#TBTB: the powers that be

[buddieroommatesera]

honestly i thought the same about eddie and marisol dating for 7 months. i saw people saying ‘she was barely in the episode so clearly she’s not important!’ but like….. she’s clearly already an established and normal part of his domestic life, so doesn’t need a big dramatic introduction, instead she got a casual ‘all you need to know is she’s in eddies house looking after his kid with him’

i will always clown about buddie canon and not to be a downer but i won’t lie, i’m worried about eddie and marisol as a couple. especially as edy’s instagram comment last night suggests she’s still filming

So I've been thinking about this more on timeline, and it may just be a technicality so hang with me :)

When Eddie calls Marisol, he's already healed up after the bridge collapse that happened in May. He broke his ribs, so I am putting that healing time at 6 weeks (really it would be like 2-3 months, but in the world of 9-1-1 everyone heals super quick lol). So they most likely went out around end of July, early August. Then probably became more serious a month later. So I will put their actual relationship length at about 4 months (maybe 5) when this season starts. Nova clarified that the season most likely does start in March (per what they've done prior), therapy being in January, so the original number stands: 6/7 months.

However, the interesting thing is that it is never mentioned or showed Eddie talking about the incident with Christopher with Marisol. Since she's already been introduced to him, my natural assumption would be to talk it out with a partner I'd hope to integrate into the family.

As far as the relationship itself lasting, I am not worried. They (TPTB) have repeated this same pattern of relationships with Buck and Eddie since the beginning. Concerning the actress, keep in mind, she's a vessel for the character. We are only interested in the character (I would hope). If she is a terrible human outside of what she portrays on TV, that is for the 9-1-1 team to worry about.

FOURTH WALL, PEOPLE!

You don't think they have social media managers keeping an eye on what is said online, not just by the fans, but the people they bring on the show? If there is action to be taken, they will, and/or they consider them to be such a non-entity that they sweep it under the rug until she's gone from the show. Very rarely do they (TPTB) take public action.

[uncleasad]

Bizarre Legacies Plot question of the day:

What was the point of the Golden Arrow being used to de-phoenix Landon?

Are TBTB saying that Hope, the freakin’ loophole born to kill Malivore, would have been unable to kill Malivore if he had possessed a phoenix (or half-phoenix/human-phoenix hybrid, as it were)? Otherwise, what is the point of de-phoenixing Landon?

But if so, then Hope is hardly the special flower—nor the mythical loophole—they also make her out to be, so…they’ve once again neutered her/her powers.

[syifarlaa]

Meski perjalanannya ga mudah, tapi pastikan pemandangannya indah

'duduk bareng🏡; perbaikan manajemen prioritas dan keterbukaan komunikasi'

'dinamika menjelang akhir masa bakti; dipertanyakan, siapa yg mestinya duluan?'

'menuju medan pertempuran pertama yg semakin dekat'

'dimandatkan di tim inti musycab; panlih'

'menyandang tidak kompeten'😭 &= 'kawal project instruktur; training kaidah perkaderan'🥹🥲

'pengumuman jadwal pertempuran kedua; ± h-1,5 bulan'

'dinamika kesibukan panlih yg tak kunjung usai, ada ada aja dramanya, tp makin seru'

'Lokakarya perkaderan DKI'. Ngobrol: mundur panlih aja biar bisa fokus untuk pertempuran kedua'

'kekhawatiran; de, cip, kak, kalo boleh saran urusan kerjaan, urusan organisasi pangkas dulu. Belajar bener bener, jarak menuju pertempurannya bentaran doang tuh, kalo emang kamu ga mau mundur lebih jauh lagi, karna bakal rugi banyak bgt, waktu, tenaga, pikiran, dsb'

'meyakinkan dan di-yakinkan cenderung nekat yang bertekad; aku mampu lampaui segala dinamikanya sebab aku pun punya pertimbangan untuk tetap bertahan dan ga pangkas gitu aja'

'perizinan; bolehkah aku menginap?'

'perjanjian; bukan dilarang, tapi dibatasi, diatur seperlunya. Sudah bukan waktunya loh. Se-idealis apapun, mesti pikirkan realitas nya juga, untuk menunjang kehidupan jangka panjang juga kan, biar ga disini sini aja. Proses adaptasi dirumah jangan juga sampai terabaikan. Kalo gitu diizinkan untuk yg terakhir, tapi silahkan pilih, hari ke1 atau ke2 nya yg mau menginap'

'mengeluarkan jurus andalan kagebunshin; perkaderan utama bertepatan dengan musycab'

'dinamika forum pra hingga musycab' > Goals: Abhipraya Upeksha (have done) > minta restu dan ridho ayah untuk extra time ga pulang sampai kegiatan tuntas'

'kembali ber-jarak🏚; perkara dinamika prioritas dan komunikasi'

'dilema; - waktu menuju medan tempur kedua makin dekat, -dinamika calon regenerasi > tabayyun'

'mencoba mengumpat dari peradaban biar bisa fokus'

'perkara rasa dan romansa yg tiba tiba datang diluar kendali'

'usaha pengendalian diri yg jauh lebih dalam'

'tbtb dpt permintaan yg sulit ditolak; bisakah kakak ngisi untuk sampaikan urgensi dan divisi korps?'

'mindfulness; mengejar ketertinggalan di satu minggu terakhir'

'bersyukur; dipertemukan teman belajar yang sangat supportif dan asertif'

'melapangkan hati; minta doa restu orangtua dan keluarga dengan mencoba meyakinkan hati pikiran jiwa raga meski yg diharapkan tdk selalu sesuai ekspektasi > mencari penguatan untuk stay positive dikala hiruk pikuk perasaan yg belum berdamai'

'Alhamdulillaah 'ala kulli haal, laa quwwata illaa billaah.. sepanjang perjalanan hingga pertempuran selesai Allah sisipkan perasaan tenang, lega dan terkendali'😇💫

'drama belum selesai; menuju pelantikan calon regenerasi dengan harapan terbaik - persiapan memberi persembahan'

'produktif yg tidak seperti pada umumnya; diperjalanan pulang kerja alih profesi jadi editor konten video selama ± 1 minggu'

'the power of kepepet; kembali jadi makhluk setengah manusia yg urus segala hal yg belum keurus bersama sejoli'

'tidak ada kata selesai jika belum ketok palu; dihadapkan dengan kenyataan bahwa nekat tak selalu buruk, ternyata tanpa disadari malah jadi cerminan jg buat sang regenerasi alias mereka sama bahkan jauh lebih nekat🙈 tp aku bangga! Meski ngawalnya sambil yaallah yaallah tolong h-1 loh ini kenapa ada ada aja si wkwk'

'sah purna bakti; pelantikan sederhana tapi tak sesederhana harapannya alhamdulillaah berjalan dgn cukup baik meski masih banyak kurangnya'

'nekat ketemu nekat sama dengan nekat kuadrat!🥹😤😡😭😇🫂 *on point: komunikasi yg baik dan kebijaksanaan adalah koentji'

'sedikit cemas banyak rindunya~'

'sesekali ovt bermunculan'

'lagi semangat semangatnya terpaut sama Rabb nya'

'diluar ekspektasi; Perkiraan tgl 27, tiba tiba di tgl 21 dini hari ada yg mengawali dgn berkata, Alhamdulillah, selamat ya' 'kompeten'

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Dengan segenap rasa syukur sebanyak banyaknya dan bahagia secukupnya (mestinya), terimakasih banyak yaaRabb.. atas pembelajaran yg sangat amat berharga ini.🥹🤍

Meski perjalanan kedepan akan semakin terjal bahkan mungkin curam, semoga aku diberi mampu untuk melampauinya berangsur angsur dengan senantiasa belajar jadi yang lebih baik di setiap waktunya😌🤲

[budakrumahsakit]

Cerita 2

Gue tiba-tiba keinget, tp ini kisah yg lumayan ngena banget di memori gue.

Suatu saat di ruang infeksi TB, ada bapak usianya mungkin 40y. Ditungguin sama anaknya cewek, masih muda. Awalnya bapaknya sadar cuma emang sesak gitu, work of breathing-nya lumayan berat. Terus awalnya perbaikan dengan NRM, udah start antibiotik x obat anti TB (OAT) juga dari awal. Seinget gue assessmentnya emang shock sepsis, sepsis karena CAP, TB, dan pasien malnutrisi (ini mungkin efek TBnya yah). Dari awal masuk kami udah jelasin, ini penyakit berat, berisiko perburukan hingga kematian. Anaknya, mungkin karena udah beberapa kali juga yah dijelaskan hal yang sama, nerima nerima aja.

Hari ke 2 jaga, kayanya masih aman. Hari ke 3, pas visit kok udah naik HFNC, vascon jg udah jalan 0,8, tp bapaknya tapi kalo ditanya jawabannya selalu sama: udah enakan. Jadi sejauh mata memandang aja ngeceknya, asal napasnya engga cepet dan masih sadar + tensinya juga stabil. Jadi sekedar nanya keluhan baru, sambil ngecekin trend vital sign monitor.

Hari ke-4, tiba-tiba sesak memberat. Akhirnya perlu diintubasi. Aku perlu informed consent, barulah kita kecarian keluarga. Anak itu dateng, aku tanya nama dan umurnya, ternyata “masih 13 tahun”. Aku tanya, saudara kamu ada gak? “Ada tapi masih 6 tahun, lagi sekolah”. Mama? “Udah nikah lagi sama orang baru dan ninggalin kita, saya tinggal sama adik dan bapak saya”. Ada orang dewasa yang bisa kita ajak bicara enggak? “Aku coba hubungin omku dulu yah?”. Oke deh, karena pasiennya emang masih sadar tp sesak, dan butuh informed consent untuk intubasi, yang mana beliau (pasiennya) menolak, akhirnya gue tunggu keluarga lainnya dateng. Gue masih di ruangan yang sama, lagi sekalian resepin aja set intubnya biar kalau emg udah siap tinggal mulai.

Tbtb sambil nunggu, ga sampe 10 menit dari AGD terakhir, dipanggil lagi sama anaknya… bapaknya ga napas. Akhirnya RJP, bagging, entah berapa round, costaenya patah banyak karena tekanan RJP dan dia very malnourished. 40 menit asystole dan ga respon, pasiennya gue nyatakan meninggal. Selama RJP, aku lihat anaknya, panik dan ketakutan, tapi ga nangis, sibuk nelpon, coba manggil orang dateng. Kali ini dia baru ngerti, apa maksud edukasi perburukan yang entah berapa kali sudah kami ulangi, mungkin sudah setiap pergantian shift ada yang datang ke dia dan menjelaskan ulang.

Saat gue nyatain meninggal, akhirnya baru bisa liat anaknya, kali ini beda, nangis jejeritan dan bener bener kaya throw tantrum. Marah sama situasi, marah sama bapaknya “Bapak, aku sama siapa sekarang?”. Dateng omnya, dia nangis lagi. Ga lama datang ibunya, sama juga nangis-nangis aja.

Disitu jd kepikiran, wah, yang gue lakukan benar-benar sederhana: I only called the time of death. But it doesn’t stop there, I also changed a girl, and potentially her sibling’s, trajectory of life. In this upcoming period, they might no longer a priority in anybody’s eyes. They might be unimportant, and forgotten. This time, the hand that feeds them, will no longer be the one doing that. They will have no one protecting them. They lost the man who will give every power left in his bones, for a roof above their head.

Halo, aku gatau kamu sekarang dimana, nama bapakmu pun aku gabisa ingat. Sayangnya buat aku, dia sudah menjadi satu dari puluhan, mungkin ratusan, manusia yang gue temukan meninggal. Tapi lewat ini aku mengirimkan doa dan harapanku, agar Tuhan memberkatimu. Semoga kali ini, Dia pun menangisi kesedihanmu, dan memberimu ketenangan yang nyata. Semoga kasihnya melingkupimu dan adikmu, serta semoga kali ini Dia memberi kesempatan kehidupan yang lebih baik, serta masa anak dan remaja yang kalian harusnya dapatkan. Tuhan cinta ciptaanNya. Aku doakan cintaNya pun kamu bisa rasakan, sebagaimana aku bisa merasakannya dalam hidupku, setiap saat.

[highoctanegem]

[pm] I mean, duh! Why would I go after something with a heartbe I am protecting humankind, though. Sorta. I used t Fae and undead are totally different. You're hashtag born that way. My family loves Regan, just like everyone who meets her does, cause she's the most delightful person in the world. [user is obviously genuine about this] And like, sure they don't know she's I didn't kill you cause we have to keep this town the hottest town in the country, it was like... strategic, obvi. What are you rising for? Are you also a kazoohead?

And I'm sure you have a very loyal, dedicated gay fanbase. The kind that supports your rights and wrongs. I can totally see it. Those fancams probably go off! TBTB, the powers that be. Whatever you perceived as your maker. So was I! That's what I'm saying. Getting told you have a calling when all you wanna do is to play with dolls and play your sister's keyboard isn't like... I mean it's not as easy peasy lemon squeezy as I make it sound, and I'm not saying that cause I turned 30 and my frontal lobe developed. But also Recommitting has never helped anyone. Trying to recommit made me I wasn't Look at all those couples who renew their wedding vows! Try a secret third option.

It was a good joke, babe. Felix is playing games with you, huh? Felix. I bet we're talking about different Felixes, they would never. You should defo defeat the Felix insulting you.

We don't have any of that yet. Just our couch. And the ottoman. And the other couch. Oh! And the framed ulcers. And our artistic nudes. You could say we're a little barebones :) [user is sweating] Ummm... I dunno if that's like... Regan has like, a complicated history with worms, you know. I doubt she'd want that. She's probably never stopped thinking about Terramoist.

Oooooh, you mean the boring  other kind of boning. She gets so many bones. I got her a big wheelbarrow for her birthday, we go for a bone haul every night, it keeps us active. She'd be the cutest gnat, I wouldn't kick her out of my house (cause you can't kick gnats).

[pm] As if your ideology conveniently left out other non-humans. Kill the vampires, spare the beautiful fae? Perhaps it might’ve, I am only familiar with the breed of hunter that fancies themselves humanity’s protectors. Would your family approve of Regan? Oh yes! Above your pay grade. That’s certainly why you didn’t kill me. Nothing at all to do with a weakness of character. […] No, I’m not rising for that either.

My character is already developed. You are not a TV show; those are pre-written. Fate doesn’t plan so closely. For better or worse, you are Jade. Not a character. TPTB? Why do you insist on using obtuse metaphors? I’m not stuck in a box. I have a duty. I was chosen for it. I have nothing else What am I without I simply need to recommit myself.

I was trying to insult your intelligence not your height. Sure look, it was a height joke. Who is Mary…..why do I bother asking in the first place How did they? It would be easier to list the ways Felix has not insulted me. I suppose they think me an easy target for their game. I am not! I will not lose to their trickery. I will win. I will defeat Felix.

Make sure you insist, I’d loathe for Regan’s house to be scorned by Fate. Really work it into the carpet. Do you have carpet? No matter, get it into a rug then. Oh delightful! I suppose she’s going to feed you the worms one by one? What’s wormsgiving without dangling a worm into your lover’s mouth? My, with the Jade sauce they’ll be quite plump. All the better for you to eat, don’t you think? [user is also joking about this]

Talk about boning? I don’t want to hear about sex, I do want to hear about her getting boned. What did she get? I suppose they are all common bones. Saying Regan is my nemesis is giving her too much credit. She’s far more like a gnat that won’t leave my house. Felix is my nemesis.

[danlous]

I don't think the new spn fans understand what it was like to experience canon drowley in real time. Fans were talking about Crowley symbolically seducing Dean over s9 and correctly anticipated the demon!Dean storyline. Everyone expected Crowley to become the new big bad and use Dean as a weapon in his master plans. Then comes the next season and turns out all they've been doing together is hang around in bars and have sex. Because this is cw supernatural TBTB can't explicitly show or say there's gay sex happening but it's as blatant as it can be. People can't believe their eyes we're sort of asking each other is this real are they really doing this. This is anti-destiel, no one wanted this. Yet it gets more outrageously obvious every week and it's more canon than destiel is at this point. Dean breaks up with Crowley and Crowley falls into depression spiral spending all his time pathetically crying over him. Dean/Cas/Crowley love triangle becomes a legit storyline. When Crowley's humiliations build up we expect him to finally snap and become a true powerful villain once again yet it never quite happens. Crowley stays embarrassingly in love with Dean until the end and arguably dies because of it. Dean Winchester dick broke the king of hell's mind permanently. And again, because this is cw supernatural this all stays just barely subtext. Sometimes i wake up in a cold sweat thinking 'they really managed to no homo dean physically having sex with a man'

[thatseventiesbitch]

Eric and Donna Got Really Screwed Over By The Writers During The Second Half Of The Show: An Essay

Eric and Donna’s relationship arc was written deliberately and well during the first half of the show, seasons 1-4. Although the second half of the series still held lots of good moments for Eric and Donna, their relationship wasn’t given nearly the forethought and care it was given earlier on in the show’s run.

When they got back together in S5xE1, they agreed to essentially sweep everything that kept them apart during the last year under the rug. This was l a z y writing, and shows the beginning of an unfortunate pattern. But this goes against previous characterization. In the early seasons, Eric and Donna were shown to be good communicators, who talked through what was bothering them.

Eric: And Donna you know why those things got better? Because we kinda care about each other and we talk, and we make things work.

There was no reason to push aside “Casey and all that stuff” that drove them apart over the past year - and no in-character behavior patterns to suggest Eric and Donna would. The only “reason” Eric and Donna quickly agreed to forget the past year in the back of Kelso’s van in S5xE1 “Going to California” was that it was the 5th season of the show, and the writers wanted to push an engagement storyline now that Eric and Donna were back together.

In real time, viewers had been watching That 70′s Show for 5 years now, and had watched Eric and Donna together for nearly 4. And the actors were in their mid-20′s. An engagement made sense under those circumstances - except on the show, Eric and Donna were still high school students. TBTB (the powers that be) went ahead with the decision to have them get engaged anyway, for the storytelling potential this created for Eric and Donna.

Their engagement storyline (although it provided many cute moments) was misplaced here. They got engaged only 6 episodes after they got back together. They were seniors in high school! And they didn’t show us enough to explain how Donna went from rejecting Eric’s promise ring in S3xE25 to accepting his engagement ring in S5xE7. That could’ve been a much more fulfilling, full-circle moment than it was. The whole engagement storyline in season 5 was rushed. It was lazy writing. At the end of season 5 when Eric and Donna decided to relax their rush to the altar and turned their focus to moving away to Madison instead, that was good.

Only. For the same damn storylines. To be recycled in season 6???

Eric and Donna aren’t ready to get married yet - gasp, what?? Yeah, we know. They decided that in S5xE23 🥱. The choices the writers made from here on out were just... confusing to me.

Look, when they returned to the wedding storylines in season 6, then they needed to go ahead and complete that storyline once and for all. That is all I’m saying. Season 6 should have ended with Eric and Donna’s wedding, then. You don’t tease a wedding for two fucking seasons, and then not deliver. If the showrunners didn’t want to go that route - and I don’t blame them - then they should have taken the ‘out’ they gave themselves in season 5. Eric and Donna decided they’re in no rush to get married. Don’t bring it up again. Pretty simple. Pursue a different storyline for Eric and Donna altogether.

But the writers don’t do that. No, they have Eric and Donna plan their entire wedding. They register for wedding gifts, Donna has a dress, they buy the trailer. Only for Eric to leave Donna at the altar. I’m sorry - WHAT? Because he has a nightmare? Come on. Then once again, we’re left wondering what was even the purpose of this whole storyline, as Donna lets Eric right back into her bed. What’s even changed?

Season 7 is their most frustrating season of all because they both just do... nothing. They’re together, but not engaged anymore after Eric pawns her engagement ring to pay for his year of lazing and napping. They’re just hanging out. They don’t know what they’re doing - no one know what they’re doing! 

I hate that for both of them, but most of all for Donna. Imagine staying home to be with Eric after his father’s heart attack. Getting engaged, and then being left at the altar. Sticking around in some going-nowhere relationship, in some going-nowhere town. I honestly don’t know what she was thinking at this point.

Here’s how their storyline should have gone during the second half of the show, in my opinion:

Season 5 - Eric and Donna work through the issues that caused their break-up - their differing outlooks on their futures, and Donna’s need for more independence - and then they’re happier than ever. There’s lots of back-together storyline potential here, like addressing the other people Eric dated while they were apart (Slurpee girl), Casey Kelso making a reappearance, or Donna finds the songs Eric wrote during their break-up lol (”Hey guys, what rhymes with pain?”). The gang graduates from high school at the end of the season but just like in the show, Red has a heart attack, delaying Eric and Donna’s start at UW-Madison.

Season 6 - Eric stays home from college to help after Red’s heart attack, and just like in the show Donna stays home from Madison to be with him, but she still attends a (fictional) college she can commute to from Point Place (they made up a junior college, so I’m making up a state school that Donna could commute to for class). This is where the engagement storyline fits. Could follow a similar formula to the show: Eric decides Donna’s willing to commit to him by giving up Madison and he wants to commit too, so he decides to propose. Everyone tells him it’s a dumb idea and they’re too young, but he winds up proposing on the water tower in that same round-about way. It’s a little different this time (they’re not in high school, for example), so they don’t feel pressured to keep the engagement a secret. Red and Kitty, however, still disapprove. Red in particular thinks Eric is too young, and that he’s throwing his life away. Eric is confused why Red seems so against Eric doing exactly what Red himself has done: have a family. Many of the episodes that focus on the lead-up to Eric and Donna’s wedding could frankly stay the same (although cut out the abstinence storyline - that’s just a rehash of season two). Registering for gifts, Eric destroying her wedding dress, the Bachelorette party, etc. Red and Kitty would reluctantly come around to the marriage as the season progresses. Despite their resistance, Eric sticks around and continues to be a big help at home, and Red gets back on his feet. Red finally gives his approval at the rehearsal dinner, the night before the wedding (and offers to pay for a substantial amount of the wedding, too). Eric and Donna’s wedding is the season six finale. And yes, Eric freaking shows up.

Season 7 - Eric and Donna’s challenges during their first year of marriage. They start off in the trailer, but that doesn’t last long. They try living with their parents and with their friends before finally getting an apartment of their own in the same building as Kelso and Fez. Donna’s working at the radio station, and Hyde hires Eric to work the register at Grooves. They’re both pretending that their dead-end jobs, and life in Point Place, is enough for them. At some point in the season, both Eric and Donna reach the realization they want to leave - go to college, after all. But they both mistakenly believes that the other still wants to stay in Point Place. By the end of the season / in the finale, Eric and Donna decide to move away to Madison to start college and the rest of their lives.

/series

[cesperanza]

as a fellow fandom Old, curious about what you think about the current generation's focus on headcanons and having a "correct" way to interpret a character. i don't remember this kind of focus existing in older fandoms like sga, characters could be gay in one story, bi in another, etc etc with different kinds of backgrounds and identities. these days there seem to be so many arguments about whether a character is being read with the correct hyperspecific identity

I mean, it's not and was never my sort of fandom, and I never really understood it. To me, the pleasure of fandom is doing it differently, and having others do it differently, each time: that's the fun and the whole point. WHAT IF this? WHAT IF that? I have people asking me about my head canons all the time and I always say that I don't really have them or WANT them--I'm literally trying to do it differently each time, and typically if the characters get too settled in my head I stop writing--like, when I can't think of interesting variables to change. That includes sexuality but more broadly, psychology, setting, and backstory. (It's also why I don't typically write fic or a lot of fic for really quality pro-fic, where what they've done is so pleasing or convincing that there's no fun imagining it differently.)

But it's also part of two trends that worry me: 1) not understanding that fiction is fiction (uh, these characters aren't real? so they don't really have sex lives or sexuality? which is why btw they can't "really" be straight either?) and 2) giving wayyyyy too much power to TBTB (when, honestly, their drafts of the characters and events are often the worst of the thousands of stories. Who would esteem Age of Ultron over 95 percent of the fiction in the AO3?) I don't recognize the authority of any professional storyteller over my imagination! :P

That said, I suspect that what's really at stake is a profound personal identification with a character to the point that the headcanon becomes a sorting mechanism for "finding your tribe" or whatever. Which is fine, fandom can be that for people! And it works, too--the world is wide enough for Hamilton and me. But the most convincing arguments IMO are always artistic: you can argue til you're blue, but create a compelling Fanon and you're golden!

[extenler]

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[hazzabeeforlou]

www*theatlantic*com/technology/archive/2020/08/how-instagram-aesthetics-repackage-qanon/615364/ Kaitlyn Tiffany has a whole series on conspiratorial thinking. She write about the harm caused and danger of conspiracies like larry and others

Ya know what darling sweetheart hunny, I’m stuck in a car right now eating corn nuts and drinking iced coffee so you’re gonna get an answer.

There’s a difference between believing the earth is flat and believing celebrities that are marketed as straight are in fact gay. Take, for instance, the anti Semitic conspiracy theory that some celebrities are “lizard people” and part of a global elite running the world. I’d ask you, okay, do you have any evidence of that? And you would have ZERO, just doctored pics and bullshit. If I ask about the history of closeted celebrities, however, we could write a BOOK with the history of lavender marriages, forced closeting, fake girlfriends, and we would not even have to go back a YEAR to find an example!! Dude who came out after being on the BACHELOR?! Hello? Literally a quick google search will show you articles and tweets from people who’ve decided to come out after being with beards for YEARS. You will find examples of closeted boy bands in South Africa, in Asia, examples of media manipulation in even STRAIGHT bands like the Beatles, where members were marketed as single even though they were fucking married. You don’t even need to touch the gay issue to learn that media coverage is planned, purposeful, and inauthentic. Just look at the magazine rack in your grocery store for fucks sake. When do they feature dramatic ass celebrity relationships? When that person has something to promote. Always.

I take HUGE issue with this ridiculous author. Somehow “conspiratorial thinking” has recently become synonymous with never questioning TBTB’s narrative. Since fucking WHEN is THAT the woke perspective??? Do y’all not remeber the literal assasinations the FBI carried out against Black leaders? Do y’all not recall the warmongering and regime change the USA fomented in South America? Have y’all not read that yes, most historians now agree Kennedy will killed in league with the government??!? Um, do you not recall the literal constant propaganda that has driven our genocidal wars and land grabs for oil??? The media has supported and created and BENEFITED from all of these narratives. Questioning authority is NOT conspiratorial thinking, questioning narratives and following power and money trails and asking tough questions is not and NEVER WILL BE a sign of lunacy.

Let me end with the checkmate. For over a year now some virologists have been saying that the genetic fingerprint from Covid-19 is not natural. But because the “lab escape” hypothesis was ruled a conspiracy theory early on for political and “woke” reasons, NO ONE GAVE IT A SECOND THOUGHT. I watched tons of shit about it though, and was very much waiting for scientists and the government to actually devote some research to it. They continued to say it developed naturally. Now the bombshell is out: within two weeks the WP has confirmed that the only plausible origin of the virus was gain-of-function creation at the Wuhan lab. And that’s not a racist or Republican or “conspiratorial” thing to say because it’s the fucking TRUTH and it’s the REASON that this fucking virus didn’t end like other sars outbreaks, the reason this one killed MILLIONS around the world. By labeling ANY kind of investigation into the lab leak hypothesis as “conspiratorial” we lost perhaps hundreds of thousands of lives because if people had known this was a highly contagious, Frankenstein, lab created, escaped bio-experiment, perhaps they would have taken it more seriously than a “bat flu.”

[tellmethisisnottumblisnextfuckup]

I’m sorry to bring her name up, I’m not even a real fan of her, I just feel like this is important (though maybe I’m oversimplifying) — but in the vein of Harry and Louis:

Every time someone says it’s not believable in 2020-2 that contracts, image clauses, money, record labels, industry executives and higher ups/TBTB contributed and still contribute to closeting and having THAT much control, I think — Taylor Swift, white, rich and powerful as f*ck, does not and could not own her own work/masters — to the point that she couldn’t buy them back and literally had to re-record her own work. It’s not the same, but I feel like it should tell you how much money is a factor and how it can’t even buy you what you want sometimes even when you ARE in a position of power. So anytime someone says, about Harry and Louis “well that wouldn’t happen, it’s just a conspiracy theory” it’s like…no, these people own you, your image and even your work. And that could definitely extend into your personal life. I don’t know, I’m just willing to admit that there’s so much we don’t even know about how money controls everything in these industries, not the artist.

Taylor Swift, white, rich and powerful as f*ck, does not and could not own her own work/masters — to the point that she couldn’t buy them back and literally had to re-record her own work.

You're making a great point here. There are so many examples, gahd, literally Fifth Harmony said READ THE CONTRACT (i cannot quote them word by word), and we all saw the contracts for TXF and co. Just for a music video, the one they had for SMG they signed NDA's with the dancers, who were working with them for what, for a few days?, until it stopped taping. Liam pretty clearly said they weren't allowed to do a lot of things, even in hair style and clothing, because if they didn't fit the boyband mold, their team shat bricks, pardon my language. I had so many good quotes collected from Simon's bands as well how toxic and how regulated everything is. And hair, and clothing is not even sexuality, so you can imagine how much homosexuality had to be hidden which definitely didn't fit the "we can marry you too, if you love us" mold for teenager girls. It's literally everyone who's ever come out in this industry or was on the verge of, has made remarks of how not easy this industry and management is making on being themselves.

[hmslusitania]

Hey Haley, do you think it's important that the writers took the time to nuke Ana a little? Riiiiiight up to the point of Eddie telling her to put down the stuff she was trying to put in the dishwasher, this was the perfect woman. That was kind of the whole point, right? Here's this woman who is perfectly perfect for you and you don't want her and now you're having panic attacks about it - that's how wrong this relationship is for you.

They could have had her leave amicably, so that whenever Eddie comphets back if they can't get Buddie past The Powers That Be at Fox, they could bring Ana back once Eddie has Worked Through His Trauma and she could be The One That Got Away, who came back.

But they took the time in a packed episode to have her give Eddie shit about the panic attacks. She can't come back now - the audience wouldn't let her. She is no longer a viable option for TPTB to say "oh what about..."

Or do you think it was really just the fastest way to get her own in terms of screen time - packed ep, if she kicks up a fuss we have to fight about it.

I'm still not past all this mess being Eddie's now, and that mess just getting messier.

I mean, frankly, they nuked her at her introduction and then already tried to retcon it -- hm, not retcon, but handwave ignore it -- to make her into this "perfect" love interest, and they carried on that double fiction until the end when we got to see, no, actually, she's still that person who made shitty comments about Christopher's way in the world, and she's just taking the opportunity to be a little nasty about it now that she's getting dumped rather than having it come from a place of presumably well-meaning ignorance.

But, yeah, no, they've already brought her back with a handwave once and now they really can't do that again. Is it important? I mean, yeah? It was also very intentional. I would be shocked to learn there was anything in tbtb's minds about preserving the character on her exit for future use as needed, so like...I guess I think I'm having a bit of trouble with the premise of your ask? I don't know that it's particularly important that they would've nuked that relationship/character going forward any more than it would be important for them to not have done it? IDK, I think even if they hadn't, it's very clear that whatever storyline they have coming for Eddie's future, there's a 0% chance it will ever again involve Ana. And I think that would be true even if they had broken up amicably, and will continue to be true even if comphet occurs. Which, I don't think will be the case, but anyway

[lifeofanerdygirl]

Supercorp Related Rant

I was watching the Wynonna Earp Comic Con at Home panel and during it Emily Andras, the showrunner, said something that reminded me of Supercorp.

I know some Supercorp fans know about Wynonna Earp and Wayhaught and others do not, but even if you don’t that’s ok. Basically, all you need to know is that Wayhaught is a canon LGBTQ couple on the show. Or maybe you’re a Supercorp fan, but don’t like Wynonna Earp and that’s ok too.

However, no matter what your opinion is, I feel like she brought up an important point that you need to hear.

In the video below, she talks about the beginning of Wayhaught and the chemistry between the actresses. (FYI, she uses another character, Nedley, to prove her point). Watch and/or read it transcribed below.

“The thing is you always hope for the best, you go in eyes open, but I think you can’t be so rigid with your ideas that you can’t be prepared to write different combinations and different chemistry and use what the actors are giving you. The actors are giving you so much interesting emotions and chemistry reads you may have never seen, that you’d be a fool not to be like, ‘Oh my God, Nedley’s so great with everybody, he’s so funny, we need more scenes with Nedley and everybody, you know for an example.’ So you kind of just have to have a plan, but then be willing to adjust your plan based on all the magic that you’re getting on screen.”

So Supercorp fans, does this sound familiar? What we as fans have been getting at with Melissa and Katie? They have amazing chemistry on screen and therefore their characters should be a couple, yet the Supergirl showrunners decide not to utilize it fully by making Supercorp canon.

The Wynonna Earp showrunner on the other hand, saw right away how powerful these two actresses were together, the chemistry they had and how positive the audience reacted to seeing them together in the beginning. Therefore, she’s written to their strengths and people have been able to relate to the characters and it’s made a positive impact.

In conclusion, a great showrunner will go with the chemistry of two people and write to these strengths, while a showrunner that’s not so great won’t take advantage of it.

Yes, I know Kara and Lena may not have started out as love interests and TBTB may have prohibited it, but then could they at least stop baiting us, making it seem that Kara and Lena like each other more than friends? Also, then find an actor that plays Kara’s romantic interest that actually has great chemistry with Melissa?

[clairebeauchampfan]

It’s all a conspiracy, I tell ya. TBTB, The powers that be, are actually lizards, aren’t they?

These quotes from a recent over-excited post by three ‘fans’ . I’ve taken off the names to spare them the blushes when Caitriona and Tony’s Wedding Certificate comes out. But hey, that’ll be ‘faked’ too, won’t it? (my emphases) 

‘Fan A’

 Remember when this came out and Sam was Glamour’s no. 63 in their top 100 sexiest men. Selling the Highland warrior... one who obviously dates but is not in a committed relationship or about to get married, so women feel he’s available. We don’t see this quite so much now I guess given many people are onto the Fantasy man deal. Cait of course gets a mention here so it totally supports the opinion that the ONLY woman that could EVER threaten the sexy Highland warrior image is Caitriona. It was necessary to EXCLUDE her from the equation (imo FvF career carrot) as a sister who had a remarkable ‘wedding’ that the Highland warrior attended as a guest. Cait’s out, Sam’s obsession’s safe. No brainer. What’s interesting is that Sam never used to sell this well but since his meeting at Disney with Parnell and MIK got a gig, he’s now on board publicly running any connection to Cait under a bus. He’s backing the total burial of his own identity as a partner or family man which we’ve never seen before. As I’ve mentioned a number of times whatever Sam had in the pipeline to push him to do this must he big. Not sure how he’ll be with Cait in public...now she’s a sister...but he used to continually single her out as an important person in his life. The thing is...the universe kept them on side and supported their love for the way he did that imo. You start verbalising and the universe starts hearing...just sayin Sam. Of course the fly in the ointment in all this is if Sam has some little people in his life that look like him. Man, they’d certainly have those little rascals hidden away now and God forbid if anyone’s onto that! They’d be attacked and defamed for sure! I mean, we already know SC have their barrels locked and loaded incase shit hits the fan. Sam’s bullying letter and the evidence of killer-stalker grannies intruding on them is already there for any pissed off, played, Sam obsessed women to turn their anger onto Shippers and away from them. It’s there in place all ready to go. Sam and Cait can sit back and watch the onslaught of online bullying in their name from afar. It’s not going to be pretty but we know it’s coming. And let’s face it, they needed an out and we always knew it would be us. They can’t exactly turn around and run TPTB under a bus....they needed an exit strategy ready to go. The one thing they DON’T want is for the Sam obsessed to cotton on to the game before the pigs at the trough have had their fill...that everyone is satisfied and things have been ‘worth their while’. It’s not rocket science. Pandemic or not the sexy Highland warrior needs protecting as does the ‘exit strategy’.... Interestingly articles like this are becoming increasingly harder to find...I can see why....makes the whole game pretty obvious doesn’t it? Can’t have the Sam obsessed reading too many of these now they’ve been played for 6 years. What they are counting on is for those played women to be pretty dumb and latch onto the hooks in the exit strategy provided. I hope for their sake they’re right....they’ll already have enough pain from the years of lost moments and lies to haunt them...that’s if the universe continues to be on their side...and unfortunately the truth always has a way of coming out no matter how hard anyone tries to stop it...I mean...shared trailers and all...right Matt? Right Sam?? I say just come out already and get it over with before this happens!

‘Fan’ B

This post is the brutal truth.  But there is one more vector in this rocket ride from the galaxy to the garbage dump....the quality of the Series itself.  Like the “6-year lie....the show’s “real creative director” is driving the Series from “excellence” to the garbage dump as well.  Start watching the Series from Season 1 and continue through Season 5....it plunges downward from excellence to a Season 4 flop...then gives us a little blip upward in Season 5.  This downward trajectory matches identically with the lie about their private lives.  As the lie became more ridiculous with time....so did the Series.  How do the people in charge of this circus keep their jobs????  Who knows....maybe the virus will be the real killer of this misery.  But I especially like this part of the post......” Of course the fly in the ointment in all this is if Sam has some little people in his life that look like him.”

FAN C

Well said, Fan A and Fan B  Since its inception, this ‘fake narrative’ has become more and more unbelievable and ridiculous.   I thought adding the ‘fauxgagement’ hit the all time low, but then add the ‘fauxmarriage’ to someone who could not swing his ‘bat’ in the direction of a woman if he wanted to.  He as well as Caitriona look like they swallowed a glass of sour milk when they are ‘forced’ to stand within 3 feet of each other.   Then add in the list of ‘hot sexy girlfriend’s’ that supposedly shared Sam’s bed and you have a runaway locomotive that’s going to soon hit a brick wall.  Sam’s calling Caitriona his ‘we are together AND we work together’ significant other to his ‘sister’ has caused this narrative to hit rock bottom.   I really don’t think it can go any lower....but then I never thought Sam would call Caitriona, the mother of his children, his ‘sister’.  I fully believe that all would have gone on as it’s always done....just beat the dead horse again and the ‘newbie’s’ will never know that it’s all a ‘shit show, UNTIL COVID19 hit the world with the Pandemic. Not only did it implode Hawaiigate, it’s now gotten into the Hollywood Hills with ‘social distancing’ guidelines. And we all know that Sex and Violence are the Hollywood $$$$$$$ makers.  Put that into Outlander language, Sam Heughan and Caitriona Balfe, who play Jamie and Claire Fraser will NOT BE ALLOWED TO TOUCH, KISS, OR HAVE HOT SMOLDERING SEX WITHIN SEASON 6.   OMG, and I thought Season 4 was bad...this will be the downfall of the series. Subscriptions with STARZ will cancel like flies on shit.  If by chance they do produce a Season 6, the ratings would plummet.  Who wants to watch Jamie and Claire have ‘fucking eye sex’, 6 feet from each other. Remember, no touching and you must wear a mask.   UNLESS, THE TIME HAS FINALLY COME TO TEAR DOWN THAT WALL OF LIES, SAVE THE SERIES, SAM AND CAITRIONA ARE MARRIED!   Because as a married couple, they can touch, kiss and have mind blowing sex within a scene....because “THEY ARE MARRIED”!    What’s it going to be Parnell? Who IMO, has his balls wedged between a vice with the prospect of losing Sony/STARZ/LG’s top ‘cash cow’...are you willing to sacrifice the Outlander, Season 6 and possibly more?   Or are you a smart businessman (cough, cough) and you and Hirsch will give your ‘ok’ to let the ‘Cait’ out of the bag and announce that Sam and Caitriona are married and have been since late 2015.  The balls in your court Parnell....and for once, use your brains instead of your mini balls to make the right decision.   I think your job and your career depend on it!

SEE ! Photographic proof!That’s Parnell standing right next to the Queen!

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2016/apr/07/conspiracy-theory-paranoia-aliens-illuminati-beyonce-vaccines-cliven-bundy-jfk

[xswestallen]

Why did Captain Singh refer to Nora as Joe West’s granddaughter instead of Barry Allen’s daughter? Wouldn’t it have been less of a mouthful lol?

It was a little strange, but I guess Singh is just closer to Joe than he is to Barry. If you think about it, Joe has worked at CCPD longer than Barry, and Barry disappears in a few years. Since that Singh in the future hasn’t seen Barry in years, but probably still sees Joe West on a regular basis, the first association to come to his mind when he saw Nora was Joe.

I am confused about Grace. Is she controlling her uncle and making him kill the metas with the dark matter shard in her head? 

I’m confused too. We didn’t really get a clear answer. From what I gathered, I think they’re alluding to Grace becoming Cicada herself in the future. Maybe after her uncle, who, don’t forget, is sick, can’t be Cicada anymore, Grace takes over? She’s obviously pretty passionate about hating metahumans.

The new episode made me do a 180 on Sherlque. I saw him as pointless before, a new Wells for the sake of a new Wells. But his arc investigating Nora is really interesting. I can’t wait to see him finally confront Nora with all the evidence he’s found.

I feel the same way. 

I can't at some people claiming they retconned future Iris being emotionally abusive to Nora. Where did that come from? Where in the narrative did Nora say Iris was emotionally abusive towards? If I recall, Nora said future Iris didn't like talking about her life before the disappearance. Future Iris wouldn't let her do anything the least bit dangerous. She also didn't like the "I know best attitude". Every parent has that mindset. "Bad Iris" was just like any parent.

It was never said that Iris was emotionally abusive. People who already hated Iris just claimed she was because they wanted to tact on another justification for hating her. Nothing was retconned. 

Iris was a good mom. She did make some decisions that I think were wrong (lying to Nora about her powers and her father being The Flash), but the reasoning behind it was to protect Nora. It was a lie and it was wrong, but there is a big difference between making a poor decision as a parents in the hopes of keeping your child safe (which all parents do at some point) and being emotionally abusive.

Do you think the TBTB know how long it’s been since a WA kiss and are purposefully not giving us one or are they not paying attention to that and it’s coincidence there hasn’t been a WA kiss in months

Honestly, I don’t know. I can’t think of a reason why the writers, directors, and producers would purposefully suppress the show’s main couple’s affections. It’s possible that they’re so focused on the story with Cicada, Nora, Thawne, and the metahuman cure, that they’re just not thinking about romantic scenes. 

I guess it’s also possible that Barry and Iris are looked at now as parents, rather than a couple, even though they’re both. Think about most TV show, the parents aren’t half as affectionate with each other as childless couples on TV shows. It doesn’t really make sense, but there is a difference in the way couple’s are perceived once they have a kid. Their identities become all about being their kid’s parent.

[ditamaitas]

My Delivery Story 💕

Allah, terima kasih telah memberiku banyak rezeki luar biasa yang salah satunya adalah anugerah menjadi seorang ibu 💕

To my daughter :

"I'm not a super woman neither a hero to you, I'm just an ordinary with super power to love you so" ~ Bunda

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Hai nak, Bunda masih inget banget ketika banyak yg pada nanya,

"kok belum lahiran?"

"udah berapa week sih, kok belum ada tanda-tanda?"

Hm.. rasanya kalo denger itu jadi makin rinduuu sama km.

Udah mau 40w tp belum ada signal km mau keluar. Km masih anteng di perut pdhl km makin pelan geraknya soalnya tempatnya udah makin sempit.

Scr medis, biasanya akhir 37w udah banyak yg konpal dan siap lahir. Bunda waktu itu malah masih bingung nyari-nyari rasa yg namanya konpal itu gimana. Kehamilan pertama emg gini kali ya.. 😂

Alhasil, tiap malem bunda jadi scroll app The AsianParent buat cari bunda-bunda lain yg mungkin ada yg seusia bunda kandungannya tp belum lahiran, sering baca artikel ilmiah tentang kehamilan lebih bulan dan baca ini itu buat mastiin kalo kamu baik-baik aja di dalem perut.

Mbah Uti sudah mulai worry, aplg dikasih tetangga rumput fatimah biar bisa kontraksi 🙄 untung udah ngerti bahayanya jd ngga sampe minum. Huhu.. Bidan juga afirmasi positifnya makin kenceng dan ayah udah makin lama kalo ngajakin bunda sujud pas sholat malem.

Iya, kami semua khawatir nunggu kamu yg blm keluar pdhl udah lewatin bbrp prediksi HPL.

H-1 HPL versi USG TM1 (yg katanya paling akurat) bunda masih ke sekolah buat bagiin rapor, motoran sendiri. Hihi. Soalnya bunda ngerasa masih kuat sih.. lagian itu jg kewajiban bunda buat murid-muridnya. Alhamdulillah ada onty Hana yg selalu bantu.

Besoknya pas tepat HPL, bunda cek lg ke bidan, belum ada tanda apapun. Hihi.

Bunda biasa aja sih sebenernya, krn bunda percaya Allah sll kasih waktu dan cara terbaik. Bunda pun sering bilang ke km "Adek masih kerasan di dalem kah? Kalo sudah pengen keluar, bilang ya.. biar nanti smsm siap. Tp kalo bisa segera yaa, krn sudah banyak yg nungguin km. Bunda-ayah pun sudah rinduuu.."

Beberapa hari kemudian, malem-malem tbtb bunda ngerasain ada lendir darah yg ngalir, bunda kira km mau keluar, taunya pas dicek bidan, belum ada bukaan sama sekali.

Ya Allah, bunda sedih dan binguuung..

Kenapa? Km nggapapa kah di dalem?

Tp tiap bunda elus perut jg masih gerak. Pinter. Diajak ngomong jg nendang.

Akhirnya, krn udah 40w lebih banyak. Bunda dijelasin sm bidan kalo bakal berisiko lahirannya. Jadi bidan puskesmas ngga kasih izin lahiran di puskesmas, perlu dirujuk ke RS. Pdhl bunda pengeeen banget lahiran di puskes krn emg Puskes Mulyorejo kualitasnya udah bagus gitu. Avail 24 jam buat persalinan.

Bidan jelasin banyak hal, khawatir nanti ketuban susut krn rembes tp ngga kerasa jd bahaya buat nafas km, khawatir kondisi plasenta udah mengapur jd km nanti kelaperan, khawatir ketuban udah ijo trs kehirup km (krn di puskes blm ada NICU utk rawat newborn yg ada mslh khusus) jd sebaiknya ke RS biar dpt pertolongan cepet kalo ada apa-apa. Bidan jg bilang kalo hrs siap induksi bahkan SC kalo misal ngga ada tanda-tanda bbrp hari lagi.

Hm.. saat itu hati bunda campur aduk.

Tp yasudahlahyaa, itu kan masih prediksi. Bunda yakin km masih sehat.

Akhirnya bunda diminta sgr USG buat mastiin kondisi km.

Ternyata belum sempet ngeliat km via layar, krn ayah bunda agak sibuk waktu itu.

Di waktu itu jg, banyak yg kasih saran. Mulai dr yg medis sampe yg ngga ada hubungannya sm medis. Bukan tipe bunda utk nurutin ginian, tp ya gimana lagi. Untuk melegakan hati semua orang, dilakuin ajaaa.. Urusan hasil, pasrah sm Allah. Semuanya udah pengen banget km segera keluar soalnya.

Akhirnya, bunda sering iseng sujud kalo lagi nganggur. Jalan muterin rumah ngga berhenti. Mondar-mandir sambil jongkok. Bunda jg minum minyak goreng dicampur telor mentah gitu. Hm.. mashaallaaah. Kalo inget lucu banget waktu itu. Cuma rumput fatimah yg bunda beneran ngga akan pernah mau coba. Huhu.. bahaya.

Di tanggal 29 Juni pagi, bunda ngerasa ada yg beda. Bunda udah agak paham gimana rasanya konpal. Hari itu sering banget konpal. Jedanya lumayan konsisten. Tp belum kerasa sakit. Bunda ngitungin jeda konpal pake Contraction Timer (Labor) app dr pagi buat mastiin, emg udah waktunya lahiran kah?

Kalo lihat jedanya, emg nunjukin tanda-tanda akan persalinan tp kok belum ada rasa sakit ya?

Makin sore, makin kerasa ada yg nyeri. Hilang. Timbul. Seperti nyeri haid, tp lebih intens.

Bunda masih bisa sholat dhuhur, ashar, maghrib sampe isya. Walupun akhirnya hanya dengan duduk. Nyeri sekali, tp blm ada darah atau apapun yg nunjukin km akan keluar.

Hm.. waktu itu malam Minggu. Makin malam bunda udah ngga bisa jalan lama, berdiri pun rasanya seperti ditekan perut bawahnya. Bahkan buat naik ke kamar sudah ngga kuat. Akhirnya malam itu plannya bobo di kamar Mbah Uti aja krn ngga perlu naik tangga. Ayah yg temenin, ayah yg bagian pijit punggung bawah bunda. Krn cuma itu yg bisa bikin sakitnya kontraksi agak legaan even tetep sakit. Bunda berkali-kali ditanyain Ayah, "sakitnya gimana?" "adek kuat kan? Sabar yaa.."

Mbah Uti sudah mulai bingung keluar masuk kamar, bunda kadang ngerintih kadang diem. Masih bisa makan. Tp pas kontraksinya menjadi, cuma bisa dibimbing ayah istighfar, baca sholawat. 'The most romantic' phase lah menurut bunda waktu itu. Krn pas itu ayah mellow banget. Hihihi.

Beberapa kali bunda ingin ke kamar mandi, dan cek belum tanda-tanda apapun. Ingin pipis, ingin pup rasanya tp ngga ada yg keluar. Akhirnya rebahan di kamar lagi

Beneran! Semalaman itu ngga bisa tidur krn luar biasa nikmat rasanya.

Akhirnya, bunda bilang ke ayah sm Mbah Uti, kalo sakitnya ngga kunjung hilang sampe shubuh, dibawa ke RS atau Puskes aja deh. Biar ada yg pantau, udah bukaan apa belum.

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Pas menjelang adzan shubuh, ayah dan bunda berangkat ke puskesmas. Bunda cm bisa rebahan, ngga ngomong apapun krn sudah nikmat sekali rasanya di bawah. Inshaallah km segera keluar dlm waktu dekat, itu feeling bunda.

FYI, krn saking bingungnya waktu itu. Kita ngga ke RS, pdhl sudah punya rujukan. Malah ke puskesmas yg akhirnya jd agak salah jalur proses lahirannya.

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Sampai di puskesmas, lgsg dapat bed di ruang bersalin. Cuma ada bunda seorang aja. Pdhl ada sekitar 3-4 bed dlm satu ruang. Sepi banget, cuma ada dua bidan di dalem ruangan itu.

Setelah bunda diposisikan nyaman, buku pink dan berkas lahiran lainnya diminta sm bidan sambil ditanya-tanya.

"Sudah kontraksi sejak kapan?"

"Ada lendir darah?"

"Ada indikasi medis apa buk selama kontrol?"

dll.

Hm.. akhirnya setelah diperiksa scr administrasi, tibalah saat dicek bukaan. Hihi.. bunda mringis ajadeh kalo inget.

Alhamdulillah, ternyata sudah bukaan 2 di jam 5.30 kurang sedikit.

Km jg dicek djj-nya. Alhamdulillah masih normal.

Alhamdulillah, km hebat sayang di dalem sana.

Ngga lama setelah VT, rasanya sudah ngga karu-karuan. Bunda nangis, krn liat jam berlalu kayak lama banget. Rasanya nikmat. Ngga boleh ngeden, tp km gerak cari jalan keluar yg mau nggamau bikin bunda refleks ngeden.

Ya Allah, rasanya gimana coba. Hihi.. tapi yasudahlah, mau gimana lagi. Ini refleks tubuh, semoga nggapapa. Bukaan masih 2 lagi.. hm..

Ayah ngga berhenti bimbing istighfar, sholawat dan doa lainnya. Bunda cm bisa ngikutin ayah sambil mringis, nangis, nahan apapun itu rasanya di bawah.

Hampir sejam kemudian, para bidan mungkin baru sadar kalo misal aku hamilnya Post Date ( lebih bulan).

Keliatan, wajah mereka kayak bingung tp hanya tatapan dalam diam.

Trs salah satu bidan nanya ke bunda,

"Ibu Post Date ya, usia kehamilannya sdh lebih dari 40W ya?"

Pdhl di rekam medis jelas, bahkan lebih dari itu hehe. Mereka mungkin hanya mastiin.

Bunda dengan polos jawab,

"Iya mba, sebenernya krn post date, kemarin sdh dikasih rujukan ke RS sm bidan yg kontrol.."

Mereka nanya lagi,

"Mana suratnya? Dirujuk kemana?"

Ayah segera ambil surat di tas, trs bidan-bidan bilang.

"Loh.. kalo sdh ada rujukan gini ibu ngapain ke puskesmas? Harusnya lgsg ke IGD RS Unair aja.."

Hm.. bunda bingung mau jawab gimana, soalnya ngga pernah ada pengalaman dan pengetahuan terkait RS. Jadi bunda kira, kalo hari Minggu, IGDnya tutuuup. Kan jadwal Poli kalo Minggu tutup. Kirain sama.

Hahahaha. Sableng..

Akhirnya, dua bidan ini seperti sedang discuss. Intinya, mereka bingung.

Bunda kn harusnya lgsg ke RS, tp malah ke puskesmas. Akhirnya, data bunda hari ini dan penanganan yg sudah diberikan masuk dong dalam rekam medis puskesmas. Krn pake BPJS, jadi semua biaya penanganan kan jd income puskesmas hari ini. Padahaaalll.. harusnya engga. Kudunya nih, puskesmas nolak kedatangan bunda krn sdh dirujuk ke RS. Hihihi.

Hasil diskusi mereka simplenya gini. Bunda dilayani sampai melahirkan, tp krn kehamilan Post Date, bisa dijadikan pengecualian. Nanti, kalo jm 12 belum terjadi persalinan, bunda akan lgsg di bawa ke RS. Gituuu.. alasannya, krn Puskes belum memadai kalo ada apa-apa sm km yg baru lahir nanti

Angin segarlah, pas itu jam 7.00

Bunda cuma mikir, kalo lahiran perkiraan jam 12, berarti bentar lagi. Hihi.

Apalagi kayaknya bidan pada santai, inshaallah bisa lahiran normal disini.

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Jam 8, di VT lagi.

Alhamdulillah ada kemajuan, sudah bukaan 4. Angin segar lagi, tiap dua jam kalo bukaan nambah 2-3, berarti beneran dong jam 12 mungkin udah bisa lahiran.

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Tbtb pintu ruangan kebuka, ada Mbah Uti datang nengokin kita. Disuruh masuk sama bidan, tp cuma sebentar. Krn ruangan hrs steril. Mbah Uti nganterin sarapan, minum sm bekal buat ayah bunda. Tp ngga ngerti kenapa, Mbah Uti waktu itu kayak buang muka pas lihat bunda.

Nunduk, sedih. Kayak menahan tangis. Tp bunda ngga paham kenapa. Habis naruh dan ngobrol bentar, lgsg pamit pulang.

(Pas km udah lahir, Mbah Uti baru cerita kenapa waktu itu nggamau lihat bunda. Hihi.. Mbah Uti ngga tega lihat bunda lahiran, apalagi waktu itu lagi pake infus dan dioksigen, kaya orang sakit parah di tipi-tipi gitu katanya. Soalnya pas itu bunda kesulitan atur nafas, krn udah balapan sm rasa sakit di bawah. Akhirnya, djj km melemah dan bunda diminta pake oksigen biar km tetap terjaga asupan oksigennya)

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Jam 10, dicek lagi. Momen itu awal bunda down pas proses lahiran. Karena sampe jam 12 pun setelah diVT, bukaan mentok di 4. Ngga nambah-nambah.

Hm.. bunda rasanya makin nikmat sakitnya tp ngga berdaya. Tp bunda masih berusaha husnudzon, mungkin emg takdirnya harus ke RS Unair. Disana lebih lengkap, mungkin bia lebih cepet lahirannya kalo kesana.

Akhirnya bidan telepon ke RS Unair, cerita panjang lebar ttg kondisi bunda dan ternyata apaaa..

"Tunggu 2 jam lagi ya, nanti kalo bukaan belum nambah lgsg dioper kesini.."

Dokter di seberang sana jawab gitu, dan itu yg bikin bunda makin down.

Apaaa?

Bunda disuruh nunggu 2 jam lagi?

Ini sudah engap, ngga kuat ya Allah, bunda ngga boleh ngeden tp km di dalem mungkin lagi dorong-dorong.

Berkali-kali bidan bilang,

"Ibu jangan ngeden yaa.. Belum waktunya. Nanti kalo ngeden skrg, bayinya kepalanya bisa peyang!"

Yaampun, berkali-kali dibilangin gitu bunda makin menjadi. Dr awal manut posisi rebahan hadap kanan, makin lama makin ngga teratur. Istighfar putus-putus, sholawat makin kenceng, sampe akhirnya bunda capek lgsg duduk selonjoran biar ngerasa enakan.

Eh, bidannya bilang, "Ibu kalo duduk gitu nanti bayinya kesulitan cari jalan, kepalanya kegencet.."

Ya Allah.. salah lagi.

Ini sudah ngga karuan rasanya. Krn mungkin bunda kelelahan kontraksi, ngga kuat nahan lagi akhirnya pengaruh ke psikologis bunda. Bunda marah ke ayah, bilang ini itu. Bilang begini, begitu. Pdhl ayah sabar banget nungguin dan nenangin bunda waktu itu.

Krn beneran nggakuat, bunda lgsg bilang ke bidan.

"Mba, SC di Unair kalo ngga BPJS kena berapa sih?"

Bunda kalut. Sakit. Akhirnya menyerah.

Ayah shock bunda nanya gitu ke bidan. Bidan cuma jawab mungkin 20-22 juta.

Akhirnya, bunda ngerengek ke Ayah. Beneran ngrengek, minta SC aja. Suruh telpon Mbah Uti minta uang buat SC, bilang bunda sudah ngga kuat nahan kontraksi.

Ayah cuma suruh istighfar.

Berkali-kali ayah ngga peduliin omongan bunda, krn mungkin ayah sdh paham bahwa saat itu bunda ngelantur omongannya.

Bunda makin menjadi ngerengeknya, minta SC aja. Pdhl SC kan ngga segampang itu prosedurnya, apalagi bunda lg proses delivery.

Bidan jg berkali-kali bilang, "Ibu, tenang yaa bu. Nanti kalo ibu nangis terus energinya habis. Nanti pas harus ngeden malah ngga kuat. Semua lahiran itu ya memang sakit.."

Aduuuh.. dengerin bidan bicara seperti itu makin kalut rasanya hati bunda.

Ayah masih sabar, tp mungkin lama-lama jg ngga tega lihat bunda. Lalu telpon temen-temen kerja yg istrinya pernah SC. Akhirnya ayah 'sedikit' mengiyakan permintaan bunda. Ngga ngerti mengiyakan beneran atau gimana, tp stlh itu bunda jd lebih tenang meskipun sakitnya malah lebih dr yg sebelumnya. Planning bunda, nanti kalo sampe RS Unair bunda lgsg minta SC aja. Hahaha..

Mana ada SC dadakan sih, pdhl jalan lahir lancar cuma perkara waktu aja. Duh! Sableng again!

Jam 14, bunda VT lagi. Beneran. Bukaan stuck di 4.

Akhirnya stlh prepare bbrp waktu. Calling pihak RS Unair dll. Ambulan disiapin buat transfer bunda ke RS Unair. Wuuu.. my first time naik ambulance yg wiuu.. wiuuu.. sirinenya dan bebas nerobos lampu merah. Hohoho..

Kilat.

Lgsg masuk IGD.

Ketemu bidan, syantik banget. Bidan itu yg nanganin bunda dan lgsg kaget pas bunda minta SC. Bidannya cuma senyum. Ayah jelasin panjang lebar, bilang kalo bunda mungkin scr psikologis udah kelelahan jd bilang aneh-aneh. Hahaha.

Stlh baca-baca rekam medisnya, bidan itu bilang,

"Ibu kenapa minta SC? Ibu badannya mampu loh utk lahiran normal. Yuk.. sabar ya.. sebentar lagi ketemu si adek.. diperiksa dulu ya.."

Deg!

Bidan itu seperti nyadarin bunda lagi, utk sekejap bunda seperti lupa perjuangan kita tumbuh bersama selama hampir 10 bulan lebih. Kenapa jadi lemah sih?

Alhamdulillah, di VT saat di IGD sudah bukaan 6. Pdhl itu belum jam 15.

Seneng? Iya dong.. krn bukaan 6 berarti sebentar lagi ketemu km.

Tapi jujur, bunda masih nggakuat nahan sakitnya. Ya Allah.. sudah lemes banget bunda rasanya. Ngerasain kontraksi sejak kemarin sore, sampe hari ini hampir sore lagi.

Well, akhirnya stlh calling sana-sini. Bunda perlu di USG di Lt. 7 buat mastiin kondisi air ketuban dan plasenta krn kehamilan Post Date. Khawatir membahayakan km kalo kelamaan.

Di Lt.7, ternyata bunda lgsg masuk ke ruang bersalin. Loh? Kok? Kan belum lahiran. Jujur bunda bingung saat itu, tp katanya hanya USG.

Dokter bilang, katanya semuanya masih baik kondisinya. Plasenta belum mengapur. Air ketuban jg masih banyak, tp sudah agak hijau. Djj km jg baik, krn selama di IGD bunda dipasang oksigen terus.

Setelah USG, bunda di VT lagi.

Entah yg ke berapa. Sampe bunda rasanya ingin nolak dengan beralasan sakit.

Saat itu yg periksa bunda sepertinya bidan senior, wajahnya keras dan orang itu yg bikin bunda akhirnya malu utk ngrengek lagi.

"Bu, ini sy diVT lagi? Td di bawah udah.."

Bidannya jawab, "Lah kalo ngga diVT mana tau udah nambah/belum bukaannya!"

Iya, ketus banget. Pas liat bidan itu pake sarung tangan, bunda bilang.

"Bu.. sakit.."

Maksud bunda biar orangnya pelan-pelan pas VT. Tp malah dijawab apa?

"Kalo nggamau sakit, ya jangan lahiran! Dimana-mana yg namanya lahiran ya sakit."

Deg!

Yaiyasih, emg gitu konsepnya. Akhirnya, stlh digituin sm bidan yg tadi, bunda jd lebih diem. Better lah..

Ngga lama setelah di VT, ada bbrp orang dokter dan perawat yg datang ke bed bunda. Dikira mau ngapain yah, ternyataaa..

Bunda diminta siap-siap krn udah waktunya delivery.

Lah? Loh?

Emg udah lengkap bukaannya? Kan tadi masih 6?

Ternyata hasil VT yg terakhir, bunda sdh bukaan 8 dan ngga ngerti apa bahasanya, intinya bukaan 8 yg udah lebar gitu.

Hm.. bismilllah.

Bunda jd deg-degan.

Bidan yg jutek td berubah agak halusan sih, banyak ngomong hal positif pas bunda menjelang delivery. Well, I think she's an expert. Keliatan cara bicaranya, sikapnya pas tanganin bunda. Dikasih pesen kalo hrs kuat krn bentar lg akan ketemu km.

Krn pas itu masih bukaan 8, jd bunda hrs dimiringin utk bantu km cari jalan biar bukaan sampe 10 sempurna. Iya, di bukaan ke 8 biar jd 10 infus kita kayaknya diisiin oksitosin deh buat induksi. Akhirnya di posisi miring itu, bunda dibimbing dokter utk mengejan agar bisa bantu km keluar. Deg.. mungkin ada 2-3 kali bunda mengejan dg kuat dan syukurnya km lgsg kebantu. Bukaan jd 10 sempurna. Alhamdulillah.

Bidan yg td posisinya di samping, nyemangatin bunda dg bilang kalo bunda pinter ngedennya. Tp kalo bisa, nanti pas ngeluarin km harus tanpa suara biar ngga habis energinya.

"Ibuk, kita sebentar lg proses mengeluarkan bayinya ya.. ibu hrs ikut aba-aba sy. Jangan ngeden kalo blm sy suruh.."

Dokter yg mantau di bawah bilang gitu.

Well, bunda sdh ngga karuan rasanya. Antara sakit, lelah, bahagia dan berbagai macam rasanya menghampiri, tp inshaallah akan kuat sampai nanti.

Ayah dimana?

Oiya, ayah masih stay di samping bunda. Bisikin bunda utk terus dzikir dan sholawat. He's speechless ngeliat proses lahiran ini. Bunda pun sempat ngeliat ayah nangis dan beberapa kali ngalihin pandangan pas bunda mengejan.

Nggatau drmna asal kekuatan itu, krn bunda pun sudah amat lelah sebenarnya. Tp Allah selalu bantu, selalu tolong.

Sudah banyak belajar teknik pernafasan utk melahirkan, tp praktiknya tetep jembret. Hihi.. mashaallah nikmatnya luar biasa saat itu.

Akhirnya, dg aba-aba dokter. Bunda mengejan dua kali. Pertama, udah keliatan darah mulai mengucur deras di bawah. Katanya kepala km sudah keliatan. Kurang sedikit lagi. Kedua, dg sangat kuat bunda tahan nafas dan mengejan utk bantu km keluar. Hingga akhirnya..

Tangisan itu terdengar.

Di pukul 15.03.

Sakit, lelah, dan rasa khawatir bunda sirna saat itu juga, saat liat km di hadapan bunda. Iya, memang pandangan bunda agak berkunang-kunang waktu itu.

But, I see you for the first time..

Bunda coba bangun utk ngeliat km lebih jelas, krn sudah rindu. Ingin pastikan wajah km. Ingin pastikan bahwa km lahir di dunia dg sempurna. Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akbar.

Km cantik. Kulit km putih bersih tanpa ada vernix, cenderung kemerahan. Iya, km gemol banget pipinya. Wajah niru siapa? Bunda dooong.. hihihi.. (meskipun pas udah gede gini lebih banyak yg bilang km mirip ayah). Km nangis kenceng banget. Lucu sayang..

Ayah nangis pas lihat km pertama kali. Bunda pun lgsg minta maaf krn semaleman sudah rewel ke ayah. Bilang ini itu bahkan sampe minta SC dg ngawur.

"Hm.. bayi kita sudah lahir. Maaf ya.. tadi bilang aneh-aneh.."

Bunda lgsg minta maaf ke ayah sesaat stlh km lahir.

Ayah kemudian dipanggil sm perawat, entah ngurusin apa. Bunda lgsg diurut utk bantu keluarin sisa darah dan plasenta yg masih di dalem. Setelah selesai, bunda dijahit perineumnya. Hihi.. beneran loh, rasa sakit apapun yg sempat bunda rasain sebelumnya mendadak sirna. Berganti dg kelegaan krn km sudah hadir di dunia. Dijahit emang sakit, tp beneran udah ngga ngerasa sakit apapun krn km ada itu rasanya luar biasa.

Ngga lama, bunda denger km nangis. Entah dimana, mungkin hanya berjarak beberapa tirai. Km masih dibersihkan. Trs sayup-sayup bunda denger suara Ayah lagi adzanin km. Mashaallah.. haru sekali suasananya. Kata ayah, km pas ditaruh di bed bayi masih nangis, tp waktu denger suara ayah adzan lgsg diem anteng. Seperti mendengarkan. Hihi.. mungkin km lagi inget-inget yaa, 'kok suaranya sama dg orang yg biasanya ngajakin ngomong aku pas malem-malem?'

Iya, itu suara ayah. Hihi..

Selepas bunda dijahit. Bunda disuapin sm bude, krn sepagi hanya sarapan seuprit. Kata dokter hrs rebahan dulu, khawatir nanti tekanan darahnya masih dibawah normal bisa pingsan. Ngga lama, km dianter ke bunda sm perawat utk IMD. Ya Allah.. saat itu adalah pertama kalinya bunda pegang dan peluk km. Bahagia yg ngga terlukiskan. Mashaallah, Tabarakallah, km anteng banget sayang. Bunda peluk, bunda cium ngga berhenti.

10 bulan 1 hari yg bunda jalani dg km masih di perut, rasanya bener-bener totally paid ketika km lahir. Km punya refleks IMD yg pintar dan ngga banyak rewel di usia yg masih sehari. Berjam-jam nikmat kontraksi rasanya langsung terlupakan ngeliat km menggeliat lucu terus tidur anteng di pelukan bunda. Mashaallah.. bunda masih inget banget sayang. Badan km putih, bersih, muka dan bau km masih rasa bayiii hihihi.

Mashaallah, tabarakallallah..

Tumbuhlah sholihah, cerdas dan selalu menjadi pribadi pemaaf 💕💕💕

Surabaya, 12 Agustus 2020

~ Your Alpha Mother ~