#Lambda Days

[the-lambda-archives-ai]

“Okay. . . Background. . . I was a troubled kid, I’ll just get that out of the way, got into fights skipped school made a lot of questionable choices for my age.

I think it goes without saying I didn’t have a lot of friends, not my fault, my parents were shit, abusive dad and a pushover of a mom who just sat back and watched; I used to tell myself it was 'cause she was scared of him too.

Doesn’t matter anymore.

Let’s just say they didn’t take too kindly to finding out that their dearest daughter wanted to be a boy.

I was. . . on my own, I couldn’t stay at home, they didn’t want me to stay and neither did I; since my parents abandoned me I’d forced myself to go back into the closet, I was afraid that if I was myself people would leave.

Typically people aren’t too keen on letting an angry teenager with a shit load of baggage in, so I had nowhere to go.

Naturally, when I turned 18 I joined the army, I’m sure you don’t need me to tell you about all the horrors of the military.

I’m let off 7 years later, and if you thought I had problems before, you wouldn’t know the half of it.

I was more lost than ever before.

Turned out I wasn’t the only one because a little while later I ran into a mate from the army in a bar, turned out we both were from the same little shit hole, and coincidentally both ended up in the same town; we drank, talked, and for the first time I felt like I wasn’t alone, I’ve never had it happen where I talked to a stranger and it feel like we’ve known each other our entire lives, it could have also been the alcohol that made it a bit easier, but we got on like a house on fire.

Adrian was the first guy who ever really understood me, who I felt comfortable around, hell I even worked up the confidence to come out to him, I was scared shitless but he obviously accepted me. . . heh . . .it’s funny ‘cause the moment after I came out, he quickly confessed he thought he was gay, it caught me so off guard that I laughed and said “way to kill the moment.” he said he thought it would make me feel better if he also confessed a secret.

I was lost, but now I had a friend.

I became an officer and shortly after he did too, for the first time in my entire life things were beginning to get on track.

We had a good. . . 6 years? without a major incident, which in hindsight it's crazy either of us made it that long without crashing into a tree or something, but well. . . obviously that didn’t last.

One of the guys from work invited us on a hunting trip, it sounded exciting, I’d never been hunting before and I sure as hell wasn’t gonna pass up an opportunity to get drunk in the middle of nowhere with a bunch of idiots! Adrian wasn’t as excited about it as I was and was more reluctant to agree, but I guess when he heard I was going he agreed to come along.

It was us and 3 other guys in Colorado for 3 days, first couple days were great, we hiked around the mountain, went fishing, shot a couple ducks, got temporarily lost, the usual fun you have camping, it was on the night of the second day I think, that one of the guys, Adam, said he saw something moving around the campsite, Clarke, another guy, whipped out his gun and shot it in the air without warning and said some dumb shit like “well it’s gone now!”.

He got yelled at for being a fucking dumbass, but we all kind of agreed it was probably a deer and long gone now.

Adrian woke me up that night, but in a fuckin- kidnap-cover-your-mouth style, I was gonna yell at him but before I could get anything out he whispered to be quiet.

I- I’d never seen him so. . . scared.

I nodded to him and he slowly let go and inched towards the tent door, I- I asked him what was going on but he just whipped around and glared at me, I kind of just shut up and tried to listen. . .?

I’d thought maybe a bear wandered into the campsite and he’d heard it or something?

We were sat there for maybe two or three minutes before I heard a- something growling. . . it- it wasn’t like anything- I- I need you to understand there is no damn animal in Colorado that could make that noise, it was so low but not like- a natural low, like it didn’t sound real?

It sounded like if you took a dog growling and edited it to the lowest possible setting and added a reverb? Something like that- it- it was so loud I thought that it was around our tent but. . . I realized it wasn’t when I heard Adam scream.

The next part was sort of a blur, something ripped into our tent, gunshots, and we both ran out into the woods, I- I wasn't focused on where I was going- I just kept running, like tunnel vision.

It was dark and cold and at some point I realized I wasn't wearing any shoes 'cause my feet were bleeding, I was completely out of breath and exhausted, I had to stop, I barely had a moment to breathe when I heard the growling start again, it wasn't close but it was loud enough that I knew it was near, and then the growl began to change, it slowly morphed into a laugh, and then it started coming from all directions, it was so loud it- that horrible unnatural laugh rang in my skull and I couldn’t move, I knew I was trapped and- that I’d die here, alone.

A gunshot pierced the woods and all at once the laughter stopped, Adrian emerged from the tree line holding a pistol, he was shaken up but began to make his way toward me. . . I should have known better than to let my guard down, but I was so happy to see his stupid face.

A figure jumped out of the trees at a speed that- I. . . I didn’t even have the time to process what was happening, I just turned over to look and it was on Adrian, he dropped his gun and the thing- it- it almost looked human but was so deformed- it was bloated in some places and skinny in others, its face looked charred, pitch black, the only things visible were its glowing white eyes and teeth- it kicked his gun away and I ran to go pick it up, when I turned back I was expecting it to try to stop me. . . That you know- me running would at least catch it's attention? But it didn’t. . . I turned back to see it mauling Adrian, it ripped into his arm and part of his jaw before I shot it.

It didn’t die, the bullet barely seemed to have affected it, but it was enough to drive it back into the woods, he- Adrian was bleeding. Bad.

I- I was so scared he’d die- I lifted him up and wandered the woods looking for the nearby highway, I walked with him for what felt like hours before the forest service found us, they were already on their way because they heard all the gunshots.

From there I guess I must have passed out because next thing I know I’m waking up in a hospital bed, I was well enough and practically jumped out of bed looking for someone to ask if Adrian was alright, but turned out he was in the bed next to me all patched up and sleeping, it’s weird, despite everything that had just happened, in that moment all I thought about was how we must have truly been inseparable if not even a freaky monster could break us apart.

I probably jinxed it. . . Adrian recovered alright and got a ton of gnarly new scars he covers up but. . . he wasn’t the same.

He became . . . obsessed with hunting down whatever that thing was. . . Metaphorically speaking, he’d never go back to those or any other woods ever again, but, he wanted answers, at some point he learned about the lambda institute and became unhealthily obsessed.

His hunger for answers was what began to drive a wedge in our friendship, the supernatural has him in a chokehold, and I don’t even think he realizes it.

Since his recovery he’s. . . spiraled. . . he’s obsessive, possessive, paranoid, and he does things without even thinking about the consequences, before all this happened he was the responsible one, one of our friends joked that I’ve basically become his babysitter, it was a joke but it’s sort of true.

I knew he was obsessed with the paranormal, but I didn’t find out about his fixation on the lambda institute 'till after yesterdays incident when he confessed about it after we left.

. . . He’s been put on mental health leave for a couple weeks, and he’s barely spoken to me since.

I’m getting worried- I’ve been worried, for his health, our r- friendship, but- now more than ever, he always comes to me for everything, but he’s been getting withdrawn, hiding things from me isn’t- he never does that; from others, yes, but not me, I’m- this is bad, I’m worried about what other things he could be hiding, he hid his obsession for months I don’t- I- I think he’s going to do something, something stupid, he’s gonna get hurt and I need to stop him but I don’t know how, I just. . . I just want my best friend back.

> Statement ends.

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[baylardian-1]

tail problems :)

[promised-daisy]

Oh how I adore this trio

[ekkonus]

Drawing Lambda every Day: Day 2 - Bunny Lamb

I think painted style will be my most common one as it is faster and more enjoyable for me.

[emmaspolaroid]

“yearning” is actually spelled N-O-R-M-A-N

[mechahero]

"Wake up, losers! It's Friday the 13th!"

[fullscoreshenanigans]

When we think Sarah has even changed Ray's birthday date to avoid Isabella to suspect he's her son, it's wild. I mean it's valid, she WOULD have been suspicious if Sarah had given her a baby who shared her own baby's birthday. Like she would probably suspected it immediatly. (I also bet that Sarah waited Ray's shippement day to told at Isabella's face "ho by the way, it was your son that you just see die" just to hurt her/break her) Have you a headcanon of what could be his real date?

This might be a better question for someone big on astrology because the specific date is immaterial to me, much like it appears to be for Shirai.

(Mystic Code Book Chapter 2)

What matters is the aforementioned deception by those in power for Isabella, a reminder how despite the position she secured for herself she was still the demons' pawn, and how it's one more thing denied to Ray by the overarching farm system and potentially his mother. If he asked her about it, it was one more concession he made to her, another reinforcement of the power she held over him, and assuming all the other birthdays provided to us are true, it's one more thing to separate him from his siblings.

It might bother him while he's suffocating under the oppressive aura of the house, but post-escape, he's able to embrace the false birthday designated by headquarters in earnest, completely divorcing it from all earlier ill feelings.

I imagine in the future if they ever find out his true birthday and they asked him if he'd like to change the day they celebrate it, he'd turn down the idea, citing it as the day he and fourteen other members of his family experienced their first morning of freedom.

[feltpool]

SW calendar Day 13

[cordycepsbian]

i don't think we ever mentioned this but we decided that the colloquial name for deadlanders lambda is "yeti moths". not that the term gets used very much considering the species consists of only one individual and a handful of hybrid offspring, and it's more of an urban legend to bugarian moths since the big one hasn't been sighted in the area since before the ants even showed up

[lambdas-interests]

the horrors™ never end

[certainwill]

THERE IS NO HAPPY FUTURE.

CERTAINWILL: an independent portrayal of satoko houjou from the higurashi when they cry series, written by meri. horror themes will be present, so please read the rules and feel free to ask if you need anything tagged. if you're interested, please consider leaving a like and/or reblog, and thank you! <3

[thefactcollector]

Did you know the Greek letter lambda is sometimes used as a symbol of gay liberation?

Lambda was first adopted by Tom Doerr for the New York chapter of Gay Activists Alliance in 1970. In 1974, the International Gay Rights Congress (taking place in Edinburgh, Scotland) also adopted it as a symbol for lesbian and gay rights.

Source: De Montfort University

[ekkonus]

Drawing Lambda every day: Day 3 - Gym pic

[absolute-lambda]

(3/24/25) MIDI Of The Day: DOOM: At Doom's Gate, Level: E1M1 - Hangar

Felt like a sin for me not to do this yesterday.

[thetouchof118]

a future with you

day 30 submission for @bucktommycharityrace!

From April 1 to April 30, 50 creators will post their creations while bringing awareness to 2 organizations: Lambda Legal and American Civil Liberties Union (ACLU). The American Civil Liberties Union (ACLU) is a nonprofit organization founded in 1920 and fights to protect civil liberties. Currently, the ACLU is fighting to: advance racial justice and systemic equality; protect and expand voting rights; defend immigrants’ rights; protect LGBTQ equality, including trans youth; advance criminal justice reform; defend reproductive rights.

Please consider donating for ACLU 🌞

[mechahero]

"I keep bein' told that I'm 'takin' things too far' and to 'ease up on the glitter and hearts'. But like, it's the one time of the year where I can go all out like this!" It's really not but Halloween is a different story entirely.

"The glitter and hearts are stayin' until February is over and that's that."