#IGNORE THIS LMAO

[queeriouslyollie]

ACTUAL BRAINWORMS AHEAD ABOUT TROY

i like actually have SO many thoughts about troy yall dont understand. i have so much to say that i dont remember ANY OF IT TO PUT HERE.

its also been to the point that like. its all i think about. its so bad rn too bc i ran outta both my antidepressants and adhd meds (fuck pharmacies theyre all a pain in the ass omg) and so my brain is this mushy slurry of just. troy troy troy wonderlust runt troy troy blink troy. i literally could not focus at work today i had to write in my journal so that i didn't implode.

anyways after this point there are spoilers so dont read on. i woulda tagged it but this post is gonna be so rambly and full of my brainworms that i dont know if i wanna tag this at all lmao. so anyways yeah brainrot brainworms warning if you read ahead,

so yeah i have some like ideas on what troys whole deal is (besides being our [recovering :3] asshole nepo baby).

like first of all, 100% trans coded (like all of charlies characters, like wtf how is this cis guy better at being trans than i am??). please let it be canon i am begging

second, im torn between the theories of him being a little clockwork guy or being a hybrid (like runt and blink n the reclaim guys). its hard to tell what's cannon and what is troy mode comedy shit, but it seems like we may not have ever canonically? gotten a description/confirmation of what is actually under troys suit, and obviously not what may be under his skin. if he is a hybrid that could have some really fucked up connotations asw

third, whats his deal with his family? it's basically been confirmed that his mom's dead (or otherwise just OUT of the picture). his dad is around, for a bit i was SO convinced his dad was gonna be the inventor. either way, whats the deal between them? just nepo neglect? or something worse? i have a feeling either way i WILL be ugly crying. again. to jrwi. about a charlie character. and also siblings?? he said he had a brother. but then when the yort appeared he said he always wanted a brother? so maybe bad relationship there too?

also??? like his character growth?? the amount he has started to be able to convey his respect and care for the team. i love the little part about runt having an actual feeling of looking up to him when they sled down the mountain. they are so sibling coded. troy and blink's little arc was so good too (also like. malewife troy. all im saying about that). and his whole thing in ep 22, the way he was able to twist the perceptions people have of him, and even the fucked up shit he has done, to manipulate (gaslight gatekeep girlboss) his way through that situation. and the team letting him take the reigns!!!!! anyways this makes me wanna compile a list of my fave quotes/interactions/moments/etc from the campaign. i just might.

i genuinely dont know why im SO attached to this goddamn character. theoretically? i should hate him. he is like, literally antithetical to everything i am and stand for. literally a foil to who i am as a person. but like???? idk. as ive said before he's the first character ive ever understood and felt the "i can fix them" thing about lmao. and he has shown character growth,

and to me he seems. misguided? maybe even hurt? by those around him. it seems like those who should have nurtured him failed him. and like. i really empathize that. i kinda feel that a little too much (but from a different lens bc i am the furthest thing from a nepo baby lmfao). and not to psychoanalyze him (more), it seems to me that maybe deep down he thinks very lowly of himself. bro is literally prince charming but was surprised when aeon called him pretty boy?? like i mean obv, he's not the brightest guy around, but i also think he should give himself more credit where its due, and he might not appreciate his achievements enough and seems to beat himself down when he doesnt reach his own standards. he also seems very touch starved (or just. any [authentic] slightly positive interaction starved in general)

or maybe im just projecting too hard onto him oops lmao. thats the vibe i get tho

if you read all this i think youre probably just as ill as i am about this guy and like. respect. or maybe youre just bored or thought there would be something smart in here, in which case i deeply apologize for my word vomit

anyways i think im gonna go rewatch wonderlust from the start for like the fifth time. or riptide for the like 12th (god give us our funy lil pirates back!!!) because. i lobv them

[varpusvaras]

*Looks at Alpha "fuck them kids and fuck you too"- Seventeen: Yeah, no, he gotta be pregnant

[just-cutie-avocado]

Am I the only one who thinks Kevin is cute??-

yep he's a regular grumpy nerd

and grumpy people are often the most adorable

so that mean I definitely love him

[idiotsama]

[rom-e-o]

oops

Welp, my sense of hunger is officially gone. I've lost an additional 30 lbs/15 kg in the past two months, and it keeps going down. It might result in my medication being pulled because of a dangerously low weight. Period is officially gone for a second month too.

"Just eat more. It's so easy."

Can't argue with you, I guess.

[sophie-avocado-girl]

silly

silly babygirl

just look at this adorable lil thing

[sourstr4wberi]

If my mom comes back istg I'm going to have an increase in crash outs

[mailb0xbunii]

[disneyparksattractionstournament]

I CANT BELIEVE I WAS WATCHING 'BOO TO YOU', AKA, ONE OF THE BEST DISNEY WORLD PARADES EVER (Under SpectroMagic tbh) EXACTLY A WEEK AGO.

(and now I'm eating disney chocolate coins in bed looking at my disney castle "wall tapestry" that is actually a shower curtain that my roommate said no to😅🤣)

[johnny-but-emo]

thinkign of making an ask blog

[shreeky]

evil boop for @antireactionary

[autistic-katara]

why r dreams sometimes like: “here’s some weird shit but it has an interesting plot and u got rlly attached to the people in it so u have new ocs now” and other times ur brains just like “hmmmmmm what would the worst situation u could find urself in? let’s put u in that :)”

[just-cutie-avocado]

Seems like I'm into FPE now...

:_3

[leechlovely]

I want what Griffith has (Guts)

[demon-princess13]

why is it SO much cheaper to go CAN>UK than UK>CAN?!?

like some tickets double!? actually wtf

i just wanna smoke up some homies but maybe in a couple paychecks 😂🫡

[smallratboy]

Shoutout to that UPS guy who stopped his truck in busy traffic to help me cross. Shoutout to that kid who pet my dog. Shoutout to that cashier who helped me realize i was trans. Shoutout to that doctor who talked with me about green day. Shoutout to that substitute teacher who gave me awesome movie recommendations. Shoutout to that homeless woman who complimented my hair.

To all the people who i’ve met and who changed my life in small but irreversible ways, thank you❤️