#FAILED ARTIST

[rattle-pockets]

Kuriosity, 7$ includes shipping. 12 pages of passionately-made drawings. A fitting name as i went about coloring and drawing in a curious manner. because of that, it made it hard to print, and at times, if the comic is reminiscent of an Incan pot, i apologize.

you may either mail concealed money to: 1720 Fairfield ave. Bridgeport, CT 06605

or donate 7$ to my paypal with a note and your address attached.

“RIGHT HERE, RIGHT HERE..”

[specterpeach]

I'm sorry if you requested art from me and I never got around to it....I'm having a really bad time with it right now 💔

[fragmentsandextracts]

My universal history according to boredom was based on a very simple idea: the mainspring of it was neither progress, nor biological evolution, nor economic development, nor any of the other ideas usually brought forward by historians of various schools; it was simply boredom. Burning with enthusiasm at this magnificent discovery, I went right to the root of the matter. In the beginning was boredom, commonly called chaos. God, bored with boredom, created the earth, the sky, the waters, the animals, the plants, Adam and Eve; and the latter, bored in their turn in paradise, ate the forbidden fruit. God became bored with them and drove them out of Eden; Cain, bored with Abel, killed him; Noah, bored to tears, invented wine; God, once again bored with mankind, destroyed the world by means of the Flood; but this in turn bored Him to such an extent that He brought back fine weather again. And so on. The great empires - Egyptian, Babylonian, Persian, Greek and Roman - rose out of boredom and fell again in boredom; the boredom of paganism gave rise to Christianity; that of Catholicism, to Protestantism; the boredom of Europe caused the discovery of America; the boredom of feudalism kindled the French Revolution; and that of capitalism, the revolution in Russia. All those fine discoveries were noted down by me in a kind of summary, then I began with great enthusiasm to write the true and proper history. I do not remember exactly, but I don't think I went any further than a highly detailed description of the atrocious boredom from which Adam and Eve suffered in the Garden of Eden, and how, precisely because of this boredom, they committed their mortal sin. Then I grew bored with the whole project and abandoned it.    -- Alberto Moravia [excerpt from La Noia, 1960]

[living-poison-blog]

You forget.

And then you forget how to breath, you must make sure your lover breathes first. You become unaware of the obvious but totally sensible to the each word your love holds in their lips. You feel rejected when their arms are too busy falling heavily by their sides rather than wrapping them around you. Sometimes even, you cry when you stare too hard at their face, when you realize that face is tattooed in your veins for dear life. The face that carries the eyes, the lips, the cheeks and all the muscles it takes to murmur 'I love you'. And then there's those times, where you find yourself writing their names in the stories you create when you're alone, or when you talk to yourself. God, you become a baby, tender to their touch, needy for their breath, like a child in need for their mother. Like a puppy in need for human warmth. But hey, that's love. Stupidity, anxiety, roller coaster of happy and tragic tears, the stories that draw the wrinkles in the exhaustion of wanting one last kiss. 

[alanshee-keeper-of-realms]

Have you ever played Disney Heroes: Battle Mode?

I don't really play games I have a tablet and a phone for tech and affording Games for my Switch is impossible

Again I'm a failed artist meaning that people don't commission me, don't follow me and certainly i have not even made 1 sale, because I am disabled and my government has decided I'm not disabled enough or I am too young to be this disabled I do not receive any income at all I rely 100% upon my folks.

I can't even afford $100 to repair an iPad Pro to be able to upgrade my equipment I have an XP pen first generation artist Pro tablet but no laptop or computer to use it on

Yeah so video games or anything of that sort I can't ever afford it

I did receive a commission once I have a friend that is like a little brother to me and they were struggling with a commission and so we talked to the customer and they agreed that I could take over because they liked my style, but my little brother from another mother needed the money more so even though he offered to hand me some over for completing the commission that he couldn't I told him to keep the money,

I have also heard people many times say that they'll purchase things from me at this point. I do chuckle and say I'll believe it when I see the sale, this is not me being an ass it's me being realist

That's why I, when anybody does anything for me, I am so incredibly grateful and thankful because it's so rare that that happens. You are basically handing a 20 to a homeless person

Because without my parents letting me live with them and taking care of me like they do, I truly would be homeless,

[cocktipus]

My heart feels like it's in fucking turmoil right now. Everyone who sees art work of mine tells me I should really be in art school, that I shouldn't waste my talent. As if I chose not to go down that path, I tried and I failed. I only have one choice now. It aches my heart because I really am wasting a gift but that's the sacrifice I'm making I suppose.

[thisuglyyetbeautifulworld]

Can't tell if anatomy is wrong or correct :/

[meattothewolves]

I want to eventually create something that I absolutely love and am proud of, because I haven't done that yet.

#failedartist

[technicallycrispywitch]

May 18th 2025

I'm a failed artist. I'm drawing since i'm twelve and I make art since I've existed. I didn't get any better at it. I don't know anatomy and I still haven't mastered placing shadows and color theory.

Yesterday I was on the phone with a good friend of mine who lives a few hours apart from me and we don't see each other a lot. A few years ago I went to school with him, we both made art and went on to get degrees in that field. I went on a media design route and he went to a real art school where he paints in his studio and he's really good at it. His paintings are loved and he gets a lot of money for it. I'm really happy for him.

So on the phone he told me about how he applied to 2 art scholarships and he won both!! thats amazing! I was happy for him and really proud. But then it hit me like a bullet in the back. What am I doing with my life? My friends are wonderful artists or getting their degrees and I just exist.

The good thing is that it motivates me to achieve something.

To actually get better and improve.

Maybe I just need more time and thats okay.

if theres anyone that feels the same way i'm sending love to you! I don't think we failed. We achieved different goals in our life <3

Sorry for such a depressing first update. today didn't happened much. Just a bit of cleaning and drawing.

[slowmotion-buzz]

I'm a fucking failure