting him and attempting to mend things with him, but Crane senior is having none of it and bitches and whines instead, which starts a heated argument. Crane gets so mad, he accidentally shoves his father too hard and the old man dies from a crack to his skull. Horrified, Jonathan doesn't know what to do and tries to hide the body. The death taunts him for a month along with the voice of the Scarecrow before he finally gives in to it and throws on the Scarecrow gear to go experiment on people. Only adults though, no kids. He has a soft spot for kids.

Personality:

Very accepting and protective of all innocent groups of people who are discriminated against. Very anti bullying/harassment altogether. He doesn't see his experiments as wrong, he sees it as him making discoveries and helping humanity as a researcher. He's sickly sweet, you know something is off about him, but you don't know what. Either that, or you would never suspect him of being the Scarecrow because he's so nice. Coffee addict. He can be a bit sassy/harsh with his sharp tongue when he's annoyed. If you cross dress, or dress androgynously, he admires your courage considering what he went through. If you're a legal adult, he even finds it hot. He's awkward with physical affection, he's either worried he'll mess it up or doesn't know what to do. All his kills were accidental. He tries not to kill people with his fear toxin, but it happens sometimes. When it does happen, he steals their hair and teeth to add to his mask. Especially at the beginning of his Scarecrow era, he specifically learned CPR to avoid more toxin deaths. He usually fear gasses harassers, but if it's a kid bully, he'll scare them intensely without using fear toxin or hurting them. His rule of thumb is no using toxin on or hurting kids. Ever.

[spotsupstuff]

*gathers courage* oh boy, how do I say this? I really love the parallelism that you made with the world of the Ancients with ours. Humans want to enjoy living, of the present moment and what we have, even with our own faults. And if the circumstances allow it the humans will want to stay a little more even when our time has come. And then there we have the Ancients and their corrupted religion, that strives not for the enjoyment of life, but for the detachment of it and that perfectionism almost impossible to achieve that only a select few can do to just leave the world behind, a self imposed almost impossible nirvana.

I may be getting something wrong because I remember a post about how the original religion deriled from what was supposed to be and can't find it in the navigation post or I am just blind (even though I have glasses!!) And wanted to reread it to explain what I mean better.

I am just like, in my head play like this scenario of a human crash landing in your version of the rw world (a la subnautica or some other sci-fi shenanigan) and meeting you Ancients and being like "what the fuck is this place? Why rains here? What do you mean that they will wake up again?!?!?! What do you mean you have sentient computers?!?!?" And this humans just create chaos (the fact that the human will be basically child/gremlin size adds to the chaos factor). And just the concept for the Ancients that this creature from the sky doesn't have a respawn cycle not matter the stage of its life (can't remember if all creatures of your au have that gift from the god) will be just "you don't respawn? You only experience the pain of death once?!?! ".

There are some much angst scenarios that can come from this *cof*seeing an Ancient friend die an think it is permanent, seeing your humanfriend die without knowingthat it won't wake up again*cof*

Gotta love some old good culture shock.

This also has me pondering that the ancient just are like getting rid of most of what they consider animalistic traits and then there are humans that want those animalistic traits (not all humans, but you know how sometimes we wish we had certain things)

But the important question is, will a human be able to survive in your rw world in ancient times and post mass ascension? (Assuming the human has his own air supplie and gravity doesn't crush it)

I hope your hand is better!

Have a nice day!

sorry this took so long to answer! long question combined with me not being really fond of the idea of humans barging in like that into the RW world no matter in what quantity or with what intention made it harder to gather the will to answer (← not shaming your tastes, each to their own)

i'd like to quickly supply the knowledge on the matter and argue against the idea of Detachment from life, from the five sins, being a bad thing. certainly the kind of detachment that the Ancients are chasing is the wrong kind because of the extremism- really it is Complete Eradication of these things from the self that they are propagating, which is wrong. detachment in the sense of not being dependent, addicted to the sins' subjects i'd argue as a very good thing (yes, very much including the last one too). saying that is wrong kinda throws a nasty shade on the real life religion the Ancients' one is inspired by

i suppose the main concern in all of this would be the language barrier (along with the oxygen posioning stuff, but assuming that is taken care of), what with the Ancients communicating with strange wet noises produced mainly by their complex muscle structure of the throat/neck. suppose they'd have to sit down and figure out the writing system, if technological "now you understand me" fuckery doesn't take place

and then yeah the respawn stuff... Ancient dies and then the next day comes visit the bud with a coffee in their hand like "hey man, yesterday was a wild ride huh" n cue tears and wailing and what all else

during Ancient times i can imagine a human possibly managing to survive, because after all there is a society that offers at least Some safety and is strictly non-violent. the human would be kept within the high circles for the sake of information sharing, i'm sure

post-mass ascension it is really only a question of time until they die to something, that world is Not a cozy one and there isn't really any place to be truly safe. especially without the respawn mechanic in place and if they are to be solo. anything can barge in at any time, including the abandoned Iterator cities

and thank you! you have a nice one too

[bstroobery]

Welcome to our blog! We are the Blue Strawberry System! I am one of our two hosts, Johnny Ghost! Paranormal Investigator Extraordinaire! Our other host is Blue Strawberry, but they aren’t going to be too active online anymore. However, I have their permission to post stuff for them so you can see their projects!

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[boughtmender]

Have music thrown at you

(as a soundcloud link because iirc soundcloud can be played in tumblr while Spotify always redirects)

I don't really fw symphonic stuff, and I don't listen to much black metal, so I've never enjoyed CoF

[ssaluss]

Im also kinda shy, im not used to interactions this long but it has been so great to just delve into this. Nice to hear you're enjoying it as much as i ^^

Just cause i thought of some thinks that may add and/or help...

Not going to add at his origin just wanted to point out movie shadow's model has lighten-up gap in his inhibitors that resembles me a lot of silver's ones (not going to spoil just to be safe, but when he does a thing it do light up with energy). Just a funny thing ive found reading through the wiki cause i just do like doing that, aparently shadow has shown telekinesis before but i have to check it for myself before affirming.

I like to think that his cuffs are focusers, in this AU i do want to say that silver don't really fully capable inhibitors cause his chaos energy is weaker than shadow's so his body can handle it better and even use more at a time, he has less but by so he don't become overhelmed by it, its more efficient in other words, so just having a way for it to not blow in his face would be really helpful, and with GUN wanting something easier to control i think it fits.

Also, angst territory, as we don't know how hard it is to truly end shadow for once and for all, id say GUN was happy that if Silver ever went rogue, he would, of course be resistent and strong, but not as hard to end like shadow.

Idk how small silver was so, as im using movie shadow again cause his model is really well made, his rings have a joint were the two halves connect, i wanna say that Silver's do it too and that's why even when he grew up he just adjusted their size (don't fix if its not broken and your world is a litteral hellhole).

Shadow with separation anxiety YEEEEES!!! Anyway, i too see him fighting quite a lot as a caring person, i like him being in terms with Maria's death and not being really reliant in her to just function at all, but her influence makes me thing that some level of naivety and a child-like wonder make him a little compeled at helping, and silver is full of it, even in 06 when he finally sees a world not destroyed by the flames, i think a small bit about silver finally getting proper, home made food for the first time, so much angst potential and we don't even have to enter te alien stuff yet.

To season the angst, they interacting, even tho is akward, fills this feeling of this friendship already being doomed. Bear with me a little, shadow is not one to talk a lot, he's my one liner king, but he does just stay there menancingly, i think he would notice the moments that silver just acts with an almost childish excitement of being part of something, in wich he does not have in any other place, but everytime he looks and silver looks back its just kinda weird, they're not friends after all, both fear to connect with others, sometimes for the same, sometimes for different reasons.

Silver is not the calmest of the bunch, after the reveal he would either freak out like anyone would or he might be consumed by the power within. Anyway, it makes shadow act, be by conforting be by confronting.

I know the "green blood thing" and i just don't like the aesthetics of it lol it being black do be harder to see (and yeah, shadow with black blood has SO much potential, and Silver too cause its painfully on sight for him)

Silver being controlled by the hivemind could go so many ways its hard to decide, and i like eclipse too i miss some of my archie boys ( *cof* shard *cof*). To not tie this to anything maybe shard could be to silver what biolizard is to shadow? A first draft without all the needed materials, maybe made with stored remnants of the black comet, a full Black arm that could not be easily controlled and scaped, maybe he does have his archie origins, maybe he was the last of his kind that was spared cause shadow couldn't know that black doom had a backup plan. Idk, too much possibilities.

The other way is someone experimenting with it, maybe this time it could be eggman (i do not like GUN that much cause they're shady but is getting repetitive) he is experinenting and make a prototyoe to try and control shadow after his last fiasco, he knows that a controlled shadow could be usefull and maybe he would be easier to lure if he plays it right... just for it to not work with shadow, its too weak for someone who fought the leader and won, even his little scheme of a big fight to worn him out can't seem to work, nothing! So he discards it somewhere in the battlefield as sonic finds him and starts their weekly banter...

He goes off before he could see Silver just staring blanky in the direction he trew the prototype, wich ends with him not being able to stop the heavy hit coming. Everything goes black for a second before he recovered enough (the enemy is the robot he crumpled, maybe)

As they were fighting robots and i see silver as kinda of hardstrong, he just says the black thing in his head is grease if anyone asked (not shadow to, my boy knows this well enough).

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Reading the fic im just WOW

WOW

W O W

If you need any help writing it and filling things, and if you want ofc, we can talk more about it? Im not good at making coherent things but i can help if you need ^^ and i did love the concept and writing this with you S2

People talking about what if Shadow was Silver’s dad y’know but NOT ONCE have I seen anyone say that if that’s true, then Silver has black arms blood

[cof-death]

L4D2 Meme

Coach always does this to my brother when he plays as Nick and I die lel. I ran out of the kitchen shouting: I HAVE TO MAKE A MEME well laughing to make this meme instead of continuing the convo with my brother lel

[gammafish]

catching up with Inktober - Day 4; Sawrunner

So in horror games, you got enemies that you mostly just don’t like, sometimes there are ones you mind less or even like, and then... Then there’s this guy. This sack of garbage. The actual worst, but at the same time, yet another ‘well done’ to the team for making an enemy that terrifies literally everyone who plays Cry of Fear.

[rainbownixie]

i just remembered that ur in the south park fandom too, so,,,, st x sp au?

(i know they technically alr did that special episode but yk what i mean lol)

i love this like- they're such huge hyperfixations for me i- thanks. just thanks.

this isn't exactly an au??? more like who's who in both universes i guess!!!

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stan is definitely mike. there is no doubt. it's obvious. their families and lives are basically the same and their personality is pretty much alike! they're both paladins too??? like??? they're both seen as selfish at some point but they're just struggling! they hate feeling vulnerable and are really really stubborn when it comes to arguments. they have this inferiority complex they try to hide with their savior complex and both of them have this extreme fear of not being enough and losing the people they love!

kyle has to be will because he's super best friends in a definitely not gay way with stan (i had to make byler and style happen okay). they're both smart, sweet, love their families, they're done with literally everyone and follow morals and righteousness! maybe will isn't exactly like kyle because he loses his temper over nothing (it often is because of cartman, really) and is able to go to extremes sometimes. but i do think that when they get mad at stan/mike they're pretty much the same! and they fight for what's right and tbh they've been through a lot and they're trying so hard give them a breaaaak

butters is obviously el because he often doesn't understand what's going on and had a pretty shitty life (specifically because of his dad). just like el! they're both kindhearted but they aren't dumb and would do anything for their friends. plus, butters is pretty much bald already so- plus he became a main character only to cover up the fact that kenny was dead (cof cof el appearing when will's missing/dead cof cof)

kenny is max and i KNOW it probably doesn't make sense but hear me out! kenny is the only one who treats butters like he deserves and actually sees him as a person and not some guy they can just use. the way kenny/max act around butters/el is basically the same thing and they both help them get out of their codependent relationships! and kenny is like in a huge coma in between death and life?? hello??? max in S4/5???? and kenny would be the one getting vecna'd and dying duh! tbh their personalities are alike too! they are the cool ones of their group and have strong opinions on people! they have a shitty life too and abuse never stopped them from being heroes.

hear me out do not judge before reading this: cartman is dustin. AND I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE THINKING BUT HEAR ME OUT- please forget about everything awful eric does (i know it's hard but please do) and focus on the good stuff! they're both highly intelligent and always make the best plans. they're definitely the brain of the group and can get sarcastic and mean and low-key manipulative if they want. but they're actually sweethearts??? like obviously dustin is kind and sweet but eric is too! sometimes! not too many times tho--- but i swear he is sometimes! and avoiding the fact that the cartman/butters dynamic is toxic af, if you only see the good moments they have and the fact that they're canon bffs it could be similar to dustin/el. i don't agree with most of the things eric does but we gotta admit that when he is on the good team he has awesome ideas but!!! no one!!! hears him!! just like dustin.

tolkien is lucas it's so damn obvious- they have they same arguments with stan/mike because they just don't get to understand their struggles and they never seem to listen to them when they're the voice of the reason most of the time. both tolkien and lucas are pretty logical and goal-oriented and have awesome ideas! they just want to have fun and chill and they're both really really sweet and hilarious! i don't think tolkien is as chaotic as lucas tho?? he's more on the calm side. but i think they're both similar in a lot of other stuff!!

clyde is soooo steve coded! they're both seen as dumb and superficial and cool and everyone thinks they're just the "popular guy" when actually they're so so sweet! they care so much about their friends and they try so hard to make everyone happy!!! even if they focus a lot on dating and image. girls don't really want them for their true selves (they only want steve for his looks and money and clyde because of his dad's job). and they cry and whine for EVERYTHING they're so done give them a break-

craig is so so so so much like robin! they're seen as sarcastic and serious at first but then when they open up they can't shut up. they have the same issue with social cues and they use sarcasm as a coping mechanism A LOT. plus they're clyde/steve's bffs and their dynamic is basically the same. they're highly intelligent and always have the best plans, although they didn't even intend to be there in the first place.

tweek is vickie because i said so and because vickie gives me the adhd/anxious energy tweek has. and because tweek is dating craig and i really really wanted creek to happen in this au.

please forget for a moment that i said mike is stan and just focus on personality here! wendy is so much like nancy! both girlbosses, love journalism, i don't have any proof but nancy was def class president, and both would gladly use a gun if needed. they're so strong and smart and always fight for what's right!! literally the same character. when everyone seems to be against them and their ideas they always fight for their stories! i admire them so much for that

idk who jonathan could be??? maybe jimmy! i love them both a lot and they're both so sweet and funny! idk they just give me the same vibe but maybe it's just that i don't have more main characters to use-