#MY YAOIS...........MY DOOMED YAOIS........

[ichance-detector]

drawn by the goat too...... heheheheheheheheh (you have to imagine me giggling like the end of that "this town is big enough for the two of us!" audio)

Poker faces

[calypsosletterbox]

don't get me wrong i love the doomed yaoi men of horror fiction podcasts but i feel like theres a dissonance between the amount of doomed gay male protagonist and doomed gay female protagonists. where is the doomed yuri. please

[localgardenweed]

Pick your fav doomed yaoi ig shrugs

[outta-trouble]

IS THAT A RELUGAR SHOW REFERENCE. IS THAT IT. bcs they def give mordecai and rigby vibes,,, WHAT IF I CRIED LOVE THE ART

I have a feeling their friendship mostly consisted of them being idiots together

[oh-no-its-bird]

Shikamaru accidentally becomes the second coming of Jiraiya via anonymously publishing BL novels with Sakura and Ino as his managers and editors

HEAR ME OUT. HEAR ME OUT.

Ok so, Shikamaru's grandfather passes away (aka my oc Shikasada, for those in the know) and among his things is a very old diary dating back to Konoha's founding. Shikamaru opens it to fund uhh. Many things. Many things he could have gone without knowing. Mostly revolving around his grandpa's apparent years long slow burn affair w some Hatake boy.

Shikamaru, sort of horrified but in too deep to back out now, resolves to at least finish the diary-- and despite himself, besides some of the more painful to read sections, there really is a lot of really interesting information in the diary.

Which brings Shikamaru to being unable to set down the diary, and bringing it to the academy with him in the morning.

(Quick note, lets set this like two or three months before graduation, so Shikamaru is like, ~13 I think)

SO, SHIKAMARU IS IN CLASS AND READING HIS GRANDFATHERS DIARY IN THE BACK OF THE CLASS (his first mistake, tbh) And he doesnt notice as Ino and Sakura appear behind him and Ino starts reading over his shoulder. And Ino, proud fujo, after a minute of reading goes really loudly,

"is that YAOI???"

And now Shikamaru essentially has two options. Both of them a uniquely kind of terrible. Does he,

a) admit this is his grandfathers very gay, very sappy, very depressing, kind of steamy diary about how he cheated on his fiance with a Hatake boy and even briefly debated running away from his wedding to be with him instead (but ultimately didnt)

or, b) let his classmates think hes a fan of doomed yaoi romance novels.

He decides that option b at least doesnt invoke a possible scandle for his clan (which his mom would kill him for) and says its a book.

Sakura immediately points out the fact that its hand written.

On pure reflex, Shikamaru blurts, "I wrote it."

(Instant regret.)

So anyways Ino and Sakura (mostly Ino) bully Shikamaru into letting them read 'his' book. And they come back to him with it going "omg, this is amazing! It's just as good-- maybe even better than most of the things on the market right now!!!"

And Shikamaru is like, "great can I have it back please."

And they're like "Shikamaru, you cant just let this kind of masterpiece rot in your closet!!!! This is incredible!!!! Heart wrenching!!! Hair raising!!! Super dramatic and filled with tension and drama and history and 𝓇𝑜𝓂𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒 !"

And Shikamaru, again, is like, "Great. Can I have it back please."

"Shikamaru, you don't understand. You have a gift."

"Can I please have it back now."

So. One thing leads to another and after much peer pressure (and maybe some light threats of blackmail because Ino and Sakura have totally realized that Shikamaru didn't actually write the diary, and it instead belonged to his grandfather. (Mostly because Ino had actually met the man before, and obviously recognized his name)) Shikamaru has now gained:

a) two very eager 13 year old publishing managers / editors

b) the contact information of Sakura's cousin, who coincidentally works at one of the biggest publishing houses in Fire counry.

c) somehow, some way, the obligation to edit and publish his grandfathers diary as a bl romance novel.

Shikamaru hates his fucking life.

SO. THEY PUBLISH IT AFTER SOME EDITING AND CHANGING OF CLAN NAMES AND ITS A WILD SUCCESS. SHIKAMARU IS KIND OF MAD AT HOW MUCH OF A WILD SUCCES IT IS.

(Though, laying in his bed of money that now rivals his father's personal funds as the Nara clan head, he can't bring himself to be... as mad as he might have otherwise been.)

(Sakura and Ino, also with their giant piles of money, are also very satisfied.)

But the satisfaction doesnt last for long bc soon the girls are scheming to get Shikamaru to write something new for them to publish.

"But I didn't write the diary to begin with!" Shikamaru argues.

"What does it matter?" Ino insists. "You still edited it, and it was your grandfather who wrote it! Some of the talent has to be there!"

(depressingly enough for Shikamaru, some of the talent does seem to be there.)

And thus begins Shikamaru's life of becoming a famous romance author with his (blackmailers) managers Ino and Sakura <3

(In the pure lands, Shikamaru's grandfather is screaming into a pillow as his Hatake boy in question laughs his ass off and insists this is exactly what he deserves after keeping them a secret for so long. Really, Shika, you should be proud for having such a resourceful grandson.)

So anyways, this brings me to the fact that Sakura's first ever encounter with her new sensei, Kakashi, would have gone WILDLY different on her end. Because she saw the original diary. She, unlike the general public, didn't get the edited version of the story with changed clan names.

So when her teacher walks into the room and introduces himself, her very first thought is omg like the yaoi.

And her first act is to start giggling maniacally in the corner of the room like a little freak. In Sakura we stan

Kakashi meanwhile has no fucking clue what kind of drugs that little girl is on, but finds that he probably doesn't want to know.

WHICH ALSO BRINGS ME TO THE FACT THAT LIKE. Theres something profoundly funny about known icha-icha lover Kakashi reading this novel and becoming a huge fan-- absolutey 100% unaware that it's about HIS direct cousin, only two generations back.

Shikamaru put way more effort into disguising the Nara clan's involvement in the book-- both because he cares more about the Nara and because he kinda uhh... was under the impression that the Hatake were all dead, like, for real. In the book, the Nara's clan name is changed, the character names are changed, their sacred animal is changed to a rabbit and their traditions are all altered-- but the Hatake clan just becomes the Hasake clan and is largely left alone bc Shikamaru is 13 and can't really be bothered to go the extra mile.

(Editing so much is such a bother, Ino. You just dont get it)

So like, Shikamaru has no idea who Kakashi is, he only learns he exists when Sakura fucking bodyslams into him and Ino screaming about how HER NEW TEACHER IS RELATED TO THAT GUY YOUR GRANDPA HAD NASTY GAY SEX WITH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"THE ONE LIKE IN THE DIARY ONE???" Ino screams

"IS THERE ANOTHER GUY WHO HAD NASTY GAY SEX WITH SHIKAMARU'S GRANDPA WHO I'M SUPPOSED TO KNOW ABOUT??!?!?" Sakura screams back

Shikamaru just screams into his pillow. The girls both ignore him.

Meanwhile, Kakashi knows SHIT about his clan and recognizes nothing in the novel. Which is a special kind of tragic because as he reads it, he's being given more information than he's ever been given about his clan. And even specific stories and in depth recorded conversations about his grandmother-- and even occasional mentions of his own father as a baby, and he just... has no idea.

Man is literally reading about his ancestors, getting stories of his family only a single generation before him, going: "Wow something about this clan just speaks to me. Probably the dogs."

Literally getting his fathers childhood stories. Not a single clue.

Hes going on a mission going "Hmm, what would Haruka Hasake from hit bl series XXX do" like that isnt secretly his fucking GRANDMA

Meanwhile, all three of the kids are acting SO shady around him. Ino and Shikamaru specifically are so fucking suspicious bc they are largely successful in avoiding him like the plague-- so when they do interact, it's an Event(tm) for them, while Sakura is forced to learn to be normal near him via exposure.

Tho not even the sage himself can save Sakura from the day Kakashi pulls out THE book during training instead of his usual icha-icha. Sakura fucks up her aim on a body flicker and flies straight into a tree, giving herself a concussion. Rip!!

Anyways yeah. Let Shikamaru discover his grandfathers old, scandal filled diary and be blackmailed by Ino and Sakura into publishing it-- setting him on his journey of becoming the next big thing in naruto romance publishing. It'd be funny as hell.

Special thanks to @imsosleepyofyourbull and @halsaph for talking to me about this on discord, this is so fucking stupid and I had so much fun with it

[pearlgodaymen]

« This action will have consequences »🦋

[alcorian-wizard]

version with blood below the cut!

[samuelseowhore]

oh so they sleep together huh !

I'm crying who sleeps like that pls

cutiessss

[sirshio]

Small addition! By this heartbreaking edit (give it your love, if you have Twitter) I was reminded that Erik actually said that Istvan was like a father to him. I believe that he had two reasons: first, he is still in medieval Catholic Europe (where sodomy is a mortal sin, you know), and second, this is actually true to him. Ištván is his father figure AND his lover. This is fucked up on so many layers and I'm here for it.

Some people think that Ištván met Erik when he was 16 or 17 already, but I tend not to believe it and I have reasons. First, Ištván tells Erik that he grew in a very capable young man, what most likely mean that Istvan saw him mature and grow. Second, we are talking about 15th century, not the modern society, and people became mature in earlier years that they do now. Third, I think that Erik's loyalty and devotion grew out of almost childish affection. I think if he was older, he would've feel a little bit different for Ištván. I don't think Erik was a kid, but it's most likely he was a young teen, 11-13 y.o. Yes, a modern teen of this age is still a kid, but a Moravian peasant boy of the same age is quite mature. Not an adult, of course, but definitely not a kid anymore.

P.S. If you crave for Isterik being portrayed as both problematic, with dubious morality, grooming and power imbalance, but at the same time with tenderness and loyalty between them, GO AND READ fic I talk about in a previous post. I can't emphasize enough how great this fic is. I adore it.

Yesterday I posted a thread about Istvan's and Erik's emotional incest and decided to bring it on Tumblr too, because I think I did a decent job.

Why I think I can say something about psychology? Well, I've been having a special interest for it for almost all my life, my mom is a therapist with almost 20 years of practice, we discuss her work often, I read books about psychology (my favorite specialists are K.G. Jung, M.L. von Franz and I.D. Yalom). So yes, I'm qualified. Why be shy and demure when I can not to?

So let's begin!

If you don't know, it's quite normal when small kids (3-6 y.o.) have a "crush" on their parents. Boys may think that they will marry their moms, a lot of girls think the same about their dads. This is called Oedipus' complex and Electra's complex respectively. Despite these terms were made for straight (and cis) people, we can and should adapt them for queer people too. For example, I perfectly remember these experiences with both of my parents (I'm under a bisexual umbrella). For Erik I will use the term "Oedipus' complex", simply because he's a man and this term is masculine.

So. This is pretty normal for a lot of people and usually passes without a trace (most of people who experienced it even don't remember about it). But this scenario happens in healthy families with trustful relationships, where parents and kids love each other. We know a little about Erik's family and can only use his own words, when he said his parents were weak and couldn't raise him properly. I believe this means he hadn't had a close and sincere relationship with his parents (I also see him as autistic, and his neurodivergence made his relationships with people more difficult). This is very possible that before Erik met Istvan, he hadn't had a man who could've been his father figure, someone who could've taught him how to be a man, too, who showed him that it's possible to fight for a place under the sun respect and other needs.

But Istvan came, he was strong and independent, he took what he wanted and needed, and for Erik he became a man to follow, basically a father (maybe Istvan was the same age as his real father was, we don't know). A father he never had, someone who can protect and teach him, to take care of him, to become someone whom Erik can be attached to. You know. A family.

I tend to think that Istvan became a father figure for Erik first, and someone to have Oedipus' complex, gay edition second. Erik also idealized him, because he HAD TO deal with fact that Istvan actually murdered his family and took away everything he had, but gave so much more than they ever did instead. So he had to tell himself that Istvan is better than them and that he was in his right, because the strongest wins and lives and weak are useless and deserve to die.

As I said, Erik hadn't had a healthy base to have his Oedipus' complex. Since this is a quite necessary thing for majority of people, it was Istvan to become such a base. And here are a few factors why this complex gone fucked up:

- Erik is too grown-up for it. As I mentioned, the normal age is 3-6, and I believe Istvan met Erik when he was 12-13 already, what is definitely too late,

- Istvan is not his relative (maybe Erik was able to perform actual incest, but whatever, the fact they aren't related makes the situation worse),

- Erik developed an unhealthy codependency for Istvan. He (as I see) was hungry and desperate for connections, he idealized Istvan, he needes him more than anything,

- he was in the age when most people have their first sexual crushes (I don't say all 13 y.o. teens should fuck, but a majority of them do have sexual fantasies of different kinds, it's just normal).

So, all of these factors collided and grew into a rather unhealthy mixture that made Erik's late and already fucked up Oedipus' complex in an actual crush.

I think his jealousy and desire to have Istvan only for himself have the same roots. When you have only one person you care about and this person is the only one who shows care for you, you are very likely begin to think they should belong to you and only you and you must be their everything, or else you are useless and no one will ever need you. You begin to think that you should give them anything and everything they need (because they did the same thing to you) and begin to be jealous and angry (and discarded) if they dare to fulfill some of their needs with other people.

Actually, this wish to be "together and only together" also has roots in familial ties (or lack of them). I remember a stunning autobiography of (my favorite) Elias Canetti. When he was a teenager, his father died and he became a man for his family and literally tried to become a husband for his mom, because he loved her so. Thankfully, they both weren't so fucked up, and this situation didn't become worse and didn't end up in an incestuous bond. But you see my point, I think. If a child/teen has a parent (or parental figure) on whom they can have a "crush", this thing can happen. This - and something much worse.

So I think for Erik Istvan is everything. His salvation, his mentor, his father he'd never had, his lover... He will be anybody and everybody for Istvan, and he doesn't think there's something very wrong with it. I can perfectly see a 14 y.o. Erik who kisses Istvan and says he wants to be his man. He is already taller than him and have broader shoulders - not a boy anymore, but a young lad. Istvan is proud of him - and of himself too. I wonder if he could resist a temptation to accept his feelings...

Gosh, they are soooooooo problematic AND I'M HERE FOR IT.

I hope you liked my post! Also I strongly recommend Canetti's autobiography, it's great! It has three parts, I found both original titles and English ones for them: Die Gerettete Zunge/The Tongue Set Free, Die Fackel im Ohr/The Torch in My Ear, Das Augenspiel/The Play of the Eyes.

(Shio just finished his paper for university and makes literature references even in his internet posts...)

(also please give some attention to my original twitter thread <:3 the link is in the beginning)

P.S. a lot of thoughts about them were given to me by this absolutely amazing fic! If you love Isterik, give it a try, it's so worth it!

[confessioncivilization]

Honestly started to like guardbo a lot more after the finale

(it probs also has to do w the fact that seavbo, in pvpciv, is soo bland and im starting to finally accept that (I love seavbo))

[cyellolemon]

FURRY RUBY!!! he got the furry beam too ofc he's a red cat.. the catguy ever

He's so cute i may be in love teehee + have him with Ambrose because doomed yaoi furry. big brain...

[lovelydragon003]

DOOMED TOXIC YAOI FTW!!!!!

[fern3031]

he thought wisconsin was for one day only 🤣🤣🤣 he MAD 😠😠🤣🤣🤣

damn ok bartleby

[cipher-eye]

this is probably the most emotion ive ever drawn gears showing

anyway

i actually really like bright x gears. its almost doomed old man yaoi. i might start writing a fic about them if i dont see any more content about them. why is a ship between two of the most popular characters such a rare pair. this sucks man

also i tried drawing them a bit differently than i usually do

AND i will be making a drawing for pride month it just might be a little late my bad gang

[antihero8baller]

my worst tma headcanon is that its peter and elias that are the in-love doomed yaoi and jonah magnus is something akin to an evil alter that regularly takes over elias’s body to scheme and have a tumultuous and antagonistic relationship with their sugar daddy peter lukas

[asherashedwings]

Erm. So I impulsively started another project.

Here’s a lil sneak peek.

ILL GET THOSE DESIGNS DONE SOON I PROMISE, I JUST NEED TO GET DOOMED YAOI OUT OF MY SYSTEM-