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[lilacthebooklover]

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[tohruies]

omg i made it to coco’s inbox ahh i never manage to !!

okay so i know absolutely nothing about karasu which feels like a crime because i love tabico, but what better way than to get to know him through someone who loves him - so if you had to describe him, how would you? and linked to that, what about him made you fall for him??

and also i love you so much, always <3333 i hope june is an amazing month for you !!

ERIS, I LOVE YOU!!!!!! i am so happy to have you here, how are you!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS ASK. i am already tearing up thinking about my response 🥹💘 wah. Wah.... top 5 asks that could kill a coco......... ;;;;

i hope it is not repetitive of me to say this, but i like to think of karasu as a pomegranate 🥺 from the outside, he's hard to read... thick skinned, but not necessarily in a mean way ;; just... sealed? you can't tell what he's feeling by looking. he's tough on the surface, maybe a little rough too, like he's protecting something inside. but if you take the time to open him up... very gently and very tenderly, what's inside is so red and vibrant and beautiful 🥺 all the pieces of his heart like seeds tucked close together where they're safe and no one with malicious intent can reach him 🥺

and he's not easy!!!! you can't just bite into him; you have to be patient... he's the kind of person you have to work for, i think. not because he wants to make it hard, but because he's been dropped a few times and knows that not everyone is gentle 🥺 you get your hands stained with him, but if you're willing, he gives you something so incredibly honest and precious. and once you see the inside of a pomegranate, you never forget it, you know! ah. this is how karasu feels to me... (⌯˃̶᷄ ﹏ ˂̶᷄⌯)ﾟ

WARNING: THERE IS A VERY LONG LIST UNDER THE CUT 🥺🥺🥺

i love that he doesn't know how beautiful he really is

i love the way he looks at "ugly" things... how he doesn't turn away from them. and how he doesn't pretend they are "beautiful" either. he just sees them for what they are -- somehow that makes them softer

i love that he gets angry at unfair things. i think it means that he cares more than people (and he, himself) realise

i love that he never tries to impress anyone and how he just does what needs to be done. even when it's hard. even when no one acknowledges his efforts

i love that he is not afraid of scary things... rough things... the harshness of this world. be he is afraid of soft things, like being loved too gently or being seen too clearly

i love that he does things without asking for thanks, like fixing things that are broken, or listening when no one else does. i love how he remembers things that seem small

i love that he is not always kind, at least, in the way the world likes. but he is kind 🥹 in the way thorn bushes are kind because they protect their roses... something like this

i love how he isn't gentle in the way people expect, but doesn't drop what matters to him

i love how he walks like someone who doesn't expect to be followed

i love that he doesn't try to be understood, even if it makes him very lonely sometimes

i love the way he looks at things when he thinks no one's watching. the way his eyes pause on small, ordinary miracles, like a butterfly emerging from its chrysalis or steam curling from a bowl of soup

i love that he's not always easy, because most things worth loving aren't

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

if you’re still doing mutual bingo may i please get BINGOED :3 (only if you want/are still doing it hehehe) also here are 2 lil memes that reminded me of you as a little treat………. P.S. GOOD LUCK ON YOUR MYSTERY FIC I’M SO EXCITED TO FIND OUT WHO IT IS/READ IT!!!! MWAH MWAH MWAHHHH 🙂‍↕️🩷 - @dollsuguru

KAIROOOOO MY BESTIE <333333 OFC YOU CAN GET BINGOED!!!!!!! AND THANK YOU FOR THE MEMES SOBSS I AM COLLECTING THEM ….. jinshi n kenny our silly little guys…… they’re so Me

[fima11]

YOUR ART IS SO CUTE AUGH…….. love the way u draw scarabia it makes my heart go 💗💗💗💗💗💗

I am curious if you have any Scarabia HCs… mayhaps Jamikali HCs?

Thank you!!! <333333

tbh I don't have many headcanons for Scarabia, but imo that's the chillest dorm, even with all the parties. Like, have you seen their dormitory? I wouldn't act up if I lived in a comfy place like that too.

But jamikali. Uhhhh

this is my own sort of turkish palace tv drama. More under the cut. It's gonna be long.

I like to imagine their relationship developing after a nice piece of timeskip (despite most certainly having feelings for each other in college), when they finally learn how it is to live apart from each other, growing out of their destructive behaviors at least for a bit.

My main headcanon and maybe the most delusional one that Kalim would mature up with time, getting more independent when Jamil leaves, though without losing his canonic positivity - in fact just growing up.

While Jamil learns how is it to be simplier and less demanding towards other and himself, traveling alone, not setting down anywhrre for too long. Though the main thing is that they cannot in fact forget each other, and break the attachment despite getting used to each other's absence, and their feelings finally getting some particular shape - and it's impossible to fully let go, no matter how hard they (mostly Jamil) try ;)

I rarely think of a particular reasons that could bring Jamil back to Asim household, though I have one little au concerning this matter which includes long distance between them with no communication, and even some kids, so I may share it one day. so I just keep it on the level of flat concept - Jamil returns after traveling, to either serve again or for Viper family matters.

I love to imagine Jamil's confusion and shyness at the sight of even more confident Kalim after a period of being apart from each other, and Kalim being happy to finally make Jamil look at him differently, which he consciously or subconsciously has been keeping as a goal all the time.

For some reasons I feel like Kalim would take lead in their relationship because he seems bolder to me when it comes to making decisions - Kalim just knows what he wants :/

So it's a hard for Jamil to process all the non-casual compliments, gifts and obvious advances (but not rejecting them, still afraid of his own feelings), just like in this post. Under these circumstances I believe Kalim is the one who attached the most, just because I love crazy devotion and loyalty :P (and Jamil is too used to lie to himself to admit his attachment aloud.)

It's a strange concept, but mostly it's just a huge headcanon I always keep in my head when I draw them - an emotional bond that just won't break, no matter if there's distance, time or silence between them.

It's hard for me to imagine them trying each other out during college years - too many predicaments and prejudices, they are too used to each other, and for their relationahip to work out they both need time to emotionaly mature up and... just have a rest from each other.

Anyway loving them endlessly.

it would be easier to just list the goddamn headcanons but I always talk too much I am so sorry

[martinluvrr]

NUMBER ONE | KATE MARTIN ( II )

⋅˚₊‧ kate martin x actress!reader

⋅˚₊‧ summary: the actress, the rookie and the media circus.

⋅˚₊‧ part one || part three || nav

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y/ny/l/n vegas i love you. had so much fun last night, thank you @lvaces <3

kehlani made for vegas

usera fit ate

userb she's so wag material

userc we need kate and y/n reunion pics

houseofdragonhbo from dragonstone to las vegas ♡

lvaces 🩶🩶🩶

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scar 🌠 @scarrrrracesssss Y/NNNNS AT THE GAMEEEEEEEEE OMFG #y/ny/l/n #lvaces

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lvaces y/n is in the house 🚨 we love the facial expressions 😭 @y/ny/l/n

userd she's so courtside coded idk how to explain it

usere kate and y/n reuniting????

y/ny/l/n girl u did me sooo dirty i can't 😔

↪ userf DEADDDDDDDDDD

↪ userg WE NEED YOU AND KATE PICS PLEASE

userh mogged everybody there

useri adriana lima got nothinggg on her

-katemartin reposted a post by lvaces-

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brea @breaces y/n reportedly cheered the most when kate scored🤔🤔🤔iship them so hard omg

↺ mia @miascardoni eating this info uppp

↺ kiki @kianaklarck this is just y/n being excited yall 😭😭

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deuxmoi DEUXMOI EXCLUSIVE… y/n y/l/n and kate martin had shared a hug with a brief conversation in the locker room, reportedly flirting with each other 😶😶😶

userl you never let anybody have anything

userm this is so sad omg

usern AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

usero ship them so hard brooooo

userp i didn't even know y/n was gay...

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OLD BUT GOLD?

Y/N Y/L/N IS REKINDLING WITH HER OLD "FRIEND" LAS VEGAS ROOKIE , KATE MARTIN.

In August of 2022, while on the press tour of HBO’s House of the Dragon, picture started circling around of Kate Martin and Y/n Y/l/n. While the photo looked like a normal photo between two high school friends, insiders told us “They weren’t friends” Hinting of something more.

While the actress didn’t label her sexuality, many assumed she was gay or bisexual when she was spotted with nepo baby, Lily Rose Depp.

Kate Martin, is a 24 year old, fan favorite rookie of the reigning WNBA champions, Las Vegas Aces. The player is recognized for her years in Iowas Women’s Basketball, who came in second in the NCAA Tournament. She was the 18th pick in 2024 WNBA Drafts.

When Y/n was asked regarding the photos, she denied claims of anything hinting in relationship and confirmed they were just friends. Martin, when asked , didn’t answer.

According to gossip site Deuxmoi, the pair was spotted sharing a hug while also having a flirtation conversation in the locker room of Michelob ULTRA arena. Y/n and some of her co stars, were invited for the game. After the win, their interaction happened.

After a post of Y/l/n was shared on the official instagram account of the Las Vegas Aces, Martin reposted on her story, tagging the actress who then reposted it on her story. It looks like the pair is in contact again.

Between the actress and the rookie, it seems like history is repeating itself.

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thank you for reading<333333

[fligniuz]

okay so i had this idea! there is a small chance ive sent this before because my memory is extremely bad, but i hope i haven’t! i’ve just been thinking about this a lot. how do u think lu would handle a gf who’s kind of really shy about sex because she grew up thinking it was something very shameful and wrong?? like she’d obviously want it but then maybe feel sort of bad during or afterwards. and i’d love to read how he reassures her that it’s complete let normal and ok. or whatever you want! please and thank you <333333

you haven’t sent this before anon dw!!!

aaaaah this is so cute :-( i could see him wanting to let you take the reigns at first, since he just wants you to be comfortable, but you kinda panic because you have no idea what you’re doing and you don’t want to mess anything up😭

but yes he would be so sweet and reassuring💚🤗 in this specific scenario i could see him telling you over and over “it’s just us, it’s just you and me” to make sure you feel safe and worry-free sharing such a private, intimate moment with him. luigi seems to me like he really values the intimacy part especially and i think he would want you to know that it’s important for people who love each other to touch and hold each other like this often, that it only serves to bring you closer together. he would assure you that there’s nothing wrong with him getting to see you in this way, that it’s normal and healthy for the both of you. “i’ve read a lot about this, trust me” 🥺

just imagine him whispering close to your ear as he’s fucking you “doesn’t this feel right?” eeeee ^_^

[baekhyunsbestie]

since it’s valentine’s day soon…. what do you think the exos would give to their s/o (physical gift n not) ?? 🌹❤️‍🔥💌

oooh yes nonnie babie ty ty tyyyy for the req <333333 hope u like it hehe

⟢ jongin

this lil baby would 1000% be the type of boyfie to get matching things with his s/o. like, no hesitation. he’d probably get you both matching rollies with your anniversary date engraved on the back—just so every time you check the time, you remember exactly who you belong to. and if you ever "forget," well… he has plenty of ways to remind you.

⟢ chanyeol

this old soul would definitely make you a cute lil mixtape or even press a vinyl of songs that remind him of you—handpicked, intentional, every track carrying a piece of him. and of course, he’d write and record one himself, slipping it in as a surprise, just to see your reaction when you realize the lyrics are all about you. you’d be so touched, so overwhelmed by how much he adores you, that your hands would start wandering—tracing over his chest, down his stomach, lips ghosting over his jaw as a silent thank you. and well… he’d take that as his cue to press play on a different kind of rhythm.

⟢ sehun

hmmmmm probably something like a ridiculously huge teddy bear (borderline obnoxious in size) with a card that just says, “saw this and thought of you.” but the second you cuddle it instead of him? he’s pouting, arms crossed, acting like you just broke his heart. next thing you know, the bear’s on the floor, forgotten, and he’s pressing himself against you, all warm and needy, making you be the big spoon. but let’s be real—he’s not just gonna stop at cuddling. if he’s replacing the teddy, he’s gonna make sure you’re really holding onto him all night.

⟢ kyungsoo

i totallyyyy see him doing a home cooked meal, but like, michelin-star level. candlelight dinner, your favorite dishes, him watching you take the first bite with that smug lil smirk, making sure you're full, completely satisfied. but the real feast starts after—when he’s got you spread out on the table, taking his time, savoring every damn drop like you’re the only meal he ever wants to eat.

⟢ junmyeon

i see him spoiling you with something luxurious and thoughtful—maybe a designer bag, a spa day package, or that one thing you’ve been eyeing but never let yourself buy. real sugar daddy energy. but he wouldn’t stop there. he’d want to see just how much you love being taken care of. imagine opening the door to your shared bedroom, eyes widening as you take in the sight—every surface covered in bags, boxes, and ribbons, all from your favorite brands. and him? lounging on the bed, watching you with dark, hungry eyes, already hard just from seeing you look so damn spoiled. “go on, baby,” he murmurs, voice thick. “thank me properly.”

⟢ baekhyun

i just know this boy is into jewelry. like, he’d 1000% get you a custom piece—something delicate, a dainty bracelet or a necklace with a tiny engraving only you two understand. but let’s be real, he’s not just giving it to you for the sentiment. he’s picturing that necklace dangling between your pretty tits while you ride him, eyes locked on the way it bounces with every roll of your hips. completely hypnotized, gripping your waist like he’s fighting for his life.

⟢ minseok

for some reason, he just gives me pheromone kink vibes, like he’s the type to get completely weak over your scent. he’d 1000% buy you a beautifully wrapped, elegant perfume that reminds him of you—something rich, intoxicating, impossible to forget. every time you wear it, he smirks, pulls you in a lil closer, breathing you in like he’s getting drunk off you. and when he’s got you under him, legs spread, fucking you deep in missionary, he’s burying his face in your neck, moaning against your skin, completely lost in the way you smell—his favorite fucking addiction.

⟢ yixing

i think this man would make sure the first thing you see on valentine’s morning is a house drowning in the most luxurious bouquets—fresh, vibrant, and all your favorites, filling every room with their scent. won’t let you lift a single finger, won’t let you do anything but sit there looking pretty while he takes care of you. he’s away a lot for work, but not this time. this entire weekend belongs to you. phone off, no distractions, no one daring to interrupt. he draws you a bath, warm and inviting, water kissed with floating rose petals, the air thick with soft candlelight and the slow burn of his gaze as he watches you sink in. but the real gift comes later—when he carries you to bed, now just as decorated with those same petals, only to ruin them with the way he ruins you. all night. slow and thorough. making up for every second he's ever spent away.

[prettyboykatsuki-moved]

FANG!! Hello, beloved :3 💋🫶🏾💚

I hope you have been well <333333

I know pretty much zero lore about genshin and honkai, just a few characters.

So, I wanted to indulge you and ask more about this man Sunday whom you seem quite fond of lol. Could you share a little about him? In general and whatever you would like uwu.

I’m curious about him bc i have been staring directly at Boothill who keeps appearing to me 👁️👁️ (I desire to devour him eternally though I also don’t know really anything about him lmao), and Sunday shows up in a lot of fan media with him.

Kissing and cuddling u forever 💞💞💞💞💞

HIII MY BELOVED TWYLA...FIRST OF ALL THANK U FOR INDULGING ME

this is Sunday from hit game Honkai Star Rail.

he is a major story villain and character in the latest patch quest. he has a little sister and was adopted as part of an organization known in-game as The Oak Family. as an adult, he is the Oak Family head. he plays an important role in taking care of this place called the dreamscape

he is also . Utterly Insane . he believes in a fallen god named Ena and this thing called the Order, so much so he intends to trap people in the aforementioned dreamscape forever so they don't have to suffer ever again. he believes that suffering is indeed human nature and is generally pessimistic - so his solution is trapping people inside of a sweet dream eternally so they never have to face reality ever again <3 he doesn't think there's anything wrong with that either and even fights our player characters fairly bc of it

he is a big loverboy in his own special and insane way and he really loves his sister who is a pop idol!! they are very close. he is a very philosphical character but he has a sense of responsibility that takes him to extremely dark places and is not just an outright evil or selfish character which makes him interesting. he's genuinely well-intended and much of the religion he follows is intended to be a parallel to Christianity

he has canonically taken confessions and they are not subtle with the biblical imagery and references to genesis in the slightest <333 he is a halovian (we can assume at least) which means he has telepathy but he also has powers from his aeon (aka god). so he's super angel coded lmaooo. his powers make it so that it's impossible to lie in front of him but it has to be consented too seemingly.

here are some examples of his personality and his beliefs that tickle me (make me feel horny) and represent his characters. this post is generally spoiler heavy but its good to have examples for when other non hsr players stumble upon him

[rukkiya]

this art of him so so scrumptious AHHHHHHHHH<333333 I CANT EVEN BEGIN HES SO PRETTY HES SO HANDSOME HES SO SO SO!!!!!! currently slamming my head into the wall 4 him I love him so much he’s so important to me, 3 years of being a kaeya LOVER, happy birthday to my sweet pookie skrunkly handsome man thank u for bringing joy to my silly little life ^~^<33 (ALSO!!! I have a one shot for him coming soon!!!! I didn’t get 2 finish it in time but it’s a good one a great req I got that I’m very excited to share :D!)

[florsial]

Hiiii!!!! I actually finally gave a listen to the music you recommended me a few weeks ago and i really loved them!!!!

^im a chronic album listener so i did just go ahead and listen to the whole album each of these r on but i have NO regrets. So first of all.... Of course kate bush was amazinggg. I actually have only heard a few songs from that album before so im glad i actually listened to it cuz god its so good. Kate bush never fails.... Anyways and then i listened to the england made me album. I Loved it sm. I loved the slightly bored/detached quality to the vocals + backround vocals, they were so pretty. Plus im weak for good guitars and boy it was. Like the melody of it throughout the album and the tone was everything. The instrumentals really reminded me of one of my FAVOURITE albums the tragic treasury which is based on a series of unfortunate events (one of my fav shows/series) so obviously i loved that. I really liked how the whole album actually had a similar darkness and tone as that series and album. And then i did listen to sour switchblade and that was also very good. Especially the vocals and the base/drums. Anyways if you have any recs (books, movies, music, whatever) pls do share!!!!!

^this album btw!!!

Also heres some pictures i found that reminded me of u while i was on my daily pinterest escapade ->

Anyways hope you had a good Christmas<333

KBWERVBEBLDFHKVDFV IM SO GLAD TO KNOW YOU LIKED THEM <333333 AND THE PICTURES ARE WONDERFUL (loki very flattered thank uuuuu <33)

HOPE U HAD A VERY GOOD CHRISTMAS TOOO <3333

[jeonstudios]

Hi, you asked why we like the fics that we like and, I can’t speak for everyone, but for me personally, I read dc, and I first saw that it was a enemies to lovers, which I’m the biggest sucker for, then it was the fact that there was an actual storyline. I don’t like it when, be it a book or fic or whatever, just focuses on the romance, it’s to fucking boring, but dc actually has a storyline.

Another thing was what the actual storyline was, I really understood the OC and could unfortunately relate to her quite a bit, how we later on got to know that she actually thought that she was going to die during the mission broke my heart and made everything make so much more sense, seeing how jk really tried to fix stuff, but also taking it slow and not pressuring her, made me feel quite comforted, in a way what I wished someone could’ve done in similar situations for me. And also your writing is honestly just very vivid as if we’re there with the OC along the way.

I’m so sorry this became quite long, but I hope u have a good rest of ur day/ night <333333

so the trope was what caught your attention and the (existing 😅) storyline was what kept it? i'm just trying to understand what matters the *most* lmao 🥹 because i'm a little worried some of the fics i want to write won't be as popular heh mostly because i realized that most of my popular fics have a distant, colder jk, at least at the start? so i'm trying to figure out if that's a vital part of the "golden recipe" or not zoinks (((also i loved reading this, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and also being so kind!! ❤️😭😭)))

[softpine]

hi brandi! i’ve just caught up with ur posts from the past month or two and i wanted to express my gratitude to you. about, god, maybe 5-6 years ago? idk fully anymore it’s been a while lol. what i was going thru was similar to u and to parts of frozen pines (although at the time it wasn’t frozen pines yet) where i was catastrophically in love with my straight best friend who really was actually quite mean to me but i didn’t know it yet. you talking about ur experience made me feel less alone and evil, and tbh that’s lifesaving. i anon-messaged u once or twice asking for advice and it really really helped. anyways, long story short i’m in a much better place now and tbh i think i’ve only recently gotten over her and the whole thing completely and i don’t feel scared to love again. i’m happy now and u and ur story helped me get there, thank you so much. i’m overjoyed to hear ur doing better too! and i’ve also reconnected with my dan and phil obsession so i’ve been loving ur dykephan posts lol! anyways, this is sappy and i feel awkward about it but i think sometimes we miss opportunities to express our gratitude bc we are scared so i did it anyway. wishing u all the best <333333

this is gonna make me cry oh my god.... i'm so glad it was comforting to you, as writing it was a huge comfort to me as well 🥺 all i've ever wanted to do was share my experiences and hear others' experiences, and maybe learn something from each other along the way

i'm soooo so glad you're in a better place now!! 💖 and yayyyy i love seeing you in my dykephan notes fjskdjs

[petrichorium]

OMGGGGGGG HAPPY BIRTHDAY PLUUUUUUU KISSES UR BIG BRAIN <333333 U R SO BELOVED TO ME

@minnaci

WAAAAAAAA THANK YOU MIN!!!! you are so beloved to me as well 🥺 its been so lovely seeing you back on the dash again lately 🫶🏻

I was going to set you up with mihawk but then i went back in teahouse and apparently i have Already Done That LMFAOOOOO so! i am going one step further and giving you Two men, Dracule Mihawk and Sir Crocodile:

6'6 & 43 and 8'4 & 46 respectively (ignore the clown)

pls take pride in this, mihawk and sir croc r two i have great brainworms over so i do not give you them lightly. theyre v much antagonists, but i firmly believe they are both the type to fall Hard and be very doting—you're never getting away though. the dynamics would be a bit rough at first bc neither are exactly the type to share but they've teamed up in canon now so i have faith things Would settle out eventually (after the two of them fucked it out i fear). i hope you enjoy!

[transformers-spike]

https://www.tumblr.com/transformers-spike/785730386316656640/ok-legit-i-adore-the-different-dynamics-we-can?source=share

YESSSSHHHHHHH I LUV IT SMMMM <333333

n im so happy u answered my previous ask , i squealed !!!

prowl x reader x lockdown is def a personal fav for me (out of pure self indulgence , i love lockprowl) , but swindle x reader x lockdown is a gem for all those who wanna be treated like pets ��

anyway , thanks again for the lockdown thoughts ! im giggling n kicking my feet !

dont mind me possibly requesting more in the future ...

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dude Lockdown is so cool and I'm starving for more content with him ngl. Gotta thank the artist Esuerc for getting me into it even before I watched the show.

Trying to get a better gist of him as a character so stuff discussing him is always welcome

(also yeah sure go ahead and suggest whatever stuff you have in mind regarding him - I do less requests and more back-and-forth chatting about character ideas)

[alienaiver]

Ummm I’m gonna go with!! 3 my lucky number and Kanda obvs. Thank u !! 🥰

my beloved bestie! 🧡✨ i could not write it any other way that i did because.... i didnt wanna give u angsty-angst bcos u and kanda deserve all good!!!!! u are so cute together i swear <333333

number three cashed out the sentence "just please open your eyes." ✨

it turned out to be 1.1k words and theres no real warnings except that there's a fight/argument between reader and kanda and he had a ..... special .. way of helping u emotionally. we love a strange little man!!!! ilysm!! i hope you enjoy and I APOLOGIZE AGGRESSIVELY FOR THE WAIT, i hope this is worth it !! 🫡🧡🧡🥰

”You can’t be serious.”

You’re seething with anger, warmth heating your cheeks and tears lining your lash line from the overwhelmingly growing frustration building up in you.

Kanda doesn’t spare you a glance from the couch where he takes a sip of his tea. You want to rip the cup from his hands and hurl it towards the wall. He knows that’s what you want to do – he wants you to try.

Calmly, he puts down the cup, with the little finger hitting the table first so it makes no sound as he was taught by Edgar.

“I am.” He answers cooly, leveling your stance with a glance in your direction. Your hands are clenched at your sides.

You’ve been holding in your anger for the past week, ever since getting fired from your job. No emotional reaction, no comments; Kanda hates when you hold it all in.

He knows the road paved to your emotions can be walled up though, so telling you directly to react will simply make you stubborn; make a point out of being just fine.

“That doesn’t mean you have the right to go and actively piss me off for a week straight!”

You’re yelling. Good. Kanda knows it’s about to hit. He’ll take most hits if it helps you, doesn’t even consider them hits, really. He prepares for more yelling, for punching a wall or the couch but what you end up doing is tremendously worse.

You turn around and walk to your shared bedroom. You don’t stomp, you don’t slam the door shut.

Kanda sits wide-eyed on the couch, confused. This isn’t like you; this is a reaction out of his scope of experience with you. Shit.

He fucked up.

Logically, Kanda knows this wasn’t the best route to take, that he sounds like what Lavi would call “red flag-ish”, but he prides himself in successfully getting to know you and your needs over the years you’ve been a couple. If he simply forces you, you will go the other way, refuse to mold into what people want – even if it is what you need.

Some emotions come for you, easier than they do for Kanda, but others do not. Kanda has through trial and error taught himself how to navigate what can often be considered a whirlpool of your emotions. But he’s gone left where he should’ve gone right somewhere the past six days. He’s not entirely sure where.

Kanda doesn’t like being reminded or becoming aware of his shortcomings so the anger he wanted you to feel just a few short moments ago, is suddenly bubbling up inside him for being too emotionally stunted to figure this out on his own. He refuses to call for help. Lavi and Allen would be of absolutely zero help – Lenalee and Alma on the other hand would kindly navigate the situation with him, however, the chance that either of the two are hanging with the two aforementioned idiots is way too high for him to risk it.

All there is left is to simply bite the bullet.

He gets up from the couch and stretches his back, feeling several joints pop into place. He doesn’t remember being this tense before he relaxed the muscles actively.

He won’t admit it to anyone, but he’s tiptoeing down the hallway, dreading the moment he reaches the door. He likes you the best when you’re at your brightest and bubbliest but he likes it the worst when you’re closed up – especially if it’s his fault.

With three concise raps, he announces his presence by the door. There’s no sound from the other side, so with furrowed brows he knocks again.

He’s rewarded with complete fuck all.

With a scowl he opens the door – the least you could do was answer him. He finds you wrapped up on your side of the bed, with your back turned towards him. He knows you’re not asleep; your routine is different than this plus it’s only been a few minutes.

He clicks his tongue as he rounds the bed to get to your side. Further proof that you’re not actually asleep is the way your face is scrunched up almost dramatically, to signal that you’re both angry and pretending. He shakes his head and pushes at your hips unceremoniously to make room for himself to sit on the edge. You let him without any complaints.

He sits there for a moment, silence falling heavy over the both of you. You’re clearly trying to control your breathing as best as you’re able, making it visible how performative it is. Kanda holds back from rolling his eyes.

“Stop acting like a child.”

You huff out a sound before pulling your duvet over your face – or you try to, but Kanda’s weight is stopping it by your chin. Maybe not the best way to start his apology, he notes.

“Get it together.”

You let out an imitation growl before you trash around to turn your back to him. He grabs your shoulder to stop you and sigh out, almost as dramatically as you’re being, “I’m sorry.”

It stops you from trying to turn away from him. Other than that, it doesn’t seem to do much else in Kanda’s favor. His hand that is still resting on your shoulder starts drawing mindless circles into it. He hopes it’s soothing; he wants to be soothing for you. He lets a few more beats pass before he talks again, “just please… open your eyes.”

You seem to listen to his plea, as you peek open one eye to scowl at him, “I won’t forgive you, dumbass.”

He can’t hold back the smirk. You have forgiven him by now if your reply is that. He leans down to kiss you but you pull back, “I don’t accept kisses from assholes.”

His face stays as close to you as you let him as he raises an eyebrow, “hm? That’s odd, given that you gave me a welcome home kiss a few hours ago.”

Your palm hits his face in a matter of seconds. He laughs and kisses your palm instead. You make a grossed-out sound and pull it back, “you’re infecting me with your dumbassery! Go away!”

He rolls his eyes but holds your hand, “if you’re already infected, I feel like you can give me a kiss anyways…”

You pout and huff out before you look at him, “be mindful next time you try to help me, okay?”

He nods, “I promise.”

You lean up the rest of the way and connect your lips. He’s happy he learned something new about you today; you’re his favorite thing to keep learning about, no matter how many years it’ll take. He’s looking forward to each and every one of them.

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hi !!! i just wanted to say ive been obsessed with tbah for the longest time now, reread it twice while it was on hiatus and when i was going to read it again for the third time i was soooo over the moon to see it had been updated !!!!! its so exciting to have you back bc i can tell its something you really enjoy doing and idk if its weird but as a beginning writer its inspiring me to keep going too! youre genuinely the cutest person too, good vibes all the way, thank u for ur work <3

also, i love “no longer strangers”, probably went over it a thousand times, i think its one of my favorite things ever here on tumblr …. changed my brain chemistry .. sorry for all this i just thought u deserved to hear it 😭🫶🏻

hiiii <333333 omg first of all don't apologise this was the sweetest message ever 🥺 it makes me soooo happy to hear that you loved my little stories so much and that you waited all these years for tbah. it's truly surreal and I hope u know I am so grateful for the love. its so exciting to be back and to get to write for u guys and talk to u <333 I truly do enjoy writing these stories so much and it means the world to me that anybody reads them, let alone share their thoughts about them with me. so thank u again <3

its so crazy that u find inspiration in my writing too!!! you should always keep going. also do u have ur work on here??? would love to read it hehe. anyways. you're the cutest person and this was a lovely message to reply to so thank u thank uuuu. iluuuuuu <333 xo