#Fck I hate myself.

[chrliekclly]

your bad typing skills and cool job have enchanted me….

i’m sure you can’t answer questions about the show, but is there an episode from the new season you’re really excited to see release? :)

(ps ITS ALWAYS SUNNY DAAAY)

idk tbh aftr seeing th first 2 eps im evn mor confident abt this season

while we were working on it i got askd a lot how it was feeling frm my perspective nd i kept telling ppl a lot of what we were doing rly felt like a return to form but i wasnt totally sure abt all of it, bt now idk im just fully lockd n i might jst b basking n th glow of their return but idk im just happy rn

[nerdie-faerie]

This summer job I'm applying for wants me to submit a minute long video introduction about myself, why is it literally the hardest thing I've had to do

[akkivee]

they opened up a korean snack food shop in my city so kuukou and i raced to try the hotteok lmao

[cloud-based-and-rainpilled]

Been watching this woman teach Welsh in Spanish, and on the one hand, it’s super helpful for me to learn/improve both, but it also reminds me how woefully inept I am in Spanish and yet 5x as functional in it VS Welsh lmao I’m utterly doomed

[fallbeforethefight]

It's been a long couple of weeks and I am exhausted.

[confused-spood]

Me: wears male uniform for once

Me: is confident by how I look for once

Friend: "Are you crazy? Don't wear that! People are gonna talk especially teachers. You're a club president, you can't wear stuff like that it'll damage your reputation, and also——"

Me: :<

[galaxymagick]

im trying to gather the updates and stuff but i wanna screammmmmm

you know what it’s so fcking funny.. some ppl who have been saying they’ve been enjoying kokonyang 3 vixx’s content, loving seeing them have fun and laughing together, mentioning how good the songs are loving the styling the outfits, saying how hard they’ve worked for this comeback, loving the comeback, not looking at anything negatively.. just enjoying it all!!! would have been one comment...

...away from being lynch mobbed because they haven’t mentioned about missing past members/ wanting ot6 back or going with the negative about the way this comeback was done or the jelpi hate.

BUT a “popular” intl☆ on twt can say practically the same shit and say ‘don’t make everything negative sad or lacking we should be proud’ … you’ll have everyone nodding in agreement .. like wtf some of us have been saying that from the start yet you lot would be close to blocking and blacklisted ppl over saying they love 3 vixx

Twt ☆ are hypocritical contradictive and have no idea what they’re saying most of the time. they were literally calling the outfits the styling the mv until they heard hyuk was part of it all then it was all omg hyuk is amazing i love it jelpi did dhit alll before moving onto they need to move to hyuks "company" like omg shut uppp

If you don’t agree with them at the right time prepare to have you thr*at cut

​ALSO they’ve cried every concert regardless of member count

[blairxbear]

Hit with a Villain’s Sex Quirk & They NEED You NOW!

UA Part 1 / UA Part 2 / Pro Heroes / Villains

They’re desperate, aching, and the only thing that can ease their suffering… is YOU

Featuring: Tomura Shigaraki, Dabi/Toya Todoroki, Shuichi Iguchi/Spinner, Kai Chisake/Overhaul, Jin Bubaigawara/Twice, Atsuhiro Sako/Mr. Compress, Young All For One

Tomura Shigaraki

The second the quirk hits, he freezes.

His fingers twitch, his breath comes out in short, ragged gasps.

Heat floods his system, making his body tense, his muscles aching for relief.

Growls in frustration, gripping the nearest surface so hard it nearly crumbles.

“What the fck is this?”*

His usual anger is replaced with raw, primal need.

When he sees you? His red eyes darken immediately.

Takes a shaky step toward you, hands clenching.

“Y/N… I need you. Right fcking now.”*

Doesn’t give you a chance to react.

His hands are on you, trembling but firm, his voice wrecked with desperation.

“Fix this. Please.”

Toya Todoroki (Dabi)

Groans low in his throat as the heat rushes through him.

His body tenses, flames flickering around his fingertips.

At first, he laughs, a breathy, shaky sound, but it quickly turns into a frustrated growl.

“Oh, fck me… that’s one hell of a quirk.”*

His usual teasing, cocky attitude? Completely shattered.

When he sees you, his entire body shudders.

“Doll… don’t just stand there. Come here.”

His voice is rough, lower than usual, thick with need.

Grabs your wrist, pulling you against him, his body burning hot.

“I need you, baby. Now.”

Desperate, hungry, completely wrecked.

Spinner

Shudders violently as the quirk slams into him.

His whole body burns.

Eyes darting around, trying to find something—anything—to ground himself.

But then? He sees you.

And suddenly, nothing else matters.

Lurches forward, gripping your shoulders, his breathing ragged.

“Y-Y/N… I need you. I—I can’t—”

He wraps his arm around your waist instinctively, pulling you closer.

He’s completely overwhelmed, his voice breaking as he whispers against your skin.

“Please… I need you.”

Kai Chisaki (Overhaul)

Immediately tenses, his jaw clenching as heat rushes through his veins.

Grips his gloves tightly, breathing deeply through his nose, trying to suppress the unbearable ache.

Hates feeling out of control, but right now? His body is betraying him.

Fingers twitch as he struggles against the sensation, his breathing turning ragged.

When you enter the room, his golden eyes snap to you.

“Come here.”

Doesn’t wait for you to react.

In a second, he has you caged against the nearest surface, his gloved hands framing your face.

“This is your fault. Fix it.”

His body is trembling with need, his restraint hanging by a thread.

Jin Bubaigawara (Twice)

The moment the quirk hits, he gasps, doubling over, hands gripping his knees.

His entire body shudders, his mind fogging over with overwhelming desire.

Two voices start screaming in his head.

“Sht, this is bad! We can’t control this!”*

“No, no, it’s fine! Y/N will help, right? Right?!”

His breath is ragged as he finally manages to stand, eyes darting around frantically.

Then, he spots you.

“Oh, thank fck.”*

Practically collapses into you, hands gripping your waist.

“Babe, I—I need you, like, right now.”

Completely desperate, shaking, his voice cracking as he begs.

Atsuhiro Sako (Mr. Compress)

Gasps softly as the quirk takes effect, his whole body shivering as a wave of need crashes over him.

Tries to maintain his usual smooth demeanor, but it’s crumbling fast.

His hands tremble slightly as he removes his mask, his breath uneven.

Looks at you with hooded eyes, his voice softer, rougher.

“Ah… my love… I seem to be in quite the predicament.”

Steps closer, one hand cupping your cheek, thumb brushing over your lips.

“I can’t control myself much longer.”

His body presses against yours, his lips hovering near your ear.

“Help me, darling. Now.”

Young All For One

The second the quirk hits, he inhales sharply, his entire body stiffening.

At first, he smirks, amused.

“How… interesting.”

But then the intensity of it settles in, and his smirk falters.

His usual calm, composed nature shatters.

Looks at you with dark, hooded eyes, his breath heavy.

“Y/N… come here. Now.”

His hands grip your waist, fingers digging in, his voice dropping to a low, dangerous whisper.

“I need you. I won’t ask twice.”

His entire body is burning, his control slipping fast.

Doesn’t beg—but his grip on you tightens, his lips brushing against your ear as he demands.

“I own you. Fix this. Now.”

Ko-fi / Masterlist

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[nqueso-lies]

I wrote this out over the course of 2 hours, taking multiple breaks. Hoping I've written something you could understand. I don't remember the last time I came to you to vent like this... it's not an easy one. To have express or probably to read. Sorry in advance. You can disregard this, I'd understand. I'm gonna hold on to this ask for a bit and if I actually sent it then...

It's been a few hours by now and I can honestly say I will never be about to watch this episode again because of these Eddie scenes and how those stans are positively reacting towards his actions with Buck.

As it was playing live if felt uncomfortable but angry in a way that made me scoff as the scenes came on. Simultaneously reading the first batch of posts as others were live blogging along I was just as snarky to Eddie's behavior and by the end of the episode I was just fully pissed off that I had to log off because something about how I felt watching it all was different than most other uncomfortable scenes I've experienced watching this show and I think I was trying to convince myself that I was just "mad" at those scenes solely this episode because I enjoyed everything else about the episode, it was another 911 episode you know... and I thought I calmed down enough to come back a read everyone else opinions and reviews and... seeing people breakdown those "Buddie scenes" made me sick, from all sides. I didn't even know I was crying until I just kept reading post after post from multiple people explaining how harmful, manipulative, and abusive his behavior was. Then on the flip side, I saw multiple shippers say "how romantic" and "Buck deserved that! Go Eddie!" and I had to run to the bathroom to throw up. Took me a few to stop shaking and rethink everything. Everyone's analysis, well not everyone but yeah, of Eddie was spot one. So spot on that it triggered flashbacks to a few people in my life who traumatized me. Just like Eddie. Similar experiences, similar traumas, similar volatile excuses, same explosion reactions, same manipulation, same tactics. Same guy. And then... how Buck was treated, has been treated repeatedly... fck me man. Smh. Seeing Eddie be so beloved by those people even though he has so many red flags and has yet to change but still gets praised and romanticized live during those scenes was shameful. This whole "we're so back! we're definitely getting canon buddie after this!" is embarrassing and hurtful. It gave me a similar feeling when the Doug and Maddie episodes first aired... discomfort.

I personally stand by ship what you want but witnessing awful actions in real time repeatedly for years and people wholeheartedly putting every bit of hatred into trying to justify it as the only optimally correct ship there is because they think it's "ok" or "romantic" or "so married" like it's "healthy" and "deserving" or "a turn on" ... Never again can I watch that episode or rematch any episode with him and look at his character the same slack. Could I ever say I fully love him or that he was my favorite? No, but I don't think I've ever fully thought or fully believed he was irredeemable or scum. I think every character had/has major flaws and was complex and complicated but I can't at this moment forgive him as a character just yet... Maybe ever.

I see daily how other characters are framed because they haven't been deemed redeemable by stans for whatever it may be and people seem to just hate any redemption arc on this show in general. Valid or invalid. What's it to me? Usually not much. I protect my peace, roll my eyes, block, don't engage, and move on but this time, for this particular episode, seeing people defend him, truly defend him has me visibly and physically disgusted. This fandom has disappointed me so much I'm usually not fazed at their antics but this episode...

Eddie has truly ruined my experience and everyone supporting him in these particular scenes and justifying his past actions as a whole and still seriously shipping him with Buck... fucking gross.

I tried to rationalize the "that's not abusive" by saying well maybe it's ok or fine they can't relate or understand why what happened is triggering because why would I want everyone to relate to any ounce of what I'm feeling? But let's be fcken for real. The lack of simple intelligence and sympathy and disregard for others because they don't want to admit Eddie has a pattern and that pattern is what is legally, morally, technically whatever the fck ever, is abuse. All because accepting that would mean having to admit Eddie has been the truly unchanged unforgivable evil character they have been dragging for over a year, that in reality he'd be the worst possible opinion for Buck or anybody to date atm and Buck deserves better like they been preaching, that they are the ones with a flawed ship that makes no sense, that they falsely created a picture of what abuse was for Tommy but in reality, it's been a projection of Eddie all along, that they willing harassed and be vile to anyone who doesn't like their ship built on no based but insecurities, jealousy, and lies... That they have been wrong. That they are the ones that don't actually care about anything but "two guys kissing"

I keep reading over these posts calling people "over dramatic" "weak" "sensitive" "pathetic" and "liars" for seeing, understanding, and admitting what happened, not only tonight but multiple times, canonically mind them, that Eddie is not that spectacular, caring, romantic person they so desperately created in fanfiction, behavior that would never be expectable in real life, that it's not "hot and sexy" ... Ships with toxic dynamics aren't wrong... when you opening can admit they are toxic and aren't hiding the truth for what it is. You don't have to have a socially moral or ethical reason for shipping what you ship but to start multiple smear and hate campaigns about things that they so loudly despise even when 98% of it is made up and dumb... a Henley, really? A kink "joke" Buck started himself, really? But Eddie's years of volatile behavior, gaslighting, manipulation, using his child to "make things better" and do it on repeat and be comfortably stunted by refusing to get help and actually stick to change because that means he can get away with it again and who frankly is one of the most selfish people in general, who has done all these things to multiple people he's "cared" about...

His grief and experiences don't make it more okay. Hurt or abused people can unfortunately end up repeating the same behavior that hurt them for many reasons. It still is inexcusable if they do. Eddie has been written to ignore acceptance, growth, and responsibilities. That's how he was created. He could change but he hasn't and by that design that performance highlighted another instance people can add to the list. Something that personally could cause someone with 15 years of therapy, coping skills, and reflection to see one scene and feel like they're reliving an experience all over again.

Eddie was scary but people believing he isn't is probably worse. Having people point out with proof of the history and trying to explain to others and seeing the rejection and defense for a fictional character is... something broke in me this episode. I don't think I'll feel the same watching the show again. I wish I couldn't relate to Buck. I wish I wasn't scared for him because I didn't trust Eddie in that moment not to do another irrational thing. I wish Eddie was written differently. I wish stans would stop "trying to win." I wish I never started this show 7 ago had I known this would be the experience I'd being dealing with now. I wish they hadn't just permanently ruined something for me.

*had a terrible night thinking this over, and I think at this point I just feel numb to it all but I still stand with this.

I don't want to take away from anything you've said ❤️🫂 just know I'm giving you a digital hug, Annie!

[iceclew]

3rd Division grown-ups having a few drinks too much at the christmas fair. (at least Kafka and Nakanoshima had)

I dunno.. it came to me and I did not stop myself, what else can I say, cause.. what better time draw my personal headcanon of overly-freezing Hoshina than christmas, plus sprinkle a bit off overly attacked Kafka on top to enlighten myself, right?

And I am not used to draw the other platoon leaders plus Okonomi, so they look especially weird, but 'm still glad I managed to give em a try as well!!

So maybe they DID went to an awfully european looking christmas fair and had a drink, and Hoshina didn't catch the time right and had to hurry and come in work clothing, and maybe it was awfully cold, and he already did borrow Kafka's scarf, but was still freezing, so said Kafka aka. the Kaiju-termal-walking-radiator, also aka. Mr.-Had-a-few-drinks-too-much is helping out to keep the second best fighter of the 3rd Division from death by cold for the sake of the country that is of course..? And Nakanoshima would be weeping so hard in simp-girl-style, and Kafka would make so much fun about how drunk she is(while not being any more sober of course) and all the others would cringe the shit because of them.. And Hoshina.exe just stopped working because of all the internal screaming, wether the not-freeze-anymore part is actually reason enough for everyone around to justify him not stepping out of the situation. Also Okonogi is wailing cause she explicitly told him about the appointment, plus offered to get warmer clothes for him, but he refused since that would mean she's had to leave only to get him stuff. And Nakanoshima "whispers" to herself that she can't wait to get a picture of them for the 3D BL, and everybody is looking at her like wtf u talking about drunk woman, and that's when Ikaruga's looses it. And Mina? Mina is having the time of her life, enjoying all the good time they're having :) (plus already made a selfie with all of them in the back in secret)

Yeah...that's my weird thoughts around christmas, this is the stuff I am thinking about. Very merry, I know.... XD

MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY HOLIDAYS, OR A GREAT DAY IN GENERAL FOR THOSE NOT CELEBRATING!! :)

*lying on the floor hands in her red face*

why DAFUCK am I still doing this to myself!?!?! I absolutelly HATE illustratiing at the moment, I can't do colours, I can't to backgrounds, and there is so much WEIRD in this *points at all of it* ..you know what fck it. It IS what it FCKING is, my overly cringe christmas present for you guys. XD

...no, for real now

I found a place to stay that inspires me like nothing did in over a decade, and I am utterly grateful for that. As much as others might say, this is "just" fandom/social media/internet/not RL, this is all very real to me, and simply made me feel better in times I was low or struggling. And this also was the start to switch my own mindset of what I love and what I want to do, what I perhaps can do, and therefore the time on this site and with you guys was very special to me so far.. :)

Feel HUGGED and SMOOCHED, wherever you are, and however you do or do not celebrate, have a good one :)

[hyunjins-orange-slice-too]

HAVE YOU WATCH BINCHAN IN KIM JONGKOOK'S CONTENT?

All I could focus on is their groans and I hate myself (fck period for making me horknee all day)

(((Totally not repeating that part of the video)))

i haven’t!! send me the link?!?!

is that what this picture is from?

this was the first thing on my feed this morning and i about passed out. like… just choke me out already with those huge arms! gahdamn

seriously.. bin is so big? like i thought channie was big but next to bin he looks small lol i love you channie

[emergingghost]

tagged by @anticurser and @astrangetorpedo !! ty <3 <3 rules: shuffle your spotify 'on repeat' playlist and list the first ten songs. 1. 365 - charli xcx 2. starburned and unkissed - caroline polachek 3. deaf - just mustard 4. skyscraper - touche amore 5. psychic wound - king woman 6. leaf house - animal collective 7. money - tentendo, honey 8. weak in your light - nation of language 9. anthems for a seventeen year-old girl - yeule 10. fck me - i hate myself because

tagging: @angelofviscera @hastyhobbit @albiclalepsza @maryoliverdotjpg and anyone else who sees this ily and wanna see your songs too!!!!!

[dzvelinaskebiyars]

VINNY'S CHARACTER ANALYSIS (why he isn't actually prideful)

Because many d!pshits can't understand common knowledge.

FIRSTLY, Vinny's character is deeply rooted in inferiority complex, not just kid insecurities. You can look in the mirror and suddenly feel insecure of your nose, but inferiority complex is much more serious and deeper than that. An inferiority complex is a term first coined by psychologist Alfred Adler. It describes a persistent feeling that you’re somehow “less than” others—whether in ability, appearance, social status, or worth. Rather than a momentary insecurity (“I’m nervous about this test”), it’s a chronic sense that you’ll never measure up.

"But Vinny acts prideful--" How in tf do people not understand in BIG 2025 that people who lack pride often will act proudly. THAT'S COPING MECHANISM. Vinny literally says:

"The beginning of all this tragedy was me. Like a curse brought down by my birth, misfortunes kept pouring in my family. Accidents...Poverty...And violence (referring to his father turning abusive). In the end, I just lived - however, just like that teacher said, with no expectations in life, just living as a lowlife." - chapter 543. (Vinny literally believes he's curse that ruined his family, blames himself that his father turned out abusive, agrees with a teacher that constantly degraded him and admits that he's lowlife. But ppl will see this and say he's so full of himself💀).

"So you're telling me to resort to d0ping because someone as average as me cannot beat geniuses?" - Chapter 462. At first people might think that Vinny was being sarcastic BUT then Juwon literally LAUGHS at what Vinny says and responds with "Average? Vinny, you think you're average?! Are you kidding me right now, Vinny?!" And Vinny literally remains quiet. Confirms that Vinny, in fact, does think of low of himself.

"It's still not enough. No matter how much I ride I can't see myself beating Jay--I mean, Owen. I don't know what else I can do." - chapter 462. (This is NOT what prideful person would say btw. Prideful person would say "I know it's enough. I know I can beat them." But that's far away from how Vinny thinks).

"I want get recognition. I want to be acknowledged by world." - chapter 525.(A truly prideful person—as in someone with genuine self-respect and inner confidence—does not feel the need to prove their worth to others. Someone who feels they must prove their worth is likely not proud in the true sense—but insecure or struggling with imposter syndrome, inferiority, or external validation needs.)

"Fuck you. You still think of me as a joke, don't you?" - chapter 443. In this chapter, Vinny shows how much he hates being underestimated, since he thought Jay was thinking lowly of him, which is response of inferiority complex. Sure, prideful people aren't pleased with getting underestimated, but it's even more intense with people who have inferiority complex. If you make inferior person feel inferior, they'll either react in denial or anger. Anger is case with Vinny, since he's aggressive character himself (due to experiencing domestical abuse since he was a kid, which shape most people as aggressive). That kind of reaction—“Fck you, you think I’m a joke? I’ll show you!”—is a classic sign of someone masking an inferiority complex with pride.

The aggressive outburst isn't rooted in stable confidence or real pride. It’s triggered by feeling threatened, humiliated, or looked down on. The reaction is a defensive reflex, not genuine self-assurance. The need to "prove them wrong" comes from a place of deep insecurity, not self-respect. If they were truly proud or confident: They might say something like, “Believe what you want—I’ll still come out on top.” Or even just let their actions speak without needing the validation. (like Jay often did).

And even when Vinny won against Jay in that chapter, Vinny says "This is a day I finally overcome you!!" Sounds like a victory…But it’s driven by proving worth, not celebrating growth. It’s a moment of relief, not real fulfillment. So no, that ain't true pride at all. AND WHAT PROVES IT IS THAT VINNY DIDN'T FEEL SATISFIED BY THAT, HE STARTED FEELING INFERIOR AGAIN. (as shown in the chap 462). Because external victory doesn’t heal internal insecurity or inferiority complex. He didn't truly want to win—he wanted to feel enough. And beating someone doesn’t guarantee self-worth.

Vinny saw Jay improve and started talking down on himself, feeling inferior. (Chap 462). Shows that his self-worth is entirely dependent on his achievements, improvements but that's not actual confidence nor pride. That’s not pride—it’s deep-rooted self-doubt and fear of being “less”.

True pride would look more like: “I’m proud of how far I’ve come—no matter where you are.” Respecting others’ growth without it threatening your own value. (Vinny felt like his entire sense of self and value was ripped away from him. THAT AIN'T PRIDE).

Someone who masks up his inferiority complex, his motivation would be to prove his worth to himself and to world, their focus would be on their self-image, reputation, being better than others, when receiving compliments they might fish for more or dismiss it out of disbelief, they're more likely to refuse help than prideful people, they may feel threatened by other's success and compete with others.

Genuinely proud people are usually secure enough to admit mistakes, show vulnerability, and still hold their head high. (Never shown with Vinny).

Those masking inferiority often avoid vulnerability entirely and create a persona that’s hard to maintain consistently. They might collapse under pressure or reveal self-doubt in private moments. (Literally all of it happened with Vinny).

That "pride" you all are talking about is Vinny's way to protect his inferiority complex. He's not truly prideful. His "pride" is a mask.

[lostdesires-world]

An updated intro post:

Hi Sweetheart! 🖤

Yes, this is a KINK page. A place where I can explore all of my kinks, not just one. Imagine a female domme with a love for sneezes and an appreciation for all body types… if that makes you uncomfortable then I suggest you stop reading now. [Minors please DNI, 18+ only plz]

My main kinks are soft femdom and sneeze, but I also have some other smaller kinks which I will mention a little further down. I do post more femdom related content, with a little sprinkle of snz content here and there.

Once upon a time, I used to dabble in writing a little snz smutt of my own. Mostly only through anonymous asks whenever it was asked of me 😌 So if you’re interested in receiving the best of both femdom and sneeze then search the tag #Mommyanswers on my page. I do not consider myself a writer in any way. I just enjoy exploring the best of both worlds.

Another kink I’ve become more open to is feedism (not forced). I consider myself more of a FA (fat admirer). I like the idea of having a subby baby who will let me stuff them up and admire every single inch of their body. I appreciate ALL body types, but it’s just something about a big belly that makes me 🥵

(Just a little PSA: the term “fat” does not & will not have a negative connotation on this blog! It should be celebrated and used openly without judgement. Fck fat phobia!) Let Mommy stuff that gorgeous belly of yours 😍😘

I do have other smaller kinks as well, but this is the gist of it. Any nasty comments, negativity, or hate in any way shape or form will instantly get BLOCKED! Positive vibes only plz ✨✨✨

Now onto the boring basics:

- early 30s female (she/her), mostly straight but a little bi-curious

- If femdom is your thing then you may call me Mommy or Mistress; if you’re here for any of my other kinks then you can just call me Jay

- This blog will be a mixture of all of my kinks. I will not separate my kinks for the convenience of others. If you don’t like what you see, you can politely keep scrolling 😌

- I consider myself very much of a soft dom. I’d rather love on you and spoil you with praise and affection than degrade you.

- I do not have one specific sub that I claim as my own and I’m not in search of one either. Consider me a Mommy dom to all who want/need me 🖤

- For my snzblr peeps, I’m always down to meet new people and open to trading sneezy clips.

- I’m a lover of all sneezes but my favorite are big, loud, wet and desperate sneezes.

- Please know I will NEVER try to force any of my kinks onto anyone. If you like one and not the other that’s perfectly fine! I’m more than capable of exploring them all separately.

- Hope that helped clear up a bit of confusion. If you stuck around for this long, welcome to my kinky blog! I’ll do my best to try and keep you entertained 🖤😘

Taken Anons: 🐇 🚜 🖤

[k8mosss]

i feel like i’ve been here for a while but not yet introduced myself, so here’s my intro!

name : julia,

big three : leo sun, leo moon, taurus rising

personality type : infp

music : mainly lana - songs - florida kilos, venice bitch, fishtail, ultraviolence, dealer, fck it i love you, happiness is a butterfly, sad girl, carmen and more.

frank ocean : sigfreid, thinking bout you, nights, godspeed, ivy, self control

others : MGMT, pixies, TV girl, steve lacy, The smiths , Blood orange, The sundays, madison beer, nessa barrett

movies : ten things i hate about you, girl interrupted, call me by your name, jennifer’s body, palo alto, fight club, priscilla, waves, the virgin suicides, the devil wears prada. probably missing some out

series : breaking bad, skins, gilmore girls, baby, shameless, gossip girl, insatiable, you, outerbanks, the end of the f***ing world, ( i need recommendations pls xx )

i don’t really know what else i could talk about but i would love to make some mutuals, thanks for viewing my page!! ౨ৎ

[dl-drama-cd]

DIABOLIK LOVERS MORE CHARACTER SONG Vol.1 逆巻アヤト ステラワーメ購入特典 SS

This SS-paper was included as a bonus for purchasing More Character Song vol.1 Sakamaki Ayato in Stellaworth shop. Bought by us. Plot-related with mini-drama ｢勝敗の行方｣.

Для ру-фэндома перевод можно почитать: в vk или на диавикии.

…Every game implies a winner and a loser. Ayato-kun is the most persistent person. While growing up he was strictly told to be constantly the best by his mother but. Any situations give no possibility nor being the best neither to win. For example, such as playing cards when all depends on fortune. Even so... Ayato-kun wants to play.

— Oi, Chichinashi, I'll revanche this time!

Ayato-kun frowned as he's sitting down on a stool in the living room and tossing playing cards to me sitting on the sofa opposite.

— …Playing again? — What's up with you, fck. Do not wanna? — Not like that but…

I thought to myself 'Oh dear,' and picked up the cards. To be honest I don't think games that you can anywhen lose, like playing cards, suit to Ayato-kun. It's not something you can do working hard or achieve with power. A game is all about luck. That's why someone like him who gets frustrated if he doesn't keep winning shouldn't play cards.

— Ayato-kun… do you like cardplay?

Preparing for the Old Maid game while cutting and dealing cards Ayato-kun casually replied arrogantly, "Wha?" Then he continued.

— Not to say I'd like it specially. — Eh? Really? So why do you play?

After dealing I spread out the cards and discarded a pair. Ayato also spreads his cards in a fan shape and while discarding a pair says:

— Playing with you only seems funny. — Eh?

I was amazed by the words he said so casually.

— It's funny how your expression changes all the time during the game. — S-so? I never notice it… — Well, it's annoying to lose to you but more tolerable than to other guys.

Ayato said that again in such a casual way. My face is making hot. I'm sure Ayato had no special motives when he said it but to me it sounded as if he thought of me as someone special*.

— Oi, Chichinashi… What are you turning red?! — N-nothing. Let's… play.

I can't say to Ayato-kun something like I thought that. Hidding my face behind the cards I was trying to hide it too.

Someone like him who hates to lose… No, someone like him who wasn't letting lose is tolerate losing to me, that amazed me much. I was surprised and happy at the same time, and Ayato-kun kept teasing me about how funny my face was from the start till the end we were playing.

Ayato-kun also influenced me enough with the fact how such little things can bring a joy.

*特別 = 'special', a key word of Ayato's MB route that shows he was eager to become a 'special one' = (beloved one) to Cordelia.