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untameddwildsunseen · 8 months ago

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Introduction

Welcome to the untamed wilds, traveler. Take a rest by the river and speak to this wolf all your worries.

Anyway, hello there! You all may call me The Fenrir, or Fenrir when not using formalities. I have many identities, but this one is where I will chronicle my journey with my alterhumanity. That, answer asks about our knowledge of the communities I inhabit, or just generally whatever alterhuman posts I am feeling like posting about.

I do not know everything as I am not a therian and I am not physically alterhuman (to my knowledge at least). So I cannot talk about experiences on those. I have only been awakened fully since this year. I presume I have been awakened longer, approximately 2-3 years, without knowledge of the terms. Though, topics I am open to talking about are what I am, which I will explain later in this post. I am also willing to talk about my own experiences and how my alterhumanity affects me and my day to day life. Though, I should warn that I will talk about the negative sides as well. Things such as negative shifts (as I experience them) and the negative sides to my alterhumanity. Though, I will combat those posts with positive ones.

Some more information, I am 21 years old and have several queer identities. The more important ones being that I am a (trans)demiboy, demiaroace, and polyam with 3 lovely partners.

Identities

In this portion I will be explaining my experiences with my identities. Is it a lot of labels? Perhaps. Though, I think it's generously also organizes each one. In each label I will explain what they are for anyone awakening or wanting to know about linktypes.

Otherkin

A basic understanding is that otherkin are those who involuntarily identify as something not of this world. Such examples include gods, aliens, elemental, dragons, vampires, zombies, et cetera.

Type(s):

Drago~ Specifically a chaos/space dragon. I get intense shifts, especially of the phantom and astral variety. I am naturally carnivorous and I have only experienced primarily good feelings during shifts.

Copingkin

To note: This is a term underneath the otherkin umbrella, as otherkin includes coping based identities. I prefer to separate these two terms due to how different my experiences with these terms effect my day to day life.

My understanding of copingkin in that one involuntarily identifies as a certain being as a means to cope. This could be for a variety of reasons. One can be a domestic breed of dog, another can be a character from Baulder's Gate 3, and maybe someone identifies as the nemean lion.

Type(s):

Fenrir~ Ah, what this blog is based on. Anyway, I intensely awakened as the fenrir this year due to what I perceived as severe betrayal where I reacted in a way similar to the Norse story "The Binding of Fenrir." I only Identify as the Norse myth version as it was the closest to my feelings and shifts. My shifts tend to be very negative. Perception shifts tend to be the most common and the hardest to come down from for me. It's not all bad though.

Fictionkin

Those identifying as fictionkin are those who involuntarily identify as a character from a piece of media. From books to shows/movies, to video games. Is it a fictional character one involuntarily identifies as? They could definitely be fictionkin.

Type(s):

Julian Devorak (The Arcana: A Mystic Romance)~ This is my oldest type surprisingly. His martyr personality and his fatal flaw of sacrificing himself and working himself into the ground is what made me connect and see me as him. Along with uncanny similarities between our lives. I don't shift often with him. It is more of a situation where if I see art of him, I just think 'Oh hey, that is me.'

Otherhearted

This is a touch different than a kintype as you involuntarily identify with something, rather than as that something. Can be anything, or multiple anythings. It's what you involuntarily identify with that matters.

Type(s):

Lucifer (Clado?)~ There is no real one depiction of Lucifer I do not identify with. Though the strongest ones tend to be closer to the biblical depiction and the Netflix show Lucifer. This is possibly because of my journey with religion (I am not Christian in any sense other than agnostic). I don't have a lot of shifts to my knowledge, but that's fine by me.

Otherlink/Copinglink

Note: I have combined them due to what I have now learned.

Otherlink and Copinglink are synonyms. Normally used interchangeably. These are terms when one links to, or voluntarily identifies as, something for any reason. I tend to associate copinglink with coping with something, but that isn't the case for all. Use these terms however you wish. Anything can be linked to for any reason, like if it is for the fun of it.

Type(s):

Anatolian Shepherd/Saint Bernard Mix (Copinglink)~ I aim to please and am used to wrangling others together. I linked specifically to a domestic mutt as a means to cope with my copingkin and the negative feelings it brings about at times. Seeing myself as a big, goofy, lovable dog makes me feel at ease. Especially with my eagerness to please. It is also due partially because of how I love, like a dog. Even if I'm hurt.

Telemachus (EPIC: The Musical/The Odyssey) (Otherlink)~ I took some time to read The Odyssey (still in the process of it as well) and have been listening to EPIC. Telemachus reminds me of myself when I was younger and had more of an optimistic and ambitious outlook on life. He is partially a copinglink as I envy he and his father's relationship. The way he looks up to his father was the same way I did with my own. I knew something was there, but it didn't fully connect as a hearttype or as a kintype. So, linktype it was.

Questioning/Considering

Considering (Linktypes): Odysseus (EPIC: The Musical/The Odyssey)~ I am currently doing research by finishing the book and waiting for the musical to finish, which will not be until the end of this year I would assume for the musical. This is because some of the things that happen to him in The Odyssey I have never experienced (besides fighting off monsters) personally. Though, there is a part of me that feels a connection there somewhere.

Questioning (Theriotypes/Kintypes/Hearttypes): None at the moment.

Boundaries

Now, onto important information on this blog. My boundaries are to be followed. I am not afraid to block if someone completely disregards them.

I do not want to deal with drama. If I am wrong, respectfully let me know by sending a message, by reblogging the reply, or by commenting. I am learning and some labels I do not know much about. I am constantly learning, and constantly pursuing my own self-education on certain topics.

I still bleed the same blood. Do not harass me under any circumstances. Respect me and I will respect you in return. I enjoy a good jest every now and again, but even every now and again I do find some things over the line. Do not joke at my, or others, expense for laughs.

Do not harm others who are on my blog without just reasons. I am one who believes in innocent until proven guilty. This is due to some issues in my own past. I do not enjoy drama either as stated before. So if something is going on with a certain user, respectfully let me know and I will fix what I need in the way I choose to do it.

When doing asks, keep away from NSFW topics. While I am above the age of consent, I do not want to go into that on this blog. Nor am I interested in sharing any accounts as such. What I do is private, and is not exactly appropriate for my blog.

If I say to quit it, I mean it. When I say "quit it" I mean to cut it out and act your age. As it may be seen in my boundaries, you must give respect to earn respect. We talk thing out if something happens. I will not argue if someone is acting like a toddler with their arguments. (For example: an Anti telling me to end it. I consider it childish, showing that you have the emotional comprehension for others on the same level as a young child who knows no better.)

If you interact with the ask box, please be kind. While I may seem to be able to handle those who are acting like pains, I can be surprisingly sensitive. Coming at me guns-a-blazing or keyboard warrior like, I get extremely anxious when reading them. I spiral quickly. I tend to understand if people are upset, but if I feel threatened, I will bite back with a block. No questions asked there.

DNI

This will be interesting. Lets see how many respect my do not interact list. I will block anyone who doesn't respect my interaction boundaries.

Harmful paraphilias. Those who claim to be MAPs or Zoos and other similar paraphilias. I find them disgusting. I do not care to know if you are in recovery. Stay off of my blog.

Anti-Alterhuman (and others like them). I believe this is reasonable since this is my alterhuman blog. I do not want to interact with you, and the same for you to me. Out of mutual dislike, simply do not interact with me and just block me. Simple as that than telling me how I identify.

Transmeds/TERFs/Transphobes. I believe me stating that I am trans and a demiboy is simple enough to understand why I do not want these interactions. Though for those who are wanting more, I find them ignorant. I have dealt with enough people disrespecting my gender identity to have a short fuse with them. Especially if they bring up Christian rhetoric to back themselves up.

Homophobes. I also group up people against polyamory here too. But because my sexuality and romantic orientation are more complicated then I have stated, I do not wish to interact with closed-minded individuals. I respect you, you respect me. Once again, Christian rhetoric against the LGBTQ+ community are not welcome. As for those against polyamory, it's okay if you have been hurt or it is not your style. It does not mean you have a right to telling me how to live my life. I will not tell you how to live your life. Give me the same respect.

Proshippers and the likes. I find them disgusting as well. While it may be fictional, it doesn't make it morally correct. I do not like what is there or the impact it has on the youth. The possibilities of normalizing unhealthy dynamics is extremely harmful. I lived through the box office openings of Twilight and its fanfiction movie (I will not give out the name). This ruined how my generation saw love (Not everyone, but looking back at what was coming out at the time).

Racists and other harmful ideologies. I think this is pretty self explanatory. While I am not POC myself, I have friends who are and I will always have their back. Sentient beings deserve respect as much as the next. Let us respect one another in this shared space we call the internet.

Hardcore Christians (extremists, cults, et cetera). Seem weird or a bit ironic being Luciferhearted. Though I have good reason for this in my "Do Not Interact". I have dealt with Christian rhetoric before, and I don't exactly appreciate being told something I don't exactly believe. I'm agnostic/pagan. Abrahamic religion need to give me proof of their beliefs. Though I do believe their figures and god have a place. Though, I actively choose to believe more in the pagan gods of old. Such as those of the Nordic and Hellenic pantheons.

Minors (Below 18 years old). With me being 21, I do not feel comfortable being in an area around minors. Even though the blog is safe for work, I would like users interacting being a minimum of 18 years of age.

(User boxes made by: @/kthecritter)

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verosvault · 1 year ago

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🚨SPOILERS FOR FANTASY HIGH JUNIOR YEAR EPISODE 5!!!🚨

Dimension20 "Fantasy High Junior Year"

Episode 5 "Mall Madness"

Timestamp: 1:46:04

Video Length: 4min. & 59sec.

Kristen tries to reach out to Cassandra

Brennan: "Yeah, you can reach out and talk to Cassandra."

Ally: "I don't wanna say anything. Can I just listen?"

Brennan: "You listen."

Ally: "Can I just open up the channel of communication and-"

Brennan: "Listen-"

NOT BRENNAN ADJUSTING HIMSELF IN HIS SEAT!!! 😭😭😭✋✋✋ THAT'S WHEN YOU KNOW IT'S GONNA GET BAD!!! 😭😭✋✋

BRENNAN'S "I'M EVIL" SIT!!! 😭✋

The Amazing Caption Team: "(Brennan exhales ominously)"

MYSTERY VOICE?!: "She is at my side once more.

Ally: "So she is the death?"

Zac: "Is that Cassandra?"

Ally: "That's the- That's the Nightmare King talking about Kalina?"

Siobhan: "No"

Ally: "No?"

Emily: "Cassandra?"

Ally: "Did Cassandra turn back into the Nightmare King and someone is by her side once more?"

Siobhan: "Is Cassandra a lesser god serving a more powerful god?"

MYSTERY VOICE?!: "Do you wish for divinity?"

Kristen: "To serve, or to be, myself?"

I loved Ally's answer there! I wanna dissect that line SO BADLY but I'm too dumb to do that! 😂🤣💀 I don't know how I would! 💀✋

MYSTERY VOICE?!: "You have opened yourself to listen. Do you wish to listen?"

Kristen: "Yes"

MYSTERY VOICE?!: "Good. I shall give you a master you deserve."

Brennan: "Red, crackling light. And a slimy, rotting set of block letters that says "Yes!" with an exclamation mark is shunted out of the portal. (squelches)"

1. I love Zac's reaction! That's LITERALLY ME! 😭✋

2. Brennan's "Squelch" sound was too good! 😭✋

Fig: "We've got to clear this before the party."

Kristen casts banishment on the "YES!" 😭✋

Kristen: "Thank you, kind master. I will cherish it. Who do I serve? Who am I speaking to?"

Lou: *laughs* "Serve?" *Covers his face* 😂😂

MYSTERY VOICE?!: "I am coming for you."

Lou's reaction! 😭😭 LITERALLY ME! 😭✋ It's just so funny that Lou is making that face when that voice is talking to Kristen! Not Fabian! 😂🤣💀😭✋

MYSTERY VOICE?!: "And when I find you, I will break you in a way that none who loved you will recognize the ruin I have wrought."

BRO! THAT LINE!! YIKES!! SHIVERS!! 😭😭✋✋

MYSTERY VOICE?!: "Lean your soul in closer, that I might give you more than words." 😭✋

Ally cuts this off! 😭✋

HOW DOES BRENNAN LAUGH AFTER THAT FR THOUGH!?!?!?!? 😭😭😭✋✋✋

Kristen gets some images of a shattered mall, of fractions of these red glass stars collecting shards of blue astral mall, the corpses of dead wizards floating in astral space, strudel streaming out of a portal endlessly in sort of- oblivion.

Ally makes a Religion check and gets a 19!

Brennan: "Looking at all of this here, you do not feel the presence of another divinity, but yet something divine has happened. I think what you know is that there is some rage working within Cassandra that was prompted by those stars, that was prompted by those shattering things. So, I think all of your questions come back to them. Like- That's what started this. Obviously, it began within Cassandra's chest, though, and you keep coming back to that term, 'I thought you were dead', you hear 'I thought you were dead,' and you look down and see this dead- or- you banished it, but you see the slime left by the dead, rotting god that you summoned in your Freshman Year, and you suddenly remember that the Wizard Synod, the Synod of Spire, this mall, was in the Astral Realm."

Zac: "When Cassandra was saying, 'I thought you were dead,' would she be talking about 'Yes!', or is that something else?"

Emily: "I think so"

Ally: "She knew very much about 'Yes!'"

Murph: "That's why she, that's the example of-"

Emily says that the rotting "Yes!" means that Kristen's god turned into toxic positivity!! 😂🤣💀

Ally just laughs! 😂🤣💀

Ally: "I think so. Oh no...okay, okay..."

The Bad Kids wanna go find Ragh to talk to him about this maybe. 🥲

Brennan: "As you say that, I don't think it would be intuitive that it's "Yes!", because "Yes!" slid out like a dead, flat joke."

Ally: "Okay."

Brennan: "You think whatever that voice was slid 'Yes!' out to you and said, 'I'll give you a master you deserve.' and it was like a- you know what I mean? It's like- It's like a humiliation. It's like 'Here's your god.'"

Ally: "So when she said, 'I thought you were dead', it wasn't to 'Yes!'"

Brennan: "It wasn't to 'Yes!', you don't think it was."

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weavewilled · 2 years ago

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' you can do better than that. ' ahhh i hope you dont mind!! you're free to change context if you want to!!

↳ saucy dialogue ( accepting ) / @opiri

The kiss breaks, and he's —— out of sorts, a little. It was unpracticed, finding slow footing. Heated, in its own way — and there's a little sharp flare of obstinance at the little goad. ❝ Apologies, ❞ he says, and it's more dry than the Anauroch and, with the way he has him riled, just about as hot. ❝ I haven't precisely had many opportunities to perfect my techniques in this arena for the last few years. ❞ —— or the last decade, really, at least not in the physical realms.

For every touch for him feels — bright. Hot, electric-hot, crawling through veins and alighting parts of him that he'd forgotten existed. Because in the astral realms, oh, the pleasure is incredible — can be all-consuming, can be beyond anything comprehensible by mortal thought. It can be everywhere and nowhere. But it never was this — the most simple thing, skin-on-skin, the sheer truth of a touch to physical form. He'd forgotten what it was like, lost in the embrace of a goddess as he was, and he had forgotten just how much he'd missed it.

He's not irritated, though, not truly — he knows challenge when he hears it, and he even likes it, but it also wiggles into some old, insecure part of him that hasn't seen the light of day in too long. It needs to be there, but that doesn't mean it's not foreign; he's relaerning what it means to be human, to live outside the realm of gods.

He swallows, chin lifts. ❝ I learn best by example, ❞ he says at last, only a whisper of a breath away, and a little smile of his own tugs at the corners of his mouth. His touch is gentle, but the words, perhaps, meet tease for tease. ❝ So why don't you show me your —— better. ❞

#opiri #( I DON'T MIND #also i have no idea what happened with this but it's ur problem now )#;; & a glimmer of hope amidst the darkness. ( main v. )

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alterrune · 3 months ago

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Perhaps I should clear up some things.

(Sutton stops cold when be hears that voice.)

Malice Lily? Is that you? I warn you, I am armed!

Calm yourself, Mr. Sutton. I'm not here to harm you. In fact, I'm technically not even here at all. Astral projection comes in handy sometimes.

Well, what things are you here to clear up?

(Malice Lily's projection flies closer to him.)

To start with, I could always talk. I just chose not to. Thirty-seven years I stayed silent, but once I came here and I saw how lively everyone was, I thought I'd finally open my mouth again to make sure their dreams were crushed before their skulls were.

Holy shit...

Secondly, that rabbit mask isn't something I wear unless I need facial protection or if I have to hide my face. You wouldn't believe how many alarms are raised when you tear down a base like GEOGRAM's, and how many times I've had to avoid government agents tracking and attacking me.

You're fucking evil.

I know. Thirdly, yes, I am near indestructable. Your friends, the Colorstreak Battalion...they may actually be a respectable challenge for once. A five-person group willing to risk it all to take me down? Loaded with powers, melee and ranged weapons, and even this world's version of me and my brother helping them? Oh, that sounds sublime! It's such a thrill to finally have such worthy opponents to slaughter. Along with everyone that gets in the way, of course, can't leave any survivors.

Anything else?

Yes, Sutton. One last thing. Fourthly and finally, my army is only growing. The powers I have can raise the dead, turning them into mindless minions. Of course, my magic has limits. For example, I can't control any bodies that have ghosts attatched to them, so Jacob Rose and Clarence Cross are sadly out of my reach. And I also can't brainwash anyone who doesn't have a body, so Suave is also not an option...not like I'd revive him, though. Even in my timeline, he was my serial-killing competition...until I took his worthless life, of course. Never did things clean, that one.

So does that mean the soldiers you killed are now alive again, but under your control?

Yes. And if you can break it, you can have them back. But good luck trying to uncurse them. That spell is incredibly hard to break. And I should know, as I was the one who made it in the first place.

Go to hell, Malice Lily.

Trust me, honey. There's no need for that when I'm bringing Hell to you.

(Malice Lily's astral projection kisses Sutton on the cheek.)

Be seeing you, handsome.

(Her astral projection fades away.)

Sutton's Notes: Malice Lily (addendum)

Using an astral projection, Malice Lily showed up right in front of me. Seems she filled in the missing gaps for me, such as her sudden talkativeness and her mask.

She seems to love being flirtatious, even planting a kiss on my cheek (that I have since wiped off with every goddamn kind of sanitized cleaning wipes that I could find), but I'm fairly certain she's putting on a Black Widow-esque act. For context, the Black Widow spider is something Violet told me about when I overheard her mention it to her father and got curious: it's a female spider that finds a mate, and as soon as she finds the mate to no longer be of any use, eats him.

If Malice Lily thinks I'm going to be wooed by her charm only for her to kill me later, she's got another thing coming.

I may have brought her into this world, but by god, I promise that I will shove her back into her own world the first chance I get!

#altering the outcome #ask irl!alterrune #ask the ato cast #the colorstreak battalion #operation: malice malediction

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grayintogreen · 4 years ago

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The Triality of Lucien

I cannot ABSOLUTELY CANNOT stay silent and not talk about this Id/Ego/Superego thing going on with Nonagon/Lucien/Molly. You cannot give me this well-wrapped gift and not expect me to go ham on it, Matthew Mercer.

First of all- standard disclaimer. Freud is a hack. We all know this. BUT as a literary device, Id/Ego/Superego is fucking brilliant. Normally, when I go, as the kids say, ham on this particular subject, I’m discussing three separate characters making up a balanced party (seriously though- pick any three-man band and you can probably figure out real quick who is Id, Ego, and Superego real fast), but for once, it’s an actual In Yo Head example, so Freud is Still Wrong, but this is a weird situation.

And it’s also weird because no concept of Id/Ego/Superego operates under the assumption that ALL THREE are actually hella chaotic, but we’re still gonna talk about it, because it works. Oh god, does it work.

Let’s start with our base:

Lucien

Shady Creek Run hyper-charismatic kid who got kicked around enough to have an immediate dissatisfaction with the world. Joined the Claret Orders probably to get some sense of control and be among fellow weird people, but decided he hated authority and it was just a new way to be ostracized (hazarding a guess here). Started his own emo band of mercenaries and treasure hunters with a cool name. Helped out a Cerberus Assembly mage. Found a book and fucked around and found out and decided he really liked screaming void wizards. Lucien, the ego, is now introduced to his Id-

The Nonagon

The Somnovem’s avatar. The alleged prince of Cognoza. The cryptic bullshit spouting Charles Manson-acting motherfucker who is driven by nothing more than a base desire to make everything real weird. Chaotic Evil to a T, who definitely got worse after spending two years in a hurt/comfort fic with the screaming void wizards who patched his soul back up, but while they were doing that, the fraction of Lucien’s soul left behind was his superego, namely-

Mollymauk Tealeaf

Yeah, I know. Wait??? Molly “all Id” Tealeaf??? The superego?? Yeah, I know, it’s crazy, but when your id and ego fuck off to the astral plane, you have to be your own Id. I told you when the characters are ALL chaotic, it gets weird. But! Molly represents whatever sense of ethics Lucien has or could have if he wasn’t such a little bitch. He’s all the good parts of Lucien and he represents what Lucien could do with what he’s got. Instead of leaving the world WORSE, you could leave it BETTER.

(If this sounds like shoulder angel/devil nonsense- congratulations, you’ve unlocked the final layer of all Id/Ego/Superego really is.)

As it stands, Lucien was clearly incapable of listening to his heart because he was a miserable bitch who was just out for himself and when presented with something that fed into his Id, he leaned right into it. So that’s why Lucien/Nonagon are probably the closest to what Lucien actually WAS before all of this, because Lucien has clearly shut off his superego for some time and the Somnovem validated that.

But Molly, a fragment of soul that was “raised” in a situation that Lucien never had was able to flourish into his own person- a person who represented the ideal of what Lucien COULD be. Still driven by his Id, since that’s clearly what Lucien wants, but driven to it with benevolent hedonism and friendly nihilism, instead of... all the other stuff.

What this amounts to is Lucien hasn’t been in the pilot’s seat of this body for AWHILE. First it was Molly, now it’s the Nonagon. Lucien is an unbalanced hot mess who needs to reconcile both sides of these parts of him- the cult of personality and the showman. The ambition to change the world tempered by a need to not make everything worse.

Molly and the Nonagon ARE wholly functional separate characters, but they are also PIECES of Lucien. Molly was flawed. Nonagon is VERY flawed. Lucien is gonna be flawed even if he can three-way fusion dance himself back into control.

And yes I KNOW that had Molly lived I sincerely doubt that Matt would have like slapped him with dealing with the entirety of Lucien’s backstory dump or a fusion of the two, which does make Molly wholly separate, but that isn’t the narrative we have here. The narrative we have is about what is stronger- Molly who represents all the good within Lucien or the Nonagon who represents all the evil within him and how that will balance out in the end.

Or Lucien could eat the Star Razor and/or get absorbed into the screaming city never to be found again, but I’m on the Mollucien Train until that time. Because I can’t help but think Matt set it up as an OPTION. There’s no way he would give them this with no way to get Molly back or at least a Lucien who is strongly influenced by the Molly side, depending on if he intended to give Molly back to Tal as per an agreement between them (probably unlikely) or if he intends to play Mollucien as an NPC (marginally more likely). It’s not Matt’s way. He knows what Molly means to those characters, but he’s presented the road to get there as this fascinating look at three sides to one character at constant war within each other and who will win out in the end.

That’s why this arc is my favorite. It’s not just about stopping the end of the world. It’s about seeing if there’s a way to stop a seed of corruption and change it for the better, which has been the fucking theme of the campaign now for a LONG time.

#critical role #mollymauk tealeaf #lucien #lucien the nonagon

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teruthecreator · 6 years ago

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if you're comfortable, could you say what specifically you hated about the finale? i never got into amnesty but i liked balance so i would like to know how disappointed i should be ://

okay i’m gonna explain this in-detail exactly Once bc i’m trying rlly hard to just forget about the whole epilogue and keep it moving like that shit never happened, so for anyone else who is asking me why i don’t like the finale (and im not saying you’re wrong for asking, anon, it just seems that when you vocally do not like a thing there are hundreds of people who come out of the woodworks to ask you why and i think thats kinda Huh, Weird of everyone but like whatever) i’m gonna lay it all out here on the table and you can take this as you will.

i’m not gonna be getting into fistfights with people abt this so if you disagree please don’t try and banter with me. i am running on <4 hours of sleep rn (bc i dont value my physical or mental health above my grades hbgjrbgj) so sorry if this is a little hodgepodge too. my limbs are literally still trembling from last night

also, CRITICISM OF ART DOES NOT MEAN CRITICISM OF THE ARTIST. I AM NOT CRITICIZING THE MCELROYS AS HUMAN BEINGS, BUT RATHER THEIR ARTISTIC DECISIONS IN TAZ: AMNESTY. MORE PEOPLE NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT THERE IS A SEPARATION BETWEEN ART AND ARTIST, AND ONCE YOU (AS AN ARTIST) POST A PIECE, IT BECOMES SUBJECT TO CRITICISM. I AM NOT BRINGING GRIFFIN, JUSTIN, TRAVIS, OR CLINT’S CHARACTERS INTO QUESTION; I AM SIMPLY GIVING A CRITICISM ON THE SHOW THEY’VE CREATED AS A WORK OF ART.

oh, this goes without saying, but i will anyway: SPOILERS FOR AMNESTY (IN GENERAL, BUT ALSO FOR EPISODE 36)

i’m gonna start off by saying, i don’t think the whole episode was a total disaster. there are two things mainly that have ruined the whole experience for me, but for the most part i thought the like first 2 hours of this episode were a lot of fun! the fight scene was a little bogged down in the rolls imo, but it didn’t deter me too much from the overarching boss battle. the intro was a sick concept, i enjoyed the callback bits spliced in w newly scripted bits from mentioned past encounters, that was all well and good. i loved beacon in the episode, and god do i wish he stayed for the whole thing.

my problem mainly sits with the epilogue, which is why i think the whole episode turns sour in my mind. because the epilogue is supposed to be what satiates your desire to know more, right? not to reference balance too much (bc these are two completely different stories w different premises, and for people to so readily compare them is kinda wack. that being said, they are two stories made by the same people that use an epilogue to wrap up the loose ends, so im gonna make this one comparison), but the epilogue told us, the listener, all the things we wanted to know about after the day of story of song. we got to know what they did, a little bit of their interpersonal relationships, and we even got a big group scene with the killarey wedding!

this epilogue, though, feels like it left so much still on the table. one of those things i will swing back to later because it is the largest part of my argument, but after all of this time we still don’t know why everyone at the lodge got exiled! no one talks about it! we don’t know how dani ended up there, or jake, or barclay, or moira, or anyone! they don’t reference the banishments at all, which i think is a huge shortcoming figuring that is the core premise as to why these characters exist in our pc’s world in the first place.

i also feel like the concept of the worlds being divided for a long time is kind of a dumb way to go about framing what they do After The Fact. like, they could have had those scenes happen without the looming concept of them being divided, especially when their big reunion scene is like 2 minutes long and basically does nothing. what would have been a cooler premise is if billy connected the worlds, and the worlds worked together in rebuilding themselves. we still could’ve had the same bits happen (for the most part), but i just think that whole separation bit kinda alienated the pc’s (especially thacker).

but everything up to aubrey’s epilogue bit is fine. i have some problems, but it’s fine. where i started to completely abandon the work itself though is duck’s bit, and i’m gonna get into it by saying this: I know Justin Mcelroy is not legally required to make all of his characters gay, but this whole scene was just a big reminder to me that this show is done by 4 straight white men

and yeah, my big problem with this scene is the fact that justin had to make Duck/Minerva a thing. because it adds nothing to the story while also being a very skeevy concept in-general, and it reduces minerva’s character down to the Hero’s Girlfriend trope and it’s so comphet and she doesn’t deserve it.

my first grievance with this: It adds nothing to the story.

had justin not even mentioned the relationship part of their interaction before the scene actually took place, this scene would be like every other scene involving duck and minerva prior to this. duck says honey once, and even that could’ve been played off as duck just being affectionate to his friends (which is a thing, i call several of my friends “my love” irl and it isn’t a big deal). minerva doesn’t even use pet names, she calls duck by his full name, which is exactly how she addressed him in every other scene! duck’s speech is a genuine heart-puller, but it was completely soured by the fact that justin had to premise this entire scene by saying duck and minerva are a thing.

my second grievance: it’s a skeevy-as-all-hell concept.

this whole premise is nasty seven ways from sunday, and it is my biggest problem with duck’s bit as a whole. for starters, and i think more people need to mention this, minerva meets duck on the night of his 18th birthday. which means duck has literally just stopped being legally considered a minor before minerva appears before him. and honestly, i would still consider duck a minor in this case because he has literally just turned 18!!! his brain has not developed past one of a 17-year-old on the exact date of his birthday, and i argue it will not until he is at least in his twenties. keep in mind, your brain does not stop developing until you are about 25. so while in the legal sense, duck is an adult, in both the mental and emotional sense at that exact moment, duck is still a minor. AND he’s still in high school, as referenced in his response to her call to duty: “i got class tomorrow”. and minerva is old enough to have become the minister of defense for her homeworld, go through an entire war, and have several other chosen ones (including leo tarkesian, who is at least 20 years older than duck) before meeting duck. so that makes her much, much older than duck when she meets him. and i don’t care if they had barely any interaction after that first moment (though they did, as justin legit talks about when he introduces minerva as a concept to the show), that still establishes their initial interaction at a massive age difference. which, regardless of anything, makes their eventual relationship so genuinely messed up.

sure, you can argue that when you get older age doesn’t make that much of a difference, and i would agree. my mother is 53 and her husband is 63, that’s ten years. but my mother and step mother did not meet at 8 and 18, they met at 50 and 60. the initial interaction makes all the difference between “older people meeting and having a relationship” and “a very messed up situation”.

also, in this same argument, taking the mentor-student relationship and turning it into a romantic relationship IS SO MESSED UP!!!! GENUINELY AND HONESTLY MESSED UP!!! i feel like i don’t need to explain this because there have been so many examples already as to why this is a relationship you Should Not turn romantic, but i will anyway because it frustrates me so much that justin completely glosses over this!!! the power dynamic of a mentor-student relationship, in whatever way it is portrayed, displays a power balance that is heavily leaning to one side. there is not an equal distribution of power amongst the two because one person is teaching the other. the one person is weak to the others wills and whims because of lack of experience. think of your high school teacher or college professor; if you started a relationship with them, people would raise so many questions because you are not at equals to the teacher/professor. even if they treat you different, and even if they no longer teach you, it all has to do with the initial interaction. and minerva was still duck’s mentor up until either episode 34 or 35, when she handed off the title of Herald of the Astral Mind to duck. that means for nearly all of their interactions, there was a mentor-student dynamic. to have that turn into a romantic relationship is so sketchy and weird and leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

my third grievance: it reduces minerva’s character down to a girlfriend trope, and it’s comphet as hell

my friend tin (@taako–waititi) phrased this so well in the big group chat im in w her, so imma just quote her on this and then go into the comphet stuff:

“i was dming max about it and they also mentioned, quote, ‘her story was never about romance. it reduced her down to ‘competent woman becomes endgame girlfriend’ trope’ and they are so right it makes me fucking pissed. regardless of any ‘mutual respect’ and ‘emotional intimacy’ kind of thing going on that some people are arguing for, it’s something that didn’t need to happen because minerva’s character becomes that. my thing is mutual respect and emotional intimacy between two people can. exist. without it being. romantic. like. friendship is. also valid. i personally don’t think that mutual respect and emotional intimacy are two buttons that you press to make the machine churn out a romance”

not only does it reduce minerva’s character to tropes, but it also is extremely comphet for a woman who is so heavily wlw-coded or lesbian-coded and it just angers me. you could argue that she could be bi, but if we look at canon for just its face-value, the only romantic interaction she ever has is with a man, which basically makes her straight. this isn’t like aubrey’s situation, where travis clearly states she is a bi woman who is just in a relationship with another woman in amnesty. griffin doesn’t state anything about minerva’s sexuality and then she’s paired off with a man right at the end. and you could argue that she isn’t wlw or lesbian-coded, but i am not the only one who is wlw and thinks this, so i feel like i have more of a ground to stand on in this opinion. and this just feels so, like, textbook compulsory heteronormativity it made me feel physically sick when i heard this bit in the podcast.

so that’s my first big issue with the finale, fully explained. my second issue with the epilogue is that ned’s death continues to be disappointing and his character arc is never completed, which just tanks the whole show for me.

i’ve talked about this several times since ep 28 about how ned’s death was stupid and did nothing for his character arc, but i’m gonna reiterate my main points for the people who find this post without knowing my whole blog:

1. ned’s main interpersonal conflicts are just brought to the surface and never fully delved into before his sudden death. ned doesn’t ever get to explain his history with boyd and why he had to steal shade tree to mama or barclay or really anyone besides vaguely to aubrey.

2. every character is just immediately expected to feel sad about ned’s death, despite the tension that still remains right up until the very end. aubrey shouldn’t have even known that the shapeshifter framed ned because that’s all explained once she goes to sylvain, but i think travis just assumed she did because he heard the interaction between ned, mama, and barclay. so she should’ve had Way more conflicting feelings about the whole thing, but ned’s death is just angst-bait so that doesn’t happen.

3. ned’s death doesn’t make roll sense because clint rolled a mixed success and mixed successes, by definition, are supposed to be less severe moves than a failed roll (which gives the gm the ability to make a hard move). there isn’t really anything harder to do to a character than kill them, but even if you wanted to argue that if clint failed the roll the hard move would’ve been ned failing and letting dani get shot, it still doesn’t change the fact that clint rolled a mixed success when slamming into the pizza hut sign at full velocity and came out of that alive (severely injured, naturally, but still alive).

so, yeah, there’s that. and then theres the fact that griffin doesn’t ever give us any other scenes involving ned directly. ned only becomes a reference from 28 on, which is so disappointing given ned’s importance to the other two pcs. and i understand that the mcelroys have a lot of trauma related to death, but griffin shouldn’t have killed ned off then if he did not want to talk about death in graphic detail. we all have trauma. we all want to avoid topics. but to kill ned off and then never talk about his death in great relation to the others is a genuine disservice to ned’s character.

the day episode 28 aired was the same day i buried my grandmother. i would have loved if death wasn’t brought up, but i don’t control the podcast. the mcelroys do; they had the ability to avoid this topic in a more servicing way to the characters and they didn’t. that isn’t to say they are bad people for not doing it, but it makes the finale even more disappointing because it means we never get the full rounding out of ned’s character arc. he becomes this like brief reference that is, once again, angst-bait or emotional fuel and i feel like he didn’t deserve that. he deserved a genuine reference, a genuine moment. even a dream sequence i would have appreciated!!!

griffin had sylvain directly point at ned in aubrey’s flashback in ep 35, and then did nothing about what that could have implicated in the finale. it sours the entire episode in a major way and disappointed me immensely. there should have been more done with that topic and there wasn’t and i will never forget how deeply it hurt me and turned me away from canon as a whole. not to be ned kin on main, but ned was the backbone of this show and the exact moment he left was the exact moment the whole thing went downhill. it turned less into a story about growth and adversary and amnesty and more into a waiting game for when this very loose end was going to get wrapped up.

i wanted to enjoy this episode. i tried so hard, y’all. but just the thought of ned loomed over me the entire time and i was waiting for a more proper completion to his arc, and it never happened. and coupled with that very bad and skeevy duck/minerva bit i was just so frustrated and hurt last night.

so, yeah, that’s my whole spiel. you are free to disagree with me, but keep that opinion to yourself because i’m not getting into it with anyone. i will just block you; it’s better for us both, anyway.

#taz spoilers #taz amnesty spoilers #ignorance cloud on #im not putting this into the main tag bc i dont want people to bitch at me abt that #so if this shows up in theres its bc tumblr has a terrible algorithm

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zoeytheweeb · 6 years ago

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UPDATE: Please read (don’t worry it’s nothing bad I promise)

Okay I know I haven’t really posted anything, and yes I have been lurking on Tumblr for the last few weeks (maybe a month now? idk) but that was mostly to read salt fics and look at memes. Anyways, on to the important stuff. And by important, I mean this is just an update on what I’ve been doing and why there hasn’t been any new chapters which I’m so so so sorry for not uploading anything. BEWARE, this is a pretty long post (at least for me, it’s probably fine for everyone else lol)

First off, THANK YOU SO MUCH like holy shit I just noticed I had 200 followers and like oh my god that’s literally the most amount of followers I have ever gotten so tytytyty!

Secondly, I haven’t abandoned #notmychatnoir, more like I’ve been struggling to write chapter 4 the way I want to write it because suddenly everything I wrote in it so far has made me unhappy and I also realized that while I mentioned it, I never really showed the citizens and press (other than the miracuclass of course) being salty of Chat Noir themselves so I’ve been rearranging things and removing a few other things to save for either chapter 5 or 6. The only problem is I also want to make chapter 4 longer, even if only slightly, than the other chapters simply as an apology for taking so long to get it out.

I’ve also been debating with myself over the outline I came up with for the story, which is why I’m asking everyone now: What would you like to see in #notmychatnoir? I still plan on having Felinette fluff, and I will not be doing an Adrien redemption in this fic seeing as the whole point of this was to be super salty towards him, but if anyone has any ideas of what they wanna see then I promise that I will at least consider it. I make no promises of your ideas being added, but they will definitely be helpful.

As for K12, I had a complete outline of what I wanna do for each story, but I’ve been thinking about changing some of the stories before writing them. Most of the chapters I’ve already planned out for each song will still happen the way I want them to happen, but that’ll depend on what my hands decide to type lol. Also, I must remind everyone that most of the chapters are unconnected one-shots, with only a few of them being connected into their own stories. However, depending on how each one-shot ends, I might make a follow-up or aftermath of what happens. Keyword being might though, there’s no guarantee that I’ll actually do it if I can’t find the inspiration or if nobody has any specific requests for said aftermaths.

I would also like to know if anyone has any requests for K12. Specifically, any scenarios they would like to see play out? They have to fit with the song though (Class Fight, Detention, any K12 song I haven’t written and posted yet, which is literally everything but Wheels on the Bus as of right now lol). I also want to know if there are any pairings you would like to see, or any specific character being there for Marinette during whichever scenario either you, the readers or I, the writer, decide on. For example, the friend that gave me the idea for K12 in the first place wanted the Highschool Sweethearts chapter to have Marichat, IIRC.

You can reply in the comments or reblogs but it will be a lot easier for me, now that my notifications tend to blow up every now and then, if you simply sent an ask or a DM/PM regarding any requests you may have for #notmychatnoir, K12, or even if you want me to write a one-shot or drabble based on any scenario you may have in mind. For that last one though, I can’t promise I’ll be able to do all of your requests, much less perfectly and on time (because I’m still a teenager dealing with high school and family and procrastination in general), but I do promise that I will at least try.

Lastly, I don’t know if I mentioned it (I feel like I did) but if I didn’t then I planned on writing a somewhat salty, and bittersweet, one-shot based on Melanie Martinez’s song Pity Party. It’s gonna be Lukanette, and it was supposed to be out on my birthday but I didn’t finish in time nor did I finish in time for the other deadline I gave myself. However, I still planned on releasing that particular one-shot this year so I have been working on that for the last few weeks and I’d like to think it’s almost done. I’m not going to say you should get your hopes up, but, I do plan on finishing it before New Year’s eve. I will try to finish it tonight, in time for Christmas eve or Christmas itself, but I’ve learned that I shouldn’t try to give myself any specific deadlines so I make no promises but at least I’m trying to finish it. So, look forward to that! Or don’t, if Lukanette’s not your cup of tea, then that’s fine.

That was all for my fanfic-related updates. If you would like to read my short life update, then keep reading. If you don’t then that’s all for this post.

Life update: I’ve been officially on winter break since last Thursday (the 19th), and boy is the small freedom amazing lmao. This semester wasn’t exactly my best (specifically my geometry grades and just procrastination in general) but I at least managed to get an A in French and passed all of my final exams except for my Geometry final (although that didn’t surprise me because I was lucky enough to even get a D in that class as my overall grade for the semester).

So now that I don’t have to worry about school until the break is over, which won’t be until January 9th I think, either that or the 8th, I have slightly more free time on my hands that I’ve been spending just catching up on anime, sleep, and fanfics that I’ve been reading (and writing, of course). I’ve also spent most of my money on Persona 5 and Blazblue: Cross Tag Battle so I’ve been spending time playing both of those games as well. Spoiler alert: both of those games are amazing and I’m totally gonna buy that Neopolitan DLC eventually because she’s amazing and her Astral Finish is badass.

Also, even though I’ve been told that I shouldn’t try to grow up so fast, I’ve been thinking about getting a part-time job (because I can’t rely on monthly allowance and asking my mom for a loan forever, especially if I can’t even pay back that loan in time) and I also wanna learn how to drive so I’ve just been preparing myself for both important (to me at least) things.

Lastly (for real this time lol), one of my cousins is coming down to my city for a few days this week to celebrate his birthday which is great but also a perfect opportunity for me to spend more time with him and his brother because I feel like we’ve been growing apart and the fact that both of them are no longer single despite being the same age as me (heck, I’m the “middle child” out of the 3 of us lol) makes me feel really left out which is a big oof. So I’m looking forward to spending these next few days with them as well as finishing that one-shot I mentioned.

So yeah, life is gonna be somewhat hectic for me next year as I try to take baby steps into having a responsible life and be independent but overall it’s pretty good.

If you actually got this far into the post then thanks for reading about my life I guess lol.

#just a small update #i swear i'm not dead

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hellzyeahthewebwieldingavenger · 6 years ago

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War of the Realms Strikeforce: Land of Giants Thoughts

This was recommended to me and I’m rather glad it was.

I’ve said before that the best Marvel Team-Up story was in fact...Spider-Man vs. Wolverine. The intended irony of course being SvW executed MTU’s intentions better than any MTU issue itself ever did.

In a similar vein this story is perhaps the best New Avengers issue we’ve ever had, at least as far as Spider-Man was concerned.

Don’t get it twisted, I’m not saying this type of story should be the norm for Spider-Man, either in its setting or tone. Nor that New Avengers should’ve written Spider-Man like this every issue.

But in New Avengers Spider-Man seemingly existed 99% of the time to provide (bland) quips or ‘funny bits’ and otherwise to be a body to throw against bad guys along with everyone else. Little exploration of his character occurred, little use of his personality bouncing off of anyone else’s defined personality occurred. It didn’t help he often was in settings and stories Spider-Man doesn’t really belong in.

This issue weirdly follows in New Avengers footsteps as far as making Spider-Man the ‘funny guy’ and putting him in a setting he doesn’t belong in.

But unlike New Avengers stories this story goes further with that, brings in a dash of Spider-Man’s actual personality beyond being the quipper and embraces it’s premise.

As an ongoing this would probably suck. If this was in a main Spider-Man title it’d probably suck. If it was indeed outside of Spider-Man’s main title but still impacting upon him somehow it’d probably suck.

Because this issue is an odd duck in that it’s Spider-Man’s story but is not a Spider-Man story if you see what I mean.

Allow me to clarify.

A Spider-Man story traditionally is street level, grounded, personal, revolves around more relatable issues and the like. You see where I am getting at.*

This story is nothing like that. Spider-Man’s primary relationship is with a talking flying horse for God’s sake!

However because the story is from Spider-Man’s POV it is in essence his story.

And Taylor (of the current FNSM run fame) does a deft job with the assignment.

By making this a one shot that isn’t even labelled as a Spider-Man story it alleviates expectations from readers. It in essence makes it okay we are seeing a story about Spider-Man talking to a magic horse queen.

It also helps that the whole story doesn’t take itself too seriously. Unlike Bendis’ brand of quips for quips sake, inserting them into serious situations where they didn’t belong, Taylor hits what I call ‘the One Piece sweet spot’.

One Piece is a popular manga/anime franchise from Japan. It is an epic adventure full that strikes a deleicate balance between something of a gag machine, an action thriller and a heartbreaking tragedy.

The gags allow you to accept the absurdity of something like Spider-Man, Cap, Wolverine, Luke Cage and Iron Fist riding flying horses to fight Frost Giants. By rights this isn’t really the best setting or type of story for any of these characters but the gags allow you to go with it.

But there is just the right amount of pathos and gravitas and action at the right moments for there to be a level of genuine emotion to resonate with you.

You go from:

“Oh my God Spider-Man is befriending a talking flying horse queen. That’s so absurd it’s awesome”

To:

“*sob* The talking flying horse queen died. I’m so sad right now”

I think the secret ingredient holding this together is the fact that

a) It’s Spider-Man himself who’s the focus character and

b) His narration is a framing device, specifically one addressed to MJ

Spider-Man is a less gritty character compared to Luke, Danny, Steve or Logan. Of them he’s the least likely to kill and the least likely to be described as a warrior (though he is one of a fashion).

He’s the most like us basically, thus this specific setting, in spite of it being so far removed from traditional Spider-Man fare, works well to emphasis the relatability at the core of the character.

He doesn’t want to fight in a war. He’s the least at home there arguably. After all Cap and Wolverine are clear cut veterans. Danny is a trained warrior and Luke knows what it is to grow up trying to survive desperately.

This isn’t in disparagement of Peter, but rather it places him in a more sympathetic position, akin to a soldier far from home, not wanting to be there, uneasy about his presence on foreign ground, unsettled by the violence of war and trying to keep going by focussing his memories on his ‘girl back home’. Taylor found a way to bring in the ‘normal Average Joe’ aspect of Spider-Man into a setting where by rights it has no place, a setting which doesn’t invite ‘Peter Parker’ but rather just generic superhero Spider-Man.

That’s another way in which this story is weirdly connected to SvW actually. In that story Peter was also unsettled by violence, ruminating on MJ and thrown off kilter by a new unfamiliar setting and gets an up close look at death. Of course death is no stranger to Spider-Man, but a death amidst battle is a little different to something like Gwen Stacy or Uncle Ben’s death.

There is another connection though, and as obvious as it is to spell out...it’s Wolverine. This story could hardly be called a Spider-Man/Wolverine story but this story does bounce them off of one another very well. Wolverine is something of a shit stirrer who messes with Spider-Man and doesn’t wholly take him seriously (in character for him). Spider-Man is meanwhile uses him as the straight man to his humour. But there is an element of respect between them with Wolverine clearly empathising with Peter’s grief over Arctorius. This adds up, not only because Logan has seen much death in his long life, but because he has a kinship with the animal kingdom and understands all too well the loss of a comrade in arms.

So does Cap, who also shows a little empathy after Arctorius’ death. Indeed Peter and Steve’s relationship, whilst it doesn’t go as far as it could, is done quite well because Peter’s respect and admiration for Cap is clear cut and Cap gets what kind of person Peter is. Him recommending a shield is a small, obvious, yet very nice moment between the two that in a way speaks volumes.

Luke and Danny don’t share much with Spider-Man in the story but along with Logan and Cap are great inclusions in relation to Spider-Man.

Cap and Logan are soldiers who in a way are larger than life. You could see them as older brothers to Spider-Man but one who looks after you and the other likes you but trolls you too. Danny and Luke meanwhile are more street level guys like Peter. Any of these guys wouldn’t be bad options for a Spidey team up story and all are out of place in this setting. But when put together their ‘out of placeness’ works.

Helping things along is that the action is decent enough, Spider-Man’s shield attack being the clear cut highlight.

Arctorius is of course the highlight though. In a few pages Taylor makes you invest in this ridiculous concept and character and buy her relationship with Spider-Man. Thus her death and the issue’s end is poignant and resonates nicely, sad as it is.

As a final pro, Spider-Man is referred to as a jester.

This is actually a decent way of reconciling Spider-Man into a high fantasy setting. I prefer JMS’ idea of Spider-Man as the ‘trickster’ but jester works well. Even Thor in older stories has observed Spider-Man’s humour is a mask for his insecurities and Arctorius’ labelling him a jester isn’t derisive. He’s a jester warrior.

Now it ain’t perfect.

I’m no Iron Fist expert so I don’t know how fair this is, but I feel Danny was written a bit too comedic in this story to the point of being out of character.

Additionally when it came time for everyone to list of their berserker rages Spider-Man’s fell flat. It’s played off as Spider-Man is just too nice and wholesome to have such rages when there is a clear history of him having them. Death of Gwen Stacy anyone? In isolation it was a decent if predictable joke, but it’s not true to Spider-Man’s history. You could always No. Prize it but I feel it came off more like Taylor not remembering or thinking through the dialogue.

All in all I highly recommend this issue as a fun detour. It deserves your money more than League of Realms.

*Now there can be exceptions like the JMS run, but he was wise enough to temper the magic and mysticism by grounding it in more a more relatable setting most of the time or connected to more clearly defined Spider-Man topics and subject matter. For example a mystically empowered villain abducted children to the Astral plane prompting Spider-Man to go there and save them. Sounds out of place right? Well yes but the villain in question is a common crook who got lucky, he’s abducting Peter’s underprivileged students, Spidey needed to do regular street level investigation to figure out the guy’s game and saving the kids made him miss a date with MJ.

#War of the Realms #Spider-Man #Peter Parker #Wolverine #Captain America #Luke Cage #Iron Fist #Thor

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jokerfan99 · 6 years ago

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Strong Pains, Stronger Bonds (RWBY/RVB) by Necroceph

*RVB Opening Theme*

At the Blue Base

BOOOOOM!!!

Continuing to where we left off, the Blue base is being heavily besieged by the lone Red with nothing but a rocket launcher on her shoulder and the fit of inhuman rage that terrifies even Satan himself. Oh and Church became a ghost again thanks to Caboose acciddently shooting him with Crescent Rose. The continuous bombardment has destroyed 49% of the base. Their rooms are ruined, the weapons storage obliterated and Tucker's stash of monthly magazines buried under a pile of rubble. If Church were still in his body, he would've died of cardiac arrest. Now look at him!

Church: FUCK FUCK FUCK FUUUUUUUUUCCKK!!! OUR BAAASE!!! Caboose: There there, Church. At least we can camp outside!

BOOOOOOM!!!

Caboose: But first running time! Church: Wait, don't leave my body here! Caboose: Whoops, sorry!

Caboose quickly picks up Church's corpse from the floor and runs straight behind one of the defensive walls followed by Church's ghost where everbody has taken shelter in.

Tucker: HAHAHA! Church is a ghost again. Church: Don't you dare bring that up! What the fuck is wrong with your teammate?! Simmons: I don't know, I've never seen Rose this destructive before. Tucker: Never? What was she like before this? Grif: Sweet, kind, innocent, all those traits of a stereotypical girl. Tucker: Ohoho that's my type of girl. Simmons: Maybe she's here to rescue us. Grif: Rescue? Does this even look like a 'rescue' mission?! It's more like a bombardment! Church: Well I don't care what's she's here for. Stop her or something! Simmons: Like what? Church: I don't know. How you always talk to her.

Grif and Simmons look at each other. Both shrugged before removing themselves out of cover and try to stop her attack.

Grif: HEY YOU DUMB BITCH! Stop shooting or I'll eat all of your cookies! Simmons: And if you don't, I have no choice but to report Sarge about your reckless behaviour!

The angry Red responded not with words but with more barrages of rockets. The Red duo quickly duck back to cover before the bombs blow up in impact nearby.

Grif: *breath in an out* That was close! Simmons: Okay, she's far beyond our control now. Church: Ugh! We can't just stay here all day until the whole base turns to rubble! Tucker: Hey wasn't Caboose suppose to shoot her? Church: He was until the numbskull shot me, AGAIN! Caboose: I told you it was Sheila II's fault. Church: Now I don't trust him with that thing anymore. Tucker, you'll do it. Tucker: What? Why me? I do wanna get the chance to fire that thing, but shooting at a possibly hot chick? Church: Want your dick to be spared for Weiss? Tucker: Uh... yeah? Church: Then good. Caboose, give Tucker the rifle. Caboose: Okay.

Caboose hands Crescent Rose to Tucker.

Tucker: Finally! Time to finally fire this thing. Wait a minute, why don't we just use our rifles? Church: Have you ever try hitting a faraway moving target in mid range? Tucker: Good point.

Tucker got out of cover and aims the Crescent Rose at the lone Red 'Rambo' riding around the base. The warthog isn't in full speed so he didn't have to worry about aiming the gun. Once she's in his crosshair he pulls the trigger. However, just like happened with Caboose, nothing came out from the barrel. He tries again. Still nothing.

Tucker: What the-?

BABABABABABABANG!!!

Swarms of bullets fly passed the Teal One, luckily not a single shot landed on him or he'll be swiss cheese. He yelped out and jumps back into cover.

Church: What happened? Have you killed her? Grif: Sarge will be really pissed if he did. Tucker: This damn thing won't fire! Church: What?! Caboose: See I told you, Sheila has gone naughty! Church: How can that be? Caboose somehow manage to fire that thing and it worked perfectly fine! Tucker: No seriously, look!

Once Tucker pulls the trigger, he thought it won't fire, but it did. The rifle finally fired again and a high caliber bullet fly passed through Church's astral form and hits the concrete floor right between Grif's legs! Thankfully, his balls were spared!

Grif: EEEK! Watch where you're shooting, jackass! Church: T-that's exactly what happened just now! Caboose couldn't fire at that psychopath but he was able fired that thing at me! Tucker: Does this thing have a mind of it's own or what? Simmons: I think it's a mod.

Everybody turned to Simmons when they heard of what he said.

Church: What are you talking about? Simmons: That thing is made by her right? She must've installed a mod as a precaution so that it can't be allowed to harm her. Everyone: A mod? Simmons: That's right. I think I read it somewhere in a book. This mod can identify a certain body signature through a long range biometric scanner. Meaning that once it reads a certain body signature, for example the creator's, it locks the firing mechanism unless the signature is no longer in its field anymore. Church: So it can't harm it's user? That's just fucking great. Well it looks like we'll just have to rely on our crappy guns. C'mon guys, let's teach this bitch a lesson. Grif: Hey, what about us? You can't just leave us tied up here! Tucker: Hey at least those handcuffs will prevent you from escaping. Catch ya later!

At the Red Base

This is beautiful, Sarge thought. He happily looks at the devastation being laid upon the Blues by his favourite female soldier. Of all the things he sees in the war, he has never seen such a beautifully destructive battlefield happening right at his doorstep.

Sarge: Look at this, Lopez. I've seen so much war with my two old eyes, but this takes the cake. What do you think? Lopez: Es una obra maestra de un demonio. Sarge: Hahaha! Now you said it. Though it's a shame I'm not there to be apart of it. But nevertheless, it's a good view to watch. Now I wonder what those three are doing out there. If I can guess, Grif could be sitting behind a rock, traumatized by Rose's handiwork. Hahaha!

Back at the Blue Base

Grif: We're going to DIE!!!

Precisely what Grif said. The battle seems hopeless for the Blues and their Red hostages. The Blues have started launching their counter-attack at the moving Warthog and it's rider. They have manage to land a few hits on the mad Red, but it did little to stop her due to how much she dodges in that thing like an annoying fly flying around a man's face. Tucker grabs his grenade and throws it at the driver. However, Ruby grabs the bomb before it hits her face and throws it straight back to Tucker. The Teal One, while surprised by the Red's reflexes, runs away before the grenade explodes mid-air above him.

Tucker: Wow, this girl is badass than Tex! A little help Church! Church?

Tucker turned to Church, currently trying to get into his cold dead body.

Tucker: Uh, Church, what the fuck are you doing? Church: What do you think I'm doing? I'm trying to get into my body! Now how did I get in there again? Tucker: Deal with that later! Just give us a hand here with your ghost powers! Church: And do what? Go out there and scare the pants out of that crazy bitch while saying "OOOOOOH, I'm the ghost of Christmas Past!". Yeah right. I don't even look scary! Tucker: Then why not... (bullet flies above him) WOAH, that was close!... possess her body and make her stop? Church: .... Oh, I kinda forgot I can still do that. Alright just wait here while you distract her. Tucker: On it. Hey, baby! I know I recently just knew you and you probably can't hear me from here. But if you do, how about I show you a couple of moves with my rifle's barrel and then we can... Church: Not that kind of distraction, dumbass!

GHOSTLY FADE OUT EFFECT, POP

Church teleports himself on the crater filled landscape. He looks around and spots the Red driving nearby about two meters from him. The Red stops the warthog and continues firing the rocket launcher with her left arm and the assault rifle with the other. This looks like a good oppurtunity to possess her.

Church: Alright you little bitch. I'll make you cement this entire base from top to bottom.

Church runs towards Ruby. She hasn't noticed him yet so that's good. As she kept firing those guns, Church enters her body and takes control of her. Finally the battle's over! Actually, it hasn't. Ruby is still attacking the Blue base! Tucker who had seen everything, was dumbfounded to see that Church's possession had little to no effect on her.

Tucker: What the... why is Church not controlling her?!?! Caboose: I think Church is trying out the body. Tucker: Hey Church, if it's really you, quit it! It's not funny!

Suddenly, Church screamed as he gets blasted out of Ruby's body like a catapult and falls right back into his body. Church finally back in his vessel, shot up and screamed as if he had a terrible nightmare. Caboose and Tucker took notice of their fully revived leader and rushes to him.

Tucker: Church, are you okay? Church:........ WOAHOHO!!! That bitch... is MAD! Tucker: What happened out there? Church: Okay I was going to take over her body right when I was in possession and man her body's quite thin and young. When all the sudden some bright angry force pushed me out off her! JESUS, she's more madder than O'Malley! Tucker: Well at least she doesn't make that annoying laugh all the time. Caboose: But that's not the only thing I experienced. I also saw her mind and I finally found out why she's attacking us. Tucker: Rescue Grif, Simmons and Donut? Church: No. Caboose: COOKIES! Church: Not CLOSE enough. Though I did saw a big cookie floating in her head. Tucker: Me? Church and Caboose:..... Tucker: Nah, I'm kidding! So what's she really for?

Church slowly turns his head. Tucker wonders what his leader's looking and turns to where his head's facing at. He's looking at Caboose, but not exactly 'at' the Blue, but at the big red rifle, Crescent Rose hanging behind his back.

Caboose: Is there something on my nose? Oh my God, I hate spiders! Tucker: Wait, the gun? Grif: What are you guys doing over there?! Stop Rose or something! Church: Give us a minute, fatass! That's right. Her main purpose her is the gun. Tucker: W-wha? How can a kidnapped gun turn a girl into a psychopathic killer? Church: Hey, I'm no psychologist! However, if we give the gun back to her, that might stop her rampage. Tucker: Hold on, let's not try handing it back to her like gentleman. Remember. She thinks we stole it, right? Church: And the point is? Tucker: If one of us give it to her, she'll still kill us! Church: Good point. Hmm. How about.... we use it to drive her away from the base like bait. Tucker: You think that'll work? Church: Don't know but it's worth a try. Man. And I thought I might be able to try it. Tucker: Sigh, no kidding. I didn't get the chance to shoot someone's ass with it. But's it's better than getting blown to smithereens. Church: Then that's a yes. Caboose, I'm sorry to say this but... Caboose: Okay. Church: You know... I kinda like cause you have no idea about what I just said. Caboose: Oh no it'd be nice for the gun to go back to its mommy. It's nice knowing you, Sheila II. Church: Now that all of us agreed, the question is, how do we get out of here? If we try moving it by foot, that psycho will run us down with that bike. Tucker: I don't think we have to move at all. Be right back!

Several 7.62mm FMJs and 102mm rockets later.

BOOOOM!!!

There goes another wall and a roll of duct tape. Tucker has fully wrapped both Donut's unconscious body and Crescent Rose together, as well as the proposition for Grif's and Simmon's s̶l̶a̶v̶e̶ ̶l̶a̶b̶o̶r̶ imprisoment to Sarge. The base is beginning to look real bad. Half the roof is gone and much of the interior has collapse. Whatever they're planning, they better do it quick.

Tucker: The way we saw how strong Caboose hit that grenade gave me an idea. If he swings and strike them hard enough, he might be able to launch them across the canyon to the Red base. Caboose: Yay, golf time! Tucker: That's exactly what I'm thinking. Once the babe sees her weapon flying with Donut, she'll be drawn to it. Church: If she sees her rifle that is. Simmons: What about Donut? Wouldn't he get hurt badly once he hits the ground? Grif: Simmons, may I remind that Donut survived an explosion to the face and got crushed by a falling pelican. Simmons: Oh I guess he'll be alright. But aside from baiting Rose, you sure Caboose can launch an object that far before? Tucker: You could've seen what he did to a golfball. Simmons: What happened to it?

BOOOOOM!!!

The explosion made the remind of their current situation.

Church: No time to explain that! Tucker, let's give Caboose some cover! Tucker: On it! Here Caboose, you'll need this.

Tucker gives Caboose a long pipe with a 90 degrees pipe elbow at the end similar to golf club.

Tucker: Remember how you launch that golfball to the sky? Caboose: Oh yeah, it flew right out of orbit and hit straight at our satellite. Then we didn't get an TV reception for a week and... Tucker: Yeah something like that but, just do it softly this time. Caboose: Aye aye, chief! Church: TUCKER! Tucker: Coming!

Tucker leaves Caboose to his job. Caboose then walks towards the duct tape wrapped unconsious Donut and rifle before standing next to them. He then positioned himself in the good old golf set up and places the end of the pipe next to the human sized makeshift ball. But before he could swing, Donut finally regains consciousness.

Donut: Ugh, what happened? Caboose: Hi, Donut! Donut: C-Caboose? What are you doing with that pipe and... why am I tied up in duct tape? And why is Crescent Rose tied up behind me? Caboose: Yeah we're suppose to drive the monster away from us by getting Sheila II with you out of here. Donut: Monster.... Sheila II?

Donut is completely confused until he looked around the devastation around him. He is shocked to see the Blue base in a complete wreck!

Donut: Holy bananas! You guys need some serious renovatons around here! Caboose: Oh don't worry, Simmons and Grif will be in charge on that.

A familiar mongoose engine from nearby caught his attention. He turned to see a familiar colored armor and cape riding on his team's ATV. It's Ruby, firing a rocket launcher and an assault rifle each in both her hands! Though why is her eyes glowing?

Donut: Is that Ruby? Caboose: Donut, would you help me with something? Donut: Uh yeah sure? Caboose: Would you kindly... posture yourself like how we did when we were in our moms' bellies. Donut: You mean fetal position?

Donut did what Caboose ordered him. He curved his back, bows his head and wraps both his legs with his arms.

Donut: Like this? What's the point in it? Caboose: I'm going to strike you like a golfball with this pipe and launch you back to your base. Donut: Wait... WHAAAAT?!?! Caboose: FOOOOOOORRREEE!!!

Caboose raises the pipe above him, swings it hard and strikes the poor pink Red (I mean 'lightish red') to the sky! Donut screams in both pain and terror as he flies through the sky like a human cannonball.

Donut: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!! Hey, I can see our base from here!

Meanwhile back on the ground, the blast off Donut caught Ruby's attention, briefly pausing her destruction. As if she had super sight, she spots a flat long red object strapped behind Donut. Crescent Rose. No doubt about it. Like a moth to a flame, she turns the mongoose around and follows the flying object. Back on the Blue's roof, everyone looked to witness the monster finally leaving their base alone.

Caboose: Bye, Sheila II! Welp, time to get the broom.

At the Red Base

Sarge: What in Sam Hill did I just saw, Lopez? It looked like something flew off from there! Lopez: Parece algo lanzado en su base.

Was Sarge imagining things or did he just saw the Blue hit something and launched it like a golfball. As his mind begins to process of what the hell happened, his ears caught something of what sounded like a familiar girly scream coming closer and closer from above him. He lowers his binoculars and looks up to see a ball of pink heading directly straight at him!

Donut: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!! Sarge: Aah fiddlesticks.

CRASH!!!

Sarge didn't had time to dodge the incoming projectile and the object lands directly on top of him. The crash while may look painful, Lopez nonetheless laughed upon seeing what has befallen upon his leader.

Lopez: LOL! Habla de un aterrizaje forzoso!

Some of his bones are broken, but he's been through worse. Sarge groaned in pain as he looks at the pink object now lying on top of him. To his surprise, it's none other than Pvt. Delano Donut tied up in duct tape with what seems to be Crescent Rose on his back. Wait, Crescent Rose is on his back, he thought!

Sarge: Good golly Miss Molly! You got Crescent Rose back! Donut: Oh hi, Sarge!

Both got up from each other as they push the dust all over them.

Sarge: Status report! What are doing tied up with Crescent Rose in duct tape? And where did those two go? Donut: I have no idea. I was firing the gun on the Blues with them driving, when all the sudden everything went black like something hit me on the head. Sarge: Yes, I can see why.

Unbeknownst to Donut, the grenade Caboose hit back is still stuck on his head. Sarge and Lopez just took notice of it.

Lopez: Sr. Sarge, ¿deberíamos estar preocupados por eso? Sarge: Yes tell us more. Donut: Well when I woke up, the first thing I heard were gunshots and explosions everywhere. POW! PEW! BANG! I learned I was tied up in duct tape with Crescent Rose here and the next thing I saw was Caboose standing above me holding a pipe. He then talked some monster attacking their base and driving it away. I think he was referring to Ruby for some reason, she was on the Mongoose with a... rocket launcher? Lopez: ¡Ya te lo dije! ¡Hijo de Mictlāntēcutli! Donut: After that, he told me to get into a fetal position and then, he striked me with the pipe like a golfball! Sarge: Well that explains everything. But at least we got Crescent Rose back. Though what I don't understand is what you mean't by 'driving it away'? Lopez: ¡¡¡JADEAR!!! ¿Podría ser?

Heavy footsteps caught all the three's attention. They slowly turned to Ruby ascending up the stairs as black aura flickers like flame all over her. She removes her helmet, revealing the same demonic face of burning bright eyes Lopez first saw half an hour ago. Sarge is recoiled by the sight of her and Donut, upon seeing Ruby in such a wrathful state, awed in horror at his teammate's horrying state. Ruby then focuses her monstrous eyes at one of them, Donut to be exact.

Ruby: Cre-Crescent....... Roooooossse? Donut: R-Rose? Are y-you okay? You looked like you could use some m-m-milk Lopez: ¡Donut, hablar con ello es inútil! Sarge: Donut, get it off your back. Donut: What? Sarge: I said get Crescent Rose off your back before she tears your poor soul APART!!!! Lopez: ¡DEMASIADO TARDE! ¡MIRA! Ruby: GYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!

As if by instant, Ruby viciously lunges herself like a leopard to Donut.

Sarge: You're on your own! Lopez: Adios, Donut!

Sarge grabs Lopez's head and ducks into cover, however Donut was too shocked by the incoming terror that his body was too paralyzed to dodge her. The last thing he would see was the wild demonic face that is Ruby's as her hands are about to reach out to him like sharp claws! Oh the humanity!

Donut: OOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Donut closes his eyes and braces himself for the horrifying pain. But instead of claws driving through his chest and his organs ripped off, all he felt was a gust of wind passing by. Confused, he slowly opened his eyes and sees Ruby not going to attack him but, happily bawling out while hugging Crescent Rose?!

Ruby: My Sweetheart!!!

Okay this is just too sudden, even for Master Chief's standards. Sarge and Lopez too were stupefy to see what the hell just happened, Lopez mostly. Donut on the other hand, is astonished by Ruby's cute renunion with her weapon.

Donut: Aww! Lopez: ¡¿Qué demonios acaba de pasar?! ¿Por qué no lo ha destrozado? Sarge: That's it? No mutilation, no spine ripping? That was the most disappointing fatality I have ever seen! Donut: But look how Rose going! Ruby: Imissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyou!

Ruby finally noticed the men looking at her. She stopped, realizing how awkward she was doing with her weapon like an immature kid. Wait, she is immature.

Ruby: Uuhm. Forget what you saw. Sarge: What in holy macaroon was that about that! Donut: For the moment there I thought you were going to rip me apart. Ruby: I'm sorry! I kinda lose control when it comes to stuff and family. Heehee! Sarge: And you caused a lot of mayhem for that? That's why you're my favourite markswoman. Lopez: ¿Pero sigues siendo el hijo de Mictlāntēcutli? Ruby: I'll translate what you said later, Lopez. By the way, Donut, where's Simmons and Grif? Weren't you with them just now? Donut: I was, until I got knocked out that is Sarge: Hmm, what's this?

Sarge rips off of what seems to be a piece of paper taped behind Donut written in blue ink. Everyone comes closer so see what it contains. It reads:

"Dear, Sarge of Red Team. I'm sure you have questions about your other two soldiers, but as you might already know we have taken them prisoners for some 'personal affairs'. But in exchange for them, we return back your other teammate and the weapon we stole from you. Once we're done with them, we can bring them back to you. Or if you're too impatient, be my guess, but just wait till we cement the whole place please! P.S. DON'T BRING THAT PSYCHOPATHIC RED IF YOU'RE GONNA RESCUE THEM!!!"- Love, Leonard L. Church.

Ruby: Oh no, we got to rescue them! Sarge: Nah, I'm sure they're fine. At least we got your weapon back. Ruby: Yeah but I'm now starting to feel sorry for them. Maybe we should rescue them- Sarge: Simmons might live through imprisonment, but Grif on the other hand... hehe... that's a completely different story. Ruby: Are you sure cause- EEEEP!!! DONUT, IS THAT A GRENADE ON YOUR HEAD? Donut: What?!

Ruby hands Donut a miniature mirror from her belt. He looked through the reflection and is shocked to see the grenade.

Sarge: Oh yeah, I forgot to mention. Donut, you got a grenade stuck to your head. And the pin's off Donut: PIN'S OFF?! AAAAAAHHHH!!! GET IT OFF ME, GET IT OFF ME, GET IT OFF ME! Sarge: Calm down, it hasn't exploded! Damn thing must've misfired. Now hold still while I... Ruby: WAIT! If we try pulling it out by hand, it could explode! Donut: OH NOHOHOOOO! Ruby: We should call, Command for help! Sarge: That'll take too long to get them here! What this boy need is a good old quick yank with this old paw. Donut: Wait, Sarge! SAAAARGE!!! Ruby: Oh boy.

Back at the Blue Base (again)

With that fiasco with the Red over. All that's left is to clean up the place before Weiss comes back. Tucker drops the last bag of cement on top of more piles of the stuff and tools to cement the whole base back to it's proper shape.

Tucker: Here you are. Enough stuff to fix this whole place up. Enjoy boys. Grif: Fuck you! Sigh. So, Simmons, how long do you think will this take to cement this place? Simmons: Well based on the calculated damage here, I'd say a whole week... non stop. Grif: ... DAMN, YOU ROSE!!!

The two idiots grab the stuff to get into working, while Church, Caboose and Tucker relaxed themselves on their UNSC issued beach chairs.

Tucker: Shouldn't we help them so this might speed this up? Church: After what we've been through today? Nah! Considered this a lesson learned for them. Tucker: Hmm, I guess so. Hey, servants! Make sure the walls are smooth like silk! Grif and Simmons: Auugh! Church: Hehehe! And as long as we make them work HARDER, this will be done before Schnee gets back.

As Church sip a drink through his helmet, his peace was interrupted by a loud and ear piercing...

Weiss: WHAT IN GOD'S NAME HAPPENED HERE!!!!!!!

The sudden scream made Church spew out his drink in his helmet (gross!). They Blues turned to the source and to their horror, Weiss is standing above the stairway with a shocked expression. Yep, she's back from Command.

Church: S-Schnee?!?! Tucker: Hey... eh... Schnee.... You're back early. Hehehe. Caboose: Hi, Weiss! How's your trip at Command?

Weiss slowly turned her head to the relaxing Blues. Her shocked turned to anger that they have never seen before. She gets closer to them as she grits her teeth, making the Blue's aside from Caboose, swallow their throats.

Weiss: CHURCH... TUCKER... CABOOSE... I was given an early leave after Command was done with me. While on the way, I expected nothing bad would happen while I was absent. However, I incidently come across a pile of rocks what was once our base while YOU DOPES RELAX ON YOUR CHAIRS AND SIP A GLASS OF LEMONADE?!?! YOU PIECES OF... Schnee remember, swearing is unladylike... gasp... YOU PIECES OF UNPROFESSIONAL TRASH!!! I HAVE NEVER SEEN SUCH MANNER HAS BEFALLEN ON OUR BASE AND YOU DID NOTHING... NOTHING!... TO PREVENT THIS FROM HAPPENING! WHERE I LIVE, WE DO IT IN A MORE FAST AND PRECISE WAY AGAINST THE ENEMY, NOT THE SLOW AND IMPRECISE WAY! AND WHAT IS THIS?! OUR COVERS FROM SNIPERS ARE DESTROYED, LEAVING ALL OF US INVUNERABLE ENEMY SNIPERS! DO YOU THINK WAR IS REALLY THAT SIMPLE? THIS IS- Ahem! This is unacceptable.

Weiss returns back to her calm demeanor after a lengthy speech of wrath upon her team. Despite her petite size, her voice mixed with her fury were so powerful that it feels like their souls were about to shatter like glass. And the look of her beautiful eyes turned to fury just now, was soul trembling. Church and Tucker were fully stunned by what happened, but as for Caboose? Still the same old oblivious Caboose.

Tucker: Talk about a girl with fire. Weiss: Moving to the matter at hand, what happened here? Church, Tucker and Caboose: Uhh... Weiss: ANSWER THE QUESTION! Church: Okay okay, 'Ms Drill Seargent', it's those idiots' fault! Grif: Hey, our girl did it, not us!

Church points Weiss to the men responsible for this mess, still cementing a once destroyed wall. Grif and Simmons. Both of them are surprised by this teammate for this is the first time they have met her.

Grif: Uhh... is she new here? Simmons: Kinda, I've never seen her face before. Church: Oh, I forgot you guys haven't met. Weiss, Grif. Weiss, Simmons. Grif, Weiss. Simmons, Grif. Grif: 'Sup. Simmons: Hello, nice to meet... GAH.

Simmons yelp when Weiss approaches them at a surprising speed. She didn't say anything to them yet, but examines as they also examine her. Although they haven't met her, their instincts are telling them to get out off this planet. She looked around the chaos and back at them.

Weiss: You two... did this? Grif: Yeah.. well no... NO! We didn't 'actually' wreck the base, we pressed our teammate's berserk button by framing your team they have her weapon but it went from bad to worse. Simmons: Shouldn't we explain it a lot more understandable?

Suddenly, a jolt of electricity smacked Simmons at the visor. His helmet protected him, but it stings like hell! Grif helped Simmons to get up before both of them look up to see what had just hit them. In Weiss' left hand is a whip, an electro whip. That was lucky for Simmons. If she had tune it to 'High' it would've killed him.

Weiss: You both will explain right after you two FINISH CEMENTING THAT WALL UNTIL A SINGLE CRACK IS GONE!!! AND IF YOU DO NOT FINISH IT BY THE END OF THE HOUR, I'LL SEND YOU BOTH STRAIGHT TO BLUE'S CORRECTIONAL FACILITY AS P.O.W.s! DO I MAKE MYSELF CLEAR?! Grif and Simmons: Yes, m-m-ma'am! Weiss: Good. And if you need any breaks, you are free to do so for five minutes. Now chop chop, boys!

Grif and Simmons rush back to their workplace and continue cementing as fast as before like loyal obedient servants. Church, Tucker and Caboose are amazed by what Weiss did and that whip she somehow got her hands on.

Tucker: When did she get that? Church: Wow. You might be fit emough to be a drill sergeant after all. Weiss: Thank you. I learned a thing or two from my sister. Tucker: Man, I would like to see your sister. Now if you'll excuse me, babe. We'll be there relaxing our asses and... Weiss: Hold it right there, I'm not done talking you dopes! Tucker: Sigh. What is it? Weiss: You need explain everything, I mean all of it, of what happened here! Church: What? Aren't you going to interrogate them later? Weiss: I need both parties' testimony. Unlike those prisoners here, you'll be writting in a formal documentation and submit it to me, ten thousand words. Church: Ten thousand words long?! Weiss: As well as indoor repairs. Tucker: Indoor repairs?! That will be those guys job too! Weiss: Consider this a punishment for your lack of caution here. UNLESS YOU WOULD LIKE ME TO CONTACT COMMAND ABOUT YOU AND GIVE SOME PROPER DISCIPLINE LIKE THOSE REDS! As a Sangheili said. "The more the workers, the more faster we can fix this place up." Tucker: Hold on, what about Caboose? What will he do? Weiss: While I'm in charge in making the prisoners work fast and their interrogation, his job is to keep them from escaping. Caboose: Yay! Church: What? That's not as bad as ours! Weiss: Ahem... Command? Church: Sigh. "Don't tell Sarge." they say. "We'll fix this place." they say. Grif : Hey, you forced us to fix this place!

Grif gets silenced by Weiss elctro whip again.

Weiss: KEEP WORKING, SCUM! Now off to writting you two! Caboose: See ya later guys! Church: Sigh, we should've let that Red kill us in the first place. Tucker: Not me. I'm planning to hook up with her once she cools down. Grif: Hey, Simmons? Simmons: Yeah? Girf: Telling the truth and get shot by Sarge would've been a lot more merciful than this. Simmons: *Sob*! Yeah, it should have.

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Dark Night: The God of Mischief

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Description: Basically, we get a closer look on how are things going for Mae 4 years later and Loki is about to fuck it up big time.

Warnings for the whole fic: yes, a lot. Strong language such as cursing, violence of course, death yes, also spoilers for all the MCU movies already released to date, and also a lot of fluff cause yeah lol I love fluff. AND ANGST.

Words: 3.044 (omg lol)

Note: maybe some chapters will be written on third person. And oh my fucking god, I’m so sorry, I’m like months later for this but trust me, moving to another country by yourself and starting from 0 really fucks up with your feelings and your mind. And I’m not saying I’m good now but I’m better than some months ago, and I feel like I got my muse back, so yep. Sorry, but I’m here!

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4 years later.

2017, actuality. Earth time.

It was hilarious.

I could hear the guards screaming at each other while getting frustrated as they kept running and chasing me down the halls, or more accurately, chasing my illusion down the halls. Meanwhile I was calmly watching them, sitting just a store above them. I was in that part of the castle that only royalty or high military could get in, and they were chasing me because I was neither of those, but I always managed to get my way in.

I always did because that was the part of the castle I had to see Loki almost every night, after everyone in there went to sleep, except the guards of course.

I was already upstairs and running a little late to my training but oh, it was so much fun to see how confused and frustrated they kept getting, but now I really had to go so I just made the illusion go away and seconds later I could hear the guards arguing about who missed me out of sight first while I just walked away of them. I let out a little chuckle as I started to hear the fight that was starting between them.

It was a classic, and almost every night they still fell for it.

But it wasn’t always like that, I remember how the first time I tried to sneak up on them they nearly killed me, for real, because they caught me so easily. They had their swords ready to slay me but they were stopped by Loki dressed up as Odin just seconds before they did, I was scared to death but he said that I needed to get over it and learn how to sneak up on people because that would help me in my training.

I didn’t want to do it the first times, but when I finally succeeded I knew that he was right, every time it just got easier and easier to sneak in without them knowing and for me it started to be a hobbie. It was actual, real fun.

I liked it so much that I didn’t sneak in that part of the castle only, but in many other places too. I’ve seen places of Asgard no one has been able to see before, because they are restricted areas and I’m proud of myself for doing it, and Loki should be too… but he doesn’t quite know about that.

I mean, not that he cared neither.

‘’Miss Mae’’, I heard as I entered the room and a dagger flew to my face right away. ‘’You’re late’’

‘’Fuck off’’, I said as I quickly took the dagger just before it hit me and threw it back at him. I tried not to smile as I saw him taking it again with such ease. It was weird to see Odin moving that smoothly.

‘’Why are you late Mae, are you playing with my guards again?’’, he asked while making the dagger disappear in thin air. I smiled in response and he just smiled back, knowing that he was right.

‘’Why are you still in your Odin disguise, anyway?’’, I asked as I left my stuff on the table and looked at him, I learned that I always had to be aware of everything. And more if Loki was around.

After all he was the God of Mischief, so things could turn… an amusement for him, dangerous for me.

‘’I wanted to trick you’’, the Odin figure quickly vanished as Loki suddenly whispered in my ear. He tried to attack me but I quickly blocked him, rejecting his punches and trying to punch him back. ‘’But I see you’ve gotten faster… and stronger, and smarter too’’. Loki said as he smiled and we both took some steps back.

‘’Yeah, I really don’t like to be taken by surprise… for example, being stabbed, that hurt a lot by the way’’, I said as I frowned and remembered what happened some nights ago, Loki just smiled at the memory and I made a face remembering the pain I had to go through for some days.

‘’My bad, I’m sorry’’

‘’You’re not sorry Loki’’. I knew he wasn’t, I didn’t have anything against him though. Even after all the things he has done, like throwing knifes at me and major things like when he threw me off the stairs just for, and I quote ‘’training’’. I just, from the bottom of my heart, didn’t hold anything back against him.

‘’No, you’re right, I’m not. Besides it was for training… and fun’’, he let out a laugh as he walked towards the table and served himself a cup of wine. ‘’You survived, and that’s what matters Mae’’.

‘’Oh yeah, I think that’s not the right thing to say to someone you stabbed… actually, you shouldn’t stab people on the first place but alright’’

‘’Again, it was for training and you’re perfectly fine!’’, Loki said as he put down his empty cup of wine and looked back at me. ‘’Now come on, stop whining and get in position’’

‘’Already am, Lo, I already am’’, I whispered as I smiled and looked at him, my gown disappearing as I just made the change of clothes to some more comfortable, it was a simple magic trick I learnt the first weeks we started to practice with the Asgardian Magic.

Loki smiled kind of proud of me and the magic trick I just performed, and then the training begun.

Sometimes it consisted of him teaching me his tactics during fights, some other times it was just him trying to teach me his mind tricks, most of the times it was just physical fights and some other occasions we just focused on training the mind, such as perfecting my astral projection and my illusions, which got better with time, of course. Sadly the magic lessons stopped when he noticed that I learnt everything that he could teach me.

And to be honest, the training was fun most of the time, but sometimes it really wasn’t. Like when he stabbed me or maybe kicked me too hard that even the next day it was still hurting, so yeah, sometimes it wasn’t really that nice. But I still looked forward to it; training was almost like an addiction.

Because after all, even the bad things would help me to be stronger and better for the reason he was teaching me all of this. I still didn’t know the whole plan, but I knew it had to do with the avengers and with the fact that I had to pull them away from the inside.

I knew it was going to be hard since the day he told me about it, but I agreed because I felt Loki trusted me enough to do so… oh, and also because he threatened me to agree, so I really didn’t have many options, besides it was still going to take some more years till I was completely ready for the task.

And for going back to Earth, which was my less favourite part of the plan, if I was honest.

‘’You need to be faster with your comebacks, I’ve always said it’’, Loki said as he kept directing punches at me and I rejected them.

‘’I am faster’’, I whispered as I took one dagger from my boot and threw it at him. He unexpectedly took it and redirected it at me, as soon as I saw it coming my way I just closed my eyes and tried to protect my face as much as I could, it took me completely off guard because he has never redirected the daggers I’ve thrown at him before.

I mean, he has thrown me daggers, of course. But his daggers, never mine.

‘’Huh… exactly, that’s what I’m talking about’’.

So I just opened my eyes, a bit confused at what he said and a lot confused as why I didn’t feel the familiar sensation of the blade going through my skin. The first thing I saw was the dagger floating in the air just centimeters away from me, it was being held in a purple matter as it moved weirdly.

‘’All right, you can stop it’’, Loki said as he started to walk my way.

‘’Sure’’, I said as the matter disappeared and then the dagger just fell on the floor, when it hit the floor it just became ashes. ‘’Ow man, no way, that was my favourite dagger’’.

‘’So you’ve been practicing with your ability’’, Loki said as he stood next to me. He knew he didn’t teach me how to do that, and if I was honest I really didn’t know how I did it.

‘’Everyday’’, sometimes I even felt like it practiced on its own. And did things on its own, too.

‘’Impressing, I got to say’’, he nodded and then just smiled a bit. ‘’You are more ready than I thought you would be by now’’

‘’What?’’, I asked immediately, totally confused. We both were panting a bit and my hair was a total mess so I just started to put it in a pony tail.

‘’Yes… you just need to trust more in yourself. You have the best professor, so you totally know what to do and how to do it’’

I just rolled my eyes at what he said and then just looked at him, he smiled a bit more:

‘’But yes, even your subconscious and your reflexes know what to do. That’s a good sign’’

‘’Yeah… I guess you are right’’, he nodded and then I just saw him putting his arm up as he got closer, at first I thought he was going to pat my back on that weird way he always does but as soon as he got too close I realized he was trying to make a trick on me, or that’s what it felt like, so I quickly pushed him away with a kick on his chest and then just held him on the air for some seconds.

‘’Ouch!’’, he said as he put his hands above the part where I kicked him. ‘’What the hell was that for?’’, he asked while frowning.

‘’You were totally going to strangle me, or something’’, I said while relaxing a bit as he was now in the air and away from me.

‘’Huh… no’’, he said confused and a bit mad now. ‘’I was totally going to congratulate you and give you a hug’’

‘’A hug?’’, I frowned.

‘’Yes, a freaking hug’’, he rolled his eyes and then just looked down at me. ‘’Would you mind putting me down again?’’

‘’Huh, yeah… sorry’’, and then I just made him go down. He fixed his hair as he murmured something about how he couldn’t believe he had to ask that to a kid.

‘’Alright, training is over kid… now, come here’’, I hesitated but I did, and then he just hugged me.

Loki was hugging… me. Okay. Weird enough.

‘’What’s going on?’’, I asked as I hugged him back, weirdly.

It was odd, it felt odd. I really didn’t do hugs.

‘’You’re just… a really good student, the best one’’

‘’The only one too’’, I commented and then he just laughed as he stopped hugging me.

‘’And the best one’’

‘’Alright, thanks… weird of you to say this, but thanks’’

He rolled his eyes and went back to the snack table he always had in that room:

‘’I’m just being nice! Why can’t you take it?’’

‘’Because... when you are nice it feels like it’s error 404 to me’’

‘’Huh?’’

‘’Nevermind’’, I smiled at my own joke.

‘’Alright. Tomorrow there won’t be training sessions, by the way’’, he commented as he took some grapes.

‘’Huh, why not? It’s Friday night’’

‘’Because you have to be up early on Saturday for the theatre’’

‘’Oh… it’s that time of the month already, huh?’’

‘’Yes!’’, I just rolled my eyes as I changed myself back to my gown. ‘’You need to go’’

‘’I always go’’, he nodded.

‘’I know.’’

‘’Good’’, I just walked next to him and grabbed a bit of water from the table.

We were silent for a couple of minutes, until he finally spoke:

‘’So… I really need you to be earlier than ever so you can help with the scenario’’

‘’Oh God, I knew you weren’t being nice just for the sake of being nice’’, I replied as I looked at him.

‘’You’re the only one who knows the right placing of things’’

‘’Alright Lo… I’ll go earlier only if you say the magic words’’

‘’If you don’t, I’ll kill you’’

‘’Geez, no…’’, but he just laughed.

‘’I’m kidding… but please, would you do it?’’

And I smiled, because Loki could be actually nice if he wanted to:

‘’Alright’’

‘’Great’’, and he smiled immediately.

Today something will happen. Like, totally.

I could feel it, it was in the air, in the way the sky looked this morning and more important in the way I could feel the energy around me. It was electric… I could even say it felt… thundering.

‘’I can’t believe you’re making them do this play again’’ I said as I walked to where Loki was already sitting.

‘’Everyone likes The Tragedy of Loki of Asgard!’’, Loki as Odin replied, he was drinking his favourite wine, as always.

‘’Come on’’, I rolled my eyes as I just looked how everyone started to gather around us, they were excited about being there. And he was right, people always cried at that play.

‘’You love it’’, he added.

‘’I don’t’’, I kind of did.

‘’Everyone does’’, he said again with a smile.

‘’I really don’t’’, I repeated.

‘’By the way, good morning Mae’’, he looked up at me as he smiled. ‘’The stage looks amazing today’’

‘’Good morning, my King. And thanks’’, I smiled and then just looked at the scenario, he was right, it looked amazing.

I then looked around and some people pretended to be doing something else, but I knew they were looking at me, because they always did. I sometimes wondered why the Asgardians didn’t ask why the human girl, as they used to call me, was always that close to the King. I mean, they looked at me bad but the way some of them did wasn’t as bad as some years ago.

They looked and talked, but they never asked. They never questioned it.

They rejected me most of the times and sometimes they even laughed at me, but never questioned why Odin always had me around. And I used to think it was maybe a magic trick from Loki, but no, it wasn’t because one day I asked him and he just said: ‘’they never question it because you have never done anything bad to them, if you come in peace they will keep at peace’’.

And even if Asgardians were sometimes weird with me, I liked that about them.

‘’Oh, there we go’’, Loki disguised as Odin said, so excited that he even seemed like a child.

‘’Yep, here we go’’, I murmured.

And the play started. It was the convergence, the battle with the dark elves and then the death of Loki, I’ve seen this play at least some 50 times and the people around me too, and they never seemed to get bored of it.

But I did, I mean it was funny to see how everyone laughed, screamed and cried, sometimes all at the same time. But oh god, it was almost always the same play and you know, you grow out of things if they are always the same.

But today, it really wasn’t going to be the same and I could feel it. I couldn’t tell if it was going to be a good thing or not.

‘’Huh’’, I turned around as I heard something in the distance… the Bifrost was welcoming someone… and that was rather strange.

I turned around again as I saw one man already crying out loud at the death of Loki, on the play of course, and the real Loki disguised as Odin totally into the play, saying the lines of the actors before them.

Ugh, sometimes he really could be something else.

‘’Somebody help!’’, the fake Lady Sif ran away of the stage while crying.

I turned around again as I heard people in the distance murmuring something, they were a bit far from the scenario and something was happening in the entrance, but I couldn’t see because so many people were there. And then people laughed a bit as the actor playing Loki mentioned that he was sorry about turning Thor into a frog.

The real Loki laughed as well and I just smiled trying to imagine that moment, but something felt off and no one else seemed to notice it but me.

After not seeing anything weird at all I just turned around again to watch the end of the play for the now 51st time, but something caught my eye and… oh God.

Oh, literal God of Thunder.

Thor. That was Thor.

He was back in Asgard and he was now looking at Loki disguised as Odin, and the way he was looking at him wasn’t the way Thor would look at his beloved father.

Oh shit, he knew it. And I knew that he knew it… but I couldn’t tell Loki, besides he was way too into the play to even pay attention to me and whatever I’d say.

Damn, this will be a mess.

I couldn’t keep staring at Thor, no one else seemed to notice him though but then he suddenly looked at me, I kind of smiled and he did too, but then he just kept looking at Loki in that strange way, and I knew that he knew that wasn’t Odin. People suddenly cheered and screamed, while congratulating the actors when the play finished. Loki stood up, too.

‘’Bravo! Bravo!’’, he said while applauding and smiling.

‘’Loki… Loki, dammit, Loki!’’, I tried to whisper as low as possible, but no, he didn’t even listen.

‘’Father’’, Thor suddenly said, taking everyone’s attention, especially Loki’s.

‘’Oh, shit’’, Loki and I said both in unison.

Oh, real shit.

Next Issue:

Dark Night: The God of Thunder.

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When Fandom Ain’t Fun: A Frank Talk by QPOC - WisCon 41 panel write-up

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Disclaimers:

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When Fandom Ain’t Fun: A Frank Talk by QPOC

Moderator: Mark Oshiro. Panelists: ANerdCalledRage, Tanya D. (Katherine Cross listed, but unable to attend)

#WhenFandomAintFun - for the livetweets

Mark introduced himself by saying he was glad to be getting to do this with his friends who also yell about stuff on the internet (he’s Mark of Mark Reads, Mark Watches, etc.)

ANerdCalledRage asked to be identified by her twitter handle and not her real identity due to some issues that happened during livetweeting of a previous panel. I’m not entirely sure this meant for post-panel write-ups, but we’ll go with that to be on the safe side until/unless I hear otherwise.

Tanya introduced herself as someone who is active in talking about diversity in games (#INeedDiverseGames), and said that for some reason she’s still in the BioWare fandom online.

Mark holds up Tanya’s mug that read White Tears and said “it’s already full!” Tanya replied - “I’ve already been on a panel today.”

Tanya discussed how trying to talk about her own intersections as a black queer woman gets complaints about “harshing our glee” and “but why can’t I just...”

They all joke about being old, brown, tired and queer. (This is a theme repeated often throughout the panel)

Mark asked the panelists to talk about a time when fandom stopped being fun for them.

ANerdCalledRage replied with a time she and Mark were at a con and on a Firefly panel together - she’s a huge huge fan of Firefly while acknowledging it has issues. They were the only two poc on the panel. The moderator, a white man, made a lynching joke and a white woman on the panel continued on and made a second one. ANerdCalledRage was like “what are you doing - do you not see me right here?” She got a blank look in return - no one knew they’d done anything wrong.

While explaining why she’s not on tumblr, ANerdCalledRage remarked “oh I know - all the discourse - fuck your discourse!”

She talked some more about the Firefly panel above and said that at one point she made the remark that it’s dangerous to deify creators because they’re human and can make mistakes and people freaked out defending Joss Whedon.

Mark added that they’d even softballed any criticisms they had and still got such bad reactions in return. There’s this idea that cons are this happy fun space - but sometimes that happens at the expense of other people. Mark will rat people and cons out online for treating him badly, and has gained the reputation of “Mark the Con Killer”.

He talked about a time that a stranger on a panel called him a “fruitcake” (which he says he is fine with his friends saying to him btw), but it was so upsetting to him that he just shut down and stopped talking for the rest of the panel.

Mark brought this issue up to the con organizers and was told “well that’s just his sense of humor...” Mark was like “obviously - I do understand how jokes work, but still - “.

Tanya said that she gets this whenever she writes opinion pieces. One time she was discussing the racefail in Dragon Age and people responded telling her that she hates DA. Actually - she really loves the game series. She also gets told “you’re just making this about race.” She responded with “well yes, I’m brown. Every day. It affects me. Every day.”

Tanya was approached to write about a Switch game in which black women’s hair was used as a weapon. She had issues with this. Someone tracked down her personal account and told her she’s a horrendous person in reply. Then they said “have a nice day.”

She said she has stopped interacting with the Overwatch fandom due to pushback on intersectional issues. She talked about how she can’t just separate out her identities.

ANerdCalledRage added that no one can do that. We can’t just turn parts of ourselves off to create things or enjoy things - especially parts of ourselves that are forced upon us by our oppressors.

Mark brought up that qpoc are often pushed ashed even when they’re not talking about intersectionality.

Tanya replied with a story about some fanart that was created shortly after the release of images of a new character in a BioWare game. She was a dark woman, but the fan said they “improved” the image by giving her different lips, nose, hair, etc. Tanya said it was like being erased before she could even interact with this game. We can’t even exist in digital worlds! “You already have everything - can’t I just have this one character?”

ANerdCalledRage said she has mixed feeling about the character Bilquis on American Gods. She loved watching her swallowing a cishetwhiteman with her vagina, but she knows how the character ends up in the book.

She also talked about Thandie Newton’s character in The Chronicles of Riddick - a kind of Lady Macbeth character who has too much ambition, is too aggressive. She finally got to see herself in a role like that - but it was still very pigeonholed and the character is demonized.

ANerdCalledRage discussed the difficulty in watching a piece of herself being degraded just for being herself and fighting for what she believes in. Yet she was told by the fandom to just be Grateful for getting this representation. Saying things like that makes fandom less fun, and less inviting - isn’t that what fandom is supposed to be - sharing the things you love with others - don’t you want to share it??

Mark brought up the check boxes issue. As an example he brought up Supernatural (”I can’t believe I’m going to say something positive about this show...”) season 11 where there were queer hunters and one of the them was Latino - AND they got to live at the end. But people in the fandom were saying it was not believable to have someone who was both queer and Latino - it must be the writers just checking boxes.

Mark added that yes, sometimes white creators do this annoying thing of just checking boxes, but that’s not what he saw in this example. This idea that someone can’t be more than one thing is frustrating.

“I guess I don’t exist then - I’m just an astral projection of a bunch of social justice warriors online!” (big laughs)

Tanya’s response to people who don’t believe in diversity is - do you not go outside or read books or turn on the news that’s not FOX?

She gave an example from Watch Dogs 2 (btw, she very publicly hated the first one and told the game creators this on their own stage). But in the second one, there was a black nerdy guy and some people were saying it was not believable. This was set in San Francisco! It’s like people can’t imagine anything outside of their own tiny bubble.

ANerdCalledRage talked about how she and Tanya are both light skinned queer black women from Chicago, so at cons people often think they’re the same person. Tanya asked - have you been called Tanya yet this weekend? ANerdCalledRage replied - not to my face...

ANerdCalledRage said she had to leave the anime fandom - she was really into Dragon Ball Z. She also doesn’t go to Wizard World anymore. One time she saw a Dragon Ball Z T-shirt and squeed about it. The white dude vendor asked “oh you get that reference?” At first she was going to excitedly explain that she did, but then she realized he was asking in a patronizing way - not like a fellow fan would. Then he asked her how she would pay for it, in an even more condescending tone.

She also relayed a story from when she went to the anime club in college - everyone kind of stopped talking and looked at her when she entered the room and a white dude even asked her if she was lost. And when she is out with her friend who is Southeast Asian who is not into anime but ANerdCalledRage herself is wearing an anime T-shirt - people will stop to talk to them but direct the questions and convo to her friend.

ANerdCalledRage asked - how do I reconcile loving something that doesn’t love me?

Mark talked about the issue of people being mistaken for other people based on race. He often gets mistaken for Daniel Jose Older, for example. And, even though Mark is Latinx, he is often read as Middle Eastern and has been mistaken for Saladin Ahmed.

Mark added that these are often very well-meaning people with a good intent to compliment these authors, but it feels like a fuck you to him. These people aren’t bothering to notice their differences and who they really are.

Tanya replied that N. K. Jemisin has been mistaken for Octavia Butler - even after Butler died. She then talked about a panel last year where a bunch of black women switched their name tents around to have some fun with the problem.

Tanya talked about how in fiction, there’s often only one brown and/or queer character and then that character has to be model minority. Queer and poc characters are ignored, infantilized, erased, etc. One example of this is Kylo/Hux being shipped much more than Finn/Poe.

ANerdCalledRage brought up the new Ghostbusters movie (Tanya jokingly gets up to leave - this is apparently a conversation they’ve had many times before lol). ANerdCalledRage talked about Leslie Jones and Kate McKinnon’s treatments by the fans. She said she is not a fan of Jones’ character in the movie - she relies too much on negative tropes for black women. But she does respect Jones’ hustle.

ANerdCalledRage made the mistake of going online when Jones was being harassed - fans of the movie were not defending her but were giving McKinnon’s character so much support and praise just for being coded queer.

Leslie Jones got to play the first black woman Ghostbuster and no one was talking about that. So while ANerdCalledRage was excited to see girls watching this movie with femme action heroes, there were upsetting things going on too.

ANerdCalledRage was invited to be on a podcast talking about the movie - she was the only black person on the podcast. She felt like she couldn’t talk specifically about the issues affecting “me and mine.”

Tanya added that she was paid to write about the new Ghostbusters. She did not like the movie. The trailer only showed Jones’ character as having these negative stereotypes. She wrote her opinion piece about how they could have easily fixed this trope, and how it was the same stuff that Ernie Hudson’s character had in the original movies. She got so much flack for that piece.

Tanya also said she got really sick of all of the Holtzman praise and especially got mad at all the straight women saying things like “I’d go gay for Holtzman!”

Mark said he got a twitter question for the panelists about how they handle people wanting solidarity on one issue while ignoring the others - examples are Agent Carter and Supergirl.

ANerdCalledRage said she’s going to make enemies but “I hate Supergirl.” (Someone in the back cheered - much laughter) She said that the show was the blandest form of second wave feminism. She tried but couldn’t get through the pilot - even with multiple attempts. The J'onn J'onzz character was unapologetically showing a large black man scaring the shit out of a tiny blonde woman and she was wondering - do they even know what they’re doing with this trope? Fuck this show!

ANerdCalledRage added - to each their own - you can like the show. But don’t push me to watch it. I won’t ask you to stop watching it or liking it, but please consider my views and feelings.

Another example is Into the Badlands - there is an Asian American assassin character and a black woman doctor love interest. There was a great trope subversion there but ... they killed her off. It’s frustrating to have to justify opinions and feelings about this stuff.

Mark talked about the whole “just give it another try” thing that fandom does. His example is The 100. Wells Jaha was such a well developed black character - but just four episodes in they kill him to give a white girl feels for one episode.

People were recommending the show for the queer characters, but having that queer representation doesn’t justify the racist stuff. Wells’ own father stops talking about him for two whole seasons. Mark sees this as just bad writing. If they’re going to pull that kind of thing in episode four - they lose his trust.

Tanya said that the single issue thing was in effect for Agent Carter too. If your show failed because they forgot that brown people have money then...

(I have in my notes that some funny conversation ensued but wow I was getting tired at this point and cannot read my own handwriting. wooops.)

An audience member asked about the Black Panther movie and not representing the lesbian characters from the comics. ANerdCalledRage talked about being excited as hell for the movie, but also really scared. Marvel’s history with erasing black creators and lack of complex black characters, especially if they have more than one marginalization.

Another audience member asked the panelists if they had any examples of calling someone in fandom out and that person actually changing. Mostly blank looks at first as they try to recall something.

Tanya mentioned one time someone on tumblr told her not use the term poc - she engaged with them and gave them resources. A week later they came back and apologized. She figures they “fell into a discourse pool and drowned.”

She said she often gets comments on twitter from people saying “I never thought about that before...” and she replies with “because you never had to.” She said she’s not online to educate her white followers. If that happens, good, but sometimes when people thank her for doing that she wants to give them her paypal link.

Mark talked about how sometimes people will tweet creators his reviews. (He said don’t do that, btw, it’s creepy and weird) But one time this happened when he was talking about some transphobic stuff in Leverage and John Rogers (I think - notes unclear but I think that’s who he was talking about) got sent the review and actually thanked Mark for bringing it up. John Green has also thanked him for bringing up issues in his work.

And audience member asked - so there’s hope? Mark replied - don’t quote me on that! But ANerdCalledRage added - we wouldn’t be doing this if we didn’t have hope.

One audience member (who I believe was a white male) admitted they were going to tell a story - Mark said no we only have 2 minutes left but the audience member continued and said - okay I’ll be brief... Tanya stepped in and said - I’m not hearing a question, so the audience member finally realized what they were doing and stopped.

(I include this to kind of illustrate a point, I guess. Someone with privilege with good intent was over-stepping and it took them a bit to figure it out, but they did eventually realize and stop. Another example of people eventually getting it??)

ANerdCalledRage talked about her concerns with the CW picking up Black Lightning. This comic story is about an older black male superhero who chooses to stop and make his family a priority. He also has two daughters who begin to have powers. So there are Two Black Female characters who are coming into their power! Now, in the comics, one of them is a lesbian - will that happen on the show?

Mark brought up a fanfic where Cap punches Nick Spencer in the face - everyone cheered loudly, and that wrapped up the panel perfectly.

#whenfandomaintfun #when fandom ain't fun #wiscon #wiscon 41 #wiscon41 #wc41 #fandom

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entamewitchlulu · 8 years ago

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Homura’s Top 15 Zexal Characters

Once again, under the cut due to length!!! Time to talk about Zexal babies <3

15. Kaito Tenjo

I have always felt like the odd one out of Zexal fans with him being so low on my list, but that’s definitely not to say that I dislike him! In fact, I’ve actually been becoming a lot more interested in him since his back story started to basically take over my Zexal rewrite haha. Kaito is a little like Kaiba for me in that I feel like he’s a very interestingly complex character. He has a lot of factors in his life that make him what he is, and that gives him layers to dig through and explore to really figure out the core of what he is. I love that he’s one of the first rivals to legitimately terrify the protagonist with his power, but he has his own brand of awkward softness to him too even with people other than Haruto once he’s free of the duty of being a Numbers Hunter. He’s a single-minded and really fucking determined and although he’s not super high on my list, I do have to appreciate him.

14. Ena

Okay but for real Ena is here because I’m gay, and also, the second they appeared I was like !!!!!! i smell fics

Anyway, I know they have like no fucking character at all, but I love them anyway. Their design is fascinating and I’m still 80% positive they were supposed to be related to Mirai somehow. I love what we do get out of them, like, they’re one of the only people actively standing up to Eliphas and going behind his back to help Yuma and Astral out of the entire Astral people, and that’s kind of badass tbh

13. Mizael

God, look at him. Just...just look at him. It should be illegal to be this fucking pretty. Beyond his a m a z i n g character design though, Mizael is just a really fascinating character. He’s the only one of the Barian who doesn’t seem to really hold any hatred or grudge; he has no actual animosity towards the others except to just think he’s superior to humans. He’s just really out to test his skills and prove himself as a dragon tamer rather than having any real devotion to the Barian cause, and I think that’s fascinating.

12. Mirai Tsukumo

Shoutout to the first real onscreen Yu-Gi-Oh mom; I know she, too, doesn’t really have any character or screen time, but I love that she was set up to be an adventurer just like Kazuma, and we get to see that she was involved with a lot of his adventures and stuff. She’s just...interesting to me, I guess.

11. Number 96 / Dark Mist

I just think ze’s a really fascinating antagonist. I loved zir introduction scene so much, like, that’s still one of my favorite Zexal episodes. Ze’s a legitimately frightening, looming sort of villain that’s in it for the shits and giggles, which is one of my guilty indulgences. Ze just wants to watch the world burn and honestly I can respect that in a villain.

10. Vector

God, this asshole. I love him but I hate him but I love him??? He’s an absolute shitstain but I can’t help but be entertained by him. He’s one of the most conniving villains in all of Yu-Gi-Oh, and I wish that I hadn’t been spoiled about his identity before it happened because I feel like I would have really been shocked by the turn around. And yet, all the tells are there, even from the beginning; they try to divert your attention by fooling you with the Barian police officer shit, but in the end, after a second rewatch it’s easy to see where he’s going with his plans, and you just have to sit there and be impressed with the writing of his character and his set up. He’s a shitlord who laughs at suffering but he’s incredibly interesting for the way he does it and his willingness to play the long-game; not to mention he is fucking hilarious and every scene he’s in is legitimately amazing.

9. Alit

Look at him, he’s fucking precious?? Not only do I heavily appreciate his basically canon bisexuality, but his character is so endearing. He’s an antagonist, but you can’t help but love him for how straightforward he is. He’s a fun-loving, punchy guy who just really wants to cross fists with someone and really throw his all into a good fight, and he’s honestly just so pure despite being technically a villain for a good chunk of the story.

8. Rio Kamishiro / Merag

Idk I’m just a sucker for the ladies I guess. Rio has just a great personality imo; I love how sassy and uptight she can be and how she just excels at everything. She knows how cool she is and she acts like she does; she won’t put herself down for anybody, and hse’s also a great and supportive friend to the people she does let in close. I like how even though she’s presented with an ice theme, she’s never once characterize as the “ice queen” trope, she’s a legitimately caring person and she doesn’t try to hide that.

7. Astral

GOD look at zir?????????? Astral is the most precious alien bby ever, like holy fuck I love zir. Astral is so cute. I love how ze slowly learns more about the world, turning from someone incredibly analytical and afraid of failure to someone who’s not afraid to take risks. I love how ze’s influenced by Yuma and Astral’s entire character arc is so precious. And anyway just look at zir cute face???

6. Ryoga Kamishiro / Nasch

first i mean just...look at his smile??????? how Pure??? Ryoga is just...he’s a good boy, okay? I love his story and his character development so much. He starts out as such an asshole, but just one encounter with Yuma reawakens the part of him that’s legitimately a good person who cares about people and wants to take care of them. Ryoga is just a very natural leader imo, something that carried over from his time as Nasch. He’s good at leading but god he doesn’t want to, and I think that’s why he tries to be such a loner, because part of him is afraid of people relying on him again. He’s a much softer heart than he pretends to be, and he doesn’t want to hurt people. I still remember his tears when he remembered he was a Barian and he realized that was going to put him at odds with Yuma and Kaito and everyone, but he couldn’t abandon the others either. He’s the kind of person who really understands responsibility, but while he’ll take it on, he also fears it? And that’s just...honestly real relatable for me. He’s a good kid, and I think it’s really fascinating in that he’s an antagonist in the end, but he’s not a villain. He and Yuma are both fundamentally good people who are forced to fight due to poor circumstances, and a lot of real life is gray like that, so it was really cool to see it shown in the series. Sometimes, no one is the bad guy, but fights still happen. Ryoga is a great example of this.

5. Kotori Mizuki

What a precious child....honestly, I love Kotori so much; she’s cheerful, supportive, and she never lets herself lose hope. She works hard and she’s more than willing to jump up to the plate if she has to, but she’s also content standing back and letting other people handle things, which I honestly relate to a lot. She’s a bright light for a lot of her friends and I think that’s inspiring.

4. Durbe

LOOK AT MY NERD HE IS SOFT AND PRECIOUS!!!! Durbe is just so good. He’s another one of those antagonists who’s not a villain, he’s just on the other side for reasons that no one can really control. I love how devoted he is to Nasch and Merag, how he’s so willing to follow them and protect them that he’s called the White Shield of Barian. I’m also a sucker for megane characters tbh.

3. Akari Tsukumo

God I love her. She’s who i project onto in this series tbh, as an older sister myself. My lil bro might not be anything like Yuma, and we might get along a little better than Akari and Yuma do, but Akari just resonates with me in a deep way because at the heart of it all, she really cares about Yuma and wants to do right by him. We don’t get to see much about her, but she has a lot of hidden threads that I find really interesting to look into; like if you think about it, she’s the sole provider for the Tsukumo household now with the parents gone. I don’t think grandma works. What kind of stress must that put on her, especially with her parents having disappeared right when she was getting out of high school? Thinking about that puts a lot of her actions in perspective to me, and I find her honestly relatable in that regard. What if it was me that was suddenly the sole provider for my little brother? It strikes me a lot, especially when I watch scenes with Akari, and I think she’s a great character that I feel comfortable projecting onto.

2. Michael Arclight

Look at my husband, he is pure and good. I love Michael a lot because honestly?? I relate to him immensely. He’s a really good person who gets excited about the things that interest him, and will talk your ear off about them if you let him. He gives everything for the sake of his family, and I honestly couldn’t blame him for going to the lengths he did, because I can’t say I wouldn’t do the same for my own family. And even after all of that, he realized what he had done wrong and was willing to do what it took to atone for that mistake. He knew what he had done was wrong and never stopped trying to make up for it--I cried a little when he showed up to protect Yuma and said he would be his sword and shield, it was so pure???

1. Yuma Tsukumo

God blessed me when he let this child exist. Yuma is everything that I want to be; he’s enthusiastic, confident in himself, never gives up, and always gets back up in the end. He just feels real to me in a way that some characters don’t. He feels like an actual child, like his actual age. He acts like a lot of thirteen year olds I actually know, and he reminds me a lot of some of my cousins, so I was almost immediately drawn to him when I finally started watching Zexal; I wanted to protect him and take care of him.

I love him for his emotions, for being able to cry in front of others and really feel things. I love him for his outgoing nature and his unwillingness to give up on anything or anyone. I love him for his forgiveness, which is so much wider and broader than anything I can do myself, and I wish sometimes that I could have as much kindness and innocence in my heart as him. He’s a shining light and I wear his necklace on the days that I need extra confidence for things. I’m so glad that I let go of my initial dislike of his character design because he’s one of the best things that has ever happened to me.

#yugioh zexal #lulu talks #tbu

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Weird webs withhold.

WW... WWW...

World war, world wide web... Webs... Spiders... And the feeling webs make, so troublesome... Psychic or energy, astral webs, etc...

Can seem to suddenly materialize into vivid intensity, like psychic entanglement, like cording, heavy and clingy and disturbing,... Intrusive...

Obsessed feelings... Or feeling overly worried about someone...

Or sensing their thoughts, feelings, etc... Far too much, more than is comfortable, perhaps heavily burdening one’s life...

Even if you like the person it can become much far too close, too close for comfort, too much lack of privacy, too in their heads, hearts, souls, emotions, issues... A confusing tangled web that turns into something much more heavy, constrictive, like wading through mire instead of light webs, annoying but trivial enough to deal with... How does it happen, and how is it that it can be lopsided, so that one person can feel it like a leaden weight while another person seems to be oblivious of the fact that their feelings, their thoughts are somehow tying up and binding others? I don’t know but it seems to me this happens sometimes. It’s not necessarily a conscious thing at all, even if a person is very developed psychically and all that... It might be that they feel light and free, harmless and innocent, just living their lives but they feel they have some connection to another, psychically... And it’s just that, just a connection, like an acquaintance, a friend, someone you care about or matter or they matter to you, in your circle of endless connections, the web of life, and degrees of separation and it’s nothing much, just a whatever, usually not even thought of... Just someone you know, a little bit...

And then to the other person it’s like intense, huge, complicated, heavy, either in a good or a bad way or both or changing between good and bad... Or confusing, just too much, too at a loss, what is this, what does it mean, what to do with it, how to interpret it... And it’s like, come on, I’m not your close friend, not your lover, not your family nor your therapist or doctor... Get rid of yourself, get away from my energy field... I don’t deserve this, don’t care, don’t even notice or think of you so what the heck? Why is it happening? When you also seem to be pretty much fine, light, breezy, not that concerned or caring or wrapped up in me, as a person, as another human being, as a friend or acquaintance, or even wishful lover of best friend, those what ifs,... Where you like someone but you don’t know if there could or might or will ever be anything much deeper, so it’s all this realm of observing from a distance, ... Still, not attached, really because you can’t be attached when it’s at that level,... Because no, you DON’T know each other... Not that much... Not enough to even really talk much so the thought that there’s some deep, attached bond is really such a huge joke... Even if there could be hope of a bond developing, maybe someday, in wonderland, in fantasy world, imaginations, subconscious, daydreams,... Because we all do need that... at least... if nothing else... We at least need the chance to have role models, who we can imagine as someone who might be someone who we could relate to... If we don’t have anyone else in the real world and real life, we at least need role models, so we can imagine and believe it might be possible to be close to someone... Or else we’ll crumple and decay and close down and withdraw because... We’re social animals... Even if we can make do with imaginary social life or even self-referencing and imagination and spirit and animals, plants, signs, symbols, gods, the voice of the world... As surrogate social substitutes... But... All that takes time to develop as a bond, as an easily accessible surrogate... and so,... Sometimes you need someone real to make you feel hope, to feel the role model sense that triggers imaginations and ideals and hopes and faith and courage and effort to try, to improve yourself, learn about yourself, to try to build for a possible future you can believe in as worth the effort, the emotional investment, and the psychic energy...

So you don’t feel flat and dry as a bone but have real emotional stimuli even if it is part illusion... But it seems to me that such surrogate or role model roles can create these big psychic bonds maybe? Where it’s affecting people more than it seems like it would, a one sided, lop sided web or cord or whatever you call the thing... And I have had it go both ways... Or sometimes, somebody seemed to be affecting me a lot, but I don’t know if they were attached to me as a surrogate something or other or whatever,...

But there have been times when I was somewhat attached to the role model persona I saw in another and they seemed heavily burdened, felt too close, too much information, psychically, they were receiving... from me, when I didn't’ intend for it to be that way for them at all... And so sometimes they got mad... Sometimes they also thought they “read things” or “sensed things” from me, and accused me thereof, when actually they were way off base and I didn’t think or feel any such thing as they thought they sensed from me...

Anyways, I think that I’m just writing all this because I realized that it’s not at all just the hm... Sexual or emotional love or affection that I fear might be uninvitedly affecting people... But also this whole kind of psychic web stuff that might feel light, innocent, protected.... Intervened between me and all else with spirit, to keep it pure and for the higher good of all... And it might be very healing and bring me so much insight and learning but somehow... I fear, what if it’s heavy, annoying, burdensome,, ominous, too close... for the other person and I had no idea... What if all my attempts and intentions and rituals to protect and keep it pure, good, light... What if it’s not working?

But again I go back to last post’s conclusion, and the one before it too... If it’s bothering them, can’t they tell me? Can they tell me? Do they even know who I am or might it actually be a mystery thing that is intrusive but vague and mysterious and an unknown being or energy? Which I hate absolutely the thought of that...

Yet based on past experience, no one except one person admitted to ever being bothered by my energy,... So what am I to do when other times I tried to ask people it only had the effect of destroying what was sacred, elaborate, intense, complex and healing of the highest order and direst need for me... What am I to do about all this when I only want to do what is right and the synchs are sometimes too much for me and confusing that make me fear I’m affecting people negatively,... But then I try to ask them and they’re all like, what are you smoking or else, they’re like, running away from me, creeped out by such a bizarre sounding situation and thinking I might stalk them or something...

When again, I’m not attached to the actual person,... Only the spirit bond... I need nothing from the person, but only want the soul I’m connecting with... And so it’s like, it seems like... I maybe ought to leave a good thing alone because it’s good for me so far...

And other times when I took the “leave a good thing alone” route, they ended up insulting and implying things but that eventually died down and felt far less painful oftentimes than the more direct communication route... And for all I know it’s all synchs so that they were not trying to imply or insult things about me and it was only subconscious or spirit making them do that when they had no idea consciously what was happening or how they were giving me these strange and bizarre signs... Because when I talk to people that is how most people seem to portray it...

Either that or else, also rather likely, they’re denying it because it’s too weird and they don’t wanna go there so they act like nothing’s going on with them even though it is... Maybe they don’t like the real me and want to stay away and not feed this strange connection... Heck, I don’t know.

But I just wish it all made more sense, seemed more clear and clean and cut and dry, easily healable closure and the pain, the cuts easy to heal, if there must be cuts, pain, misunderstandings or being misaligned to each other and affecting each other in awkward ways... Then why can’t we just leave it at that and let go without dragging each other through insult, drama, accusation, character attack, guilt trips, rejection,... Just say “we are not on the same wavelength”...

We don’t relate. It’s just life and some people don’t relate. We’re not all social butterflies, relating to everyone... I relate to so few people that it would be very strange for me to actually relate, so no one ought to get offended by my not relating or avoiding them... I try to not get offended either, by others avoiding me, just as long as basic respect and acknowledgment as a human is there...

Which often seems to not be there, from others towards me... Oh well... I try to let go and move on as long as they don’t hurl insults and put downs and condescending advice, etc,... Which can be very painful and long lingering in its trauma on my so neglected, isolated soul... So abused and rejected for decades by nearly everyone... Fed up and I can’t take anymore of it hardly... Ugh..

That is part of why I avoid people... too... I see the likelihood of being rejected and so I steer clear... It’s only self protection and self love. It’s all I can do to avoid a useless and humiliating interaction that adds nothing to my overall well being, understanding or knowledge of life. Just the same old, people can be jerks thing... Shown in many different examples and expressions of that fact, not needed.... No more fuel to the hate life, hate people or hate the world, let’s hide forever, let’s give up and hide from the world feelings... No, just go away. Before I can find more people to want to avoid, I want to avoid them so I don’t have to know I want to avoid them...

Lol Sigh. Ugh. Whatever... yeah.

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