#Mergo returning Hamlet violated Mensis dissolved and Micolash Twins killed and so on...........

[blackvahana]

There's definitely a constant thought buzzing in the back of my mind regarding ANVD and... the logical conclusions of some things. I can't help but think that the twins would've guided me to making it (If I am The Inevitable and Lev does actually know about it and so on) and then swamped it in BB symbolism and made me hallucinate that it was the Nightmares and then just. take it from me.

which, to be clear, symbolically - to our family - it is the Nightmares, metaphorically. In the way I say I think the game is based on this family it isn't the Nightmares, but it's also... sorry. I'm just looking at our close-knit current life things... Rip the baby from Kos - emphasis again that I'm talking on our close-knit metaphorical projections on the game, but the cyclical nature is fulfilled. I make realms, the Micolashs take them and use them, they end up being strangled alive by them, they claim those realms or That Realm as ANVD expands, they. become the host, I didn't think of that lmfao.

Just the constant symbolism of salt washing up on shore and strangling the water, which turned out to be eggs, the gravitation of my Leviathanic body to being white like Gold is outside my conscious choice when I only identified with and expressed myself in black and gold... and the fact that.... I wasn't allowed near the Hamlet in game and neither it nor Maria in thoughts let alone spiritual practice, I wasn't allowed to talk to "them". Kos apparently hated me based on something - but Lull seemed to support my attempts at reconciliation. Towards the end of our time together, Lull "got pregnant" and Maria "helped him deliver" in my body, which showed there was a breaking down of the "Maria & the Hamlet don't want to be near you" thing going on. I fully expect that it... was probably going to develop into him being like "actually you're a Godshard of Kos and you have to reconcile" and then into stitching realms andddd

Dont get me wrong, not a conspiracy, the twins... for all the fucking faith Black and Red had in them Grey was right in that they don't fucking think they do not plan properly they do not act like gods with the weight of millions on their back, but they... that's where that was going, full stop.