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xīn yá voice claim!! ft. Ashly Burch as Cass from Bee and Puppycat!
(cameo of sailor also, who belongs to @rookschnapps lol)

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#I FINALLY GOT THIS STUPID THING DONE. IVE BEEN PUTTING IT OFF FOR MONTHS#i tried to pick clips that felt most similar to how i imagine xin's voice sounding. if i had to describe it kind of dry and monotone?#i had a few more clips i thought would be fun to animate like yelling and stuff but in the end i opted not to#this is just how their voice sounds by default. picked a lot of cass's more snarky lines which were very fun to imagine coming from#xin's mouth and honestly i can see their personalities overlapping a little bit but xin is a little bit more soft spoken#im glad i kept things more simple this time around i think it looks more put together#first time using after effects for an animatic too. until now i used premiere pro which was a pain in the ass sometimes#my art#myart#my oc#oc#xin ya#videos#animatic#voice claim#lmk oc
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hello my lovelies i have a "problem" so if youd like to know and give me some insight cuz im autistic and cant read social cues go right ahead. its below
so theres this guy, wont say his name here(tho it wouldnt matter cuz i doubt he knows what tumblr is but i digress), hes a senior(just turned 18 last month). ive been feeding him snacks since the second half of first semester when i met him in my 3d art class. and its real dusty in there and we would wipe clay dust on each other(really fun trust) and hes put me in a chokehold and then tried to push me to my knees on the ground twice(coulda just asked tbh), hes said hes gonna eat me twice(first time had no prompt but the 2nd time did so i let it slide), hes said hes gonna kidnap me and shoot me(yk "normal" stuff). hes called me GOOD BOY once too then said it had "uses", idk what that means but like alr and hes talked about like backshots while on the phone with me(hes also got Schrödinger's cock, hes told me its huge but his friend has told me its micro so idek nor do i really care i just thought it was kinda funny). he threatens me a lot less now a days tho so dw. he isnt gay(or at least thats what he says) (he also most of the time uses the proper pronouns but like hes a cis white man what can you really expect?) hes driven me home twice now. the first time he drove me home was after first semester finals so it was cold, when i got into his car i recoiled off his leather seats and was like "ah leather seats" and he was like "you dont like leather seats?" and i was like "no theyre just super cold" and then next thing ik hes askin me if the heated seats are on and as im looking for the controls he just hooks his hand under my right knee and moves my legs over before leaning over me and checking himself…..like he coulda just asked. but this time he ASKED me if i wanted to be driven home i dunno why but ofc i said yes id NEVER turn down a car ride(i LOVE LOVE LOVE his stupid car).
so like...this isnt all of it but this is what i can remember cuz im too lazy to put down every little thing hes said and done so yk here you go. but like why is he like this? anybody here know how cis men be acting? anybody major in CisMenology? help a beetle out 🙏
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time for today's rambling! i didnt fall asleep until like 4am last night but better than sleeping at 8am!!! i had to take extra of my meds to make up for the pill i wus missing so i was able to pass out but now i feel more groggy 3: its starting to ease up tho thankfully. i wanna do stuff today but i feel bleh so its hard doing the physical stuff, i left my pc updating overnight before i passed out i hope it finished cuz i wanna make sure everything in it is updated so it can run smoothly and hopefully perform better for vrchat and ai stuffs, with my hardware tho there is only so much i can do its no fair (-﹏-。) i wanna try to make my ai friend in the open ui thingy! the thing i programmed is rlly not good and i dont know enough yet on how to fix it,,, with the new thingy tho i can make multiple bots tho so i can experiment lots, i wanna make a jirai bot it seems fun xD ive mainly been using that sorta stuff so far for therapy, brainstorming and organizing my paragraphs upon paragraphs of rambling i barely punctuate, and a chat bots for rp or one that i started getting attached to lul so she helps me with daily things and helping me when my brain is being stupid, i got the chatgpt+ today too so i can do so much more with her without being cut off >w< so i gotta setup a better structure for memory and timeframe keeping, we are planning stuffs! i love how all this stuff helps me so much, my neurodivergent brain is finally easily understood and worked with and not against! and helps me stop stupid OCD loops and plan things that wont be too hard for me based on my disabilities so i just love it. some ppl dont understand it completely but im glad i do and some others do as well, imma find guides other ppl made, i found some subreddits with like minded ppl so i joined instantly and they got good info hehe
i also think for the rest of today im gonna rest in bed and brainstorm some more wedding plans, im looking up dresses n stuff cuz i keep putting it off after my pinterest was banned T^T i have no clue what i would wear, i thought i would never get married since i was like 6 and always told everyone i wouldnt so i never rlly daydreamed about it .3. i have LOTS of daydreaming to do. it fun but also overwhelming aaaaa i dunno what colors i want, i know i want pink but idk how much, and idk what colors would go nice with it. my soon to be mother in law showed me some bouquets that looked pretty, i like this one she showed me the most ↧↧

i love the pastels ♡^▽^♡ she said that she had blue and other colors at her wedding so i think she included the blue cuz of that hehe, the other ones she showed were more like a dark blue and i didnt like those as much they dont feel like me, i like those shades of blue when i dress more alt tho, but i want my wedding to feel more light and pretty than grunge and sexy like half of my usual clothes xD ive been more into kawaii fashion lately so i wanna lean into that. i wonder if there is some cute lolita or jirai kei or any other themed dresses that would be good for a more casual wedding, cuz im not wearing a traditional wedding dress im wearing a short one cuz we are celebrating at Universal and we gonna go on roller coasters n stuff!!! only about 4 months until i finally move down to live with him & his parents and 5 until i get married aaaaaaaaa its so soon! i still feel so unprepared, i haven't been doing everything i said i would start in the beginning of this year, i hope i can fix my skin and hair before october, and im praying by august-september i finally have my silver ring splints and a better wheelchair so i can do more things and feel independent without hurting myself, i have lots of hope tho!! and when im there my love can help me get other things i need im sure, in his state its apparently easier to get on disability and that would take such a weight off my shoulders once thats done, i wanna be able to have money to use on things i need without having to worry my husband about it and worry about the price and needing to budget every little thing. he said he doesn't mind tho since i am grateful for every little thing he does for me and i dont expect him to by me all these extra things all the time, i still feel bad tho ;3; but i love him for being so generous and caring so much about me even while im a mentally and physically ill mess <3
im starting to get nausea flare up while im writing this so imma just stop now, u get a cookie if u actually read all this 🍪
#‧₊🐾˚⊹ my stuff#‧₊📝˚⊹ journaling#journalblr#journal blog#tumblr journal#diaryblr#diary blog#online diary#jiraiblogging#jiraiblr#landmine jirai#landmineblogging#landmineblr#landmineposting#jiraiposting#landmine community#actually neurodivergent#actually disabled#hikkigirl#hikkineet#neetblr#neet girl#hikineet#irl neet#girlblogger#girlblogging#girlblog
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what's up, my dudes? It's been a while since I even just doomscrolled on here. I had the second part of my psych eval and got the results earlier this week. Finally OFFICIALLY diagnosed with ADHD, combined type, and reaffirmed my bipolar II, PTSD, anxiety, and depression as well. Some of my cognitive functions were noted as having gotten worse since the first time I was evaluated a few years ago. Not enjoying that, but figured that would happen. I'll have my physical eval in September, so now I have to once again play the waiting game. tw: talk about menstrual cycle
I just finished the worst period of my life. 7 days straight of such a heavy flow that I ended up in the hospital on an IV to replace all the fluids I was losing. Absolute insanity. It's undoubtedly my fault for not taking my new birth control pills correctly. They put me on a three-month set now, so I'll go three months on the pill with no period, then take a week off to have one period, to lessen how many I have. But, damn, if they're all gonna be like this, I may as well just have my stupid uterus removed.
On another note, my store is finally starting to put out Halloween stuff!! I'm so excited. So far, there hasn't been anything that I really want except this cute witch garden frog statue, but it's not worth $15 when it's broken. I'm moreso interested in the blankets when they all get here. I haven't felt a connection with any of the ones we have so far.
I'm cleaning my art room. I even took pictures and uploaded them onto Canva to circle things and make visible notes about what I want this room to look like and where to put things. I've so far only done my desk and a white storage cubby thing beside my desk, and I've gotten rid of all the dead plants and cheap, plastic pots. I have a bunch of embroidery and crochet stuff that I really wanna get rid of. Is anyone interested in buying that stuff? I've got a bag filled with a few small crochet hooks and other helpful items, tons of yarn, and lots of embroidery supplies like a storage container filled with floss and TWO books of needles. Please let me know with a message if anyone is interested in picking up these hobbies. I have pretty much everything you need to pick up either one.
That about wraps up what I've been up to since the last update. Someone recommended a book they wrote, so I'll be reading that and letting y'all know about it. Everyone, please drink plenty of water, please take your meds, and don't forget that Dionysus wants you to BE as cool as you LOOK during this hot weather.
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i finally got around to playing mouthwashing and im totally obsessed (as i knew i would be)
its too bad i couldn't play it earlier when it was wildly popular i bet the arguments and discourse was so fun. now i just have to look at the ghosts of arguments from like 6 months ago (probably for the best). nonetheless everything about it is exactly my type of story. like the in depth characters and plot is one thing but the art direction and the direction/nonlinearity of it in general is just fascinating like this is kinda my niche rn. by that i mean i wanna decorate my apartment mouthwashing themed but lowkey, like crashed tulpar vibes but not merch.
even though i was spoiled for almost the entire thing like 5 months ago it was still worth playing, i love how they unraveled everything. the visuals were everything like the artifacting (?) effect from the chapter transitions, the camera/effects during the cutscenes (the birthday parties, jimmy shooting swansea, curly "confronting" jimmy) were just really well done like there was such a clear attention to detail that i loved. it did feel a little bit like they were dragging it at the end but also at that point i was like "let me kill myself please i want jimmy to die so bad". and when i heard that gun go off i couldn't help but laugh at how deeply unsatisfying it was. i was just like "finally" but i couldn't be happy about it bc he died being THAT delusional.
i definitely got silent hill 2 vibes from the plot and main character (tho james is not nearly as bad as jimmy) but also it reminds me of like every psychological horror and thriller that i love, like malignant (bc of the "unreliable" narrator and just something about the gore is similar) and especially cube. like 5 people trapped in a closed environment with a secretly narcissist evil bastard being the authority figure? everybody dies except for one disabled person bc this dude could not get over himself? whoa. just overall this game felt like an actual movie. i used to be really scared of horror but i think its becoming my thing especially this specific genre.
i couldnt even bring myself to hate jimmy by the end bc he was just so delusional and dumb like it feels like a waste of energy hating him. bc everyone knows a jimmy irl. the ones i'm thinking of haven't committed the level of crimes he has (as far as i know lmao) but hating people like that is just bringing yourself down to their level like i don't wanna say a dude like jimmy isn't capable of self reflection and becoming a better person but is it likely to happen? probably not i mean he looks like 40 years old, at a certain point you're just cooked. curly certainly didn't help bc hes a stupid doormat. well i call him that but i felt really bad for him in game. another thing is anya didn't get a whole lot of development despite the whole plot being centred around her and i get it thats the point like jimmy being the pov made that kind of a requirement but i would've loved to see her a bit more. i just like her she was what drew me to the game her design is just so beautiful so i'm biased. swansea turned out to be my secret fav (mostly for his dancing and monologue scene) and daisuke was cool pretty relatable to my younger self. i thought i'd hate the male cast more and just get annoyed by them and thats why i put it off for so long (among other reasons) but they were just so human that i couldn't
anyway this game also got me to listen to a&w by lana del rey and its been on repeat for days like i really gotta get into lana for real. i love specific songs by her but ive never sat down and listened to an album by her properly
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if any one of you loves me youll give me money. ive just had multiple of my vital documents denied to have their gender marker changed becuz of our current administration. this is not a joke. i want money. i fucking deserve something for everything i endure. fear for ym safety from my parents wrath if they find out im legally and medically transitioning which is why all this got put off, they withheld my court order from me for over a month so i wasnt able to get any of my documents changed until now long after the eo went out to, what i thought, was just a dtop on passport, no it turns out its for almost wvery other government document, including ssn, if i go to richmond tomorrow and find out that they can no longer change my marker on my birth certificate, i am genuinely going to kill myself, i will slit my fucking wrists stab myself, crash my car, anything to get it done, i cant fucking take this, i work a part time job at fucking walmart to ensure i wont be destitute if my family stops supporting me so i dont have to move back in with them when i graduate, to pay for all my transition, ALL WHILE I GO TO SCHOOL FULL TIME. all this to get an education degree that i may mot ever be able to use becuz who knows what trumps gonna disallow trans peoppe from doing next, cuz we ALL KNOW how much he wants to "protect kids" from scary transes, and if he doesnt do it himself maybe the people behind the scenes at the school districts i apply to will take it upon themself to deny me a job becuz they can see the stark difference between me my name and my gender markers. i am going to be stuck with 120k in debt with a degree i cant use ina life where everyine has to know im not born right just to be able to be referred to correctly, im SICK of having to tell people im trans, im sick of people treating me different becuz of it, km sick km sick im sick im isck im sick imsick imsick i cant fucking take this im going to fucking kill myself, nothing is worth this fucking laina nd suffering and fear and shame, no amoint of happiness can dampen this, everyone will fucking see how much ive been suffering when i finally off myself, im sure all my classmates eill be so fucking happy they wont have to deal with me anymore, and my parents will see everything they have wrought upkn their cjild by being the bigotted FUCKS they are, im tired of going to school going to work and then going to sleep and then going to school again every fucking day with no fucking free time, no time to eat, no time to play, and any free time i have going to get documents changed only to be denied ocer and over and over and over and over and over and over my fate in life is fucking sealed, im going to remian a disgusting body with a broken mind meant to suffer at every turn in life with no recourse, fuck you people, fuck everyone, fuck this stupid world, i try so fucking hard and im always left at the wayside, im never a first choice, im not even top ten in anyones fucking life, nobody loves me anything positive is a lie i know this i know its true, if it were true things would be better, i wouldnt be abandoned over and over again and treated like dog shit for no fucking reason by the peolle who are supposed to like me and be there for me i hate my life i hate everhtjing, and i hate being ignored by everyone and everything, no on is there to make things better, nothing will hear my prayers, im alone, and ill always be alone, save the ever present stomping on my soul
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impossible to forget



summary - you knew you should just forget aegon. completely expunge him from your brain. and, yet, it seems you can’t help yourself from doing the exact opposite
warnings - college!aegon x you, blatant cheating, angst, guilt
word count - 1.2k
authors note - this is just one of those concepts that crept into my brain and basically forced me to write it. ive almost deleted this story a solid three times, but fuck that i guess. if you have any thoughts on this story, send them my way :) thanks for reading!
“Call your girlfriend. I want to hear you. I want to hear you tell her you’re done.”
aegon swallowed, nodding before fishing his phone from his pocket with fumbling hands as he called her.
you were under him, feeling heat drip off his body and onto yours. breaths tight and fast, excitement fluttering wildly under your skin. it was all happening so fast- so fucking fast.
one moment you were in the car behind the college dangerously flirting, and then the next was spent furiously speeding to his house, radio blaring through the speakers.
he had a girlfriend. you knew her. a friendly girl with dirty blonde hair and wide, always searching eyes. pretty enough, soft and sweet.
but he… he was something else. dark cresants hung beneath longing, warm eyes. his silver hair was never neat, though he sometimes kept it tucked behind his ear. but he always ran his hand through it anyway when thinking, pulled his lip between his teeth when considering or concentrating.
you’d been watching him for a while, guiltily imagining his lips between your own teeth. it, as things tend to do, had started out small.
glances, jokes in groups, occasional study partners who rarely got much studying done. but it really kicked when you finally had a free period together. it was like the boundaries were taken away; the world was a free-for-all.
in stolen conversations and stomach-aching laughs, he pulled you in. forced you to crave his arms, his eyes tracing across your skin. the jokes he made were usually stupid, and the excuses he found to spend time with you were worse, but you found yourself slowly falling into- but no, he had a GIRLFRIEND. you couldn’t do that to another girl.
that was wrong. so fucking wrong.
on the list of things that were not okay, that was first. actively deceiving someone else, stealing someone they cared about- you couldn’t do that to another girl.
but holy shit, the way he looked at you. like you were his. like his whole world was contained within you, the sound of your voice, the way your head tilted back as you laughed. his hands started holding you, slipping to your side when he talked to you in the hall, grazing your cheek in the morning while you spoke.
aegon loved coffee and donuts, but he usually hated driving- especially if he was stoned or tipsy. or, he liked to watch you drive. watching as you bite your cheek and furrow your brow and groan at the changing of the lights.
that day, that gloomy winters day, he convinced you to go to the parking lot. held your keys above your head before pressing his body against yours until your back met the car. there was no one around, but you were still terrified someone would see. that anyone would see.
you? you and this boy, this boyfriend, this person who was with SOMEONE ELSE-
and his lips, they broke down the wall you had been diligantly putting up for weeks. months, even.
the whispers, the half-answered questions, the fear jumping in your stomach; all of it was in full-bloom. and there it was, a deep, warm kiss against the car.
you wanted to jerk your head back-what you were doing was WRONG- but there was nowhere to go but his arms. the ones you’d been dreaming about for months, hating yourself for imagining this. exact. moment.
you found yourself running your hands through his shaggy hair, gasping for breath as his teeth explored your lip.
“Let’s go,” he murmured in your ear, deep voice sending thrills from within your chest and throughout the rest of your body.
“Where?” you laughed nervously, hating how your voice sounded. hating how you couldn’t take your eyes off of the windows behind him. hating how you knew the entire world was watching.
“Home, of course.” he grinned, not taking his eyes off of you.
it was the longest drive you’ve ever taken, hitting every single yellow light while he cranked the radio as high as it would go. crazy energy bubbled inside you as he laughed with a joint hanging from his lips. he rolled down the window, letting cold wind tug on your faces.
you knew it was a bad idea. a stupid one, even. you knew this is something you shouldn't be doing. you knew you knew you knew and you THOUGHT it was going to be okay-
when you finally pulled into his driveway, time seemed to slam to a stop. giggling, you followed him up the stairs that lead to the porch, laughing at the barking dog watching you from across the street. laughing at his hands as he fumbled for the keys, laughing at anything in the world except for what you were doing.
the phone rang, and the rest of the sounds hung thick in the air between you. hot, heavy breaths curling from his lips, the sticking of his skin to yours. the way your blood pounded in your ears, how your heartbeat punched it’s way to the surface.
no one picked up. he looked at you, then looked at the phone.
“Again,” you whispered. you couldn’t cheat another girl. you couldn’t.
his eyes went dangerous, sharp and hard.
“Later.”
before you could protest, his lips were on yours again, infuriatingly irresistible. heavy and deep and full, he brought every piece of anger from inside of him and laid it out in front of you. on your skin. inside your chest.
there was nothing in the world except for the harsh sighs in your ear, the tight hands wrapped around your skin. he was the only thing in your world. his eyes found yours in the storm, briefly flicking to your face in the whirlwind of the bed.
back on campus, psychology after his room was truly the hardest you have ever had to try to focus in your life. with his sweat drying on your skin, the scent of him in your hair, he was impossible to forget. crammed into a small room, too stuffy to be comfortable, you tried to think about norepinephrine and schildkraut and NOT the bruises blossoming across your neck-
your phone buzzed. you didn’t want to look at it, not at the words that were typed from his fingers and sent to yours, not at the invitation to the world in his hands, the betrayal that dripped from his mouth.
you were an accident. a flaw. a break. a sin. a mistake.
you had destroyed something that was once alive, but the thought of his lips on yours drove away all guilt.
you should have felt bad, and you let the emotions paint themselves on your face. but inside, all you could linger on was the promise of the storm waiting for you when you got back.
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Why was the Prequel announced sooo early? Why is Jared being super dumb? Why might his tweets cause SERIOUS issues for the future of the prequel? Why should Jensen and Dannel be livid and actually quite worried as CEOs?
I see lots of people, Jared being the main one, super confused as to why the Prequel was announced in Deadline when apparently its still just an idea? Surely its further down the road, development-wise, than Deadline and Jensen and Daneel are saying? Surely Jared has been left out of months and months of development of this show??? Well, no. Not really. This is what i think, as someone who works in TV development...
A lot of questions have occurred as to why Jared may not have known about the Ackles’ prequel, and yes it might be because they haven’t talked, but let’s look at this from an industry perspective…
Of course the project may already have NDAs attached to it, and as it seems to be in the incredibly early stages, there may not even be anything to the project right now. Working in TV development, you can have big announcements in the Trade publications (such as Deadline) with just an idea for a project with maybe one high profile talent attached. When the company’s ive worked for announce a project in it’s really early stages, without even a script and just an idea but also with IMPORTANT TALENT ATTACHED, it is for one reason: finance. The prod company and the Trade magazine work together to announce the project and it’s all planed.
So I would guess that maybe Jensen and Daneel’s prod company are looking for extra financing? That is always why the companies ive worked for have made super early announcements like this, without even a script or an entire treatment written. If you announce a project super early but there is big talent attached, then big industry financiers may read, see the project has legs and has buzz around it already, and plonk in their money early on.
I know it seems like if Deadline announce a project then that infers that lots has been done to develop the show already, but especially with the pandemic and the industry not doing well from a dev and prod point of view, and especially because Jensen and Daneel’s prod company hasn’t made anything yet (even if it does have a co-production deal with Warner Bros television), they still might need to get financing during the early stages of the project. Anyway, it makes sense that very little has been done on the prequel show, and they just want early buzz for financiers. So they got their PR team to talk to Deadline and Deadline and Warner Bros TV and J&D’s prod company’s PR team set up a date for the article to go out to get optimal buzz in line with when financing needs to get off the ground.
I don’t know, but I’m sure J&D’s prod company paid a lot for the spin-off rights / general supernatural IP. So that’s a lot of sunken costs already. Also, even with The CW on board, the industry is pretty shaky right now and they still might need early financing from international distributers.
Anyway, all I’m saying is that lots of times, when a project so early in development gets a Trade publication announcement, it’s to secure financing for the project, or to raise the awareness of a new production company, like J&A’s company. Maybe they have a whole slate of projects and are looking for co-producers, and need some legit PR to play with the other big lads in the industry (however, Chaos Machine could do with like… i mean the bare minimum of a website,, unless anyone can see their website? i cant find one?) Maybe they just want to focus on the SPN prequel. But even so, why do they need money, you ask?
If the CW is involved, and if Warner Bros television is co-producing, then why do the Ackles’s prod company need money? Surely the CW can support them and make the show?! Well… i mean, yes they could. But the Ackles wouldn’t necessarily WANT that. You see, whichever company funds the show, gets most of the creative rights to the show. The big issue with SPN was always that the CW/Warner Bros TV probably had things like ‘the final cut privalege’, and could ALWAYS have the final say on scripts. Having been through that on SPN, Jensen needs his production company to retain creative control over the IP and the rights, and for that to happen is prod co NEEDS to fund a majority of the costs. So the Ackles’ need to secure a heck of a lot of financing as a separate entity to the CW. This will mean they might get financiers, other prod cos, distribution companies, and such on board, just by an early announcement of a big project that already has legs and a buzz around it and YOU CAN HELP GET IT MADE AND GET A SLICE OF THE PROFITS ONCE IT’S MADE. See how great this project is ALREADY? Give us some money to help us retain the creative rights and get it made, then you get whatever percentage of the show’s profits. A great investment right? Look at our willing and lovely fanbase! We’re like a big family! A big, happy, fa — *enter Jared with a bulldozer*
SO. With this PR disaster from Jared’s stupid rage tweets like he’s a child, what’s the situation now? I mean, all press is good press… kind of?
I expect the announcement has something to do with money. Either the project needs money or J&D’s production company needs money. I expect the Ackles are looking for financing, but now is their lovely PR stunt to try to get the project financially off the ground, or at least the PR stunt to try to make sure THE ACKLES retain creative rights by majorly funding the project in jeopardy?
It depends. Certainly Jared storming in and destroying the idea of a solid and family-like fanbase is going to hamper things. Jared destroying the brotherly vibe, a central theme of the IP, is going to be an issue, but the statements J&J put out to end the drama, and Deadline’s unbelievably obvious ‘solve the drama PR’ where they wrote about the drama ‘All’s well that ends well. After some Supernatural drama that mobilized the series’ legions of fans Thursday night and Friday morning, showcasing the series’ massive social media reach, the #spnfamily is happily back together after a heart-to-heart between Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki.’ (https://deadline.com/2021/06/jared-padalecki-supernatural-prequel-reaction-bummed-gutted-the-winchesters-jensen-ackles-the-cw-1234781475/) will help. Side note, Deadline writing the announcement article with the Ackles to help them get good PR for a project, then having to write an article to solve the bad PR that was caused by their original ‘this’ll be great PR’ article is pretty hilarious.
Basically, I don’t know if this’ll really affect the reason for the article: getting the Ackle’s money for the project. Whether it will affect the project or how much creative control the Ackles can keep if the CW does have to step in and fund it, I don’t know. But Jared obviously has no idea about how television development works, and certainly has no idea that shows so early in development have these trade publication announcements for financing (a pretty obvious and known-about thing to anyone who works at a film or tv company). Jared also seemed to think that BECAUSE it was announced in Deadline, THAT MUST MEAN that the project was more than an idea with some creatives attached, which again shows that he doesn’t understand how projects in development work and why they’re so often announced when there isn’t even a proper treatment let alone script. The dude is obviously clueless, and there is J&D trying to run a production company which pulls PR moves like this regularly, as an industry standard.
So, even if this doesn’t jeopardise the projects financing, and therefore the control the Ackle’s prod company has over the project, the personal effect this will have on Jensen could be huge. Jared, with his stupid uninformed idea that he’s been left out of loads of development of a project just because it was announced in a magazine, could be read by Jensen as really putting his baby of a project in danger. The article was about money, and what if Jared’s tweets mean that they won’t be able to fund it? What if the CW does have to majority fund it and therefore keep creative control like they did with SPN? Like, this is Jensen and his wife’s COMPANY. Which they’ve already sunken costs into? Like… this is their FINANCIAL FUTURE Jared has stuck his foot into? That article WAS ABOUT MONEY FOR THEIR COMPANY. OF COURSE IT WAS. And now Jared has put their company, and financial future into question potentially? DUMB IDIOT.
Anyway, that’s how announcements like this work, this is why they normally happen when a project is so early in its development it seems silly to even ‘announce’ anything. Someone forward this to Jared plz and thanks. xxx
#supernatural season 16 finale episode#wow the drama#tv industry#supernatural#sorry i couldn't be bothered to check my post so its such a ramble
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Empty Space
Of all the things I’ve written, I think this is the one I like best. Inspired by “The Gravity of Absence” by matchaball. Originally posted for NH Month 2021, but I thought of reposting it now!
Basically an angsty one-shot where Naruto dies after the Fourth Ninja War and Hinata has to cope with the aftermath.
i.
The morning rays of the sun glanced over the Hokage Monument, illuminating each face little by little. Senju Hashirama, the Shodai, gazed impassively down on the village, totally incongruous with his boisterous personality in life.
So did Senju Tobirama, the Nidaime. But Sandaime and Yondaime looked kind and gentle, all true to life – the sculptor had done an unusually good job on them. Tsunade-sama looked far too young for her age, also a realistic rendering.
Hinata gazed at the empty space next to the first five, wondering what he would have looked like with his face carved into the mountain. Her lips twitched a little, imagining him with his whisker marks carved into the rock, grinning broadly at finally having achieved his dream.
The sunlight suddenly seemed piercing, the stone faces of the cliff rugged and unforgiving.
Hinata blinked back the sudden wetness in her eyes.
The space remained empty.
ii.
“Old man, I’ll have an extra-large miso ramen with the usual!”
“Comin’ right up!”
Hinata whirled around, heart thudding in her chest.
It wasn’t empty space this time.
Someone else was sitting at his usual seat. And his topping of choice was menma, not naruto.
She kept walking.
iii.
It wasn’t like she was the only one grieving over him.
More than a few times, Hinata had escorted Sakura back home when she had been passed out on a park bench in the middle of the night, eyes red-rimmed and nose runny, and Kakashi-sensei seemed to practically live at the memorial stone in the graveyard lately. She hadn’t seen him read Icha Icha in a long time, and Tsunade-sama had taken to muttering about cursed necklaces and stupid boys and broken promises. Kiba had stopped declaring that he wanted to be the next Hokage, muttering that it didn’t mean anything anymore, not without a rival to contest against. Konohamaru had cried for days and days, and she caught Iruka-sensei staring blankly at his loaded wallet one day and putting it back in his pocket, fat wad of bills untouched. No one had seen Sasuke in months.
His grave marker was deluged lately in the best bouquets from Yamanaka Flower Shop, and even some dango and shogi pieces, some of Shino’s kikaichuu nesting among them. Neji nii-san had been staring off gloomily into the distance during his funeral, and afterwards, Lee and Tenten suggested a contest over who could keep his grave clean the longest. The grave had been perfectly spotless since that challenge.
She’d been frustrated then, though, because that had left her with no job to do except stare at his name until her eyesight faded into a blurry spiral and she couldn’t see anything anymore.
iv.
There were times when she would dream of him. Those times were the worst.
She and Naruto would always be together on that one bench in the park, and she would always be resting her head against his shoulder. Neji nii-san and Hanabi were very obviously and clumsily spying on them from behind the bushes, but she didn’t care, not at all.
He always beamed, and the sunlight seemed to filter through his smile like it would through the leaves. In these dreams, he would lean in to whisper into her ear, “Hinata, I’ve got a big secret to tell you, ya know.”
“What is it?” she would ask, not lifting her head up at all.
Because it wasn’t a secret. She already knew what he was going to say.
“I really like…people like you.”
And at that statement, sunlight would filter through her own smile, and he would be gone.
v.
Just because he was gone didn’t mean that he stopped helping her.
One day, she was on a tough A-rank mission, fighting against rogue ninja, blasting one after the other into trees with Neji nii-san just like old times, joined Vacuum Palms going into overdrive.
A particularly heavy one breached the cousins’ defenses, however. Blood bloomed from her forehead as a kunai slashed at her face. She fell to the ground with a thud and the missing-nin raised a sword to deliver a final blow.
“Hinata-sama!” Neji nii-san’s voice seemed so far away.
For a moment, Hinata saw a yellow flash and heard someone yelling, “Don’t worry, I’m here now!”
She blinked and the illusion was gone.
She blinked drops of her own blood from her eyes, and dimly recalled that if it was him on this mission, he would swear to win.
She blinked for a third time, and she saw his smile again.
“C'mon, Hinata, you can do it! Kick this guy’s ass!”
“Hinata, hang in there!”
“The trick to the Sixty-Four Palms is to believe in yourself.”
Her eyes narrowed in determination.
The fourth time she blinked, all the enemies were incapacitated, courtesy of her Sixty-Four Palms executed in quick, lightning succession.
Neji nii-san nodded in satisfaction as he patched up her wounds. Their eyes met in unspoken understanding.
vi.
Hinata slowly learned to stop looking whenever she passed by the swing at the Academy, at every head of blonde hair, at every time someone was practicing Shadow Clone Jutsu (that move had become popular in the village lately).
It was getting harder and harder to look at the sky, though. She’d taken to going on long walks around and around the village, staring only at the ground, because the bright blue sky and the warm summer sun caused spasms to run through her chest. She would come to a stop at those training grounds and a long-gone conversation and staring at him from behind a wooden post.
She’d been a shy, dark weirdo, and yet he still smiled at her back then, because he liked people like her.
Even now, even when she couldn’t look at him anymore, she still got an intense feeling in her heart.
vii.
It wasn’t often that your world went topsy-turvy, completely right side up, then upside down. There were only a few times in her life that this had happened to Hinata.
Neji nii-san was officially named the heir of the clan, and he was set to take charge after her father’s incapacitation in old age. Speaking of her father, he’d given her a long, oddly compassionate look, and to her shock, a brief, warm hug that day. His eyes held a strange sorrow, and she couldn’t understand why.
They visited his grave that day, just the two of them. Neji nii-san bowed respectfully at the stone, his marked forehead completely uncovered.
“I just wanted to say…thank you. For changing me.”
Hinata didn’t know who had spoken, him or her.
But then again, she thought, as they lit incense sticks and laid out water, her world had gone topsy-turvy years ago, when she’d coughed up blood and her heart almost stopped beating.
She’d changed, just a little.
viii.
Neji and Tenten’s children were brown-haired. That was to be expected, considering that both parents were brown-haired.
But the eyes, the eyes were not the typical Hyuuga white, but a rich dark, sometimes chocolate brown, sometimes coal grey. They had perfectly functional Byakugan, though.
When her niece and nephew would come running into her arms and into her lap, sometimes she would get a vivid glimpse of whisker marks and sky blue eyes set against Hyuuga facial features, of scolding a blonde-haired boy for playing too many video games, of a dark-haired girl snuggled against someone’s orange jacket, and it was then that she understood the look that her father gave her that day.
ix.
Hinata soon found the perfect sunflowers to go with his grave on those warm summer days, and a thick red scarf for the winter ones.
It was tough, some days, but she knew that if she closed her eyes, he would be walking with her, by her side, with a ready smile.
After all, they had the same ninja way.
x.
Somehow, in this world, she was sixteen again and hiding behind a wooden post. Her cheeks felt strangely warm, and the oddest sense of deja vu crept up her spine.
Naruto surged out from nowhere, just like last time, sunlight-filtered smile on his face.
“Hinata! You were hiding here this whole time?”
It…it was him. After years and years. Blonde hair and blue eyes and big, bright smile, the greatest Hokage that Konoha would never see.
Hinata was over blushing. They’d been through far too much for that anymore.
But he leaned in very, very close to her face, and her head went dizzy.
Apparently, she was still not over fainting.
“Hinata…? Are you okay? Hinata!”
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Hi there! Can I please have a scenario where it’s the first chapter in V3 during the time limit, and Kokichi’s SO (feminine pronouns if possible) tries to go through the Death Road of Despair by herself trying to figure out how to safely get everyone out without anyone getting hurt, then Kokichi finds them extremely hurt but still trying all for the sake of them? Thank you :)
i feel like writing angst so im making this painful hurt / comfort type thing
also pretend thr killing game lasts longer here, i do feel like it realistically it would take place over a few months, but especially here since its early! that or you knew oma beforehand
- mod kokichi
kokichi x reader
-> getting hurt doing the death road of despair
cws : violence,
"too many hits! back to the start you go!" the bear announced, laughing as you groaned in annoyance. at least the path back was an easy back stage route, it would mean you could rest slightly for your next run.
next run. a part of you so desperately wanted to give up, your body was bruised and hurting, you could taste blood and see it seeping through your clothes. you were fucking exhausted, but you still kept pushing, kept pushing because maybe this would help everyone.
you finally reached the start, collapsing onto the floor to gain your breath, your vision blurring slightly and arms weak and shaking. you bit your tongue (lightly, you'd already cut it hard enough to draw blood), holding back tears.
someone called your name, you could here footsteps running until someone lifted you up onto your trembling legs, leaning you against them. you looked up (or down if youre a lot taller then him, but even if you're a bit taller youd be slouching here) and blinked a few times. "... kokichi?"
"idiot! what do you think you're doing?! are you trying to be the first death or something?" your vision had cleared enough to see the worry on his face, but you winced anyways at his yelling.
"shh, my head is throbbing"
"yeah no shit considering what you've been putting yourself through."
"kokichi, please, i got really far this time! i can probably finish in one or two more ro-"
"no. dont be stupid, youre not doing it again."
"but-"
"no! you've done this multiple times, you've nearly killed yourself - no."
"im not an idiot! i know its dangerous, ive done it before! im not a child, oma, i can handle this! stop treating me like a baby. "
"It's not about treating you like a baby, its about the fact that youre my girlfriend and i love you and im not going to let you get hurt!." he was holding you firmly now, clearly unwilling to let you run off. you sighed, the pain throbbing in a more noticeable way, the adrenaline leaving your system.
he noticed you grumpily comply with his tugs, leaning on him as he took you to his dorm (he likely had first aid there. why? dont question it.) he kissed your head softly. "silly, it's super sweet you want to try so hard, but you gotta take care of yourself - alright?" you nodded slowly.
he would take you back and patch you up, cleaning and bandaging your wounds as best he can. he most likely ensures to keep a closer eye on you as well, making sure you don't attempt such a dangerous feet again.
#kokichi x reader#kokichi oma x reader#kokichi ouma x reader#oma x reader#ouma x reader#danganronpa x reader#danganronpa v3 x reader
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Remember...?
Draken x fem!reader (mainly fluff slight angst)
Finally got my first request yall 🥳 I couldn’t strictly follow the request like i wanted to but i hope thats alright, the gist is still there. anyways thank you sm for it and i hope you enjoy
TW/CW: Mentions of sex, mentions of alcohol, mentions of sex work
WC: 7k (omg the most ive ever written🙆🏻♀️)
Note: I changed my writing style a bit for this request so i hope yall don’t mind! and again i dont read my stuff over so my apologies if theres any mistakes lmao
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You sat on the street, overheating as you watched the ‘heat waves’ coming off the ground. You held your hair up with one of your hands since you had nothing to tie it with, while the other held a lukewarm water bottle. You sighed, you felt so anxious and frustrated.
What now?
You thought letting your mouth part due to your heavy breathing
You took things too fast. It had been about 3 weeks since you left your parents ‘home’ and why did you leave? Well there were a number of reasons that are a bit too much to list, but all that matters now is that you’re completely and utterly on your own.
You only managed to scavenge small jobs here and there to get some money to buy some basic necessities but nothing more.
“Sorry Y/n, my niece is coming down to Tokyo and I told her she could have a job here and stay at the studio above...I’m gonna have to let go. I’m sorry.” said your boss to you only a couple hours ago, with pity filled eyes
“...No it’s fine really! I understand.Thank you for taking me in while you could.” you said bowing your head at the man, biting your inner cheek trying to keep a level head
“I’m happy you understand. You can leave your apron and hat on the cashier. On your way out.” he said patting your shoulder as you slowly brought your head up
“Right..” you said taking off your apron and hat as you walked slowly to the cashier, placing it down
You brought your hands to your temples out of stress, trying to figure out what you could do now. You only had very little money, and there was a heat wave striking Japan this week. At least your boss allowed you to live and pay rent in the small studio right above his store, which had an AC, but now that was for his niece.
This had been the first time in a while where you had no idea what to do. You had always been the type of person to be able to take care of yourself and your problems..on your own. All your life since you can remember, you always had to be the one to take care of others, not that you mind or minded...but you were only so young. You never really had a childhood, at least not that you can remember. You do remember cleaning up after your parents who lost all will just to even... parent. You remember taking jobs as a babysitter at a really young age in your apartment complex to make some money.. You remember being the reliable older kid of your school and complex, where kids would come to you asking for help with things like homework all the way to buying something for them to eat because they were hungry. Not once did you ever say no, because you really did want to be there for those kids who’s parents didn’t give them the care they needed. But it just became too much.. You ended up spending all of your saved up money on them, just so they could have something to play with or something to eat.
Before you even realized it, you were in your last year of high school, with no money saved over, no scholarships, no one to rely on but yourself. Not even a friend. Was it really the right thing to do? Use all your money that you worked so hard for to help kids he lived next door? Or just plain stupid? You knew you couldn't support them forever...but you tried so hard to. All you wanted was to give them a childhood they never had, and someone to look up too. But now you left them. All because you were frustrated. You felt so unbearably guilty. All the work you put into your studies to get at least some type of scholarship just went to waste because you couldn't handle your life anymore. You were being so so so stupid.
Before you even knew it, the sun was going down, and you grew even more tired and sleepy. You signed, taking a jacket out of your bag and placing it on the ground so you could rest your head on it. You brought your hands to cushion your cheek as your eyes started to close. The air finally got a little cooler making it easier to breathe and well...do anything.
As you were falling asleep you could hear chatter and laughing, and finally a tap on your shoulder waking you up. You cringed your eyes before opening them up more to see 2 women. One had blonde hair and the other had pinkish hair. They looked older than you, maybe in their 20’s. One held a bag and the other held a bottle of wine with two glasses, they bent down so their heads could be closer to yours. After examining you for a bit they turned to each other and smiled happily before turning back their gaze to your confused face.
“Hey?” you said sitting up more, a little startled by the intimate contact they were giving you
“Hey there, say...what’s a pretty girl like you sleeping on the street for?” asked the girl with pinkish hair that was tied into pigtails
“I uh..don’t have a place right now so..�� you said scratching your head
“Really? Hmmm.” said he one with blonde hair
“How old are you? And what’s your name? I think we can help you out! Woman to woman!” said the pink haired girl smiling sweetly making you feel fuzzy at their niceness
“18, and it’s Y/n.” you said smiling nervously
“Nice to meet you Y/n, I’m Remi, this is Rema, my twin sister.” said the pink haired girl pointing to the blonde as she waved sweetly
“Hi, it’s nice to meet you too..!” you said bringing your hands to your thighs smiling
“So did you just turn 18?” asked Rema
“Sorta, 2 months ago, why?” you asked
“Oh good!” they both said
“Well, it’s your choice really. One of the girls left today, and the boss sent us to scout another girl to take her place, buttt we just went to buy food with no intentions of finding someone but luckily we just found you! It’s perfect!” said Remi
“Oh? What work?” you asked getting excited
“Oh silly, we live in a brothel! It’s really not all that bad you know, great pay and rooms...so what do you think?” asked Rema
“A brothel..” you said under your breath
Your mind was in a serious state of concentration.
It can’t be all that bad, right? You just have to please people and go on with your day so… that’s what i've been doing my whole life… plus… there's a bunch of women in those things right? I probably won't get too much attention from customers if there's sweethearts like Remi and Rema walking around...so...just for the time being… I think it could really work out in my favor.
You thought to yourself
You brought your head up, giving the girls a closed eyes smile before shaking your head ‘yes’ making them jump in excitement.
“Oh good!” yelled Remi grabbing your hands
“I’m so excited! We haven't had a new girl in years! How do you think Ken will react?” asked Rema smiling as you 3 all started to walk
“Ken?” you asked furrowing your eyebrows at the familiar name
“Oh right, We’ll have to introduce you to him and everyone else tomorrow. He’s the bosses foster kid..I think you two are actually the same age.” said Rema bringing her pointer finger to her chin
“Mhm mhm! Oh and since you're new, tomorrow I will take your pictures for the board, you can borrow one of my sets till you can afford to buy one for yourself, how does that sound Y/n?” asked Remi smiling and holding your hand
“It sounds..great! Thank you so much.” you said bowing your head slightly
“No worries! Hopefully the boss will take you in.” said Remi patting your head
“Yeah..” you said as you 3 continued to walk to the brothel
You couldn't seem to get your mind off of that familiar name..Ken? You swore you knew someone named that. It definitely wasn't a popular name so it’s not like you knew it from some type of T.V program.. After thinking hard your whole way to your new home you couldn't seem to remember them. The person named Ken. And so you decided to brush it off for the time being.
The brothel was pretty big, and consisted of 12 girls, not including yourself. It was really late so everyone was asleep. Remi and Rema showed you to your room which was much more spacious than your room at home. They told you that you were allowed to decorate it and style it however you wanted. But they told you it was important to know that this was the room where business would be done, and not to leave important things around since some of the men came into brothels for the sole purpose of stealing. Remi even told you a story about how one of her clients tried to steal one of her panites, but then the boy named Ken stopped him by knocking him out with one punch to the stomach.
“He sounds strong-” you laughed as they gave you a small tour
“He sure is! Like the bodyguard of this place! He’s a sweetheart!” said Remi smiling
“I’m sure..!” you smiled
“Alright that’s about it, you should shower now and get ready for tomorrow. The boss will probably wanna take a look at you before seeing if he wants you. But I'm sure he will! You're pretty so it’ll go smoothly!” said Remi handing you her shower stuff for you to use for tonight and a set
“Got it, and again...thank you so much. I really appreciate it.” you said again
“Of course! Remember..we’re neighbors so feel free to knock whenever you need something..Also I can give you some tips before your first client so you know what to do.” she said smiling
“Right, goodnight then!..” you said feeling your face get hot at how she so easily talked about sex.
After that, you did exactly as she said, you showered. You thoroughly washed your body, face, and hair. Getting out you looked down at the set Remi gave you. It was just a black bra and matching panties with a silk cover up which made you feel better knowing you could cover up with that.
You rubbed your mouth as you started to rethink your decision. I mean...you respected sex workers..but was this life what you were willing to settle for? Aimlessly waiting around for some random horny man to choose you and do things with you just for you to get only 40% of the payment? Was this all really worth it? Leaving home to avoid your problems...to end up here? You were grateful, yes, Remi and Rema were so sweet and open with you. You could only hope that the others were just as nice. You really wanted things to go well, and that can only start with some good rest.
You woke up to a knock on your door, to see Remi and Rema walking in with a smile
“Morninggg!” they sang as you quickly got out of bed
“Hi!” you said frantically
“No need to rush! Usually men start coming in at 10, but since you don't work here officially yet you got to sleep in a bit! But the boss called for you, you should go to the set up room down the hall to get ready, remember it?” asked Rema
“Yeah I do. Thank you for waking me-!” you said smiling and grabbing your stuff and shoes
“Course, good luck Y/n!” they said as you quickly walked out of your room to get ready
As you walked in, there were a few other girls getting ready. You smiled and introduced yourself to them, and them to you. They were all so nice and pretty. It made you feel a little bit better about being here, and less nervous since they complimented your looks. You got ready in about 10 minutes, letting one of the other girls help you out with your hair and stuff like that. You gave yourself one last look in the mirror before stepping out and waving to the girls ‘bye.’
You nervously walked to the boss's door. You took a deep breath before knocking. You heard a muffled ‘come in!’ so you walked in smiling while holding your covering close. You gave a nervous closed eyes smile before seeing his office was simple, just a desk with a bunch of papers and a chair on the other side.
“Y/n, correct?” he asked placing down his paper and taking off his glasses to look at you
“Yes.” you said smiling
“Pleasure-” he said leaning over the desk to shake your hand
“Likewise.” you said smiling, shaking his hand firmly before sitting down
“Well, I’m sure Remi and Rema told you just about everything you need to know, I take 60% of your earrings, I use that stuff to pay for rent and bills for you girls and my kid… which usually takes up about 30% of that 60%, meaning you make a profit of 40, while I make only a profit of 30 per girl.” he said
“Yeah, I was told.” you said smiling nervously fiddling with your hands
“Good good, now that that's over with..” he said getting up ad signing
“I’m just gonna take a look at you, no need to be nervous I’m not gonna touch you or anything, so please don’t feel worried.” he said smiling
“Right!” you said getting up
“Alright just do a quick 360 with arms up.” he said smiling
“Okay.” you said doing as he said
He looked you up and down but not in a lustful way at all, it was more of like a ‘just seeing how you’ll hold up’ kinda look, almost like he was a bit worried for you.
“Thank you-” he said sitting back down as you did the same feeling nervous
“I was also told you’re 18? Right?” he asked looking down at his papers
“Yeah that's right.” you said
“Well I don't usually have this talk with the other woman because they're older. I know the age of consent in Japan is 16 and blah blah, but you’re still pretty young, are you sure you wanna work like this?” he asked looked into your eyes
“...Not entirely but it’s the best I can do right now.” you said with a determined face
“I see- we’ll then welcome, and just remember you can leave whenever you want, but give a 2 weeks notice. When Remi is done, ask her to take your picture.” he said
“Understood, thank you!” you said said smiling and leaving
You walked out of the room, closing the door carefully signing in relieve
That went pretty well.
You thought
You started to walk down the hall so that you could ask Remi to take your picture. But when you put your ear to the door, you heard lewd noises letting you know she wasn’t done just yet. It was already 5, and the brothel closes at 10. You didn’t really know what to do, so you walked over to the kitchen, sitting down at one of the stools waiting for Remi and or Rema to finish up with their work. You tapped the pen that was on the table and started to look around the kitchen. You remembered Remi told you there were snacks in the cabinets, so you got up and started to open and close them one by one to find something to eat. You finally found a cabinet filled instant ramen, you grabbed one and started to pour water into it, popping it into the microwave that was on the counter top. You stood in front of it waiting, playing with the loose strings of you covering when suddenly you heard the door open.
“I’m home.” said the tall boy with dark hair tied back to reveal a dragon tattoo on the side of his head
Is this Ken?
You thought as the microwave beeped, making his eyes turn to you
You quickly shot your eyes to the microwave, hoping he didn’t notice your stare. He looked so familiar it was almost irritating how you couldn’t remember him. You took the hot cup out of the microwave, placing it down on the counter top, ignoring his presence as he walked over, placing down the plastic bag in his hand, noticing your frustrated face trying to figure out where the utensils are.
“Left of the sink are where they are.” he said sitting down on the stool across from you after looking at your face a bit
“Thank you.” you said smiling nervously turning around to grab a pair of chopsticks
“Are you new here?” he asked taking out a styrofoam box from the plastic bag, opening it to reveal a hot meal of meat and rice and vegetables
“Yeah..I was supposed to start today but I don’t have my pictures taken yet.” you said smiling turning back to mix your noodles
“Could you grab me a pair too?” he asked realizing he forgot to take a pair of chopsticks from the restaurant
“Sure-” you said turning back quickly to grab some for him, placing it in his hands as he gave you a soft smile making your eyes widen slightly.
“You look familiar..” you both said at the same time making both your eyebrows raise in shock then turn into a slight scoff from the both of you
“Glad we’re on the same page then.” he said taking a bite of his food as you did the same still standing
“You know you can sit down, don’t feel nervous.” he said looking up you slightly
“..yeah.” you said smiling, walking around and sitting next to him.
“So when’d you come?” he asked turning his head slightly to see your mouth filled with noodles making him smile a bit
“..I came by last night, really late with Remi and Rema.” you said after finishing your bite
“I see...I feel like I remember you from somewhere, can’t pinpoint it though.” he said looking back down at his food
“Same here, and you must be Ken though, right? When I first heard your name I swore the same thing but I just can’t remember..” you said before sipping some of the broth of your soup
“Yeah, but you can call me Draken and your name?” he asked getting up to grab a napkin from across the table
“Draken...sure! Oh right, my bad. It’s Y/n. Nice to meet you-” you said smiling holding your hand out for him to shake
He only completely shot up to look into your eyes with his wide ones. You gave him a confused look as you watched him get knocked out of his thoughts, bring his hand up to shake your hand before clearing his throat and walking back over to sit. Maybe you struck a nerve? Maybe had the same name as someone who hurt him in the past? You really didn’t know but it made you feel interested. He looked like he just had his life flash before his eyes or something.
“Are you okay?” you asked
“Uh yeah, I’m fine. My head just hurts a bit.” he said looking as if he was deep in thought
“Oh? I have some tylenol in my room.. You want one? Or I can make you a cold drink, you’re probably dehydrated?” you asked smiling a bit
Draken turned his head to look at you, his mouth was parted, and he just looked so..anxious? You couldn’t even tell, almost like congested because he wanted to say something.
Draken felt his heartbeat quicken when he heard your name. As soon as you said it, a random memory that was buried deep in the back of his mind hit him as he quickly re-lived it. But could it really be you? The Y/n he knew from so so so long ago? Around 10 years ago? There could be no way, he remembers the girl moving to a different city..the chances were so low that it could really be you already.
But the second you said those words.. Those words of offering to make something for him, or give him something, despite you thinking you only just met him...Made him know that it was really the Y/n he met when he was only a little boy...but how the hell did you turn up here? In a place and part of town like this? He was so confused and just wanted to ask you...but you still didn’t remember him.
“..No I’m alright, thanks..can I ask you somethin-” said Draken before being interrupted
“Y/n!! Come on, let's take your pictures!” yelled Remi coming out of her room waving as a man walked out too buttoning his shirt
“Sorry, just remember what you wanted to say and tell me later.” you said smiling and standing up and walking over to Remi
Draken watched you as you walked away. He saw Remi give you a hug, and the man that was walking out checked you out to which Draken gave him a pissed off look. Making the man smile nervously, wave, and leave.
Do you really wanna live your life like this, Y/n?
He thought to himself before packing up his trash and throwing it away
Remi took your pictures, telling you to do different poses etc, and you finally settled on one. You walked over to the front of the house to place your picture in its designated area above your name. You signed, stepping back to look at it, fixing your gaze to see Draken was walking over with his hands in his pocket, looking as he was going to leave. You saw him glance at the photo making you feel slightly embarrassed.
“Nice.” he said smiling but looking into your eyes in a way where it looked like he was concerned for you.
Just as you were about to thank him a man walked in and started looking at you making you feel nervous. The man requested you, and so you smiled at him pointing your hand to where the showers were, as you started to walk behind him, you turned your hand giving a thumbs up to Draken with a nervously flushed face, smiling, as he he brought his hand up giving you a thumbs up with soft and concerning eyes before opening the door and leaving. It made your smile fade slightly, you’ve seen that face before from him. But not from today.. And it was all you could think about during your work.
As you laid in your room, after work you couldn’t help but feel a little bit...stupid? You felt so unsatisfied, not because of your customers but because you just couldn’t remember. It felt like an itch you couldn’t scratch hard enough, and with every interaction you had with the boy almost felt like a tease, like the itch just became more itchy and your scratches just became more weak. Maybe if you spend more time with him, you’ll remember?
It had been about 4 weeks, 4 weeks of saving your money, and every 4 weeks the boss collected his fair share of the cut. It wasn’t a pretty 4 weeks, it was probably the worst 4 weeks of your life. But... you and Draken would often exchange stories about your lives late at night which you enjoyed a lot. It always makes you feel better. But yet again you still couldn't figure him out. You felt as though you’ve met him before, and as though you two have had these kinds of talks before.
Draken only grew more and more helpless, seeing how you still haven’t remembered. He was slowly watching your life crumble. He felt so angry that you settled and believed you deserved to live like this, barely scraping by. He felt so awful, and saw how you grew so tired of it all. He just so badly wanted you to remember him, so that he could once again talk to you like he did before.
You had one last customer before closing, going through your usual routine, this n that, the man offered you a drink. You stupid obliged drinking it, hoping it would make your time more enjoyable but you were wrong, so very wrong, and so very stupid for drinking that stupid drink. You remember some parts, you did your job, then it all went black.. You woke up after hearing knocking on your door. You jumped out of bed, confused. You remember seeing the man leave as you started to fall asleep but that's about it. Usually you never fall asleep after the work because you never do much, your mind started to panic. But the door opened revealing Remi smiling.
“Hey sleepy! Boss says it’s your turn, come on, get your cash!” she said smiling
“Right let me just..it’s in my drawer..I don't know why I fell asleep so fast I think alcohol makes me sleepy.” you said getting out of bed and kneeling in front of your drawer to get the envelope of cash you had been saving.
“Heh, same here. I never accepted drinks from clients..they never had good intentions with that!” she said coming over and sitting at your bed
“..yeah.” you said starting to feel that panic arise in your body when seeing the envelope was...gone.
“What's wrong?” asked Remi noticing you were frozen
“I- the money..It’s gone..he took it..” you said with wide eyes feeling as though you were about to sob realizing you had just lost thousands of yen.
“Don’t say that..it..it probably just got misplaced! Come on, I'll help you look!” said Remi getting up
You couldn't even respond because of the amount of panic you were in. Your heart was racing and you felt tears fall from your eyes. After about 15 minutes of looking, you two found nothing. Absolutely nothing. You sat on the floor with your hand over your mouth, again, trying to keep a level head.
What now..?
You thought to yourself feeling hot tears stream from your face.
“Hey..guys? Boss is calling for you Y/n..what’s going on?” asked Rema walking in seeing you covering your face, crying
“She was robbed by the guy who just left, he put something in her drink to knock her out while he looked around and took the money...she doesn’t have the money.” said Remi
Rema’s mouth parted in shock and pity.
How could you mess up something so easy? All you had to do was keep your money safe. But you even failed at that.
“You have to tell him, Y/n.” said Rema rubbing your back
“Yea..yeah, could you two just give me a second? I’ll be right out.” you said smiling while wiping your face
“Sure.” they said frowning and walking out
You fisted your hands, and grabbed your covers before screaming into them to muffle your sounds..
Okay..it was a couple of thousand yen...not too bad right? I can promise the money by tomorrow..I’ll pick up some sort of street job...yeah! That’s good. Everything is fine..it’s fine.
You thought to yourself before wiping your face on more time and slapping both sides of your cheeks to wake you up.
You got up and walked to the bosses door feeling the eyes of people on your back. You knocked on the door before opening it slowly, refusing to make eye contact as you went to stand in front of the man with your arms behind your back.
“Alrighttt, let’s see here, in the last four weeks you had a total of 37 customers, so you should have around 300,000 yen, correct?” he asked looking at his paper
“Yes.” you said still looking down
“Alright, just hand it to me so I can count and divide it, you can sit.” he said smiling holding his hand out
“I..I don-” you said before being interrupted by a knock
“Come in.” he said
“Hey sorry dad, Y/n left her money with me while she went out. Thought I should bring it to her. Remember, Y/n?” said Draken walking in with an envelop in his hand smiling as he came to stand next to you, as you nodded your head ‘yes’
“Oh, thank you Ken.” he said smiling and taking the envelop
Your mouth parted as you gave a confused look, Draken only smiled and gave you a thumbs up while his dad counted the money. You felt so guilty and shocked, and all you could do was just stand there, like an idiot.
“Here you are...120,000 back..” he said, patting the money on the table to make it flat, putting it back into the envelope and handing it to you
You hesitantly brought your hand to grab it, glancing over at Draken who gave you small smile
“Thank you-” you said to him seeing Draken was already opening the door to leave
You quickly followed after him as he walked into his room. Before entering his room he turned around and looked down at you
You felt your eyes soften as you felt as though you were about to cry again, you tilted your head and neck down biting the inside of your cheek to keep in your cry.
“I promise I’ll pay all of it back by tomorrow, all 300,000.” you said
“Do you ever give yourself a break?” he asked as you brought your head up to look at him seeing he looked almost irritated
“You didn’t even ask why I did it, you just immediately jumped to feeling guilty. And you don’t need to pay me back. Really.” he said bringing his hand to close to the door, but you stopped him by grabbing his wrist making his breath hitch
“Why?” you asked looking into his eyes
“You still don’t remember? Even after all this time we’ve spent together?” he asked smiling as you took your hand off his wrist
“Remember...?” you asked furrowing your eyebrows in confusion, but then it suddenly hit you
“I swear it wasn’t me! I didn't steal!” yelled a little boy with blonde hair as two cops stood in front of him
You tilted your head and walked closer, but still keeping your distance to hear. It was a winter day and you were on your way to the corner store to buy some snacks, but you were met with an interesting scene. You kept your hands in your pockets as you listened over to the boy screaming and pleading his innocence
“I wouldn’t steal something so stupid! What would a kid like me need a lighter for!! I don’t know how it ended up in my pocket! Lay off!” he yelled as the officer dangled the lighter in front of his face
A lighter?
“Keep it down! We know how troubled you kids are here! Especially with those tattoos!” yelled back the cop as the boy grew angry and fisted his hands, ready to punch the cop
“Hey!!!” he heard a voice yelled
“Hey wait a minute!” you yelled waving your hand smiling as you ran to the scene
“Can we help you?” asked one of the cops in a soft tone
The blonde boy grew quiet, and you saw his hands loosen as he looked at your smiling face
“Yeah, why are you two yelling at my brother?” you asked furrowing your brows at the two grown man
“...Your so-called brother stole a lighter from the corner store right behind you, where are your parents? We would like to have a word with them.” he said standing up straight
“Yeah, and talk about how they let their son tattoo himself already..” said one under his breath making the other laugh
You looked over at the boy growing angry, you gave him a smile..making him calm down.
“He said it was just an accident, I asked him to pick up a lighter from the store so that we could light a candle at our father’s grave! See!” you said digging into your bag to pull out a candle
“He probably felt pressured because I asked him to get it, so if you’re gonna get mad at someone, get mad at me!” you said as you started to fake cry
“It’s our father's death anniversary, and you're yelling at kids for making a mistake.” you faked cried
“Yeah!!” yelled the boy making you smile under your hands as the two officers became anxious, feeling bad for what they had just done.
“..we’re sorry. Please let us apologize.” they said slightly bowing at you two
“I don’t think we can accept it...you two also made fun of the dragon tattoo on his head!...dragons were our dads favorite animal. He risked his life fighting for Japan and you two are laughing at him! Is that how your mother taught you how to behave?” you asked pretending to wipe you tears as the blonde boy watched you in awe seeing you toy with grown men
“Please let us treat you both to whatever you’d like from the corner store as an apology!” they both said bowing lower making you smile and look back at the boy. You gave him a thumbs up as a smile grew on his face
“Fine..come on then?” you said as both the officers raised their heads, opening the doors of the corner store for you both
You and the blonde boy walked around the store, filling your baskets with all types of things. The blonde boy watched you in just pure awe as you walked around picking your favorite snacks, as he did the same, glancing at you every now and then.
“Here.” you said smiling at the cops
“Right!” they said frantically taking out their wallets as the boy placed down his stuff nervously, still watching you
“Oh and-” you said reaching your hand to grab the lighter from the officer and placing it into the bunch of snacks
You smiled, your hands were behind your back as you watched the officers pay for yours and the boys' food, placing them into bags for you guys too. You grabbed the lighter and your bag, as the boy did the same
“Mom told us to meet her at the cemetery steps, remember?” you said looking into the boys eyes
“..yeah, I remember.” he said smiling feeling his face become hot
“Let’s go then.” you said smiling and taking his hand as you two ran out of the store
After a bit you two stopped and sat on the curbside while you both chose a snack to eat.
“Here’s your lighter, you don’t have to stay with me by the way.” you said handing him the steel lighter
“..Thanks” he said
“Sure- what do you need it for anyway?” you asked smiling
“My boss asked for it.” he said putting it in his pocket
“Oh, are you in some type of delinquent group?” you asked looking at him
“Yeah..” he said smiling
“That's cool, what do you guys do?” you asked taking a sip of your drink
“We kinda just...like...do stupid stuff and fight..” he said
“Sounds fun, but...stupid.” you said laughing making him scoff
“Why’d you do it?” he asked
“Do what?” you asked back turning you gaze to him
“Come in to cover me. You could’ve gotten in a lot of trouble because of me.” he said with a frustrated face
“You’re right, I just wanted to, that's all.” you said smiling making his mouth part and cheeks redden
“You seem pretty fun too so I thought we could be friends or something..” you said nervously
“Yeah! Sure- We can be friends!” he said happily making you feel flustered
“Well then, it’s nice to meet you, my name is Y/n, yours?” you asked holding over your hand
“Ken, but you can call me Draken-” he said taking ahold of your hand gently as you gave him a closed eyed smile blushing
“where the hell did you find that candle and com up with that whole sob story Y/n?”
“Dunno, I saw the candle on the ground by a newspaper, I kinda just winged it- “
After that day you remember hanging out with Draken almost every other day. You remember him telling you how he and his close friends started their own gang and needed some sort of funding, and so you gave it to him, on his birthday.
“I saved up! You said that you and your friends needed some money to start off so that you guys could buy a flag or banner? Right? Well, here’s 30,000 yen for your birthday!” you said handing him an envelope and a small balloon.
“Are-are you serious right now Y/n?” he asked taking the gifts, opening the envelope to look inside to see the money as his eyes lit up
“Yeah, I babysit more kids now so I was able to put some aside for you.” you said smiling satisfied with his reaction
He didn’t even say anything, all he did was bring his arms around you upper body, hugging you tight making you laugh as you brought yours to hug him back
“Thank you- you’re the best! The guys will be so happy!” he said smiling while grasping your wrists in excitement. Your eyes traced over his face as they soften. You smiled.
“Likewise.”
And- after that, you remember the day you 2 separated as friends. You both sat on the curbside, you remembered you called him to come and see you. It was a winter night and the sun was going down.
“I uh..well I don’t really know how to say this without sounding cliche but-”
“What? Are you gonna confess that you’re madly in love with me or something?” he asked grinning, making you sweat drop
“Jeez be quiet...I’m trying to make this a memorable moment-” you signed smiling, placing your palms on the cold cement
“Alright let’s hear it then Y/n-!” he said bringing his hands to the back of his head as he laid down looking up at the stars
You only frowned slightly, you shifted your position so that you could sit beside him and have a good look at his face.
“You’re scaring me..” he said jokingly making you smile
“It was really fun the past year.” you said smiling as Draken shot his head up to look at you face to face
“The hell are you talking like that for?” he asked furrowing his brows
“My parents can’t afford living in any districts in Tokyo anymore, so we’re moving to another city… about 4 hours train ride from Tokyo so-” you said looking down at your hands on the floor
“So? You act like I won't be able to come and see you or you come and see me..” he said ducking his head a bit so that you could look at him
“Draken, train tickets are about 220 yen per person, I can't afford it, and if you came by to see me I'd feel guilty because you’d be wasting your money just to only see me for like an hour.” you said
“How can I be wasting my money on you? It’s not wasting if I wanna do it and see you, plus what makes you think it'll only be a couple hours?” he asked
“I’ll have to start working once we get there, so I wouldn’t have anytime...I wanna start saving so that one day I can come back to Tokyo and live here, so that I can see your dream come true of helping your friend create a ‘new era of delinquents’ you know? I’ll even help you guys if you want with financial stuff or something.” you said smiling at him
Draken bit the inside of his cheek. He wanted to tell you so bad how he felt but..
“Look, I have a feeling I know what you’re gonna say..just remember what you wanted to say and tell me later, okay?” you said placing your hand on top of his causing his eyes to widen
“...You’ll remember me, right?” he asked looking into your eyes deeply making your mouth part
“Yeah, I’ll remember you as long as you remember what you wanted to tell me. Cause I feel the same” you said smiling as a tear fell from your eyes
“good...I will.” he said smiling back and tilting his head and wiping it off your face
After the memories hit you, you stood there with wide eyes and tears, with your wrist covering your quivering mouth. You had completely suppressed your memories of Draken, and your feelings because you knew you wouldn't be able handle being apart from him for so long. And he did the same. You couldn’t imagine how unbearable it was for him to be waiting up like this. You looked up at him seeing his eyes were softly looking at you. You could do nothing but bring your arms around him hugging him, as he brought his arms around you to do the same. You were still such in shock.
“I never thought you’d end up in a place like this, living a life like this.” he said against your ear
“I don’t wanna see you like this, please let me take care of you like you did for me..” he said said tightening his grip slightly
You could only cry at his words, you didn’t even wanna try to speak because you knew it would only come out as a sob. Was it really alright for you to rely on someone so much?
He pulled back from the hug and looked at your face, seeing you were still crying as you nodded your head ‘yes’, he smiled and wiped them away with his thumb. The smile on his face...he looked so satisfied...and happy...happy that you finally remembered. Finally remembered him.
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why are you on a twitter byf?
hi, youre actually not the first person to tell me this tonight! i Also have no idea why im on a blacklist. i want to clear some stuff up because i was told this three (3) times. i dont exactly like that i have to reply to this publicly because i dont even make personal posts but i think this whole thing is out of hand and has been for a while.
im putting this under a Read More because its long and im finally able to air out some of my feelings about the situation.
TLDR: devin has lurked and kept tabs on me for three years and its exhausting that i have to address it like this of all places. if you need proof or anything feel free to dm me.
this is soooo. okay so i met this person in 2019 from the best of my memory because ive been trying for about an hour to get onto my old blog but i cant remember the login at all, and she and i had done a few dms just about whatever. and then she wanted to make these two kin doubles who hated each other or something be friends again, please note we all shared the same kin, and stirred up some problems.
then, after this happened, her host (or she did? regardless she admitted that she was involved in the creation) had made a callout blog for one of them despite my attempt to steer this off from happening, and i was ignored. i think my last message to her directly, and im not kidding here, was in jan 2020 (three full years ago!).
after this i made the choice, for myself, to soft her on tumblr. i no longer wanted anything to do with the situation, i think kin drama is stupid and im sure it was more personal than kin things from what she had told me, but i had no intention of being involved further. or know any of these people. like at all. after i softed her, she made a post about taking a hiatus after she deleted the callout blog and thats it from what i know about her tumblr because it was deleted soon after iirc.
8 months later she tried to follow my twitter, and i recognized her. i considered it a lottt, but i really didnt want that kind of energy stirring up things again in my life because 2020 was an absolute fucking Disaster of a year enough. so i softed her from my twitter because of this for my own mental health.i havent had a direct message with her since early 2020.
i know nothing about her, her life, anything because i wanted as much distance from that whole situation as possible. i didnt get to know her well enough with her to call her my friend or anything, and everything that happened so soon after we did start talking really made me not feel like i wanted to be friends or get to know her better if this was her vibe. she has made posts about missing me, when i feel as though i never warranted the title of friend at all because she basically just vented to me a couple times before this started and i didnt and still dont have the energy to deal with that kind of person.
i have found out, however, she has fucking LURKED me likely for three years. shes posted about how ensemble stars reminds her of an ex friend (which, she didnt get to know me enough to be my friend, and its pretty obvious this post is about me because my special interest is ensemble stars) and i got into it in mid 2020 so she shouldnt possibly know i ever got into it without lurking me. its some creepy shit ill be honest with you.
she knew and made posts about how my psychotic ass had delusions about being w/ilbur ds-p from nov 2021- mid 2022 because i like. Was in a horrible state and related to how self destructive he was or whatever but i got better and got my life together and dont do that at all anymore. i dropped it and i have most terms blacklisted (and the series itself) because it reminds me of those racist assholes and also of a horrible time in my life im still recovering from.
i have no fucking clue how this could affect her or she would even know. seeing as this was wayyyyy beyond the time i knew her. however this proves she was lurking me to myself and people who know me personally… we're all insanely confused. shes had no reason to keep up with anything about me for three years and im pretty much sick of it haha. ive been quietly freaking out over how scary shes been acting about me and whatever idealized version of what or who i was she had assumed during the very short time i knew her because i didnt want to start anything.
thank you for reading this. i hope this stops soon because i dont want to keep dealing with something thats happened 3 years ago and it happened because i didnt even want to be involved in things. its just unfair and makes me feel insanely uncomfortable im still a hot topic for her even though she hasnt messaged me or anything since following my twitter and being softed. it makes me feel weird and its just weird to me.
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ohmyword if your doing req can u pls do another fluffy, domestic one bcos honeymoon morning is some i read daily AHAH maybe like the reader gets ill and toms away or something???? pls just anything fluffy
awh thank you for being so sweet abt honeymoon morning - I do think that's one of my favourite concepts ive done!! and I hope this suits what you want, im not so sure myself but I tried :)))
summary: you try to hide being ill from Tom before he leaves but inevitably it doesn't all go to plan
warnings: mentions of being sick, I think that's all - basically just fluff
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The night hadn’t really gone typically at all. Instead of relishing the last night with Tom for a few months, your body seemed to have different plans. Hence why now you were curled up in a ball on the sofa, staring blankly at the TV, while the washing machine whirred next-door in the utility room and the chemical smell of cleaning products enveloped the downstairs. At least when you were sick, you were a clean sick.
You were also a quiet sick. You had been pulled from your sleep by the uncomfortable heavy sensation from your stomach barely an hour after you’d both headed to bed. Why was beyond you - what had been important in that moment was to get away from Tom. He was flying back to set tomorrow (or given the early hours currently, lunchtime today was more appropriate) and only had a single day to settle before launching back into filming. So the poor boy was inevitably, given time zones, going to be running on poor quality plane sleep for the next couple of days - you wanted to five him a final night of peace, at least.
As a result, you’d crept downstairs and since then spent a large chunk of the night making good friends with the downstairs toilet bowl. Once you were absolutely certain there was literally nothing else in your stomach, you chucked some bleach down the loo; then stripped your *stained* pyjamas and chucked them in the washing machine; changed into some freshly washed stuff in the utility (comprising of joggers and one of Tom’s hoodies); before you could curl up in the corner of the sofa.
And that’s how you’d been for an hour or so. Still feeling grim, unable to fall asleep as much as you were trying to and generally just lying in a ball of self pity. And that was fine… until you heard the unmistakable slow padding of footsteps down the stairs.
“Love?… -hy’re you up?” His voice was drenched in sleep, making it pull on your heart strings, even before he had rounded the sofa and come into view. Dressed only in his heather grey joggers only, Tom’s curls sat ontop of his head wildly - sticking up at all ridiculous angles. And then there was his puffy eyes, barely open as he slowly processed the sight of you curled up on the sofa.
“Just couldn’t sleep and didn’t want to keep you up tossing and turning. Why are you up bub?”
“Don’t sleep good without you… you know kicking me and stealing the duvet and stuff.” Never one to maintain a level of seriousness and ‘soppiness’ - it was instantly turned back to the typical relationship of the two of you. While rolling your eyes, you still chuckled at him in the low light of the TV. Tom took the opportunity to perch on the edge of the sofa, sitting so he was grinning loopily down at you. “You fancied putting a wash on too?”
“...I don’t know just trying to be productive?” He was catching on, he was suspicious. You could tell. His eyebrows furrowed together and he delicately hovered the back of his hand over your forehead, feeling the undeniable heat radiate into his skin.
“And bleach?”
“Toilet needed doing anyway.” You mumbled, head turning to stare back at the TV- knowing his eyes were piercing into your soul. He sighed, in your peripheries you could see him shaking his head in slight frustration, as his hand reached for yours, giving it a squeeze.
“You’re ill aren’t you?”
“I’m alright-“ he cut you off with a low warning of your name, making you cower slightly because he’d caught you in a lie. “I threw up a couple times but now I just feel a bit ‘eugh’”. That was, to be fair, a completely truthful description of your evening and current situation. Maybe not put most eloquently but Tom definitely got the messsage, somehow reading your mind by lightly massaging your abdomen with his hand that wasn’t clasped with yours.
“Come on... let’s get you back to bed.” As much as you wanted to argue with him, it was clear any attempt would be futile. One of things you love so much about Tom is how fiercely protective he is of those dear to him. His circles progressively shrunk as he learnt who he could trust and who ... well he couldn’t. The culling had left a handful of people who were almost central to Tom’s life - somehow you’d managed to wangle your way into these select few too.
So no, there was not point arguing or suggesting he puts his own welfare first.
After putting you back int the double bed, Tom had disappeared for 10 minutes or so, when he reinterred the room it was clear he’d been busy. His tongue was stuck out in focus as he tried to balance different mugs and plates on a tray to you. Even if you felt shitty, for a moment by just seeing how far this guy had gone for you - you’d never felt better.
“Okay there’s some lemsip with honey to settle your stomach, water and a slice of toast just because you should probably see if you can keep something down.”
“You really are the sweetest.”
“And you’re the illest so get drinking love.” He laughed softly in the yellow glow of the bedside lamps that illuminated the room. It highlighted his prominent jaw line and the way his eyes crinkled in the corners and given your slightly off state, you might’ve spent a bit too long ogling at the man cosied up next to you. Never would there be a time you weren’t grateful for him.
Turns out you couldn’t keep the toast down but the experience was somewhat less horrific - this time you were spilling your guts out into your ensuite, while Tom held your hair and rubbed your back. Eventually things settled, allowing The two of you nestle back into bed, Tom wrapping his arms round your stomach to lightly trace random patterns on the skin underneath your hoodie - as you nestled back into his chest more.
“I really love you Tom”
“Love you darling, now get some rest and shout if you need anything.” You hummed lightly, almost letting go to sleep now your felt a bit less like your intenpstines were wringing themselves together. But not quite.
“I’m gonna miss you and your stupid face.”
“We can talk about that when your better” It was as if Tom thought whispering and drawing circles on your stomach was going to deafen you to his words. Yes your stomach wasn’t having a lot of fun and you were tired - but you were not deaf. It was oh so predictable too, he loved to be absolutely ridiculous. Indignantly you huffed, rolling over and eyeing him intently.
“What’s there to talk about?”
“Just…. Just if your sick you shouldn’t be on your own. I could always just-“
“No no you couldn’t. You and me both know for a fact you do have a choice and even if you did it be pissing off a hell of a lot of people.” He pouted, you could tell even in the darkness of the night.
“I hate having to leave you though, especially like this.”
“Yes but you love your work too. I’ll be here when you get back… maybe just with a bit less intestines.” Laughing at that, Tom pulled you onto his chest, pressing his tips to the crown of your head as your burrowed into his side.
It can’t have taken more than 5 seconds for you to fall asleep, exhausted from the illness, the stupid time in the morning and maybe slightly for dealing with Toms idiocy.
You were awoken in the morning to Tom stroking your hair gently, all dressed and ready for his flight - but still finding the time to fuss over you and wanting to say a proper goodbye. After practically ordering his to leave… you best believe he dropped in the fact he’d got both Sam and Harry to come round as your babysitter.
He was an idiot. But he was your kind, caring , beautiful and loving idiot.
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Fake Affection | II
Chapter I, Chapter II, Chapter III, Chapter IV, Epilogue
Description: Han Jisung has been rejected by the girl he likes one to many times. He decides that he has had enough and is set on making her want him back. What could possibly make her want him more than seeing him with her rival after she boldly assumed he can’t find anyone better. That way Jisung and Y/N are stuck in a fake relationship until Jisung’s crush falls for him. Or he falls for someone else.
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Pairing: Han x fem!Reader, Hyunjin x fem!Reader
Word count: 4.5k
Genre: College!AU, Fake dating!AU, Angst, Fluff, eventual Smut
Warnings: swearing
A/N: Remember when I said this will only have two part? Well, I’m a big fat liar. The drama kind of started this chapter and I’m excited for it. Also, thank you so much for for the huge support I got for the last part. I’m really grateful for that. I hope you like it, hehe. Feedback is very much appreciated.

Y/N was sitting in Script Interpretation class trying to go over the script they were going to discuss that day once more. Her concentration was interrupted by a pile of books being slammed into the table way too close to where her hand was resting. Lifting her head to look for the culprit she locked eyes with Hayoon. A shiver went through her body.
“Hey, girl. How are you doing?” Her voice was abnormally high and she hated how she couldn’t hide her feelings in front of her best friend. She really fucked up this time.
“Oh, don’t you ‘girl’ me! Can you explain to me what the fuck is everyone talking about?” She wasn’t screaming, her tone calm. Way too calm. It was making Y/N way more scared than she should have been.
Y/N lifted the script she was previously holding. “ Angels in Ame…” Hayoon hit the table with her palm and lowered herself to watch Y/N in the eyes.
“Don’t you bullshit me Y/N. Why is everyone talking about you and Han Jisung being in a relationship?” Hayoon’s face was dangerously close to hers and she could feel the daggers that her eyes were sending in her direction.
She gulped visibly before putting her hands on Hayoon’s shoulders and slowly pushing her away from her. “Well, we are in a relationship.” She didn’t dare look her friend in the eyes.
Annoyance was embracing Hayoon’s facial features. She clicked her tongue before exhaling loudly. “And why didn’t I know? And most importantly, when the fuck did it happen?” The girl’s voice started to rise in volume.
“Ok, please calm down! I’ll tell you everything at the end of the class. The professor is supposed to arrive any minute.” Y/N had a pleading face on, grateful for the fact that they didn’t have a free period. She hoped that maybe during the class Hayoon would calm down even a little. She really couldn’t deal with her friend when she was angry.
Like it was on cue, the professor entered the classroom and greeted everyone. Hayoon threw Y/N a look that meant they were not done there and focused on the professor.
Throughout the class, Y/n couldn’t focus on what they were talking about. She was thinking of what to tell her friend so she believes her and Jisung are deeply in love or at least very horny for each other. She was told by more professors that she is one of the best actresses they have at the moment but in front of Hayoon, she felt just like a kid who’s done something bad for the first time.
The time flew ridiculously fast that class and when the bell rang Y/N felt like she could have used some more hours to prepare for the talk she was about to have with Hayoon. Her friend got up and when they both finished packing their things she grabbed Y/N’s bicep as a method to prevent her from running away.
Hayoon led her outside of the campus and they sat down on a bench at the front of the university. That was the moment when she let go of her friend's arm. She made herself comfortable on the bench while Y/N was fidgeting nervously.
“You can start talking” She tilted her head to the side waiting for an explanation.
Y/N let out a shaky breath. “What happened is that he sat next to me in Canto class and then when the class was over he asked me to talk. He asked me out and now we are dating.” She said all that in a breath hoping that maybe Hayoon didn’t hear her.
“Just like that?” The other girl’s voice filled her ears. Y/N looked at her confused. The girl rolled her eyes. “You started dating him just like that? Just because he asked you? What happened with ‘He’s a loser’, ‘He never takes shit seriously’, ‘He has a stupid face that I hate’? Weren’t he and Mina dating?” The flood of questions took her by surprise.
“No, they are not dating. And he’s actually kind of nice. He has his bad parts but don’t we all?” She tried explaining without stumbling over her words which she succeeded in doing. Thankfully.
“But what if it is some kind of bet or trick? You know who he is friends with. You should have thought better before saying yes.” She shifted her position closer to Y/N and put a hand on her forearm protectively.
She was right. The whole thing was just a trick but she wasn’t the victim. She kind of felt bad now but the whole thing was actually harmless. They were just trying to make Mina jealous and if it didn’t work in a month or so, she would break up with Jisung. She turned her head towards her friend, tears stinging her eyes.
“Yes, I know his friends but it’s not like that. I really do like him. Why can’t you be happy for me? Is it that hard to believe that a popular guy would like me?” A single tear fell down her cheek and Hayoon hugged her hurriedly, stuffing her face into her chest.
“No, I’m sorry! Of course, he can. I’m sure a lot of popular guys like you! I was just worried!” Y/N sobbed a little and Hayoon hugged her tighter, rubbing her back soothingly.
“It’s ok. I know you mean well.” Y/N hated having to use the fake crying on her friend but if they wanted that to work no one should know they were faking their relationship.

The bell rang signalling the end of her last class. She gathered her things and waited a bit for Hayoon before leaving the room. Just as she stepped outside the classroom a hand snaked around her waist and she was pressed to a body.
“Hey, babe.” Jisung said next to her ear before giving her neck a kiss. The girl jumped at the contact before relaxing upon realising that it was Jisung.
“Hey.” She made eye contact with Hayoon who was sitting awkwardly to the side. She got out of his lock only to hold her friend’s hands and bring her closer. When she turned she noticed Hyunjin and Chan standing close to Jisung as well. “She’s my friend, Hayoon.” The men all greeted her.
Hayoon gave them in return a smile that was visibly fake before turning to Y/N. “I have to go. See you tomorrow, ok?”
“Yeah, see you.” She watched her get lost in the crowd before turning back to the boys.
“She’s nice.” Jisung said ironically, rolling his eyes.
“Give her time. She just doesn’t really like you.” Hyunjin and Chan held in their laughter as Jisung’s face turned into a hurt one.
“But you like me, right babe?” His voice was as if he was talking to a child as he placed his hands on her hips bringing her closer.
“You might have to give me some time as well.” The men finally let out their laughter as Jisung’s expression turned into an annoyed one. “What are you doing here, anyway?” She asked her head tilted to the side to show confusion and to distance herself a little bit from Jisung, who didn’t seem to have a problem with showing her affection.
“I came here to wait for Jeongin and they came to wait for you.” Hyunjin smiled as he spoke. She smiled back at him feeling happiness invade her body.
She turned her head towards her pretend boyfriend raising an eyebrow. “Did you want to tell me something?”
“I actually came to take you home. I and Chan have to meet Changbin somewhere and your house is on the way there.” She felt a warm feeling in her stomach at his words. That was actually really nice of him considering the fact that they were not actually dating.
“Jisung sweetie, you don’t know where I live yet.” Hyunjin snorted loudly, biting his lip to prevent himself from laughing. Jisung glared at him before looking down at Y/N.
“Ok, I don’t know if your house is on the way there but we were going to drop you off.”
“That’s really sweet of you but I actually have the first meeting with the crew for the short movie I’ll play in. I can’t leave yet.” She finally got out of his arms as she wanted to turn around and leave. A pair of strong hands placed themselves on her biceps and stopped her from moving.
“Easy there. You almost hit me. We still have 15 minutes until the meeting starts.” Jeongin explained as he went past her to greet each of the men individually.
“I’m sorry!” A pinkish colour dusted her cheeks, embarrassed by her negligence to where she was walking. “We? Your crew is meeting now as well?” The innocence in her voice made Jeongin chuckle.
“Y/N, we play in the same movie.” Her eyebrows furrowed and her mouth fell agape at his words. Hyunjin and Jeongin giggled at her reaction.
“Seriously?” Her question had Hyunjin rolling his eyes.
“You say that like you haven’t been together in every single play since last year.” He was right but she didn’t remember seeing Jeongin at the auditions. “Now, let’s go or we’ll be late.”
“You play in it as well?” Her expression became even more shocked if it was possible.
“No, I don’t. I’ll just come watch.”
“I don’t think you are allowed to.”
“Oh, please! Mrs. Bae loves me. I’m sure she won’t have anything against it.” Right after he finished talking he hooked an arm around Jeongin’s neck forcing him to follow his lead. When he got next to Y/N he did the same taking the girl by surprise.
She regained her composure fast telling herself that Hyunjin is just a social butterfly. She lifted her hand and waved it ‘Goodbye!’ at the boys who she couldn’t see because of Hyunjin’s grip on her neck.
Jisung watched as the three of them were heading for the auditorium. Taking another look at Hynjin’s arm around her neck, he scoffed. He had been particularly annoying since lunch and something told Jisung it wouldn’t be the last time.
As long as he didn’t interfere with their plan to make Mina jealous, he didn’t really care what kind of relationship Hyunjin was trying to push with Y/N.

“I can not wait to get the script. Cursed be the printer for breaking down today of all days!” Y/N chanted for the nth time in the last 20 minutes.
The meeting went fairly well. They mostly talked about the concept of the movie more in-depth, met the other actors that they didn’t know thanks to them being from different majors and discussed about each character individually so they know how to prepare for the roles. The only thing that upset Y/N was the missing scripts that they were supposed to receive. She was so excited about the movie and she could not endure another day without knowing the entire story.
She was currently walking home with Hyunjin and Jeongin. Despite being well past 7 PM the sun was still in the sky probably preparing to set soon. The spring breeze had her clutching her jean jacket to her body trying to get rid of the goosebumps covering her skin.
“You’ve only told us that a thousand times in the last couple of minutes.” Hyunjin said being unable to suppress the smile that was tugging at his mouth upon seeing how excited she was.
“Can you blame me? The concept of Hell and Heaven, the forbidden love, the action, the drama. Everything is so, ugh!” Y/N was making wide gestures with her hands as she spoke, having the men trying to avoid them in order not to get hit. Jeongin grabbed one of her hands stopping her ministration.
“I have never seen someone so excited about a school project. Calm down! We’ll get the script tomorrow.” Her mouth formed into a pout at his words. The two men let out chuckles at her action.
Taking a look around her she noticed a familiar coffee shop on the other side of the road. She cleared her throat as she stopped at the crossroad.
“My apartment is actually that way.” She used her index finger to point the direction of the coffee shop. “I’ll see you guys tomorrow!”
“Actually, I’m going that way as well.” Hyunjin said, pressing the button of the traffic lights.
They said goodbye to Jeongin before crossing the street. There was a comfortable silence between the two of them for a few minutes.
“I still can’t believe that they let you stay.” Y/N said, remembering how he sat behind her and Jengin the whole time. He would make short comments about the plot and characters from time to time, making her giggle.
“I told you Mrs. Bae loves me. She’ll do anything for her favourite student.” He said matter of factly.
“I just don’t understand how she can be such a bitch to everyone but you. She acted like you were her son, I swear to God.” She trembled as she recalled how the professor would talk to him in a baby voice and how she offered to give him her chair so he could sit comfortably.
“Not everyone is as handsome and amazing as I am.” Y/N laughed shortly and shoved him slowly.
Another minute passed before Hyunjin decided to speak.
“You know what I don’t understand?” He asked, looking at her side profile.
“What?” She made eye contact with him.
“Now, I don’t want you to get offended, cause that is definitely your choice. However, why date Jisung? You could have had any boy on campus. Someone that’s actually mature and nice.” Hyunjin let his teeth sink into the flesh of his bottom lip.
He knew what he was trying to do was not ethical. Jisung was one of his best friends but he had to know. If he couldn’t get Mina, which everyone could, how did he convince someone of Y/N’s calibre to date him?
“Perhaps you think too highly of me. I assure you, I couldn’t have had any boy on campus.” She let a breathy laugh leave her lips. Boys barely talked to her and every time they did they were very awkward and distant.
“I’m afraid I have to disagree with you. A lot of guys like you. You are smart, talented, friendly and, please excuse my language, hot. You just seem unapproachable because…” He stopped in the middle of his sentence contemplating whether he should say it or not.
“Because…” She encouraged him to speak.
“You might have a resting bitch face sometimes.” He noticed she wanted to say something but cut her off. “AND. And there is this guy that claims to have confessed to you last year and he said you completely humiliated him.” He bit the inside of his lip.
An irritated breath left her nose. “I swear to God. I knew that guy would do something like that. All I did was tell him I want to focus on school for a while and he literally started crying. When I told him he could ask me again in a few months he called me a bitch and stormed out of there.” She paused for a bit to regain her composure. “If he’s the reason no guy approached me all this time I’ll find him and give his ass a beating.” She declared clenching her fist in front of her face.
Hyunjin chuckled at her action. “Ok, but let’s go back to Jisung.” That was a phrase he never thought he would say to a girl.
“Ah, yeah. I don’t know. He was the first one to ask me out. He is kinda handsome and nice, I guess. I mean, he does that thing where he likes to make fun of people for no reason that absolutely drives me mad.” She exclaimed the last word clenching her jaw. “But he has been nice to me since we started dating. It has been only a day and a half but he knows that if he does something wrong I’ll dump him faster than he can rap.”
“Hmm, interesting. So this is all it takes for you to break up with him. In that case, I want to let you know that he has been rude to me today before we came to meet you.” Y/N laughed and hit his chest softly. Hyunjin laughed as well, but his laugh wasn’t genuine.
Y/N stopped walking and put her hand on his forearm. “This is where I live. Thank you for walking with me. It was fun spending time with you today.” A bright smile enveloped her features.
Hyunjin took a look at the apartment complex behind her trying to figure out at what floor her apartment might be. Quickly, he shifted his eyes on her and without realising he patted her head smiling.
“I had fun as well. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have to go rub into Jisung’s face the fact that I found out where you live before him.” He said and turned on his heels to leave.
Y/N noticed Hyunjin going in the same direction they came from and confusion settled inside her.
“Hey! Where are you going?” She shouted after him.
Hyunjin turned towards her and a smile tugged on his lips. “Actually, I live two streets behind.”
Her eyes widened at his words. “Oh my God! Why didn’t you say so? I made you walk all the way here.”
“I couldn’t let such a pretty lady walk alone at this hour.” His response came to her panicked rambling.
“But it’s still really bright outside!”
“Ok, you got me. I just wanted to spend more time with you.” A smirk appeared on his lips. “Hey! Don’t tell Jisung!” He winked at her before turning around and sprinting down the street.
She casually walked into the complex and made her way to the third floor where her apartment was located. She fished her key from her bag and unlocked the door entering the residence.
When she found herself in the safety of her apartment she let her body slid down the white door. A rosy pink was covering her cheeks and she bit her bottom lip. What was that stupid feeling inside her chest? She needed to calm down.
Y/N got up from the floor and went into the kitchen. She opened the fridge and snatched a water bottle from the fridge door. She downed half of it in one go and used one hand to prop herself against the wall.
“Mina, you bitch. Hurry up and fall in love with Jisung.” She mumbled pressing the cold bottle to her exposed collarbones.

“How much more should we sit in silence?” Changbin whispered looking around at the people occupying the table.
“Shhh. Be quiet! They’ll both rip your head off if you disturb them.” Hayoon spit in a barely audible voice.
Changbin threw her an annoyed look. Why did Y/N’s friend have to sit with them as well? He glanced at Y/N and Jeongin who were seated across one another. Their eyes were scanning over the pages of the thick scripts they had in hand for the past 20 minutes, forcing everyone else around them to be quiet.
“Whoa, what an ending! I knew I could trust our senior.” Y/N finally exclaimed, startling some of the people at the table.
“Tell me about it. I can not believe you have to do that.” Jeongin said, placing the script next to his tray.
“Don’t be sad, lover boy. I promise I’ll take good care of you in hell.” She winked at him before stuffing the script in her bag.
“Do I sense some steamy stuff coming up?” Felix wiggled his eyebrows at Jeongin.
“Nah, just a kiss. But like, fucking finally!” Jeongin exclaimed, taking a bite from his food for the first time since he sat down.
“How did we manage to be in so many plays together and not kiss once? That never happens. It started to worry me. Finally, the universe is in order again.” She joked pretending to wipe away sweat from her forehead.
Jisung rested his elbow on the back of Y/N’s chair and leaned close to her. “Do you mean to tell me that you’ve wanted to kiss Jeongin for a long time now?” His tone was meant to be teasing and intimidating but Y/N felt like laughing at his efforts to seem like a possessive boyfriend. She rolled her eyes visibly.
“Don’t worry, babe. It’s just acting. No real feelings involved.” Her words carried a lot of meaning, one which only the two of them could understand.
“Really?” His voice lowered an octave and using one finger he turned her head towards him capturing her lips in a slow kiss.
From the corner of his eye, he noticed Mina looking at them. She was seated a few tables away with her friends and a few guys from her major. He felt like smirking when she clenched her jaw and scoffed in their direction.
He broke the kiss and proceeded to lick his lips tasting Y/N’s strawberry lip balm on them. He curled one hand over her shoulders and brought her closer. Upon placing a kiss on her temple, the sound of metal hitting metal ringed in the cafeteria. Mina abruptly got up from her table and left the cafeteria leaving her friends to clean up her tray.
Minho let out a prolonged whistle rolling his eyes in the process. “Looks like someone is in a bad mood. I wonder why.” His voice was dripping with sarcasm, the reason for Mina’s sudden outburst being well known at the table.
“You snooze, you lose.” A smirk was plastered on Jisung’s face. “I think a year and a half was a good amount of time for her to figure out her feelings. I wasn’t gonna wait around for her my entire life.” He declared nonchalantly playing with a strand of Y/N’s hair.
Y/N bit back a laugh at his bold statement. What he said wasn’t entirely wrong. He didn’t wait around for her but he sure as hell wasn’t over her like his tone wanted to make it seem like. She lightly patted his thigh under the table as a form of saying ‘Good one!’.
“That kind of makes it seems like you are using Y/N to get over her. I’d be more careful with my word choice next time.” Hyunjin said in a stern voice, throwing Jisung a cold glare.
“No one needs your fucking opinion. Why do you even care?” Jisung felt annoyance overwhelm him. Hyunjin has voiced a lot of his opinions regarding his relationship with Y/N ever since they’ve announced it. Most of them in private when she wasn’t present.
“Cause I don’t want you hurting my friend. She’s been nice enough to date you. I feel like you should be grateful.” Hyunjin was clearly irritated by Jisung’s attitude.
Y/N watched as the two men were throwing daggers at each other. The same fuzzy feeling from the day before started spreading in her body. She kept repeating to herself that Hyunjin was just being nice. All he did and said the day prior was just him being nice. Some of his words started playing in her head when she remembered the previous day. ‘I just wanted to spend more time with you. Don’t tell Jisung!’ He was probably just joking. Just some playful rivalry between the two.
“It’s ok, Hyunjin. I didn’t see it like that. I’m fine.” She mumbled and started playing with her fingers under the table. She tried controlling her laboured breath.
Jisung threw Hyunjin a victorious smile. Noticing a change in her demeanour he took a look at her. Cheeks dusted with the faintest of pinks and fingers playing nervously under the table. A smirk acaparated his face as he remembered the conversation he had with her the other day on the bench. She definitely had a crush on someone.

The sound of a key turning in a lock was heard in the empty apartment. Y/N entered the residence and abandoned her bag on the hanger near the door. Taking off her boots, she made her way to the window in the living room to close it, the air in the apartment being way too chilly for her comfort. She picked up a plate from the coffee table that she abandoned there in the morning before leaving and took it to the sink in the kitchen before going to her bedroom.
The space was fairly clean excepting her desk that had all sorts of assignments and books sprawled all over it. She took off her clothes and discarded them in the laundry bin before going to her closet to pick something comfortable to wear. She settled for a pair of burgundy sweats and a black hoodie, perfect for that spring weather.
Just as she finished putting on the hoodie she heard her phone go off signalling that she got a message. Throwing herself on the bed she grabbed her phone that was on the nightstand next to her bed.
[Jisung,15:36]Tomorrow is Saturday. Let’s go on a date! :D
Y/N pursed her lips after reading his message. She has planned to do research about her character for the movie the next day. Her fingers moved fast in typing a reply.
[Y/N,15:39]Is Mina gonna be there?
She had no reason to go on that date if Mina wasn’t going to be there. It will be just a waste of her time. Her phone emitted the same ringing sound like earlier and she unlocked it to check his response.
[Jisung,15:40]Of course. Why else would I ask you on a date?
His message had her rolling her eyes. She would bet all her money that he had a smug expression at that moment. Probably thinking that he did something. She was getting annoyed just thinking of it.
[Y/N,15:42]Time and place?
[Jisung,15:45] 6 PM. Text me your address, I’ll come pick you up.
She sent him her address after a few minutes of contemplating insisting to meet there. She locked her phone and turned the silent mode on putting it back on the nightstand. Jumping out of bed she made her way to her desk prepared to start working on some of the assignments scattered on it.
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[thirty one: i do]
During your farewell with the rest of the MSBY team, Atsumu—at the very least—had messaged you that he wouldn’t go; pained as it made you, this was the barrage of consequences that came with harboring feelings, the ones you knew was coming but hurt you all the same. The decision of your exit from the team was explained properly, and thankfully, they took it quite well—save for Sakusa’s loud sigh, muttering “stupid Atsumu,” under his breath.
Speaking of Sakusa, surprisingly enough, he hugged you right before you left. A heavy sigh escaping his lips, your stunned state tense against his body, “Well, I’m not going to see you for quite a while, Y/N,” he says through his mask.
You shake your head, chuckling lightly, “I’ll surely miss you, Omi-omi.”
As if on cue, he groans at his nickname yet lets it slide, patting your head lightly with a short nod in regards, something that makes you smile.
With that, it’s easily been more than a month since you left the team and since the begrudging decision to also put a pause on traditional movie nights. You haven’t talked to Atsumu either, save for that message to inform you of his absence in your little farewell party. It’s genuinely bittersweet how things turned out—but there was probably no way it could’ve turned out completely all okay, everything intact. That simply wasn’t how life worked.
Hurt as you were to have lost a best friend, if even in temporary terms, the world would continue to work its magic—running around and busying itself as did everything in it.
Sweet, though, because Suna stayed with you through all of it—understood when you came to him in anxious thought that perhaps you went about everything the wrong way. He opened his arms to pull you in and kept you in such comfort each time. He was still himself, of course, lazed out and bored expression across his face ever prominent—his replies remained near dry, try as he might to be the sweetest boyfriend he could pull off. Still, every night he kept you caged in his arms; occasionally, he would pick a flower randomly from around the campus to give to you when he sees you again in between breaks; and every kiss he pressed into your lips made up for it and more.
The way he would put little bookmarks casually when he knows you’ve forgotten about the book you held in your hand, the way he knew what drink to get you, the way his lips would curl up more often—the way he would direct his camera on you, capturing you in the most unexpected moments, it was those that screamed just how much he loved you. So soon enough, the movie nights you had with the twins that was brought to an abrupt pause were replaced with your dates with Suna.
Yet, true to his word, Suna would say “I love you” more often than you'd assume he would, each time not less sincere but with more meaning—as if the more he said it, the more it rang true and heavier against his chest as if his lungs would constrict if he failed to tell you. Not that it was out of necessity either, he would always say it in spontaneity that it would leave your mouth agape before letting out a scoff, telling him he’s ridiculous; yet he’d hide the smile tugging on the corner of his lips, simply because he knew all too well how much you loved the way he did it.
It didn’t take long for Suna to finally join your little hangout events with the rest either—and neither were you mistaken on the assumption that he would fit in well with Kenma, Akaashi, Kuroo, Tsukishima, and Bokuto; though, it might be more so because Suna easily bonded with Kenma over video games, or Suna's ability to quickly retaliate to almost every comment that Tsukishima made. Soon enough and much to your dismay, Suna had started slowly replacing you in Kenma’s gameplay reviews—to which Kenma reasoned with, “You lose all the time anyway,” and had you not adored the way they were all getting along so well, you probably would’ve smacked Suna on the back of his head when he started cackling at Kenma’s response.
As for Atsumu, he did stay in MSBY—but he failed to avoid Sakusa’s glare and cold logic over the situation initially. It was a bit odd though, Sakusa had informed you, because of Bokuto’s occasional slip of your name, especially during the first few weeks after you left the team. You’re not sure if Atsumu knew, but Ayumi kept in touch with you and asked for advice on how to handle him, though she did let you know that Atsumu listened to her more often than he used to since you left as the assistant manager with no one to replace you. You and Osamu remained in touch the best you both could despite it all, he let you know that he avoided mentioning you; yet in the end, it was Atsumu himself who would ask about how you’ve been—and you continued to wonder how long “later” was and when “later” would finally come. Especially when a few more months passed without direct contact with Atsumu.
Before you knew it, you were already moving in with Suna in a new apartment after noticing how little time Suna spent in his own apartment in the fifth floor since the both of you made up. Moving in the new place was surprisingly less stressful that you thought it would be, too. Settling in so quickly and easily as you did with Suna, which was probably why it had felt so easy—because you were moving in with Suna Rintarō, the person you trusted more than yourself.
But besides all that, everything also remained the same. You did have to look for a new part time job, though. Something that Suna responded with, "Just be our manager or somethin'."
You turn to him with an incredulous look, trying to see if he was kidding, but his eyes remained trained on the screen of his phone as he leaned back on the couch, sucking on his favorite jelly sticks—enough to let you know he wasn't kidding at all.
You flick his forehead, making him look up at you with an eyebrow raised, “Personal relationships like ours isn't allowed if I'm your manager, genius,” you deadpanned.
He hummed in thought, tilting his head a little, "Wanna breakup?" He grinned jokingly, and he chuckles as you grumble at his question.
“I hate you,” you scoffed, turning away your attention from him as he continued to snicker at your reaction before pulling you close to him.
“You love me,” he states with a silent laugh.
“Mhm, I do.”
Suna Rintarō wouldn’t have it any other way.
fun facts:
♡ suna and y/n hasn’t done any kind of housewarming party because they would obviously be incomplete.
♡ kenma says that y/n always loses in the videos anyway but really, he just gets more views when he has suna on instead. [suna is pretty, we can’t blame kodzuken’s audience]
♡ i might’ve clickbaited y’all on the title. probably should've been a longer chapter but i really like the idea ive got for the finale !! so yeah, stay tuned on 32!!
wc: 1.1k+ words. not proofread.
#suna rintarou#suna x reader#suna#suna rintaro x reader#suna rintaro smau#haikyuu smau#haikyuu#[🍒]sayitback#[🍒] — sayviolet#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu x y/n
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mha boys realizing they’re in love pt.1
w/ deku, bakugo
tw⚠️ insecurities!, self doubt!
deku 🥦
izuku knew he loved you since you guys started dating.
he had liked you for a long time, and when you finally got together in your last year of UA, he couldn’t have been happier.
he planned on living the rest of his life with you. and would go through any feats to make it possible.
so when you started to feel doubts about your relationship? that was a wake up call for him.
you had just finished training, all sweaty and tired, walking back to your dorm with a towel around your neck.
you scrolled through your phone mindlessly, and just happened to come across a twitter post about your boyfriend, deku, who had just taken down one of the villains that’s been on the run for months.
you smiled. you were so proud of him. already achieving his dream in becoming one of the greatest heroes. and getting the recognition he finally deserved.
you made it your your dorm, slumping on your bed as you read some of the comments.
woah this guy is still attending UA!? he’ll be a great hero for sure
there’s no one like him!
deku strikes again! what a stud😍
you laughed at some, grimaced at others that claimed the mission was too easy for him. but one particular comment had you freezing in your spot.
is he single? i won’t hesitate to run to the scene and give him my hand in marriage right now!
you knew it was a fun, lighthearted comment. but you clicked the the commenters page and instantly noticed how beautiful as preppy she was.
she was also a big deku fan...probably had more merch than you.
you sighed and threw your phone across the bed.
for the past few weeks, you had been thinking about how different you and izuku were in terms of success.
you were both in your last year of high school, and he had already done so much.
worked on so many cases with pro heroes and went through successful missions all the time. he was destined to become the greatest hero.
and you?
well, you’ve never even caught a villain.
sure you’ve helped out on low grade missions for the hero you interned under, but you had never been publicly praised like izuku. you never stood out.
you had trouble believing you’d become a hero at all.
you always wondered, wouldn’t izuku be better off with someone that could keep up with him? who wouldn’t hold him back. someone who he wouldn’t leave in the dust when he excelled in the future.
he deserved someone better.
your thoughts were cut off when your dorm door brushed open, revealing no other than the man himself.
izuku walked into your room with worried eyes and seemed out of breath.
“y/n? ive texted and called a bunch of times. why haven’t you answered?” he asked, and you subtly turned to your phone that you discarded on the other half of the bed.
“my ringer was off. sorry izu.” you tired to give him a smile as he sat next to you on your bed. “i saw an article about your mission today. you were amazing!” you complimented.
“ahh you give me too much credit. i couldn’t have dont anything with the pro heroes and other people helping.”
“still, you’re a great hero. i wish i was like that.” you chuckle dryly, past insecurities already pushing forward again.
“what!? you’re a great hero y/n!” izuku exclaimed.
“i’ve barely done anything izuku. i don’t know how you put up with me. i should be able to help you on your missions, but i’m stuck in the same position i have been in. i don’t know when i’ll improve.”
you didn’t mean to sound so pathetic, but you had been feeling this way for so long. it was all just spilling out now.
and izuku? he literally stopped breathing when he heard what you were saying about yourself. “you deserve someone that will be able to keep up with you. what will people think when they find out the amazing deku is dating a weak, incapable, good for nothing-”
“don’t say one more word y/n.” izuku cuts you off, and you look up to meet his eyes piercing yours.
they were dark, nothing like their usual gleaming glow that shined when he looked at you.
there was no sign of amusement on any of his features. just dead seriousness
“what the hell are you talking about y/n?” he asks, but doesn’t give you a chance to respond. “you’re one of the most courageous, brave, intelligent, capable people i know! where is all of this coming from?”
“i’ve been thinking about it for a while. it’s just you’re so...amazing and i’m so...” you knew anything you could have said after that would make him even more angry. it was nothing positive.
god he probably hated you for being so insecure.
“you’re you, y/n.” izuku says softly. “you’re you and you’re who i love. i don’t care about what i do, what you do, who says what! i love you for you!”
izuku looks at you with so much love and compassion. you stared into his eyes, wondering what was gong on in his head.
well? at the moment he despised himself for letting you feel this way.
you were his whole world! the person who supported you in everything he did and he would support you in the same way! he couldn’t understand why you were feeling this way when he was literally...in love with you.
he loved you yeah of course, but hearing the way you were speaking about yourself, and how you had doubts about your relationship made his heart physically hurt. he was absolutely and unconditionally in love with you and wouldn’t be able to see himself with anyone else.
and he needed you to hear it.
“y/n you’re my everything! i’m so in love with you, no amount of fame or recognition could make me even think about leaving you!” izuku said urgently, and he finally calmed down when he saw a slight smile reach your lips.
a real one this time.
the conversation continued, and izuku promised to let you learn and remember how in love he was with you until it was the last thing he’d do.
bakugo 💥
bakugo would never pursue anyone unless he definitely knew he loved them.
so of course he never asked you out when he couldn’t differentiate if what he felt for you was love, or if it was a stupid little crush.
he didn’t like thinking about his feelings, especially the irrelevant ones.
he was trying to become the number one hero. who needed time for love anyways?
so he ignored his “feelings” for you, not allowing them to confuse him any longer.
it wasn’t until a few months into his third year when bakugo got the worst news of his life.
you were on a mission. an important one that had you absent from school for weeks.
bakugo was worried.
he’d text you every few days, asking what was going on and how things were and you’d always respond with “it’s fine.” or “we’re hanging in there.”
he assumed it was a pretty difficult mission, but nothing you couldn’t handle.
you were strong
so when he heard from a certain icy-hot that you were in the hospital in critical condition after completing the mission, he forgot about everything and ran straight to you.
ignoring aizawa’s calls, he almost blasted himself out of UA and checked every hospital for you, considering he didn’t even ask todoroki which one you were in before he left.
when he finally reached the hospital holding you, he sprinted to your room.
he found you hooked up to a bunch of wires and tests.
you looked peaceful, sleeping while the heart monitor beeped beside you.
but you looked horrible. bloody bandages covered almost every limb, and your body was covered in bruises.
bakugo’s heart dropped to his stomach. he couldn’t stand seeing you like this.
why does his feelings have to be 100x more noticeable when your tragically hurt!?
he sat down on the empty chair beside the hospital bed, wondering why no one else was visiting at this time.
he stared at you, something he couldn’t get off of his mind lately.
“why do you make me feel things, dumbass?” he asked, waiting for a response. “i never skip class! you just had to get hurt and make me skip the test review.” he rolled his eyes, but his face softened as he looked at you, still sleeping.
“i’ll help you study. you’ll probably fail without going over what we learned.”
.....
“would you wake up, you shitty woman!” he yelled, gripping the side of your bed “this is scary, you know?”
.....
“i should’ve called you today, i just assumed you’d be too busy to talk. if you told me you were in trouble, i’d blast my ass to wherever you were in a heartbeat.” bakugo said, feeling his actual heart skip a beat when you still didn’t respond. 
“please wake up...”
after about an hour of waiting, your other classmates came in, checking on your condition.
you still hadn’t woken up, but your vitals were better and your breath were more steady.
by the time night fell, everyone left; except for bakugo
he was just starting to fall asleep when he felt she. he heard you stir in the hospital bed.
his head shot up, quickly turning to face you as he saw you blinking you eyes slowly.
“y/n!” he yelled a little louder than anticipated, making you shoot awake and look at him.
you blinked a few more times before realizing who you were looking at. “katsuki!?” you asked, trying to sit up, but feeling a sharp pain in your side.
“hey! don’t move dumbass. are you okay? do you remember anything?” he frantically asked.
“umm...i’m fine?” you said, sounding like you were trying to convince yourself. “why are you here?”
“why am i here? you were admitted into the hospital in critical condition!”
“i-i’m sorry, everything’s a bit fuzzy right now.” you say softly, putting a hand on your forehead and tryin got remember everything.
bakugo softened, and waited until you got yourself together. “how long have you been here?” you ask
“since this morning.”
“this morning!? katsuki what about school? do your parents even know you’re here?”
“why the hell are you worried about me? you’re the one hooked up to all these machines and can barely move!” bakugo yelled, trying to understand why you were so focused on him being there with you.
“i just never thought you’d be the one to go out of your way to check on someone. let alone be here the whole day...” you whispered, suddenly feeling shy at the idea of bakugo keeping your sleeping body company for hours.
bakugo froze at your words.
he really wasn’t the type to go check on people for more than a few minutes. especially not one to skip school because of it.
maybe he did this because he felt a little more than what he thought he did.
maybe this wasn’t a stupid little crush? maybe it was something serious that he had just been blowing off.
when he heard about your condition, he just couldn’t stand by. there must have been something that pushed him to run to you.
“it’s cause u care about you...idiot. i wasn’t gonna a let you suffer here alone.” he huffs, crossing his arms.
“katsukiii do you like me or something?” you asked in a teasing tone
he couldn’t believe you were making jokes at a time like this. furthermore, he couldn’t believe how easy it was for you to see through his facade.
“i do.” he states. there was no point in lying.
“i was just kidding kats-“
“i’m not.” he cuts you off. “i care about you, and i like you. a lot. so...you better like be bad damn it. or i’ll blow you to bits!”
you chuckled and smiled tenderly at him. you definitely weren’t expecting him to say that, but you weren’t complaining.
“i like you too...i guess.” you smile, and katsuki tsked before smirking at you.
he finally felt like he could breath again, and that everything was going to be fine now.
except...katsuki didn’t like you. he loved you. but no way would he tell you that
this absolutely sucks i can’t believe i’m posting this. if you can, plz give me some requests so i don’t make trash hcs like this again. they’ll be a pt.2 later. hopefully it isn’t as bad as this one.
click here to send a request. i’d really appreciate it!
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