#Kang Daniel hard thoughts

[kcake555]

Kang Daniel cake 🍰

[jenniesicecream]

I Hate That I Love You (Danielle x M Reader)

"Your ex is looking at us." Your best friend, Pham Hanni informed you. You chugged your beer down while maintaining an eye towards the mirror behind Hanni, allowing you to see the extent of the jealousy shown in the eyes of Danielle Marsh, your ex girlfriend, or you should add, your ex-fiance to be, as she broke it off just a week before you planned to propose to her.

"I know. Let's make her jealous even more shall we?" You said to Hanni, making her smirk. She then got closer to you and wrapped her hands around your neck, tilting your head allowing your lips to meet hers. Dani watched the two of you in fury, as her grip on the glass tighten. Unbeknownst to her, you and Hanni were just there, putting your foreheads against each other, just laughing and chuckling, imagining Dani's reactions while also adding some jokes, making the two of you chuckle even more.

Suddenly, you jolt backwards in surprise as you felt the fury in Danielle, watching as she pulled Hanni's hair for a few seconds. It didn't take long before you intervened, holding Dani back as you grabbed her hands and held her back. You guide her out of the bar and down into your dorm. You entered your spacious dorm and and immiediately went to the living room, putting Dani down on the sofa, with you following her afterwards.

"What the fuck was that?" You asked, watching as Dani took hard and deep breathes, trying to compose herself. "What was what?" The first words came out of Dani's mouths. "Don't give me that bullshit Dani, I know what you've been up to tonight." You told her. "If so, why did you continue it?" She said sternly, making you gulp. "B-Because.." You say, before she interrupted you again. "YOU FUCKING KNEW WHAT'S UP ALL THIS TIME AND NEVER THOUGHT TO CHECK UP?" Dani started raging at you, throwing different pillows at you.

"D, just calm the fuck down, please. Take deep breathes." You said, trying to get closer to her. "N-NO! JUST WHEN EVERYTHING IS CLOSE, MY LIFE FELL APART, AND THE WORST THING IS, YOU WEREN'T THERE TO CATCH ME!" You watch as Danielle screamed her heart out, before getting into a sobbing mess. You immediately got close to her and hug her, comforting her as she cried her heart out.

"Shhh shhhh, it's okay love, I'm here for you." You said, caressing her back and shoulders, leaving kisses on her forehead a few times. It took a while before Dani hugged you back, wrapping her arms around your torso. It didn't take any longer before the two of you got too exhausted from the stress this whole thing has created, causing you two to fall asleep in each other's arms.

(Next Morning)

"So, what should we do about them?" Your bestfriend, Kang Haerin, said, to Hanni. "I say we let them be, but before that...." You and Dani groaned, reacting to a flash that suddenly occurred, making you open your eyes. You were greeted by the sight of Hanni and Haerin waving at the two of you. However, what surprised you more was the warmth you felt across your body, as well as the arms of someone wrapped around your body.

You looked down, and your worst nightmares came true, as you saw Danielle Marsh wrapped around your arms. What's worse, is probably the fact that her eyes were wide open, staring at you. "WHAT THE FUCK!" The two of you shout at each other, before getting away from each other. The sudden noise also surprised your two friends as they jumped in surprise. "Alright, since you two are awake, I hope you two remember how much you still love each other, and proceed to make babies. Bye!!!!" Hanni said, before leaving your dorm with Haerin, leaving the two of you in awkward silence, as your so-called "bestfriend" just spilled your heart out to your ex.

"So uh, I did the talking last night, I guess now is your turn." Dani said. "Whoa whoa, why should I talk?" You ask her in disbelief, trying to stir away from the conversation which clearly states how much you still love her. "Just explain yourself you sick bastard, Hanni already spilled half of it, now's time for you to finish it." Dani said.

"A-A-Alright, fine." You said, before you sat back down on your sofa, Dani closely following you. "It was 2 months after our break up. I saw you leaving the club with Jack, making out with each other, and since then, it just got downhill. I got into a spiral, lost control of my tasks, activities, and at every point I just thought you'll catch me, but you didn't. That was clearly when it hurt me the most, and it was really the time I realized that I still love you and regret letting you go." You said, watching as Dani take in each word.

"Fuck it." You turned your head hearing her words and you were, at the very least, surprised, when you felt her lips on yours. You took a few seconds before realizing what she is doing. After you realized, you immediately replied to her kiss, kissing her even more aggressive than what she's done. She wrapped her hands around your neck, allowing the two of you to continue kissing before you grab her by her hips, lifting her up onto your lap. You helped remove her outer before throwing it away, allowing you to move your kisses down onto her neck, collarbone and exposed shoulders. It didn't take long before Dani started moaning, making you smirk as you know that your effect on her is still the same after all this time.

After a while, you felt Dani unbutton your polo, before she tried to lift it up. Knowing what she wants, you lift your clothes up and threw it to the side, watching as Dani stared your toned body down. "Get up." You told her, and she obeyed immediately. You then leaned upwards a bit, before moving your hands onto her pants. You unbuckled her belt before lowering her pants and her black Calvin Klein panties, exposing her glistening pussy. "Tell me, is there anyone as good as me?" You ask, leaning in to start kissing her thighs. You moved your kisses upwards while waiting for an answer. "N-No." You heard Dani whimper. Knowing this, you smirked before diving into her pussy immediately, earning a moan from her.

You lick the outer part of her pussy while also playing with her clit. It didn't take long before she pushed your head in, asking for more, and that's what you gave her as you start sucking the insides of her pussy aggressively. At the same time, you also played with her tits through her bra as well as rub her clit aggressively, helping her get close to her orgasm. The effect is very clear as she started leaking her juices not long after. You moved to also fingering her while also sucking her pussy even more aggressively, helping her get to her impeding orgasm as she squirt her juices out of her pussy aggressively. You lapped her juices up while also fingering her even faster, helping her intensify her orgasm.

"I bet no guy made you cum that hard before." You said, before standing up and carrying her bride-style. "Argh! And no, no one ever did." Dani said, as you carry her into your room. You laid her down on your bed before you removed your pants, while you also watch her remove her bra and throw it to the side. You were about to reach to the bedside drawer to grab condoms, but Dani held you down. "Go raw. Please." Dani begged, and you followed her wishes. You slapped your cock on her pussy a few times, before gliding it up and down on her clit, making her whine, before you thrust into her unexpectedly, making her moan.

You rested inside her for a few moments before you start fucking her, thrusting in and out of her at a slow pace, while resting your hands on her hips, as you allow her to feel every inch of your cock. Soon after, you start thrusting deeper into her, still maintaining the slow pace, making Dani whine even more. "I'm here to get railed, not get fucked by a grandpa." Dani whined.

Hearing this, you pulled out of her and flipped her around, before you raised her ass and spanked it a few times, entering her tight pussy again. "I'll show you what it feels like getting railed." You say, before you start thrusting hard and fast into her. Your tip just stayed at the edge of her pussy before you thrust into her after each thrust, allowing you to widen her pussy after each thrust. Her then-tight pussy, now already widened from your thrusts, still maintained the warmth, which got you close to your orgasm.

You grabbed her hair into a ponytail and pulled it, making her yank her head back as her moans got louder, while your thrusts got harder and deeper, allowing you to find her g-spot. You found it again and again, which was basically a cheat code in your favor, helping her reach her climax as she came again, this time not as hard as before. You rest inside her while you fondled with her tits, helping her prolong and intensify her orgasm.

After she finished cumming, you pulled out of her and turned her around, setting her on her back again you start fucking her again this time in missionary. However, unlike previously, you're fucking her to chase your own orgasm as you thrust hard and fast into her while you also held her hips, stabilizing her body. Dani also helped you by wrapping her arms around your neck and legs around your hips allowing you to thrust deeper into her. "I know you're close baby, just cum inside me, I'm safe." Dani said, before she suddenly moaned loudly, making you know that you hit a spot. Your thrusts got very hard and deep into her for a few times before you came.

"Ahhhhh AHhhhh AHhhh AHhhhh" You groaned into her ears repeatedly as you came, spurting your 2-month worth of cum into her womb. Dani moaned loudly after each spurt enter her, and seemed to never stop as you continued cumming into her. After you finished, you pulled out of her and you were about to get up, but you were instead pulled into an intense kiss by Dani. You replied to the kiss with the same passion, as the two of you kissed until you two fell asleep.

[modanisgf]

001. TRAPHOUSE (WRITTEN)

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— IF y/n was sure about anything it was the fact that she was going to kill kang yunseo. the girl was giggling beside her as their manager told y/n about an upcoming awards show, and the fact that she would be an mc for it.

if this was any other day, y/n sure as hell wouldn’t have agreed but fortunately for her danielle from newjeans would be her partner. you would be lying if you said you hadn’t developed a liking to the girl, despite your limited interactions. yunseo knew this, causing her to tell their manager that y/n wanted the job badly without ever telling her.

the youngest member of saturnz was always starting some kind of trouble, so y/n couldn’t exactly be surprised. the girl let out a sigh as the two of them were finally excused from the meeting, y/n's eyes never meeting yunseo’s as she stared her down.

“are you mad?” she asks quietly, making the older girl shake her head.

“why would i be mad yun?” y/n says to the younger girl, giving her a small smile.

“this gives me a chance to talk to danielle, so thank you.” she says, a smile emerging on yunseo’s face at her words.

“yeah, don’t blow it y/n.” she says smirking, making y/n groan.

“we can’t ever have a sweet moment.”

—

y/n had always loved the sunset. it calmed her to see the bright orange circle set, ending the day, finally. she sat on the couch that was near the window, her attention fully turned to the sky as the sun set. it was sad y/n couldn’t go outside and see it, but she managed.

aera sits down next to y/n, the girl taking in the beautiful colors in front of her.

“it’s always so pretty,” aera says softly, whispering it in a low tone to her younger member.

“i know, it reminds me of home.” y/n responds before continuing to bask in the beauty of the sunset. a smile arose on her face, making aera smile.

"are you ready for tomorrow?" she asks, to which y/n nods.

"it'll help us, i hope.” y/n says quietly.

“y/n..”

“aera, we need any publicity we can get.” y/n states firmly, the thought of everything that had happened so far since debut irritating her.

aera nods silently, choosing not to fight with y/n today. the girl was determined to get her members and her out, she’d do anything for them.

the silence was loud as y/n’s head hit her pillow, making her wince at the hardness of it.

“jia, did you put something under my pillow again?” y/n says, glaring at her other member laying in a small bed next to her.

“oh yeah my bad, i forgot to get my walkie talkie from under there.” jia says, trying to suppress her laughter.

“are you serious?” y/n says, in disbelief.

“no! i don’t know what’s under your pillow?” jia says, appalled at her members stupidity.

y/n rolled over quickly, picking up the pillow to reveal a small box.

“how the hell did you miss that?”

“oh shut up!”

y/n took the box in her hands, opening it carefully as if it was an artifact. the box revealed a small bracelet, having letter beads on it. it spelt out ‘saturnz’, following a heart.

“aera.” y/n says softly, trying to hold back her tears.

jia sat up, looking at the bracelet with a smile on her face.

“she always knows how to make us happy.” jia says, looking at y/n now.

even if it was such a small gesture, it didn’t fail to make y/n smile. aera knew she felt down earlier, so she made her a bracelet to remind her of her members when she was out. y/n sighed, the girl was always so thoughtful.

“i wouldn’t trade it for the world.”

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kang haerin x fem! reader

synopsis: after distancing yourself from a friend you've unfortunately fallen for, the rest of the group catches onto her sour mood, and all fingers point to you

genre + others: fluff, mutual pining, friends to lovers, non-idol au, high school setting, friend group is rly just nwjns + yn

notes: i swear yail update will come i just had this in my drafts and felt bad for not posting for a while!!, requested, IM SO SORRY IT TOOK THIS LONG I REALLY WANTED TO BE IN TBE MOOD WHEN I WROTE THIS 😭😭😭😭 luckily haerin posted some pics that ive gotten completely insane over.. so!

you and haerin always had something special between the both of you.

you two met in middle school, when your homeroom teacher was assigning seats. she was a quiet kid, and so were you, but one of you had to get over it. so when the class was given a paired activity to "get-to-know each other", you were forced to come out of your shell, and haerin welcomed you (surprisingly) warmly.

it started off as a strictly-seatmate type of friendship, where you two would only interact whenever it was needed. but as you spent more and more time working on assigned activities together, you were beginning to realize that maybe you enjoyed her company more than you thought, and so did she.

eventually, you two began spending time together outside of class; during recess, lunchtime, sometimes after class in the library. it didn't take long until the both of you became really close, a known tandem. you were her closest friend, she was yours, and everyone knew that.

over time, your friends became hers as well, and so whenever everyone was free, your little friend group composed of minji, hanni, danielle, haerin, hyein, and you, would hang out together. at a clubroom, the courtyard, the gymnasium, a cafe, the cafeteria, anywhere.

but no matter how many close friends surrounded you two, it seemed clear to anyone that you were closer to each other than anyone else. the same way hanni was to hyein, and minji was to danielle.

now your feelings for haerin grew a couple years later, and you only admitted them to yourself in your sophomore year of high school. that's about four years or so since you two met, and about a year ago from today.

from the beginning, you had always found haerin pretty. it wasn't hard to admit. she was nice to look at, and the way her cat-like eyes turned into crescent moons whenever she smiled ear to ear... yeah, you knew you were enjoying it a little too much.

and it only worsened the more you got to know each other, because you found out there were so many things to adore.

the way she wouldn't stop talking about frogs, her love for tomatoes, her eyes and the way she blinks slowly when she looks at something she loves (a cat-like habit you picked up when she was watching a recipe video for an avocado dish).

the list could go on and on if no one stopped you, and after talking about it to your mom (who was very supportive of everything, by the way), you came to the conclusion that you liked haerin, in a "more-than-a-friend way".

but you had no idea, not a single clue, on what to do with that realization. what would happen if you told her? if you didn't? would she feel the same? would she be disgusted if she didn't?

crushes and romance was one of the most untouched conversation topics between the two of you, so you had no idea if she was even open to such ideas.

but the one thing you knew for sure, was that she was your best friend, and you were hers. you loved your best friend, and so did she. in a different way, or not, you felt like she still deserved to know. you hated hiding things from her, and history proves it only made things worse whenever you did.

so you decided to confess. great!

and suddenly you see her acting all lovey dovey with danielle.

well, in retrospect, they weren’t exactly being lovey dovey, and you kind of knew that.

danielle was just big on affection, as she was to everyone, and is one of the few people whose pda was complied with (or tolerated) by haerin.

and despite not being much of a pda fan, in that moment, you badly wanted to be in danielle’s place, comfortably smothering your best friend with all the love in the world.

oh, and it didn’t help that people started a couple rumors about them being a couple.

sure, everyone knew you were each other’s number one, each other’s best of best friend, but the way you two showed affection with each other was very different from the way danielle does, to again, everyone, but you didn’t care about that.

the bitter sting in your stomach seeing the two of them made you realize that it was probably a much better idea to just get rid of your feelings (you’re an idiot, you’ve had them for years. they won’t just go away). after all you didn’t want to ruin what you had with two of your closest friends.

and with that goal in mind, so began your plan to avoid kang haerin at all costs!

you’re really stupid.

in the process of avoiding haerin, you indirectly were avoiding the rest of the girls too. you mostly hung out with your other classmates from different subjects like woonhak and eunchae. and whenever you were asked about it by hanni (mostly), you shrugged it off and said it was just “school things you needed help with”.

it was a dumb excuse. everyone knew you were at least top 5 of the class. and what kind of help were you getting if you were going out to places like arcades and karaoke spots anyways?

the girls were bothered, but not as much as haerin was. she was often visibly in a sour mood, ate half of her usual cafeteria servings, and would talk a lot less than she already did.

they were worried for the both of you simultaneously, but hyein and minji put two and two together, which only doubled their worry.

initially, it was just you and haerin's separate well-being they were concerned about, but now that they realized the time frame in which you began distancing yourself matched up with when haerin's mood went down, they were now also worried about what could've happened between you two.

so they took it amongst themselves to at least know what was going on.

"haerin-ah."

"haerin."

"kang."

"kang haerin!"

haerin looked up from her untouched tray of food, her chopsticks poking around slices of beef in sauce.

"hm?"

minji sat across her as the first two to arrive in their usual lunch table.

"i was asking if anything happened between you and y/n or something..."

"oh..."

haerin looked back down and continued playing around with her food before sighing and looking back up, muttering a couple words.

"wish i knew."

"y/n-unnie! is something up between you and haerin-unnie?"

"huh? what?" you were sat in the sound proofed booth of the music room, guitar plugged in an amplifier. you squinted at hyein's figure from outside the room, putting your guitar on its stand and motioning her to come inside.

"can you repeat that? i can't really hear anything from in there..." scratching the back of your neck, you gave hyein a seat from behind the booth's drum sets.

"i was asking!" hyein took a deep breath, you raised your eyebrows signaling her to continue. "if you and haerin-unnie have something going on."

"h-huh? what? what something?"

"no not like that! i meant you know, did you fight or... 'cause she's been so sour lately! she wouldn't even give me her leftover tomatoes... she wasn't even gonna eat them! like at all!"

the expression on your face shifted to what most would identify as worry and concern.

"...she hasn't been eating the tomatoes? she loves those..."

"yeah! and so much more! anyways, minji-unnie and i deduced it was about you, so here i am." hyein gleamed with pride while you chuckled in amusement.

you leaned over to mess with the top of her head and sighed, "i'll talk to her. you don't worry about a thing, okay?"

and you kept your word to the younger girl. how could you not?

you spotted haerin alone in one of the clubrooms, cleaning up some of the materials they used for the day. knocking on the room's door startled her a bit, given by the minor flinch, but she relaxed seeing it was you.

still, you could tell her facial expression was slightly guarded, and it hurt you, but you definitely deserved it.

she turned back around to continue organizing the materials into three separate boxes, not saying a word.

"hyein said you haven't been eating the tomatoes in your lunch." you slowly took your steps towards her and stopped when you were a couole steps away on the other side of the desk she used to arrange the items. "or your lunch at all..."

she paused to look up at you and give you a short glare, before walking to move a box to the teacher's desk in the room. you followed a few steps behind her, arms behind your back as your fingers fiddled with each other.

"you shouldn't... skip your meals, you know..." you muttered, clearly intimidated by haerin’s cold facade. "health... you need to eat..."

seeing as how you still had no reply, you decided it was probably best to just go straight to the point.

"hey... i'm sorry..."

you were used to haerin not saying that much, especially when you got to know her more and she explained that it was simply just too tiring. but you were also always the exception to that.

whenever it was just the two of you, one would be surprised to see haerin as the louder one. talkative, always rambling about something, while you smiled, nodded, and gave comments whenever necessary.

"yangi, please say something"

haerin loved that nickname more than anything. it was pretty foul to pull that card, actually. you came up with it when you two were having a friendly debate over what animal she resembled.

"i don't know where you're getting cat, y/n."

"are you crazy? how are you getting frog!"

"literally everything!"

"no. you're simply incorrect. you're literally a cat in human form!"

"absolutely not!"

"whatever you say, goyangi."

"what did you just call me?"

"go-yang-i. goyangi. go. yangi."

"you're so... annoying."

"okay, yangi."

she let out a frustrated sigh, looking up at you with what felt like her eyes piercing through your soul.

"so you get to disappear on me without a word, but i have to reply when you speak to me for the first time in 8 days?"

yes, she's been counting the days.

but wouldn't you be too if she did the same?

well, you probably would've confronted her a little sooner. but it's not that haerin didn't care enough to do something about it, she just genuinely didn't want to overstep space you might've been needing.

"thats what i thought." she let go of the box, turned her back, and walked back to the desks to grab the 2nd box.

"look... i'm sorry, i really am." you immediately caught up to her with a few steps, eyes pleading with nothing but guilt.

"if you are then can you at least tell me why you were avoiding me?"

she stared at you, observing how your thumbs rubbed over your fingers, or how your breathing got a little heavy, both nervous habits she picked up.

noting how you probably weren't going to say much anytime soon, she let go of the 2nd box to face you.

"you're my best friend, y/n"

that hurt didn't it?

a reminder that that was probably all you were going to be to her.

"do you know how..." haerin took a deep inhale, it was beginning to get shaky. her mind was a mess, thinking of the best words to express the hurt you made her feel over the past few days. but she couldn't.

"nevermind."

knowing the way haerin acted added on to your internal conflict. haerin usually wasn't afraid to speak her mind when it was just the two of you, but now she is. she couldn't. and you knew it was your fault.

but were you really ready to tell her you liked her? now? you wanted to show her you were sorry, but it really wasn't that easy.

if things go wrong, she could continue the game and avoid you forever. and just like that you'd lose your best friend, ruining the group's dynamics as well.

but you figured your brain was just making up excuses for you to not tell her out of fear. what mattered the most now was letting her know you were sorry, and that hurting her was never part of the plan.

"look, i'll tell you, because i really truly am sorry for hurting you," you start off, hands in the air motioning whatever. "but i-... i need you to promise me..."

"what?" her voice was much softer now. still cold, but not sharp enough to make it feel like you were stabbed every time she spoke.

"that you won't be... weirded out, or disgusted, or leave the room. you'll talk about it with me."

"you're the one whos been avoiding the talking y/n, i hope you know that."

you often forget how quick she was with her words. it was like a whip. painful, fast, happens before you even noticed it did. you were just so used to her nicer side. she's never been frustrated with you.

"right..."

you took a deep breath, mentally composing a script of how you felt and how you were going to say it. just like the million times you've practiced to the mirror at home.

"i've been avoiding you 'cause i think i like you. or, well, i know i like you. in a more than a friend way. and i have been for a while, and i was going to tell you because i didn't like hiding things from you, but i saw you with dani one day and i just- i don't know. okay? it's stupid. i know she's like that with everyone, but i didn't like it when she was with you, so i decided that i'd rather just get rid of how i felt to make it easier and to not ruin any of our friendships. so i figured the only way to do that was if i didn't talk to you. clearly that affected us both in a way i didn't want or intend. i'm sorry i ignored you. it was selfish of me to not think about how you could've felt throughout everything."

haerin took a minute just standing there, trying to process the hell of a bomb of information you just dropped on her. her cheeks were gradually growing red the more she realized what you were trying to tell her.

"hey... hello... did you hear what i was saying... or do i have to repeat it... because i'd really rather not..." you waved your palm in front of the girl who seemed to be frozen in place. "but if that's what it takes then i guess tha—"

you stopped talking as haerin slowly approached you, wrapping her arms around your waist and burying her face on your shoulder. she was careful to do so slowly, giving you a chance to move away if you needed to. she knows you're not into physical touch, and it just wasn't exactly the norm for the two of you.

"i was worried."

"hey, i've been eating fine. it's you tha-"

"no, not that. i was worried you might've overheard dani and i talk about you when i told her i like you, and that you were disgusted by it and didn't want to be... associated with me because of it. and maybe you just didn't know how to tell me so you went with the silent treatment.... i was going nuts, y/n. that's why hyein was talking about skipping lunch and whatever. all i could think about was why."

you could feel the guilt eating you up bit by bit on the inside. it quite literally broke your heart to hear haerin, the girl with not a lot of words, express the effect of what you did. it was like acid, burning up your stomach, your chest, your head. except that acid was guilt.

"oh god... i'm so sorry, yangi... the whole thing was a really selfish move and— and i should've thought about you first. i really am so so sorry..."

you held her closer and softly shifted your body weight from one foot to the other, swaying the two of you softly, somewhat like a cradle calming a baby down to sleep.

"hey... it's okay... i know you didn't mean it. i'm just glad we're fine now."

you two stay in that position for a couple of minutes, feeling each other relax over time as a result of finally resolving the conflict you had caused.

that was until haerin broke the silence.

"so... hate to be the person to ask but..."

"what are we?"

the two of you laughed for a while at how the question was so cliche and cringe yet necessary.

"yes."

"bff premium?"

"y/n!"

"i'm kidding! i'm kidding! but... i say we take things slow? get a little used to this, whatever it is, whatever it could be?"

"yeah, i like that."

the two of you smiled at each other with nothing but warmth and care, before ultimately pulling in for another hug.

"minji-unnie you owe me 2,000 won."

"hyein you're being too loud."

"huh do you hea-?..." haerin pulled away with a surprised face, interrupted by y/n quickly stomping towards the door, slamming it open to reveal minji and hyein falling forward to the floor. a result of relying on the door for support.

"seriously? i expected hyein, but minji-unnie?" you sighed in disappointment, haerin walking over to see what the fuss was all about.

"listen, it's for hanni she placed bets too."

"...lame excuse."

"KANG HAERIN!"

[mxxninthesky]

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CHAPTER 05 of DREAMLIKE DESTINY ─────﹙ 2640 ﹚EN JP SYS

DISCLAIMER This is completely fictional, and not meant to represent the mentioned idols in real life. Some events are changed for the plot. All the OCs are owned by me. REQUESTS ARE ALWAYS OPEN FOR THIS SERIES.

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Minyoung had no expectations of a flashy 90+ score for their first test at I-Land. But with all the rigorous practice they did, she’d at least have expected the result to be something she’d announce with dignity.

But the huge, shameful 59 hung in the air like it was screaming, “Bitch, you thought!” at her.

The nervous buzz of I-Land had quieted to a dreadful silence, drowning its eighteen residents in a sea of dread. Many had shuffled quietly into their assigned rooms to rest and discuss their current fate, but Minyoung chose to spend some time in the item room with her assigned iPad for company, wanting to rewatch the performance.

As the song played, it became increasingly obvious to Minyoung why the score was so low—most of them had no real stage presence. It was like watching a bunch of backup dancers performing with three or four idol trainees. 

She grew more frustrated as she watched on, regret twisting her gut into spirals, because they could have done way better than that. 

It was hard to focus with all the thoughts growing louder, the discouraging feeling of having started the show with a bad performance gnawing at her head. But she still watched it completely. If a decision had to be made to vote out three contestants, Minyoung was going to ensure it was fair on her part. 

The performance and their attitude toward improvement—those were going to be her standards. And by the time she pushed through the discomfort of watching it twice, she had made her choice: Sophie—who went out of formation more than a normal amount, Yeona—who had trouble focusing during practices and silently sulked the rest of the evening when called out, and Soojin—who was on the lower range when compared to Mirae and Saebyeok.

It truly did hurt to think about voting someone off, but she had accepted it because there was no way one girl would be selected for debut without the others getting eliminated. 

It was especially hard with Soojin though, since she wasn’t bad, per se. Minyoung just didn’t have any other option.

And it was even harder to watch the despair on Saebyeok’s face twelve hours later when her best friend’s name was called with four votes under her name. Taking a deep breath, Minyoung reassured herself, “There was no other choice. You had to pick three. That’s how competitions work.” 

But those words became all the more difficult to believe when the next and final name was called with four votes: Kang Mirae. 

…is this what they call karma? 

When she met eyes with Saebyeok, the guilt and sadness on both their faces melted into mutual understanding. They did justice to their conscience. 

Even if it meant voting out each other's best friends.

Sighing, Minyoung stood from her seat, pulling Mirae into a hug. “Come back soon, okay? I’ll be waiting for you,” she said with a smile, hoping to encourage the girl, trying to ignore the urge to tear up. Mirae seemed oddly bright as she nodded back with a smile. 

“You bet, Minnie.” Mirae pinched her cheek, the slight tremble in her voice giving away her sadness.

Minyoung didn't let herself linger in the hug, not wanting to cry. The older girl had become an irreplaceable presence she would miss terribly in their time apart.

Looking around, she observed the other eliminated I-Landers. Daniel and Jake were pouting, looking adorably akin to sad puppies—a sight Minyoung would have cooed at under different circumstances. Soojin was awkwardly patting Sunghoon, who was embracing her, looking like she’d accepted her fate. Sophie was crying in Yeona’s arms. Jay was whispering something into Jungwon’s ears, smiling sweetly as ever. 

Minyoung went around giving them all brief but sweet farewells, managing to hold her feelings inside the tight lump in her throat. 

But one look at Ni-ki’s resigned face as she approached him almost made her lose that restraint. Pausing on her way to him, she quickly turned around to blink back tears. 

As her vision cleared slightly, Nicholas approached her, arms open as he tried to smile. Embracing him, she mumbled into his chest, asking him to return soon. The older boy didn’t speak, nodding before he let her go.

Turning back around, Minyoung found Ni-ki waiting for her patiently. Seeing her face, he smiled warmly as she walked closer, hands in his pockets and bag on his shoulder like he was ready to leave. It was almost as if he wasn’t expecting a hug.

She wondered if he felt guilty for the score, heart tightening at the thought. 

Looping her arms around his waist, she buried her face into his shoulder. Ni-ki tensed up, but removed one hand from his pocket to place it on her back. “Don’t cry for me. I won’t be long,” he said lowly, stroking her back comfortingly before cupping the back of her head. But though regret was obvious in his actions, his calm voice still held fire.

Minyoung buried her face into his shoulder. She would definitely hold him to his words.

If Minyoung learned anything from the first test, it was that focusing on improving as a group only got them so far. Not only did it cause ugly conflicts, only a handful of them showed any individuality in the performance. Aside from synchronising the beat, formations, and angles, she felt the I-Landers needed to practice separately and figure out their own way to add colour to the performance. 

Because what mattered most in I-Land was the team score—and a strong team had strong individuals. So, when Fire was revealed as the song for Test 2, Minyoung only had one thing on her mind.

She had to be Part 3.  

The vocals of the part suited her higher range. The “flying” lift where she’d be raised in the air would be a hook point in the eyes of the judges if done right. And while she wasn’t a hundred percent sure she could pull off the higher, more visible part perfectly, she had the confidence to say she’d try her damn best. 

But of course, there was competition. 

Which, unfortunately for her, turned out to be Yang Jungwon. 

The boy himself hadn’t said anything about wanting the particular part, but K suggested they make him do it because his dance skills matched it very well, and he could deliver vocally as well. 

It was hard to argue with, but Minyoung wished K would at least ask if anyone else was interested in trying out before basically handing it to the younger boy. So when he asked if everyone agreed with it, she raised her hand in protest. 

“I’m interested in the part as well,” she said, making all heads turn towards her. Some of them seemed surprised that she broke the flow where the better performers got assigned the higher parts with no one to interrupt. 

She hadn’t challenged K or Heeseung taking the center parts—they deserved them. But this one? She wanted a shot.

Seon was the first to speak. “No, but this part…” he started, pausing when she locked eyes with him. Minyoung raised an eyebrow.

“Yes?” she questioned, voice soft as if warning him to watch his words. 

But before he could continue, K spoke up. “You’re really good at dancing, Minyoung. But I feel like Jungwon would suit the overall vibe of the part better,” he said, making her look at the younger boy. He had his lips pursed, expression seeming impatient like he just wanted to get this over with. She looked away the second his eyes met hers.

Yeona nodded from beside Jungwon. “Like, the gestures and steps kinda suit him better, Minnie,” she added. 

“Well, I’ll show you what I can do after I learn it and if you still think it doesn’t fit me, we can change the part later,” Minyoung shrugged, ignoring the eyes on her. She understood their reasoning but still wished for a chance. 

“It would waste time we could be using for practice, though.” K’s eyes were soft like he was talking to a child he was trying not to disappoint. “And we need every precious minute to make sure the result doesn’t end up the same a last time.”

A chorus of agreement from Seon, Yeona and Geonu followed his comment, as the others tensely watched the exchange.

Pursing her lips, Minyoung nodded, feeling slightly betrayed. It wouldn’t take more than a day for her to learn the main portions of the dance, and it was enough time to switch parts if it really didn’t suit her.

But fine, she supposed. It was a long shot anyway, considering she was yet to prove herself as a strong candidate.

Her interruption had introduced a change in the way the parts were distributed, with K and Seon asking if anyone was interested to compete even though they had suggested someone initially. Some of the existing I-Landers, and even some new I-Landers like Hana and Jiyoon raised their hands, following her example even though the recommended trainees ended up bagging them.

She spoke up for Parts 4, 5, but didn’t get either. When the next part was brought up, K looked straight at her before saying, “In my opinion, Minyoung should do this part.” 

Minyoung blinked, surprised to be offered a part without having to raise her hand for it. 

Yeona nodded, “I see the vision.”

“Anyone else interested?” Seon asked, earning a raised hand from Hana. 

“No one else?” he confirmed before adding, “Alright close your eyes girls. Show of hands if you think Minyoung should get it.” A pause. “Now, for Hana.” Another pause before, “Congratulations, Minyoung-ah.”

Minyoung bowed in her seat, surprised yet again but smiling as she clapped along with the rest.

Even though it wasn’t her first choice, Part 6 was higher and more visible than what she thought she’d get, especially after performing as Part 12 in the previous test. 

That alone put her in a better mood than she expected when she lost Part 3. 

So, after a quick bathroom break following the part distribution, Minyoung headed up the stairs to the individual practice room on the mezzanine to learn the basic choreography, newfound determination to make Part 6 her own fuelling her. 

Opening the glass door while looking down at her iPad, she almost bumped into the figure heading out. Quickly jumping back to avoid collision, she stepped aside to give way, only for the other person to mirror her. Looking up, she found a wide-eyed Jungwon, staring at her with raised brows like he wasn’t expecting her to move the exact way he did. 

Stepping the opposite side, Minyoung paused when Jungwon did the exact same, again. The two shifted back and forth awkwardly for a couple seconds before Minyoung held a hand up, moving back. “You can go,” she said, smiling lightly.

Jungwon opened his mouth, but paused to clear his throat. 

“I was going,” he said, almost curtly, as he quickly stepped past her and toward the stairs. 

Minyoung’s smile dropped as she stared at his back, brows furrowing in confusion and annoyance. Not even a Thank you?

His impatient look earlier and the interaction just now conflicted with how he had smiled at her on their first day in I-Land—a sharp turn from, “You seem nice” to, “Stay in your lane.”

Sighing sharply, she shook her head.

Whatever his problem was, she wasn’t going to let it disrupt her. She had a choreography to learn, details to figure out, a test to prove herself in, and zero time to waste on wondering what she did to warrant the change in his attitude.

A warm tteokbokki bowl and two friends by her side was how Minyoung expected to spend the evening. Crashing a mini group hangout and turning it into a big group hangout was not a part of the agenda—but there she was. 

Sunoo and Taeyong seemed to be deep into a story Jaebeom was telling, too engrossed to even notice the three enter before. 

Minyoung leaned towards Sunoo’s ear. “Mind if we crash the party?” She asked, snickering when the boy jumped in surprise. 

“Ahh, why would you do that?” He whined, earning more chuckles from the rest of them. 

Taeyong smiled from the bed beside Sunoo’s. “Hi Noona,” he waved, and Minyoung waved back, walking around to sit on the lounge chair. 

“What were you guys talking about?” Hana took a seat next to Sunoo, feeding a piece of the spicy rice cake to him when she found him staring at it. Minyoung frowned at them eating on the bed, but said nothing. 

“I-Land is very strange, Noona,” Jaebeom answered with a worry-filled voice. “The rules for the elimination are so strict and the way they practice here, too… No one is helping each other like back in Ground.” 

Hana hummed and swallowed her mouthful. “But we only had one iPad there, so there was no choice. Here we can practice at our own pace, eat whatever, wear whatever and rest whenever we want. I’d say I-Land is so much better.” 

“You only had one iPad at Ground?” Minyoung was the only one shocked when all five of them nodded. “How would th—“

“Hey Min!” A voice called out from the doorway. Minyoung turned to find Saebyeok peeking out before stepping in. “Can I borrow the charger for your FitBit? Mine’s… I don't know where mine is,” She sheepishly admitted, earning a nod from Minyoung. 

“Thanks!” Saebyeok called out as she turned around, almost bumping into two figures that had been standing outside the half-opened door. 

Jiyoon and Jihye gasped in sync as they bowed to the girl. “Sorry, sorry!” They chorused, eyes on Saebyeok before they realized she wasn’t alone. Peeking into the room slowly, they froze when six pairs of eyes stared back.

Jihye awkwardly shifted as Saebyeok left the room with a quiet, “Excuse me” and Jiyoon opened her mouth in a silent, “Oh.” 

Their reactions did not surprise Minyoung, with the way they stuck together the entire day of practice instead of mingling around, only nodding and staying silent otherwise whenever Heeseung gathered the I-Landers.

It must be hard for them to open up to new people, Minyoung supposed. 

“Hey, you two,” Hana smiled politely. The girls smiled slightly back, fidgeting as they meekly greeted Hana. 

“Do you want to join us? We were just chatting about Ground.” Hana continued, patting the space next to her. 

“Uh…” Jiyoon started, her hesitation obvious even though she stepped forward, unable to refuse. 

Jihye stood rooted to her spot, so Minyoung spoke up. “How was practice today, Jihye-unnie?” 

Jiyoon glanced back at Jihye, who tensed before glancing behind her like someone stood there. But she must have seen someone, because she perked up at the sight. 

“Oh! Yeona-unnie!” 

Minyoung watched as Jihye turned to fully face the older girl. “Can you teach me the dance for the bridge? I’ve been having a hard time.”

Yeona’s cheery voice was heard behind the door. “Sure! Now?” 

Jihye nodded rapidly, and Jiyoon chimed in too. “I need help too!”

And just like that, they both scurried out of the room without so much as a goodbye, leaving the occupants of the room in a state of confusion.

“Uh—what just happened?” Minyoung asked, flabbergasted and amused at the same time by how freaked out they were. 

Hana sighed like a tired mother. “I don’t know. They’ve both been a little closed-off since day one.” 

Minyoung shrugged. She understood. While she had never been one, she had enough friends who were introverts to know they needed time to adjust to new environments. 

So she didn’t take it personally.

She didn’t know yet, just how much of a misjudgement it was.

NOTE Posting this from my mobile while I’m at college, four hours from my exam lol. What are your thoughts on this chapter, especially the tension filled moments?

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[gyuvision]

riize as ur fav songs i think this would be so cute

+how are you i hope all is well🫂

you are so right this is so cute and i love it sm like now i have the urge to start a miniseries ab this (and im doing good, i hope you are too!) i love these songs sm

[cw ; none but its a bit angsty] wc: 0.6k

shotaro : as better for you (by siopaolo) - as a dancer and perfectionist you never feel like its good enough no matter how perfect. feeling this way can leak into how you feel generally about relationships so i feel like shotaro is most like this song because even though hes perfect, he doesnt always realize it.

eunseok : as japanese denim (by daniel caesar) - this song references to love that lasts a long time because japanese denim is meant to be durable and strong. eunseok is most like this because hes the type to cherish love and make sure it lasts as long as it can.

sungchan : as pink (by wave to earth) - sungchan is such a wave to earth boy idc what anyone says!! this song is refreshing and calming like beach waves, just like him! pink is about being free and looking back at a past relationship. i see sungchan as a nostalgic person, but also someone who makes you feel free, someone you could run away with.

wonbin : as winter (by se so neon) - this song is a little.. sad, but its good. its about longing for someone who you arent/cant be with, leaving you trapped with the thoughts in your head. wonbin is like this song because hes gives kinda rock band leader vibes, he would totally write something like this song to express his feelings when he cant say it to you himself.

seunghan : as strawberry soju (by jesse barrera) - a little similar to sungchans, but seunghan is like this song because it references how strawberry soju is intoxicating and sweet, just like love. it talks about not wanting to let go of someone left behind in the past. i see seunghan as this song because hes the type to fall hard when hes really in love.

sohee : as blue butterflies (by jhin) - its like a fresh breath of air, its cute and relaxing, very calm and lofi vibes (just like sohee<3). this song talks about falling in love and wanting to show deep affection to that special someone, and i feel sohees very expressive so this is just for him.

anton : as about time (by sarah kang) - this song is incredibly nostalgic and reminiscent. it means even though time continues to pass by, the memories are still there and will always hold its meaning. i think its like anton because it feels like a classic ldr relationship that didnt work out. like he meets you in the states, but after school is done he has to go back to korea. even though hes thousands of miles away and he may have forgotten about you, the memories are always going to stay with him.

[mikaleialt]

02| Secret Love Song

Bada Lee x Bebe!Reader

Cw: angst, fluff, get ready for another rollercoaster of emotions, sorry if took way too long <3

Part I here

It has been weeks since the incident, and it has been weeks since you last talked to Bada. The whole team Bebe feel the tension between the two, even if you both act like you are in good terms with Bada.

Eventually the tension lessens after Bebe wins the 'New Song Choreography Challenge'. That time you were all in shock, and the win made you tear up. But even so, the strain in your relationship with Bada never disappears.

The event of that night hunts you 'till this day. You two ended up ignoring each other while still being with each other under one roof, cooking meals for each other, eating dinner together and even updating each other from time to time. Your relationship is all a blur, you don't know what to call it.

That night after Bada made it clear to you that she does not have any intention of making your relationship public, it felt like you two broke up right then as you left her crying alone in your living room. But why were you still holding on to each other? Even if there's no verbal affirmation that you two broke off, you both know that the relationship you have is already gone. So why are you still going back to the same house, sharing the same meals, and still do the same routines you did as couples.

"Bada Lee what are we now?" Was the only thought you have as you sit in the bench in your team's spot in the fight zone as Kang Daniel speaks through the microphone.

And now a new mission was announced, the Crew Battle Mission. Your heart drops at the mention of the crew battle since you know that no one in your team actually has experience when it comes to it. You looked at Bada as you see her get tensed, a worried look is planted on her face.

Days later, you are at the dance studio with the girls trying to come up a choreography for Wolf'lo's Crew Song, Crimson. It was a slow hiphop song so it is quite hard to come up with dance steps, but you managed to somehow.

Bada is out with her fans on a birthday cafe, and is yet to come to practice. September 22, it is her birthday today, you checked your phone. Your wallpaper no longer being your girlfriend but a picture of you which Bada took, she said it was her favorite photo of you, and you are holding on to it still. You smiled slightly upon remembering that day, at the same time your heart stings.

Lest to your knowledge, the younger members of team Bebe saw the smile on your face and they can't say that they aren't relieved to finally see your smile again. They thought that maybe you and Bada are finally ok.

"Oh unnie is smiling again!" Sowoen excitedly announces and the girls immediately swoon over you, hugging you tightly. You finally let out a noise of laughter, you felt happy once again after a long time of doing nothing but cry.

While you are busy goofing around with the girls, Bada finally arrives at the studio and saw how happy you look. She felt something weird inside her chest when she saw you laughing, something warm and fuzzy like she is falling in love once again, but it's also painful and her chest tightens at the same time.

"Bada unnie is here!" Cheche finally notices their leader at the door. "Unnie look at the move Y/n unnie came up with!" The girls then pulled Bada in front of them as they all formed in a circle. Kyma presses play, and the song started playing. When the beat drops, they executed the move, each of them dropping on the ground at the same time.

Bada was amazed, her gaze then falls on you, you look so proud at the girls, the familiar feeling once again was felt inside Bada's chest. You were standing a few feet away from Bada, watching the girls also on how they execute the move you did. Bada couldn't help but finally admire your face once again, then she finally saw your tired eyes, you sunken face, you must've lost a few pounds. Yet in Bada's eyes you are still beautiful.

The song stops and team Bebe looks at their leader, waiting for her feedback but they notice Bada just staring at Y/n.

"Unnie is so lovestruck" Tatter pointed out and the girls all giggled. Bada finaly snapped out of it, cheeks turning red as she finally gave her feedback to the girls.

A few moments later you finally finished practice and you and Bada are now making your way to her car. As soon as you mounted the car, Bada started driving. The drive was quiet, but not the usual suffocating silence that you two have endured these past months, it was a comforting silence, just like the ones you felt before you two entered the competition.

"Y/n... I'm sorry" Bada's eyes are still focused on the road ahead, you were shocked to hear Bada's words.

"Back then, I really don't think telling the public about our relationship is that important. I mean, I love the privacy we have and for me that is enough..." Bada sighs as she continues to talk, you just kept staring at her, listening to what she is saying.

"...But I realized I never did anything to try and understand your side. I was being selfish and... being a jerk too." She chuckled, you kept staring at her, seeing how sincere she was. You can't help but feel your heart swells up as Bada explains herself.

"At first, I never understand why you want to make our relationship public... It's the only thing I've been thinking about this whole time. But then earlier while I was with some of the fans, one of them asks for your number and told me to tell you that they have a huge crush on you, and that they were actually your classmate from highschool." Bada pauses once again as the car stops at the red light, she took this opportunity to finally stares back at you. You can see her eyes are getting watery.

"When she said that, I couldn't help but feel jealous. A thought came into my mind, "What if you found someone else? What if you found someone who is willing to shout at the whole world that they were yours? Would you be happy" My brain kept making me overthink about you being with somebody and it breaks my heart." Small tears are now streaming down her cheeks, she tries to wipe it off but more tears came falling down. Your heart stings at the sight of Bada crying.

The light turns green again, Bada composed herself and started driving once again. You still kept silent, letting Bada release all her emotions.

"And then when I came to the studio, I saw you laughing with the girls, it was the first time I saw you smile after a long time. Then I thought, "Would you be happy like this if I did your request?" And that's when I realize, maybe you don't really need a reason for wanting to publicize our relationship, maybe you just want to be happy to finally be able to express your love without hiding." Your heart swells up and now it was your turn to tear up.

"What I've been wanting to say is that... Y/n, I want to finally set this right and tell the whole world how much I love you. I couldn't last another day without you, so please give me a chance to fix it all. I want to be the one who brings you happiness, I want to be the reason why you laugh and smile. I'm sorry if I had only realized this now. I love you so much, I can't bear to lose you" By this time, Bada had parked the car on the side of the road to finally talk to you properly. Both of you are crying, out of instinct, you reached out to Bada to wipe her tears as she instantly leans in to your touch.

"Y/n..." She held your hand close to her, bringing to her lips before kissing your palms. "I love you so much, please give me one more chance. I want to tell the world how I feel about you, I want to tell them that I'm your girlfriend, that I'm the luckiest woman ever because I got to be with you." You don't know what to feel, seeing as how Bada pleads for your forgiveness, for another chance. You see the sincerity in her eyes.

You held her face once again, caressing her cheeks, and wiping the tears on her face as she does the same to you. You smiled at her and you finally muttered the words she wanted to hear.

"I love you so much, Badari..." More tears fell from Bada's eyes as she finally heard you say it. It has been months since you last said it.

Bada kept muttering apologies to you as you pull her in for a hug. She is finally relieved to be in your arms again, no more spending cold nights alone in the empty bed you once shared, no longer feeling lonely. You're back, you accepted her back. She's so happy.

She couldn't contain herself and finally pulled you in for a kiss, your heart almost exploded as your lips collides with hers. Both pf you now contented to be in each others arms once again.

Few moments later, you are now both back on the road, Bada's hand is on the wheel while the other is holding your hand.

"Baby, you're supposed to turn here" You pointed out as Bada missed the turn.

"Oh noooo" she cutely whines as she realizes her mistake, "Don't worry, Taeyoung saids that the roads are all connected here, we can turn on the next one" she said confidently.

"Bada, you just missed it again" You laughed at her and she whines again.

A/n: finally after 2 months, Secret Love Song has finally come to an end. I'm sorry if it took long for me to post this so I added a cute moment at the end as payment for uploading it this late. Thank you for waiting I hope I didn't

[spadesolace]

can i request reader being someone’s older sibling and haerin is like into the reader but people think she’s into her friend 🥹

i can see haerin just observing the reader while she has friends over and being such a sunshine

my best friend's sister : non idol! kang haerin x fem!reader

synopsis: you don't know if haerin hates you or she's just super shy whenever you're around

words: 1k

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haerin knew this was bad.

she’s been best friends with danielle for who knows how long, they could all see the way the pair act all lovey dovey, something that sparked the rumors of them dating. all of their time is spent right next to each other, both families know of their presence, and even you, danielle’s older sister, know of haerin’s presence.

who wouldn’t fall for danielle, she’s top of her class, part of the cheer team, and has a voice of an angel. why settle for less, right?

well, having a crush on her best friend’s older sister was going to be a problem, let alone people thought that danielle and her are dating. the assumptions people make that kang haerin is thinking about love because of her best friend who is secretly seeing someone. partially, yes, she’s helping danielle in courting jang wonyoung who’s in a different class, and she’s no help when she’s being all flustered and blushing when you’re nearby.

personality wise, y/n marsh, is the complete opposite of danielle marsh.

you’re chaotic, loud, playful, but you deeply care for danielle, one of the first traits that haerin found endearing about you. just like danielle, you’re part of the top students in your university, an officer in multiple organizations that shows how dedicated you are in improving your leadership skills, but also you play instruments and sing bass to support danielle in her hobbies.

haerin has always kept an eye on you, and she wonders if you do the same thing to her.

it was no surprise that you and danielle go everywhere together during the weekends, probably because her sister who is older by 2 years is the only person she can drag anywhere, aside from haerin. 

it was already a problem trying to avoid you at school when you would drop danielle off and keep her safe. or how when you two are left alone, you become quiet and try to do some sort of small talk but fail miserably because haerin is too flustered to even talk to you.

she’s trying her best, but something about you just makes her freak out, panic, blush, and overall just lose her mind. even when danielle has her entire friend group over, haerin has a hard time conversing with you, minji and hanni do it with ease, hyein tends to keep close as you baby her, and most of the time she’s next to danielle.

“hey, jihye.” danielle hums, not looking at you as she continues reading her book.

“does haerin not like me?” that line made danielle stop and look at you with, ‘are you that dense?’

“why���? do you want her to like you?” you raised your hands up in a defensive way, it just felt weird that you’re close with all of danielle’s friends except for her best friend. even wonyoung talks to you, so you simply question it.

“well, yeah. haerin’s your best friend after all. you’re close with yuna, and sometimes i feel like you two are best friends.” danielle only laughed at your face as she reassured you that haerin does not hate you or anything along those lines.

the next time haerin came to visit, you weren’t there to greet her like you usually do. a smile on your face ready to hug her and check up on her then going back to doing whatever you were initially doing. maybe she missed her chance, you’re a college student and probably in the middle of finishing some requirements. benefit of the doubt.

danielle took notice of how haerin’s eyes kept lingering at the door or the stairs, she could only laugh at her best friend. you just went out to buy some snacks because yuna was gonna come by to do some allnighters for your midterms. not because haerin was also coming over and you wanted to buy them snacks as well and think of a way to talk to the girl.

so when haerin heard your footsteps that somehow always have a rhythm going through the front porch and humming something. you opened the door to see haerin looking at you as soon as you entered, carry two bags filled with snacks and some ramen, you gave her a shy smile.

“haerin-ssi, hi. where’s danielle?” you removed your shoes and let haerin carry one of the bags to help you sort them in the kitchen.

“she went to the bathroom.” you hummed, placing the bag on the counter, turning to haerin and hugging her as your usual greeting. she wanted to stay within your arms, you’re taller than hyein, the perfect height according to her, the warmth you give off. i’ll never get tired of this.

“how’d you been?” you let go first, giving a small smile at her and went on to sorting the snacks you bought.

“good. you?” she helped you sort it out, passing the chips and biscuits to your side as you handed her the ramens.

“quite alright, wondering if you hate me.” that took haerin by surprise, another trait of yours that she just admires is the way you confront people with no fear. danielle still has that fear of hurting people emotionally but with you, if there’s a problem why let it linger?

how does she say that she doesn’t hate you, that she actually likes you a lot, and not in a way where she looks up to you but wishes to be a part of your daily life.

“i don’t hate you, its quite the opposite really. i’m just…”

“shy?” haerin nodded as you fold the eco bags and place them under the sink along with the other bags and plastic bags.

“... would it be weird if i ask you out on a date?”

“what?!”

you stopped what you were doing, looking at haerin directly in the eye. it would be lie if you said you don’t like her, heck danielle knew of your crush on her best friend and simply didn’t wish to intervene.

“JUST SAY YES!” danielle shouted by the stairs, making you and haerin stop and look towards that direction.

“DANI!” to say the least, you did manage to get that date with haerin after chasing danielle around the house. haerin is lucky that her best friend’s sister looks her way.

[kokinu09]

Changbin + Paranoia by Kang Daniel

Hello, hello! Thank you so much for this suggestion! It is a bop and a half on my playlist forever now, thank you 🥰😂 Everyone should go listen to the song!!

Paranoia - Kang Daniel

A/N : I was experimenting a bit with this prompt so please be kind in your criticisms. ❤️ Other than that, I hope you enjoy the story! 🤗

Summary : A game of Hide-and-Seek gone wrong.

🔥TW🔥 : Nightmares, sleep deprivation, past trauma, feeling forgotten, feeling hunted

Word count : 1,763

Nightmares make me go insane

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Changbin gasped. Waking out of a dead sleep. A cold sheen of sweat across his skin. He jerked to sit up quickly, eyes frantic as they scanned his surroundings. And momentarily in his still foggy state, he panicked all over again until he reasoned with himself that he was safe. In his room. Where he was supposed to be. Where he was supposed to be alone.

He wasn’t lost.

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It’s been three weeks and every night brings the same nightmare. A nightmare interchangeable with a memory he’d lived through in his childhood. The fear of feeling lost.

Forgotten.

That same fear causing his caution as he grew older. An ugly beast in the back of his mind, prowling along the skirts of his subconscious. Just waiting for its chance to pounce. That paranoia keeping him up at night no matter how hard he tried to ignore it.

He tried to stifle his yawn during dance practice, pulling up the neck of his t-shirt to hide the sleep deprivation from the others. But of course the sunshine of the group noticed.

“Hyung you look awful,” he said with a frown, concern knitting his brows.

“Gee thanks Bokkie,” Changbin laughed knowing full well that the younger didn’t mean it that way.

And he got an eye roll before Felix replied. “I meant the bags under your eyes look like they could compete with Hyunjin and I’s luggage combined!” He exclaimed. “Have you been having trouble sleeping?”

He really wanted to return an eye roll back at the younger because of course he’s been having trouble sleeping. But he somehow managed to resist, even with his current state of exhaustion. Offering a simple hum of confirmation instead.

“Hmm,” Felix also hummed in thought for a moment, “why don’t we take a break and play a game!”

The suggestion perked the interest of the other members within earshot.

“We’re playing a game?” Jisung chimed in, throwing Minho’s heavy limb off his lap. But not without a loud complaint from the elder member.

“Oo~! What’re we playing?” Hyunjin added from the floor.

“Woah woah woah. Hold on guys. We really need to get this choreo perfected before the award show season starts up.” Chan said tiredly.

Ah yes. The ever existent pressure to keep going. There’s no time for rest. They can sleep when they’re dead.

“He’s right. We need to keep practicing.” Changbin agreed, pushing himself out of his seat and shaking out his shoulders. The younger frowned, turning with pleading eyes to their leader but Changbin intercepted. “I’m ok Bokkie, really. Just a little tired. I can make it through practice.”

There was a chorus of groans and whines. Even Minho made a loud protest, exclaiming that they had already been at it for hours. Changbin looked to Chan who was pinching the bridge of his nose in exasperation.

“Okay fine,” the eldest sighed, locking eyes with Changbin as a softer look took over his features. “I guess we could all use a break anyway.”

Felix and Jisung whooped while Hyunjin clapped excitedly. Jeongin and Seungmin pocketed their phones to join in with the group. Changbin sighed but resigned to his fate. It’s not like he hated the idea of playing a game on any normal day after all.

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He was starting to regret letting Felix pick the game. Sitting in a storage closet in the dark isn’t really his idea of fun.

Not to mention he chose the exact game that had been haunting him at night. The whole reason he’s been sleep deprived in the first place.

Hide-and-Seek.

But he’s not a little kid anymore.

He could just walk out and quit playing if he wanted to. And he wouldn’t be forgotten this time…

The minutes ticked by but it felt like hours.

As the time built, so did Changbin’s anxiousness. He felt himself squirming in place, cursing himself for feeling so childish.

“Come on, Bokkie. Just find me already,” he mumbled.

Why hadn’t he found him already? He honestly picked a pretty obvious spot, thinking it would make this quick. But maybe they are thinking no one would pick somewhere that obvious?

His overthinking led him to doubt his decisions and make the call to move. Maybe he’ll just get caught in the process and have to act like he isn’t happy about it.

He tilted his neck to the side in an attempt to dispel the stiffness there before getting up from his spot on the floor. Slowly turning the door handle and trying to avoid the hinges squeaking as he pulled it open.

What he hadn’t expected was to be met with more darkness.

His heart jumped with a sudden wave of fear. Why were the lights out?! Even if his members were playing a prank on him, there should still be plenty of people working in the building! Why were the lights out?!

The only thing illuminating the hallway was an eerie glow of the exit sign. A veil of faint red light covering made the building feel like he’d stepped into another universe. The same company he walked in the front doors almost daily like he owns the place felt foreign and deserted.

Where was everyone?

“Guys?” He called hesitantly, making his way further towards the next corridor closer to the practice room they’d just been in. Silence.

“Felix-ah? Chan-hyung? Jisung?!” He called out to all of them. Hoping one would answer.

“Guys, this isn’t funny anymore!” He shouted.

It was happening again. He was left all alone and forgotten when the game was over. No one remembered to find him.

But his body went rigid when he heard a low growl coming from the pitch blackness at the far end of the adjacent hall. Changbin was frozen in fear, not even sure if his heart was still beating.

What the hell would have made that noise?! He was in a corporate building, not a zoo!

The rumble sounded again, maybe even slightly agitated this time, and Changbin made a slow turn to look in its direction. He couldn’t make out any figures in the darkness, his mind might have been playing tricks on him when he thinks he saw the shadows moving though. But he couldn’t deny that there was some kind of movement when he heard faint shuffling he could hear under the guttural growling.

Why did this feel familiar? Like an awful case of dejavu he didn’t want to remember. Then it dawned on him.

The beast in his nightmares.

He sucked in a shaky breath. How could this be possible? The culmination of his past trauma from his dreams was just that. A figment of his imagination. His mind putting his feelings of abandonment, loneliness, and insecurity into a physical form.

But he’s not dreaming!

What was he supposed to do?! Face his fears and confront it? Oh hell no! He had way too much to live for. If he really wasn’t having a nightmare again and this was real, he wasn’t about to put himself in harm's way.

So, he ran. Using the sounds of furious snarls behind him as fuel to move faster. With all the strength in his legs, he went sprinting towards the light of the exit sign. If he could just make it to the door, he’s home free.

However it felt like the length of the hallway kept expanding with each step he took. A never ending stretch so safety is just out of reach.

But oddly enough, it didn’t seem like he was running in place either. A storage closet he had just become very familiar with not even ten minutes ago caught his attention.

He made the split decision to hide, survival instincts kicked in. Making a sharp left, he threw open the door to the storage closet and slid inside. Once the lock was in place, he pressed his back against the frame.

The momentary sense of relief that washed over him was just as quickly ripped away again. A heavy weight thudding against the barrier, the entire wall shaking from the impact followed by constant scratching and pounding. The beast insistent on forcing its way into his ‘hiding spot’.

His breathing became erratic with the panic swelling in his chest. He’s trapped. And he wanted to smack himself for being so stupid. He wished he’d hear them start to snicker or that they’d jump out and say it was all a big joke but it wouldn’t come. Maybe this is where it ends for him.

With one particularly hard slam, the beast of his nightmares splintered the door. It’s gnarly, muzzle snapping with razor sharp teeth at him through the cracks.

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“Hyung! Hey! Wake up!”

Changbin startled awake to a pair of hands shaking his shoulders. He found Felix’s worried face staring back at him.

“Felix?” As soon as his name left his mouth, the panic returned. His head whipped around in search of the beast that had just been hunting him. “B-but where is the—?” He trailed off when he saw just the dark storage closet around him.

“Hey, hey! Calm down Hyung. Where is what?” Felix asked but the frantic look on Changbin’s face had him going on. “I heard you scream and I found her asleep in here. I think you were having a nightmare. But you’re safe now!”

Changbin let out a relieved sigh. “Yeah, it was just a dream.” Even if it felt so real and he could have sworn it wasn’t a dream, Felix was here. He held onto the younger’s arm, grateful to feel grounded after spiraling for so long.

“I still have to find the others,” Felix interrupted his train of thought. He stood from his place kneeling beside the rapper and extended his hand towards him. “Do you wanna come help me?”

It takes a moment for Changbin to look away from his hand. But when his eyes met Felix’s, he couldn’t help but smile as he grabbed his hand and allowed himself to be hoisted up onto his feet.

“Let’s finish this game of Hide-and-Seek.” He agreed.

One-by-one, they found the other members hiding around the company building. All of them were laughing and teasing each other, including Changbin, just like they always did. It was like a weight was lifted off his shoulders. His friends would never forget about him. He would never be left behind again.

He could finally let his paranoia go. No longer letting it haunt the shadows behind him.

[khiphop-discussions]

RAP:PUBLIC Ep.5 Part 2 Thoughts

Rap:public ep.5 part 2! I think this will end up being 3 parts.

Here's part 1

So we start back off at the deathmatch. 6/12 will stay and the others will leave.

James An starts. Then people vote. Then next person.

So far everyone is doing well at doing an acapella rap.

Leo messed up his rap so I'm sure he'll be eliminated. However, his rap would have been pretty good without that.

Goldbuuda was not as strong as others. I think he'll be gone too.

Churry is good but some people mentioned he's done the rap before do that might impact votes.

Yang Kyle is a standout for me.

Bizzy is unique.

Hash Swan and Bizzy tie so they must do another performance

Gamma starts crying. Bizzy almost cries too. He has too hold it back because he heard his team cheering for him. Awww

Mckdaddy survives. Jeffrey White. James An, Reddy, Yang Kyle. Hash Swan.

Leo, Churry, Bizzy, Mason Home, Goldbudda, and Kang Hyuk. This sicks cause wasn't Kang Hyuk one who did relatively well?

Long story short I misunderstood the deathmatch again lol. It's basically everybody vs everybody. No teams. Individual evaluation. Idk why it's been so hard for me to understand. They've explained it like 4 times now lol

Anyway, after eliminations/deathmatch the winning blocks got food and jack daniels delivered to their block.

I wonder why Mason Home wanted to go home? He asked to be put up.

Anyway, never doubting Haon again! He's doubting himself now though. He's a great leader. He takes everything SO hard cause he takes his responsibility to his teammates so seriously. It's not just cause he's wanting to have power/not be eliminated. He really seems to understand that he's in service to the people he's leading, #Haon4President

Block 6 is looking to recruit as is 8. Kaogaii calls Since to talk. He also goes for mckdaddy. Since he was voted in he feels disgruntled. Also, he's already on pretty good friends with Kaogaii outside the show. So I'm sure it'll be much easier to recruit him.

Then the next morning. I can't believe these 5 episodes filmed in ONE day! We see some of the guys starting their day with a workout. Reddy makes his block coffee. Block 1 is drawing each other on theeir phones lol.

Fleeky Bang couldn't sleep cause he was too nervous for his team. Polo and Tray B went to get him. Asked if they could join Block 1. Block 7 mostly uses English Polo and Tray were kinda left out. They don't think the teamwork was all the way there. So they ended up joining officially. Block 1 is really strong performance wise now.

Polodared starts crying. I guess he went through a lot at block 7? I guess he really felt left out?

Block 8 tried to recruit...LOOPY?!? They said "fuck it we'll try anything!" Everybody shot them down. Damn. I do think Block 8 can win deathmatches. Maybe not TEAM challenges since many other teams are strong as a group but put them against other certain rappers individually and most of them would likely win. We saw that during the Block Breaker. They put up a good fight.

Since rejects Kaogaii's offer. I expected that. Seems like she already has it pretty good on her team and has no reason to switch.

Block 5 is trying to recruit. But they are kinda halfway joking/half way serious lol

Mckdaddy feels bad but seems like he'll do it. He doesn't want to do it in front of Khundi Panda. Nah, lowkey I'd probably be a bit intimidated by Khundi too lol.

It gets back to his team. Luci was told and she told Khundi. He's waiting RIGHT outside but he leaves. They still shake hands. Khundi said "You should've picked a better block." Lol at least he recognizes Mckdaddy's talent.

Khundi is able to recognize that Mckdaddy must not feel safe/secure on the team. Mckdaddy still says he was ashamed but Khundi seems understanding based on what he said.

But at the block Khundi does admit frustration. As does JP and Luci

Anyway, it's time to discuss leadership changes.

Loopy says he wants to give leadership away because he's confident and is ok even if he loses the deathmatch. He doesn't want to throw someone in who isnt. Khan steps up to be leader. That was very attractive of him lol. Very ambitious and confident.

Haon wants to change leadership to Reddy. He feels like he's the most leader like. While I do think Haon is a great leader so far, it does seem like it'll be really stressful. He's taking it REALLY seriously. Reddy probably can roll with the punches better since he's older and has likely experienced/survived enough stress to be more resilient. People say that the most qualified/capable people to be leaders don't want to be them. I believe that to a certain extent too. Obviously, there's exceptions (hoping Khan turns out to be one lol) but I believe this to be a good generalization.

Anyway, It's almost 2AM so I gotta sleep! I'm about 2 hours in to the episode so I watch the last 37 minutes soon! Good night!

[the-strange-world]

Rating June Kpop Releases

Masterpiece (10) / Amazing (9) / Good (7-8) / Ok (6) / Meh (5) / Didn’t like (0-4)

Die For Love - B.I feat Jessi - 5/10 (2 title tracks for this album) ➕

Dare To Love - B.I feat. BIG Naughty - 8/10 ~ fav bside - Beautiful Life and Cloud Thought

Mañana (Our Drama) - ZHOUMI feat. EUNHYUK - 9/10

TIME DIFFERENCE - AaRON - 2/10

S-Class - Stray Kids - 8/10 ~ fav bsides - DLC, FNF, and ITEM. I liked Youtiful too (the “iiiii made it mine” and the other parts after that in ITEM really reminds me of another song so if anyone else knows what I’m song in thinking about please tell me)

Crush on you - Kassy - 5/10

SHALALA - TAEYONG (NCT) - ♾/10 - obsessed with this silly song ~ fav bside - Virtual Insanity

#menow - fromis_9 - ♾/10 - they are incapable of having a bad song! This song has been on REPEAT the most!!! The “yeah that’s me yeah that’s me” part and all the parts are EVERYTHING! The choreography is amazing. They never miss. I’m obsessed with this song ~ fav bsides - Attitude. I liked Don’t Care too

Wasteland - KANG DANIEL [Prerelease] - 10/10

Kick It 4 Now - THE NEW SIX (TNX) - ♾/10 - LOVE THIS SONG! The choreography is amazing. I’m obsessed with the “nostalgia deja vu” part so much!!! I’ve noticed a lot of the title tracks recently have felt very 90s or 2000s to me ~ fav bsides - 1000 Miles

Diaryy - YongYong - 5/10 ~ fav bside - Cheetos feat. ZENE THE ZILLA

Jump - P1Harmony - ♾/10 - INCREDIBLE ALBUM! WOW THEY NEVER MISS!!! The choreography is amazing too. Idk how they can do all that without passing out ~ fav bsides - More Than Words, Heartbeat Drum, and Love Me For Me. I liked New Classic too. The only one I wouldn’t listen to again is I Am You

Juliet - AleXa - 6/10

Can’t Go Yet - Amber Liu feat. Scott Hoying - 10/10 - if Scott’s involved, it’ll be good

Blooming Today - CHEEZE - 6/10

Let Me In - EXO - 3/10 - I really didn’t like this

C.C - Q6IX - 7/10

Designer - VAV - 4/10 ~ fav bside - Call U Mine

Ready to Move - REN - 6/10

Blank - OYEON - 7/10 - it’s pretty and of course nas are always good

Delicious - THE BOYZ [JP] - 10/10 - this song was already released last month ~ fav bsides - Lip Sync. I liked EYES ON ME and Take Me Back too

I Need Love - DKB - 8/10 - it was the best song off the album to me

FIREWORK - &Team - 9/10

Contrail - Baek yebin - 7/10

To Me - Jung Seung Hwan - 7/10 - not something I’d listen to often but it’s pretty ~ fav bside - Epilogue

Marshmallow - MISAMO - 3/10 - didn’t like it

BOUNCY (K-HOT CHILI PEPPERS) - ATEEZ - 8/10 - I liked it but it’s no halazia. It grew on me because I didn’t like it that much at first. I think DJANGO should’ve been the title ~ fav bsides - DJANGO and Outlaw. I liked This World too. Wake Up is guerrilas twin

Walk & Shine - QI.X - 6/10

Can’t Leave - Park Jeup - 5/10

LUV LUV LUV - GreatGuys - 8/10 - it’s fun

Broken Melodies - NCT DREAM [Prerelease] - ♾/10 - they popped off with this pop song of the summer. One direction vibes. Peak boy band energy. I love this song!

WE GO HIGH - ROY KIM - 9/10 - it’s a chill summery song

SOS - KANG DANIEL - 8/10 ~ fav bside - Liar

Queen - We;Na - 10/10 - they are soooo underrated! They only have 2 songs but both are so fun!!!

Orange, You’re Not a Joke to Me - Stella Jang - 10/10 - the lyrics are so silly

Lucky! - KIM JAE HWAN feat. BOBBY - 7/10

Pony - JANNABI - 8/10 - I love his voice

Unlock it - BABYS - 5/10

Voyager - LUN8 - ♾/10 - I think they have the same comeback as weki meki. GIVE WEKI MEKI A COMEBACK RN COWARDS!!! Anyway this song and album are really AMAZING! It shocked me how much I liked this album ~ fav bsides - Wild Heart, We Like It, Live In The Moment

BODY SHAKE - Bunny.T - 9/10

OVERDRIVE - I.M - 6/10 - not something I’d listen to a lot ~ fav bside - Not Sorry

The Feeling - SHINee [Prerelease] - 10/10

HARD - SHINee - 8.5/10 - of course shinee never disappoints me! The lyrics are so dumb which is fun. I wish the chorus was catchier tho. I love the choreography. Not really something I’d listen to too too much but a great song!!! ~ fav bsides - Like It (this really reminds me of another song but I can’t think of what it is. I think it’s a kpop song but I’m not sure) and Sweet Misery. I liked most of the bsides

Over the Rainbow - Hi-Fi Un!corn - 10/10

WICKED LOVE - YENA [Prerelease] - 5/10

Hate Rodrigo - YENA feat. YUQI - 10/10 - a yena and yuqi collab? That’s everything

Dive Into - Han Seungwoo - 6/10 - I would’ve picked runnin high as the title track ~ fav bsides - Burn and Runnin’ High

4:ever - 24 o’clock - 9/10

Summer Love - Kim Areum - 5/10

odd eye - YU YEON WOO - 9/10

EXCEL - 8TURN - 6/10 ~ fav bside - ING

2017 - Park So Eun - 10/10 - idk this artist but these songs were so good! I like the vibe of her songs ~ fav bside - 2:13 and I liked all of the songs

Party Tonight - U-KISS - 9/10 ➕

The Wonderful Escape - U-KISS - 8/10

House on a Hill - Eric Nam - 10/10

Small Talk - Kim Sung Kyu - 6/10 ~ fav bside - It Will Be. I liked Sometimes too

Signal - Rocking doll Roa - 5/10

OVERDRIVE - WEi - 9/10

GRL GVNG - XG - 4/10

Hear Me Out - EXO [Prerelease] - 5/10

[mminhologiaa]

Nightmares make me go insane

TW: mentions of blood

WC: 1k

This is a angst/horror au based off the line "nightmares make me go insane" from the song "Paranoia" by Kang Daniel!

Face claim: Park Seonghwa - ATEEZ

They always start the same.

A hallway stretches ahead, impossibly long. Dim lights buzz overhead, flickering like dying fireflies. The walls are pale yellow, peeling in strips like sunburnt skin, and the air is heavy with the scent of damp paper and something metallic. I run, but the floor drags at my feet like it’s made of molasses. Something’s behind me, always just out of sight, breathing in sync with mine. It never catches me. It never needs to.

Because I always wake up screaming.

At first, it was once a week. Then every night. Now, the nightmares come when I blink too long.

I used to think they were just dreams, twisted things stitched together from stress and movies and whatever I ate before bed. But dreams don’t bleed into reality like this. Dreams don’t leave bruises on your wrists from where unseen hands grabbed you. Dreams don’t whisper your name when you’re alone.

They say sleep is where your mind resets, where your thoughts untangle themselves. Mine just snarl tighter every time I close my eyes.

I haven’t slept in six days.

The hallucinations started on day four. Or maybe they weren’t hallucinations. It’s hard to tell anymore. I saw a man on the sidewalk, suit pressed clean, holding a broken mirror in his hands. He smiled at me with teeth made of nails. No one else even noticed him. A shadow crawled across my ceiling last night, shaped like a spider but moving like a person. It dropped to the floor and melted into the rug.

I try to tell people. My roommate, Liam, thinks I’m messing with him. "You’ve got dark circles for days, man," he said yesterday. "Maybe try sleeping instead of playing horror games all night?"

I nodded like that was it. Let him believe that.

I went to the clinic once. Doctor Chavez told me I had "parasomnia with possible sleep paralysis" and handed me a pamphlet with a cartoon sheep on the front. I laughed. She didn’t.

They don’t understand. It’s not just nightmares. It’s something else. Something that lives in them.

Its voice is the worst part. It’s soft. Comforting, almost. But it says things no human should hear. It tells me truths about myself I never admitted. Secrets I forgot. It knows me better than I know myself.

"You're just like your father," it whispered last night. "He tried to fight it, too. Look where that got him."

My father died when I was seven. He walked into a lake in the middle of January. They said it was a suicide. I barely remember him—just the smell of pine from his coat and the way his eyes twitched when he thought no one was watching.

I wonder if he had the same dreams.

The thing in my nightmares has a shape, now. Human-ish. It wears my face, stretched too tight, like a mask over something else. Its eyes are empty holes. When it smiles, I feel my chest seize like my heart’s trying to crawl away.

"Let me in," it said last time. "You’re so tired, aren’t you? Let me carry it."

Maybe I would’ve given in if I hadn’t bit down on my tongue so hard I bled. The pain snapped me awake.

I think that was the last time I actually slept.

I keep my apartment lit now. Every bulb on. The TV plays static, because silence makes it louder. I stack coffee cups in a line by the sink, and I haven’t eaten anything that wasn’t wrapped in plastic. The mirror in my bathroom cracked three days ago. I didn’t touch it.

Tonight, I feel the edge coming. The tipping point. My thoughts spin, looping like a scratched record. I see movement in the corner of my eye—nothing there. Or maybe something is, and it’s just too fast to catch.

I sit on the floor of the living room with my back to the couch. There's a knife on the coffee table. Not for anything dramatic—just... in case. I don’t trust what I’ll do when I finally fall asleep.

Liam’s out. I don’t want him to see me like this. Last night he almost called someone. I told him I was fine. I think I laughed too hard.

"Nightmares make me go insane," I mutter. It feels like a joke, but it’s not funny. Not anymore.

The lights flicker again. I don't react. It happens too often now. I count the seconds between blinks. If I go past five, I snap my eyes open.

One. Two. Thr—

The lights die.

The air changes. It’s subtle, like the room exhales. Everything is still.

I don't move. My breath sounds like thunder in my ears.

Then I hear it.

"Let me in."

It comes from everywhere and nowhere. The voice slithers through the dark, curling in my ears.

"I can help. You’re already breaking. Just let go."

I clench my fists. My nails bite into my palms. The pain is grounding, but only just.

"I’m not real," I whisper. "This isn’t real."

But it laughs. Low, gentle. It feels like it’s behind me. Or under my skin.

"You’re right. You’re not real anymore. Just pieces. I’m what’s left."

Something touches my shoulder.

I scream.

I wake up.

But not in bed.

I’m on the living room floor, knife in hand. Blood on the blade. Blood on my shirt. I stare at it, heart racing.

A sound behind me. The door creaks open.

"Liam?" I say, voice hoarse.

He stands in the doorway, eyes wide, staring at me. At the blood. His mouth moves, but I can’t hear the words.

I look down again.

The blood isn’t mine.

[modanisgf]

002. HESISTATING

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wc: <1k

if you told haerin only an hour ago that she would be going to the girls basketball practice after school, she would call you insane. she wasn’t even sure right now why she was there, agreeing to something danielle said earlier on impulse.

haerin had walked down the hallway absorbed in her phone, not noticing they were approaching the gym. danielle and aeri opened the doors, the loud nose alarming haerin.

“why are we here?” haerin questioned, receiving confused glances from the two in front of her.

“we’re here to monitor over the girls basketball practice, we wanna see how we need to divide funding this month. i thought dani told you?” aeri said.

“are you serious..” haerin mumbled, ignoring the head shake danielle gave her.

“maybe you should start listening to what i say haerin.” danielle says, sighing.

“you talked to me while i was drafting funding for prom.” haerin deadpans.

“okay well, i needed you to come. i knew you weren’t gonna say yes cause of yn..” danielle says, mumbling the last part.

“she’s practicing right now?!”

“look haerin you’ll be fine, i don’t even get why you hate the girl she’s really nice.” aeri shrugs, “plus you have to be here, you are the treasurer.”

“you’re just saying that cause she’s yizhuo’s friend.” haerin says.

“i’m not..” aeri says, sighing.

“anyways, let’s go in!” danielle says, entering the gym with aeri following.

haerin hesitated to follow her friends, but soon went in picking up her pace in order to catch up with them. she ignored the eyes she felt staring at her, keeping her eyes trained on in front of her.

the trio took a seat in the stands together, them being the last to enter allowing the practice to commence. the practice had a smooth start up, each player working on their shooting first.

unfortunately for haerin, she couldn’t keep her eyes off of you. the way you played was so smooth and satisfying to watch, resulting you being the star player. you made every shot look easy, and even analyzed your teammates forms to provide feedback.

it was one of the many things kang haerin hated about you, you were extremely good at what you did, years of practice and experience contributing to it. haerin still remembered when she would call you up, only for you to tell her the same thing everytime she asked to hang out.

‘i’m practicing.’

the sentence rang in her head whenever she thought about you, reminding her of how you never set aside time for her.

haerin refocused on watching your team play, trying not to reminisce on the past. she felt her eyes roll when she saw you and ningning cheer each other on, the two of you making the most baskets.

danielle and aeri were talking silently, the conversation now registering in haerin’s brain.

“they’re really good.” danielle states, aeri nodding.

“what do you think haerin?” aeri asks, looking at the girl next to her.

“i agree with danielle, it looks like they’ve been practicing a lot.” haerin says, aeri nodding again.

“so far so good.”

the practice continued smoothly, mainly consisting of you and ningning excelling in each category. little did haerin know, you were trying to get her attention. you never tried this hard in practice, it resulting in you getting pulled over by one of your teammates.

“who’s in the crowd that your trying to impress?” rei asks.

“no one.” you start, “just trying to work harder this season.”

rei just dismissed the conversation, knowing you were lying. she’d probably find out soon, your friends not being the best at keeping secrets.

the practice finally came to a close, the three girls in the stands finalizing their decisions on the budget. haerin wrote all of it down, putting the paper in her binder after.

they all left the gym quickly after that, aeri leaving first leaving haerin and danielle.

“i saw you.” danielle says ominously.

“huh?”

“looking at yn.”

haerin froze, not knowing what to even say to her.

“the way she plays is just satisfying, there was nothing else to it.” haerin says, receiving a unconvinced look from dani.

“you want her so bad.”

“no i don’t?!”

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[delicatebluebirdruins]

Rookie Cops (2022)

initial thoughts and rambles

how funny it is that the guy who played Bumji played the slightly evil guy in Military Prosecuter Doberman with a base in the funky club around the same time? very funny considering the setting, the villain for RC and how they're both dramas from 2022 (bye guys second job is calling/ where are you going? thats not the exit/ I know my next scene is in here)

hard to remember the rookie part because wow were there some dumb ass choices made... the show really shined in the human connections of these friends and siblings

some of the characters took a while for me to warm up to (Eunkang for sure dipped in my esteem for sugessting handing over the latop to bfs dad)

I couldn't take Kang Daniels character seriously because his look was so much like the older version of the kid from the Cat in the Hat it was too funny to look at him for awhile (wished he would cut that fringe)

loved them handling Daeils death and the funeral and the bits where he turned up at the end like the celebration dinner

the narration of Eunkang and Kang Daniel by the bleachers was mostly future marriage vows right? (also why there and not by the phone booth where they had their first kiss?)

Also has Kang Cheols evil older brother in it as the main villain so that was fun

[i73mj]

maybe aquariums aren’t so bad after all.

pt.1 > pt.2

kim minji x fem!reader x uchinaga aeri

synopsis: as you began to validate your feelings for minji, the bottled feelings bubbled up and resurfaces. we couldn’t really let go of the past, i think.

warnings: pedophilia?!??; avoidant coping mechanism ; broken humor + english; not proofread; intented lowercase; lmk if i miss anything!

a/n: this is my first ever fic after not writing for quite a bit of time so lmk if there’s any room for improvement (there always will be actually...) also i didn’t expect that it would be this long and random😭😭😭

you woke up in the middle of the night to your phone buzzing in your hand, ‘king michael jackson🕺🤺’ being the caller’s id. you quickly answered the call, minji’s husky voice meets your ear as soon as you said ‘hello’ with a hoarsy voice.

“you’re still awake?” minji asked, to which you replied, “if you don’t say what you want right now i’m getting back to sleep.”

“alright, alright! uhm... i’m in front of your door step...” you checked the time and it’s LITERALLY 2AM, you rushed to the door finding minji with a rosy tint spread across her face.

“again? get in here it’s freezing!” sometimes you even wonder why the two of you are friends as you brew a pot of tea and she sneaks up to your back, huggimg you with a stupid smile. yeah, why are you even friends? you two should be dating by now. it’s a routine by now that minji would come at your door whenever she couldn’t sleep at night, and you’d serve her a cup of tea with honey, talking about random things until she’s finally tired and asks you to go to bed with her—you enjoyed every second of the routine obviously. waking up with minji in your arm, her pillow face and messy hair, always give you a reason to stay alive. now here you are again, tracing the precious features on her face, noticing her slow breathing pattern—the way her chest moves up and down rythmically—the soft glow from the clown fish night lamp that she bought for you for your 9th birthday gleaming behind her back (she has the one that shaped like a blue tang, like nemo and dory). you slowly close your eyes as the girl in your arm snuggles closer and tomorrow you both will get ready in haste, regretting (you both know you'll do it again and again) the midnight conversation.

***

“at this point you two should move in together,” one of the girl in minji’s class, hanni pham, lazily sips her coffe. the class was cancelled because the professor—mrs. kang—fell down the stairs, and you were trying so hard to hold back the laughter when mrs. kang’s assistant inform the lecture was dissmissed and you’re free to go tp anywhere you like.

“you’re practically living together anyway.” she shifts her gaze towards your hand, which somehow intertwined with minji’s.

“and i’m the one talking while these two love birds are dating in front of me!” she slams her hand on the table gently, you look up to her and say, “hey it’s cold and we didn’t bring any heatpack plus i think this is a good way to warm our hands too, bonding time ’yknow.” you smile to minji which gives you an approving nod.

“okay, i’m gonna look for danielle and let you two act so tooth-achingly sweet.” hanni packs her bag and hurriedly leaves you two. to be honest you didn’t even know what makes you warm, minji’s hands or the fact that you’re holding hands with minji. you’ve done it countless times but lately if feels.... different? but since minji seems so nonchalant about the fact that you are practically dating or the way you two act behind closed doors. you shake your head to banish the thoughts and continued reading.

fortunately for you, before the thoughts roam back and you couldn’t focus on your reading anymore, danielle and hanni comes back with lunch! remnants of annoyance have completely gone from hanni’s face and the four of you discussed about random girl things while eating.

“hey y/n mind if i come over to your house? i left my keys there this morn-” before minji could finish her sentence, hanni exclaimed, “see?! dating!”

“yo hanni pham at this point i believe you’re in love with y/n-unnie.” danielle laughed in amusement.

***

as planned earlier, minji comes over to your house to pick up her keys. you decided to brew another pot of tea while minji searches for her keys, you were concered about what might happen to your bedroom.

“i swear i left it on your nightstand!”

“check my desk,” continues to chew bread, making another one for minji, rumbling noises soon be heard as minji proudly hold out her keys in front of you, “hehe, thank you y/n~” you swear her little giggles always sent you off, you were frozen for a moment before snaps back to reality.

“hey btw, my professor said someone will cover her up while she’s recovering.”

“i wonder how will they look, i hope it’s a pretty woman.” almost immediately, minji scoffed, “so you can drool through the whole lecture? nuh uh girl, this is not high school, i’m not taking notes for you to copy anymore.” you step closer towards minji, holding her cheeks in your hands.

“aww, jealous? of course not, pretty people are more bearable sweetie. now ’cmon let’s give that new ice cream shop a chance.”

***

“ha, it looks like auntie diva’s strawberry shortcake ice cream will never be replaced...” minji sigh in dissappointment, you two have been competing to find a better strawberry shotcake flavored ice cream since you go-to ice cream shop has closed because the owner moved overseas.

“where’d you wanna go next? i still have a few hours before my study session, i’ll just tag along.”

“you’d follow me anywhere?”

“as long as i’m alive.” you shrugged your shoulder in a nonchalant manner even though your heart could literally burst out right now.

who knew the place kim minji picked would be one of your biggest nightmare, aquarium. you refused to come inside and had to wait outside the last time you went there with minji and her family—technically it’s her, your parents and her parents.

“seriously kim?!??” even though you decide to follow minji inside and give aquarium a second chance, your voice is heavy with noticeable fear and annoyance, holding tightly to minji’s arm. the two of you pass halls and halls full of ocean creatures, until you reached the peak performance, walking tunnels with gallons and gallons of water above you ready to explode due to minor inconvenience!

“y/n, ’cmon this is the way out and we’ll buy plushies from the gift shop.” minji were so close to drag you inside the tunnel before you remember that you’d follow minji anywhere she’ll go. with a gulp, you nervously step inside the moving floor of the tunnel.

“see? we’re gonna be fine, enjoy the view sweetie.” she started to take more pictures of you together, admiring a shark passing by or pointing towards a weird ass looking fish. by then you thought, ‘huh. maybe aquariums weren’t so bad after all, the memories have slowly fading too...’ you start to enjoy the scene near the end of the tunnel as you catch a glimpse of a familiar face admiring the beauty alone. long, straight brunette hair being clipped messily, white shirt and black glasses, paired with a chic hand bag. you take steps closer towards the woman to clarify her identity. she opens her mouth at the same time as you, looking as shocked.

“y/n?” “aeri-unnie?”

the reason was here, the reason you never wanted to go to aquariums was here. you quickly grabbed confused minji’s hand and pace your way out—didn’t stop to buy plushies from the gift shop. you drive in silence as minji didn’t dare to utter a word in front of your angry face, after taking minji to a restautant—still in silence—you dropped her at her house without saying anything.

fuck, fuck, fuck. you should’ve known, sooner or later that she would come back and you wouldn't be able to hold it back. you couldn't sleep all night, only to come to school to encounter that nightmare.

“morning class, let me briefly introduce myself. my name is aeri uchinaga, you can call me ms. uchinaga and i’ll be replacing mrs. kang until her ankle is fully healed.” you tried to shift your focus to the whiteboard but the way aeri walks, and the way she talks...

“y/n, can you please explain problem number 5?”

***

aeri was the love of your life. or at least that’s what you thought when you first met her as a junior assistant at your father’s research lab. you two have a lot in common, from your favorite angle while talking selfie to your motto—when life gives you lemons, make mojitos. you two eventually grow closer more than ‘father’s research friends’ and ‘boss’ daughter’ and dated when you entered high school. no one knew about this relationship but it was wrong, of course, but your father got caught up with his work and your mother didn’t really pay attention to you. aeri was 23 and you were 16. even though you’re the one suggesting that you two should wait until you turn 21 before started dating again, you still bawl your eyes out when aeri decided to take new opportunities overseas. after whispering promises she’d be back before your 21th birthday, she flew to new york city while you stayed in korea.

you study hard to enter forensic science major while minji pursue art major, you kept the secret so well that the only person that knew about this were only you, aeri, and God. 3 years later, she didn’t come back and your heart finally seeks for new opportunity. the girl that have always stayed by your side, kim minji. it’s inevitable that you fell in love with her, you grew up together and spend most of the times of your life seeing each other’s faces—though when you dated aeri she’s more often questioning your whereabouts and made new friends.

aquariums. aeri have took you to countless aquariums in the country—besides the fact that her job deals with marine animals daily. you always listened to her with glimmering eyes full of adoration and amaze, her explanation is always so easy to comprehend. you avoid aquariums ever since aeri moved overseas.

now here you are again, listening to her easy-to-comprehend lecture. you didn’t knew that she take a turn to forensic science, that got you thinking, was that the reason she didn’t keep her promises? to study the subject that intrigues you the most and explain it to you the way she used to explain the noticeable difference in blue tang’s pattern? before the thought continues even further, a pair of arms sneaks into your waist, nearly making you scream.

“it’s me your girlfriend minji! i sneaked in because you seem distracted.” God, minji’s tiny voice still makes you weak, yet the voice of the woman in front of you sound so nostalgic. you didn’t want to think about these matter of feelings anymore. you took a piece of paper, wrote a little note and slide it to minji.

‘i’m sorry about yesterday. i wasn’t supposed to give you the silent treatment.’

minji took a peek quietly as if it was her lecture and aeri would send her out if she’s not listening, you grinned remembering your high school days. and it doesn’t slip off from aeri’s sharp observation, she still remembers that stupid grin of yours whenever you’re at ease or pleased and she silently curses at herself for not coming back at the time she promised you to. she leaves the lecture room while eyeing you and minji after giving assignments. seconds later, minji pushes back the paper.

‘yeah, i do feel sad... if you let me stay over at your house the whole week i’ll forgive you😋’

you give her a small agreeing nod and focuses back on writing the important parts of the lecture matterial from aeri’s laptop that were projected, you felt a tap on your arm.

“also, who the fuck is aeri?”

[iamtired10]

love in every beat

— ★ fluff headcanons :(

pairing: newjeans members x female reader

warning: kisses and again kisses, pure cuteness, jealousy.

synopsis: just how each newjeans member shows their love in their own unique, adorable way.

a/n: i swear im not writing these headcanons again guys 😭 sorry in advance. im literally crying, not even joking rn—

again i wrote this for a little distraction from everything that’s been going on. i can’t even finish the other half of my yandere! hanni fic cuz i’m so scared rn 😭

minji (kim minji)

minji’s the type to love quietly but intensely.

she shows her affection through small gestures that scream, i’m yours.

whether it’s slipping her hand into yours when no one’s looking, or resting her head on your shoulder, she makes sure you know you’re her world.

she’d text you random things in the middle of the night, like a picture of her snack, with a simple, “wish you were here to eat with me.”

but don’t be fooled—she’s also possessive in the cutest way possible.

if she catches someone else making you laugh a little too much, expect her to wrap an arm around you and pull you close. “you’re mine, remember that.”

she wouldn’t say it out loud, but her eyes would.

and trust me, you’d feel it every time.

when she gets shy after kissing you, she’ll hide her face in your neck, trying to play it cool but failing miserably.

you could tease her all you want, but she'd just hug you tighter, like her life depends on it.

“shut up... i love you, okay?” she mumbles, before kissing you again because once is never enough for her.

hanni (pham hanni)

hanni’s the cheeky one who teases you just to see your reactions, but damn if she isn’t soft underneath all that playfulness.

she loves to surprise you with small, thoughtful gifts—a cute keychain, a handwritten note, or your favorite snack.

the best part?

she’d make it seem casual like she didn’t spend the whole day planning it out.

her way of showing love is through constant attention.

she’d poke your cheek, ruffle your hair, and playfully steal your food just to get a rise out of you.

but if anyone else tried to tease you? hell no.

“only i get to do that,” she’d say with a grin, but you know there’s a protective edge behind it.

when she’s feeling extra clingy, hanni would climb into your lap without warning, wrapping her arms around you with a mischievous smirk. “what? you know you love me.”

and when you playfully push her away, she’d just tighten her grip, peppering your face with kisses until you’re both laughing so hard you can’t breathe.

at the end of the day, she‘d pull you into the most heartfelt hug, whispering, “babe, you‘re my favorite person, y‘know that?”

danielle (danielle marsh)

danielle loves loudly, in the best way.

she’s all about making sure you feel appreciated—like really, really appreciated.

she’d send you voice notes just because she misses your voice, and she’d always ask about your day, even when she’s busy.

when she’s with you, it’s like the rest of the world disappears, and you’re the only person that matters.

she loves random acts of affection, like grabbing your hand in the middle of a crowded street or kissing your forehead when you’re feeling down.

and don’t get me started on how she looks at you—like you’re her whole universe.

“how did i get so lucky with you?” she’d say with a beaming smile, and she’s not even trying to be cheesy, that’s just how she is.

when you’re tired or stressed, danielle’s the type to drop everything just to be with you.

she’d bring you your favorite drink, sit beside you, and gently run her fingers through your hair.

“i’m here, always.” her voice would be soft, calming, and you’d just melt into her.

there’s no way to resist her.

haerin (kang haerin)

haerin’s love is quiet, but it’s real as hell.

she’s not super into PDA, but when you're alone, she‘s all yours.

she’s the type to sit next to you and lean into you slightly, just enough for you to feel her warmth.

her love language is definitely quality time, no matter what you’re doing—watching movies, going for walks, or even just sitting in silence together, she’s happy as long as you‘re near.

she’s not the best at verbalizing her feelings, but her actions speak volumes.

she’d randomly rest her head on your lap, or gently take your hand when she’s feeling particularly soft.

when she does open up, though, it’s everything.

haerin’s the type to say something simple, like, “i like you a lot,” but it hits so damn hard because you know it took a lot for her to say it.

and when she finally says “i love you,” you’ll feel it in your bones.

when she’s shy after showing affection, she’d hide it behind a neutral expression, but the tips of her ears would turn red.

you’d point it out, and she’d just shrug, pretending it’s no big deal.

but when she thinks you’re not looking, she’d glance at you with the softest smile, like she’s the happiest person on earth just being with you.

hyein (lee hyein)

hyein’s the playful one who loves to mess with you, but in the sweetest way.

she’s the type to show affection by teasing you, like playfully pulling your hair or poking your side when you’re not paying attention.

but underneath all that, she’s lowkey obsessed with making sure you’re okay.

she’d check up on you constantly—“did you eat? drink water? you better be taking care of yourself, or else.”

she’s the type to send random memes in the middle of the night, followed by a simple “miss you.” it’s casual, but you know she means it.

when she’s feeling extra bold, hyein would surprise you with random hugs from behind, resting her chin on your shoulder and grinning as she whispers, “you’re cute, you know that?”

but she’s also surprisingly soft when it’s just the two of you.

when you’re feeling down, hyein would sit with you in silence, letting her presence be your comfort.

and when you least expect it, she’d lean over and press a kiss to your cheek, her voice quiet as she says, “i’m here, okay?”

it’s those little moments that make you fall even harder for her.

a/n: wake up to reality. they don’t even know you exist. stop being delulu 😏 (IM DUCKING CRYING PLEASE SOMEONE GIVE ME A GIRLFRIEND. AHHHHHHHHHHH DKFJFJKFGB THIS IS WHY I HATE CUTE SHIT SM 😭😭)