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mendeshoney · 2 years ago

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can u do a imagine that you and barzal get into a argument and it ends happily

The door slams loudly behind you, and you whirl around, fire in your eyes and venom in your words when you say "Just because you're angry that you're not getting your way doesn't mean you can start slamming shit like a caveman."

Mat's nostrils flare, the vein popping in his neck. "I'm not angry because I'm 'not getting my way,' I'm angry because you're just not listening."

"No, you're the one not listening, Mat. I've said exactly how I felt a dozen times. My mind hasn't changed, and we keep coming back to this same argument because everything I say goes in one ear and out the other with you. You can ask me as many times as you want, but I am not going to uproot and change my entire life around just because you feel like it suits you better."

"But we're dating! And we're in love! What's so wrong with living together if we're dating?"

You push air out of your nostrils, the brunch the two of you just ate turning sour in your stomach. "As I've told you over and over, we've only been together for three months, Mathew. You and I have entirely different schedules, entirely different lives, and I am both not ready to and believe that we are not in a place where I feel I can share my space with you that way, or take that step with you, until we've been together a little longer."

"I can respect your schedule, life, and space, and still do it as your boyfriend who lives with you." He pushes, gesturing around to your apartment. "Have I not done that so far?"

"You have," you say, frustration creeping through your veins at the fact that you've having to explain yourself yet again. "But you've done so because you don't live here. I do. And I've done the same at your place because I don't live there."

Mat waves a hand dismissively. "We sleep over at each other's places all the time, what's the difference if it happens all the time instead of a few times a week?"

"Because that's temporary! That's basically us playing house, not actually living together." You sigh, pinching the bridge of your nose when you can feel a headache starting to bloom at the back of your skull.

"Well I don't see what's so wrong with me wanting someone to come home to at the end of the day." Mat bites out, and your eyes squeeze shut.

"You already do that. You call me or text me or you ask if you can come over if you need to see me at the end of the day, and I do the same to you."

His face hardens. "Oh, I see. It's fine that way because I get to leave after, right?"

Your eyes fly open and your hands drop to your sides. "Mathew," you warn. "You're being extremely unreasonable right now, and I do not have the energy to continue repeating the same script over and over until it finally sinks in."

"How am I being unreasonable? I'm pointing out the obvious here!"

And that...that's your limit.

The two of you had been arguing about this for the last two weeks off and on, and you'd hoped that this would be the last time.

You don't know if you had another fight like this in you.

"If you can't take no for an answer, then I think it's best you just leave."

He blinks, taking a step back like you've shoved him. "What?"

"I think you should leave." You repeat. "You're not listening to me, you're only hearing the things you think you can pick apart to try to win the argument. But arguing with the person you're in a relationship with isn't about winning, it's about understanding, and you and I clearly don't understand each other right now. So you should leave."

"Baby, I-" he says, swallowing a lump in his throat, and you sigh a little.

"Not like that, just...I just think we need to cool down, okay?"

You can see it in the lines of his body that he wants to protest, to demand to stay and work things out, but instead he nods, jaw ticking in irritation. His hands twitch at his sides, and you know what he wants to do, but clearly isn't sure if he's allowed to right now.

Instead, you approach him, kissing his cheek and gently squeezing his biceps. "It's okay," you assure him. "Just for a little bit."

He nods, body relaxing a little under your touch. "Okay," he says quietly, pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead. Without another word, he turns and leaves your apartment, this time, gently shutting the door behind him.

The second he's gone, all the frustration finally boils over, and you shut your eyes, tears silently falling from your face.

You're brushing through your wet hair, resting on the couch in your pajamas and trying to catch up on your favorite TV show before bed when the intercom on your wall buzzes.

Tossing your brush to the couch cushion beside you, you head for the intercom, already having a good idea of who's on the other side. You press the buzzer to open the front door to your building, then head back to the couch to grab your hairbrush and put it back in your bathroom.

You head back to your living room, heading straight for the door once you hear the soft knocks on the wood. When you open it, you find Mat just as you expected, but what you didn't expect was the find him with his face red, puffy, and tears caught in his eyelashes.

When he sees you, his body launches forward, and he wraps you tightly in his arms, bending down a little to bury his face in your neck, and you can feel him sag with relief.

Carefully, you wrap your arms around him, shutting the door and locking it before walking you both backwards a little, bringing him further into your apartment.

You hold each other like that for a little bit, and when you feel Mat's body shake a little as he starts to cry again, you can feel your own tears brimming in your eyes, exhaustion settling in your bones.

Mat hiccups a little bit, and then you feel him press a gentle kiss to the base of your neck before he murmurs "I love you so much."

You tense in his arms.

I love you so much.

He'd never said that to you before.

"You don't have to say it back." He says, voice scratchy. "I didn't say it so you'd forgive me, or so that it would make anything better. I just wanted...if this was the last time...I just wanted you to know that I do love you."

"I love you too," you say without hesitation.

His body sags a little more, and he holds you tighter. "You were right, about all of it. I wasn't listening, and I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry too," you say. "If I hurt your feelings, or if I made it seem like I wasn't-"

"No," Mat says emphatically. "You have nothing to apologize for. This was all me."

You put your hands on his shoulders gently, pulling back a little bit and frowning slightly when you see his face. He frowns when he sees yours, his hands coming to your face and brushing your tears away with his thumbs.

"I didn't mean to make you sad." He mutters.

You laugh a little, thumbing away his tears too. "I didn't mean to make you sad either. C'mon, let's sit down."

You lead him over to the couch, and instead of sitting like you intended, Mat lays down, pulling you with him until you're pressed against the back of the couch and he's essentially wrapped himself around you.

"You're a whole person," he says once you're both settled. "Relationships should be about adding to one another's lives, not trying to take away from them, and I thought I was doing that, but I wasn't. I was asking for something that wasn't for us, but for me, and I'm sorry."

"I get where you were coming from," you assure him. "And I accept your apology."

A comfortable silence settles between the two of you, and Mat's breathing starts to even out as his tears settle. Eventually, the late hour blinks at you from your cable box, and Mat runs a finger along your jawline. "I can go home, if you want."

You shake your head. "You can stay the night, I want you to."

"Are you sure?" He checks.

"Yes," you assure him, starting to sit up and pulling him with you. "I think we've earned ourselves a good night's sleep."

The two of you head into your bathroom to start to get ready for bed, and Mat reaches for your hairbrush while you brush your teeth, running his fingers through it every now and again.

Something in your mirror's reflection catches your eyes, and after you rinse your mouth out and put your toothbrush away, you turn to Mat, tilting your head at him curiously.

"What is it?" He asks, setting your brush down on the counter.

"How about a drawer?" You ask, and Mat blinks at you.

"What do you mean?"

"A drawer," you repeat. "A drawer of your things at my place, and a drawer of my things at yours. It's not moving in, but it's a...a baby step."

Mat's quiet for a second, looking at you almost as if to make sure you're certain about your offer before he say anything. He must decide eventually that you are, because eventually, he nods. "I'd like that."

You hold your hand out to him, and Mat raises a brow at it. "It's been a pleasure doing business with you, Mr. Barzal."

Mat laughs, rolling his eyes before he puts his hand in yours and tugs you to him, pressing his lips to yours.

"I love you so much," he whispers against them.

You smile into his next kiss, winding your arms around his neck. "I love you too."

#mathew barzal #mat barzal #mathew barzal x reader #mat barzal x reader #requests #writing challenge #mendeshoney masterlist

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half-man-half-lime · 6 months ago

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Finished another Worm Arc 30 re-listen today. In maybe under 2 weeks we're gonna hear podcast show give takes on their hypothetical TV adaptation that are worse than I can possibly imagine, so I'm gonna drop my opinions on what I'd want to see.

First off, it kind of sucks that the portal scene in Avengers Endgame is in the public consciousness and would be people's first frame of reference for the Scion fight. Speck is so much its own thing and so much more gripping and complex than the big blockbuster movie, I would genuinely hate for it to be seen as an Avengers riff.

Second, just gonna link this idea I'm still proud of from a while ago.

I'd really like to see the perfect, ideal-world-impossible-budget version of this. Like, HBO invests everything and nothing goes wrong with the script. Even if Wildbow wasn't burnt out on Parahumans, this is basically impossible, and I don't think any studio would get it right, but I desperately wish it could happen somehow.

I think my hot take (or is it cold?) is that it works best cutting as close to canon as possible. I think we need a Taylor voiceover that gradually degrades. She should be explaining her thought process and strategy as much as possible. No Tattletale narration (was that a fan suggestion or did Wildbow say it somewhere? I can't find it), definitely no trippy and confusing show that doesn't explain anything.

We should get Taylor's perspective, and it should be full sensory overload. Not difficult to parse because of unclear motives or unexplained details, but hard to follow because there's so incredibly much going on at once that it's impossible to keep up. Visuals of the clairvoyant scenes bleeding into each other, Canary constantly singing in the background against the noise of combat, and of flashes of memories each time Queen Administrator tries to show Taylor what each of her subjects is thinking.

And it should juice every last drop of what makes Taylor's narration so satisfying in the written story. All the introspection, all of the mental breakdown, all of the stuttering and slurring her own thoughts.

That should also include character dialogue becoming audibly garbled as she loses her grasp of English.

I'm specifically against, like, the notion of an avant garde ending where the audience just sees stuff without explanation and is left to invent their own interpretation. No, it's not symbolic. It's not a trippy dream sequence for viewers to interpret. This is all happening, it's literal.

#Parahumans #Worm #Worm Web Serial #Wildbow

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mistressandry · 4 months ago

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20 Questions for Fanfic Writers

@aldisobey tagged me in this TEEHEE I am now a fanfic writer so I can participate in these things!

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

TWO! I refer to myself as a PUBLISHED AUTHOR every chance I get.

2) What’s your AO3 word count?

13k 🙈 I have had to claw my way to each word!! How y'all are casually dropping 2k left and right I DO NOT KNOW, but I guess it comes with time?? I'm not... comfortable yet. So I put in what I basically want to say and start chipping away at the blocks. It is time consuming but maybe I'll be able to have fully formed sentences if I practice enough 🥲

3) What are your top five fics by Kudos?

HA!

Expeditions and Expectations (27)

Brushes with Death (24)

Highly competitive!!

4) What fandoms do you write for?

Dragon Age! I've been doing fan art for years but I hadn't really felt the need to write a story before Veilguard... BG3 almost had me but those would not have been pretty 😂😂😂😂 WE WERE WORKING THROUGH SOME UGLY FEELINGS AT THE TIME.

5) Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Doesn't everyone?? T_T Yes! I think if someone puts the effort in to interacting with your content to such a degree that's beautiful! and how you build community!

Though fighting my inner demons can take time on occasion 🙈

6) What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Out of the two????? Expeditions and Expectations because there's a lot of unresolved things there, I suppose! Was supposed to be just... a look at a beginning.

7) What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Expeditions and Expectations? 😂 They had a nice trip and got to let loose. It was good for 'em!!

8) Do you get hate on fics?

Yes. from ME.

9) Do you write smut?

No, because I am afraid people will think I am bad at sex. Drawing? No problem. Writing? Kill me.

10) Do you write crossovers?

I'm really only interested in characters in their given setting!! I feel no need for crossovers.

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I have under 500 hits. I doubt it.

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

Better to keep the audience limited to English for now, methinks.

13) Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

No, but I wonder what that's like!! Must be fun! I direct people professionally and really love when it gets extra collaborative!

14) What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Man, I don't think I have one!! Glinda and Elphaba have been my main focus since the movie came out 🩷💚

15) What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I do not doubt!!! But the one furthest on my list is a fic with Emmrich fighting off romantic feelings for young girlies. IT MIGHT border on the lewd. We'll work up to it 🙈

16) What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue, commitment to characters and narrative planning. I love motifs! I love recurring themes! I don't think anyone notices them, because I'm not good with the word part yet, but they're there!

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

Broski I don't even understand how quotations work properly T_T Outside of technical skills, I also default to a camera view when writing. I naturally write scripts, not prose. Enjoying chipping at this flaw!

18) Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

I would rather find a narrative way around it. Localization is hard!!

19) First fandom you wrote for?

Eff it. Neopets.

20) Favorite fic you’ve written?

I'm most proud of Brushes with Death, I guess? @bharv said it's a big improvement so that's good!! What started out as "What if I just have the necromancer play therapist to me" opened up to a lot of character study and... it's nice! Not performing the same service for me as when it was first drafted, but still holds that value and has expanded beautifully!

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I've been so away from tumblr recently so I've missed a bunch so you may have already done this BUT...! @bharv and @black-rose4 please do this thing if you haven't yet!

You're both so prolific!! Would be interesting to see you stacking up your fics!

🩷🩷🩷🩷

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stromuprisahat · 2 years ago

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Just wanna say FINALLY SOMEBODY ELSE WHO HATES LOKIUS AND SYLKI

For Sylki is obvious: toxic, toxic and they're basically the same person and I can't stand Sylvie (and no I'm not a man who hates women. I'm a woman too and I find her character annoying and useless to the story. You'll see how her character is going to be even more annoying at Season 2)

For Lokius, I felt I was the only person that didn't ship them. In the first episode you can smell the toxicity a mile away. Mobius is gaslighting him as FUCK. And the "Kill me like you killed your mother?" Bro? Wtf? 💀

I wouldn't say hate, that would require more emotional involvement on my part. Despise with a drop of loathing, if this is really supposed to be "it" for Loki.

I was surprised to find out I don't mind Sylvie in Lamentis, or even the episode after that. What ruined it was- ironically- episode with other Lokis. They pushed her ✨specialness✨ so hard! And then that fucking romance, when Sylki worked so well as How-the-fuck-would-you-call-being-friends-through-sharing-your-trauma-with-your-alternative-self?!

Suddenly Mobius is all "Aww, you're in looove!", which at that point sounds more like a 5 y/o yelling at another one, who doesn't want to be friends with him, because he's already friends with some girl! And as if that made it so, Loki goes from distrusting Sylvie through empathy to acting all subservient, when she's concerned?! WTF?!

I know he's mentally fucked up, and his stay with TVA certainly didn't help him, but how?!

(There's also the issue of Sylvie as a character. I might not be some hardcore MARVEL fan, but even I know there's a blond female Asgardian, called Enchantress, who has a history with Loki, so why would you take her attributes to create OC version of Loki, that refuses to even call herself Loki?!)

Mobius' only possible excuse is his own history with TVA. How far did their mindfuck reach? Is that why he doesn't seem to understand boundaries, and requires treatment he, himself isn't willing to offer Loki? Is that why he's preaching about friendship, while sending his alleged bad friend to torture?

If we don't put effort into finding excuses, he's just a dick. He's fully aware this isn't THE Loki, yet he's treating him as if the main timeline's deeds were his doing. Kinda ironic, when you relize this Loki is in TVA for NOT following the script, but apparently Mobius can have it both ways.

As for their relationship- Mobius is backed by a huge organization, while Loki's constantly reminded he can be killed as soon as they don't need him anymore. He has nothing, but Mobius' mercy to work with, and that's rather obviously conditional. Those are supposed to be foundations for a non-abusive relationship?!

Mobius uses his assets to mentally torture Loki, gaslights the hell out of him and manipulates him, while Loki's mostly defensive. There's zero effort to change anything about it, until Mobius starts to doubt TVA, and then he's fighting for himself. He's not taking down the organization that made him hurt his friend, he's taking down an organization that lied to him and others like him.

Loki's just giving, forgiving and forgetting, because he's a horrible, arrogant, selfish asshole, who never changes (Although another question is, when exectly was he so bad to need to change so much?).

#reply #MCU #Loki (TV series)#season 1 #Loki #Sylvie #Mobius #anti Sylki #anti Lokius #It's tagged #so shipper assholes could go fuck themselves and bother someone else.#MCU critical #because there's a huge gap between what we're told and showed.#řččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččččž #That's my cat's tag.#It felt rude to delete it.

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sylviegunpla · 2 years ago

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Game: Owlboy (Switch)

So, i just finished Owlboy. more or less 100%'d it. it was a charming game that had a lot to like. The mechanics are fairly straightforward and focused around flying around the screen and throwing things, but also carrying cohorts who can do attacks in whatever direction you point the right stick. Definitely an interesting control scheme, i'm usually a fan of "2D but can aim 360 degrees on the right stick" type mechanics. Metroid Dread also did that. Mild spoilers ahead.

I guess it could be called a "Metroidvania" but there's not much in terms of progression. I found it relatively short but also just the right length for what it delivered. Some of the endgame optional challenges were kinda ridiculous too. But if you get all the coins, you wind up with a super powerful form of invulnerable "attacks" that don't really do much for you endgame, but they make navigating the world after you've already found everything a lot easier! Actually making you invulnerable also helps avoiding attacks. I had a lot of trouble with the endgame because the final level takes away your flying for most of it. The platforming is basically great, but i think i had controller issues. i don't know if it was the game's fault or my controller's fault (given other issues the controller has, i'm leaning towards the latter) but basically the game would constantly misinterpret me holding the jump button as seemingly multiple presses in quick succession, which would often put Otus into a flying state when i wasn't ready, so that i push the button again to put him into flying state but then he drops out of it, because that's how the controls work. Like i'm pretty sure this was supposed to be a relatively straightforward method of controlling Otus and for the most part it was, but i think my A button was bugging out (I played it on Switch). Once i got past that it was fine. s The final boss was climactic in a kind of clever way. It's not who you think it's gonna be. And then when the guy you think it's gonna be does arrive, a semi-scripted sequence that if you don't perform certain actions in a timely manner, you just get one shotted by him. Kind of an interesting way of having you not directly fight the pirate king, helping maintain his absolutely menacing status. I had an interesting endgame experience with this. There was one final optional challenge that was REALLY tough for me to clear, and seemed a lot longer than i thought it was. I was close to giving up and just going "It's fine i can't 100% this game". But then i just decided to try it one more night and i was consistently getting to the part i was struggling with, and could see the end in sight. And then i eventually got it! Was really satisfying but also frustrating, in the way that video games can be.

#owlboy #game review

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leviathansartstudio · 2 years ago

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It's Levi rants about his silly fnaf ocs because I don't talk about them at all even tho I love them to death

FIRST OFF ON THE TWO OCS I'M TALKING ABOUT IS MY BELOVED SERENA the only one out of the two that I A. Make art of and B. Has an official colored ref sheet

+OG Traditional sketch of her with some doodles (the scribbled out parts are just notes for me)

++A Ruin version of her made around the time the Ruin dlc trailer dropped

To give a tldr of her, she's daycare attendant alongside some other oc I haven't completely done (All I know about the oc is, like Serena, they're based off a desert animal/reptile), the two replaced the other oc I'll be talking about, and is literally most comparable to SAMS!Lunar before he realized SAMS!Eclipse is using him, so basically she naive and the definition of ADHD x100. She also lost her eye to the other oc I'll talk about later but Serena still sees them as a good person despite how shitty they treat them. (Also ik in the digital ref She is genderqueer and pan but I've since changed her to Non-Binary and unlabeled, She also uses She/They pronouns)

NOW ONTO MY OTHER BB I'M TALKING ABOUT! I actually don't have an official digital and colored ref for them only a traditional, but I do have lore for them! I also don't even have a name for them, I've just been using the name Echo for them but I'm not a huge fan of the name.

A lil bit about them, They worked as the previous daycare attendant before Serena, but as time went on and progress continued on Serena the workers at Fazbear started neglecting maintenance on them, despite them being the most advanced animatronic at the time. As their age began to show, glitches began to form, their original purpose was to serve as entertainment for the children while also having the ability to be security, similar to SB's Moondrop, but as time went on the security program started seeing innocent adults, such as guards, as a threat needing to be neutralized resulting in injury most of the time. After Serena was finished, along with Serena's counter part, They got moved to the theatre to serve as a magic act. Though they never got repaired or upgraded they still had major glitches when it came to adults though Fazbear being Fazbear decided that the theatre would only be open to children, and would be guarded by Security bots instead of human guards. And for awhile everything was fine until one night during one of Their scripted security checks they escaped the daycare, finding a security guard on duty and nearly killed them until Serena stepped in to stop them in the end it resulted in Serena loosing an eye and inevitably loosing this "fight". In the end of that, They killed the guard and retreated back to the theatre were Fazbear would inevitably lock them in.

That's all I'm sharing for now, if y'all want me to rant more about their lore lmk and I absolutely will, my ADHD ass feels the urge to just talk about them

Unrelated note if y'all find these two interesting and draw them, @ me in them I beg, I want to devour all the art of my lads and it means a lot to see fan art of my OCS, fnaf or not!

#fnaf #art #fnaf oc #fnaf original character #oc #oc art #ocs #original character #oc lore #lore

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smokeybrandreviews · 3 months ago

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So Thunderbolts dropped and it was pretty good. I knew it would be because of the cast, Florence Pugh is a sure thing and David Harbour steals scenes like their gold, so why is everyone stopping just short of calling it a failure? It's much better than pretty much everything Marvel has released not named Loki, Agatha, Moon Knight, or Spider-Man and doesn't fall into the trap of being "too big", which is kind of a surprise considering the main antagonist is f*cking Sentry. If you don't know, the Sentry, real name Robert "Bob" Reynolds, is another of Marvel's analogs to Superman but with a twist. You see, Bob is kind of schizophrenic and that manifest itself as an equally super powered villain of pure fear, the Void. I was super curious how Marvel would handle the man with the power of a thousand exploding suns and they kind of nailed it. In the more subdued MCU, they were able to make f*cking MCUperman, work. His overpowered power set felt right at home in the world of Thanos, Thor, and. most important, the Eternals. Bob is a man made Ikaris and he moves just like the fallen Eternal. This thing is directed beautifully and really nails the story presented but that's the thing which is different this time; The Story is f*cking good.

Thunderbolts is basically a character vehicle for Yelena Belova. She's the new Black Widow and, as the most successful of the legacy characters (Thanks to Florence Pugh being undeniable with her charm and straight up adorable nature), she definitely carries. This story is about her and how she's dealing with the devastating loss and depths of loneliness she's experienced since The Snap. I refuse to call that sh*t The Blip. Fight me about it. Nevertheless, it was a stroke of genius to tie this sh*t into what is effectively therapy for all of the characters present and that notion lends itself to Void's powers. He's not the villain, f*cking depression is and Yelena is DEEP in that sh*t. I'm not minimizing anyone else in this flick, everyone does a great job, but I'd be lying if i told you this wasn't about Yelena and her issues. Which is smart as f*ck. It deals with the problem of making the Sentry feel like he can exist in the MCU and it grounds such a goddamn comic book-y character to some sort of reality, while also giving the narrative some meat to be chewed. I've always said that a movie begins on the page and that script must have been fantastic because this movie is so much better than it's fellow post-Infinity brethren, it's ridiculous. So why is everyone pretending it's a bomb? Because it didn't do "Marvel" numbers.

It's looking like T-Bolts is going to close it's opening weekend with a seventy-six million take. That's about ten million and change less than Cap 4 and as much as Ant Mack did to make that movie and experience, it kind of sucks. Cats are hitting the panic button, talking about how this is failure of a Marvel outing, that it's the best of the worst, and so many other derogatory nonsense in the trades. The thing is, though, Thunderbolts is good. Like, objectively better than anything in Phase One, and probably comparable to a mid-tier Phase Two outing. If this was a Phase Two flick, I'd say only Winter Soldier and Guardians beat it out in quality and that's high praise. Which this thing is lousy with. The word-of-mouth about Thunderbolts is f*cking fantastic. People re leaving this thing singing it's praises, telling their friends it's a must see. It's sitting at an eighty-eight Critic score and a whopping ninety-four (!) audience score. Those are crazy numbers, yo, especially for a post-Infinity MCU outing. It's rare those scores are so close, often varying wildly because of all the "woke" and "DEI" bullsh*t a certain sect of the fandom decries.

Look, I'm not going to sit here and say this thing was going to make money like a Spider-flick but a global take of around one hundred and forty million isn't something to turn your nose at, especially when word of mouth is this strong. I imagine the holds are going to give T-Bolts legs at the cinema and it will end up making a pretty penny. It's baby steps going forward. The MCU brand, whether i think it's deserving or not, has been damaged by the admittedly mishandled Phase Four and Five. Mouse House greed derailed the f*ck out of the MCU pipeline and they're just now getting back on course. I thing Thunderbolts is going to be okay in the end. I think it'll have a decent hold, nothing like f*cking Sinners' seven percent drop in it's second week, but enough to refill those Feige coffers. I think FF is going to be solid and i think more people will turn out for that, because T-Bolts is so good.

Thunderbolts is a great theater experience. It has fantastic performances, an earnest plot, one of the best cinematic interpretations of a Superman archetype I've ever seen put to film, and a surprising amount of heart. It feels like a street level, Defenders-esque outing, but the stakes are so much larger than that. In my head, this is what Suicide Squad (the David Ayer one) was trying to do but Marvel ACTUALLY did it. T-Bolts is worth a watch just for that alone. You wan to see how a rag-tag band or morally bankrupt killers and villains kind of redeem themselves by taking down a completely-out-of-place-for-the-narrative, massively overpowered antagonist? Thunderbolts has got you covered. Definitely go see that sh*t. The hype is real and the buss is genuinely. I'm telling you, as someone who saw it day two and just finished watching a really sh*tty bootleg because i couldn't make it to the theater today, it's safe to see. You're not going to be disappointed. Sh*t is legit good, regardless of what the trades may or may not be saying.

#Smokey brand Movie Reviews #Thunderbolts*#Marvel #MCU #Kind of Some ol bullsh*t

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smokeybrand · 3 months ago

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kentosbabes · 2 years ago

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Hi how was your day! I hope it was good

(Everything from here is my daddy issues screaming)

Imagine nanami (maybe gojo and geto to if we’re feeling a lil silly)

With a reader who has daddy issues(self projection🧍‍♀️) both kinds…

The shouting and yelling one aswell as the distant one

Cause like yk my dad is in another country and when I do see him it’s really awkward and usually ends in some sort of fight

If I had to explain the relationship I have with my dad I would need a year cause it’s so complicated

BUT ENOUGH OF THAT LETS GET INTO THE ACTUAL STUFF

So I can’t really form relationships with men cause I’m scared I’ll get hurt again but when I do it hits me like a train wreck cause I get attached to older men so quickly

Literally any type of praise from men makes me start sobbing

At the end of the day I’m just an angry little girl who wants her daddy back

THATS THE SCRIPT BASICALLY

I just want nanami to praise me then comfort me as I cry about how much I hate and miss him All at the same time

Imagine how confused he would be when I start sobbing just cause he told me good job after I done something so small like waking up early then I explain that I’ve never felt that kind of fatherly love before and it just makes me crumble

Imagine how he would look at me when I start staring at a dad and his little girl being happy together not crying or anything just staring wondering why he couldn’t be like that and what I did wrong to make him so angry at me

this is so long I’m sorry if this is to long or to blunt 😅😅

OH MY I hope you're okay...

but I can relate in a way, having a father who isn't from here and had a difficult childhood means he often projects his own issues onto me. I'm also very similar to him and I do everything to try to live up to his standards but that means we often just clash and argue all the time. The need for praise is probably what led me here and my obsession with older men...ANYWAYS this is going to be very self-indulgent but I hope you enjoy <3

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After a long day at work, Nanami cannot wait to come home to you. Although he knows you may not be the happiest due to him working overtime again, he hopes he can make it up to you with lots of kisses.

Just as he anticipates your standing in the kitchen with music playing while you sir of what he assumes is his favorite food. You're dancing around with an apron that says 'I love my boyfriend' tied tightly to your body. 'Hey love' he says as he walks towards you, dropping his bags in the process. You turn and smile at him bringing him into a tight hug. 'you're in a good mood' he mumbles into your neck.

'missed you' you say pecking his cheek before focusing back on the dinner. Nanami wraps his arms tight around you and begins kissing you neck sweetly.

'It smells so good my love' he says his chin resting on your shoulder 'Your such a good cook'. You lay your head on his as you begin to plate up the dinner.

Nanami can't help but notice your change in behavior as he continues to praise your hard work. 'I'm so lucky, god your amazing' he practically moans out while he takes another bite of food. Usually, you blush and get all flustered at his praises, instead, you don't touch your food at all and begin playing with your fingers under the table.

He watches as you get up and begin to wash up the dishes. Nanami thinks it's because he worked overtime and how he hasn't been as present as usual. He pushes the thoughts of insecurity to the back of his mind and walks back up to you, helping dry the dishes. 'That was perfect baby thank you' he says whilst putting a plate away.

You sigh at his words. Thoughts of memories with your father flooding through your mind. How he would dance with you in the kitchen and feed you the food he cooks. All of the good and loving memories of him fade away as Nanami continues to praise you. As much as you appreciate his support you can't help the feeling of sadness that creeps up into you. The memories of the arguments and fights with your dad and the constant trying for his appriciation.

The feeling begins flowing through your chest and your surroundings begin caving in on you. Nanami watches as you drop everything and rush off to the bathroom. He finishes up the dishes deciding on giving you some space.

The tightness in your chest only begins to get worse and you find yourself being sick. The constant thoughts of your dad and how he made you feel mixed with the love and care you so dearly miss was overwhelming. Your boyfriend is quick to rush into the bathroom and soothingly rub your back.

He doesn't question you, he just pulls you into his chest and lets you cry. The feeling begins to ease as he softly rubs circles into your back. 'come on love, let's get you to bed' he says before helping you up and laying you in bed.

Nanami cleans up the bathroom and kitchen before joining you. His fingers draw patterns on your arm as you lay on your back facing the ceiling. You cant help the thoughts that invade your mind. The good and the bad memories of your dad mixed with the anger you have for him.

The memories of how he would take you to the mall after being gone for weeks to make up lost time. And how quickly that happiness would be ruined. The arguments about your grades and lack of support he provided. Then he's gone again, whether physically or mentally it would go weeks before the cycle then repeats itself.

The lack of appreciation and support he provided is what made you fall in love with Nanami. All he does is shower you with praises and compliments and makes sure to support you in everything you do. Yet this time it was different. You couldn't help but imagine how things would be different if your own father showed you the love and affection you deserved.

'whatever bothering you love stop thinking about it.' Nanami's voice snaps you out of your thoughts 'We will deal with it tomorrow, just get some sleep'.

'Kento' you say softly turning to look at him. he hums in response 'I love you'.

He smiles widely before pressing a soft kiss to your knuckles. 'I love you to now get some sleep my love'. His words send you right to sleep. His gentle touches taking away the bad throughs and allowing you to fall softly to sleep.

'You're up early' Nanami says turning to look at you waddling out of the bedroom. You groan out in response, going to sit next to him on the sofa.

'You slept very well though, I'm proud of you' he says placing a soft kiss to your temple.

You don't know what flows through you at that moment. Whether it was anger or annoyance, you just felt like you wanted out of there. It was all getting too much. The memories and images of your father back flowing in your mind. The fighting and the screaming at one another. Just begging for his approval. You shove out of Nanami's hold moving to the other side of the sofa. 'babe what's wrong?' he asks reaching out for you.

'won't you just leave me alone' you mumble looking down at your hands. Nanami's expression is filled with confusion. He thought maybe you were just stressed yesterday and some sleep would help, but this was different. This wasn't who he knew, but that didn't mean he was going to stop trying to help. So he reaches out to you again.

But you're quick to get up from your seat and practically shout 'Leave me alone' before ranting on about how he's never home and you never see him and how bad it makes you feel.

Although slightly shocked Nanami still proceeds to reach out for you as you wave your hands around and shout. He can't shake the feeling that there is something else behind all of this. That he's somehow triggered a memory that has left you agitated.

'my love, it's okay' he says softly as he rises from his seat. 'I'm sorry I haven't been as present as usual, and I will do better from now on. I just can't shake the feeling that there's something else'

His hand reaches out for yours once more and his soft touch sends you over the edge as you begin sobbing into his chest. His arms wrap tightly around you as your clutch onto his pajama top. Your tears begin to wet his shirt but he doesn't care, he just wants to be there for you in any way he can.

After a while of holding you, your sobs begin slowing and he sits you down on his lap, rubbing circles onto your thigh. 'talk to me my love' his simple words, allows you to feel safe in his arms like he won't leave you like your father.

And so you explain everything, from the good memories from when you were young to the fights that happened when you got older. You tell him about the anger you still feel towards him but also how much you miss him and want to be his little girl again.

'oh my love that's horrible. You deserve all the love in the world and I will do everything to make sure you know that' he continues to comfort you through your breakdown until he has you giggling in his arms

'I'm serious my dad did that to me can you believe that?' he chuckles watching as you smile up at him. 'come on let's make pancakes and then maybe we can have a picnic, how does that sound?'

'it sounds perfect Kento, thank you' you say pulling him into a soft kiss.

Before you know it you're laying down in the sun with Nanami whilst he feeds you strawberries. Everything is perfect from the sweet strawberries to the way his hair softly blows in the wind.

Soft giggles can be heard not too far away and you turn to look where they're coming from. You see a young girl playing with her dad running around. Nanami is quick to notice your staring and brings a hand to your chin turning you so your eyes meet his own. 'I know that must bring such sad memories into your mind, but there's no point thinking what if, you wouldn't be the beautiful person you are today without it and I love you no matter any imperfections you think you have, to me your perfect'. He smiles down and softly kissing your lips before beginning to tickle you 'Now we've just got to make sure you know how deserving you are'.

we. you and him together. 'o-okay Kento stop that tickles!' you giggle out collapsing onto his chest.

#kentosbabes #kento nanami #nanami kento x reader #nanami kento #nanami headcanons #nanami kento drabble #jujutsu kaisen #jjk nanami #jjk x y/n #jjk #jujustu kaisen #jujutsu nanami #jujustsu kaisen x reader

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recreationalfanfics · 2 years ago

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Hello, I love your scripts so much, I revel in them every day! 😍

How about a scenario where the reader placed a yandere!adventurer in the friend zone, keeps next to him and considers him a himbo? Will he find out about it, or will he blindly feed off his obsession with the few bits of attention he can get from the object of his adoration? 👀

THE READER ISN'T WRONG, JESSE IS DEFINETLY A HIMBO TO SOME DEGREE NGL.

Jesse is a very well-sought after man, some of his adventures involving flings with other women and men but nothing that really lasted since he was always all over the world. He believed his heart just wasn't able to be tied down to a romance because his true love was adventuring...you proved him wrong, however.

The painful thing about being in love with you is that you didn't seem to love him back the way he wanted. Yes, you'd take care of him when he was sick and would scold him and make him take a break when adventuring took too much out of him, but that's just because you were a good friend and a good person. When he puts his arm over your shoulder during movie nights, you'd just laugh and unwrap it around yourself and tell him you weren't his arm rest. During moments he thought were intimate and romantic, his eyes would go half lidded and he was ready to pucker up his lips and kiss you...AND THEN YOU'D BE ALL: "Oh, WAIT, YEAH, CAN YOU DECODE THESE FOR ME? There like some old language or something but I'm so lost. You're good at them, though!" One time he overheard you and Scarlette talking and she brought up how Jesse seems to flirt with you a lot and you just snorted and cackled, "Jesse's just a goofball, he's like that with everyone." and he just nearly threw his hat to the ground to stomp on if (nearly).

You HAD to be doing this on purpose, you HAD to know that he liked you, right? That's what Jesse thinks at first but then he looks into your eyes and they're so genuine and happy around him. So welcoming and warm that his usual grin drops a little because he's helpless when you look at him like that. It's also painful because he can't see any romantic love in your eyes, no longing that tells him you want him as badly as he wants you. You just saw him as your goofy flirtatious friend who did stupid life-threatening things sometimes.

Basically, he has a mixed response; he KNOWS that you see him as a friend but he's stumped on how to jump over that hoop because usually his good looks and charm are enough but it looks like you're making him work a lil bit harder, hun. So he supposes he doesn't mind being in the friendzone as much, even if it is painful hearing you call him "broski", "buddy", "bestie", or anything like that. It's nice to have all your attention and while he doesn't know how to make you change your view on him, he knows that he can change everyone else's view on the both of you.

He's still his normal affectionate self but he'll also do little things that'll make other people think you're a couple and scare off anyone who might have their eyes on you. He'll wander off randomly which can cause you both to be late to things so you hold his hand and pull him along with you, his pearly whites flashing because he just can't fight back how happy he is. Making you laugh so hard you have to lean on him for support, causing jealous single people to glare at the both of you and shake their heads in distaste. Making it a point to call you nicknames like: "Sweet pea", "Hun", "Darlin'", "Sweetheart", "Sugar", "Sweet peach" and you don't really pay it any mind.

However if you do ever get into a relationship, he is most definetly gonna be instigating stuff so that it barely ever lasts. Like, he'll hang out with your partner and just be all: "It must be hard when (Y/n) has to work all 'em hours, ya know?" and your s/o is all: "I mean...I never thought about it before but yeah, you're right, it kinda does suck." and whenever you get into an argument with your s/o and call Jesse to rant, he's all: "Me personally? I wouldn't let that slide." and he's internally smug, watching as you two become more and more passive aggressive with each other, telling you guys that you both look super tense. Couples therapy will not help, this man is a middle child who pitted his brothers against each other for the hell of it, and he's very good at making sure you two are focused on being angry at each other.

When you finally break up, your good friend Jesse will always brighten your day but even after all of that, you still smile at him and say: "Thanks for being with me, Jesse. I'm super lucky to have a best friend like you."

and there's a weird pain in his heart, one that makes him want to just grab you and kiss you and yell about how you keep him up at night. How he never stops thinking about you, how on nights when he's off somewhere else that he sleeps with your letters under his pillow, and how he has dreams where he's got you in his arms as you decorate his face with kisses and he whispers about how much he adores you.

Instead, he rubs your back and says: "M'always gonna be there for ya, hun!"

#Yandere Adventurer #Oc: Jesse Reeves #yandere x gender neutral reader #yandere male x reader #yandere x darling #yandere x you #yandere x reader #yandere male #yandere imagines #yandere scenarios #tw yandere #male yandere oc #yandere oc #yandere oc x reader

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bentosandbox · 3 years ago

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(this isnt an ask…. sorry I’m shy so I’m just gonna drop it here if u don’t mind……..) After reading ur chen and the summer event blog, I could say I’m 100% agree. Like they clearly showed that Chen knew about how complicated the society can be and what she should and shouldn’t do back in her days working in lungmen, that was mentioned in her oprec which was released like 6 months after summer event??? Does her file imply that hoshi doesn’t know chen that well or just writers messing up big time. Oh and, they seem to never stop messing up her arts whenever there’s new clothes for chen lmao. Hopefully they do sth about chen as a character or just bring back the chen we know with Victoria arc 😔

idm using the askbox like this so no worries 👍 my copium is that the guard oprec was to repair the damage done by the summer lore lmao. somehow. and

hoshi doesn’t know chen that well

YEAH SO...... that's kinda what I think too...sorry if i've ever talked about this before somewhere maybe it was in a cc response LOL idk helium balloon brain.jpg) but the ch7 fight did solidify my reading of their relationship as one that seems pretty close and equal on the outside but then surprise! not really

they seem super tight/besties on the outside but there's like a wall that they don't cross (eg. chen never telling hoshi she was infected and slinking off to emo on her own in the oprec < have been thinking too much about this lately LOL....... especially after hoshi's module came out too, they both seem to have the trait to just prefer to stew in their difficulties alone

they say the both of them have been working so long that there is no sense of power hierarchy between the both of them (EN ver is something about there's no line between them or something iirc) but then like, ch7 happened and uhhhh basically im trying to say I really liked the JP script of the part where hoshi says 'why don't you show me what you've learnt in the last 2 years, Lady Chen' like woww she's so patronising here(i don't think she has been like this anywhere else...?) i don't think it was said lightly either because after they fought she was like 'wow i cant believe you actually cut me' like there was a (perceived and actual)power difference after all...just not in the way people thought

re:outfits yeah idk what her (art)dad is doing lol😣😣😣😣😣 i mean at least the design this time is decent(aside from the tie outside of the horrible vest what on terra) hope 3.5 has something for her i'm kinda tired of being strung along the little crumbs in the story chapters haha (despite the fun chen and bagpipe adventures) though at least it seems like she's going to have a confrontation with a certain mint cat soon so i hope we have something good there

#bentotexto #bentoask

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shenanigans-and-imagines · 4 years ago

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What movies have you seen this year, and how would you rate them?

I can't remember every film I saw this year, but these are the ones I actually saw in the movie theater.

I had never seen a Fast and Furious movie before. I did not get any of the references. It was so dumb, but weirdly what I needed in that moment. Will likely never see it again. 2/5

In the Heights

This was fun and it made me wish I could see it live on stage. I know why they decided to give this a summer release, but I kind of wished they wanted just a bit longer, maybe to next spring, to get it properly hyped. It has its problems, but the cast is stellar. 3/5

Godzilla vs. Kong

So dumb, but you saw the title. Only really came for the spectacle, which make the human characters even more useless then they normally are. Godzilla: King of the Monsters is still the superior film. 2.5/5

Black Widow

This really felt like it was the third movie in a trilogy we never got. The opening is solid and Yelena is seriously one of the best new additions to the MCU. I would have liked to tweak a few story beats Alexi as he's a character who's arc is left dangling, but it's not distracting. Not my favorite MCU film, but a solid entry. 3.5/5

Shang Chi and the Legend of the Ten Rings

The acting in this films has no right to be as amazing as it is. Everyone in this cast is amazing. The fights scenes are great, the core relationship between Shang-chi and his father is complicated and compelling, and it's just plain fun. I would have liked one more pass at the script to tighten it up in some areas and cut out a few jokes, but otherwise top tier MCU material. 4/5

Venom: Let There Be Carnage

Every bit the train wreck I hoped it would be. A true disaster. Awful. I loved it. I honestly wish it was more of a disaster. If you liked the first one, you'll like the second and if you didn't like the first one, this one won't change your mind. This is for fans of Venom (2018) and fans of Venom (2018) exclusively. 2.5/5

Last Night in SoHo

Honestly one of the the most jaw dropping movies I've seen so far. The look of this film is amazing. The soundtrack is perfection. The acting is top notch and the story thrilling. This may be a case of style over substance. I could sit down and pick at the plot holes, but I was there for the ride and it took me on one. 4/5

Eternals

I think I respect this film more than I like it. I love the different tone and look of the film. I like the more quiet and introspective moments. The characters aren't so much characters as vehicles for themes and ideas. There is a lot there you can sit down and think about, but I do think they bit off more than they could chew. At the very least, it got me curious to see more. 3/5

Belfast

Just a solid movie all around. If small stories about people just trying to figure things out while the world seems to burn around them, then this is the movie for you. The acting is top tier all around with all the characters having their own charm and life. Special shout out to Jude Hill specifically who handled a film basically being placed on his shoulders with ease. There are a few things that bothered me about the film, namely the climax, but it wasn't distracting. I'm not sure if I'll go out of my way to watch it again, but I would recommend it. 3.5/5

The French Dispatch

Classic Wes Anderson from top to bottom. This collection of short stories aren't as frenetic as something like The Grand Budapest Hotel, but they have their own low key charm and humor found in all of Anderson's work. There are some stories I certainly like more than others, but the over all quality remains consistent. 4/5

Encanto

Very sweet and just a solid family film over all. I don't think its breaking any new ground in animation or music, but there are plenty of fun characters to get attached to and a story solely focused on the complicated relationships between them. That all being said, of the animated films I saw this year, Luca is still my favorite. Still, be sure to catch this one if you get the chance. 3.5/5

West Side Story

The more I think about this movie, the more vI love it. I want to go back to the theater and rewatch it just so I can get all of my thoughts in order. The cast is just so incredible and I'm so mad people have been avoiding it because of Ansel Elgort. It is clear from every frame that nothing but love was put into this adaptation. It still have it's problems here and there, but at the end of the day they're nit picks. Nothing will replace the original, but finally, a really fucking good musical adaptation. 4/5

Spider-Man: No Way Home

I just got home from watching this one actually. I don't want to give any spoilers, so I will simply say; this movie has no right to be as good as it is. 4/5

#f9 #in the heights #godzilla vs kong #black widow #shang chi and the legend of the ten rings #venom 2 #last night in soho #eternals #belfast #the french dispatch #encanto #west side story #spider man: no way home

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visionsofus · 4 years ago

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Wanda and Vision's Mixtape Masterlist (updating now)

cover by the wonderful @jjlover01

Note: my inbox is currently open for prompt/ song submissions 🥰 (1-2wk turn around)

AoU to CW

#10 Death Stranding by CHVRCHES

what will become of us if we dare to dream? Wanda and Vision spend the night at a glitzy party for a mission and get jealous when they see each other with other people. read on AO3

# 11 Happy Together by the Turtles

the only one for me is you. In which Wanda and Vision try to deliver on a promise to cook breakfast for the rest of the team but end up goofing off together instead. read on Tumblr // AO3

#12 Where the Shadow Ends by BANNERS

put your trust in the light you cannot see. Wanda falls ill at the compound and Vision panics. Surprisingly, her illness gives them an opportunity to talk about their feelings. Wanda comes to terms with putting faith in her feelings and in Vision. read on AO3

#15 Flares by The Script

did you see the sparks filled with hope? Mere days after the battle in Sokovia Wanda is still coming to terms with Pietro's absence and the new life she is faced with in upstate New York. Waking from a nightmare she leaves sleep behind and takes solace in Vision as an unexpected comfort. Read on Tumblr // AO3

#19 Feel Something by Jaymes Young

you could be the one to make me feel. Movie night at the compound isn’t going well for Vision, and that’s even before he decides to try and be a bit more human and eat food. He manages to drunkenly confess his deepest insecurities about his own existence before the night is out. Ft. angsty Vision, jealous Vision, pining Vision and basically Vision feeling a whole array of emotions he doesn’t know how to deal with. read on Tumblr // AO3

#21 Start a Riot by BANNERS

I will tear down every wall just to bring you home. Wanda has a breakdown shortly into arriving at the compound and Vision is the only one who can get through to her. read on Tumblr // AO3

#25 Remedy by Adele

I will be your remedy. Wanda comes back injured from a mission and Vision has to come to terms with her mortality, and the limits of their relationship. Tender touching and the intimacy of tending to wounds. AO3

CW to IW

#3 Rescue my Heart by Liz Longley

Rescue my heart (I'll drown without you). In which Vision arrives to help break the Cap’s team out of Raft prison post-Civil War. Wanda recalls fond memories of the compound and comes to terms with the idea of living on the run. read on Tumblr // AO3

#5 The Best by Tina Turner

a lifetime of promises, a world of dreams. In which Wanda searches Edinburgh for Vision after she arrives late at their safehouse. When she discovers his energy signature floating around the city, she decides to follow the threads to their source. Along the journey she recalls the complications of their long-distance, secretive relationship but by the end recalls exactly why they sacrifice so much to be together. read on AO3

#6 Somewhere only we know

In which nobody died in Endgame and Vision gets the opportunity to pick up where he and Wanda left off before they were interrupted in Edinburgh. read on AO3

#7 Clarity by Foxes

don't speak as I try to leave (I'll fall right back to you). A distressed Vision shows up at Wanda’s door after a particularly bad situation goes down at the compound. She comforts him as they both try to reconcile with the very different lives they are now living. read on AO3.

#8 Our Corner of the Universe by K.S. Rhoads

Our little corner of the universe. In which Wanda and Vision are coming to the end of a few weeks together in Paris pre-IW and Wanda dreams a life for them where they no longer have to run and hide. Unknowingly, she draws Vision into her dream and they both must contend with the idea that this reality isn't something that will be easy for them. read on Tumblr // AO3

#9 If You Ever Come Back by The Script

just like you were never gone. Wanda and Vision recall an argument that forced them to go their separate ways in the early days of their relationship post-CW. Upon finding out Wanda is near the Compound Vision can't help himself and seeks her out to apologise. Read on Tumblr // AO3

#13 I Know Places by Taylor Swift

just grab my hand and don't ever drop it. Wanda and Vision try to spend a peaceful evening out for dinner in Paris when they are suddenly attacked. To keep each other safe they split up, forced to make the harrowing journey to the next safe house separately. Vision is faced with Wanda's mortality. read on AO3

#14 Me and My Husband by Mitski

when he walks in, I am loved. Vision is reminded that it is Valentine's Day and decides to show up at Wanda's safehouse to surprise her. Fluff ensues and Wanda's fugitive teammates realise exactly how close the pair have become. read on AO3

#17 Can You Feel My Heart by Bring Me the Horizon

can you feel my heart. One year into being a fugitive Wanda gets cornered, Vision sees the news in real time and runs to her aid. Aka Vision going apeshit when he thinks Wanda is dead. read on Tumblr // AO3

#18 That's All by Michael Bublé

All I have are these arms to enfold you and a love time can never destroy. Wanda and Vision share a perfect morning in Paris, snuggled up together watching the rain stream past the windows. aka 1000 words of fluff. Read on Tumblr // AO3

#20 The Scientist by Coldplay

you don't know how lovely you are. Wanda surprises Vision by breaking into the compound shortly after the fight in Germany. read on Tumblr // AO3

#23 Bury This by RVRB

I should bury this. Immediately after Wanda leaves in Civil War, Vision reflects on his feelings surrounding her departure. AO3

Post-IW

#16 Through the Fire by Jake Etheridge

I was lost (now I'm found again). The Battle of Wakanda is over. Vision knows he's gone and that there is no coming back. Taking pity on Vision, the mind stone lets him see some of his most treasured memories once more, to ease his passing. read on Tumblr // AO3

Canon Divergence

#1 Last Dance by Camera Can't Lie

If this was our last chance (I'd ask you to say). In which Civil War never happened and they all lived happily ever after. Wanda and Vision dance at one of Tony’s fancy galas and are forced to address the feelings that have become apparent to themselves, and the rest of the team. Yearning included with a happy resolution after a lil bit of angsty longing. read on Tumblr // AO3

#2 Infinity by Jaymes Young

Darling my soul, it aches for yours. In which Wanda and Vision sneak out of the compound and go on a date and just revel in the act of being together in public. The rest of the team doesn't know yet so they're working had on keeping everything a secret. When they arrive back Vision is so enamoured with Wanda that he trips the Compound alarms, waking everyone up with the fear of a break in at the front of their mind only to find the pair in a compromised position. Read on AO3

#4 Light Me Up by Ingrid Michaelson

we are tonight, we are forever. Wanda and Vision spend a domestic evening together free from the rest of the team. read on Tumblr // AO3

#22 Only Us by Ben Platt

it can be us, and only us. The Sokovia Accords are renegotiated so that the team are never divided. Following the successful signing of the document a press event is held at the compound. Wanda and Vision take a moment to breath away from the crowds, both have been holding back from each other for months, worried about risking their friendship. A simple miscommunication leads to a brief moment of angst as they realise their months of pining over each other has been mutual. read on Tumblr // AO3

#24 I Wanna Be Yours by Arctic Monkeys

I wanna be yours. Things get racy between Wanda and Vision in the compound kitchen. Vision tries to come to terms with the intensity of his feelings for Wanda. AO3

#Wandavision #scarletvision #wanda x vision #wanda maximoff #the vision #scarlet vision fanfiction #visionsofusfics #fic masterlist #my writing

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bearpillowmonster · 4 years ago

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Horizon Zero Dawn Review

The game that critics have been raving about for years and I just haven't played. I heard a lot of people say "this needs a movie" but they say that about any game that dares to be a little bit cinematic because I personally disagree.

That first part is rough, the story seems so in your face, predictable and bland but I think the problem is that it didn't know how to put in its exposition. I think it naturally builds up as it goes on, getting bigger and broader, it's just those first experiences that can be a slog because you're pretty much learning what style you're going to play in.

I got more or less everything I expected, crafting, a skill tree, various weapons. What I didn't expect though are dialogue options. You can choose normally up to four paths, an intelligent one, a compassionate one, and a straightforward one. You don't have to worry about the stress of trying to reach a specific ending because there's really only one, the only thing that affects it is the amount of people that are in it. So does that make the choices irrelevant? Yes and no because there are different dialogue options and like I said, which means that you can get certain characters to like you more given the option you choose but not in the same way that relationship points work and I definitely felt the draw to do that whenever I came across my first side-quest.

Side-quests are interesting, I love tracking things in games, though it's rare that you actually get the chance to do it and here you have a good amount of opportunities. Is that all though? Far from it. I actually found myself searching for side-quests because the first two were so satisfying. It really only began to show its hand a bit more after those quests. As I mentioned, there are a lot more RPG elements than I first imagined but it starts to send you on scavenger hunts, especially that Dreamwillow one, that one I actually laughed out loud at every time I was turned away. It also starts to gatekeep to where it recommends that you be a certain level which is...odd? I mean at face value it looks like you could rock basically any combat situation that isn't context sensitive. Leveling up gives you abilities but they're more like Deus Ex on that front, where it's just for preference and upgrading, not necessarily strength. The only thing you improve on offense wise basically boils down to having the right materials or units to buy weapons then a matter of finding modifications. Other than that, leveling up seems to just increase your health. It really just depends on the quest too because I'll play one above my level and be fine then play another that's actually under my level and feel stuck.

Now I only played it on normal mode so something like "Ultra Hard" is bound to be more demanding but as far as actual side quest content, I feel like they have potential but just need tweaked, give me more stuff for major characters that affects their standing with me. Rather than having each quest be contained in its own story, have it affect you later in the game, let your actions be shown, give it rewards and consequences. There are some really great side-quests but there are also some crappy ones, it doesn't pass that threshold that most RPGs fall under or anything. However, I did find myself doing side-quests at my own free will and the ones that I didn't like or couldn't do at the time, I just skipped and focused on something else, I felt a lot more freedom with this game, like I didn't feel forced to grind or do a certain number of side-quests or really do anything. It encourages you to explore and play the way you want to play and I respect the heck out of that. Maybe it's different for other players though.

Perhaps my favorite actual side thing was the Cauldrons for those who actually played this, you'll know why. For those who didn't, just know that it's cool and let it be a surprise for when you go to one. You might expect these big set-pieces and bosses like Uncharted or GoW, but it's not really like that. I genuinely think that this is more video-gamey than it lets on which certainly takes up its runtime. One addition to side-quests that I would like to see is one where you don't know it's happening. For example, in this game, you'll come across random hunters who are attacking or being attacked by machines but rather than just going on about your day and them going on about their's, I want to fight off the machine and the person say "You saved my life, my name's Jara, I live in the town nearby and want to repay you." so you go there and there's trouble so it starts up a side-quest. Now don't get me wrong, there are PLENTY of instances of people getting attacked actually being a mission but most of the time someone in town will just tell you "I haven't seen this person in a while, can you go check on them for me?" It's the art of subtlety and also just doing a good deed and getting rewarded for it. It's a conscious choice and split decision rather than just another checkmark on your list to complete.

Now I won't bother listing the characters and rating them but there's a certain aspect that has me really enthused So, Aloy is an outcast and a lot of these side missions and scenarios reflect her, you'll see the way she can relate with other characters, making it almost poetic in a subliminal kind of way. Then they add this tribal and futuristic setting to it where Aloy acts as the medium, there are parts of the game where she questions the tribe because they cut themselves off from technology and just don't know any better and we as a viewer know that but having the main character view things in 'our' lens is pretty genius. To top that off, they give her enough personality to be her own character while giving us enough power to influence her so that we ourselves can REFLECT WITH HER. It's not her character that I'm impressed with, it's the layout of the story.

So, how is the main story? It's kind of like the Flood scenario in Halo if I'm being honest. I'm not going to spoil anything but it's passable, like I said, it's not like an Uncharted and it's not like a movie. The visuals just look good at times (I took all the pictures in this review myself and so much more!). I'd call it a futuristic/tribal mix between Shadow of the Tomb Raider and Skyrim but I see elements of a lot of things. (Also since it's post apoctalypic, you find items that we see in modern day, like how they call keys, "chimes"! They think they're windchimes because there are no more cars! I love that!)

It actually does a pretty good job at being an open world considering that there are tons of things to do on your routes as well as collect but it's not so much so that it seems unfeasible, as I said, I found myself doing a good chunk of the side stuff just because it was fun to do and I'm not even close to a completionist for any game. If you mess up, healing plants will still be there. As long as you save, enemy parts will still be there. A place can be cleared out and conquered so that enemies don't come back. The actual towns are peaceful so you can't get mangled by any bots outside of scripted instances.

The graphics are pretty good but I can see some error here and there, nothing necessarily game breaking but the animations and AI are definitely janky at times. It's pretty obvious from the get-go but I'll do my best to specify and give constructive criticism on what I found wrong with certain aspects of the game. Rost is slow, like slower than walking speed but that's not to speak for all NPCs, some run, some you don't need to follow, it was really just him. I've had NPCs who fight but miss every single time on simple enemies (that might not be a bug, that might just be a funny bit that someone decided to add in). Sabretooths have jumped through walls (granted the walls were kinda broken but I'm not sure if those big boys can fit when they can barely find the entrance) I found myself jumping to a ledge or on a rope but not land it and just drop (it really boils down to loosening the hit box for that). Which to add on to that, I would like more places to climb and jump to in general (other than stupid mountains). I felt like there wasn't really enough that I could climb and the places that I could, could've been a bit more obvious that I could, maybe even make it viewable with your focus if you don't want it to be visually outstanding. There's a day and night cycle and while I like that, I found some of the contrast to be annoying because I could be staring a ladder right in the face and not even know it sometimes because it would be so dark. I'm not going to complain too much about it because I didn't turn my brightness up, I just left it at default and I would assume the PS5 version fixes some of those little things.

Now, this one is kind of a gray area: Hiking up mountains. Skyrim, Fallout, and Death Stranding went too far and gave little to no barriers. They had you looking for sweet spots that weren't there in order to cheese your way through an area either on or off a beaten path. But I would compare this to something like GTA where it's not as bad and does have its limits but might need tightened up some more because I can certainly get to places that lead to nowhere.

I've made headshots that don't make contact or damage while using precision. Part of that problem was that they could be high up in a tower (which have spikes sticking out) and I would hit ABOVE the logs, to make a headshot but since it was in that vicinity, it registered that as the spikes' hitbox so it wouldn't cause any damage and just alert the enemy (same if I was in the tower, looking down). Input lag where I hit up button on the D-Pad to regain health and I have to keep pressing it. If I had to guess, you have to meet the requirements of not taking damage, staying still, etc in order for it to actually work but it doesn't really have a reason to do that and it doesn't "tell" you that those are the requirements (as far as I know).

During the final boss, one of the enemies hit me into a rock wall, trapping me inside of it and the boss was already half health so I really didn't want to have to restart (I also didn't know how far back the checkpoint was) so I kept shooting stuff and eventually the boss destroyed the wall, allowing me to get out (timed section, by the way). There have been a few times where a tree or leaf or something is obstructing a cutscene and sometimes there will be a mech in the background screaming over the NPC talking, which I'm sure is due to the cutscenes being real-time which is still pretty impressive. Now are these errors all the time? No, not at all, I'm just pointing out that some times these things happened and that I felt it needed ironed out but I wouldn't call this half baked or an unfinished product or anything, it's nowhere near that level. I get that there are so many NPCs that it's hard to account for them all with facial animations but whenever they're talking, it seems pretty static and sometimes the lips don't line up. There's this one guy who says that he got lost in a sandstorm but he's standing in snow. Again, little nitpicks in an otherwise great game.

Now, I got this game for free as a Playstation promotion but that doesn't necessarily mean it'll be great, I played a little bit of that Ratchet & Clank reboot that was offered and I wasn't impressed, I quit after the first few worlds and was glad I didn't buy it at launch, (despite being a classic PS2 R&C fan) but we're not here to review that. I also played Abzu and loved it but it was short so it was definitely worth a play but maybe not 60$ (I actually think it's 20$ at this point though). With this game, it's the whole complete edition with DLC and everything, it has the length, so it really just boils down to "Would I have spent money on it otherwise?"

I think I would've if I knew more about it because I think it just got better and better after that first part of the game. It's marketed a bit differently than what I ended up getting but I found myself pouring hours into this game and loving it for one reason or another. I actually bought Shadow of the Colossus along with it (which is considered a cult classic) but I liked Horizon so much better, definitely worth its full price in my opinion. (So your promotion worked on me Sony, congrats) It has its problems but the potential is there and I feel like a sequel would probably iron out a lot of my troubles with it, so it's definitely a franchise worth investing into.

If you're interested in what I thought of the DLC alone (if you didn't get the Ultimate edition and are wondering if the extra content is worth it) I have a separate post that goes into that here.

#hzd #horizon zero dawn #review #game #4/5

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buriedsecretspodcast · 2 years ago

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Embarking on a quest to write more

I'll start with the tl;dr: I want to try to write more often. Specifically, I'd like to aim for "near-daily" blog posts, with a goal of publishing something approximately five days per week and accompanying it with a piece of art. I almost certainly won't hit that goal, but it feels like a good number to aim for.

Why?

I recently dropped an episode about a book that I really liked called Consorting with Spirits by Jason Miller. In the book, Miller talks about how when interacting with the paranormal, it's important to prepare less and risk more. In the episode, I talk about how I recognize that I need to take that advice to heart. When interacting with the paranormal, I often doubt myself and try to talk myself out of what I actually experienced.

And I do that even in the moment, while the strange thing is happening, which Miller explains is the exact moment when you should not be doubting yourself. (He basically says you can doubt yourself anytime afterwards, when you're analyzing what you've been told her what you've encountered. But if you do it in the moment, it shuts down that part of your brain that helps to process the unusual and paranormal and psychical.)

As I was working on editing the episode, I realized that the maxim prepare less, risk more applies to me more than I would like it to, and more than in just my paranormal experiences. I have very strong perfectionist tendencies, and I'm the sort of person who creates large amounts of art and then just never shares it with anybody.

Here are a couple examples:

Starting last May, I decided that I was going to do a drawing every single day. A YouTuber I like, struthless, talked about a challenge that he undertook where he drew the same thing every day for a year because that sort of repetition forces you to be more creative in your artistic approach. I chose ravens and crows as my subject matter. And while, of course, I missed a few days, I did, for about eight months, draw a raven pretty much every day. I didn't quite make it to a year, because while I love birds and love ravens and crows in particular, I did get to a point where there were tons of other things I wanted to draw and I felt like the creativity challenge was stifling me rather than helping me. (Though it did help built a daily drawing habit!) However, despite having drawn hundreds of ravens, I've shared maybe five of them? Probably fewer. Why? It's not like ravens are particularly off topic or outside of my niche, because ravens have a creepy vibe and one literally appears on the podcast logo. But I just usually choose not to share them just... because.

I create episode art for every episode, and yet I very rarely share that art on social media. The drawings appear on my website and on the specific podcast episodes—for podcatchers that support episode specific art—but I could be using them as social media assets and I just . . . don't.

I could go on, talking about how many first drafts of novels I've written but not edited to publishable form, or how many episode scripts and notes for episodes that I have not recorded yet, either because I felt like they weren't quite good enough, or I needed to do a little bit more research and put some finishing touches on them before I could let them go out into the world. But I think you get the point. I don't think that all art needs to be shared, but I also know I'm holding myself back by sharing so little of what I do.

Things that have helped

Often, when being less charitable about my own shortcomings, I feel that I am too flighty and get bored with new projects. (I think that's a feeling that many neurodivergent people grapple with.) I'm proud of the fact that this podcast has been running for almost three years now. It has become a data point that I use to convince myself that I can focus on things, I can create finished products and share them with the world, and I don't lose interest in projects.

The podcast has helped me fight some of my more perfectionist qualities. My audio quality can only be so good; I live in a noisy area and I have to deal with noisy radiators that like to kick up anytime I happen to be recording an episode during the chilly months. Because I am on a consistent schedule, I have to keep putting out podcasts, whether or not the script feels completely good to me (and by good, of course I mean perfect, and nothing can clear that bar).

But I'm able to tell myself that a podcast is not an indelible object that is expected to be perfect or close to perfect. It's casual and conversational. As a medium, it's not known for being particularly polished. That allows me to let go of some of my perfectionism around podcasting.

(Of course, that doesn't stop me from fixating on moments when I misspeak or on those pauses when my brain clearly buffers in the recording--I trim those down, but I can still hear them. Also, there are definitely episodes that make me cringe, but so far I've managed to keep myself from going back into the file and recording updates and qualifications.)

Show your work

Austin Kleon, an artist and writer who focuses on creativity, has a book called Show Your Work. The book is exactly what it sounds like, and it's geared toward artists who hate self-promotion. If you want to be an artist or a creative of some kind, there's no point in creating art in isolation. You have to show people the work that you're creating.

In the book, he talks about how his own blog has been so important to his development as an artist and has led to so many connections, opportunities, and friendships. He talks about how it's important to have a body of work online, even if it isn't 100% polished. It's okay to put out things that are in progress and rough. People are interested in the creative process and the thoughts that people have while they are creating things, not just the finished product.

Despite having read this book multiple times, I still have trouble showing my work. I have my podcast, but I tend to just... not promote it, at times. The same goes for my artwork. Even though I finish a drawing almost every day, I rarely share that artwork with others except maybe—sometimes—my wife. When I started the podcast, I decided to do episode-specific art to literally force myself to share some of my work publicly.

Digital commonplace books

One of my favorite thinkers, science fiction author Cory Doctorow, is someone who, like Kleon, blogs frequently. Doctorow writes a blog post pretty much every weekday. I recently read an essay that he wrote, where he compared his tendency to write daily blog posts with old commonplace books, which people would use to record their thoughts and information that they wanted to remember.

He said his blog was a sort of digital commonplace book, which contains his thoughts on different topics as they were evolving and as he was developing them. Over time, it becomes a source of inspiration and research for him to dive back in and find tidbits that he might need in the future.

To quote from his essay:

Peter “peterme” Merholz coined the term “blog” as a playful contraction of “web-log” — like a ship’s log in which hardy adventurers upon the chaotic virtual seas could record their journeys. Though “blogs” have always been a broad church, there’s a kind of platonic ideal of a blog that’s right there in the term’s etymology: the blog as an annotated browser-history, like the traveler’s diaries my family kept on vacations, recording which hotels we stayed in and what they were like, where we dined and what we ate, which local attractions we visited and how we felt about them. Like those family trip-logs, a web-log serves as more than an aide-memoire, a record that can be consulted at a later date. The very act of recording your actions and impressions is itself powerfully mnemonic, fixing the moment more durably in your memory so that it’s easier to recall in future, even if you never consult your notes. The genius of the blog was not in the note-taking, it was in the publishing. The act of making your log-file public requires a rigor that keeping personal notes does not. Writing for a notional audience — particularly an audience of strangers — demands a comprehensive account that I rarely muster when I’m taking notes for myself. I am much better at kidding myself my ability to interpret my notes at a later date than I am at convincing myself that anyone else will be able to make heads or tails of them.

Zettlekasten

The essay is excellent, and you should just read that, but I love this idea of thinking about daily blogging as a sort of repository of ideas or digital commonplace book. I am a enthusiastic user of the zettelkasten method of taking notes, which has a fairly similar vibe.

I'll have to write about zettlekasten another time, because it's something I am passionate about. In the six months that I've been using it, the method has helped me so much with my research and with synthesizing and developing my own ideas. I'm a real PKM (personal knowledge management) nerd, no surprise there.

But to be brief: The zettlekasten method involves taking in information from books and articles and other sources, and then putting it into your own words and synthesizing your own ideas around them—and putting all of that into an atomized, interconnected notetaking system. That aspect of a zettelkasten system has a lot in common with the idea of blogging daily, and I think that these two ideas mesh nicely.

Sharing

I'm also very inspired by the artist Todd Purse, who posts a daily drawing and accompanying podcast episode. His work is so lovely and always puts a smile on my face, and I admire his talent, dedication, and positivity.

I know that sharing more and would be helpful for me in my paranormal research. I also have plenty of things to say about some subjects that aren't ready for their own episode, and I can only assume that spreading information within the community would be helpful.

It's not that I think my ideas are so groundbreaking, but I consume a lot of information. I don't like my tendency to hoard what I've learned just because I think my presentation of the knowledge isn't good enough. Kleon includes an Annie Dillon quote in his book that really stuck with me: "The impulse to keep to yourself what you have learned is not only shameful, it is destructive. Anything you do not give freely and abundantly becomes lost to you. You open your safe and find ashes."

Also, hopefully, by putting these things in blog posts, I will allow myself to be a little bit less strict about how good—or perfect—something needs to be.

Just like the necessity of publishing my podcast helps me be less of a perfectionist, I hope that this will help me put my thoughts into writing and share my art, which I plan to post alongside my blog posts, and not hold back so much.

I really want to try to embody the idea of preparing less and risking more. And I think this is a great way for me to do that. I almost certainly won't be blogging everyday, or even five days a week, but even aiming for the goal of blogging five days a week should help me create a lot of new and interesting stuff. So this is the beginning of my quest to try to prepare less, risk more, and share more with my community. And if you recognize any of these tendencies in yourself, I can only encourage you to find a way to share your work, as well.

Note: I'll be cross posting these essays on Medium and in my newsletter, so you can read them or sign up to receive them either place, if that's easier for ya. This post originally went live on 03/13/23.

#paranormal #zettlekasten #writing #creativity #imagination #paranormalinvestigator #cryptidacademia #cryptidcore

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