#HWST

[vacantgodling]

torturing sjaak by having his wolf self haunt him in his dreams >>

tho, as an aside (to placate the audience in my head and to get meta on some of my shit on main pff), ik there’s probably going to be someone somewhere who is going to take issue with the fact that i relate sjaak’s werewolf transformation with transgenderisms especially since for sjaak in takes a Long Time to become accustomed to it; both to no longer fear the wolf within him itself, and to accept that it’s apart of him. he never grows truly “content” or “euphoric” about the wolf in the same way that a stereotypical trans person may become euphoric about their discovery and gender. and this partially aligns with my own journey with being trans. when i first had the thought that i may be a Guy (and i remember that event so specifically) i immediately tried to disconnect myself from it. i pushed it away so hard but i could still feel the thought niggling around and taking seed and root even as i covered my ears and screamed to drown it out as much as i could. this is on par with the way sjaak especially in the beginning after he’s turned vehemently denies any inclusion he may have with the wolves: dalal always says “we” including sjaak when she talks about being a wolf, sjaak always says “you all” and distances himself from it (as a small example). then, there came the bargaining era: i realized i may be a guy but i wasn’t FULLY a guy yknow—i was genderfluid or like only partially a guy while still a girl like i’m not a guy haha,,,, yeah no i totally love wearing dresses it’s fine… that era. and sjaak does it too: okay, well maybe i Am a wolf in Some aspects but like i can’t fully shift so that’s fine and it’s not that big a deal etc.

but then there’s the final moment where it all sort of. clicks in. tbh i have no explicit memory of when i decided enough was enough i couldn’t take being considered a girl anymore, but sjaak’s going to have a similar ego death when he shifts for the first time. and my entire gender journey (esp in the beginning) has been filled with so much angst both from external and internal sources. and tbh, i don’t think a lot of people talk about the pain and alienation and struggle that does come with understanding you’re not what you “should” be in society’s eyes. a lot of media tends to paint discovering your gender in such a positive and happy light—and while i’m grateful to those depictions it doesn’t really depict my experience where the entire process hurts something deep within you that doesn’t just let up when you “figure it out” — honestly when you figure it out it only makes things feel worse because how do you tell people, will they accept you? how can you live with yourself when that Thing inside you hurts as much as it does, even if it Really Is You.

so yeah, idk man. sjaak’s transgenderisms mean a lot to me because gender is Rough out here man and even tho rn it’s slightly better it still is Rough out here and it’s cathartic writing him suffering through it all bc me too buddy

[blueflare7]

I thought it was eep time

huh wha

[lady-bluebird-luv]

Could I ask for a sneak peek into chapter 3 of hwst? that story is just so yummy I practically have it memorized from all the rereads I’ve done 🤭🤭💗

Welllllllllllllll, since you asked so nicely:

Feyre swung one leg over the ring's fence. "Come on, Princeling," she goaded. "Help me show them how it's done." Sensing eyes on them, Rhys glanced at the resting trainees. They quickly looked back down to the ground. If he lost, some camp lords would question his Carynthian title. If Feyre lost, they'd question whether the stories about her were true. But as far as the beast in his chest was concerned, neither outcome mattered. Anyone who wanted to test either of them would find out the truth soon enough. The beast would be appeased either way, torn as it was between valorizing his mate and pinning her. Win or lose, at least he'd get to play. Rhys climbed into the ring and drew a long, wickedly curved Illyrian sword from the practice rack. In a few months, Devlon's trainees would trade their dulled initiate blades for these, and the real schooling would start. "Do I need to go easy on you?" Feyre asked. "Preserve your reputation?" Rhys grinned. "Funny, I was about to ask you the same thing." Feyre held out a hand, and Rhys tossed a second blade to her, the honed blade glittering as it spun in the sunlight. She was already darting toward him when she caught it.

[shittest-wizard-ever]

Silly Game Time: Firstly, think of a quote you like. It could be because you find it profound, inspiring, or just plain funny. It could be a famous quote by a notable person, or something that a personal aquaintance said to you alone, or a line from a story of any kind.

Secondly, share it with us ... WITHOUT using any vowels!

(For Example: "s nw tht th crcmstnc f n's brth s rrlvnt. t s wht y d wth th gft f lf tht dtrmns wh y re." - Mwtw)

"Gd s dd. Gd wmns dd. nd w hv klld hm. Hw shww w cmfwt wswvs, th mwwdwws f ww mwwdwws? Wht ws hwst nd mwghtst f ww tht th wwwd hs wnd hs bwd t dth ndw w knvs. Wh www wp ths bwd ff s? Wht wtw s thw t cwn wswvs?" - dktrs

If you know this quote from just looking at it you're cooked

[ale-is-the-silliest]

WHATHW WHAT EHAT WHAT WHAT HWST I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR THIS

[3x09x1]

Scary Below

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I just don't want tonMisunderstand If thing Is Bad and Get Scared and People Bash me Or Sometji Because I Cant Understand Thing

= Why am Mildly Scared of Interacting With Fandom Because Hwst If i Misunderstand Thing and It Gets Scary And I get Scared

[tobeckym]

Alright calm down peeps. It's not that serious .

// this anon makes my blood boil, you have no idea

Don't let random Internet anons dictate ur emotions it's not worth it.

They xant hjbm amd say hwst theu want amd so can u.

[fishg1ll]

I know drugs and meds affect each other but when people say that I think they usually refer to hardcore drugs with hardcore meds

But I’ve always wanted to test hwst they’d do by themselves, or in smaller drugs. Weed and a casual pain killer. Nicotine and some heartache meds. Etc. Yk?

[korrektheiten]

Die Sicht des Katholischen – Zum Ableiben Seiner hwst. Exzellenz Vitus Huonder

katholisches.info: Von Don Michael Gurtner* Wenn der Herrgott eines Menschen Namen ausruft, und über dessen gottgegebenes Leben sein großes Amen spricht, so steht es dem gläubigen Katholiken an, in einer Haltung von Ehrfurcht und Dankbarkeit inne zu halten, die abgeleibte Seele mit Gebeten zu ihrer letzten großen Prüfung, dem Gerichte Gottes zu begleiten, und ihr die ... http://dlvr.it/T55yNr

[evilherehotel]

WH?? HWST???? BUH????

one's broadcast 3 definitely happened

[darlinimamess]

HELP HWSTS THE NEW LINE

[vacantgodling]

author ask tag 💛

thanks for tagging me @mjjune 💛

What is the main lesson of your story?

i’ll answer all of these for my 3 main wips cuz i don’t wanna pick just one fhdjfjf

PARAMOUR… hm. it’s better to be yourself in a world that hates you than to conform to that world and lose yourself in the process, i think. community and relying on others also and trying to do everything alone only hurts yourself more. you need community in some way, it makes you stronger.

BTAF is actually very straightforward: you are allowed to make your own decisions and live your own life and not only should other people not make those decisions for you, you can’t make them for other people.

HWSTS is all about self acceptance. you know yourself better than anyone else and don’t let anyone try and take that from you. tm.

What did you use as inspiration for your worldbuilding?

in general i really enjoy fantasy and history and pretty much all of my wips combine elements of those two things.

i tend to take a historical vibe of some kind (paramour: french rococo, btaf is literally historical fiction and it takes place in europe 1800s, hwsts: mongolian steppe culture a la ghengis khan era which is like the 1100s? i believe) and then i mesh it with a fantasy element (paramour: steampunk and eldrich entities, btaf: werewolves and vampires, hwsts: general magic and witches). and then i add in a heap tone of commentary and sort of shape the narrative around those elements. (ie: in paramour: hya is himself irregardless of how others see him including in his gender presentation, so i made a complex system around how genders work in galere as well as based a religious minority sect on a perversion of those ideals; in btaf: the physiology of werewolves and vampires is literally shaped around the theme of prochoice, who gets a choice and who doesn’t and what that means for everyone involved; in hwsts: gender expression is khizzy’s entire arc, so having the gods in his world be genderless and being locked Into a gender due to culture so he can figure out his way around it are important to the story).

i don’t think i’ve ever sat down and wrote that out before so sorry for the ramble but yeah tbh i think this is how i build most of my wips lol.

What is your MC trying to achieve, and what are you, the writer, trying to achieve with them? Do you want to inspire others, teach forgiveness, or help the reader grow as a person?

in general i’m not super interested in the idea of trying to teach anyone anything through my wips—if you get something from it, great! but for me, my wips are more about me exploring myself and how i feel about things. they’re all complex love letters and philosophical debates i have with myself that i just let other people read cuz i’m vain 🤪 however to go into more depth:

hya’s main goal in paramour is to have everyone leave him the fuck alone. yes, i am so fucking serious that is his goal HFJDHD. his entire life has been spent being a puppet on a million people’s strings and he’s just ready to cut all the cords and be left alone, however life (me) have other plans for him. hya is definitely an interesting character to me because he is somehow one of the Least curious mcs i have (he only does the plot because amon and aloe drag him through it if left to his own devices he would absolutely Not deal with any of this shit—but that speaks on the community thing i was talking about earlier. because hya cares about aloe and eventually amon he puts himself in uncomfortable situations at their behest because they ask it of him, even if he’d never say it like that). i think i really wanted to create a character with hya, that was purely of my own indulgence; of how i wish i could be as a person and sort of a manifestation of how i do internally feel when trying to deal with other people. and having someone purposefully want to get to know me (or hya) despite all of his faults, and realizing there is value in putting effort into relationships even if there isn’t a 1:1 return on them is probably also where i was going. also he’s hot. HDHDHD i also just made him to be eye candy im not even sorry.

sjaak’s goal is to be reunited with biscella and to pull a jay gatsby “you can repeat the past”—but just as gatsby learned there’s sometimes just no turning back time or picking up where things were left off. sjaak in general is a character chiseled out of his grief, and i think some part of me wanted to draw some attention to the part of my inner self that is plagued by the what ifs; what if i never broke up with them, or didn’t lose that relationship, or tried to do this and tried to do that. but in the most ass-backwards way ever, sjaak gains strength he didn’t know he had from his experiences and will (somehow LMAO???) overcome the grief and loss that he feels and accept his new reality and new normal. i think we all spend a lot of our early 20s especially just thinking about all the shit we did wrong or should’ve done differently and dwelling on the past doesn’t really.. change anything. so ig my goal with sjaak is to be a sort of, yes that experience traumatized you and has an affect on you, but you can still grow and see the things you have in life now that you wouldn’t have had otherwise. I SAY ALL OF THIS—but trust me btaf is not that straightforward and neither is sjaak’s arc like you gotta Squint to see it but i’m okay with that. cuz my other goal with his character is the very visceral ending 💛

khizzy is literally just my journey to accepting being a trans guy but make it a neglected elder brother who is at his fucking limit about it. similarly to sjaak and hya it definitely is speaking to some unhealed part of me who had to struggle a bit to find footing in accepting myself but with khizzy it’s more about learning to seek joy and being happy with oneself instead of the angst fests of the other two lol.

How many chapters is your story going to have?

paramour’s original outline had 27 chapters but becuase i am (technically) redoing it it may end up being like 30… ish?

i have no idea with btaf, it will have 20 acts though so… take of that what you will

same thing with hwsts i think it’ll probably be like 25-30 since that seems to be the sweet spot for me but i haven’t really planned anything out for it beyond chapter (1), the overall plot, and this language in it HDHDHD

Is it fanfiction or original content? Where do you plan to post it?

all original 💛 honestly i dont know where i plan to post any of it cuz i haven’t gotten to the point where i *need* to think about it (aka nothing is close to done). i think i’d love if btaf was serialized just bc i would love to see people lose their minds about it in a play by play fashion. and serial stuff is kinda becoming the new thing and i can get behind it so. maybe that? idk. i’ll definitely be making physical copies for myself at the bare minimum tho

When did you start writing?

as a wee lad. my first oc i made when i was 3 and id been making characters for years and i always loved writing but i didnt start making like BIG projects until i was like 12?

Do you have any words of encouragement for fellow writers of writeblr? What other writers do you follow?

my biggest thing is write what you want to read. like literally don’t care about what anyone else wants to read because there IS an audience out there for you. what matters is that you enjoy your work, that you’re excited to think about it and read about it and work on it. your excitement is contagious so really bank on it. you’ll find your people, you just have to become your own people first. basically.

and i follow a lot of cool people so here’s a big ol list (and also do this too if u want no pressure!)

@multi-lefaiye @kudzucataclysm @void-botanist @ink-flavored @henrike-does-writing-sometimes @zeenimf @magic-is-something-we-create @galactic-mystics-writes @sarahlizziewrites @alexanderflowerbird @theskeletonprior @sergeantnarwhalwrites & anyone else who’d like to do this :3c

[lady-bluebird-luv]

ok, but, hear me out: HWST Feysand seducing young naive Prince Tamlin for funsies and political intrigue.

Hind!Feyre definitely would love to make Rhys jealous...

[royalwriteroftheuniverse]

You show get her a glove for paws thst goes inbetween toes and give her a stylist and have ptu thebstykis between the towes and see hwst happens lmao

[thruthisnight]

i want a big bath too wtf

[megurus-left-toe]

im going to sob hwst is this

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MY FRIEND SENT ME THIS SCREENSHOT YESTERDAY

I THOUGHT THEY WERE JOKING BUT THEY KEPT SAYING WEIRD SHIT LIKE "I'm brewing something teehee" AND THEN

THEY SENT ME THIS TODAY

I'm gonna go check it out

@starsnumber1charliefan We have a common enemy now