#SORRY FOR SPELLING MSIFEAKES BTW THIS SHIT JUST MAKES ME GO BAWAHKWGJAVHWCYACYWCGWCGWCG

[anth4rax]

I fucking hate when I start talking about weird stuff that makes me uncomfortable because then I just have to keep talking about it until I get tired of talking about it or else it will not go away and start to affect my goddamn shoulder blades and my teeth

Like the fact when someone doesn’t collect everything like coins when it’s SUPER FUCKING EASY it just makes me feel so uncomfortable that I have to move my shoulders a few times to get that feeling away from me

And then there is the dull pencil thing (ESPECIALLY ON MATH TEXTBOOKS) because if I keep thinking about it for long enough it feels like my teeth is grinding in math textbook paper

Sometimes when after I’m done washing my hands it feels like it. I feel so uncomfortable about my hands after I wash them / hands and feet after I bathe / shower touching stuff I always HAVE to spread my fingers and toes or else I will feel very uncomfortable

Not talking about weird stuff that makes me uncomfortable while in the mood to hate on stuff that makes me feel so uncomfortable makes me want to explode. Not even that it makes me want to rip my skin off and crawl out of it.

I just made myself so uncomfortable with that image omfg I HATE IT when muscles are exposed. It’s not that it looks disgusting it’s because of the goddamn bacteria and germs that can get in there

ESPECIALLY CARPET ON MUSCLES THAT MAKES ME WANT TO MOVE MY ARMS OR SCRATCH MY CALVES BECAUSE IT MAKES ME SO UNCOMFORTABLE

NOT EVEN THOSE “SeNd ThIs To An ArTiSt FrIeNd To MaKe ThEm RaGe” VIDEOS CAN MAKE ME THIS FUCKING UNCOMFORTABLE

I WANT TO STOP TALKING ABOUT IT BUT I CANT BECAUSE THEN IT WILK STAY ON MY MIND I HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE ABOUT THESE FUCKING THOUGHTS OR ELSE I WILL FEEL THE NEED TO RIP MY SKIN OFF

EARLIER TODAY I WAS CLAWING AT MY ARM (not too hard tho I didn’t want to actually hurt myself because I’m a goddamn pussy whose scared at doing a lot of stuff because I don’t want to get hurt) BECAUSE I WAS FEELING SO UNCOMFORTABLE BECAUSE OF THESE THOUGHTS AND THAT MY PARENTS TOLD ME TO BRING MY LAUNDRY TO MY ROOM WHEN I WAS HUNGRY (THAT DOESNT EVEN AFFECT ME AS MUCH AS IT DID TODAY WHAT THE FUCK)