#R.I.P Andy for doing it first

[imafish000]

Wrong target!

Cameron by: @rarestdoge

Postman and his lil buddy🦆

[lindsaywesker]

Good morning!�� I hope you slept well and feel rested?  Currently sitting at my desk, in my study, attired only in Blue Towelling Robe No. 2, enjoying my first cuppa of the day.

Welcome to the working week although, for those of you working in the NHS, welcome to just another day.

On Friday, I had a list of things to do and I did them all!  Tick, tick, tick.  No procrastinating!  To be honest, I really don’t have time to procrastinate!  Can’t be doing with all that last minute dot com!  Last minute people drive me mad!  They wait until the last minute, get all stressed and angry, and start blaming you!

Many thanks to everyone that listened to ‘The A-Z Of Mi-Soul Music’: The Letter D (Part Two).  Thanks for all your emails, messages, texts and WhatsApps.  If you missed the show, it’s up on my MixCloud page.   Executive Producer Maxine Beckford did a superb job!  I’d never met the young lady before, she came into the studio, bought me a fab new mug, and hopefully she will come back again?  Next week, we welcome Tracey Lewis, who has curated a brilliant Part Three.  Again, never met Tracey before, so I’m looking forward to meeting her.

On Sunday, it wasn’t exactly warm and, towards 2.00, began to rain, but The Mighty Josiah and I went to the park, so he could let off some steam.  Luckily, he found a football game to play in, while I walked around the park, to keep my step count healthy.

Internet wisdom is sometimes a bit twee but I quite like this. “Ignoring the red flags because you wanna see the good in people will cost you later.”  Do you know people like that?  There are many kind-hearted people that will literally let people walk all over them just because they have this quaint belief that there is good in everyone.  Hmm … not so sure!

R.I.P. radio broadcaster Andy Peebles, 76.  In 1974, the good folk of Manchester would have heard him present his ‘Soul Train’ show on new commercial station, Piccadilly Radio, a lifeline to new black music at that time, and there’s a man called Tom Smith who recorded those shows back in the day (amongst others) and has posted them on his Mixcloud page.

Have a marvellous and momentous Monday.  I love you all.

[butmakeitgayblog]

Can you Tell us the story about how you met your wife and got together? I know It was somehow Clexa related, pretty please ;)

Oh Sam's not actually my wife 😅 we're not married and probably will never get married. Between us both being the products of divorce (and unhappy marriages prior to that involving parents who stayed together way too long), plus with my whole health issues thing and maybe ending up needing to be on disability down the road, we just decided to shelve that whole notion for the foreseeable future, possibly forever. But in spirit she is, a piece of paper isn't needed. I mean she buys me rotisserie chickens 🥹

Anyway yeah!

So shortly before the pandemic hit I was going out to dinner with a group of friends and one of them asked if she could bring her cousin along. She said her cousin had recently moved down into the area for work and didn't really know anybody else and so, ya know, it'll give her a chance to socialize. We all met up and it was nice and I'm thinking hmm she's cute but also pretty quiet and kinda stoic and probably straight so it was like meh whatever she's alright I guess 🥴. But then during dinner I was eating something that everyone knew would make me feel icky and I said something along the lines of like, "Eh fuck it, victory stands on the back of sacrifice, right?" Fully thinking no one would pick up on it because I knew no one else there had ever watched the show.

But then miss thang's head shot up like 😳

Nobody else having caught this reference, we spend the next several seconds having a silent

moment across the table ���

She said I turned both white as a sheet and then fire engine fuckin red😅😅😅 (I have a very real blushing problem. It's the cross I bear that comes with the chubby cheeks, r.i.p.)

After that she started joining in the convo more and actually coming out of her shell. We started kind of having our own side convo just between us and when the check came everyone else decided to call it a night but we stayed behind and had another drink at the bar. We ended up staying till right about closing, and then exchanged numbers and decided to ~hang out~ the next day ~just us~.

For the conversation, obviously.

And that was kind of that. We saw each other pretty much every day after that and text constantly and called each other every night before bed if we weren't staying over together. At first Iiiiiii had a *moment* of panic of not really knowing what we were because it just went from not knowing she existed to having her be kind of the focal point of my life, but she was kind enough to just be like "🙄+😏+🤦‍♀️ we're dating, Andi. We've been dating. That's what we are. Don't hurt yourself there, champ."

So kudos to her for that...

It was tough during the beginning stages of the pandemic because she has family that is very high risk and so do I, both of which if they got it they'd probably die, so quarantine and social distancing was rough but necessary, but we worked through it and both feel more solid for it. And now we live together and she helps me take care of my mother and myself and I do my best to be her support and help her and be her best cheerleader whenever I can 🥹

Downside tho is I'll forever be labeled "Cousin Fucker" in my friend's phone contacts 😒

[murderfabrication]

Murder Fabrication character playlists

Inspired by how much I tend to associate R.I.P's songs to Jan, I decided to try and create character playlists for the first time.

I've never genuinely done this before so that's probably why I didn't do a good job balancing it. Some playlists are short, but I hope you'll enjoy the songs nonetheless.

(If nobody got me, I know PINOCCHIOP got me.)

The order of the songs isn't super important, though I vaguely tried to both stay within similar themes all at once, and not to have the same artists too many times in a row. You can shuffle them if you want. Content warnings: Some of these songs contain references to suicide. Uploads without YouTube's internal content warnings were chosen for the flow of the playlists. Please proceed with caution and feel free to ask me for details if needed. This concerns mostly one playlist.

Masterlist: • Jan's playlist • Akiro's playlist • Andi's playlist • Isabella's playlist • Keith's playlist • Alice's playlist • Lois' playlist • Oscar's playlist • Benjamin's playlist • Neo's playlist • Emily's playlist • Noah's playlist • Chris' playlist • Mina's playlist • Ciel's playlist • Chloe's playlist

If anyone takes the time to listen to these, please tell me which is your favourite. If two characters share a song, it's not by coincidence. (Does not JUST apply to the two at the top of the list.)

I had to dismiss some songs because they would have made some spoilers too obvious... but still, teasers included.

[no-stranger-to-affliction]

The Rules: Answer 20 questions and tag 20 (or whatever) other blogs you want to get to know better

tagged by: @anamityaffliction

Name: Jake

Pronoun: He/Him

Zodiac: Pisces

Height: 5”7

Nationality: American 🇺🇸

Favorite Band: Honestly just based off how they’ve gotten me out of some dark places over the last several years, Amity Affliction. However I like a ton of different bands with different styles of music. I’ve recently discovered some bands too that I haven’t heard much of and have come to enjoy them. PLEASE feel free to drop a few bands in my inbox to suggest!

Favorite Artist: This ones personal, because he was the first artist I ever connected with on a deep level, but Chester Bennington from Linkin Park. Met him years ago during some volunteer work I did for Iraq & Afghanistan Veterans Of America and got to see him in concert, backstage meet and greet, the whole thing. Him and Linkin Park signed a T Shirt that had a picture of one of their albums at the time on it. It was such a great experience and I still have the tshirt (never been worn) and tons of pictures. Definitely was a moment I’ll cherish forever. R.I.P Chester ✊🏼

When Did You Create Your Blog: Hmmm I would say over 9 years ago when I turned 21

Last Thing You Googled: Attachments for my AR 🔫

Lucky Number: Honestly I don’t think I have one

Other Blogs: None.

Why You Chose Your Username: Part of my username has to do with the band “The Amity Affliction”. (Sorry to get dark) The other part of my username is because I’ve dealt with personal struggles for over 15 years and I’m no stranger to affliction..affliction means pain or a suffering. It sounded cool years ago 🤷🏻‍♂️

How Many Blogs Do You Follow: 200

How Many Blogs Follow Me: 288

Average Hours Of Sleep: Uhh between 5-6 hours roughly.

Do You Play Any Instruments: Unfortunately no. Always wanted to learn 🎸 though

What Are You Currently Wearing: Athletic Shorts

Dream Trip: Scotland or Ireland. The pictures I’ve seen are beautiful in a lot of parts.

Favorite Food: Steak, Seafood, Japanese. Really a lot of foods to be honest. I used to be a chef for many years so I grew a liking to a ton of unique foods.

Favorite Song: The Amity Affliction- Catatonia right now. Also I Prevail-Bow Down just because it hits hard haha but I’ve been hearing some songs by The Ghost Inside and Zero 9:36, as well as Memphis May Fire that I like.

Tags: @sad-ghost-jen @bandasaruswrx @lostinmysadnessx @the-andi-affliction @thisliftsusup @darkprincess4u @rebelblxxd

[buffythecomicslayer]

“Lorne: The Music of the Spheres” (2010)

Special feature -- In memory of Andy Hallett (1975--2009)

Transcription below:

Mark Lutz, actor ("the Groosalugg")

Everybody loved Andy. He made friends wherever he went, and I'm not just talking about passing friends, your run-of-the-mill-variety, but good ones, the kind that last a lifetime. Between his childhood friends in his hometown of Osterville, MA, and his adoptive home in Los Angeles -- not to mention the ridiculous amount he met at the Angel conventions he attended in every corner of the world -- he literally had friends everywhere. People often throw around the term "winning personality," but with Andy, it was more than that. Andy's personality was like a friendship smart-bomb. He could talk to anyone, of any age and background, find a common thread, and within minutes make them feel as though they had been life-long friends. I know, I saw it happen a million times in person and moreover, it happened to me.

I met Andy my very first day on set. I had just stepped out of a trailer after an hour-long makeup test for Groo, and was covered from head-to-toe in metallic, cobalt-blue makeup (the original idea for the character, that was thankfully scrapped) when I ran into him. He was in full Lorne garb, head-to-toe green, and, having never seen the show before, I had no idea who he was.

"How long?" Andy asked me with a shorthand usually reserved for old friends and siblings, not complete and utter strangers.

"About an hour," I replied, all the while sizing him up. His makeup was really quite intricate and altogether seamless. You could read the expressions on his face in the same manner you could on someone completely devoid of the stuff. "You?"

"Three hours, ya f--king lucky bastart." I laughed out loud at both his audacity and his misfortune. We became best friends immediately.

The rapport was instant, easygoing, and warm. We spent the next hour talking about everything under the sun EXCEPT for the fact we were both different colors and in these outrageous outfits on the Paramount backlot. Executives in suits would occasionally pass by us, every one of them giving us some manner of "look" that involved a combination of curiosity, mild amusement, and disbelief. Andy seized on every opportunity he could to make them laugh.

"Humans," he said loudly in feigned disgust, "don't they know it's not polite to stare?" to a gaggle of "suits" across the street.

"Who raised you, anyway, Ma'am? Have you no respect for visible minorities," he inquired of someone who I instantly recognized as the former head of Paramount Pictures, Sherry Lansing -- but he, obviously, did not. She laughed heartily and nodded in the direction of both the blue and green humanoids that had just verbally accosted her... an absurdity that I'm sure could only take place in Hollywood.

Andy was invincible and absolutely fearless in his Lorne garb, and even though he made no bones about hating being cooped up inside all of that makeup for hours on end, he secretly loved the anonymity and confidence it afforded him -- not that he needed it.

Being new to L.A., Andy showed me around town, bringing me out with him to some great local watering holes and restaurants, introducing me to some great people who remain my friends to this day, and even helping find me my first place -- directly across from his own.

"I'm going to need to build a moat and fill it with all manner of nasty beasties," he would joke to the fans we met at conventions. "Let's see Lutz swim across that to mooch my food."

That was the kind of guy he was, helpful, thoughtful and generous to a fault, all the while accompanied by a wickedly sharp sense of humor.

While visiting Andy's place, you were always assured of two things -- a gracious host, and a constantly ringing telephone. Andy's phone rang more than anyone I have ever encountered in my entire life. You couldn't be at his place for more than two minutes when the phone would ring, and it would continue to ring incessantly. At first, I wondered who the hell was calling his house all the time. But slowly, it all started to make sense. People wanted to be around him, people wanted to hang out with him, people wanted to be his friend, and it was no wonder, what with all the energy that Andy radiated. Who wouldn't want to be his friend? I think at some point, almost instinctively, Andy had to give up answering his phone with any kind of regularity, since doing so would mean never getting anything else done.

The thing I'll always remember and loved the most about Andy was watching him sing -- he was born to do it. Andy was always outgoing and full of vitality, but when you got him on a stage, gave him an audience, and put a microphone in his hand -- look out! He absolutely came ALIVE. It was if he had received a shot of adrenaline. He radiated what show-biz types commonly refer to as "it." It was raw and natural talent that he possessed, and I have little doubt it is exactly what Joss saw when he first dreamed up the character of the Host after seeing Andy sing karaoke at a local dive bar. And while Joss may have plucked Krevlornswath of the Deathwok Clan from the depths of his imagination, Andy's personality and charisma made it his own.

After his passing, I found myself thinking that I was glad that some of the really important people in my life had gotten to meet him -- my Dad, my brother, my little sister; they all got to meet him and experience the joy that emanated from him on a daily basis. I'm really glad so many fans out there got to meet Andy at the conventions we always seemed to attend together. If you never got the chance to meet him over the years, I wish you could have. You, too, would have become friends with him immediately.

I miss my friend desperately, but I take solace in the fact that I know, at this very moment, he's singing somewhere.

R.I.P., my friend.

-- Mark Lutz

[voidlycat]

3, 12, 29 :3c

3. list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.

uh oh gamers andy’s trying to get me to kin assign myself!

homestuck - rose lalonde!wolf 359 - hera or minkowski! she-ra - adora?su - connie!! also rose’s excitement about life and change, but not the horrible warcrimes. what other fandoms are i in :lisa: i felt like this was a stretchim gonna count hiveswap as its own thing bchiveswap - TYZIAS TYZIAS TYZIAS TYZIAS TYZIAS TYZIAS Tand also wanshi hit me so strongly bc,,,,, owocry bro you are baby and i was a baby just like you. i love you wanshi. also to a much lesser extent, stelsa and chixie! it’s funny though, because i tend to really associate with the Smart(tm) characters, but ive grown a lot beyond needing to Be the smart person, so its strange to me that all of the characters i still heavily relate to are the Smart(tm) ones (though, i suppose a lot of them have that same Thing about needing to be smart). except adora. adora has dumb jock energy but she wants to do the right thing and i connect w that. 

12. dog person or cat person?

im def a cat person, but i love dogs! we have five at the moment :3 two of them are fourth generation pups from a border collie we had when i was really little! their dad’s still alive too, he’s a Good Boy.

29. three songs that you connect with right now.

oh no it depends on whether you mean i Connect with as it i feel it describes how im feeling rn or songs that i just associate heavily w myself for the first one its probably anyone on my “uh oh!” playlist and for the second one it’s my “purple” playlist. for songs i feel in my chest, they’re literally all the songs in all my other playlists, especially any of my rp muse lists. love like you, talk me down, and maybeeee college (by stories untold) for How Im Kinda Feeling Rn Bro. also its not directly tied to my mood but the song Off She Goes by bad suns is so powerful to me i love bad suns so muchbleeding heart, cut my hair, and try to change are probably my main three Oh These I Feel Are Me songs, as well as some saint bernard. for songs i cant Not imagine an animatic to all the way through,,,, oh god theres so many. ill just pick some randomly rather than my Top Threeghosting - for an elaborate and convoluted homestuck au rp; this song particularly is about the relationship between tyz and an alternate of the dolorosa who grew close to them online before rosa went out slaughtering her way through people to get to the grand highblood (she died before he did r.i.p). her ghost haunts tyz because it’s too painful to face the rest of her clade and then she feels guilty later because her ghost is an assholeburn - stelsa and tyzias. i could just leave it there but the particular animatic i imagine to it involves the au mentioned above. in it, theres a lot of painful tension between the two because. :). we live to suffer.closer (by the tiny) - i really associate this song with one of my close irl friends. she moved away a while ago and i miss her almost everyday. in an ideal world i would be able to animate something to this song for her because she deserves it. 

[foreverbeingthunderbuddy]

Darling, Don’t Stop [b.b.]

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warnings: sexual attraction, um mention of nsfw

Prompt: “Who knew that this would be such a turn on?”

Summary: Bucky hires the law firm you work for to defend and represent him, though you’re just an intern and have to serve him during the meeting. You wouldn’t have come to work that day though, if you had known you would see him again later that week. In a strip club.

A/N: This is my submission for @hollandroos’ 12k writing challenge. Word count around 7,5k.

Masterlist | Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

Okay here’s the thing. Life is good.

You’re not exactly rich or wealthy, there isn’t a day where you don’t stuff money into the little jar in your kitchen shelf to save for worse days and there isn’t a day where you don’t stop at the little pizza shop down the street for lunch instead of going to a real restaurant that has heavy menu cards and fancy, washable napkins.

But you’re happy. You don’t feel like you’re missing out too much. You have your own little apartment, your own bed, kitchen, bathroom and you never have to beg anyone for money. It’s not much but it’s yours.

You went to law school. Yeah, you know, it sounds fancy but it wasn’t. It was tough, draining and painful and made you want to quit every week but you went through with it. You graduated and felt good about yourself, especially when your family came together to celebrate your success. Saying you’re not proud of what you achieved, would be a lie. Who wouldn’t be?

But how it usually goes when one comes fresh from law school and moves to New York, there are no jobs. None. It’s like there are two sides of the world of work. First, you get told the world needs you, wants you, you get told you will have a bright future – “You ARE the future!” how your college’s president proudly announced down to you from his podium during the welcome ceremony, all puffy-chested and full of himself.

You believed him because that’s what people do when they have never seen anything other than high-school.

And then there’s the world of work’s second side, the one you encounter after you graduate and send out your first applications. The one that pushes you into the very unpleasant, self-doubt infusing territory called reality. In short: You have yet to get a job in the field that you studied for.

It’s sad. It’s heart-breaking. But that’s the way it is.

How are you paying your rent then, one might ask now. Well. In the daytime you work in a law firm as an intern. The direction Law Firm is great, the title Intern … not so much. You’ve been working for them for two years now. Can you believe? Two years as an intern?

Your contract ran out and because you did a good job, they asked if you wanted to extent it and seeing as they refused to give you a legit job where you could use your degree and there are no other jobs in sight, you said Okay. What else could you have done? You would have ended up on the street. And there is no way you’d be going back to your little home town and move in with your parents.

No way.

So the internship during the daytime. And at night you work as a waitress. Not a bad thing, one would think now and it isn’t. It’s the place you are waiting tables at though, that isn’t necessarily good for your resume.

It’s a strip club. Short and simple. A strip club. You don’t strip of course, you just run around and serve drinks. Maybe flirt a little, not that you want to do it but it usually pays off in the end. Literally. No other place would get you tips good enough to pay New Yorkian rent. And there is a lot of it to pay, that’s for sure.

So. Now that we have that cleared, let’s fast forward to today. Daytime. Internship.

You push a cart down the hallway, knocking on doors and handing over letters or files that need to get delivered. Yeah, you have to play postman in a fancy, marble-floor law firm. See what the problem with this internship is? You didn’t study years and years, just to do the dirty work. It’s boring, insulting and embarrassing to say the least.

Of course, you don’t let it show. You can’t risk losing this job, it may be shitty but it makes up half of your rent. So, Y/N, clench your teeth and smile and don’t forget to say “Have a nice day, sir!” or Mr. Nothing-works-without-me or whatever his name is will get annoyed with you and then you have to help move furniture again.

Anything but that. Last time, you bent down and tried to lift a table and the pressure made the backside of your admittedly too tight dress pants tear up. They were expensive ones, of course they were, you’re not allowed to wear plain jeans here. It pained you to say your farewells to them. They were some good ass dress pants.

Speaking of fancy clothing, today is a very extravagant day for your closet. Your supervisor sent an email around, making sure everyone knows today is not for the usual work attire (meaning pants and blazer). Your head lawyers have a meeting scheduled with a very well-known, very influential, wealthy client and you and the other female interns and assistants are required to wear your best skirts and blouses.

Or dresses. Your outfit just has to scream I’m unmistakingly female and hate gender neutral clothing, also may this bold outfit convince you to leave a nice review on our website and you should be fine.

Seeing as the general, daily dress code is set at Fancy, you find it ridiculous to dress up even more for a client, even if he is none other than Bucky Barnes aka the Winter Soldier himself, surely a bright entry on your law firm’s resume and, let’s be honest, fantastic press. You understand why he chose this particular company to represent and defend his public persona, your bosses have a pristine white reputation and a success rate over 90 percent.

How Andy Malton, one of two company owners, in his mid-forties, honest-to-goodness asshole, landed the job is beyond you though. His work partner and co-owner Benjamin Taylor is much more genuine and respected by his staff and the world of law. He should have gotten the Avengers as his client. Why did Bucky choose Andy?

Who knows. Anyway.

You walk down the hallway in your black pencil skirt and white and black-striped blouse – dear reader, you don’t even want to know how expensive this outfit was, R.I.P. my bank account – and park the cart near the elevators, so one of the delivery boys can take it down later. And then you quickly go to the nearest bathroom.

It’s 9:40, Mr. Barnes and his companion should arrive in twenty minutes and you are in charge of bringing drinks and snacks. Boring, humiliating internsh- ah, forget it. No need or time to get all worked up again, not now anyway. You would be extra annoyed if this was any other ordinary client that you would have to serve but this is Bucky Barnes.

You would lie if you said you didn’t have kind of a thing for him. Your wildly beating heart and your sweating hands would give you away anyway. Serving drinks and food may be pretty shitty but today it’s your only chance to meet the man you have been adoring since he appeared in Stark’s rows. You’re a fan. And you are actually about to meet the Winter Soldier.

No time to freak out.

You leave the bathroom and try not to look like you’re rushing as you walk to the elevators and see the catering cart already standing in the hallway. Someone from the kitchen brought it up here, so now all you have to do is push it to the conference room Andy The Asshole has chosen and prepare everything for Mr. Barnes’ arrival.

You reach two colleagues who stand by an open office door and immediately stop chatting when you near and out of the corner of your eye, you see their heads following you as you pass them but you pretend not to notice. Everyone knows about today’s special guest and who is assigned to assist. You. These people may be top of their game but they’re also very talented gossipers. And jealous.

You walk around the corner, knowing they will immediately start yapping as soon as you disappear from their eyeshot, and halt in front of the conference room of destiny. You know it’s still going to be empty but you’re nervous nonetheless. You take a breath and knock, just for good measure.

Silence.

Without further hesitation, you open the door and step in. As fast as possible you put everything on the right side of the long conference table, cups, plates, glasses, water, lemonade, biscuits, cookies, some crackers, apples, sugar, honey ... Andy really decided to go big today it seems. What an ass kisser.

When the table is set, you throw a quick glance at your watch – 9:55. Shit. You shouldn’t be here when they arrive. You check one last time that everything looks perfect and then you quickly leave the room and run as fast as your high heels allow it to your little office you share with another intern. You close the door behind you and press one ear against the door to hear if something’s already happening.

Complete silence. And then, “Hrhrm.”

Someone just cleared their throat behind you and you jump at the sound.

“You okay?” Alissa, said other intern, asks and raises her perfectly plucked eyebrows at you.

She is sitting at her desk opposite yours and from what you can see of her computer screen, it looks like she is not spending her time dutifully doing some kind of task for your company but browsing through her ex-boyfriend’s Instagram. You sigh. Alissa and her ex are two of the most emotionally confusing individuals you have ever met.

Broken up after a bad, bad fight, made up for three days, broke off contact and now started talking again, still insult each other through text messages but regularly stalk each other’s social media accounts to gush over one another. Or at least she gushes over him, you don’t know what he’s doing in his private time, all you know is, he follows and un-follows her in predictable intervals and “accidentally” likes every third picture.

Too confusing. You have long stopped asking.

Anyway! More important things to do now. Stalking the hallway, for example.

Remembering your newly-found, most important task for today, you turn back around and slam your face into the door to get a better ear on said area.

“Yup. I’m fine. Just … getting ready to do my job” You answer Alissa’s question and squint your eyes to get a better focus. Didn’t you read somewhere that losing one of your senses improves another one? Lack of eyesight for better hearing, that’s the plan.

You don’t hear anything out in the hallway, what you do hear though is a very unwomanly snort behind you.

“Sure. Getting ready to do your job. Didn’t know spying on famous clients is one of your tasks for Taylor & Malton. Is that part of your contract?”

“Ha ha. Hilarious. Would you stop talking please, I’m trying to hear” You retort and press yourself further into the cold, frosted glass.

Frosted glass! As if you were stung by a bee, you recoil and step back. Another snort from your colleague.

“I was wondering when you would realize that the door isn’t non-transparent. It would have been too funny if someone had seen you from the hallway, a poor shadow pressed against the door in a desperate attempt to stalk her celebrity crush. Bucky would have bolted before Andy could have even tried to crawl up his ass. Bethany and Brithany would have had two weeks’ worth of gossip.”

Bethany and Brithany are the lovely ladies you encountered while bringing the food cart to the conference room. They have solid jobs at this law firm which is naturally why they think they are the queens to your peasants. Of course their real names aren’t actually Bethany and Brithany but that’s what Alissa and you named them after they started a terrible rumour about Alissa involving her ex.

“I’d rather die than give Bethany and Brithany a reason to talk about me, even though I think they already are. You should have seen the look on their faces when I walked past them with the food for Mr. Barnes’ meeting. Jealousy doesn’t even come close, those snakes looked like they were about to combust” You tell her and can’t stop the devious smile on your face as you sit down at your own desk.

Alissa gives a short, witch-like laugh and goes back to clicking through her very bad, no-good ex-trash’s pictures.

“I bet. You should have taken a picture, I need a new desktop background for my computer.”

Before you can reply something to that, you hear a knock on the door and jump to your feet. Due to the biggest source of light coming from a window in this office, you can’t make out an actual silhouette at the door but you know who this is. You take a quick breath and open it.

Andy’s assistant Emily, very tight grey skirt and dark-red blouse showing more cleavage than covering it, stands before you and writes something down on her clipboard. Her eyes cut to your face, taking in your make-up then swiftly scanning your outfit. She doesn’t seem to find anything to nag about – thanks to your unusual efforts to look as flawless today as possible – so she returns to her notes as if she didn’t just check you out like the treacherous bitch she is.

And you’re normally all about girls supporting girls but if there’s one person to throw anyone under the bus if it helps her stand in a good light in front of her boss, then it’s her. Especially the women. If things went after her lead, there would be no women employed at his company at all because they could totally steal her job if Andy happened to take a liking to one of them more than her. Right?

“Mr. Barnes just arrived. Time to take coffee orders” Emily clips and turns on her heels to sashay to the conference room. Those heels look painful.

Time to take coffee orders. Bitch.

You throw a last glance at Alissa who watched the whole thing and who looks exactly how you feel.

“Just ignore her, Y/N, if they gave you the job you actually deserve, Emily would stand below you and she doesn’t like that. Who cares what she and her ostrich legs think” She exclaims and follows up her petty remarks with a sigh and a determined nod.

Those ostrich legs look more like she could model with them but you’re not getting into that right now – also why would you defend Emily? She deserves every animal comparison she gets. Except for the elegant cat analogies some of the advocates for environmental law one floor beneath yours have given her. Those seem a little too positive for your taste.

You give Alissa a thumbs up, brush over your skirt to make all non-existent wrinkles disappear and leave your office. You walk around a corner and see the conference door stand ajar. Muffled male voices can be heard from the inside. Your heart is beating in your throat, that’s how nervous you are.

Okay, Y/N, you can do this! Be professional! Smile, be friendly, don’t empty the coffee pot over Emily’s head! Make a good impression. Oh god.

Before you can turn around, run screaming to the elevators and buy a one-way ticket to Argentina, you open the door further and step into the room.

There are six people here, all gathered around the side of the table you prepared for them. Andy, Emily and a man you don’t know are sitting with their backs to the window front, facing you. You can see a gleeful smile on her face the moment you appear in the doorway. You decide to ignore that and think of a good way to take revenge after this is over.

The other three people have their backs to you, two men and a woman. Your heart jumps as you recognize Bucky’s dark, chin-length hair immediately, he sits in the middle chair and seems to be occupied with one of the water bottles. From what you can see, he wears a suit jacket (!) and you try not to stare at his metal hand twisting the screw cap back onto the opening.

This is absolutely surreal and you think you’re about to pass out.

The woman has long, red-blonde hair in a ponytail and you’re sure that must be Pepper Potts. You didn’t know she would be here, too, and it certainly doesn’t help your stress level to face not one but two of Tony Stark’s people. If the dark-haired guy on the left turns out to be Stark himself, you are one hundred percent certain someone will have to call an ambulance.

“Ah, Miss Y/L/N, come on in, don’t be shy” Andy suddenly addresses you and your heart stops a second at the unexpected sound and all heads swing around to you but because you don’t want to look like a shy wissy, you step forward and walk to the end of the table. Now you stand there like a kid on her birthday, looking down the board table at her friends, Andy The Asshole & co. to your right, Bucky “I’m Hot” Barnes and his companion to your left.

“Hello, nice to meet you” You say to Pepper and not to appear rude your gaze flickers to Bucky and the unknown man (not Tony Stark thank god) to include them. All you can make out from the millisecond your eyes rest on Bucky’s face are his piercing blue eyes looking at you. Your skin starts to tingle. His expression is unreadable though.

Pepper shows a smile that looks ten times more professional than yours. “Nice to meet you, too.”

You didn’t think you would ever hear that voice in person but here you are. Just don’t freak out, Y/N.

“Can I bring you something to drink? Coffee or tea?” You ask, suddenly remembering why you are here and glad about getting back at least some of your own professionalism. Your eyes cut back to Bucky and his are still on your face. Of course they are, you’re talking to them and taking orders, why would he ignore you?

He doesn’t smile but he looks attentive and you can see his gaze roam over your features. Can he stop please? It’s making you nervous. Oh please don’t stop.

“I’ll have a Rooibos tea. Thank you” Pepper says and pulls your attention back to her. You smile and nod. No, thank you.

“Latte Macchiato” The other guy exclaims and adds a vague gesture of his hand. You nod again and now that you have a full excuse to look at Bucky, you put on a smile that hopefully doesn’t look too needy.

“And what can I get you, Mr. Barnes?” You ask and anxiously wait for his answer. His eyes are currently resting on a spot around the area where your blouse is tucked into the waistband of your skirt. At your question he looks up.

“Nothing, thanks. Water will do” He answers and with that he turns away from you, shifts his attention to Andy in front of him and says as if that would explain everything, “Already had coffee this morning.” Andy nods wildly like that comment makes sense at 10 am.

While you try not to melt due to his voice, you swallow down your disappointment at his response and sudden lack of interest. The get-together you planned with your friends as soon as they found out Bucky Barnes would come to your company and made you promise you tell them every little detail afterwards is kind of ruined now.

The stories you wanted to tell. Original work title: That one day when I made Bucky Barnes coffee and he loved it. Now: That one day Bucky Barnes checked me out and immediately lost interest.

Welp.

You try to maintain your smile and nod, Of course Mr. Barnes, one coffee is more than enough for a day, and look at Andy.

“I’ll have a Caffè crema” He orders without looking up from his notes and is quickly followed by a sweet-as-sugar voice saying “Nothing for me, thanks. I try to drink less caffeine, it’s healthier and I already had my dose today.”

Emily never drinks coffee because she thinks it’s tragic for her teeth and it matches her diet plan. But of course she had to adjust her answer to Bucky’s. Of course. You see Andy eye her for a second, he knows she doesn’t drink coffee but before he can say something asshole-ish, the other man you don’t know orders a black coffee. Dammit.

Pepper starts talking and all six of them immediately go into business-mode, hence you cease to exist. Not once has Bucky looked at you again - tragic.

Okay. Time to go.

You turn away and leave the conference room, quietly closing the door behind you.

“Oh my god” You mouth silently and hectically wave your hands in the air before you get yourself together and toddle on your heels to the floors kitchen. You may not be a lawyer (cry…) but you won’t let them wait for their coffee and tea, that’s for sure. Great standards by the way.

To get to the kitchen you have to pass your own office and you see the door slightly open. You smile. Alissa may have acted like she didn’t really care about today’s events but she still won’t refrain from lurking. You rush past the door, mumble “Oh fucking god!” to yourself but loud enough that she will hear it and keep walking without looking behind you but you know she can’t resist and will follow you.

The “little” kitchen is actually a big open space with the fanciest counters and kitchenware you have ever seen, only separated from the outside by a room divider with stylish glass elements. On the counter stand two very expensive looking coffee makers and an espresso machine, accompanied by several silver kettles and some other paraphernalia that you haven’t figured out yet.

You fill water into one of the kettles and switch it on. You barely grabbed a coffee cup from one of the shelves when you hear footsteps directly behind you.

“Spill! I have five minutes before Taron comes checking in on the excel table I’m making for him” Alissa proclaims and appears on your right side at the counter. Without hesitation, you hand her two coffee cups and grab another and one of those big, fancy tea cups for Pepper.

“You know how to use Excel?” You ask and walk over to the drink machines of wealth. Honestly, you have seen the prices of these things and the only way that those numbers are justified is if someone glued a thousand bucks to the underside of each one. Atrocious.

“No, I googled it. So? How is he? What did he say? Did he check you out? Did Emily hit on him like the subtle excavator that she is?”

“Caffè crema for Andy, black coffee for Whatever His Name Is, Latte Macchiato for Not Tony Stark and Rooibos tea for Pepper fucking Potts” You say instead of answering her questions and she starts pushing buttons on the coffee machine in front of her. At Pepper’s name you see her hand halt its movements.

A moment of silence.

“You are kidding.”

“Nope. Bucky Barnes brought Pepper Potts as assistance to his meeting. Can you believe? Isn’t she CEO of Stark Industries now?” You open a different shelf and dig out the Rooibos tea packs.

“Oh wow. That’s so extra, I love it. Can we please trade lives? Can I bring them their coffee?”

“Nope” You declare and laugh, “I deserve this.”

“And? Is Bucky as pretty in real life as he is on screen and magazines?” She asks, being the nosy friend you need right now. There’s no way you hold all of this excitement inside yourself for the rest of the day.

“He is the most beautiful person I’ve ever met in my life, and I’m not being dramatic. I thought I would pass out when he looked at me and-“

“Those eyes! Am I right? Did he sell his soul for those or what? I bet they’re like … super blue in person.”

You snort.

“Super blue. Alissa, I didn’t know you could be so poetic. Must be the hormones” You joke and stare down at the tea cup turning a serious blood orange as you pour boiled water onto the dried plant material in the tea bag. Thank god, the kettle is high quality and only takes a couple of seconds to boil the little amount of water you filled it with.

“Hormones, might be. After you disappeared in that conference room, I walked out into the hallway and I swear to God, I could feel him. He walked down that exact corridor and I could still feel him minutes later.”

Both of you burst out laughing and you turn around to see if anyone is in sight but you’re alone. Bethany and Brithany would have a blast.

“That’s how manly he is” She ends her plea and changes cups to fill the second one. Meanwhile your own is finished now, too, and the tea will need another two minutes.

“Normally, I’d say you’re exaggerating but I’ve been in that room and talked to him and girl. You’re right.” Alissa makes a half-jealous half-satisfied noise and you take out a little silver tray and saucers and place the filled cups on it.

“Did he check you out?” She repeats her previous question and lets her eyes wander down your appearance seductively. You roll your eyes at her and put a hand on the counter.

“Yeah, I think so. For about five seconds and then he decided he isn’t interested and that’s when I became invisible, so... So much about that.”

“He checked you out for five seconds which is better than four and besides, what do you expect? It’s a business meeting and Pepper is present. She is his boss’s fiancée, it’s not like he can hit on you blatantly. Even though that’d be hot.”

You nod. It would. Both of you stay silent for a couple of seconds.

“It would make him look super unprofessional in front of his asshole lawyer and you don’t want Andy breathing down your neck, do you? He would never let you assist in the Barnes case ever again” Alissa says and puts a hand to her hip.

“True. God forbid there is someone who steals the show. I still can’t believe Bucky chose Andy to represent him and not Benjamin” You retort and give her a look. She raises her eyebrows.

“You don’t know Bucky, Y/N. He could be an asshole and you would still think he is the biggest sweetheart. Maybe he and Andy just clicked and that’s why. Although, I hope that’s not the case because if Bucky turns out to be an asshole, I’ll need a new object for my daydreams.”

You eye her questioningly and feel the corners of your mouth twitch.

“Strict no-assholes policy” She answers your unspoken question. You almost mention her very-asshole boyfriend that she is still running after. Almost. But you don’t. Instead you turn your head and watch the last droplets fall into the coffee cup.

“Ugh. Time to go. Pray for me that I won’t trip and slam the tray into Emily’s take-me-right-now face.”

“Actually, I pray that you do trip and slam the tray into her take-me-right-now face. Christmas and Easter in one.”

You laugh. “Shut up.”

You both leave the kitchen area, you balancing the tray in your hands, and walk to the conference room. You feel yourself growing nervous again. Also, was it always this hard to walk in high heels or did they change their form since you started making coffee?

Alissa doesn’t stop at your office but you don’t dare to look at her out of fear you could trip.

“I’m walking you to the room to make sure you don’t get lost” She explains and you supress a giggle. To make sure you don’t get lost, my ass. She wants to have an exclusive look at the current object of her daydreams. Who could blame her, though?

Pretending to be a gentleman ca. 1850, she lays one hand behind her back and opens the door for you, bowing as you pass her. You stop yourself from rolling your eyes at her just in time.

“Ah, Miss Y/L/N, finally. I could feel myself dry out” Andy comments your coming back and you walk to the spot from where you took their orders. Don’t look at Bucky or you’re definitely gonna trip.

“Oh, was that- I think I saw Miss Marr at the door, or was that-“

“No, probably just someone passing by” You quickly interrupt him and hand him his Caffè Crema which he takes looking facilitated. He doesn’t usually drink fancy stuff like that but you guess he wanted to make an impression on his guests.

“Took a while” Emily remarks like an angel and you ignore her. You were gone for five minutes. Maximum. Bitch.

“Here’s your tea, Miss Potts” You say and smile at Pepper as you put it down in front of her, “It will need to steep for another minute.”

“Thank you very much.”

You give Whatever His Name Is his black coffee and do the same on the other side, bending forward a little and reach out with Not Tony Stark’s Latte Macchiato in your hand.

And that’s when you feel Bucky���s eyes burn into you and you see the blue out of the corner of your eye. This position brings you closer to him than before and you’re relieved when the man takes the cup from you and you can lean back.

Your heart is beating in your chest excitedly.

“Can I bring you anything else?” You ask to cover up how flustered you are. For a moment you think you’ll get a No from them but then you see Bucky nod.

“Yes, I changed my mind. I’d like a black coffee as well” He says with his deep voice and meets your eyes and … did he really sell his soul for those? You would believe it. Trying not to collapse, you smile like a horse and turn to leave. You feel his gaze on you the entire time.

“Of course, Mr. Barnes.”

The door closes behind you and like a mad woman you totter back to your office, jump into the doorway, hiss “Kitchen! Now!” and rush down the hallway, hearing the same ungraceful sounds of high heels running behind you.

You throw open a shelf and grab a coffee cup.

“Please tell me he asked for your phone number!” Alissa exclaims and materializes next to you.

“No but he ordered a black coffee from me while holding intense eye contact.”

Silence.

“With every other guy I would have pushed you into the fridge for making me run in heels just to hear he ordered coffee but with Bucky … Tell me exactly what his words were and how he looked while saying them.”

You tell her everything and simultaneously realize you sound like a teenager who has never had a boyfriend but this is Bucky mutherfucking Barnes. Every twitch of a muscle in his jaw must mean something!

“You know what you should do? Write your phone number on the cup and see if he’s interested” Alissa says and wiggles her eyebrows at you. You scowl.

“What? No! I’m not gonna write my phone number on the cup, how obvious is that?”

“Yes. That’s the plan.”

She opens a drawer and digs out a fucking Edding permanent pen. If you write your number with that, it will go all around the whole cup and it will be very visible.

“Oh, definitely not gonna do that.”

“Yes!”

“No! Everyone will see it.”

“Imagine Emily’s face when she sees Bucky take a sip from a cup with your fat number on it. How funny would that be?”

Alissa means well but she often oversteps the mark.

“Very unfunny. Especially because I would get fired.”

You and her argue until Bucky’s coffee is ready and you put it on the tray.

Same procedure like previously, both of you walk to the conference room and she opens the door for you. You forgot to tell her about hiding better – Andy saw her last time – and now it’s too late.

Your eyes are glued to the back of Bucky’s head instantly and you step behind him.

“Here’s your coffee, Mr. Barnes” You say and place it next to his hand. He turns his head and looks up to you which puts your faces dangerously close to each other. You know you should retreat but you hesitate and for a moment you think you are getting lost in his eyes. How cheesy is that?

“Thank you very much, Miss Y/L/N” He says, saying your name for the first time, making your knees weak and that’s when you see a smile on his face. Beautiful.

You quickly step back before you get yourself into trouble and hold the tray in front of you.

“You’re welcome” You retort and leave the room.

****

You wait until you hear a knock on your office door and open it.

“Meeting is finished. Time to clean up” Emily says without looking at you and walks away.

Time to clean up. God, what a bitch. You’re a lawyer for goodness sake.

“Is it just me or does she seem grumpier than usual?” Alissa asks from her desk.

“Yeah.”

“Probably unhappy about the fact you got a mind-dazzling smile for bringing him coffee and she didn’t, even though she didn’t leave anything to the imagination when it came to her cleavage today.”

Alissa, the never stopping exaggerator.

You step into the now empty conference room and start cleaning up. You select plates, cups and glasses and everything else. When you reach Bucky’s seat, you see the empty coffee cup, a half-empty glass of water and a plate with a couple of cookie crumbles on it. He ate cookies during his probably very serious lawyer meeting. Cute.

If you were Alissa, you would lick his plate and take a sip from his water but you’re not, so you simply pick them up and put them on the food cart. There’s only so much creepiness you can handle.

Suddenly, you notice a small piece of paper laying on the table exactly where his plate was and you feel yourself get excited. With giddy fingers you grab it and see the scrawly handwriting.

My friend Tony usually gets quite indignant when he sees someone who undersells themselves and I wish I had more time to talk some sense into you. You’re a lawyer, aren’t you?

And beneath that he wrote:

P.S. The coffee was great though.

Holy shit.

****

Bucky thinks you sell yourself under value and he’s right. The thing is, New York isn’t really offering you any good jobs, so you’re kind of forced to keep this shitty internship for now. Alone the fact that he thinks you are worth more makes you heart beat faster than is healthy. You think the note is a good reason to freak out. Alissa agrees.

So, what does a girl do after being told she is worth more than serving people drinks and snacks? Correct. She puts on a hell of a lot of make-up and her usual night time uniform and goes to start her shift as a waitress in a strip club. It’s a matter of interpretation.

The meeting with Bucky Barnes at your company happened five days ago and you’re still not over it. He hasn’t come in since but you know he will and you’re looking forward to it.

You greet the bouncer at the door and enter a small hallway that leads to where the action is. You can already hear the notorious music coming through the speakers and the many conversations melting into one big babble of voices. The room is well-filled, of course, it’s a Saturday night. A lot of work men, groups and – and that’s curse and blessing at the same time – quite a number of bachelor parties.

They are the ones who give the best tips but they’re also the ones with the worst manners. They always make you nervous but you know you’re safe. Carl, the owner of this club, has his men everywhere to make sure the waitresses won’t get harassed. Making you wear higher than high-heels, a tight black top and a skirt that’s way too short for your usual liking isn’t really helping the matter, though.

You walk over to the bar, put away your stuff and get ready for your shift. Suddenly, there’s a hand on your shoulder.

“Hey, Y/N, you lucky bitch!”

Sarah. One of the waitresses. Black eyes, dark skin, eyebrows to die for and the same slutty uniform you are wearing.

“Hi, Sarah” You greet her and continue to put a small bag around your waist, almost like a fanny pack, where you store money and especially the tips.

“God, you’re so lucky, do you know that? One of your tables is a bachelor party and it’s not just anyone bu-“

“AY! I’m not paying you for standing around and gossiping! Get to work!” Carl shouts at you from behind the bar and points at the customers. How did a man that big manage to appear without you noticing?

“Sorry, Sarah, gotta go” You say and make your way over to your area of tables.

“At least share the tips with us later!” She calls out after you and you don’t bother responding. Now why would you share your tips with them? Are your customers that wealthy?

You pull out your little notepad and step to the big table with said bachelor party and without looking up, you ask “Can I bring you guys anything?”

“Yes, a round of shots please, same as before” A voice says next to you and you look up to meet a pair of dark brown eyes.

Those dark brown eyes are accompanied by full eyelashes, dark eyebrows and a significant beard that looks like a combination of an anchor beard and a disconnected moustache. Perfectly trimmed. You know exactly who that is. You would recognize that roguish smile anywhere.

“How many?” You ask and begin counting Tony Stark’s men, recognizing each and every one of them. You feel your hands get sweaty and shit, these heels are the worst to stand in when having weak knees. And then you see the person you have wished not to see since you caught sight of Tony Stark in your strip club.

Bucky Barnes sits in front of you behind the table, wearing jeans, black boots and a black shirt that doesn’t hide his metal arm at all and you think you have never seen anything sexier in your life. His hair is tugged behind his ears and his eyes sparkle even in the dim light of this establishment while they wander down your body, unashamedly taking in the uniform and there’s nothing you could do about it.

You see the shit-eating grin spread on his face when his gaze cuts up to meet your eyes and he realizes you’re watching his reaction. Correction: That is the sexiest thing you have ever seen in your life.

“Seven” Tony suddenly says, snapping you out of your trance. He looks amused.

“Okay” You say, force a smile on your face and turn on your heels to get the hell away from them.

God, that was embarrassing. You were about to jump Bucky in front of his friends and everyone could see it. This is definitely not a good start to your shift. Also, Bucky was the person to write you a note about being capable of more than serving drinks and now five days later you meet him again while serving drinks in a titty bar. Someone shoot me please.

You walk to the bar to get their drinks ready when you feel a presence behind you.

“I feel like you didn’t find the note I wrote you” The voice out of your dreams says and you slowly turn around to face him. He looks down at you. There’s something in his eyes that indicates danger but not the kind that would get you hurt …

“No, I found it. Thank you” You admit and watch as the corners of his mouth tug into yet another beautiful smile. Seeing it up-close makes you feel a little dizzy, not gonna lie.

“Hm. Then I think you didn’t really understand what I tried to tell you, darling.”

Darling. Say that again please.

“I did. I understand what you said and I agree” You say and maybe you’re imagining things but you think his blue eyes grow a little darker.

“Is that why you wait tables in a strip club?”

You squirm and avoid his gaze. Welp. He steps a little closer and now he’s all up in your personal space and you don’t even mind. Like he doesn’t have a single care in the world, he raises his metal arm and lays it on the counter next to you. It looks strong and dangerous and … you want to touch it.

“No. I wait tables because there is no other job to pay my rent with. I tried to get a job as a lawyer but it’s like everyone else was faster than me. Every law firm I sent my application to offered me an internship. You don’t know how hard it is to find a good job in this city.”

“That’s true. I just didn’t consider you the type of woman to work in a place like this. Though, I’m not complaining” He says lowly and flickers his eyes down to your outfit for a second before coming up to your face again. You feel heat crawl up your neck and a serious belly flutter in your stomach. God, get yourself together, Y/N!

“I bet you didn’t expect to see me tonight, hm?” You ask, feeling very bolt all of a sudden and immediately regret saying that. Now he thinks you are flirting. Which you are. But … ugh. You can’t think clearly with him being so close.

“I didn’t. When I saw you, my first thought was She deserves better. And you do. You should sit in one of those fancy conference rooms and talk to your clients and order coffee or maybe tea. But now as I stand here before you, getting a better look at your lovely outfit, seeing your eyes not leaving my mouth while I talk, I think Who knew that this would be such a turn on?”

You need a second to comprehend what he said and when you do, your eyes grow wide. Never in a million years did you think you would hear Bucky Barnes say these words to you – you have dreamed about it for sure but that’s all it was. A dream. And now he is right in front of you, face only inches away and says he’s turned on.

Can someone pinch you please?

“I, um … I, this, you do, I… um.” Peak intelligence, truly, good job, Y/N.

You see his smile turn into a grin and there’s that sparkle in his eyes again that does things to you and brings thoughts into your head that you would never admit out loud. And then you realize you stopped breathing and that’s probably why you feel so dizzy, so you take a deep breath and smell his cologne and oops – there goes your composure.

“I’ll let you go back to work now. Maybe I’ll have a word with your boss about this work attire. You don’t look comfortable and to be honest I know there are at least ten men staring at you when you walk past and I don’t like it. Don’t ask me why. I just don’t” He says and for a second his eyes wander down to your mouth and you realize you bit your bottom lip.

He meets yours again, gives you one last cocky grin and then he turns and walks back to his Avenger friends. Of course, you watch him go. And of course you see all his friends’ eyes on you and every single one of them looks amused. Shit.

****

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WE CAME AS ROMANS | RELEASE CARRY THE WEIGHT + FROM THE FIRST NOTE FIRST NEW SONGS SINCE THE TRAGIC PASSING OF SINGER KYLE PAVONE

BAND TOURING WITH MOTIONLESS IN WHITE THIS FALL

Brotherhood lasts forever. No matter what happens, those bonds endure in memories and moments. We Came As Romans hold a similar link between them. After nearly 15 years together, countless sold out shows, critical acclaim, and over 250 million streams, the Michigan quintet -Joshua Moore [guitar], Dave Stephens [vocals], Lou Cotton [guitar], Andy Glass [bass] and David Puckett [drums] - weathered their darkest time and emerge stronger in the name of a fallen brother and member: Kyle Pavone

Today, the band has released two brand new songs: ‘Carry the Weight' and ‘From the First Note’. These are the first tracks that the band has released since Pavone's tragic passing in August 2018. Watch and listen below. Purchase or stream the tracks here: https://shrptn.co/wcar

‘Carry The Weight’ official video:

‘From The First Note’ track video:

"When Kyle passed away, it changed everything for us personally and, as a byproduct, everything for the band", says Moore. "An earth-shattering event puts a lot of things in perspective. We've spent so much time together. We've been doing this since we were kids. The one thing that won't change is the way Kyle affected my life. Before we were bandmates, we were essentially brothers. In order to be genuine to our fans and ourselves, we had to write about what we dealt with losing him. At the same time, this isn't just a bunch of songs soaking in depression. We want to celebrate what we built."

“’Carry the Weight' is about dealing with the immense grief and sadness throughout navigating the loss of Kyle," the band explains. "It's a very honest song, and we're very open about how it felt continuing to play shows without him on stage with us. It's about the darkest part of our grieving process, and the only way we see ourselves moving forward - through the memory, the 'light', that Kyle shone on our band."

About 'From the First Note', the band says, "It shows the other side of the loss of Kyle, remembering him and all the moments we shared, what we've created together, and how he will always be a part of us. That we can find his light in every aspect of the band, and feel thankful that we got to have that time of our lives with him. It's a song about celebrating our accomplishments together, reliving the moments from our youngest days as a band, and knowing that he's with us as we move forward."

We Came As Romans will return to the road next month with Motionless in White. All dates, including a few headline shows, are below and tickets available here: https://wcarmusic.com

R.I.P Kyle Pavone (1990-2018)

WE CAME AS ROMANS ON TOUR WITH MOTIONLESS N WHITE, AFTER THE BURIAL, TWIZTID

10/1 - Asheville, NC - The Orange Peel

10/2 - Birmingham, AL - Iron City

10/3 - Destin, FL - Club LA

10/5 - Tyler, TX - Clicks

10/6 - Oklahoma City, OK - Diamond Ballroom

10/7 - Lubbock, TX - Jakes (Headlining)

10/8 - Albuquerque, NM - El Rey

10/9 - Las Vegas, NV - House of Blues

10/10 - Anaheim, CA - Chain Reaction*

10/11 - Fresno, CA - Strummers*

10/13 - Tucson, AZ - Encore

10/15 - San Antonio, TX - Vibes Event Center

10/16 - Fort Worth, TX - Tomcats West

10/17 - Columbia, MO - Blue Note

10/18 - Belvidere, IL - The Apollo Theater

10/20 - Indianapolis, IN - Egyptian Room at Old National Centre

 11/9 - Lake Park, FL - The Kelsey Theatre**

*Headline Date

**Festival

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People, February 25

Cover: Andy Cohen and new son Benjamin 

Page 3: Chatter -- Chris Pratt on Chris Hemsworth, Glenn Close on feeling sexy at 71, Elizabeth Banks on loving an English accent, Sofia Vergara on high heels, Spike Lee on Do the Right Thing not getting an Oscar nomination, George Clooney on an ER reboot 

Page 4: 5 Things We’re Talking About -- The Wonder Years stars reunite, Zac Efron celebrates his hot brother’s Dylan’s birthday, new emojis are coming, Tyra Banks gets her own theme park in Santa Monica, Haagen-Dazs introduces boozy ice cream, A Chat with Kate Walsh of The Umbrella Academy 

Page 7: Contents 

Page 8: Contents, Editor’s Letter 

Page 12: StarTracks -- The Grammys -- Lady Gaga 

Page 13: Kacey Musgraves, Alicia Keys and Michelle Obama, Cardi B 

Page 14: Dolly Parton and Miley Cyrus, Janelle Monae, Ricky Martin and husband Jwan Yosef and son Matteo, Jennifer Lopez and Smokey Robinson, Drake, where was Ariana Grande 

Page 16: Style -- The Grammys -- Lady Gaga, Janelle Monae, Kacey Musgraves, Jennifer Lopez, Katy Perry 

Page 18: Jay-Z and Beyonce, J Balvin, Florida Georgia Line’s Tyler Hubbard and wife Hayley, Rita Ora, Hailee Steinfeld, Nancy Pelosi and Katy Perry and Orlando Bloom 

Page 20: Chloe and Halle Bailey and John Mayer, Sophie Turner and Joe Jonas, Beck and daughter Tuesday Hansen, Lisa Loeb, John and T.J. Osborne of Brothers Osborne, Niall Horan 

Page 22: The BAFTAs -- Prince William and Princess Kate, Bradley Cooper, Timothee Chalamet and Glenn Close, Taylor Swift and Joe Alwyn

Page 23: John Stamos and Caitlin McHugh Stamos celebrated their first wedding anniversary, Pink receiving a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame with Carey Hart and kids, the reunion of the cast of My Best Friend’s Wedding -- Rupert Everett and Cameron Diaz and Julia Roberts and Dermot Mulroney 

Page 24: New York Fashion Week -- Christie Brinkley and daughter Sailor Lee Brinkley-Cook, Laverne Cox, Mindy Kaling and Zoe Saldana, Kim Kardashian West, Susan Lucci 

Page 27: Jennifer Aniston turns 50 and celebrates with Brad Pitt, Kate Hudson and Gwyneth Paltrow 

Page 28: Also attending Jennifer’s birthday bash -- Amal and George Clooney and Reese Witherspoon and Demi Moore, Justin Bieber and Hailey Baldwin’s newlywed confessions in Vogue magazine 

Page 30: Heart Monitor -- Ricki Lake finding love with Jeff Scult after heartbreak, Leonardo DiCaprio and Camila Morrone going strong, Paul Wesley and Ines de Ramon spark wedding rumors, Jennie Garth and Dave Abrams calling off divorce 

Page 33: Jennifer Lawrence’s surprise engagement to Cooke Maroney 

Page 34: Disney actress Alyson Stoner surviving child stardom, Carly Pearce and Michael Ray has country’s cutest proposal 

Page 37: Stories to make you smile 

Page 39: Passages, R.I.P. Albert Finney 

Page 43: People Picks -- The Umbrella Academy 

Page 44: Elvis All-Star Tribute, Lorena 

Page 45: At Home with Amy Sedaris, Florida Georgia Line -- Can’t Say I Ain’t Country, Q&A with Ryan Hurd 

Page 46: Isn’t It Romantic, Sammy Davis Jr.: I’ve Gotta Be Me, One to Watch -- Sadie Stanley of Kim Possible 

Page 47: Flack, The Love Train by Meghan Trainor, Proven Innocent 

Page 48: Books 

Page 51: Oscar Picks -- Who should win and who will win -- Rami Malek

Page 52: Oscar ballot 

Page 54: Cover Story -- Andy Cohen -- meet my son Benjamin Allen Cohen 

Page 63: Meghan Markle’s father Thomas goes public with her private words 

Page 64: Jenny Carrieri takes her twin sister Jodi’s 1996 murder case public, determined to capture her murderer 

Page 66: Rebel Wilson the romantic 

Page 68: Gary Sinise -- raising $30 million a year for veterans 

Page 70: At home with Avril Lavigne 

Page 74: Ben Platt -- My own story 

Page 78: The Amazing Women of the Oscars 

Page 79: Danai Gurira and Lupita Nyong’o 

Page 81: Melissa McCarthy 

Page 82: Rachel Weisz 

Page 85: Regina King 

Page 86: Yalitza Aparicio 

Page 87: Marina de Tavira 

Page 89: Food -- Oscars viewing party -- please try a plant-based diet 

Page 92: Elizabeth Heiskell -- Tomato & Avocado Salsa 

Page 98: Your Beauty Questions Answered -- Taraji P. Henson’s radiant skin 

Page 103: Second Look -- Rodarte fashion show -- Brie Larson, Tracee Ellis Ross, Stephan James, Dakota Fanning 

Page 104: One Last Thing -- Tracy Morgan 

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COLOURLESS DREAM set list

■■Vol.4 2017 12/17

■Conta 1st Under Two Flags / Masks It’s Immaterial / A Gigantic Raft In The Philippines The Laughing Apple / Precious Feeling JulianCope / 24a Velocity Crescent Blue Hollow / Inhale Presence / Act Of Faith Fools Dance / The Collector The Wild Swans / Archangels

■24no 1st This Mortal Coil / Sixteen Days - Gathering Dust Fra Lippo Lippi / Some Things Never Change Gene Loves Jezebel / Bruises (Orignial Extended Version) Radiohead / High And Dry Slowdive / Star Roving My Bloody Valentine / Never Say Goodbye

■久保田稔人 1st Repetition / The Still Reflex Style Syndrome / Shinning The Vail / Twist Dead Can Dance / Carnival Of Light The Creaturs / Mad Eyed Screamer Oate Wylie / Sinful The Blue Angels / Candy The Icicle Works / Love Is A Wonderful Colors

■小野島大 1st Alien Sex Fiend / R.I.P. (Blue Drumb Truck) Belfegore / All That I Wanted (Extrended Club Mix) Cult / Spiritwalker Bauhaus / Lagartija Nick Killing Joke / Tension The Birthday Party / Releace The Bats a clan of XYMOX / A Day (Remix) Sioixsie & The Banshees / Fireworks (12” Version)

■migon The Psychedelic Furs / Heatbreak Beat Clan Of Xymox / Loneliness TheCult / Dreamtime PlayDead / Propaganda Bauhaus / In The Flat Field Love & Rockets / Motorcycle MarchViolets / SnakeDance Gene Loves Jezbel / Desire The Bolshoi / Sunday Morning The Sound / Skeletons Sad Lovers And Giants / Echoplay

■Guest DJ Xerstorkitte From Australia Siouxsie and the Banshees / Spellbound Sisters Of Marcy / Vision Thing Alien Sex Fiend / Walk the Line She Wants Revenge / Tear You Apart Joy Division / Love Will Tear Us Apart Killing Joke / Love Like Blood Peter Murphy / Cuts You Up

■24no 2nd The Bubblemen / The Bubblemen Are Coming Tones On Tail / Christian Says Bauhaus / The Passion Of Lovers (Live) Death Cult / Christians (Live) U2 / Bad (Live) The Sound / Fatal Flaw All About Eve / End Of The Day Siouxsie & The Banshees / Candyman The Sisters Of Mercy / Walk Away

■久保田稔人 2nd 17 Pygmies / Chameleon The Colors Out Of Time / She Spins Blue China / Tomorrow Never Knows Modern Eon / Watching The Dancers The Church / Myrrh Silent Running / When The 12th Of Never Comes School Of Seven Bells / Ablaze The Horrors / Point Of No Reply The Chameleons / The Fan And The Bellows

■Conta 2nd All That Jazz/Banner Of Love The Cure / Lullaby Modern English / Swans On Glass Wasted Youth / Rebecca’s Room Flesh For Lulu / Roman Candle The Sound / Golden Soldiers The Teardrop Explodes / Colours Fly Away Joy Division / No Love Lost Siouxsie & The Banshees / Mirage Killing Joke / Sanity Peter Murphy / Blue Heart The Chameleons / Tears

■小野島大 2nd My Bloody Velentine / Soon (The Andy Weatherall Mix) Curve / Coast is Clear Lush / Sweetness and Light The Boo Radleys / The Finest Kiss Swervedriver / Rave Down Radiohead / Just The Cure / Why Can’t I Be You? (12” Mix) B-Movie / Nowhere Girl (Version) The Lotus Eaters / The First Picture Of You Echo & The Bunnymen / The Killing Moon (All Night Version) U2 / October

■■Vol.3 2016 12/11

■migon 1st Death In June /Black Radio Dead Can Dance / Carnival Of Light Cocteau Twins / Ivo The KVB / Night Games She Past Away / Sann/Hallucination The The / Flesh And Bones Virgin Prunes / Deline And Fall Bauhaus / Spirit

■Conta 1st Dole / Rumroad The Shamen / Happy Days Wah! Heat / Better Scream Care / Whatever Possessed You Black / Hey Presto Ian McCulloch / Lover Lover Lover Electrafixion / Zephyr Echo & The Bunnymen / Crystal Days

■24no 1st Chapterhouse / Breather The Boo Radleys / Lazy Day Sweet Jesus / Real Babe Catherine Wheel / Shallow The Charlottes / Liar Moose / Suzanne Ride / Here And Now Lush / Sweetness And Light (The Orange Squash Mix) My Bloody Valentine / Map Ref 41°N 93°W

■小野島大 1st Nico / Procession The Dance Society / 2000 Light Years From Home The Mission / Wasteland Killing Joke / Love Like Blood (Gestalt Mix) Southern Death Clut / Fatman Theatre Of Hate / Do You Believe In The West World Specimen / The Beauty Poison

■migon 2nd Marc Almond /Melanchory Rose Echo & The Bunnymen / SevenSeas The Cameleons / Nostalgia (7’’ Version) Scars / All About You Clan Of Xymox / Farewell The Beauty Of Gemina / One Step To Heaven Play Dead / Walk Away Siouxie & The Banshees / Cities In Dust

■Conta 2nd Bel Canto / White-Out Conditions All About Eve / D For Desire The Mission / Severina Dead Or Alive / It’s Been Hours Now Original Mirrors / Boys Cry The Mighty Lemon Drops / Happy Head Julian Cope / Bandy’s First Jump Echo & The Bunnymen / New Direction (Original Version) Associates / Party Fears Two

■24no 2nd The House Of Love / Christine Kitchens Of Distinction / Quick As Rainbows The Room / New Dreams For Old (7" version) Sad Lovers And Giants / Lost In A Moment Cocteau Twins / Feathers-Oar-Blades The Icicle Works / Love Is a Wonderful Colour Echo & The Bunnymen / Never Stop (Discotheque)

■小野島大 2nd The Mock Turtles / Wicker Man The Bolshoi / A Way II (edited Version) Pale Saints / harf-life,remembered whirl. / Clear Slowdive / Slowdive My Bloody Valentine / To Here Knows When Velvet Underground / Sunday Mornig

■migon 3rd Fields Of The Nephilim / Power Red Lorry Yellow Lorry / Walking On Your Hands Echo & The Bunnymen / Villiers Terrace The Sound / The Fire NewOrder / Broken Promise The Cure / Push U2 / Two Hearts Beat As One Killing Joke / Big Buzz Joy Division / Disorder

■Conta 3rd Tones On Tail / OK, This Is The Pops Nightmares In Wax / Black Leather The Sisters Of Mercy / Body Electric The Chameleons / Singing Rule Britannia The Essence / Only For You Echo & The Bunnymen / Clay Dead Or Alive / Lover Come Back To Me Bauhaus / Ziggy Stardust

■24no 3rd Siouxsie & The Banshees / Hong Kong Garden (‘Marie Antoinette’ Version) The Birthday Party / Dead Joe Virgin Prunes / Pagan Lovesong (Tormentallama) Sex Gang Children / Into The Abyss The Danse Society / Somewhere Killing Joke / Wardance The Sisters Of Mercy / Marian (version) Bauhaus / Dark Entries

■小野島大 3rd The Shamen / Young Till Yesterday The Jesus And The Mary Chain / Sidewalking (7" Mix) The Cure / Just Like Heaven Wah! / Forget The Down The Wild Swans / Revolutionary Spirit The House Of Love / Real Animal The Teardrop Explodes / Treason (It’s Just A Story)(Remixd Version) Echo & The Bunnymen / Silver (Tidal Wave) The Doors / Light My Fire

■ENDING Echo & The Bunnymen / Ocean Rain

■■Vol.2 2015 10/4

■migon 1st In The Nursery / Bumished Days Phycedelic Furs / Sister Europe Andi Sex Gang w/Marc Almond / The Hungry Years Bauhaus / All We Ever Wanted Was Everything Asylum Party / The Sabbath The Cameleons / Swamp Thing The Mighty Lemon Drops / like An Angel

■Zodiac 1st Opposition / My Room Is White Lines / Come Home Comsat Angels / Be Brave In The Nursery / Twins These Immortal Souls / Mary Me (Lie Lie) Tears For Fears / Change AR KANE / When You’re Sad

■Conta 1st Party Day / Glasshouse Seventh Seance / Another Empty Face Crown Of Thorns / Kingdom Come Western Promise / Promised Land The Sound / Deep Breath The Teardrop Explodes / When I Dream Ian MuCulloch / In My Head The House Of Love / Destroy The Heart The Names / Calcutta

■24no 1st Dif Juz / Hu Spacemen 3 / Revolution Revolver / Heaven Sent An angel Swervedriver / Son Of Mustang Ford Pale Saints / Sight Of You Zero Le Créche / Last Year’s Wife Wild Swans / The Revolutionary Spirit My Bloody Valentine / Off Your Face

■小野島大 1st Divine & Statton / Bizzare Love Triangle Care / Flaming Sword The Chameleons / In Shreds Sad Lovers & Giants / Imagination The Comsat Angels / Will You Stay Tonight? Blue in Heaven / Julie Cries Echo & The Bunnymen / The Puppet The Sound / Heyday Bauhaus / Dark Entries

■migon 2nd Play Dead / Shine The Dance Society / Hide Virgin Prunes / Baby Turns Blue Rosetta Stone / TheWitch The Sisters Of Marcy / Vision Thing Clan Of Xymox / Out Of The Rain The Cure / Object Sad Lovers And Giants / Clint Red Lorry Yellow Lorry / Spining Round The Sound / Resistance Joy Division / Ice Age Echo & The Bunnymen / Heaven Up Here U2 / I Will Forrow

■Zodiac 2nd Modern Eon / Euthenics Joy Division / Walked In Line Daniel Ash / Get Out Of Control Killing Joke / Tension FIELDS OF THE NEPHILIM / Back In Gehenna Sisters Of Mercy / First & Last & Always Ghost dance / Celebrate Rose Of Avalanche / Stick In The Works Theatre Of Hate / Eastworld THE MARCH VIOLETS / Steam And Also The Trees / Wallpaper Dying

■Conta 2nd And Also The Trees / Misfortunes Gene Loves Jezebel / Shaving My Neck Lulu Kiss Me Dead / The Ultimate Solution Snake Corps / Victory Parade The Chameleons / Perfume Garden Cocteau Twins / Carolyn’s Fingers Lush / Sweetness And Light Joy Division / Atrocity Exhibition (live) New Order / Singularity

■24no 2nd The Jesus & Mary Chain / Sidewalking (Extended Version) The Birthday Party / Zoo-Music Girl The Cult / Spiritwalker In Two A Circle / Rise 1919 / Caged Sex Gang Children / The Crack Up Echo & The Bunnymen / All That Jazz The Teardrop Explodes / Treason Magazine / Shot By Both Sides (Original Single Version) Siouxsie & The Banshees / Cascade Bauhaus / Telegram Sam

■小野島大 2nd Camberwell Now / Greenfingers Sonic Youth / Stereo Sanctity Belfegore / All That I Wanted Killing Joke / Adorations (The Extended Mix) The Mission / Serpents Kiss The House Of Love / I Don’t Know Why I Love You Siouxsie and The Banshees / Spellbound (12" Mix) Wah! / Somesay Associates / Club Country (12" Mix) Jesus and Mary Chain / Upside Down Joy Division / Transmission The Cure / high (higher mix)

■migon　B2B The Sound / Hothouse(Live) Modern English / GatheringDust The Pshychedlic Furs / Pretty in pink

■Zodiac　B2B Jesus ＆ Marychain / Neverunderstand The Cure / Boys Don’t Cry Jesus ＆ Marychain / Just Like Honey

■Conta B2B The Mission / Over The Hills And Faraway Julian Cope / Five O'clock World Echo & The Bunnymen / The Back Of Love

■小野島大 B2B The Smiths / How Soon Is Now? John Foxx / Europe After The Rain World Of Twist / She’s A Rainbow

■Ending Sad Lovers ＆Giants / Colourless Dream Bauhaus / Cloud

■■Vol.1 2014 11/24

■migon　1st Wasted Youth / Jealousy The Associetes / Tell Me Easter’s On Friday Fra LippoLippi / Barrier This Motal Coil / Song To Siren Dead Can Dance / Carnival Of The Light And Also The Trees / Shealetown Death In June / Fields Kissing The Pink / What Noise Cocteau Twins / Ivo

■Zodiac 1st Waterboys / The Whole Of The Moon Flowers For Agatha / The Freedom Curse Passion Puppets / Voices (Extended) TV21 / This Is Zero That Petrol Emotion / Mouth Crazy BFG / Higher Than Heaven…Is Echo & The Bunnymen / The Pictures On My Wall

■24no 1st The Charlatans / Happen To Die (Long Version) Modern English / I Melt With You The Icicle Works / Birds Fly (Whisper To A Scream) Ride / Like A Daydream Lush / Outdoor Miner Loop / Arc-Lite (Sonar) Curve / Fait Accompli (Extended Extended Extended) The Jesus & Mary Chain feat. Hope Sandoval / Sometimes Always

■久保田稔人 1st Schlimer K / She’s Gone Belfegore / All That I Want Red Beat / See Monsoon / Tomorrow Nwever Knows Section 25 / Colour Movement Sex & Violence The Essence / The Afterworld Lucy Show / Come Back To The Living Loard / RIBS

■小野島大 1st

■木下理樹 1st

■migon　2nd Clan Of Xymox / Muscoviet Musquito Xmal Deutshland / Qual The Dance Society / Somewhere The Names / Floating World The Wild Swans / God Forbid Sad Lovers And Giants / Colourless Dream The Shamen / Something About You Interpol / Roland The Cameleons / Everyday I’m Crucified The Mighty Lemon Drops / The Other Side Of You Ecoh & The Bunnymen / Clocodiles The Sound / Heatland

■Zodiac 2nd The Sound / Sence Of Purpose (What are We Going To Do) Snake Corps / Science Kills Julian Cope / 5 O'clock World Then Jerico / Let Her Fall March Violets / Snake Dance Alien Sex Fiend / I Walked Line Fields Of The Nephilim / Power Love & Rockets / If There A Heaven Above Specimen / Beauty Of Poison

■24no 2nd The Cure / The Lovecats (Extended Version) Siouxsie & The Banshees / Song From The Edge Of The World Skeletal Family / Promised Land (Extended Version) Gene Loves Jezebel / Desire (Come And Get It) The Mission / Serpents Kiss The Sisters Of Mercy / Walk Away Play Dead / Sacrosanct Virgin Prunes / Pagan Lovesong (Vibeakimbo) B-Movie / Nowhere Girl (Long Version)

■久保田稔人 2nd Opposition / The Man Who Almost Shaves 17 Pygmies / Chameleon Asylum Party / Julia Adrian Borland / Fast Blue World Bram Tchaikovsky / Robber Comsat Angels / Island Herat Toy / It’s Been So Long The Horrors / New Ice Age The Church / Tantalized Joy Division / Atmosphere

■小野島大 2nd （1st&2nd ※順不同） Blue in Heaven / Across My Heart The Mock Turtles / Can You Dig It? ART-SCHOOL / テュペロ・ハニー Chapterhouse / Pearl Curve / On The Wheel dip / 冷たいぐらいに乾いたら My Bloody Valentine / feed me your kiss Nine Inch Nails / Mr.Self Destruct Oasis / The Shock of the Lightning Radiohead / Just The Flaming Lips / Race for the Prize (Remix) The Novembers / Sturm und Drang きのこ帝国 / パラノイド・パレード 血と雫 / 黄泉にひびく Animal Collective / Summertime Clothes Bauhaus / Third Uncle New Order / Everything’s Gone Green Pavement / The Killing Moon Killing Joke / Love Like Blood Towns / Get Me There

■木下理樹 2nd

■Last Echo & The Bunnymen / The Cutter The Cameleons / In Sherds

■Ending Echo &The Bunnymen / In Blue Skys

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R.I.P Andy’s curls😭😭😭😭 where do you think Michonne is gonna touch now?🤔😏😏

Lmao, why was this my first thought when I saw his hair? I mean, I know there are plenty of other places for her hands to go, but that seemed to be her favorite. 😞 I like to think they had a big fight over this. 

Or! Maybe Michonne cuts off her hair too, and they’re doing some weird couple solidarity thing. I could get behind that. 🤔

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                                                            MARCH                                        2021

The PAGE

Stacey Abrams has been nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize.

*****

The Golden Globe Noms came out.  There are some tough categories!! Who could pick in the category of actor/ drama with Bateman, Odenkirk, Pacino, Josh O’Connor and Matthew Rhys?  Another tough one is show/ drama with The Crown. Ozark, Lovecraft Country and Ratched. Directing categories are also tough with Regina King for One Night in Miami, David Fincher for Mank and Aaron Sorkin for The Trial of the Chicago 7.  There are great performances with the females but Anya Taylor-Joy and Queen’s Gambit just has to win. Will comedy be ruled by Dan Levy and co. for Schitt’s Creek? The Foreign press gave love to Chadwick Boseman and Viola Davis in Ma Rainey’s black bottom, Olivia Coleman, Jodie Comer, Sarah Paulson, Bryan Cranston, Hugh Grant and James Corden. Sacha Baron Cohen got a couple of noms. I was glad to see noms for Lin- Manuel Miranda, Andy Samberg, Dev Patel, Bill Murray, Andra Day, Glenn Close, Helena Bonham Carter and Cynthia Nixon and Jared Leto.  I was routing for Donald Sutherland in the Undoing and Jodie Foster in The Mauritanian. ** So The Globes came and went with not too much excitement. Jodie did win so hooray for her!! Catherine O’Hara, Sacha  and Mark Ruffalo won. Everyone was thrilled for The Queen’s Gambit and Anya Taylor-Joy!! There were some very long speeches and a few did dress up. There were also hoodies and jammies in the virtual world. Mank had many noms but no wins. Rosamund Pike was a surprise win but she was scary good. The hosts Amy and Tine were going for sexy!!

*****

Days alert: Will Bonnie turn out to be Adrienne with memory loss?? Will Ben find Ciara??** Who killed Charlie?** It is always good to see Sami back!!** Rex is on his way back as Xander prepares to marry.** Will Chloe and or Lani figure out the Susan ruse?? BTW, Lani’s Aunt Paulina will show up played by Jackee Harry. **Will Gwen end up in the DiMera hiding place??

*****

Kim Blickenstaff donated $300,000 to Riverview Grade School.

*****

Late night laughs: A Ted Cruise: A vaca that lasts only 1 day. ** Don Jr. called him Cancun Cruz as what we probably should not call him.!?** Scary Clown 45 made a spectacle of himself at C-Pac.

*****

It was found that Nance Legins- Costley, the first freed slave, died in Peoria, il on April 6, 1892. She was buried in Moffatt Cemetery which used to be at Adams and Griswold in Peoria, Il. This has since been paved over.

*****

David Hogg is starting a pillow company.

*****

The 18,000 acres seized from the Flathead confederated and Kootehai tribes in 1908 has been restored as part of the Covid relief package.

*****

Jennie Garth donated her $168,600 Wheel of Fortune winnings to the Central Il. Food Bank in Springfield, Il.

*****

You know that famous pic of Don Jr. on the tree stump. While looking ahead to the Trump family future, Seth Meyers called him “King of the stumps.” Simple joke but it really got me. Good one!!** Seth has signed on until at least 2025.**The Manhattan DA office has brought on Mark Pomerantz to work with Cyrus Vance. Pomerantz experience with investigating white collar and organized crime will help look into the investigation of the Trump family business. The Supreme Court has ruled that the taxes be turned over and it looks like they finally have complied.

*****

In June, Will Forte will start shooting Macgruber, the tv show.

*****

The renewal has been reversed for Stumptown. How is that even possible? No take backsies Motherfuckers!!

*****

Dolly Parton turned down Trump’s offer of the medal of arts twice because of her husband’s illness and later due to Covid restrictions. Now she feels if she accepts, there will be political implications. She also turned down a possible statue of herself in Tennessee. She wrote the legislature that there is too much going on in the world to worry about that now. Class!

*****

Mom was cancelled after 8 seasons.** Lou Dobbs was cancelled.

*****

Liberals love arguing with people who agree with them. –Rachel Wolfson

*****

Vincent D’Onofrio has a book coming out on 4-20 called Mutha: Stuff and Things

*****

President Biden has reserved 30% of Federal land and water for conservation. ** Pete Buttigieg has been confirmed as Secretary of Transportation. ** Press Aide T J Duckio is out. Let’s not start that shit already. Damn!!

*****

Never forget Tom Brady has a MAGA hat.

*****

Hooray for NASA getting to work on Mars.

*****

Donald Glover and Phoebe Waller- Bridge will be in the new Mr. and Mrs. Smith series.

*****

Hooray for the year of the OX. Good-bye to the vermin, it has to be a better year!!

*****

Scary Clown 45 was acquitted as we knew he would be. Thank you to 7 Republicans with a conscious but it just wasn’t enough. ** It has been found that people who guarded Roger Stone were part of the insurrection.**How can Senators making a decision freely talk to one side of the argument before their decision??

*****

One pundit talking of the impeachment proceedings called it the “Festivus sessions” as it was an airing of grievances.

***** In sexual assault news: Marilyn Manson is the latest being accused of abuse.  Did he have  a rape room?? Such a shame he’s an alleged pig!**James Franco settled his sexual misconduct lawsuit.

*****

I have always hated Subway. I tried to eat there 3 times in my life and twice this iron stomach got sick. The word seems to be it isn’t bread, it isn’t meat and it isn’t cheese. Why do other countries have to tell us these things?? Is this true?

*****

There was a coup in Myanmar and Biden imposed sanctions. Activists are asking for International help.

*****

More in sexual abuse news: T.I. and Tiny accused of drugging and coercing women into sex. ** Shia LaBeouf was accused of abuse by his former girlfriend, FKA Twigs.

*****

How wonderful it was for Jason Isbell to donate his portion of the money he made for writing ‘Cover me up’ to the Nashville chapter of the NAACP.  Apparently people ran out to buy the Morgan Wallen album after his use of the N word and Isbell came up with a great use of his profit.

*****

James Patterson’s, The last days of Lennon is not really by him. The book comes from his factory and the reviews are not good.

*****

Eugene Goodman may have literally saved the Republic. – The Intellectualist

*****

R.I.P. All the animals and people lost to the cold in Texas and the rest of the country, Prince Markie Dee, Brayden Smith, Dustin Diamond, Hal Holbrook, S. Clay Wilson, Mary Wilson, Jean-Claude Carriere, Chick Corea, Rennie Davis, Robert C. Jones, U-Roy, Arturo Di Modica, Lawrence Ferlinghetti, Larry Flynt and Christopher Plummer.

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“Star Wars: The Last Jedi” Movie Review

DON’T WORRY, IT’S SPOILER-FREE. Just thought I would put everyone’s minds to rest on that. (I actually don’t remember the last time I did a spoiler review of anything, but that’s beside the point.)

It’s here. It’s finally, finally here. Star Wars: The Last Jedi has blasted into theaters at light-speed and all of your favorite characters are back (well, minus Han Solo, but you knew that. R.i.p, Han). This film, the eighth in the episodic Star Wars saga, was written and directed by Rian Johnson (Looper), and stars Daisey Ridley, Mark Hamill, Adam Driver, John Boyega, Oscar Isaac, Dohmnall Gleeson, Kelly Marie Tran, Laura Dern, Benicio Del Toro, and Carrie Fisher. The story picks up immediately after Rey lands on the island where Luke has been living for the past number of years as a castaway, her holding out his original lightsaber, the one his father had, to him. And that’s really about all I can say about the plot, because that was publicly announced in a number of marketing videos/promos, and basically everything else in terms of plot synopsis is essentially a minor spoiler; a minute spoiler, but a spoiler nonetheless.

This film would’ve been tricky for any director to navigate. Firstly, it’s the second film in its immediate trilogy, so if it’s not better than The Force Awakens, people might take issue with that. But not only is it the follow-up to TFA, a brand new director is taking the helm with it, and since Disney just asked that director to helm a brand new Star Wars trilogy after this one, that places a lot of weight on how good this film has to be for people to want to keep him around. Finally, the film has to take risks. It has to. One of people’s main issues with The Force Awakens is that it felt too much like a re-tread of the original Star Wars, so this entry in the franchise has to blaze a new trail in order to stand apart from the other films while also standing as one of the best in the franchise. And it does all of this in spades.

I saw this film twice in theaters in the same day, eight and a half hours apart, and I did this because there is a lot to process when this movie’s credits start to roll. I had to think very carefully about how I felt about the film, how I felt about the direction Rian Johnson had taken the characters and story, and whether or not some of the flaws that I had in my initial viewing still translated to the sophomore run as legitimate criticisms. But the first thing I thought to myself when I walked out of this film, both time was this: this film is bold, truly bold. This film is daring. It takes risks – a lot of them. It doesn’t play it safe, and that is such a refreshing and honest and beautiful thing to see in a tent-pole blockbuster franchise, especially the blockbuster franchise that Star Wars is.

Rian Johnson’s Star Wars tale is just as John Boyega said: fresh and new. And there are a million different ways that that can be addressed but for now, I’ll just say this: Rian Johnson is an excellent choice to helm a new Star Wars trilogy because you will be sure to get something fresh, bold, and original with each film he does. There are moments in this movie where both the audiences I saw it with applauded, moments where our collective jaw hit the floor in awe of the imagery that was on screen, and moments that subverted expectations in ways that made sense and served the story beautifully. Johnson did a terrific job directing this film, with spectacular action sequences to spare, and I can’t wait to see what he does next both with this franchise and with his other properties. (And just as a quick side note: John Williams’ score is even better here than it was in The Force Awakens, utilizing new themes and old in near-perfect balance. It’s confident, something the score for the previous film had trouble reconciling.)

The performances in this film are all excellent as well, with every major player absolutely bringing everything they can to each role, though some don’t get as much time to shine as others. Daisey Ridley proves for the second time in this trilogy that she is the perfect lead for this franchise. She carries so many of the emotional and more dramatic moments in the film, even opposite Mark Hamill, and goes toe-to-toe with whoever else is on screen to tremendous effect.  Oscar Isaac is once again great as Poe Dameron, with an arc that challenges him in ways that one wouldn’t initially expect, but that gives him such a great amount of character growth throughout the film that the story is better served by those subverted expectations. Dohmnall Gleeson is great as General Hux, and although he still doesn’t have a ton to do in this film, he does walk away with some of the best comedic moments it has to offer. Laura Dern and Benicio Del Toro also perform exceptionally, although the time spent with their characters, despite how integral to the plot the prior one is (one could just re-write the film to not include Del Toro’s character and the story wouldn’t change that much) didn’t feel like enough to connect with them on a deeper emotional level.

And now it’s time to talk about Carrie Fisher. Carrie Fisher’s passing was something that hit all of us Star Wars fans in a really major way when the news broke of it, so watching her final performance as Leia in this film was a fairly emotional and bittersweet affair. And while I’ll admit I didn’t think she stole the show necessarily, she is just as excellent as Leia as she’s ever been. There is a beautiful tribute text (not a scene, just some on screen text) to her during the credits of this film that I think everyone should stay for.

The two best performances in the entire film, however, belong to Adam Driver and Mark Hamill. Any time either one of these two is on screen, they steal the show. Adam Driver continues as the conflicted Kylo Ren to great emotional effect in this film and the directions his character is taken give Driver the challenge necessary to bring his performance to the next level, making him one of the top tier Star Wars villains in the entire franchise. It’s impressive to watch him work in this film.

But the Oscar doesn’t belong to Adam Driver this time around, not just yet. If ever a Star Wars film were to be nominated for an acting performance, this would be the year to do it for Mark Hamill’s performance in this film. This is the best on-screen performance that Mark Hamill has ever given. Ever. He is fantastic as Luke Skywalker in this film, portraying the same man from Tatooine we know and love, but now with so much more nuance after all he’s been through the past 30 years. With every single scene he is in, the film becomes eight times stronger than it was before. It is a mesmerizing thing to see an actor who hasn’t done a ton of on-screen work for the past 30 years come in and school every other performer in the room on how it’s done. It’s a beautiful performance and Mark Hamill absolutely knocks it out of the park.

The film isn’t perfect though, and we’re gonna get into it a little bit as to why. There are certain moments in the film that almost feel like they’re stolen away from the audience for the sake of story or franchise convenience. Certain characters make decisions and you get to feel the weight of those decisions for a little while and it’s a great feeling, but then the film decides to switch back to what the original ideas of these characters or moments were, and it left me feeling a little robbed of some emotional or narratively subversive moments that could have made the film, in my personal opinion, a little better. The writing also could’ve been cleaned up a little as far as dialogue, and I think some further edits would have done it good. There are a few moments scattered throughout the film where a character says one thing, and then someone else right next to them will make the exact same point with different words, one of these exchanges using three lines of dialogue to all say the same thing. It tended in a few places as well to get a tad expositional. The previous film also built up Supreme Leader Snoke (played brilliantly by motion capture god Andy Serkis) as the big bad to beat character, but this film never really gives the character the gravitas necessary to be a truly intimidating presence on screen.

One may have also noticed that in my performance talk, I didn’t mention John Boyega or Kelly Marie Tran, and that was for good reason. While I absolutely thought they both did an excellent job as their respective characters, Finn and Rose, the arc and journey their characters share in this film detracted from the movie as a whole so much so that I would’ve preferred to just cut it out entirely. The only issue therein is that things happen during that arc that tie in to the rest of the film, so it can’t necessarily be removed (I mean it definitely can’t now that the movie’s out, but you know what I mean). Any time the film focused on that part of the story, any sense of urgency I’d previously felt flew right out the window and the film came screeching to a halt, which affected the pacing of the film in a pretty negative manner. However, despite how large a flaw this is for the film, for me, it didn’t detract enough to bring the film down from being great to just being good.

Star Wars: The Last Jedi is not a film that will work for everyone. In fact, a good chunk of mass audiences are openly stating that they didn’t like this movie. And that’s fine; all film is subjective, and not everyone is going to like this film anyhow. Any time a film goes in bold, new, or challenging directions, especially if that film belongs to a franchise as widely beloved as Star Wars, there are bound to be a number of people who don’t like that new direction. For my money, though, Rian Johnson has made an incredible Star Wars film where everything happens in service of character and story, and even if some of those things aren’t executed very well (like the Finn/Rose arc), that is ultimately what matters. I am excited for the future prospects of the franchise, and I am eager to go still again and again to that time long ago in that galaxy far, far away.

I’m giving “Star Wars: The Last Jedi” a 9.5/10

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Kpop origins (game?) tag thing!

❁ Rules: list 5-10 of your favorite kpop groups, your first bias from each group, along with the first mv you saw them in

Tagged by @jindongdongie thank you baby~<3

 I’m was very multi-fandom, I just give 90% of my attention and love iKON.

✩ iKON : Jinhwan???? Rhythm Ta. MAYBE I'm not too sure if he counts as bias, but I noticed him the most in mvs, and when I watched the survival shows. Until Along came Mr. Song <3 and swept me off my feet, and now we live happily with our 16 imaginary kids, +Chanwoo, and moisturized lips.

✩ TVXQ!: Jaejoong  Mirotic... it was the hiatus era and in my defense, his hairstyle alone had a fandom of its own. Weeks later I became officially a tvxq fan and changmin was my ultimate bias until a year ago, r.i.p husband’s place 2010-2016.

✩ Shinhwa: Dongwan, Venus. I actually fell for him watching older mvs like t.o.p. and Perfect man.Then Andy became my bias until last year, but now I’m a hoe for all 5 of them. (excluding Eric because I'm no home wrecker) also, Yunhyeong and Junjin look alike or is it just me?

✩ BIGBANG : Seungri, Love Song. at first, I didn’t appreciate big bang enough to have a bias lost SM stan but then Bad Boy came out and it was when i started feeling things for Seungri and then I watched that strong heart YG family special, and yeah he’s still my bias.

✩ Apink: Eunji, Nonono. She was actually my bias before I got into apink from reply 1997, and then she just kept confirming her place as my bias with every comeback (although I have a soft spot for Hayoung too) and I had the luck to see them live and Eunji blew me away with her vocals so yeah bias4life. She’s my daughter-bias.

✩ Super Junior: Kyuhyun, Don’t Don, he became my bias during the SJ-M Perfection era, his face, and vocals, also evil maknae how could i resist right? but after a while, I realized Kangin was my true bias.

✩ TWICE : Sana & Ooh Ah I remember like it was yesterday XD I actually didn’t get into twice until a few months ago, and I watched SIXTEEN and she bewitched me with her adorable clumsiness. 

✩ SHINee : Jonghyun, Lucifer, he has this irresistible vibe, and lord forbid i biased someone younger than me *coughTaemin cough*lookatmenow* but then Minho became my son-bias during the Sherlock era and he still is.

*I could stop right here but I want to add my soloist loves to the list <3*

✩ Jay Park : Demon, I just liked his music until Metronome was released then i realized he was my aomg bias. :P although Gray and ELO try to get his spot sometimes.

✩ Lee Hyori: Crazy, I actually sort of biased her from variety shows, because of her devilish and carefree personality. but never searched her music until the Bad Girls era.  I liked older songs like 10 minutes, and U-go girl. Also I fell for her in the amor mio mv with that red dress. #supportBLACK&SEOUL2k17

Tagging : you don’t have to, but I’m tagging EVERYONE who wants to do it~! <3 but also a couple of new peeps to get to know each other better ^.^ and  @hanbabi  who wanted to see my past. @coquettish-rap @jiwonnu @gerrardz @ikobean @k-jw  and remember to tag me so I can read them all. <3 <3

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Brian Wilson, Bruce Springsteen, Questlove, More React to Chuck Berry’s Death

Earlier tonight, news broke that Chuck Berry had passed away. He was 90. Numerous artists and fans have paid tribute to the rock’n’roll legend on social media. Find reactions from Brian Wilson, Bruce Springsteen, Questlove, The Rolling Stones, Spoon, Q-Tip, Chuck D, Ringo Starr, Vince Staples, Sky Fereira, Ryan Adams, Anderson .Paak, DJ Premier, and more below. 

I am so sad to hear about Chuck Berry passing - a big inspiration! He will be missed by everyone who loves Rock 'n Roll. Love & Mercy

— Brian Wilson (@BrianWilsonLive) March 18, 2017

R I P Chuck Berry ...

— Chuck D (@MrChuckD) March 18, 2017

This is a tremendous loss of a giant for the ages. -Bruce Springsteen

— Bruce Springsteen (@springsteen) March 18, 2017

The Rolling Stones are deeply saddened to hear of the passing of Chuck Berry. He was a true pioneer of rock'n'roll & a massive influence. http://pic.twitter.com/RT4NZH3KeQ

— The Rolling Stones (@RollingStones) March 18, 2017

The first time I saw Chuck Berry he recited his poetry halfway through the set (what i remembered later of one of the poems was the starting point for my song The Mystery Zone.) He was charming and loose and full of personality. He did at least a half dozen duckwalks that night. He was 80 years old. John Lennon said: “If you tried to give rock and roll another name, you might call it Chuck Berry."

A post shared by SPOON (@spoontheband) on Mar 18, 2017 at 3:56pm PDT

Thou Shall Have No Other Rock Gods Before Him #ChuckBerry rip

A post shared by Questlove Gomez (@questlove) on Mar 18, 2017 at 3:31pm PDT

🌹RIP🌹

A post shared by Sky Ferreira (@skyferreira) on Mar 18, 2017 at 4:04pm PDT

RIP Chuck Berry

A post shared by Ryan Adams (@misterryanadams) on Mar 18, 2017 at 4:09pm PDT

R.I.P. To the father of ROCK N ROLL the genius CHUCK BERRY ✊🏾✊🏾✊🏾Johnny be good

— QTip (@QtipTheAbstract) March 18, 2017

R I P. And peace and love Chuck Berry Mr. rock 'n' roll music 😎✌️🌟💖🎵🎶☮ http://pic.twitter.com/hS2S2lUORf

— #RingoStarr (@ringostarrmusic) March 18, 2017

RIP CHUCK BERRY

— Vince Staples (@vincestaples) March 18, 2017

Legends never die. Thank you #ChuckBerry http://pic.twitter.com/0i4dyzpbDP

— just call me Andy (@AndersonPaak) March 18, 2017

I wanted to be this man when I was 7, still do. First performance I ever saw and he blew me away #chuckberry 🎸 http://pic.twitter.com/Pab6j8fWY1

— LA ROUX (@larouxofficial) March 18, 2017

R.I.P. To The Legendary Father Of Rock and Roll... Mr. Charles Edward Anderson Berry Sr. Better Known As "CHUCK BERRY"... Getcha "DUCK WALK" On In Heaven! Salute!

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