#ValidationIsNotHappiness

[cloudycheer]

Talking, Thinking, and the Search for Happy

Worked from home today—less commuting, more reflecting. I had two appointments: a visit with the GP and then a check-in with my psychologist.

The GP part was straightforward—just gathering my medication history since 2023 to pass along to the professor. No big surprises there. But the psychologist? That’s always a different kind of journey.

Every time I go in thinking, “I don’t have much to say today,” and 45 minutes later I’ve practically given a TED Talk on my thoughts. I’m honestly wondering if I should start recording these sessions—not to share, just so I can revisit the insights later. He gives good advice and knows how to challenge the way I think without making me feel small.

Is it weird to want to record your own session? Is that even allowed? I mean, it’s my voice, my story... but still, probably best to ask.

My big takeaway today? I need to find what makes me happy. Real, lasting happy. Not validation—which I chase like candy—but joy that’s mine, not borrowed from praise.

Still cloudy, still learning. —Cloudy Cheer 🌧🧠