#HELP I'M OUT OF BREATH
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
PAPA V & THE SUPERGROUP : Back To The Beginning, July 5, 2025
(for my brazilian sis, @togetherasone)
#here; lots of papa eye contact for you!! 😭😭😭😭#thank you for motivating me to gif again! ♡#HIS EYS i'm HNNGGHNGNNH#HELP I'M OUT OF BREATH#the band ghost#papa emeritus v#papa v#papa perpetua#ghost band#back to the beginning#my gifs#i don't do this for a while so the subtitles are a bit fckd#still nice to see quality footage of him 💅🏻#my first hq (kinda) gif set of him yayyy 🥹💚#my love my life
153 notes
·
View notes
Text



daily life on board the ARK. even if he couldn't help cure her i think it would be nice if shadow helped maria in managing her illness
#shadow the hedgehog#maria robotnik#sonic the hedgehog#sonic series#shadow the ultimate lifeform#sonic movie 3#honestly i'm gonna hope the movies will have a spinoff that talks more about maria's illness. i'm really sad they didn't talk more about it#nurse shadow...#tldr medical talk he's helping administer medicine through a permanent IV on her body. wheelchair is just for days shes out of breath#also wanted to add to go look at @ectalexi's art - the one of maria smiling down at shadow was so sweet and gentle it inspired me a lot#sth#aurelia draws
4K notes
·
View notes
Text
being aromantic is like. hey btw you're going to live a life that is the culmination of most of society's worst nightmares. sorry lol ✌️ but then you turn around and take a really good hard look at it and it turns out that living in that nightmare is fucking awesome and you get to wake up every day and take that fear that other people have and laugh and hold it close until it's a great joy for you instead. and being happy is a radical act that you define instead of someone else. and you're sexy as fuck that's just a fact of life i don't make the rules on that one
#aromantic people are just sexy i'm not making the decisions here it's just facts#course ur hot as fuck. it came free with the aromanticism#being sexy is just default settings for aromantic people 👍#hope this all helps. anyway i'm on my 'i hope i die alone <3 i can't wait to die alone <3' kick rn#i think the existential fear that people have of Not Partnering specifically is so. well.#obviously that shit is strong and it is SO awesome to be free of it.#realizing you're aro and you don't Want a partner can be such a hit to the solar plexus#cause society says that's the only thing that'll make you happy. so either you go without that thing or you force yourself#into doing something you don't want which would make you unhappy anyway.#so you think it's a lose lose situation and you have to come to terms with what amatonormativity presents as the worst possible situation#but then! whoa! turns out personhood is inherently valuable in and of itself and romantic partnering is just a construct!#and that nightmare is now your life to do with as you please... define as you will... structure as you want...#best case scenario. is what i'm saying.#every day i wake up ready to spit all that amatonormative rhetoric back in life's teeth by being alone and being happy#and it's so fucking satisfying. every day.#fucking JUBILANT being by myself. and i love being a living breathing 'fuck you' to the romantic system#you need a partner to be happy? oh that's sooo fucking crazy guess i'll go be miserable then. in my perfect fucking dream life lmao#yeah obviously it's the worst possible outcome on earth to die without a partner. so terrible. can't wait for it :)#aromantic#aromanticism#aro positivity#aroace#arospec#sorry to bitches who are sad about not having a partner. i could not give a fuck though get better soon#you couldn't EVER pay me enough to go back to a mindset in which my inherent value wasn't enough by myself.#FUCK that shit. absolutely miserable and a bad life outlook in general. like genuinely do the work w/ amatonormativity and get better#life is something that can be so fulfilling whether someone wants to kiss you or whatever or not#i'm on antidepressants and i have people i care deeply about. what the fuck would i need a partner for lmao
8K notes
·
View notes
Text
The Ark 1x11 "The Last Thing You Ever Do"
#whumpedit#whump#thearkedit#the ark#the ark syfy#james brice#eva markovic#felix strickland#sanjivni kabir#syfysource#scifisource#jamesbriceedit#evamarkovicedit#felixstricklandedit#sanjivnikabiredit#my gifs#mod post#passing out#collapsing#chest pain#unconscious#on the ground#worry#medical exam#waking up#helped to stand#support#weak#heavy breathing#i'm fine
83 notes
·
View notes
Text
So Ji-sub, as Nam Gi-jun, in Mercy for None (2025)
#So Ji-sub#so ji sub#Nam Gi-jun#mercy for none#k drama#mercy for none netflix#i am sorry guys but i think i just found my new fav character#and maybe a new actor crush#aaaand maybe a new Korean daddy#if you haven't seen this#go and check it out#a very well-done noir show with packed actions#the way he is covered in blood#the way he breathes heavily#the way he looks at his enemies#the way he's soooo exhausted but still has to keep going#everything about this character is so hot I find it unbearable#광장#소지섭#the left gif on the second row hits me in such a way i cannot describe#not sure if anyone gets me#i'm not joking but i watched the entire show TWICE within three days#i can't get him out of my head#send help please
46 notes
·
View notes
Text
Her favourite colour is yello w

#how do I explain the existence of Cyn to my friend she doesn't understand what she's for no matter how many times I say it please help#if you (the friend) are reading this. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. I AM CALLING YOU OUT ON PUBLIC TELEVISION!!! >:[#I'm gonna start rewatching season 9 of FOP tomorrow! WOWIE! Can't wait to finish the show and then move on to... *breathes heavily*#... fairly odder... And after that I get to rewatch a new wish! AGAIN! :D Yaaayyy!!!#sowwy if she looks kinda stupid I have to pay attention in class ya know economics wow I sure do love taxes (liar...)#cyn md#cyn#absolute solver#tagging her is a lil problematic to me... I'll just leave it to anyone who reblogs!!! m'kay!!!#murder drones#murder drones fanart#sometimes I wonder if I should give her a nose but I really like the smooth “snout” it's funny and *sigh* I just... don't know...#funfact when episode 7 released I drew her with the worst hair imaginable but what if some weird solver magic makes it kept in well#condition that would be funny make the rest lowkey rot and her hair is just silky soft#okie that's enough byeeeeeee
111 notes
·
View notes
Text

A chibi..... It's been 800 years...
#I'm not the best wordsmith out there to say the least. but if you see this please take it as a moment to breathe#Drawing this helped me release some of the tension and I hope if you stay with me here a second you can do the same#Things are pretty rough right now but I love you and I'm hugging you#Consider this a checkpoint if you will#And we'll find a way to get through :)#My art#Tim Drake#God I missed drawing chibis. Gotta get back into the swing of em
86 notes
·
View notes
Note
hello.
.
.
.
*deep inhale*
KEEFITZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
...uhhhmm.
.
what's a keefitz...?
I don't think I've ever heard of such a thing :( sorrryyyy /j
anyways wanna see this cool drawing I made of a certain two characters? :3 !!
#help why is the image quality so bad tumblr stop mess stuff up it looks fine in ibis paint#ignore my keefe design I don't usually draw him like that i've been drawing too many girls#anyways sorry fitz you don't get a face because I'm lazy :((#i don't feel like writing....#...IN THE TEXT THAT IS#I will now proceed to do this in the tags because I'm silly like that :3#keeper of the lost cities#kotlc#keefe sencen#fitz vacker#keefitz#my art#anyways I apologize for the formatting andQualityTumblr has a 30 tag 140 character limit (around 20 words) and hates commas so this was pai#“Keefe… wake up— love. We have to go to foxfire.” Fitz nudges Keefe. He yawns—before continuing to nest himself like an annoying puppy.#They’re sitting— or rather in Keefe’s case laying on Fitz’s floor in his room. Keefe bites his lip— rolling his eyes. “I’m sleepy.”HeMumble#running fingers in Fitz’s hair— messing it up.Fitz's heart skips a beat— freezing.“Let me rest…”Keefe continues.oh..They’re going to be lat#Fitz shoots him a dirty look and Keefe finally relents— sitting up and propping his back against Fitz’s. “Fine. fine.” he huffs. “I’m up.”#He looks up at Fitz glaringly. “Keefe love— don’t look at me like that.” Fitz mutters— pursing his lips together. “You’re such a mess.”#Keefe stiffens–Fitz looks in concern. “...I am—aren’t I?” “Keefe— I didn’t mean it like—”“No.It's true.” Keefe stands up softly asking“Why?#“Why what?” Fitz looks at the boy confused. “Why did you say yes?” Keefe whispers. “When I asked you to be my boyfriend?”#there were a hundred thousand signs—fifty thousand in one direction—fifty thousand the going the other. A hundred thousand signs...#..each telling him to say no... ...and Fitz still chose yes. There's a pause now before Fitz breathes. He holds Keefe close. Fitz is warm.#“Because I love you.” Fitz says softly sadly when Keefe doesn't know it. “...how?” “You're not unlovable Keefe.” beat. “Fitz..?” “...yeah?”#Fitz holds his breath. “Kiss me.” Keefe tells him and Fitz exhales. The boy turns bright red- leaning in and catching Keefe's mouth in his#And oh. Keefe is so-so beautiful.The way he loves. But isn't everything is?The way he hurts-laughs-lives.Keefe smiles. Fitz smiles. HELL YE#I HATE BEING CONCISE AUGH THE GRAMMAR IM DYING IM OUT OF TAAGS FORMATING WAS PAIN AND I WANNA WRITE MORE SOBS IM AN IDIOT WHYYYYY
27 notes
·
View notes
Text
honey help i've been thinking too much about zora biology again
#zora#breath of the wild#tears of the kingdom#botw#totk#loz#the legend of zelda#myart#disclaimer these headcanons are fully my own#you may use them if you like but they are not based in anything besides my brain#still have to figure out how the whole water sac thing would work with their ribs in the way#hm... maybe their ribs have gaps#i'm not illustrating that nightmare of a thoracic cavity though#or am i#nintendo help
387 notes
·
View notes
Text
Trumpolitics and geopolitical implactions
Grrreeetings my dear students ! I AM RETURNED !!! With another lesson ! This time, some of you made the horrifying mistake of inciting my teaching urge on the geopolitics of trump drooling on Greenland, and I decided I would take a good long look at that AND at other targets of potential expansion for the USA. I am sorry to inform you that memes will be sadly not that present in the first two points, because they're where I put down the structure of this thing. First off, Context ! 1) The Context As you may have seen, Trump has recently been on a tweeting spree about territories he'd like to add to the USA or bring under control in some way. From calling Canada the 51st state to claiming that controlling Greenland was "an absolute necessity", and even making open threats to Panama about taking back control of the Canal of Panama.
And considering what is being looked at, I'm going to add Mexico to the mix, because it's been targeted with threats of invasion-and-or-intervention to deal with the Cartels. 2) The Goals The goals of all these outside operations can fit in a clean-enough categorization : - Security : this is about protecting US security against an external threat, whatever form it may take - Ressource availability : the access to the territory's ressources is important to Trump or his administration - Trade control : the territory offers the ability or potential to control global trade routes Those are the three big geopolitical aims of an expansionist policy in regards to the USA. Other countries, such as Russia for instance, could have demographic aims to counteract a demographic collapse, but that's not the case of the USA. Of course, there's also Trump's personnal goal, common among strongmen : looking like a badass warmaster that does war so good and is so successful, wow, such medal, much military.
3) Oh, CANADA ! Canada, land of snow and forests, maple syrup and poutine, land of the eh and dedicated contributor to the expansion of the Geneva Convention. Trump has been pretty insistent on "joking" about it becoming the 51st State, despite a great many Canadians signaling very loudly that they do not find it funny. On one hand, making insulting jokes about your allies and ignoring their protests and then wondering why you aren't popular is violently American (As a French, I have close to 18 years of personnal experience on that), but on the other, this is Trump, so is it really a joke ? So, what would be the benefits of invading Canada ? Well, they would be many from a geopolitical point of view. It"s just that there are as many, or more, inconvenients. The big question being, will Trump even LOOK at those inconvenients ? But that's for later. First off, resources. Canada is ridiculously resource rich, owing in part to its very large size. I'm sure you've seen a few memes about Americans finding the biggest deposit of X or Y resources at random, well the only reason Canada doesn't do that too is because it is far less populated and its population is far more centralized. But the potential is there, absolutely. And even better, those resources are VERY varied : minerals, hydrocarbons, and absolute fuckton of wood and, perhaps less often thought about, fresh water. So on that front, Canada would undeniably be a very attractive catch. Second, security. Canada would allow the USA control of roughly a third-to-half of the entire Arctic region, allowing extensive protection of the northern flank, something that may be of interest in current times due to how light and under-strength the Canadian armed forces are, which also serves to make it a (seemingly) easy target to occupy. Third, trade control. Oh that's right, Canada has the trifecta. See, with the Arctic melting, the near-mythical North-West passage is opening, allowing for way faster transit from the Bering straight to the Atlantic, and yes this is damn important, the Panama Canal was opened in part because that passage didn't exist, but now it does for longer and longer periods of time, and Canada controls roughly 80 to 90% of its length. And control of that trade route means cash from ships that take it (taxes, maintenance, rescue when need be ...), it's a whole thing. A minor interest, though not put forward by Trump would be the "natural borders" approach, or territory continuity. Basically, considering that Canada is, by its geographical situation, American territory-to-be. That's ... pretty disturbing, and like I said, Trump didn't put it forward, but keep in mind it's part of the debate.
Now, for the inconvenients, which uh ... well they aren't few. First off, Canadians. The "eh" dudes are often represented as passive and friendly and polite, but they are certainly not interested in becoming Americans, especially by force, and considering just how many guns they have, well they have the means to make that displeasure known quite virulently. Which creates an entire administrative mess where they have to decide if they confiscate weapons inside Canada, or only those of Canadians, and what happens in the rest of the US, and what if ... so complicated. Messy. Either way, while the invasion wouldn't necessarily be that difficult (due to smol, US-dependant Canadian forces), the occupation would be WAAAAAAY harder. Especially since Canada is rather big and empty, giving PLENTY of room for partisan groups to spread, hide and ambush anyone that leaves urban centres. Second, Nato. Now, do I think Nato would mount a task force to push US troops out of Canada ? Lmao no, we're way too dependant on US security infrastructure for that. And since so many people still seem to think that, when France tries to push European strategic independance it's actually a French bid for control of the EU or us trying to shill our industries, well I don't see it changing without some major shock, even as things are. Poland does seem to be speedrunning this bitch though, so maybe we can do something there. But no, Nato wouldn't stop the invasion, but the invasion WOULD collapse Nato, and I can already hear the Vatniks and Tankies getting a stiffie just from imagining it.
Nato wouldn't survive because, in this scenario, the most powerful member of the alliance attacks another member. At that point, there's no confidence left, no trust, nothing. And that has ... rather big ... consequences. For instance, Russia feeling entirely uninhibited and allowed to invade as they please. To avoid that, the only option is to have a truly gigantic "fuck off" button, and only one such button exists : the nuclear one. So that's nuclear proliferation going back onto the table and at least half of the eastern part of the EU reaching for nuclear programs. Poland at the very least, Finland most likely can too. And then there's the rest of the World. Unless the French president at the time points out that our nuclear umbrella does actually extend over our eastern allies (it does) and actually manages to convince both Russia and our allies that it's true, and that's where I am profoundly unsure, considering how successful the US has been at propagandizing against France and presenting us as cowardly or unreliable. Remember when I said I had personnal experience with insulting jokes from the US ? At this point, I'm half convinced that the only way to convince Poland and co that we're reliable would be to help them develop nukes or just give them some, which ... same result anyway. So yeah, bad shit right there.
4) The land of LIES Greenland, or Groenland, an autonomous dependency of Denmark. A big place with not that much population. But, here again, geopolitical benefits can be found in taking it over : First off, resources. Though its resources aren't as varied as Canada's, Greenland is still very much a resource-rich place, and global warming makes more and more of those resources accessible, making it a very attractive target indeed. Security is the main reason put forth by Trump, and uh ... well it reveals a LOT in my opinion. See, the main security interest of Greenland is the ability to project control over one of the two main exits of the Arctic sea. With Greenland, Norway and Iceland, an arc is formed allowing control of that exit, as much as such a large span of sea can be controlled. The reason I say it's worrying is because there's already a US airbase there, Pituffik airbase, and Greenland is part of Nato. There's already an entire system in place to counter if the enemy is Russia. So the "absolute necessity" of controlling Greenland would indicate he has another enemy in mind. See why I'm worried ?
Now, would it be difficult to control Greenland ? No, not THAT much, it only has 57 000 people, so occupation wouldn't be too hard, hell, it would even be colonizable fairly easily. You know, the Russian model, displace parts of the local population to send them into the territory of the ethnic majority so as to isolate them, all while bussing in masses of ethnic-majority colonists to fill new jobs created by the occupation. Speaking of, Trump claimed Greenlanders wanted the US there, which contradicts local testimonies and declarations. Hmm, a strongman leader claiming a foreign territory for "security reasons" and saying the locals want his troops there, where have I seen that rethoric before .... Of course, here, we also see the collapse of Nato, with similar, or identical, consequences. It's possible, but rather unlikely in my opinion, that the Danish government could sell Greenland to maintain the illusion of still having Nato, but like I said, I don't buy it. Once again, Nato would have no real way of stopping it, since the US are the big fish in this pond.
And now that we've seen the two scenarios where Nato collapses, what would that mean for the US ? A whole lot of bad, actually. Because, see, if the USA feel free to invade Nato allies, then their military bases become liabilities, pre-established beach-heads from which they can prepare and launch offensives. So that would mean most, if not all, US bases in Europe getting closed damn near overnight, an d a rather difficult to manage diplomatic mess. That could also spook non-Nato countries into kicking out US forces, reducing the power projection capabilities of the US tremendously. Once allied ports would close to their ships, like the many, many, many French and British naval bases spread all around the globe that the US navy can use to resupply, refuel and rest. Airbases would close, forcing longer, more logistically difficult flights ... There's also the breakdown in training agreements, like the agreement that allows US special forces to train in the jungles of Guyane. Bet you didn't know about that. And then there's the military supplies in terms of equipment that becomes uncertain, because yes, the US military doesn't buy exclusively American, for instance they love Thales radars, which are French. And yes, they also buy from other European countries, it's just that since I'm French, I mostly think of French exemples. Fellow Europeans, add in the notes what you country produces that ends up on the US military shopping list ! So yes, while the collapse of Nato would leave Europe damn near butt naked in the face of Russian aggression, with no other option than to go balls to the walls, it would also hamper the US rather severely.
5) Panama, the Canal The Canal of Panama was made by the US, completed in 1914, and apparently Mister Trump wants it back because, le gasp, China allegedly has too much influence on it and, le gasp², US ships pay fees like everyone else. The Canal is, all things considered, the most straightforward option. It has one benefit only : trade control. But considering the location, that benefit is sizeable and long lasting. See, the Panama Canal is a reliable and rather safe option when compared to the intermitent and iceberg-filled Northwest Passage and the shit-weather festival that is the Cape Horn (which can also have icebergs, yay), so it's basically a guarantee for LOADS of maritime trafic. Control of that canal would allow to levy fees and, potentially, block passage to the ships of rival polities, like, say, China. Except China already has routes to feed its products to Europe and Africa that don't go through Panama, and for the eastern part of South America, I can absolutely see them throw a giant wad of cash at yet another pharaonic railway project. Not immediate, but not impossible either. And if it goes into the realm of dick-measuring contests (it will, Trump is involved), Xi absolutely will, on principle.
That doesn't mean control of the Canal isn't interesting, it absolutely is, but it's not AS interesting as he perhaps thinks.
And then there's the issue of Panama not being particularly enthused by the idea, weirdly enough. Would Panama's regular military be able to stop Trump ? Haha, no. I don't have any illusions on that, you don't, and I guarantee that Panama doesn't either. What they CAN do, however, is make it unsufferable to use. Cause collapses, force ships out of alignment to Evergreen it up in this bitch, guerilla-warfare patrols into an early grave, loads of stuff. And they would have volunteers from a lot of Latin America, due to flashbacks of US-backed dictatorships giving motivation to a lot of people.
In short, it would be a forever war for control of a string of water that would quickly end up costing a LOT more, in cash and lives, than it brings. 0/10, do not recommend, would not imperialism.
6) Mexico, Cartel time Ah, the Cartels, Mexico(s number 1 problem, and a big talking point for US conservatives. They have floated the idea of sending the military to deal with them several times, and it was even suggested recently to classify them as terrorists to justify the military intervention.
Here, again ,there's a single interest : security. The idea being that, if you off the drug dealers, then drugs won't be a problem anymore. Surely this simple and obvious reasoning has no flaw to it, right ? Well … First off, Cartels aren't easy to manage, due to how spread out they are. Then there's the fact they are rather heavily armed, which is part of why Mexico hasn't been able to deal with them. Cartel armories include some heavy weapons, and I can GUARANTEE that they've expanded those armories in preparation of a potential US army intervention, and that WILL include US weapons. So if that happen, prepare for the humiliation of losing Abrams tanks to gangers. Moreover, the afforementionned US-based trauma would also awaken here, ensuring that, despite how unpopular they are, the Cartels WOULD receive volunteers to reinforce them, simply on the basis that they'd be fighting an expansionist US.
Now add in that they have people inside the US, not just direct network members, but also affiliates and customers. Those groups are also violent and armed, and can be agitated fairly easily. If the US launch a military attack on the Cartels, I expect those affiliate gangs would mount assault on police precincts at the very least, and based on the performance of US cops at Uvalde and other cases, where they cowered when faced with a SINGLE assault rifle, I wonder how they'd react when faced by many, and potentially outnumbered. Would they all break and run ? No, most likely not. But enough would, since that would most likely happen all over the country. This would create a feeling of insecurity and danger that would be devastating for Trump. It would make him look weak.
So all in all, far from ideal.
7) The Rest of the Consequences
Yeah, I didn't look too much into the global effects … yet. Basically, Expansionist US = massive uncertainty, meaning economic confidence collapses, meaning stock prices go down in many places, economic paranoia blooms, worry takes hold of the planet and, oh would you look at that, a financial crisis. Is it a guarantee ? No, but depending on the scenario it's more or less likely. For instance, if it's the Greenland track, it's unlikely to cause a financial crisis, at least not immediately, it will have to wait until Nato openly and officially collapses (AKA the moment maintaining the charade isn't worthwhile anymore). The other three options though ? Yes. Canada is a major economic player, if it's invaded, economic actors will be scared. An invasion of Mexico is such a gigantic upheaval that it will cause shakeups in the worldwide economic network. And the Panama Canal being seized by a military intervention is basically like collapsing a cliff face into a fjord, the effect will be rapid, devastating and spectacular.
Then there's the loss of soft-power. In the first two scenario, the US immediately lose all credibility as an ally, anyone on their list of ally is informed that they'll be invaded the second it becomes beneficial, AKA an alliance with the US is utterly worthless, or even dangerous, unless you force yourself into a position where invading you is a waste (AKA poverty), and even then, your resources might spark an invasion anyway. In the last two, it erases all efforts made to improve and moralize the US foreign policy, and it severely weakens the diplomatic position of the US. Trump can negociate whatever he wants after that, it won't change the fact that trust in the US will drop severely, and yes that will include European countries.
8) conclusion Now, am I sure that Trump will invade someone ? Yes, but that's a personnal bias. There are no certainty until it's a done deal. It's possible that this is just Trump trying to be relevant, or like one of the linked articles said, trying to create chaos. But I'm not convinced. Trump feels empowered, allowed to do anything he wants. He won't feel like he has to hold back. So he may decide to actually invade a country. Do we have certainty on the consequences of such an invasion ? No, because here I looked only at the invasions and their geopolitical consequences if nothing else changes. The world is a constantly churning mass of variables that interact in exotic and sometimes very roundabout ways. But I think my analysis is solid and credible, and it would take a hell of a change for what I described her to not happen. I guess we'll have to see what Trump decides to do.
#geopolitics#tumblr academy#trump#canada#greenland#panama#mexico#imperialism#that was a long one#seriously#took all afternoon#but hopefully it's helpful#keep in mind this isn't as in depth as it could be#but I don't have the time or energy to write a whole academic paper#but that's the gist of the issue#also#my dear US peeps#I hope this helps to hint at how interconnected your country actually is#feel free to use the content to point out that the “parasite” countries your conservatives love to shit on actually DO help the US#it's frankly insulting how your media keeps representing us as uselessly clinging to your pants#oh well that's how it is#we'll see if the US wake up#I'm not holding my breath#anyway#lesson 4 complete !#See you in the next one !
46 notes
·
View notes
Note
I sent my question in twice over a month ago, did it get deleted or am I just being ignored for some reason?

#Hylia help me I am trying to keep up lads but I am only one person and I work full time and also have a life#I'm sorry if you're out there still awaiting replies I will get to them eventually#I am just frazzled#I have done FOUR HUNDRED POSTS on this account with individual drawings SINCE HALLOWEEN#free me#revali#breath of the wild#age of calamity#tears of the kingdom#legends of zelda#rito#rito village
50 notes
·
View notes
Text
I've started doing breathwork with a biofeedback device as part of a weeks long burnout recovery program, and I'm killing it at resonance breathing (i.e., I have an aptitude for breathing at a rhythm optimal for increasing my heart rate variability).
My therapist asked me if there's anything in particular that's helping me, and I don't know how to tell her that Osamu Dazai having the capacity to control his heart rate is a wildly important plot point in the hit manga Bungou Stray Dogs, and learning that I could also, to an extent, learn to do that was enough for me to put my whole pussy into it.
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd dazai#like i'm sure the singing lessons i took when i was 11 are helping#in that i know how to breathe through my diaphragm#and have had panic attacks and anxiety for my entire life and thus just have lots of practice in having to breathe my way out of shit#but really. when i read the explanation implying i could control my heart rate with breathwork#i just became locked in.#like thank god i need to learn this skill in case i have to rely on cgc#(catgirl communication)
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
☆i have lately been feeling pretty anxious with myself about the pace at which i create. it is difficult to feel like i am doing enough when my peers are doing more, difficult to balance my constant need for attention and admiration with how much "content" i can realistically create at any time, difficult not to be upset when my peers who create more often than i do receive more of the attention i crave than i do - it feels like i have missed a train and i am running to catch up with it. i am not burnt out, far from it, but i fear my light is not bright enough to reach others, i fear i am not doing enough to make it bright enough. does that make sense?
☆in case anyone needs to hear this, though i know this is likely a sentiment expressed many times before by people more eloquent than me, it is okay to not create all the time. it is okay to only create when you feel like it, to be unable to create on a schedule or to meet a self imposed deadline, to be unavailable to create because of obstacles like school or work or home management or disability, to be in a mental valley and be too tired or hurt or in pain to create. it is okay. you are not worth any less because of it. the world is not moving on without you, you will not become irrelevant because you have not posted in a week or cannot find it in yourself to draw something every day. creation is meant to bring joy, not stress, this is not a job, you are allowed to work at your own pace. there are no consequences to suffer for it. no matter what there will always be someone out there who will enjoy it, wholeheartedly. no matter how long it takes for you to create something or if you think you've been forgotten. you are allowed to want your creations to be loved by another. and they will be. rest if you need it
#not meant to be a vent; more introspection than anything ahah#☆💬 / text#i will be so honest a lot of this post is influenced by my feelings recently from living with histrionic personality disorder / HPD#i create because i love to create yes#but i also create because i /need/ to be seen and known & because creating & receiving attention for it is a healthy outlet for my disorder#however it can lead to me slipping into mental patterns of “i need to create More or i will become forgotten & irrelevant”#or “i need to create more so i can be as popular / have as much attention as my mutuals / friends are”#which only stresses me out more and sours one of my Safe coping mechanisms (Not Ideal!)#it's nice to have reminders like this; i am allowed to take a step back and breathe#i'm writing this more for myself than anyone else but i do hope it is helpful to someone else too :)
27 notes
·
View notes
Note
Bro your posts are like a news TV show that we watch daily, cool
Judging by what the crowd finds more interesting... If I'm a TV news channel, y'all like watching TikTok.
#ask response#if you know what I'm saying.#them feds don't even have to work anymore. y'all just give more attention to my made up “opps”#and I feel like Nikita Lytkin's Fuckinnefor persona#or Artyom_Anoufriev_is_mad_as_hell.jpg#and I lowkey lose motivation for a few hours. until I forget kkkkkkk#yapping#okay whatever. deep breaths. I genuinely appreciate y'all and I like seeing the same people come back to my blog over and over#sometimes I just feel like the amount of effort I put in ≠ them notes#but dats alright 😁 I enjoy what I'm doing#although IF it was PURELY for my own pleasure I'd just chill tf out#because I dumped ALL of my other interests for 2 WEEKS in favor of this blog#I hate social media. that you have to post very often to stay relevant and shit. although obviously I literally get NOTHING out of it#not like I WANT to. I'm doing this because I wanna share what I'm interested in and help people#like yeah NO ONE's MAKING me but I'm just a lil crazy and cool like that#okay I'm rambling. the moment of weakness. don't mind me it ain't that deep#I appreciate y'all anyway of course#sometimes I just wonder WHY THEM AND NOT ME#ПОЧЕМУ ОН А НЕ Я?!!! А КОГДА Я ПОЕДУ В ЕГИПЕТ БЛЯТЬ А?!#(I love Russian memes so much)
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
I have said it before and I am saying it again: Ford should get to be a bit of a crybaby when regressed, as a threat 👏
He can unlearn the shame of crying better (speculation/hc since he's a man in his 60s--or late 50s if you want--that grew up in the 60s with a toxic father figure. I don't have a single doubt that Filbrick would've taught his children that. One way or another, even) when he's feeling small.
Plus, rather than supressing his fears, anxieties and etc he could just, let it out. It would be good for him, me thinks.
Yeah obviously it doesn't mean he would have a 180º change in attitude once he's done, and, hell, I think he would still try to supress it even when he's regressed and such, but I think the key difference is that he would struggle more to do so at that moment, and so he would end up in a puddle of his own tears.
And then later the shame comes since "boys don't cry", "men don't cry" and blah blah blah, but ya know, baby steps.
Or if he's with someone else he gets a nice hug and pets while he lets all the stress out.
He gets to be vulnerable, and soft, and to be the protected, as a threat.
#ever cried so hard you suddenly feel like you can breathe again? yeah he would benefit from it me thinks#what would make him cry I don't know#or maybe since he's not in adult mode he could get a bit more overwhelmed with things too#like multiple nightmares in a row#there comes a point where you just want to scream because you want to sleep!!! fuck you brain!!!#and him being little might have a bit of a hard time processing/rationalizing it#if I think about him too much I will be the one crying ough#he should get to be soft and pampered and spoiled a little#he deserves it#I also thought Fiddleford could help him too?#like Fidds is like “it's okay to cry hun just let it out” and so and ough#that could be for another work#I kinda started a series I think so I'm slowly introducing stuff#like in the next one Ford finds out that Stanley knows about his regression and such#Fidds will appear in a future work and etc#agere#age regression#fandom agere#stanford pines#ford pines#gravity falls#gravity falls age regression#gravity falls little space
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
Took me very long in life to realize that when an article about anxiety or whatever says "listening to relaxing music helps :)" it means music that's relaxing to YOU. Not just the usual slow and calm and soft relaxation music. This whole time I was wondering why listening to those didn't do anything, it's because they're not what I personally find relaxing!!
Turns out, if your favorite musician screaming moaning and crying in your ears is what you find relaxing, that's what you should listen to when panicking.
#Good for you if soft calm music helps you! For me it just leaves too much room for my brain to think. Same for breathing exercises.#For breathing I also had to find one that works for me because none of what I usually found worked#For people wondering. It is 3 seconds IN 6 seconds OUT (or a certain amount of seconds in and double the amount out)#My therapist actually taught me that one. Very good!#Panics. Hand me my shovel I'm going in by Will Wood. Am okay. :)
277 notes
·
View notes